True need of heart
Nitish was cooking that day.He wanted to do something for his family so he told every one that they should go out today. He never able to gave them time so this time he had decided that he must gave time to them.He started making every thing in perfect way.It was his daughter's 13th birthday. He was arranging every thing in good way. He wanted her birthday to be perfect on every point. He just suggested his wife that she should take their kids to film. At first Ragini was not happy about it. But then he convinced her step by step. That it was valuable day for her daughter. He had to do proper dinner for them all. Nitish started cooking it carefully. He did every thing perfectly as per instruction given by Ragini. It would greatest help to him.He was doing every thing step by step. He was cooking things on every step.He was cooking each items with full care. He started cooking food.He was testing it on each and every item. He was adding different items.At each moment he was selecting items. He was selecting every item.He was started inspecting every item carefully.He was checking expiry date of each product. He looked at each box.He was shocked that some of expiry date were totally wrong. He was checking expiry date but many dates were crossed. He saw those products.He was so shocked that Ragini was using old products. He never thought once that he needed to check sometimes what his wife was using.Then he remembered that his wife was not that much educated.She hardly able to read anything in English.But he felt that she could read those dates.He had brought his wife Ragini from his native place. Ragini was not educated. He never thought about educating her.He was just interested in one thing.He wanted to get his family life settled properly. When Ragini came in city at first,she used to do many things which used to embarrass him.But slowly she learned many things.It must be hard for her to understand things. But he never thought about it.He decided that he would check out every thing. He began to take out products from packs. There were so many packets. He knew that it would take all day,He had to cook on that moment.He decided that he would look at those packets later,But then he took out products. He was about to take out when he decided that he would keep them in cupboard and then after dinner.He would take them out. He started cooking his dinner. He began to do it according to instructions.He was doing every thing rightly, Slowly he started cooking every thing as per things written in paper.He started cooking dinner.He made that food perfectly.He saw that cake was perfect. It was looking so nice and perfect.He was so happy.That cake was looked great, Then he started cooking every dinner step by step. He was doing dinner in such good way that no one could guess that he was cooking for first time. He was so happy. In that happiness he just forgot every thing even those packets.He had made dinner. He was perfect husband.Then he suddenly remembered those packets once again.He took out all packets and kept then on kitchen table. When door bell rang,he looked at time.His family was back.He start getting ready every thing.He just pushed those packets in one corner. Then he got ready to welcome them.
Nitish had set table and every thing was perfect.Ragini was so happy.It was first time when Nitish had done something for family.She was so irritated by being treated as secondary.She wanted to be first preference in life. But he never treated her in good way. He always treated her like furniture.But this was first time when he started treating her in good way,she was so happy.She sat on that chair on which he told her to sit. They all settled in their chair.Ragini looked around. Every thing was so perfect. She saw that every one was so happy. But then she noticed that her daughter Trusha was hugging and admiring Nitish then her son Dinesh was following her action. Suddenly she felt so alone.She knew that since she didn't had much education. She never managed to satisfy their children.But since Nitish hardly had time for them.She was important for them.But now since he began to give them time.She began to feel left out.She knew that it was wrong.But she was upset and scared because her children were no longer supporting her or looking at her. She wanted their attention but Nitish was getting it all.Nitish gave her a pleasant smile.She knew that it was his smile to show her that he was better than her.He was always did that in pleasant way. He never gave her any chance to learn any thing. But when ever she did some mistake due to it.He gave her special kind of look and then tell her mistake which clearly showed her that she was turning in just burden inside his life.He knew that she would never understood any things which had written on papers.She knew that inside their heart whole family was just hating her.She was an uneducated stupid woman in every one's eyes. But until now at least her children were her since Nitish never gave them time. She was so upset.She just wanted to cry.She stood up from her chair and ran inside kitchen. Nitish and kids were so busy in talking that they didn't sense it. She just ran in corner.She wanted to hide tears. She went in that corner and there were packets in corner.She saw that there was packet of juice. She sensed that she was thirsty. She took out that packet and started drinking juice. She tasted that juice.It was something different. She sensed that something was wrong. She turned that packet. It had that red mark. She made it after asking children about expiry date. She was careful on every time.She never took them out. She didn't know who did that but she felt that something was wrong with her stomach.It was so upset. She sensed that she had to ran to bathroom. After that her pain just began to increase. She had to take that pill which Doctor advised.But she knew that it was not enough.She just had to go to doctor.She just could stop those pains. Then Nitish came running to her. "What happened?" "Some one mixed packets of fresh juices with expired one. I have drank.."She didn't able to say anything further. She had to go to toilet.Things were worst. They immediately took her to Doctor who suggested that she was food poisoned. She must go to hospital immediately. So this way finally that birthday which started in best way had finally turned into worst way for her.
