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Rakesh was studying for that interview again.Sana noticed that her brother was studying with full efforts.Sana saw that Rakesh was studying every thing with sincerity.This time she had brought Rakesh with her.She was that there were dark circles under his eyes.She could see that he was no longer talking properly.She felt it that he was getting upset day by day.She still remembered when he entered in her house.She felt that he was shaking like leaf.She felt his fear in every line.He was never that confident boy.But he was never also this nervous minded.She saw that he was just not interested in talking with any one.He just came inside her house and then he kept avoiding looking at her.She was so confused by his this attitude.Sana decided that she should let him deal with every thing in his own way.She saw that every thing would be right and perfect for him.She was sure that his time he would get that job. Rakesh was working in small company where he hardly managed to get promotions.Sana was sure that this was the reason of his depression.She accepted him in her home whole kindheartedly but she was not doing it out of sympathy.She was doing it because she felt those sorrows from his heart.After all since childhood Rakesh was so near her.She was always his companion.Any way Rakesh hardly managed to make friendship with any body else so she would always remained best to him.But Sana felt that all talking was mostly done by her side and Rakesh always liked to keep quiet.He never liked talking much with any one.In fact he was always a privacy loving person.He never liked it when someone came to their home and started talking.Sana never felt that was wrong because she felt same way.She hated guests because they always managed to taunt her on every point.But when some guests admired her.She just started waiting for guests but in case of Rakesh.He never felt that way.He always hated all those guests.He always disliked every guest.He loved his privacy in life but then those things which was totally wrong on every moment and on every point.He just had some thought from inside life.No one liked him much.Sana never understood it's cause because no one showed any special dislike towards him.In fact Rakesh was always so quiet in background that people hardly noticed him.When ever he came out then she noticed that he always thought of some excuse to go inside his room again.But he was never looked that much upset as he looked now. Rakesh just went inside room and started reading some books.Then after few moments he seemed so involved inside that book.That whole world didn't seem to exist for him.Sana let him did his studies.
After few days Rakesh was supposed to go for that interview of his new job.Sana noticed that he was just studying in his room.She went there with food.Sana"Rakesh eat your lunch."He just nodded.Then Sana waited for one hour and came back to collect his plate.But still he had not eaten any thing.Sana"Rakesh eat your food?""Sorry but I don't want it.""Why?You have not eaten any thing since morning.""But I am not hungry.""Come on.You are hungry!!People don't spend their life just in working.We work for food and if you don't want to eat food then what is use of that work.On every moment we just feel one thing inside our world.After all that work was done just for our food and our pleasure.If you just keep working like that what is use of it.We want pleasure inside our world.I have one thought that if I have cooked perfect food on every moment for you even then I just feel that you will never be happy by it because you are not ready to eat food.I spend my so many hours just to make this food and you are not even ready to touch it.I just don't understand how can any one please you if you just kept acting such way.I just don't understand you.""I know that you don't like me.No one likes me and that's why I have can't able get any job because every one hates me."He started crying.Sana was so confused.She didn't want to insult Rakesh or call him some thing bad.She just wanted to force him to eat food.She went ahead and started consoling him.Then for long time she just kept consoling him.Sana took hours before Rakesh was ready to eat some food.Even after so much discussion he ate just limited food.Sana was just so upset by it all.She just wished to god that this interview should come more earlier.Then finally Rakesh got that job and she could relax.She was sure that after studying so much hard Rakesh would get that job. Rakesh just needed to get relax from heart.Sana felt that those thinking would upset on time of interview so Sana started consoling him.Slowly he was relaxed and went to sleep.She felt that those things would help him.She forced him to go to sleep because he was studying whole night.It was so scary.Finally when he went to sleep.She felt so relaxed.She went in kitchen to do her work.But then in just few seconds she once again heard moment in Rakesh's room.He was awake again and once again studying.She felt that it was all too wrong but she knew that she couldn't convince him.It took him hours before he once again went to sleep.This time he was so exhausted that she thought that it was due to too much exertion. Sana smiled because she felt that he had finally managed to sleep.
