Disturbed marriage
Rajiv came home that day.He was so relieved that it was finally over.His wife wanted to go out for trip and she was irritating him for days.His marriage was one failed marriage but still they were dragging it because they didn't dare to divorce. Rajiv didn't know Priya's cause but in his case he didn't want to face society in such hard situation.He felt that going ahead with this troubled marriage but no one was able to guess it.It was fine for him and until now even Priya didn't complaint about it.He hoped that it would stay this way. Rajiv wanted that cover for whole life.But inside he felt that his mind was not happy.Some thing was missing.He felt that some day if Priya decided to take divorce then how would he face society.What would people think about it.He was so scared.He just wanted to keep Priya in his house but then he just felt that those things which was so important inside life.He was doing every thing to keep it that way.He was trying so hard inside life.But still he didn't able to feel satisfied.Then he looked at his watch.He was getting late.He started preparing for office and on that moment.Suddenly his ink fall on his carpet.He was so upset.Those drops which were so ugly by moment and by moment.He was looking carpet which had drops.It felt so wrong.He knew that he must ignore them.But he saw those drops were causing dirt on every moment then on that carpet.He saw that ugly drop which was horrible.Then those horrible drops which were totally wrong on every point inside life.But it was on carpet.He was getting late on that moment.Then he felt that those drops which were so nice on every moment.He just felt that he had to remove carpet.He felt that he must did it.He remembered words of his mother about cleanliness.His mother used to tell him to clean room.He suddenly remembered those days.Those days were really bringing happiness to him.But then suddenly he had one thought from mind. Only if he could stay in those days in life.He just had one feeling from mind.That if he went to office late then his job would be gone and it would be worst for him. Rajiv was looking at that carpet but still he ran out for office because while dropping Priya to that bus stand.He had wasted too much time.Still Priya was complaining that she just got bus.She wanted one private AC car but Rajiv didn't manage to arrange it so she was taunting him all time. Rajv was so upset by all this.He just wanted to keep her happy and most important to keep her inside life.Since he didn't want divorce inside life. Rajiv was planning every accordingly inside life.He just wanted money and he had to ran to office for it.
That day even when he went to office,he just kept thinking about that drop.He had a feeling that it was bad omen inside life.He felt one thing from every point because those things which were so nice on every point.He thought that carpet which were looking so dirty on every point.That carpet was really looking so different inside life.He felt that something bad had happened inside his life.That carpet was having dark drop. Rajiv was so scared inside life.He felt that carpet which would look so wrong inside life.He started convincing him from inside mind.He was thinking in wrong way.He slowly got convinced and started working when suddenly some one came running inside and told that one of their colleague was serious due to heart trouble. Rajiv was upset so his intuitions were true.It was really happening He just could believe it.He started looking around.He sensed that he must had to go to home and clean that thing.But he knew that it was just his superstition so he started concentrating on his work.He started doing it when he suddenly felt that his hand were shivering.He could feel that he was so scared.He didn't want to look that upset.But then his hands started beating on table which was so strange.He had never done it.But he was so scared today.That he began to do it.Suddenly every one of office started looking at him accusingly.He was making so loud noise that he was upsetting others.He stopped himself after that.But he could feel that he was shivering from inside as if he was standing on some ice mountain.He was so scared that he was catching cold.He was sure that it was due to that mark.He just stood up and ran to boss.He wanted to explain boss every thing.But boss seemed convinced easily because those things would upset all colleagues.He could see that every one was looking at him.When he told boss that he was getting sick.Boss felt that he wanted to reduce noise pollution so he agreed .Rajiv was happy but then suddenly boss called him.Boss"Rajiv you can't go away for whole day.Why don't you just visit Doctor and come back?"Rajiv's hope shattered.But he had never hoped more than that but still when Boss nodded.He felt hope which shattered.He had to ran to home.Then he shampooed that carpet for long time.Finally that mark was gone then he ran to bathroom and started washing it.Those carpet were having dark mark.But then he saw that carpet had mark on it.It was looking so ugly and wrong.He was so tired.He was trying to wash that carpet had big mark.That carpet was looking so pretty.After that mark he saw that mark of carpet was gone.There was one mark on carpet.He finally saw that it was washed.That carpet was clean and perfect.He was shocked.He had spend so many hours in just washing that carpet.He decided to go to office.After some time he went to office.He was so exhausted but still he was feeling fine from heart.He did his work perfectly.He felt that he liked cleanliness.He felt that it was okay.