Nitish was so confused.He was doing it all for her help.Suddenly he understood his mistake.Of course those packets must be marked and that's why they were in that same place.She was careful in keeping them in that place.He knew that he had done it all.His kids were crying inside his arms.It all seemed so wrong. It was his mistake and Ragini was paying for it.He had never done any thing for Ragini and now he managed to put her in hospital.It was worst for him.Somewhere in his heart he felt as if he killed Ragini. He knew one thing that he would kill himself if Ragini die.But then he looked at kids.No..he knew that he couldn't do it because he had responsibility of children who were crying in his arms. He knew that his life was going to be just punishment for him. He was standing there. He saw that Ragini was taken inside. He felt as if his life was shattered when Doctor came out and told him that he could relax. Ragini was responding their medicines in perfect way. She was going to be fine. But they kept her in ICU so that they could keep watch on her.All that day Nitish had one feeling as if he was going to be hanged.Finally Ragini came in normal room.He had relaxed on that moment.He tried to do his every work perfectly on every front. He was doing work at house as well as office. He was doing every work in perfect way. He wanted to do things in good way. He managed to do them properly. He was even coming to visit Ragini every day,He was doing every thing perfectly. But still he was sleeping in that night when he felt as if some woman was abusing him. He just ran out and looked outside Ragini was sitting there.She was crying. He was so confused.Ragini was in hospital. When did she came back? This was most important question inside his mind. He sat near her. She was sitting on floor. Nitish "What happened?" Then she turned her face towards him.He saw that her face was so pale. Ragini was crying in such strange form that he felt so much fear from inside. He saw that there was strange feel of death from mind. He took Ragini's hand in his hand. Nitish "Come on let us go in bedroom."She just nodded. Then they both slept on bed. But as soon as they slept, Nitish once again heard sound of crying. Ragini was crying again.Nitish"What happened? Why are you crying again?""Because I am dead."Suddenly her eyes started looking red with anger."I hate you. You killed me."Then she was about to catch his throat.When he ran out of that room,he just didn't look.He ran away. He began to scream so loudly.Then he felt that some one was trying to wake him up. He opened his eyes. His children were trying to wake him up from nightmare. He turned to other side. That bed was just empty.He was so confused. Then he understood that he must had nightmare. But he just didn't understand that why did he dreamed like that. He dreamed that Ragini was dead when she was recovered so much that they were going to bring her back in home after few days. It was really strange. He just didn't understand.
When Nitish woke up at morning,he felt so scared.He just didn't want to go to visit Ragini.But kids wanted to see their Mom so they had to go. After all he could easily see that kids were not happy with the way he was handling home.He knew that he was not doing it perfectly.He felt that he might be handling it in worst way. He had one thought from inside that things were not perfect for him.He was not taking that situation as he supposed to.He supposed to admire Ragini for her perfect handling.But he was scared to meet her due to that dream.He just didn't understand that why did he felt in such a way about her.When he finally went there,Ragini looked at him with smile.Ragini"Doctor said I can come home tomorrow."Kids jumped with joy but Nitish gave just forced smile.He thanked his stars that Ragini didn't able to see his face.He was sure that if she had seen it then she must had understood.He was not that much happy.But when kids moved away by then he had controlled his emotions. He started feeling so much scared.He just didn't want to take her back to home.But then Ragini was his wife.He would not think like that about her.But still he was feeling this way.He went to Doctor and did every thing which he was supposed to do as dutiful husband.He did every work properly. He asked about amount and then went in office he arranged for that money.He did every work properly.He accepted good wishes from people since his wife was well. He started to do every thing properly. At end of day he felt just one thing that he was fine.But that night proved things otherwise in life. He dreamed again and in fact in his worst way in life. She was looking so horrible at every point.His dream was so ugly.He felt that he was having nightmares on every day.It was turning out hard for him.He felt that next morning.He had just one feel from inside that in morning when he brought back Ragini to home then his dreams would stop.He just felt so happy from inside.He just wanted one thing now.It was get rid of his nightmares. He went in hospital and he did everything perfectly.He was acting just like robot.He was smiling on proper time and he was getting sad on every time.He was doing just things as perfectly as he could do. He was so sure that he would sleep properly on that day.He was relaxed.He slept on bed while Ragini was sleeping beside him just like normal people. Every thing was perfect between them. Ragini was smiling at him in perfect health. So every thing was good between them.But still he felt that some thing was wrong.But he convinced himself that every thing was fine. Still he felt that some thing was wrong.He was not feeling secure with Ragini. He felt as if she just hated him.He knew that she was not showing it but he was so sure that something was wrong.He just kept looking at her.When he saw that she was in deep sleep.He finally went to sleep.He was relaxed now because he was sure that she was sleeping.But then in that night he once again.He had that strange dream.He knew that Ragini was sleeping near him.But she woke up and put cushion on his face.