When Sana was cooking,she suddenly heard Rakesh's scream. She ran to his room.In few seconds Sana reached there.Sana saw that Rakesh was screaming in sleep.On every moment Sana was so tense.She just hoped that every thing would turn out just the way.But it turned in totally wrong way.Rakesh was not sleeping peacefully instead of that he was screaming inside sleep.It seemed that he was having some nightmare.He was shivering inside sleep.She saw that his face was so upset. Rakesh's face was looking so strange in sleep. Rakesh was looking so wrong inside life.But then Rakesh felt that his face were looking so tense and there was so strange facial expressions inside life.In sleep she could see that there was so different expression on his face.She slowly patted on his face.Sana wanted him to relax.Suddenly Rakesh woke up .Rakesh"I am so scared on every moment and then I feel just one thing from my mind.that I can't able to do any thing right."Rakesh started crying.Sana once again tried to console him. Rakesh kept that way for days.He just kept studying and during it.He was acting tensed as well as strange in every way.Rakesh was so scared by this interview.Then finally that day came when Rakesh was supposed to go to interview.Sana got everything ready for Rakesh.She pressed his clothes.She prepared refreshing breakfast for Rakesh.Sana was watching everything would be prefect.Then she took it inside his room.She saw that Rakesh was getting ready with suitcase to go somewhere.Sana"Where are you going after interview?"Rakesh looked at her with empty expression .Rakesh just started packing luggage.Sana"Why are you packing suitcases?"Rakesh"Because I am not going for interview.""What?But why are you not going for it?You have tried so hard and you can pass it.""No..No..Sana problem is that even if they took me slowly they will understand my faults.My defects and then they will fire me.I will not even able to get another job because bad remarks.If I quit my job and I will not able to get another job.How did I survive?""But you can also pass it and get that great job."Rakesh started smiling in strange way as if Sana was suggesting that there was one rabbit which was flying in sky.Sana was irritated by it.Rakesh"You are saying this because you are my sister.But no one will like me except you.They all hate me.Even in case of my present job they are keeping me because I am ready to work at less salary.""Nonsense.I feel that they like your work."Rakesh started laughing again.Rakesh"Totally wrong.It is not possible."Rakesh took his suitcase and said"I have to go because if I don't join on time.They will fire him."Sana continued screaming after him.But Rakesh just left her house.
This was horrible nightmare for Sana.She worked so hard to get job for Rakesh.She even tried to use her influence because she thought that lack of influence was problem but Rakesh just left her and that job.As if he never wanted to have it.She was so angry with this.She had wasted so much time in getting every thing in right way.She managed to encourage Rakesh to come here.She managed to get perfect job for him.Only thing he needed to do was give that interview and it was not that hard for him.But he still went away without trying. She just didn't believe it.Her all efforts proved useless.It was worst for her.She was trying to bring him out of depression and now she was depressed by it.She felt as if she was used by her brother.brother. Rakesh was not interested in job then why did he used her like this was one question?She wanted to be answered.But all she able to do was throw away her things to reduced her frustration and in her heart she had decided that she would never help Rakesh again.Sana just decided to continue with her life.After all those points were totally wrong for her heart.After all she had told many people about this interview.She had to answer them.She had to lie but then she felt just one thing that those things were so important for her heart.Sana was so important for her that Rakesh should get that job.Sana was totally angry from her heart after all she was thinking that she was doing favor Rakesh.She was so shocked when Rakesh was not totally interested in it.But she didn't able to understand that why did he was studying for day and night.If he was not interested in trying for interview.Sana just kept doing her work.But then after some days Sana found herself too busy from heart.Sana was doing something which was so important for her heart.Since her parents were telling her again and again that Rakesh was not getting promotion and he was upset regarding it.After all Rakesh had family and his responsibilities which was important inside his life.He needed money for his family.Her parents convinced her so much that Sana did that mistake of using her words and her contacts for her brother.She was so professional.She had never done it but since it was her brother.She acted in different way.It was worst for her.Every one was questioning her about it.She had to convince every one that her brother got some another good job in US.She was so scared that after some time it all would come out.Slowly she got over.Every one forgot about her brother.Even Sana started ignoring Rakesh on every time.She did every thing according to her parent's wish.Sana was so relieved that she did her duty.But she was not ready to meet Rakesh again.She was not going to fall in that trap again.But then suddenly one night her phone rang.Sana ran to get phone.It was her Mom.Sana's Mom"Rakesh tried to kill himself.""What?But why?""Because he couldn't able to get that job.""Which job?"Sana was so confused.But then her Mom told her that Doctor has come out.She couldn't speak more and hang up her phone.Sana was so confused by all this.
