Alone
As normally Hemant made his coffee and toast.He was sitting on his dinner table which was in kitchen.His home was small but perfect for him.There were just two rooms.But Hemant found it quite comfortable.After all he didn't need more place after his wife died and his son went to live separately.His son Mukesh was calling him many times now because he wanted Hemant to shift with him.Hemant just didn't like this idea.He was comfortable alone in this house.After all he couldn't forget those days when his wife was alive how did his daughter-in-law fought with her.Hemant knew that his house was small but his wife Reema was such nice lady.But his daughter-in-law Kiran always treated her in worst way so Hemant never wanted to stay with them.He was happy with his lifestyle.He could stay just as he wished without interference of any one in life.He was doing jogging outside as much as he liked then he came and ate his breakfast.In case of food he had arranged his tiffin.He loved to live alone and that was what he wanted.He knew that if he wanted to feel relaxed in his old age.He was about to go for bath when his door bell rang.Hemant was irritated.He didn't want any interruption in his schedule but sadly life didn't turn as he wished it.But after some time Hemant opened the door.Mukesh was outside.Hemant got more upset to see him.He always blamed Mukesh for sorrow which Reema felt in her last days.He just hated to see his face but Mukesh was not ready to listen to him.Mukesh"Dad you are too old to stay alone like this.I feel concern about you.""I am just fine.Will you live me alone?""I just feel something is not right inside your life.""And what is it?""That you are not missing me."Mukesh started laughing.Hemant decided to ignore him.Hemant couldn't like those jokes inside life.Now a days he was just ignoring Mukesh.But then suddenly his grand daughter came ahead.Hemant loved his grand daughter more than anything so he hugged her.He started talking sweetly with her.Then they played sometime.But after sometime Mukesh told him that he had to go to work.Hemant said roughly"As you wish."Then Mukesh went away in his car.Hemant was so happy that his grand daughter was going to stay with him.His sweet grand daughter Shruti was his biggest happiness.
For long time Hemant waited for Mukesh because he supposed to come to take away his daughter.But no one came.Finally Hemant shared his dinner with Shruti and she went to sleep.He liked it when Shruti stayed with him.But today it was really strange.he knew that tomorrow Shruti had to go to school.But still Mukesh didn't came to take her.He could take care of Shruti but how could he do it without planning.In fact he didn't made any arrangements regarding it.He didn't want more responsibilities now.He wanted to live happy retired life.He could play with his grand daughter for some time but they couldn't just keep her with him without even consulting.He was so angry.He wanted to talk with Mukesh but his phone was not working.He was so upset that once he thought that he should talk with Kiran.But then he cancelled that idea.He didn't want to talk with that woman so he decided to wait.But after waiting for some time he was upset that he was about to call Kiran.When phone rang and Hemant ran towards it.An unknown person was talking"Can I talk to Mr Hemant?""Yes I am speaking.""Well I am Mukesh's neighbour..."Hemant was so tense when he sensed that something was wrong.Hemant"What is it?Just tell me.""Actually your son is serious.""Where is he?In which hospital?""Actually he is in home.."Hemant suddenly felt that something was wrong.If his son was serious then he should be in hospital.He was about to say it when he suddenly understood everything.His son was dead.He felt so helpless.He just didn't want to talk.He just felt as if suddenly air went out of his life and he was just without soul.He just kept looking at nothing for long time.The person on other side was screaming.But Hemant didn't seem to hear him.Hemant felt as if he was far away.He just kept sitting there.Slowly he lost sense of time,he just kept sitting there for hours.He didn't feel anything.He didn't felt when his relatives opened his door with duplicate key.He didn't feel when they took Shruti with them.He didn't even oppose when doctor checked him and gave him an injection,he just did as they forced him to do and finally he slept quietly.