Ragini was so relaxed that she was back in home. Nitish was acting so caring.She felt so happy to see her husband such a loving.She felt as if she was falling in love again. But then while sleeping she was started hearing those screams.She was so shocked to see that Nitish was screaming loudly."Don't kill me Ragini..Don't kill .."She was so shocked.When she pushed him and he was woke up,he just ran away from her.Ragini"What happened? Why are you scared of me?""You are trying to kill me.""Why should I try to kill my own husband?Are you still in your dream?"Then Nitish came to sense he was dreaming again.He gave one forced smile and said "Just a bad dream."But after that she noticed that he just kept away from her.She tried to talk to her but he just avoided by telling her that his work was remained in office due to house work he had to do during her sickness.But she knew that it was not true.On each day he was having strange kind of dreams.His health was started suffering.Ragini could see it clearly.One day when she went to hospital for her routine check up with Nitish. She brought out Nitish's subject before Doctor.Doctor"Why don't you visit psychiatrist?"Nitish"My problem is not that big.This nightmare will go away in some days.""I hope so.But still keep this card and contact this Doctor.If you feel that you are not okay."Nitish nodded.Sadly Doctor's fear turned out to be true. He just kept having nightmares on each day. It was horrible for him.He just never understood what was happening but he could clearly feel that his married life was destroying due to his strange fears.Ragini was getting more and more upset by his behavior.He decided to visit psychiatrist without telling Ragini.Finally one day he took his appointment.It was proved hard that he thought.He had to wait for long time in waiting room.Finally when he went inside, he felt so much scared even to go inside.But when he went inside that psychiatrist talked so nicely that he began to relax.Slowly he began to tell him every thing.But he was not totally relaxed at beginning.He had keep visit that psychiatrist.But step by step he began to trust psychiatrist and finally he told him about his mistake.Psychiatrist"But it was not only your mistake.Ragini could have read it before drinking.""No.She can't.She is not educated.""What?So that is your problem. You are feeling guilty. ""Right.I am feeling guilty that I gave her that juice by mistake."Psychiatrist smiled"No you are wrong there. You are making that food just because you are feeling guilty already,You are feeling guilty because you never let her chance to learn words or you never tried to educate her.You just kept her busy with kids and house work."Nitish was so shocked.But then he felt that Psychiatrist was right."That guilt lead to Anxiety Disorder.You were scared that she will not like you so you are making food to please her.Then that incidence happened so you began to feel she must have hated you from heart because you have never given her chance to learn.She wanted that chance.But she didn't hate you that much.Just give her chance to learn and you will be fine."Nitish nodded.Then he went home.He convinced Ragini that she must complete her studies.At first she rejected that idea.But then slowly she accepted it.She started going in class to study.Many people laughed on Nitish and Ragini. Even kids were not that much happy at beginning.But Nitish remained stuck to that decision and Ragini kept going in college also.Slowly kids accepted it and supported their parents.In this process when Nitish's dream were gone,he just never sensed.But he was perfect now.He felt that he was perfect husband now.Even if he didn't have time for family still he was perfect because there was true love and gratitude in eyes of his wife.He was perfectly happy and at peace from his heart. After all that was true need of every heart.
