Wrong thought
Rajiv was looking around for purchasing shirt for him.When he suddenly found a beautiful toy and suddenly face of his son Aman came before him.He knew that he just wanted it to be in his son's hand.He decided to buy it.But when he saw it's cost,he felt that it was too much but then in his mind he felt that it was worth it.After all it was special gift for his son.Rajiv just loved his son from heart and wanted to give everything from world to him.He went inside that shop and just took that toy.He paid all money he stored for his clothes and things on that toy and bought it.He was so happy.He was thinking that how much his son love that toy.He could easily imagined Aman's happy face while playing with that toy.He just felt so pleased.He just wanted to fly and show that toy to his son.Rajiv was on top of the world.After all this was that toy which he wanted when he was kid.But since he was grown up.He was never permitted to waste money on it.But Aman could play with it.He had decided in mind that he would give everything to Aman which was missing from his life.He wanted just happiness for Aman.He went so happily at home.Little Aman was already asleep when he went home.At beginning he was upset then when he looked at his son's sweet face during sleeping.He felt so nice then suddenly Juhi came from behind.Juhi"What is it?""A helicopter.""What?It was very costly.""I know but I am sure Aman will love it."Juhi started looking upset.Juhi"I just don't understand when you will learn to give value to money.Come on we will need it when our son grows up and you wasting it.""Come on I am not using his fixed deposits.I have used money I kept for my shirt."Juhi"This is too much."Then she angrily went inside kitchen."Rajiv went after her.Rajiv "Why don't you forget it now? Can I tell you one thing?I am planning to take you on movie?What did you think?""No...I can't come Aman is so small.""We can keep him with my parents.""Now don't say that you know your parents as much as I know.They will not able to take care of Aman.""Come on.We are always at home now a days I want to go out.""Let Aman grow up a little then I can keep him at home.""How old he had to turn?Eighteen years?This is too much.""I am doing a right thing.I don't feel it is right to keep him like that you are his father.Don't you feel that it was wrong?"Rajiv nodded and returned to bedroom and slept on bed because he knew that it would take Juhi hours before she finished her work in kitchen so he slept.
Next day when he woke up.He saw that every one was already awake.He watched clock.He was late Juhi forgot to wake him up once again.It was happening again and again now a days.She didn't let him set alarm on his time because she set it much earlier because she wanted to finish her work.But before today she used to wake him up on time for office but since Aman was born,she just didn't have enough time to remember it all.He many times thought that he had every thing inside life.He was so happy then he went ahead to take that gift.He ran towards Aman.He started coming near Aman's room.He felt that his son would be so happy so he went in his room.Aman was awake and playing with his toys.Rajiv went near him.Rajiv"Look at this helicopter.Don't you like it."Then Rajiv started showing that helicopter to Aman.He started showing it.Aman looked at it with some interest.Then he took it in hands for few minutes.But then Aman began to look at it from every angle.Rajiv felt so happy from heart.But then just in few moments Aman threw away that toy.Rajv was so upset inside life.Then suddenly Rajiv thought that toy was broken in every angle.Aman had thrown it away in just few moments and it was spoiled.He was so shocked.Rajiv became so angry that his son had broken toy in just few moments.Rajiv started screaming on Aman who started crying then Juhi came outside.She picked him up.Juhi"I told you that you had wasted your money but still you had done it and now you are screaming on him.Will you stop this?He never like that thing.He never wanted it.It was so costly.You should not have bought it for him."Rajiv felt more upset.He just went out of that room.Rajiv was so upset.He came home with motive of making his son Aman happy and suddenly all things turned wrong way and every one was unhappy with him.Rajiv was so upset now Aman his son was upset and Juhi was also upset.Now a days he felt that every thing was turning wrong on every point.Rajiv was so happy in life until Aman was born.His dear son Aman who was dear to his heart still he felt that he had something important inside his life.Rajiv decided that he would bring better gift in life but then he felt that he would improve in his thinking.