Next day Hemant was so upset but still he had to face it all.They told him that his was died in a car accident.Hemant didn't want to ask any questions but then when he was told and he did every thing as he was told.It was horrible but he was just turned into stone.He had to do it while taking away Mukesh's body.He noticed that his daughter-in-law was looking at every thing with strange shock as if she didn't believe it.Then suddenly she started screaming angrily that this was all wrong and this should not happen with her.Her scream were so strange and many times she was looking at Hemant in a such way that Hemant felt as if she was blaming him for all this.Hemant was so upset after all it was not his mistake.He just wanted to live alone and Mukesh wanted to take him to stay with him.But he didn't want so he didn't come.Hemant just didn't want to have that guilt so he started avoiding looking at his daughter-in-law.He thanked god that at least his grand daughter Shruti was looking at him with tears and hugging him.At least his grand daughter was not blaming him.It was great relief for him.Then Mukesh's body was taken.Hemant was doing it all.He felt as if he was far away from his body somewhere in totally different place when Mukesh was just small kid and they were all enjoying picnic.Then he suddenly felt that none those person was alive except him.It was horrible.Hemant started crying then slowly people around him started patting on his shoulder.He had to do it.He read it in their expression so he did each and every thing.But it was worst burning his own son was horrible.It didn't matter if he was alive or dead.Hemant felt that in both cases it was horrible.But he had to do it so he burned his own son whom he never even let get burn by hot water.Hemant was crying loudly now and all people gathered around him to support him.After that day Hemant decided in this heart that he would never visit his son's house.He was so sure that his daughter-in-law hated him.
One week was gone and Hemant once again settled in his isolated life.He wanted to talk to his grand daughter Shruti but when he remembered his daughter-in-law's angry face his thoughts were changed.Then suddenly one day he heard a knocking on his door.He went to open it.He saw shocked to see his daughter-in-law Kiran who was carrying Shruti with her.Hemant was so shocked.Suddenly Kiran screamed "Mukesh...Mukesh".Her mother was behind she tried to stop her but it seemed useless.Then Kiran went inside.Her mother came ahead.Her mother"I told her that...it is not right.She should come hear like this.But she is not in her sense.She was thinking that Mukesh is alive sometimes then once again she comes to sense.Then...""But she could stay here..""I know that ."Then her mother pointed to other lady."She is a good caretaker and companion.She will stay here and help in everything.Kiran will not be alone here.This woman will stay with her.She was once use to be nurse in hospital. Now she quit because she couldn't adjust those timings of hospital and you don't need to worry.We will pay charges.Just keep her here."Then she just began to beg him to do it.There was no option. Shruti was looking at him with hopes.Hemant had to agree.After some time Kiran came back and started looking so scared.Kiran looked at her mother and said"I know he was dead.I was just .."Then she suddenly changed the subject.Kiran suddenly started touching Hemant's feet.He was so scared that he just turned behind without thinking.She started crying."You are still upset with me.It was all my mistake..""No..No.I am not upset.""Then I can stay here."Hemant had to say yes so he nodded.Then everyone settled inside Hemant's small home.That maid was clearly upset.When Kiran went out of sight.She turned to Hemant and asked"Why are we not staying in your big home?"Hemant knew that she was speaking about his son's house.He personally liked to know that why did Kiran came to live here like this.But he was so scared to ask her anything.She looked literally mad to him.After that day Hemant started lving with them all.It was really horrible.They hardly managed to get place to sleep.