The End
Nitish was cooking that day.He wanted to do something for his family so he told every one that they should go out today. He never able to gave them time so this time he had decided that he must gave time to them.He started making every thing in perfect way.It was his daughter's 13th birthday. He was arranging every thing in good way. He wanted her birthday to be perfect on every point. He just suggested his wife that she should take their kids to film. At first Ragini was not happy about it. But then he convinced her step by step. That it was valuable day for her daughter. He had to do proper dinner for them all. Nitish started cooking it carefully. He did every thing perfectly as per instruction given by Ragini. It would greatest help to him.He was doing every thing step by step. He was cooking things on every step.He was cooking each items with full care. He started cooking food.He was testing it on each and every item. He was adding different items.At each moment he was selecting items. He was selecting every item.He was started inspecting every item carefully.He was checking expiry date of each product. He looked at each box.He was shocked that some of expiry date were totally wrong. He was checking expiry date but many dates were crossed. He saw those products.He was so shocked that Ragini was using old products. He never thought once that he needed to check sometimes what his wife was using.Then he remembered that his wife was not that much educated.She hardly able to read anything in English.But he felt that she could read those dates.He had brought his wife Ragini from his native place. Ragini was not educated. He never thought about educating her.He was just interested in one thing.He wanted to get his family life settled properly. When Ragini came in city at first,she used to do many things which used to embarrass him.But slowly she learned many things.It must be hard for her to understand things. But he never thought about it.He decided that he would check out every thing. He began to take out products from packs. There were so many packets. He knew that it would take all day,He had to cook on that moment.He decided that he would look at those packets later,But then he took out products. He was about to take out when he decided that he would keep them in cupboard and then after dinner.He would take them out. He started cooking his dinner. He began to do it according to instructions.He was doing every thing rightly, Slowly he started cooking every thing as per things written in paper.He started cooking dinner.He made that food perfectly.He saw that cake was perfect. It was looking so nice and perfect.He was so happy.That cake was looked great, Then he started cooking every dinner step by step. He was doing dinner in such good way that no one could guess that he was cooking for first time. He was so happy. In that happiness he just forgot every thing even those packets.He had made dinner. He was perfect husband.Then he suddenly remembered those packets once again.He took out all packets and kept then on kitchen table. When door bell rang,he looked at time.His family was back.He start getting ready every thing.He just pushed those packets in one corner. Then he got ready to welcome them.
Nitish had set table and every thing was perfect.Ragini was so happy.It was first time when Nitish had done something for family.She was so irritated by being treated as secondary.She wanted to be first preference in life. But he never treated her in good way. He always treated her like furniture.But this was first time when he started treating her in good way,she was so happy.She sat on that chair on which he told her to sit. They all settled in their chair.Ragini looked around. Every thing was so perfect. She saw that every one was so happy. But then she noticed that her daughter Trusha was hugging and admiring Nitish then her son Dinesh was following her action. Suddenly she felt so alone.She knew that since she didn't had much education. She never managed to satisfy their children.But since Nitish hardly had time for them.She was important for them.But now since he began to give them time.She began to feel left out.She knew that it was wrong.But she was upset and scared because her children were no longer supporting her or looking at her. She wanted their attention but Nitish was getting it all.Nitish gave her a pleasant smile.She knew that it was his smile to show her that he was better than her.He was always did that in pleasant way. He never gave her any chance to learn any thing. But when ever she did some mistake due to it.He gave her special kind of look and then tell her mistake which clearly showed her that she was turning in just burden inside his life.He knew that she would never understood any things which had written on papers.She knew that inside their heart whole family was just hating her.She was an uneducated stupid woman in every one's eyes. But until now at least her children were her since Nitish never gave them time. She was so upset.She just wanted to cry.She stood up from her chair and ran inside kitchen. Nitish and kids were so busy in talking that they didn't sense it. She just ran in corner.She wanted to hide tears. She went in that corner and there were packets in corner.She saw that there was packet of juice. She sensed that she was thirsty. She took out that packet and started drinking juice. She tasted that juice.It was something different. She sensed that something was wrong. She turned that packet. It had that red mark. She made it after asking children about expiry date. She was careful on every time.She never took them out. She didn't know who did that but she felt that something was wrong with her stomach.It was so upset. She sensed that she had to ran to bathroom. After that her pain just began to increase. She had to take that pill which Doctor advised.But she knew that it was not enough.She just had to go to doctor.She just could stop those pains. Then Nitish came running to her. "What happened?" "Some one mixed packets of fresh juices with expired one. I have drank.."She didn't able to say anything further. She had to go to toilet.Things were worst. They immediately took her to Doctor who suggested that she was food poisoned. She must go to hospital immediately. So this way finally that birthday which started in best way had finally turned into worst way for her.
