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Bina was getting ready for her show.She was always tried to do her best and every one had appreciated it.Until now she was always considered as best actress in every part.She was sure that every one was waiting for her entry.She started getting ready with her make-up.She knew that she would do her best.But still she felt that something was not right.She felt as if floor would vanish under her feet.She was so tense on every point that her first class acting was making her successful on every point.Then she felt that in that light of stage a strange feeling on every moment.She felt that in this light every thing would look so good after all those audience was looking at her.She knew that she could get some nice attention on every moment. Bina was so happy when she started taking positions. She was looking so nice on that drama.She was so happy when she get success.She felt just one thing that she needed.Money and occupation were combination which would look perfect on every point.She felt just one thing from her mind.That those acting skill were so perfect that she felt that she could get every thing.She was going ahead just as per her thinking of success.She wanted fame and money so she entered in this industry.She started with drama and now she was even acting in films.But still before every shot she felt same fear from inside as if every thing would be perfect when she could get things.She felt that those thoughts which entered inside her life. Bina was going ahead.Her acting was so perfect and nice.She could see that she would go ahead that those thoughts which would be good to her life.But when she went ahead on stage,she was going to talk just as she always did.But she was so scared that one day she would faint before it.But still she felt doing it.It was her ticket to her fame.She needed to do it.She wanted to do every thing to get things as per her wish.She was doing things in wrong way.She knew that she could stand on stage and did her best.Her acting would look so nice before every one.She could see that she was acting in her best way.Her acting was best of her skill in life.She wanted that acting was her best skill on every point.But still she hated when she had to start performing before going on stage.It was so strange that when she reached there,she did everything perfect but until going there.She felt so scared.She felt that she needed to do something for that.While thinking that she went on stage.Once again she started doing her role.She received clapped.Then she went inside during interval.This time she felt that she was even little bit scared during show.She knew that it would go away but this time that feeling stayed with her for some time on stage.She didn't like this.She was so scared now.If she started feeling this during time of show.It was so horrible.It could spoil her future and she even had to compensate some of producers.She just didn't imagine it at all.She was so scared that she didn't want to think about it.But she was kept thinking about it.It was first time when on stage she felt that she was scared.
When Bina started coming out for interval,she saw that crowd was gathered around back stage.Every one was trying to come near her.Some wanted autographs and some wanted pictures.Some even wanted photos to be clicked.But she knew that her bodyguards would never let any one near her.It was her rule that they would never let any one come near her.These bodyguards knew it very well that no one was allowed near her.They always kept it that way. Bina was getting things totally wrong. She was very comfortable with that arrangement.Every one knew that actress Bina hated fans.She was criticized about it many times in media.But she didn't want to meet any one after show or shooting because she wanted to hide that she was scared.She just ran to her room.She knew that every one considered her rude still she didn't want to change that life style.She was doing it totally wrong.That was public opinion.But in her angle they just never cared about her feeling all they wanted was photos of famous person.They just did everything just to get her fame like they wanted to click with her to show off whole world.But she was sure if any one noticed her sweat.They would start gossiping.She just didn't imagine gossips which started if she fainted due to that fear which entered inside her mind. She knew that some of this crazy reporter even began to claim that she was pregnant.It was worst disaster.She never wanted spots on character.She was not even interested in any one.But they never accepted that she was without affair so they just kept questioning her about it.She didn't want increase of such gossips so she always avoided media and fans afterwards.But today she was more scared.She felt that fear during show.She was so tense.She didn't want that to happen during day. It was having those fears but just before going on stage.She was so scared.She decided that she must discuss it with some one.But she didn't want people to know about it.Then she remembered her childhood friend Ruby. Bina saw that no one was near her.Then she made one call to Ruby who agreed to meet her willingly to dinner.She was so happy.It all was settled.She knew that Ruby would help her.Bina was so upset by her thinking. She knew that Ruby would give her solution.She would tell her something useful. Bina was so sure that she was getting some shortcut in life.She decided that Ruby was expert in finding solution of problems inside life.She was doing it all for many days.Every time whenever Bina got in problems,she went to Ruby.Last time when her film got flopped and paper criticized her.Ruby told her that how did she suppose to handle it.She managed to put all blame on director.It worked perfect inside life.She decided to give call to Ruby. Bina was waiting for that dinner. Bina was started preparing her dinner on every moment.She was getting ready for dinner.