Juhi was so irritated when Rajiv once again started telling her about his new plans of future.He always kept telling her that he wanted to move away from that area to some posh area.He wanted to buy big house for them.But Juhi didn't want him to waste money like this.She wanted it to be saved.After all their house was big enough for them.She didn't want to waste money.Now a days they were arguing every day about something.Rajiv just wanted to live same way as they lived before he was not taking responsibilities properly.Just like today he bought some expensive toy for Aman and then Aman broke it.This had become common.Whenever Aman pointed at anything, Rajiv just ran to bring it.Then their argument started every time.In end Rajiv started suggesting some outing for them.When Juhi was so exhausted that she wanted to relax,but then today she decided that she must understand one thing.She should not let Rajiv get upset like this so she decided that she would call her mother this time to take care of Aman and go out with Rajiv.When Rajiv came back next day,Juhi arranged every thing and when Rajiv came with movie tickets,they planned to go.So she was ready.Her mother was taking care of Aman.But Juhi could see that Aman was not happy with this arrangement,he was crying loudly.Juhi was determined this time.She didn't want to hurt Rajiv.But when Rajiv came home,He saw Aman was crying.He was so upset.He felt that he was not acting right on any point.Rajiv felt that he was doing wrong then he felt that even Juhi was angry with everything.Rajiv"Maybe we should skip our plan?""And waste our money...are you out of your mind.You bought those tickets because you wanted it and now you want it to waste.""So I wanted it and you never wanted!!!"Juhi was so confused"I never said it.""No..No..You are saying truth in anger.You never wanted to come with me.You are not interested in going out."After that they just continued abusing each other while Aman was crying whole time.Their tickets were wasted and Aman also spend whole evening in crying because Juhi was not in condition to take care of Aman after that fight.Juhi's Mom was observing it.She felt that it was beginning of big problems.Juhi's Mom"Something is totally wrong from every side of life.""What should I do Mom?He was not listening...""But you are also not cooperating.Try to act nicely.""I am trying mom.."Then whole night Juhi just kept complaining and Rajiv slept on sofa.
After that Rajiv stopped arguing,in fact they both began to avoid chatting.Rajiv could clearly saw that Juhi was not even missing their chatting.But still he had his son Aman with whom he could play whole evening.His son Aman was growing up now.He hoped that he would able to enjoy every moment of joy from Aman.After all Aman had become only source of happiness for them both.Suddenly one day it all started,Rajiv had that dream.He saw that he was taking his son in gallery and then he saw that he threw him away.He screamed loudly and woke up.Due to his scream every one in room woke up.Juhi "What happened?"For sometime he just didn't able to sleep.He turned around and saw that Juhi was patting Aman while talking to him.Rajiv felt that he could harm his son.He was so confused.How could he think like that he loved his son Aman who was only cause of happiness to him.Rajiv"Just a nightmare."Then he just didn't dare to sleep.He just kept working.Juhi felt that it was strange but she was busy with Aman so just told him go to sleep as soon as possible.Rajiv kept working until midnight.Rajiv felt that this thought would leave his mind by next day.But it was not happening.He was so scared of that gallery that he started locking it when he see it open.But he knew that he could still know the place of keys.He was scared of that strange thought.He knew that he loved his son but still he was having so strange and horrible thought about that little baby.He was so shocked.He didn't want to confess them but he started feeling that it would just something so wrong.He loved his son from heart and he was feeling it.But then night after night he started screaming inside his life.He just felt one thing from his mind that on every point he would have just one thinking from inside life.That he should not express them to anyone.Juhi was so confused by all this.He tried to talk to him but he was not ready to say anything.Then when she complained about his screams,he just started sleeping on sofa.Juhi could clearly sensed something was wrong with their marriage but she couldn't understand meaning of it.She was so upset.One day she finally called her Mom.Until now Rajiv was never talked anything against her Mom and he always respected her so Juhi thought she was her last hope of surviving their marriage.
When Juhi's Mom came to house,Rajiv sensed that she wanted to talk.He had decided that he would not tell truth.But when she talked with him so nicely,he started confessing everything.But first he made sure that Juhi was not around.Juhi's Mom"You should go to psychiatrist...""No..No.Juhi will know and my parents will know.Mom will understand but my Dad.."Juhi's Mom knew that how did Rajiv's Dad always insulted him.Juhi's mom felt sorry for him and she said"Don't worry.I will not let any one know."Rajiv felt relieved.That night he also had same dream and he was so upset.Finally Juhi's mother took him to psychiatrist.Then he discussed everything with psychiatrist.Finally Psychiatrist called Juhi's Mom."I think he is suffering from Obsessive-compulsive Disorder.It all happen because in his heart he is blaming his son for problem in life and he wanted Aman out of his way.He wanted his happily married life back.""How could he?He is father...""Stop..Stop listen to me.It is his unconscious desire.His conscious mind will not accept it now.If you blame him then he could react in any way because his conscious love his son from heart.""I just don't understand.""Well human mind is strange sometimes it started thinking in strange way.He was angry because he was blamed for everything and getting least affection from his wife Juhi due to her attention to son.""But Juhi is trying...""I know I don't blame her.But give him some time then I will make it right and I want you to bring your daughter with you and don't inform your son-in-law about it."Juhi's Mom nodded.Then Psychiatrist talked with Rajiv for hours.Juhi's Mom was watching him.She was so tense.She just hoped that Juhi would manage everything and everything turned into normal.When next day she told Juhi to come there who agreed willingly.Then Psychiatrist talked with her for hours.Juhi's Mom was sitting with her.But she knew that it was Juhi's fight.She was just standing there like some audience and watching it all.She just hoped that it would be over soon as Psychiatrist promised.