Sana immediately booked those tickets.It was most horrible journey for her.She was calling her Mom again and again.Until it was confirmed that Rakesh was out of danger.When she reached there,she just ran to hospital.She saw her parents standing there.Sana never liked her Dad much.He was always too strict about every thing.He expected his children to be some special and always kept demanding from them.She still remembered that how did he treated her first prize of drawing in school like nothing.In her Dad's eyes they were always useless.So she turned to her Mom and her sister-in-law.Sana"What happened?"Her mom just kept crying.But her Dad spoke"He took sleeping pills because he failed in that interview which he was giving.""Which interview?"Her sister-in-law looked Sana with confusion.Her sister-in-law"That one which he have given near your house.""No.He never given any interview there.""What?"Then Sana told them every thing.They all were shocked.Then Sana went in Rakesh's home with her sister-in-law and checked out some of interview calls which confirmed that Rakesh had never given any interview.Sana"This is strange."They returned to hospital.When Rakesh was woke up,they found it hard to control their anger and shock.But Rakesh's Dad started screaming and abusing him.It was worst.Finally Doctor stopped them and asked them that what was wrong.Sana explained him every thing."I think he need a psychiatrist."Dad"Nonsense.I don't want to waste my money on this useless son.He is not worth it."Sana looked at her Dad with anger and said"I will make payment.Tell me number of psychiatrist."Then Psychiatrist was called who talked with Rakesh for hours.Then finally he asked Rakesh that why did he avoided that interviews."Because I know that they will reject me and even if they took me for some days.Then slowly they will understand my mistakes and how useless I am.""But why did you feel that you are useless?""Every one feel that way.""Like?""Every one.""Did your wife call you that?""No never.But she feel it from heart.""How did you know it?""I can see it in her eyes.In fact I can see it in every one's eyes.They all knew that I am stupid and then one day they will fire me.Then I will job less.""But just tell me.Who call you stupid?Your Boss?""No.I never talked with him that long.""Just tell me who."Rakesh kept quiet for some time.But then finally he said"My Dad.Do you understand what I am saying?My Dad hate me.My own Dad then how can any one like me?""Do you tried to make friendship with any one?""Never.I know that they all will hate me when they know about me.""But did any one told you that they hate you.""No they never say that they are nice people.They never say it."Then Psychiatrist asked Sana's sister-in-law about Rakesh's report and records.They were perfect.Some of his colleagues ever came to see him in hospital.When Doctor chatted with them.It seemed that every one liked him.But Rakesh never liked to talk and sat with any one.After all discussion Psychiatrist called Sana's sister-in-law inside.But she insisted that Sana should also join them.Then they sat together.Psychiatrist"I feel that your brother is suffering from Avoidant Personality Disorder due to which he always felt that every one hated him.That's why he was not ready to give interview.I feel it must have happen due to your father's too much demanding nature."Sana didn't want to discuss past so she asked"Can you able to cure him?""Of course he will be fine."Then he wrote some medicines.Sana took every thing.She knew that her sister-in-law couldn't afford it and she didn't want to take help from her Dad.Sana decided that she would cure her brother.She wanted at least one family to be saved because her Dad had destroyed their family already.She wanted good family life at least for her brother so she took list of medicine and hope that every thing would be fine for her brother.She understood now that she misunderstood her brother's need.He needed her affection not her help for getting job because she was sure that he would get it when he would become fine with help of Doctor.