Bina set every thing on table.She was setting every thing properly.Those tables would look so perfect and fine.She settled every thing just as her thought.Those tables were set perfectly.She arranged every thing in a way an actress would set in life.She arranged all those things properly.Bina was waiting for Ruby after long time finally Ruby came there. Ruby saw that arrangement and smiled.She loved it when Bina needed her.After all Bina was star and Ruby loved it when Bina was forced to treat her in such big way like queen.She felt that she was some one special.She started enjoying Bina's need.Ruby knew from heart that Bina was in some emotional problem.Bina just loved crying on problem and she needed one shoulder.She felt that Ruby was perfect for it and Ruby loved her thoughts.Ruby liked bossing on her in such situation and this was one of them.When Ruby entered,she looked Bina with her superior smile.Ruby"So what is it?""I just want to meet you.I have not seen you for so many days."Then Bina gave a nice hug to Ruby.Ruby returned it.Then for long time Bina just kept discussing many issues.Ruby knew that she wanted something.But Ruby didn't push her.She let her move to subject slowly and finally Bina told her about her anxiety.Ruby"My god.Why don't you go to psychiatrist?""What?I am not mad.I just need something to relax me.""But you can't have any thing without Doctor's prescription.""Come on.I need it.Do you know any medicine."Now Ruby was confused.She knew some medicines but she couldn't just prescribe them.She was not Doctor.Ruby"I can't tell you just those medicines.They have some side effects which would harm us."Bina screamed"Nonsense.Just tell me name."Bina just threw a bundle of money before Ruby.Ruby was so shocked.Bina was making show off.But she never acted this harsh.Ruby knew that problem was big.She was so confused.She didn't want to suggest medicine.But then she looked at money and changed her thoughts.Ruby "Okay."She told her the name.Bina"And Doctor's prescription?I can't get them without it.""I can't give you that.."Bina threw more money.Ruby was so happy from inside.Today was her lucky day.Bina was literally throwing money on her and in return she was asking nominal thing after all for Ruby finding such a Doctor was not hard.But she kept quiet with hope of more money.She was shocked to see that her hope turned out to be true.Bina threw more and then Ruby nodded.Bina smiled happily.Ruby made few phone calls just before Bina to arranged that medicine.Bina knew that she was doing illegal thing.But she needed it to live life.She just waited.Finally Ruby told her that tomorrow she would bring medicine and Bina looked happy and relieved.Every thing was settled in Bina's eyes.She was cured with that medicine.In her view she was not needed psychiatrist.She was not a mad person or some one who was having nervous break down.