After some days at night Hemant observed that Kiran was wondering around.She was not sleeping even at night.She was wondering inside house from one point to another point.She felt that it was so problematic inside their life.When she walked,Hemant couldn't sleep peacefully on ground.His sleep was disturbed from time to time inside life because on every moment went her feet move.Hemant felt that his sleep was disturbed.He just couldn't rest.Then when she was awake,it felt as if she was searching for someone.Then suddenly one day she was started screaming on Shruti because she broke her water bottle.When he looked inside and he noticed that Kiran was hitting Shruti.Hemant ran inside to stop her.Hemant angrily"Why are you hitting her?That water bottle was not even that costly."Kiran started screaming"It all happen because of your son.He drive wrong way and got killed now I had to do all this."Then she looked at Mukesh's photo and started screaming on him.At first Hemant thought it will go away but it didn't.After that months after months went ahead but Kiran just continued searching for him with eyes.She wondered in rooms.When some one asked her,she just gave excuses but Hemant knew that she was searching for Mukesh.Then every day she started screaming on his photograph.They all hoped that it would go aways but it didn't work.Every day her that act just continued.Finally she fall sick due to lack of sleep and stress.That Doctor asked Hemant "What is wrong?Why did she looked so weak?Is she eating properly?"Hemant gave sad smile and said "It was only thing.She was doing properly."Then he told Doctor every thing.Doctor"You must show her to psychiatrist.""What?My god!!""Don't be scared it's common.She will be cured soon."Then Doctor gave him number.Hemant had to argue with Kiran for hours before she agreed to go to psychiatrist.Finally Hemant told her that she had to go to psychiatrist because due to her insomania his sleep get disturbed so either she went back to her house or she could go to psychiatrist.She looked at that house with love and agreed.Then they went to psychiatrist.He heard all then explained that there were grieving process in case of such loss.Normally first step is numbing and disbelieve,anger.Hemant saw it all in Kiran.Next one was searching for dead person.Restlessness,anger towards dead person and insomania.Hemant"She was having it all for many months.""That is what cause of problem she was stuck in this stag.She was suppose to go in next one in which she accept that she was widow and she would feel sad.Only after that would come last stage when she accept it and rebuilt her new life and get over sadness.But your daughter-in-law seemed to stuck in second stag only which was creating problem.With some people it did happen.They just stuck in one stag.Don't worry.She will be fine after treatment."Then they both went out.Hemant knew that it would not be easy for them to adjust but he knew that he had ran away from all responsibilities as grand parents but now he had to take them.Because his son was dead and his daughter-in-law needed help.But some where inside his heart knew that when his daughter-in-law was cured and settled.He was to live peacefully alone again.But only if life was that long,he just wished that he could live alone again.It was not his anger.He understood now that it was his choice to live this way on every day.
The End
As normally Hemant made his coffee and toast.He was sitting on his dinner table which was in kitchen.His home was small but perfect for him.There were just two rooms.But Hemant found it quite comfortable.After all he didn't need more place after his wife died and his son went to live separately.His son Mukesh was calling him many times now because he wanted Hemant to shift with him.Hemant just didn't like this idea.He was comfortable alone in this house.After all he couldn't forget those days when his wife was alive how did his daughter-in-law fought with her.Hemant knew that his house was small but his wife Reema was such nice lady.But his daughter-in-law Kiran always treated her in worst way so Hemant never wanted to stay with them.He was happy with his lifestyle.He could stay just as he wished without interference of any one in life.He was doing jogging outside as much as he liked then he came and ate his breakfast.In case of food he had arranged his tiffin.He loved to live alone and that was what he wanted.He knew that if he wanted to feel relaxed in his old age.He was about to go for bath when his door bell rang.Hemant was irritated.He didn't want any interruption in his schedule but sadly life didn't turn as he wished it.But after some time Hemant opened the door.Mukesh was outside.Hemant got more upset to see him.He always blamed Mukesh for sorrow which Reema felt in her last days.He just hated to see his face but Mukesh was not ready to listen to him.Mukesh"Dad you are too old to stay alone like this.I feel concern about you.""I am just fine.Will you live me alone?""I just feel something is not right inside your life.""And what is it?""That you are not missing me."Mukesh started laughing.Hemant decided to ignore him.Hemant couldn't like those jokes inside life.Now a days he was just ignoring Mukesh.But then suddenly his grand daughter came ahead.Hemant loved his grand daughter more than anything so he hugged her.He started talking sweetly with her.Then they played sometime.But after sometime Mukesh told him that he had to go to work.Hemant said roughly"As you wish."Then Mukesh went away in his car.Hemant was so happy that his grand daughter was going to stay with him.His sweet grand daughter Shruti was his biggest happiness.