The End
Rajiv was looking around for purchasing shirt for him.When he suddenly found a beautiful toy and suddenly face of his son Aman came before him.He knew that he just wanted it to be in his son's hand.He decided to buy it.But when he saw it's cost,he felt that it was too much but then in his mind he felt that it was worth it.After all it was special gift for his son.Rajiv just loved his son from heart and wanted to give everything from world to him.He went inside that shop and just took that toy.He paid all money he stored for his clothes and things on that toy and bought it.He was so happy.He was thinking that how much his son love that toy.He could easily imagined Aman's happy face while playing with that toy.He just felt so pleased.He just wanted to fly and show that toy to his son.Rajiv was on top of the world.After all this was that toy which he wanted when he was kid.But since he was grown up.He was never permitted to waste money on it.But Aman could play with it.He had decided in mind that he would give everything to Aman which was missing from his life.He wanted just happiness for Aman.He went so happily at home.Little Aman was already asleep when he went home.At beginning he was upset then when he looked at his son's sweet face during sleeping.He felt so nice then suddenly Juhi came from behind.Juhi"What is it?""A helicopter.""What?It was very costly.""I know but I am sure Aman will love it."Juhi started looking upset.Juhi"I just don't understand when you will learn to give value to money.Come on we will need it when our son grows up and you wasting it.""Come on I am not using his fixed deposits.I have used money I kept for my shirt."Juhi"This is too much."Then she angrily went inside kitchen."Rajiv went after her.Rajiv "Why don't you forget it now? Can I tell you one thing?I am planning to take you on movie?What did you think?""No...I can't come Aman is so small.""We can keep him with my parents.""Now don't say that you know your parents as much as I know.They will not able to take care of Aman.""Come on.We are always at home now a days I want to go out.""Let Aman grow up a little then I can keep him at home.""How old he had to turn?Eighteen years?This is too much.""I am doing a right thing.I don't feel it is right to keep him like that you are his father.Don't you feel that it was wrong?"Rajiv nodded and returned to bedroom and slept on bed because he knew that it would take Juhi hours before she finished her work in kitchen so he slept.
Next day when he woke up.He saw that every one was already awake.He watched clock.He was late Juhi forgot to wake him up once again.It was happening again and again now a days.She didn't let him set alarm on his time because she set it much earlier because she wanted to finish her work.But before today she used to wake him up on time for office but since Aman was born,she just didn't have enough time to remember it all.He many times thought that he had every thing inside life.He was so happy then he went ahead to take that gift.He ran towards Aman.He started coming near Aman's room.He felt that his son would be so happy so he went in his room.Aman was awake and playing with his toys.Rajiv went near him.Rajiv"Look at this helicopter.Don't you like it."Then Rajiv started showing that helicopter to Aman.He started showing it.Aman looked at it with some interest.Then he took it in hands for few minutes.But then Aman began to look at it from every angle.Rajiv felt so happy from heart.But then just in few moments Aman threw away that toy.Rajv was so upset inside life.Then suddenly Rajiv thought that toy was broken in every angle.Aman had thrown it away in just few moments and it was spoiled.He was so shocked.Rajiv became so angry that his son had broken toy in just few moments.Rajiv started screaming on Aman who started crying then Juhi came outside.She picked him up.Juhi"I told you that you had wasted your money but still you had done it and now you are screaming on him.Will you stop this?He never like that thing.He never wanted it.It was so costly.You should not have bought it for him."Rajiv felt more upset.He just went out of that room.Rajiv was so upset.He came home with motive of making his son Aman happy and suddenly all things turned wrong way and every one was unhappy with him.Rajiv was so upset now Aman his son was upset and Juhi was also upset.Now a days he felt that every thing was turning wrong on every point.Rajiv was so happy in life until Aman was born.His dear son Aman who was dear to his heart still he felt that he had something important inside his life.Rajiv decided that he would bring better gift in life but then he felt that he would improve in his thinking.