From that day Rajiv started cleaning his house with his own hand.He didn't need carpet to be dirty.After all those carpets were no more having those dark stains.Since Rajiv had just removed carpet from home.He could easily clean floor now.It was so easy that with disinfectants.He liked it.Then he started feeling okay.But then that morning suddenly he heard noise.It was his morning paper.He was about to pick it when he noticed that boy who had thrown it.He felt that this boy was not that much clean.Suddenly he felt that paper was not that much clean.He couldn't even clean it with water.He knew that it would remain in same way so he just pushed it outside near corner of house.It was looking so disgusting to him.He decided that he would throw it so he just threw it in dustbin.Every thing was perfect when he went out that day to office.That day was perfect. Rajiv was so satisfied with every thing.He was keeping every thing perfect and every one liked his way of working because he could find every file just as per every one's wish.It was perfect inside his world. But then after some days Priya returned from picnic with children.When she came on that moment,she was happy.But as soon as she saw Rajiv's face,she looked upset.Priya"That arrangement was not that much proper.I have to handle it all alone.It was so hard.."She kept telling him that what was wrong with every thing.It was clear to him that she was not upset by trip but by his face.She was never in love with him after 2 years of marriage but now he felt that she just hated his face.When they finally reached to home,Priya screamed"Where is my carpet?""It was catching dirt so I just throw it away.""Throw it away?Are you mad? It was so costly.I have spend so much money on it.You can't just throw it away.I just didn't understand.How could you do that?"Priya looked around house.It was shining like some glass."What are you doing?Our house is looking too clean.""I am just keeping it clean."So when Priya entered Rajiv left that troubles started in his paradise.Children just kept throwing things around. Rajiv had to clean house for at least three or four times.He just kept screaming on children that they must keep it clean which lead to lot of crying. Priya was so upset.Slowly Rajiv began to see that there are finger prints on door latch and spoons.He was so scared.It must be dirty.He started to stay away from paper.But Priya picked it up and put it on table. Rajiv was so angry. Rajiv"Why did you put that paper here?Now I have to wash table.""What?Why did you wash table?""Paper is dirty."Priya picked paper and started searching on pages. Priya "It is fine."She looked at him with strange expressions."You were impossible before but you are getting more and more impossible now.I just don't understand.Why are you trying to keep every thing that much clean?""Because I feel that cleanliness is most important thing.Look at those germs.They are so disgusting."Children were listening to this all and they also looked scared. Priya"Now don't put those strange ideas in brain of our kids.Listen to me Dad is just joking."But children were scared and they just left every thing and hugged Priya. Priya started looking at Rajiv accusingly.