The End
Rakesh was studying for that interview again.Sana noticed that her brother was studying with full efforts.Sana saw that Rakesh was studying every thing with sincerity.This time she had brought Rakesh with her.She was that there were dark circles under his eyes.She could see that he was no longer talking properly.She felt it that he was getting upset day by day.She still remembered when he entered in her house.She felt that he was shaking like leaf.She felt his fear in every line.He was never that confident boy.But he was never also this nervous minded.She saw that he was just not interested in talking with any one.He just came inside her house and then he kept avoiding looking at her.She was so confused by his this attitude.Sana decided that she should let him deal with every thing in his own way.She saw that every thing would be right and perfect for him.She was sure that his time he would get that job. Rakesh was working in small company where he hardly managed to get promotions.Sana was sure that this was the reason of his depression.She accepted him in her home whole kindheartedly but she was not doing it out of sympathy.She was doing it because she felt those sorrows from his heart.After all since childhood Rakesh was so near her.She was always his companion.Any way Rakesh hardly managed to make friendship with any body else so she would always remained best to him.But Sana felt that all talking was mostly done by her side and Rakesh always liked to keep quiet.He never liked talking much with any one.In fact he was always a privacy loving person.He never liked it when someone came to their home and started talking.Sana never felt that was wrong because she felt same way.She hated guests because they always managed to taunt her on every point.But when some guests admired her.She just started waiting for guests but in case of Rakesh.He never felt that way.He always hated all those guests.He always disliked every guest.He loved his privacy in life but then those things which was totally wrong on every moment and on every point.He just had some thought from inside life.No one liked him much.Sana never understood it's cause because no one showed any special dislike towards him.In fact Rakesh was always so quiet in background that people hardly noticed him.When ever he came out then she noticed that he always thought of some excuse to go inside his room again.But he was never looked that much upset as he looked now. Rakesh just went inside room and started reading some books.Then after few moments he seemed so involved inside that book.That whole world didn't seem to exist for him.Sana let him did his studies.
After few days Rakesh was supposed to go for that interview of his new job.Sana noticed that he was just studying in his room.She went there with food.Sana"Rakesh eat your lunch."He just nodded.Then Sana waited for one hour and came back to collect his plate.But still he had not eaten any thing.Sana"Rakesh eat your food?""Sorry but I don't want it.""Why?You have not eaten any thing since morning.""But I am not hungry.""Come on.You are hungry!!People don't spend their life just in working.We work for food and if you don't want to eat food then what is use of that work.On every moment we just feel one thing inside our world.After all that work was done just for our food and our pleasure.If you just keep working like that what is use of it.We want pleasure inside our world.I have one thought that if I have cooked perfect food on every moment for you even then I just feel that you will never be happy by it because you are not ready to eat food.I spend my so many hours just to make this food and you are not even ready to touch it.I just don't understand how can any one please you if you just kept acting such way.I just don't understand you.""I know that you don't like me.No one likes me and that's why I have can't able get any job because every one hates me."He started crying.Sana was so confused.She didn't want to insult Rakesh or call him some thing bad.She just wanted to force him to eat food.She went ahead and started consoling him.Then for long time she just kept consoling him.Sana took hours before Rakesh was ready to eat some food.Even after so much discussion he ate just limited food.Sana was just so upset by it all.She just wished to god that this interview should come more earlier.Then finally Rakesh got that job and she could relax.She was sure that after studying so much hard Rakesh would get that job. Rakesh just needed to get relax from heart.Sana felt that those thinking would upset on time of interview so Sana started consoling him.Slowly he was relaxed and went to sleep.She felt that those things would help him.She forced him to go to sleep because he was studying whole night.It was so scary.Finally when he went to sleep.She felt so relaxed.She went in kitchen to do her work.But then in just few seconds she once again heard moment in Rakesh's room.He was awake again and once again studying.She felt that it was all too wrong but she knew that she couldn't convince him.It took him hours before he once again went to sleep.This time he was so exhausted that she thought that it was due to too much exertion. Sana smiled because she felt that he had finally managed to sleep.