Due to continuous phone calls from Bina Ruby had to arrange it.Bina was so happy to get that prescription.She just ran to market and got that tablets.They were just perfect.She was no more scared of any thing.She felt rise of confidence inside her.That medicine was doing miracle.Until one day she suddenly noticed that she forgot date of her show.She went too late.Every one was so angry.All audience was ready with things to throw on stage.She just reached on time and show was started.But some destruction was already done.When show was over,Director came to her and asked angrily"Why don't you come on time?"Bina" I have forgotten about that show.""Forgotten about show?How can be that possible?Any way now just keep practicing for next show and just come on time or I will fire you."Bina nodded.She could able to say to her director that she didn't understand how did she manage to forget.She did every thing perfect way.But she was feeling one thing that her forgetting become so strange.Then slowly she began to realize that she was forgotten many incidence like once she forgot to attend one important paper interview.That reporter was so shocked.He just kept looking at her as if she was some alien."But I have phoned you few hours ago."Bina was sure that this was true.But she couldn't remember when did this happen.She was so confused.She was not longer scared but her memory was having side effects.Now a days she just began to forget some incidence.She felt that she must had forgotten due to busy schedule.But then slowly every one started complaining regarding her habit of forgetting.It began to become pain for every one.She just began keep forgetting instructions and every thing was started turning worst.She didn't feel that good due to those medicines.So one day she decided that she would not take them.She just threw away that packet of medicines.But then just in few hours she started feeling that she needed those medicines.She just couldn't go out without it.She was so nervous.She needed some one to help her to go out and those medicines were her pole.At one point she wanted to run away from them so she just threw them in dustbin.Then she felt so upset.That she just wanted to take them out of dustbin.But then she thought that she could buy new one.She went to medical shop.That person looked at her with suspicion."Madam are you that actress Bina?"She nodded.That chemist looked shocked" Madam you should not have come out like.Look people are gathering around you."She saw that crowd.She was so scared now.That she started running away in any direction.She no more had any sense of what she was doing.She just kept running in any direction.Every thing turned in chaos.She saw that even media started running after her.She just kept running.Until she finally fall on road.But even then she was started crying for help.Finally she heard police car and they took her inside her car.
Bina was so upset due to all this.She was hurt little bit but she fainted due to anxiety.Those police man took her to hospital where Doctor checked her.Doctor was so shocked to see that medicine."Do you visit this Doctor?"Bina turned her head negatively.Doctor"I can easily guess that because no doctor with sound mind will just kept giving this to you without treatment.I just don't understand how can educated people like you do such mistake?""I don't want to show people that I am having nervous break down.Now they know it.My career is over."Bina started crying.She knew that she would be shown in horrible condition while running on road in T.V. news and papers.Doctor smiled"Now they will call it just publicity stunt.No need to worry.First you need to go to psychiatrist."Bina nodded.She felt sure that she was mad.Bina was sure that every thing was over for her now.Bina just kept looking at ceiling.She just kept looking that way for few hours.Then psychiatrist came.He started asking her questions.She answered them honestly.Psychiatrist"You were suffering from anxiety disorder.Why don't you come to me at beginning only?""I thought I am not mad.""You are not mad and no one is saying that.""But I just ran.."Bina started crying."It is normal.Actually you have anxiety disorder and for it.You needed medicines as well as treatment.When you started just taking medicines.At first it was reduced but then slowly you started seeing effects of medicines like laps in memory etc.Then you feel that you had to quit them.But by then you were addictive to them due to heavy dose which you have taken without proper medical advice.You should never take any medicines without advice because they would had side effects.You are not Doctor so don't try to become one.You are so addictive to it that you just started running for them without thinking that some one would recognize you and create problem for you.But you just never paid any attention to people until chemist point out.Then you are once more anxiety because you are scared of such a situation and you started running.This happened due to that wrong treatment.You have taken on your own."Bina"So that medicine was wrong.""No.Your dose are wrong.You doesn't even started all those therapies which should be started side by side with medicines.You can't be cured just by medicines.You need other types of help also.Bina was listening to all this with shock.She never thought that just taking one medicine would cause so much problems."Now what did I suppose to do?""Just visit psychiatrist."That Psychiatrist smiled.But Bina was watching just behind all her running which was shown on TV.She felt sure that she was mad.But since psychiatrist told her that she had to say she was not.She started laughing to herself.Then she stopped herself and asked psychiatrist"Am I mad now?I am laughing to myself.""No you are just frustrated.Don't worry when you get mad.I will inform you and give you certificate."Psychiatrist said it in such way that she started laughing again.But this time psychiatrist was laughing with her.She was relieved by that fact because she wanted to laugh but not alone any more.