Nitish was so confused.He was doing it all for her help.Suddenly he understood his mistake.Of course those packets must be marked and that's why they were in that same place.She was careful in keeping them in that place.He knew that he had done it all.His kids were crying inside his arms.It all seemed so wrong. It was his mistake and Ragini was paying for it.He had never done any thing for Ragini and now he managed to put her in hospital.It was worst for him.Somewhere in his heart he felt as if he killed Ragini. He knew one thing that he would kill himself if Ragini die.But then he looked at kids.No..he knew that he couldn't do it because he had responsibility of children who were crying in his arms. He knew that his life was going to be just punishment for him. He was standing there. He saw that Ragini was taken inside. He felt as if his life was shattered when Doctor came out and told him that he could relax. Ragini was responding their medicines in perfect way. She was going to be fine. But they kept her in ICU so that they could keep watch on her.All that day Nitish had one feeling as if he was going to be hanged.Finally Ragini came in normal room.He had relaxed on that moment.He tried to do his every work perfectly on every front. He was doing work at house as well as office. He was doing every work in perfect way. He wanted to do things in good way. He managed to do them properly. He was even coming to visit Ragini every day,He was doing every thing perfectly. But still he was sleeping in that night when he felt as if some woman was abusing him. He just ran out and looked outside Ragini was sitting there.She was crying. He was so confused.Ragini was in hospital. When did she came back? This was most important question inside his mind. He sat near her. She was sitting on floor. Nitish "What happened?" Then she turned her face towards him.He saw that her face was so pale. Ragini was crying in such strange form that he felt so much fear from inside. He saw that there was strange feel of death from mind. He took Ragini's hand in his hand. Nitish "Come on let us go in bedroom."She just nodded. Then they both slept on bed. But as soon as they slept, Nitish once again heard sound of crying. Ragini was crying again.Nitish"What happened? Why are you crying again?""Because I am dead."Suddenly her eyes started looking red with anger."I hate you. You killed me."Then she was about to catch his throat.When he ran out of that room,he just didn't look.He ran away. He began to scream so loudly.Then he felt that some one was trying to wake him up. He opened his eyes. His children were trying to wake him up from nightmare. He turned to other side. That bed was just empty.He was so confused. Then he understood that he must had nightmare. But he just didn't understand that why did he dreamed like that. He dreamed that Ragini was dead when she was recovered so much that they were going to bring her back in home after few days. It was really strange. He just didn't understand.
When Nitish woke up at morning,he felt so scared.He just didn't want to go to visit Ragini.But kids wanted to see their Mom so they had to go. After all he could easily see that kids were not happy with the way he was handling home.He knew that he was not doing it perfectly.He felt that he might be handling it in worst way. He had one thought from inside that things were not perfect for him.He was not taking that situation as he supposed to.He supposed to admire Ragini for her perfect handling.But he was scared to meet her due to that dream.He just didn't understand that why did he felt in such a way about her.When he finally went there,Ragini looked at him with smile.Ragini"Doctor said I can come home tomorrow."Kids jumped with joy but Nitish gave just forced smile.He thanked his stars that Ragini didn't able to see his face.He was sure that if she had seen it then she must had understood.He was not that much happy.But when kids moved away by then he had controlled his emotions. He started feeling so much scared.He just didn't want to take her back to home.But then Ragini was his wife.He would not think like that about her.But still he was feeling this way.He went to Doctor and did every thing which he was supposed to do as dutiful husband.He did every work properly. He asked about amount and then went in office he arranged for that money.He did every work properly.He accepted good wishes from people since his wife was well. He started to do every thing properly. At end of day he felt just one thing that he was fine.But that night proved things otherwise in life. He dreamed again and in fact in his worst way in life. She was looking so horrible at every point.His dream was so ugly.He felt that he was having nightmares on every day.It was turning out hard for him.He felt that next morning.He had just one feel from inside that in morning when he brought back Ragini to home then his dreams would stop.He just felt so happy from inside.He just wanted one thing now.It was get rid of his nightmares. He went in hospital and he did everything perfectly.He was acting just like robot.He was smiling on proper time and he was getting sad on every time.He was doing just things as perfectly as he could do. He was so sure that he would sleep properly on that day.He was relaxed.He slept on bed while Ragini was sleeping beside him just like normal people. Every thing was perfect between them. Ragini was smiling at him in perfect health. So every thing was good between them.But still he felt that some thing was wrong.But he convinced himself that every thing was fine. Still he felt that some thing was wrong.He was not feeling secure with Ragini. He felt as if she just hated him.He knew that she was not showing it but he was so sure that something was wrong.He just kept looking at her.When he saw that she was in deep sleep.He finally went to sleep.He was relaxed now because he was sure that she was sleeping.But then in that night he once again.He had that strange dream.He knew that Ragini was sleeping near him.But she woke up and put cushion on his face.