When Sana was cooking,she suddenly heard Rakesh's scream. She ran to his room.In few seconds Sana reached there.Sana saw that Rakesh was screaming in sleep.On every moment Sana was so tense.She just hoped that every thing would turn out just the way.But it turned in totally wrong way.Rakesh was not sleeping peacefully instead of that he was screaming inside sleep.It seemed that he was having some nightmare.He was shivering inside sleep.She saw that his face was so upset. Rakesh's face was looking so strange in sleep. Rakesh was looking so wrong inside life.But then Rakesh felt that his face were looking so tense and there was so strange facial expressions inside life.In sleep she could see that there was so different expression on his face.She slowly patted on his face.Sana wanted him to relax.Suddenly Rakesh woke up .Rakesh"I am so scared on every moment and then I feel just one thing from my mind.that I can't able to do any thing right."Rakesh started crying.Sana once again tried to console him. Rakesh kept that way for days.He just kept studying and during it.He was acting tensed as well as strange in every way.Rakesh was so scared by this interview.Then finally that day came when Rakesh was supposed to go to interview.Sana got everything ready for Rakesh.She pressed his clothes.She prepared refreshing breakfast for Rakesh.Sana was watching everything would be prefect.Then she took it inside his room.She saw that Rakesh was getting ready with suitcase to go somewhere.Sana"Where are you going after interview?"Rakesh looked at her with empty expression .Rakesh just started packing luggage.Sana"Why are you packing suitcases?"Rakesh"Because I am not going for interview.""What?But why are you not going for it?You have tried so hard and you can pass it.""No..No..Sana problem is that even if they took me slowly they will understand my faults.My defects and then they will fire me.I will not even able to get another job because bad remarks.If I quit my job and I will not able to get another job.How did I survive?""But you can also pass it and get that great job."Rakesh started smiling in strange way as if Sana was suggesting that there was one rabbit which was flying in sky.Sana was irritated by it.Rakesh"You are saying this because you are my sister.But no one will like me except you.They all hate me.Even in case of my present job they are keeping me because I am ready to work at less salary.""Nonsense.I feel that they like your work."Rakesh started laughing again.Rakesh"Totally wrong.It is not possible."Rakesh took his suitcase and said"I have to go because if I don't join on time.They will fire him."Sana continued screaming after him.But Rakesh just left her house.
This was horrible nightmare for Sana.She worked so hard to get job for Rakesh.She even tried to use her influence because she thought that lack of influence was problem but Rakesh just left her and that job.As if he never wanted to have it.She was so angry with this.She had wasted so much time in getting every thing in right way.She managed to encourage Rakesh to come here.She managed to get perfect job for him.Only thing he needed to do was give that interview and it was not that hard for him.But he still went away without trying. She just didn't believe it.Her all efforts proved useless.It was worst for her.She was trying to bring him out of depression and now she was depressed by it.She felt as if she was used by her brother.brother. Rakesh was not interested in job then why did he used her like this was one question?She wanted to be answered.But all she able to do was throw away her things to reduced her frustration and in her heart she had decided that she would never help Rakesh again.Sana just decided to continue with her life.After all those points were totally wrong for her heart.After all she had told many people about this interview.She had to answer them.She had to lie but then she felt just one thing that those things were so important for her heart.Sana was so important for her that Rakesh should get that job.Sana was totally angry from her heart after all she was thinking that she was doing favor Rakesh.She was so shocked when Rakesh was not totally interested in it.But she didn't able to understand that why did he was studying for day and night.If he was not interested in trying for interview.Sana just kept doing her work.But then after some days Sana found herself too busy from heart.Sana was doing something which was so important for her heart.Since her parents were telling her again and again that Rakesh was not getting promotion and he was upset regarding it.After all Rakesh had family and his responsibilities which was important inside his life.He needed money for his family.Her parents convinced her so much that Sana did that mistake of using her words and her contacts for her brother.She was so professional.She had never done it but since it was her brother.She acted in different way.It was worst for her.Every one was questioning her about it.She had to convince every one that her brother got some another good job in US.She was so scared that after some time it all would come out.Slowly she got over.Every one forgot about her brother.Even Sana started ignoring Rakesh on every time.She did every thing according to her parent's wish.Sana was so relieved that she did her duty.But she was not ready to meet Rakesh again.She was not going to fall in that trap again.But then suddenly one night her phone rang.Sana ran to get phone.It was her Mom.Sana's Mom"Rakesh tried to kill himself.""What?But why?""Because he couldn't able to get that job.""Which job?"Sana was so confused.But then her Mom told her that Doctor has come out.She couldn't speak more and hang up her phone.Sana was so confused by all this.