The End
Bina was getting ready for her show.She was always tried to do her best and every one had appreciated it.Until now she was always considered as best actress in every part.She was sure that every one was waiting for her entry.She started getting ready with her make-up.She knew that she would do her best.But still she felt that something was not right.She felt as if floor would vanish under her feet.She was so tense on every point that her first class acting was making her successful on every point.Then she felt that in that light of stage a strange feeling on every moment.She felt that in this light every thing would look so good after all those audience was looking at her.She knew that she could get some nice attention on every moment. Bina was so happy when she started taking positions. She was looking so nice on that drama.She was so happy when she get success.She felt just one thing that she needed.Money and occupation were combination which would look perfect on every point.She felt just one thing from her mind.That those acting skill were so perfect that she felt that she could get every thing.She was going ahead just as per her thinking of success.She wanted fame and money so she entered in this industry.She started with drama and now she was even acting in films.But still before every shot she felt same fear from inside as if every thing would be perfect when she could get things.She felt that those thoughts which entered inside her life. Bina was going ahead.Her acting was so perfect and nice.She could see that she would go ahead that those thoughts which would be good to her life.But when she went ahead on stage,she was going to talk just as she always did.But she was so scared that one day she would faint before it.But still she felt doing it.It was her ticket to her fame.She needed to do it.She wanted to do every thing to get things as per her wish.She was doing things in wrong way.She knew that she could stand on stage and did her best.Her acting would look so nice before every one.She could see that she was acting in her best way.Her acting was best of her skill in life.She wanted that acting was her best skill on every point.But still she hated when she had to start performing before going on stage.It was so strange that when she reached there,she did everything perfect but until going there.She felt so scared.She felt that she needed to do something for that.While thinking that she went on stage.Once again she started doing her role.She received clapped.Then she went inside during interval.This time she felt that she was even little bit scared during show.She knew that it would go away but this time that feeling stayed with her for some time on stage.She didn't like this.She was so scared now.If she started feeling this during time of show.It was so horrible.It could spoil her future and she even had to compensate some of producers.She just didn't imagine it at all.She was so scared that she didn't want to think about it.But she was kept thinking about it.It was first time when on stage she felt that she was scared.
When Bina started coming out for interval,she saw that crowd was gathered around back stage.Every one was trying to come near her.Some wanted autographs and some wanted pictures.Some even wanted photos to be clicked.But she knew that her bodyguards would never let any one near her.It was her rule that they would never let any one come near her.These bodyguards knew it very well that no one was allowed near her.They always kept it that way. Bina was getting things totally wrong. She was very comfortable with that arrangement.Every one knew that actress Bina hated fans.She was criticized about it many times in media.But she didn't want to meet any one after show or shooting because she wanted to hide that she was scared.She just ran to her room.She knew that every one considered her rude still she didn't want to change that life style.She was doing it totally wrong.That was public opinion.But in her angle they just never cared about her feeling all they wanted was photos of famous person.They just did everything just to get her fame like they wanted to click with her to show off whole world.But she was sure if any one noticed her sweat.They would start gossiping.She just didn't imagine gossips which started if she fainted due to that fear which entered inside her mind. She knew that some of this crazy reporter even began to claim that she was pregnant.It was worst disaster.She never wanted spots on character.She was not even interested in any one.But they never accepted that she was without affair so they just kept questioning her about it.She didn't want increase of such gossips so she always avoided media and fans afterwards.But today she was more scared.She felt that fear during show.She was so tense.She didn't want that to happen during day. It was having those fears but just before going on stage.She was so scared.She decided that she must discuss it with some one.But she didn't want people to know about it.Then she remembered her childhood friend Ruby. Bina saw that no one was near her.Then she made one call to Ruby who agreed to meet her willingly to dinner.She was so happy.It all was settled.She knew that Ruby would help her.Bina was so upset by her thinking. She knew that Ruby would give her solution.She would tell her something useful. Bina was so sure that she was getting some shortcut in life.She decided that Ruby was expert in finding solution of problems inside life.She was doing it all for many days.Every time whenever Bina got in problems,she went to Ruby.Last time when her film got flopped and paper criticized her.Ruby told her that how did she suppose to handle it.She managed to put all blame on director.It worked perfect inside life.She decided to give call to Ruby. Bina was waiting for that dinner. Bina was started preparing her dinner on every moment.She was getting ready for dinner.