Juhi was so irritated when Rajiv once again started telling her about his new plans of future.He always kept telling her that he wanted to move away from that area to some posh area.He wanted to buy big house for them.But Juhi didn't want him to waste money like this.She wanted it to be saved.After all their house was big enough for them.She didn't want to waste money.Now a days they were arguing every day about something.Rajiv just wanted to live same way as they lived before he was not taking responsibilities properly.Just like today he bought some expensive toy for Aman and then Aman broke it.This had become common.Whenever Aman pointed at anything, Rajiv just ran to bring it.Then their argument started every time.In end Rajiv started suggesting some outing for them.When Juhi was so exhausted that she wanted to relax,but then today she decided that she must understand one thing.She should not let Rajiv get upset like this so she decided that she would call her mother this time to take care of Aman and go out with Rajiv.When Rajiv came back next day,Juhi arranged every thing and when Rajiv came with movie tickets,they planned to go.So she was ready.Her mother was taking care of Aman.But Juhi could see that Aman was not happy with this arrangement,he was crying loudly.Juhi was determined this time.She didn't want to hurt Rajiv.But when Rajiv came home,He saw Aman was crying.He was so upset.He felt that he was not acting right on any point.Rajiv felt that he was doing wrong then he felt that even Juhi was angry with everything.Rajiv"Maybe we should skip our plan?""And waste our money...are you out of your mind.You bought those tickets because you wanted it and now you want it to waste.""So I wanted it and you never wanted!!!"Juhi was so confused"I never said it.""No..No..You are saying truth in anger.You never wanted to come with me.You are not interested in going out."After that they just continued abusing each other while Aman was crying whole time.Their tickets were wasted and Aman also spend whole evening in crying because Juhi was not in condition to take care of Aman after that fight.Juhi's Mom was observing it.She felt that it was beginning of big problems.Juhi's Mom"Something is totally wrong from every side of life.""What should I do Mom?He was not listening...""But you are also not cooperating.Try to act nicely.""I am trying mom.."Then whole night Juhi just kept complaining and Rajiv slept on sofa.
After that Rajiv stopped arguing,in fact they both began to avoid chatting.Rajiv could clearly saw that Juhi was not even missing their chatting.But still he had his son Aman with whom he could play whole evening.His son Aman was growing up now.He hoped that he would able to enjoy every moment of joy from Aman.After all Aman had become only source of happiness for them both.Suddenly one day it all started,Rajiv had that dream.He saw that he was taking his son in gallery and then he saw that he threw him away.He screamed loudly and woke up.Due to his scream every one in room woke up.Juhi "What happened?"For sometime he just didn't able to sleep.He turned around and saw that Juhi was patting Aman while talking to him.Rajiv felt that he could harm his son.He was so confused.How could he think like that he loved his son Aman who was only cause of happiness to him.Rajiv"Just a nightmare."Then he just didn't dare to sleep.He just kept working.Juhi felt that it was strange but she was busy with Aman so just told him go to sleep as soon as possible.Rajiv kept working until midnight.Rajiv felt that this thought would leave his mind by next day.But it was not happening.He was so scared of that gallery that he started locking it when he see it open.But he knew that he could still know the place of keys.He was scared of that strange thought.He knew that he loved his son but still he was having so strange and horrible thought about that little baby.He was so shocked.He didn't want to confess them but he started feeling that it would just something so wrong.He loved his son from heart and he was feeling it.But then night after night he started screaming inside his life.He just felt one thing from his mind that on every point he would have just one thinking from inside life.That he should not express them to anyone.Juhi was so confused by all this.He tried to talk to him but he was not ready to say anything.Then when she complained about his screams,he just started sleeping on sofa.Juhi could clearly sensed something was wrong with their marriage but she couldn't understand meaning of it.She was so upset.One day she finally called her Mom.Until now Rajiv was never talked anything against her Mom and he always respected her so Juhi thought she was her last hope of surviving their marriage.
When Juhi's Mom came to house,Rajiv sensed that she wanted to talk.He had decided that he would not tell truth.But when she talked with him so nicely,he started confessing everything.But first he made sure that Juhi was not around.Juhi's Mom"You should go to psychiatrist...""No..No.Juhi will know and my parents will know.Mom will understand but my Dad.."Juhi's Mom knew that how did Rajiv's Dad always insulted him.Juhi's mom felt sorry for him and she said"Don't worry.I will not let any one know."Rajiv felt relieved.That night he also had same dream and he was so upset.Finally Juhi's mother took him to psychiatrist.Then he discussed everything with psychiatrist.Finally Psychiatrist called Juhi's Mom."I think he is suffering from Obsessive-compulsive Disorder.It all happen because in his heart he is blaming his son for problem in life and he wanted Aman out of his way.He wanted his happily married life back.""How could he?He is father...""Stop..Stop listen to me.It is his unconscious desire.His conscious mind will not accept it now.If you blame him then he could react in any way because his conscious love his son from heart.""I just don't understand.""Well human mind is strange sometimes it started thinking in strange way.He was angry because he was blamed for everything and getting least affection from his wife Juhi due to her attention to son.""But Juhi is trying...""I know I don't blame her.But give him some time then I will make it right and I want you to bring your daughter with you and don't inform your son-in-law about it."Juhi's Mom nodded.Then Psychiatrist talked with Rajiv for hours.Juhi's Mom was watching him.She was so tense.She just hoped that Juhi would manage everything and everything turned into normal.When next day she told Juhi to come there who agreed willingly.Then Psychiatrist talked with her for hours.Juhi's Mom was sitting with her.But she knew that it was Juhi's fight.She was just standing there like some audience and watching it all.She just hoped that it would be over soon as Psychiatrist promised.
The End
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