Slowly Rajiv's love for cleanliness forced him to wake up at 4 o'clock because he wanted to wash whole house and then go to office.In fact even in his office people started looking at him in strange way because he was now wearing hand gloves because he didn't want to touch those paper.When his friends asked about it,he just said that his hand was hurt but things were not going ahead properly.Every one sensed that some thing was wrong.But then worst thing started to happened slowly his son Gopal started to follow him like Rajiv. He started washing his hands again and again.One day they were called by school teacher who noticed Rajiv's hand gloves immediately.Teacher"What happen to your hands?""They got hurt while cutting fruits.""Both hands."Now Rajiv was confused.He knew that his lie was caught.Then Priya started her usual drama. Priya started telling"This is happening every day.Actually Rajiv is so strange.He always loved cleaning even on our honey moon.He was not ready to buy street peanuts.He just wanted us to eat in luxurious hotels while his salary is so less.We can hardly effort to wander after that..."Then she started telling how much troubles Rajiv had created for her.He was listening to all this. Rajiv knew that his obsession with cleanliness had created troubles in their marriage but it was not only cause. Priya never liked him that much.He could sense that she wanted to stay away from him as much as possible.From beginning she just kept complaining about every thing.It started from his house.She had guessed in wrong way about his income.He was not that much rich.But she thought that since his father had money then he must be rich.But truth was that every thing had gone wrong all his father's money was gone in just one wrong deal so when Priya married that money was already gone.From beginning Priya was demanding regarding things while she claimed that Rajiv didn't given her peanuts.Actual trouble was that Rajiv didn't able to give her that diamond ring in marriage which she hoped.Her hopes were shattered and then she started pointing out his mistakes.He was getting humiliated on each day.He felt that she was literally stuck in that marriage.He wanted to set her free sometimes.But he was scared of public opinion.Rajiv felt that now this teacher would turn attention to Rajiv's wrong attitude but instead of that she turned to Rajiv and asked"Why don't you visit psychiatrist?""Psychiatrist?""Yes.I feel you are having actual problem and Gopal is just imitating you.If your problem is solved. Gopal will be cured."Priya"That's it.So Rajiv is even cause for this.I just don't.."Teacher"Will you stop blaming every thing on your husband?It is not going to help you or him?"Priya was so shocked by angry comment of that teacher that she just kept quiet."Then that teacher gave number to Rajiv. Rajiv suddenly felt that he could breath now.Until that moment he just never understood when he hold his breath.It was really relief.He decided to take teacher's advice and visit that psychiatrist.
At first Rajiv told every thing to his psychiatrist.Psychiatrist"So you are tense regarding getting divorce.Why are you so scared of people?""Every one is scared.People talk about us.When my father failed they talked,my Mom used to cry at night with me.We need to do many compromises in life and in return we got nothing but just moderate income.My father was not stupid but my Mom used to say that he was never clean and tidy person.She used to tell me that I should not follow him.I was also same way so when you are not tidy.Then you suffer."Rajiv said it and then looked confused."I don't mean it that way I am just confused."Psychiatrist gave gentle smile and said"Come on.We are friends here.No need to apologize.Just say as you wish.So you are scared that people will talk again."Rajiv nodded."But tell me one thing.Do you feel that they will not talk against you if you don't get divorce?""They will.But it will be worst.""What is worst?Tell me.""That they laugh on me like they use to at that time.""But if they laugh on you,do you really feel that if you adjust every thing goes fine.Then they will not laugh on you.I mean.I saw that people like to make joke of every one even Miss Universe and Prime minister were not spared so why should you care?I mean we are just simple human being.Those people who taunt on you have some problem inside.Even if you act perfectly still they taunt and who told you that Priya wanted divorce.I feel that maybe she would adjust and even if she don't still she can keep nice relationship with you.That will solve your problem.If you do too much then it all will goes in wrong way.""So you feel that I should get divorce.""No..No.I feel that you should give your marriage a chance without feeling any kind of pressure of making it successful then you can see it will blooms.It is possible that it is just nature of your wife that she will complain.That doesn't mean she don't love you.Have you ever discuss this with her?"First time Rajiv felt that he had never discussed this with Priya.He never asked her.What did she feel about him? because he was scared of answer.But that Psychiatrist suggested him that he should do it.If she rejected him then he could accept it.But if she didn't then he would know where he stood in his relation.Psychiatrist told him that he was suffering obsessive-compulsive Disorder due to his childhood experiences and disturbed marriage. Psychiatrist told him that how did he suppose to handle those mood of cleanliness.For some time he had to fight hard against them but slowly they were reduced.But one day finally he decided to give his marriage a chance.He just asked Priya "Priya do you love me?"Priya looked at him with same irritating expression and said "Of course.Now will you.."She started her complains.So Rajiv understood that his wife never hated him.It was just wrong concept of this thoughts.Priya just loved Rajiv as well as complaining so he had to adjust with it.Rajiv smiled at his stupidity and ran to office because he had to drop Gopal at school before going to office.Since he wanted to thank that teacher for saving his marriage and life.He took that responsibility of dropping Gopal himself for that day.