Bina set every thing on table.She was setting every thing properly.Those tables would look so perfect and fine.She settled every thing just as her thought.Those tables were set perfectly.She arranged every thing in a way an actress would set in life.She arranged all those things properly.Bina was waiting for Ruby after long time finally Ruby came there. Ruby saw that arrangement and smiled.She loved it when Bina needed her.After all Bina was star and Ruby loved it when Bina was forced to treat her in such big way like queen.She felt that she was some one special.She started enjoying Bina's need.Ruby knew from heart that Bina was in some emotional problem.Bina just loved crying on problem and she needed one shoulder.She felt that Ruby was perfect for it and Ruby loved her thoughts.Ruby liked bossing on her in such situation and this was one of them.When Ruby entered,she looked Bina with her superior smile.Ruby"So what is it?""I just want to meet you.I have not seen you for so many days."Then Bina gave a nice hug to Ruby.Ruby returned it.Then for long time Bina just kept discussing many issues.Ruby knew that she wanted something.But Ruby didn't push her.She let her move to subject slowly and finally Bina told her about her anxiety.Ruby"My god.Why don't you go to psychiatrist?""What?I am not mad.I just need something to relax me.""But you can't have any thing without Doctor's prescription.""Come on.I need it.Do you know any medicine."Now Ruby was confused.She knew some medicines but she couldn't just prescribe them.She was not Doctor.Ruby"I can't tell you just those medicines.They have some side effects which would harm us."Bina screamed"Nonsense.Just tell me name."Bina just threw a bundle of money before Ruby.Ruby was so shocked.Bina was making show off.But she never acted this harsh.Ruby knew that problem was big.She was so confused.She didn't want to suggest medicine.But then she looked at money and changed her thoughts.Ruby "Okay."She told her the name.Bina"And Doctor's prescription?I can't get them without it.""I can't give you that.."Bina threw more money.Ruby was so happy from inside.Today was her lucky day.Bina was literally throwing money on her and in return she was asking nominal thing after all for Ruby finding such a Doctor was not hard.But she kept quiet with hope of more money.She was shocked to see that her hope turned out to be true.Bina threw more and then Ruby nodded.Bina smiled happily.Ruby made few phone calls just before Bina to arranged that medicine.Bina knew that she was doing illegal thing.But she needed it to live life.She just waited.Finally Ruby told her that tomorrow she would bring medicine and Bina looked happy and relieved.Every thing was settled in Bina's eyes.She was cured with that medicine.In her view she was not needed psychiatrist.She was not a mad person or some one who was having nervous break down.