Ragini was so relaxed that she was back in home. Nitish was acting so caring.She felt so happy to see her husband such a loving.She felt as if she was falling in love again. But then while sleeping she was started hearing those screams.She was so shocked to see that Nitish was screaming loudly."Don't kill me Ragini..Don't kill .."She was so shocked.When she pushed him and he was woke up,he just ran away from her.Ragini"What happened? Why are you scared of me?""You are trying to kill me.""Why should I try to kill my own husband?Are you still in your dream?"Then Nitish came to sense he was dreaming again.He gave one forced smile and said "Just a bad dream."But after that she noticed that he just kept away from her.She tried to talk to her but he just avoided by telling her that his work was remained in office due to house work he had to do during her sickness.But she knew that it was not true.On each day he was having strange kind of dreams.His health was started suffering.Ragini could see it clearly.One day when she went to hospital for her routine check up with Nitish. She brought out Nitish's subject before Doctor.Doctor"Why don't you visit psychiatrist?"Nitish"My problem is not that big.This nightmare will go away in some days.""I hope so.But still keep this card and contact this Doctor.If you feel that you are not okay."Nitish nodded.Sadly Doctor's fear turned out to be true. He just kept having nightmares on each day. It was horrible for him.He just never understood what was happening but he could clearly feel that his married life was destroying due to his strange fears.Ragini was getting more and more upset by his behavior.He decided to visit psychiatrist without telling Ragini.Finally one day he took his appointment.It was proved hard that he thought.He had to wait for long time in waiting room.Finally when he went inside, he felt so much scared even to go inside.But when he went inside that psychiatrist talked so nicely that he began to relax.Slowly he began to tell him every thing.But he was not totally relaxed at beginning.He had keep visit that psychiatrist.But step by step he began to trust psychiatrist and finally he told him about his mistake.Psychiatrist"But it was not only your mistake.Ragini could have read it before drinking.""No.She can't.She is not educated.""What?So that is your problem. You are feeling guilty. ""Right.I am feeling guilty that I gave her that juice by mistake."Psychiatrist smiled"No you are wrong there. You are making that food just because you are feeling guilty already,You are feeling guilty because you never let her chance to learn words or you never tried to educate her.You just kept her busy with kids and house work."Nitish was so shocked.But then he felt that Psychiatrist was right."That guilt lead to Anxiety Disorder.You were scared that she will not like you so you are making food to please her.Then that incidence happened so you began to feel she must have hated you from heart because you have never given her chance to learn.She wanted that chance.But she didn't hate you that much.Just give her chance to learn and you will be fine."Nitish nodded.Then he went home.He convinced Ragini that she must complete her studies.At first she rejected that idea.But then slowly she accepted it.She started going in class to study.Many people laughed on Nitish and Ragini. Even kids were not that much happy at beginning.But Nitish remained stuck to that decision and Ragini kept going in college also.Slowly kids accepted it and supported their parents.In this process when Nitish's dream were gone,he just never sensed.But he was perfect now.He felt that he was perfect husband now.Even if he didn't have time for family still he was perfect because there was true love and gratitude in eyes of his wife.He was perfectly happy and at peace from his heart. After all that was true need of every heart.
The End
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