The End
Rajiv came home that day.He was so relieved that it was finally over.His wife wanted to go out for trip and she was irritating him for days.His marriage was one failed marriage but still they were dragging it because they didn't dare to divorce. Rajiv didn't know Priya's cause but in his case he didn't want to face society in such hard situation.He felt that going ahead with this troubled marriage but no one was able to guess it.It was fine for him and until now even Priya didn't complaint about it.He hoped that it would stay this way. Rajiv wanted that cover for whole life.But inside he felt that his mind was not happy.Some thing was missing.He felt that some day if Priya decided to take divorce then how would he face society.What would people think about it.He was so scared.He just wanted to keep Priya in his house but then he just felt that those things which was so important inside life.He was doing every thing to keep it that way.He was trying so hard inside life.But still he didn't able to feel satisfied.Then he looked at his watch.He was getting late.He started preparing for office and on that moment.Suddenly his ink fall on his carpet.He was so upset.Those drops which were so ugly by moment and by moment.He was looking carpet which had drops.It felt so wrong.He knew that he must ignore them.But he saw those drops were causing dirt on every moment then on that carpet.He saw that ugly drop which was horrible.Then those horrible drops which were totally wrong on every point inside life.But it was on carpet.He was getting late on that moment.Then he felt that those drops which were so nice on every moment.He just felt that he had to remove carpet.He felt that he must did it.He remembered words of his mother about cleanliness.His mother used to tell him to clean room.He suddenly remembered those days.Those days were really bringing happiness to him.But then suddenly he had one thought from mind. Only if he could stay in those days in life.He just had one feeling from mind.That if he went to office late then his job would be gone and it would be worst for him. Rajiv was looking at that carpet but still he ran out for office because while dropping Priya to that bus stand.He had wasted too much time.Still Priya was complaining that she just got bus.She wanted one private AC car but Rajiv didn't manage to arrange it so she was taunting him all time. Rajv was so upset by all this.He just wanted to keep her happy and most important to keep her inside life.Since he didn't want divorce inside life. Rajiv was planning every accordingly inside life.He just wanted money and he had to ran to office for it.
That day even when he went to office,he just kept thinking about that drop.He had a feeling that it was bad omen inside life.He felt one thing from every point because those things which were so nice on every point.He thought that carpet which were looking so dirty on every point.That carpet was really looking so different inside life.He felt that something bad had happened inside his life.That carpet was having dark drop. Rajiv was so scared inside life.He felt that carpet which would look so wrong inside life.He started convincing him from inside mind.He was thinking in wrong way.He slowly got convinced and started working when suddenly some one came running inside and told that one of their colleague was serious due to heart trouble. Rajiv was upset so his intuitions were true.It was really happening He just could believe it.He started looking around.He sensed that he must had to go to home and clean that thing.But he knew that it was just his superstition so he started concentrating on his work.He started doing it when he suddenly felt that his hand were shivering.He could feel that he was so scared.He didn't want to look that upset.But then his hands started beating on table which was so strange.He had never done it.But he was so scared today.That he began to do it.Suddenly every one of office started looking at him accusingly.He was making so loud noise that he was upsetting others.He stopped himself after that.But he could feel that he was shivering from inside as if he was standing on some ice mountain.He was so scared that he was catching cold.He was sure that it was due to that mark.He just stood up and ran to boss.He wanted to explain boss every thing.But boss seemed convinced easily because those things would upset all colleagues.He could see that every one was looking at him.When he told boss that he was getting sick.Boss felt that he wanted to reduce noise pollution so he agreed .Rajiv was happy but then suddenly boss called him.Boss"Rajiv you can't go away for whole day.Why don't you just visit Doctor and come back?"Rajiv's hope shattered.But he had never hoped more than that but still when Boss nodded.He felt hope which shattered.He had to ran to home.Then he shampooed that carpet for long time.Finally that mark was gone then he ran to bathroom and started washing it.Those carpet were having dark mark.But then he saw that carpet had mark on it.It was looking so ugly and wrong.He was so tired.He was trying to wash that carpet had big mark.That carpet was looking so pretty.After that mark he saw that mark of carpet was gone.There was one mark on carpet.He finally saw that it was washed.That carpet was clean and perfect.He was shocked.He had spend so many hours in just washing that carpet.He decided to go to office.After some time he went to office.He was so exhausted but still he was feeling fine from heart.He did his work perfectly.He felt that he liked cleanliness.He felt that it was okay.