For long time Hemant waited for Mukesh because he supposed to come to take away his daughter.But no one came.Finally Hemant shared his dinner with Shruti and she went to sleep.He liked it when Shruti stayed with him.But today it was really strange.he knew that tomorrow Shruti had to go to school.But still Mukesh didn't came to take her.He could take care of Shruti but how could he do it without planning.In fact he didn't made any arrangements regarding it.He didn't want more responsibilities now.He wanted to live happy retired life.He could play with his grand daughter for some time but they couldn't just keep her with him without even consulting.He was so angry.He wanted to talk with Mukesh but his phone was not working.He was so upset that once he thought that he should talk with Kiran.But then he cancelled that idea.He didn't want to talk with that woman so he decided to wait.But after waiting for some time he was upset that he was about to call Kiran.When phone rang and Hemant ran towards it.An unknown person was talking"Can I talk to Mr Hemant?""Yes I am speaking.""Well I am Mukesh's neighbour..."Hemant was so tense when he sensed that something was wrong.Hemant"What is it?Just tell me.""Actually your son is serious.""Where is he?In which hospital?""Actually he is in home.."Hemant suddenly felt that something was wrong.If his son was serious then he should be in hospital.He was about to say it when he suddenly understood everything.His son was dead.He felt so helpless.He just didn't want to talk.He just felt as if suddenly air went out of his life and he was just without soul.He just kept looking at nothing for long time.The person on other side was screaming.But Hemant didn't seem to hear him.Hemant felt as if he was far away.He just kept sitting there.Slowly he lost sense of time,he just kept sitting there for hours.He didn't feel anything.He didn't felt when his relatives opened his door with duplicate key.He didn't feel when they took Shruti with them.He didn't even oppose when doctor checked him and gave him an injection,he just did as they forced him to do and finally he slept quietly.
Next day Hemant was so upset but still he had to face it all.They told him that his was died in a car accident.Hemant didn't want to ask any questions but then when he was told and he did every thing as he was told.It was horrible but he was just turned into stone.He had to do it while taking away Mukesh's body.He noticed that his daughter-in-law was looking at every thing with strange shock as if she didn't believe it.Then suddenly she started screaming angrily that this was all wrong and this should not happen with her.Her scream were so strange and many times she was looking at Hemant in a such way that Hemant felt as if she was blaming him for all this.Hemant was so upset after all it was not his mistake.He just wanted to live alone and Mukesh wanted to take him to stay with him.But he didn't want so he didn't come.Hemant just didn't want to have that guilt so he started avoiding looking at his daughter-in-law.He thanked god that at least his grand daughter Shruti was looking at him with tears and hugging him.At least his grand daughter was not blaming him.It was great relief for him.Then Mukesh's body was taken.Hemant was doing it all.He felt as if he was far away from his body somewhere in totally different place when Mukesh was just small kid and they were all enjoying picnic.Then he suddenly felt that none those person was alive except him.It was horrible.Hemant started crying then slowly people around him started patting on his shoulder.He had to do it.He read it in their expression so he did each and every thing.But it was worst burning his own son was horrible.It didn't matter if he was alive or dead.Hemant felt that in both cases it was horrible.But he had to do it so he burned his own son whom he never even let get burn by hot water.Hemant was crying loudly now and all people gathered around him to support him.After that day Hemant decided in this heart that he would never visit his son's house.He was so sure that his daughter-in-law hated him.