Sana immediately booked those tickets.It was most horrible journey for her.She was calling her Mom again and again.Until it was confirmed that Rakesh was out of danger.When she reached there,she just ran to hospital.She saw her parents standing there.Sana never liked her Dad much.He was always too strict about every thing.He expected his children to be some special and always kept demanding from them.She still remembered that how did he treated her first prize of drawing in school like nothing.In her Dad's eyes they were always useless.So she turned to her Mom and her sister-in-law.Sana"What happened?"Her mom just kept crying.But her Dad spoke"He took sleeping pills because he failed in that interview which he was giving.""Which interview?"Her sister-in-law looked Sana with confusion.Her sister-in-law"That one which he have given near your house.""No.He never given any interview there.""What?"Then Sana told them every thing.They all were shocked.Then Sana went in Rakesh's home with her sister-in-law and checked out some of interview calls which confirmed that Rakesh had never given any interview.Sana"This is strange."They returned to hospital.When Rakesh was woke up,they found it hard to control their anger and shock.But Rakesh's Dad started screaming and abusing him.It was worst.Finally Doctor stopped them and asked them that what was wrong.Sana explained him every thing."I think he need a psychiatrist."Dad"Nonsense.I don't want to waste my money on this useless son.He is not worth it."Sana looked at her Dad with anger and said"I will make payment.Tell me number of psychiatrist."Then Psychiatrist was called who talked with Rakesh for hours.Then finally he asked Rakesh that why did he avoided that interviews."Because I know that they will reject me and even if they took me for some days.Then slowly they will understand my mistakes and how useless I am.""But why did you feel that you are useless?""Every one feel that way.""Like?""Every one.""Did your wife call you that?""No never.But she feel it from heart.""How did you know it?""I can see it in her eyes.In fact I can see it in every one's eyes.They all knew that I am stupid and then one day they will fire me.Then I will job less.""But just tell me.Who call you stupid?Your Boss?""No.I never talked with him that long.""Just tell me who."Rakesh kept quiet for some time.But then finally he said"My Dad.Do you understand what I am saying?My Dad hate me.My own Dad then how can any one like me?""Do you tried to make friendship with any one?""Never.I know that they all will hate me when they know about me.""But did any one told you that they hate you.""No they never say that they are nice people.They never say it."Then Psychiatrist asked Sana's sister-in-law about Rakesh's report and records.They were perfect.Some of his colleagues ever came to see him in hospital.When Doctor chatted with them.It seemed that every one liked him.But Rakesh never liked to talk and sat with any one.After all discussion Psychiatrist called Sana's sister-in-law inside.But she insisted that Sana should also join them.Then they sat together.Psychiatrist"I feel that your brother is suffering from Avoidant Personality Disorder due to which he always felt that every one hated him.That's why he was not ready to give interview.I feel it must have happen due to your father's too much demanding nature."Sana didn't want to discuss past so she asked"Can you able to cure him?""Of course he will be fine."Then he wrote some medicines.Sana took every thing.She knew that her sister-in-law couldn't afford it and she didn't want to take help from her Dad.Sana decided that she would cure her brother.She wanted at least one family to be saved because her Dad had destroyed their family already.She wanted good family life at least for her brother so she took list of medicine and hope that every thing would be fine for her brother.She understood now that she misunderstood her brother's need.He needed her affection not her help for getting job because she was sure that he would get it when he would become fine with help of Doctor.
The End
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