From that day Rajiv started cleaning his house with his own hand.He didn't need carpet to be dirty.After all those carpets were no more having those dark stains.Since Rajiv had just removed carpet from home.He could easily clean floor now.It was so easy that with disinfectants.He liked it.Then he started feeling okay.But then that morning suddenly he heard noise.It was his morning paper.He was about to pick it when he noticed that boy who had thrown it.He felt that this boy was not that much clean.Suddenly he felt that paper was not that much clean.He couldn't even clean it with water.He knew that it would remain in same way so he just pushed it outside near corner of house.It was looking so disgusting to him.He decided that he would throw it so he just threw it in dustbin.Every thing was perfect when he went out that day to office.That day was perfect. Rajiv was so satisfied with every thing.He was keeping every thing perfect and every one liked his way of working because he could find every file just as per every one's wish.It was perfect inside his world. But then after some days Priya returned from picnic with children.When she came on that moment,she was happy.But as soon as she saw Rajiv's face,she looked upset.Priya"That arrangement was not that much proper.I have to handle it all alone.It was so hard.."She kept telling him that what was wrong with every thing.It was clear to him that she was not upset by trip but by his face.She was never in love with him after 2 years of marriage but now he felt that she just hated his face.When they finally reached to home,Priya screamed"Where is my carpet?""It was catching dirt so I just throw it away.""Throw it away?Are you mad? It was so costly.I have spend so much money on it.You can't just throw it away.I just didn't understand.How could you do that?"Priya looked around house.It was shining like some glass."What are you doing?Our house is looking too clean.""I am just keeping it clean."So when Priya entered Rajiv left that troubles started in his paradise.Children just kept throwing things around. Rajiv had to clean house for at least three or four times.He just kept screaming on children that they must keep it clean which lead to lot of crying. Priya was so upset.Slowly Rajiv began to see that there are finger prints on door latch and spoons.He was so scared.It must be dirty.He started to stay away from paper.But Priya picked it up and put it on table. Rajiv was so angry. Rajiv"Why did you put that paper here?Now I have to wash table.""What?Why did you wash table?""Paper is dirty."Priya picked paper and started searching on pages. Priya "It is fine."She looked at him with strange expressions."You were impossible before but you are getting more and more impossible now.I just don't understand.Why are you trying to keep every thing that much clean?""Because I feel that cleanliness is most important thing.Look at those germs.They are so disgusting."Children were listening to this all and they also looked scared. Priya"Now don't put those strange ideas in brain of our kids.Listen to me Dad is just joking."But children were scared and they just left every thing and hugged Priya. Priya started looking at Rajiv accusingly.