One week was gone and Hemant once again settled in his isolated life.He wanted to talk to his grand daughter Shruti but when he remembered his daughter-in-law's angry face his thoughts were changed.Then suddenly one day he heard a knocking on his door.He went to open it.He saw shocked to see his daughter-in-law Kiran who was carrying Shruti with her.Hemant was so shocked.Suddenly Kiran screamed "Mukesh...Mukesh".Her mother was behind she tried to stop her but it seemed useless.Then Kiran went inside.Her mother came ahead.Her mother"I told her that...it is not right.She should come hear like this.But she is not in her sense.She was thinking that Mukesh is alive sometimes then once again she comes to sense.Then...""But she could stay here..""I know that ."Then her mother pointed to other lady."She is a good caretaker and companion.She will stay here and help in everything.Kiran will not be alone here.This woman will stay with her.She was once use to be nurse in hospital. Now she quit because she couldn't adjust those timings of hospital and you don't need to worry.We will pay charges.Just keep her here."Then she just began to beg him to do it.There was no option. Shruti was looking at him with hopes.Hemant had to agree.After some time Kiran came back and started looking so scared.Kiran looked at her mother and said"I know he was dead.I was just .."Then she suddenly changed the subject.Kiran suddenly started touching Hemant's feet.He was so scared that he just turned behind without thinking.She started crying."You are still upset with me.It was all my mistake..""No..No.I am not upset.""Then I can stay here."Hemant had to say yes so he nodded.Then everyone settled inside Hemant's small home.That maid was clearly upset.When Kiran went out of sight.She turned to Hemant and asked"Why are we not staying in your big home?"Hemant knew that she was speaking about his son's house.He personally liked to know that why did Kiran came to live here like this.But he was so scared to ask her anything.She looked literally mad to him.After that day Hemant started lving with them all.It was really horrible.They hardly managed to get place to sleep.
After some days at night Hemant observed that Kiran was wondering around.She was not sleeping even at night.She was wondering inside house from one point to another point.She felt that it was so problematic inside their life.When she walked,Hemant couldn't sleep peacefully on ground.His sleep was disturbed from time to time inside life because on every moment went her feet move.Hemant felt that his sleep was disturbed.He just couldn't rest.Then when she was awake,it felt as if she was searching for someone.Then suddenly one day she was started screaming on Shruti because she broke her water bottle.When he looked inside and he noticed that Kiran was hitting Shruti.Hemant ran inside to stop her.Hemant angrily"Why are you hitting her?That water bottle was not even that costly."Kiran started screaming"It all happen because of your son.He drive wrong way and got killed now I had to do all this."Then she looked at Mukesh's photo and started screaming on him.At first Hemant thought it will go away but it didn't.After that months after months went ahead but Kiran just continued searching for him with eyes.She wondered in rooms.When some one asked her,she just gave excuses but Hemant knew that she was searching for Mukesh.Then every day she started screaming on his photograph.They all hoped that it would go aways but it didn't work.Every day her that act just continued.Finally she fall sick due to lack of sleep and stress.That Doctor asked Hemant "What is wrong?Why did she looked so weak?Is she eating properly?"Hemant gave sad smile and said "It was only thing.She was doing properly."Then he told Doctor every thing.Doctor"You must show her to psychiatrist.""What?My god!!""Don't be scared it's common.She will be cured soon."Then Doctor gave him number.Hemant had to argue with Kiran for hours before she agreed to go to psychiatrist.Finally Hemant told her that she had to go to psychiatrist because due to her insomania his sleep get disturbed so either she went back to her house or she could go to psychiatrist.She looked at that house with love and agreed.Then they went to psychiatrist.He heard all then explained that there were grieving process in case of such loss.Normally first step is numbing and disbelieve,anger.Hemant saw it all in Kiran.Next one was searching for dead person.Restlessness,anger towards dead person and insomania.Hemant"She was having it all for many months.""That is what cause of problem she was stuck in this stag.She was suppose to go in next one in which she accept that she was widow and she would feel sad.Only after that would come last stage when she accept it and rebuilt her new life and get over sadness.But your daughter-in-law seemed to stuck in second stag only which was creating problem.With some people it did happen.They just stuck in one stag.Don't worry.She will be fine after treatment."Then they both went out.Hemant knew that it would not be easy for them to adjust but he knew that he had ran away from all responsibilities as grand parents but now he had to take them.Because his son was dead and his daughter-in-law needed help.But some where inside his heart knew that when his daughter-in-law was cured and settled.He was to live peacefully alone again.But only if life was that long,he just wished that he could live alone again.It was not his anger.He understood now that it was his choice to live this way on every day.
The End
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