Due to continuous phone calls from Bina Ruby had to arrange it.Bina was so happy to get that prescription.She just ran to market and got that tablets.They were just perfect.She was no more scared of any thing.She felt rise of confidence inside her.That medicine was doing miracle.Until one day she suddenly noticed that she forgot date of her show.She went too late.Every one was so angry.All audience was ready with things to throw on stage.She just reached on time and show was started.But some destruction was already done.When show was over,Director came to her and asked angrily"Why don't you come on time?"Bina" I have forgotten about that show.""Forgotten about show?How can be that possible?Any way now just keep practicing for next show and just come on time or I will fire you."Bina nodded.She could able to say to her director that she didn't understand how did she manage to forget.She did every thing perfect way.But she was feeling one thing that her forgetting become so strange.Then slowly she began to realize that she was forgotten many incidence like once she forgot to attend one important paper interview.That reporter was so shocked.He just kept looking at her as if she was some alien."But I have phoned you few hours ago."Bina was sure that this was true.But she couldn't remember when did this happen.She was so confused.She was not longer scared but her memory was having side effects.Now a days she just began to forget some incidence.She felt that she must had forgotten due to busy schedule.But then slowly every one started complaining regarding her habit of forgetting.It began to become pain for every one.She just began keep forgetting instructions and every thing was started turning worst.She didn't feel that good due to those medicines.So one day she decided that she would not take them.She just threw away that packet of medicines.But then just in few hours she started feeling that she needed those medicines.She just couldn't go out without it.She was so nervous.She needed some one to help her to go out and those medicines were her pole.At one point she wanted to run away from them so she just threw them in dustbin.Then she felt so upset.That she just wanted to take them out of dustbin.But then she thought that she could buy new one.She went to medical shop.That person looked at her with suspicion."Madam are you that actress Bina?"She nodded.That chemist looked shocked" Madam you should not have come out like.Look people are gathering around you."She saw that crowd.She was so scared now.That she started running away in any direction.She no more had any sense of what she was doing.She just kept running in any direction.Every thing turned in chaos.She saw that even media started running after her.She just kept running.Until she finally fall on road.But even then she was started crying for help.Finally she heard police car and they took her inside her car.
Bina was so upset due to all this.She was hurt little bit but she fainted due to anxiety.Those police man took her to hospital where Doctor checked her.Doctor was so shocked to see that medicine."Do you visit this Doctor?"Bina turned her head negatively.Doctor"I can easily guess that because no doctor with sound mind will just kept giving this to you without treatment.I just don't understand how can educated people like you do such mistake?""I don't want to show people that I am having nervous break down.Now they know it.My career is over."Bina started crying.She knew that she would be shown in horrible condition while running on road in T.V. news and papers.Doctor smiled"Now they will call it just publicity stunt.No need to worry.First you need to go to psychiatrist."Bina nodded.She felt sure that she was mad.Bina was sure that every thing was over for her now.Bina just kept looking at ceiling.She just kept looking that way for few hours.Then psychiatrist came.He started asking her questions.She answered them honestly.Psychiatrist"You were suffering from anxiety disorder.Why don't you come to me at beginning only?""I thought I am not mad.""You are not mad and no one is saying that.""But I just ran.."Bina started crying."It is normal.Actually you have anxiety disorder and for it.You needed medicines as well as treatment.When you started just taking medicines.At first it was reduced but then slowly you started seeing effects of medicines like laps in memory etc.Then you feel that you had to quit them.But by then you were addictive to them due to heavy dose which you have taken without proper medical advice.You should never take any medicines without advice because they would had side effects.You are not Doctor so don't try to become one.You are so addictive to it that you just started running for them without thinking that some one would recognize you and create problem for you.But you just never paid any attention to people until chemist point out.Then you are once more anxiety because you are scared of such a situation and you started running.This happened due to that wrong treatment.You have taken on your own."Bina"So that medicine was wrong.""No.Your dose are wrong.You doesn't even started all those therapies which should be started side by side with medicines.You can't be cured just by medicines.You need other types of help also.Bina was listening to all this with shock.She never thought that just taking one medicine would cause so much problems."Now what did I suppose to do?""Just visit psychiatrist."That Psychiatrist smiled.But Bina was watching just behind all her running which was shown on TV.She felt sure that she was mad.But since psychiatrist told her that she had to say she was not.She started laughing to herself.Then she stopped herself and asked psychiatrist"Am I mad now?I am laughing to myself.""No you are just frustrated.Don't worry when you get mad.I will inform you and give you certificate."Psychiatrist said it in such way that she started laughing again.But this time psychiatrist was laughing with her.She was relieved by that fact because she wanted to laugh but not alone any more.
The End
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