Slowly Rajiv's love for cleanliness forced him to wake up at 4 o'clock because he wanted to wash whole house and then go to office.In fact even in his office people started looking at him in strange way because he was now wearing hand gloves because he didn't want to touch those paper.When his friends asked about it,he just said that his hand was hurt but things were not going ahead properly.Every one sensed that some thing was wrong.But then worst thing started to happened slowly his son Gopal started to follow him like Rajiv. He started washing his hands again and again.One day they were called by school teacher who noticed Rajiv's hand gloves immediately.Teacher"What happen to your hands?""They got hurt while cutting fruits.""Both hands."Now Rajiv was confused.He knew that his lie was caught.Then Priya started her usual drama. Priya started telling"This is happening every day.Actually Rajiv is so strange.He always loved cleaning even on our honey moon.He was not ready to buy street peanuts.He just wanted us to eat in luxurious hotels while his salary is so less.We can hardly effort to wander after that..."Then she started telling how much troubles Rajiv had created for her.He was listening to all this. Rajiv knew that his obsession with cleanliness had created troubles in their marriage but it was not only cause. Priya never liked him that much.He could sense that she wanted to stay away from him as much as possible.From beginning she just kept complaining about every thing.It started from his house.She had guessed in wrong way about his income.He was not that much rich.But she thought that since his father had money then he must be rich.But truth was that every thing had gone wrong all his father's money was gone in just one wrong deal so when Priya married that money was already gone.From beginning Priya was demanding regarding things while she claimed that Rajiv didn't given her peanuts.Actual trouble was that Rajiv didn't able to give her that diamond ring in marriage which she hoped.Her hopes were shattered and then she started pointing out his mistakes.He was getting humiliated on each day.He felt that she was literally stuck in that marriage.He wanted to set her free sometimes.But he was scared of public opinion.Rajiv felt that now this teacher would turn attention to Rajiv's wrong attitude but instead of that she turned to Rajiv and asked"Why don't you visit psychiatrist?""Psychiatrist?""Yes.I feel you are having actual problem and Gopal is just imitating you.If your problem is solved. Gopal will be cured."Priya"That's it.So Rajiv is even cause for this.I just don't.."Teacher"Will you stop blaming every thing on your husband?It is not going to help you or him?"Priya was so shocked by angry comment of that teacher that she just kept quiet."Then that teacher gave number to Rajiv. Rajiv suddenly felt that he could breath now.Until that moment he just never understood when he hold his breath.It was really relief.He decided to take teacher's advice and visit that psychiatrist.
At first Rajiv told every thing to his psychiatrist.Psychiatrist"So you are tense regarding getting divorce.Why are you so scared of people?""Every one is scared.People talk about us.When my father failed they talked,my Mom used to cry at night with me.We need to do many compromises in life and in return we got nothing but just moderate income.My father was not stupid but my Mom used to say that he was never clean and tidy person.She used to tell me that I should not follow him.I was also same way so when you are not tidy.Then you suffer."Rajiv said it and then looked confused."I don't mean it that way I am just confused."Psychiatrist gave gentle smile and said"Come on.We are friends here.No need to apologize.Just say as you wish.So you are scared that people will talk again."Rajiv nodded."But tell me one thing.Do you feel that they will not talk against you if you don't get divorce?""They will.But it will be worst.""What is worst?Tell me.""That they laugh on me like they use to at that time.""But if they laugh on you,do you really feel that if you adjust every thing goes fine.Then they will not laugh on you.I mean.I saw that people like to make joke of every one even Miss Universe and Prime minister were not spared so why should you care?I mean we are just simple human being.Those people who taunt on you have some problem inside.Even if you act perfectly still they taunt and who told you that Priya wanted divorce.I feel that maybe she would adjust and even if she don't still she can keep nice relationship with you.That will solve your problem.If you do too much then it all will goes in wrong way.""So you feel that I should get divorce.""No..No.I feel that you should give your marriage a chance without feeling any kind of pressure of making it successful then you can see it will blooms.It is possible that it is just nature of your wife that she will complain.That doesn't mean she don't love you.Have you ever discuss this with her?"First time Rajiv felt that he had never discussed this with Priya.He never asked her.What did she feel about him? because he was scared of answer.But that Psychiatrist suggested him that he should do it.If she rejected him then he could accept it.But if she didn't then he would know where he stood in his relation.Psychiatrist told him that he was suffering obsessive-compulsive Disorder due to his childhood experiences and disturbed marriage. Psychiatrist told him that how did he suppose to handle those mood of cleanliness.For some time he had to fight hard against them but slowly they were reduced.But one day finally he decided to give his marriage a chance.He just asked Priya "Priya do you love me?"Priya looked at him with same irritating expression and said "Of course.Now will you.."She started her complains.So Rajiv understood that his wife never hated him.It was just wrong concept of this thoughts.Priya just loved Rajiv as well as complaining so he had to adjust with it.Rajiv smiled at his stupidity and ran to office because he had to drop Gopal at school before going to office.Since he wanted to thank that teacher for saving his marriage and life.He took that responsibility of dropping Gopal himself for that day.
The End
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