Lost hours
Neelam was looking at watch. She was observing time. She could look at those clock. She saw that it's time would have effect on her mind. She just wanted to be there in perfect. When she wanted to every thing to be turned right on time, after all Rajat had always wanted to those things to be on time. He just never wanted to be late. It was her duty to turn things right for him. She just never wanted to hear his screaming regarding time. It was so irritating. She just wanted to get rid of this morning work. Then she had to make lunch. Then she had to pack lunch box for their son. Then she had to get ready for her office. She just wanted to sleep little longer. She could manage all even if she woke up little late. But Rajat never permit. He just wanted every thing on time. He called this his disciple. But his family considered it as a cruelty. They wanted to relax. After all he was not even going on job. Then Neelam got more upset by that thought. There were many sort of thoughts which were hidden inside her mind but first one was that she wanted to understand that why did he was not trying to find job. He always woke up on time. Then he was in home. She didn't know what he was doing. But she was sure about one thing. He was not doing any thing useful still when she returned home. He immediately started demanding tea. He said that he wanted his tea on time. Few times she suggested that he should make his own tea. Once he nodded then he started telling her that he was late for tea so he was not having it. So when a particular time was passed, he didn't take things. Like once when she was late, he didn't even ate food since it was late. In his eyes every second and minute had value but she had one question that if he value time so much then how could he waste time without searching for job. He was no longer interested in life. He started working on every moment with one thought. That was just to move with every daily schedule with timetable. He never crossed it. He started at every point in life. But then she started thinking once more about her job. She had to manage to get promotion. She started thinking one thought from mind. That they had one son. She wanted to get best future for her family and son. She started working on every point to get expensive budget for her son. She started doing her work in kitchen after all she had to complete her project in best way. She wanted a best home for her son. She knew that she was only hope of her son. Her husband was nothing useful for them. Rajat never managed to do any thing for them. He was just busy in one thing that was making his timetable and following it on every step of life. He needed to understand his work but he just understood his timetable inside his life. He was not ready to understand any other thing in his life. He started moving with just his schedule on every point. He wanted those schedule to be perfect. He was not any father or husband. He was just robot programmed to do his work according to his schedule nothing else. He was not like that in beginning he was human being but now he was just robot.
Neelam still remembered on every point. In old days he was so nice and wonderful. She still remembered when he used to take her on late drive. He was so nice. She still had her golden jewelery and diamond ornaments. She just still loved looking at them. On those days he used to shower them with gifts on every day. He used to take her in restaurant. She had many times told him just not to waste money like that. But he had never listened to her. On every point he just kept telling her that life was short to enjoy it. She wanted to understand those thoughts. But she was scared somewhere in heart regarding their spending. Then suddenly one day he came to her and told her that he had lost his job. After that he never went out for job. He just kept sitting in home. Finally she started to complain then he told her that he just couldn't find any job so soon since his past employer lodge complain against police station. She tried to ask him that what was that complaint. But he just ignored her. She wanted to call his office and ask. But then she decided against it. After all she knew that it must be regarding money. She knew that Rajat got excess money and he was spending it like water. She didn't want to understand cause since she already knew it. She wanted to dig that dirt. She just started feeling one thing. She had to adjust with situation so she took job. She wanted to forget mistakes of Rajat and move ahead. But Rajat was getting irritating day by day. She just didn't understand one thought that what was he doing for whole day. She just decided that she would continue working on each day. She had to manage his time schedules and then she moved ahead with life. Then she suddenly noticed that she had forgot to take out butter for Rajat when she noticed. There was chicken in kitchen. She was so shocked. Rajat never mentioned chicken. In fact she never liked even smell of it. But she looked it for Rajat. She never wanted to taste it but her son loved it. She took it out of freeze. She just hated it when Rajat didn't tell her much important thing. She just took it out and started cooking it. After all she didn't want it's smell when she went in office. Then she thought that this chicken would make her work easy. She could just cook it and then others things would not be that necessary. She could just took lunch in her office canteen. She just wanted to get ready so she decided to cook that chicken and make some chapatis. Then she suddenly remembered that she had to pack lunch box for son. She decided to give him bread butter after all when he had chicken for lunch . He would hardly cared for his lunch box. She managed every thing and she had finally managed to cook it. Then she started preparing simple breakfast. As soon as alarm rang, Rajat came in kitchen. Rajat "My break fast." "Your tea and toast jam," Rajat then suddenly smelt that chicken. Rajat "You are looking chicken." "Yes. I will make it and put it in freeze. You have to warm it in microwave. Then you can eat it." "I know. Just give me my breakfast." She gave it. Then she went back in bedroom. She looked at wall clock. She still got some time to sleep. She decided that she could little nap and then she would dress.
Then Neelam suddenly heard noise on glass panel of window. She woke up. She looked out of window. She heard those voices on window. She saw that one dove was making voices. She just looked at clock. She saw that she was getting late. She ran to mirror. Then she was shocked to see that she was already dressed up. She was so confused. Her dress was so different. She never remembered buying it. But then she thought that she must had dressed before sleeping. Then she started adding all finishing touch to her. She was getting so stressed up now a days. She just wanted to go to office. Then she went to out to get her son ready. But then she noticed that her son was not there. She started calling "Rajat.. Rajat.." "What happened? " "Where is Sunny?" "You took him to school." "Stop joking. I was sleeping." "You were not sleeping. You took him to school. In that strange way when he was crying regarding that school trip." "What school trip?" "He wanted to go to some school trip but you said that he would not. You just hit him and took him away." "Why did I do that?" Then she suddenly looked at clock. She sensed that Rajat was wasting her time. He must had took Sunny to school. She went inside. She took all proper files in her office bag. Then she started running. She knew one thing that Rajat was getting irritating and strange day by day. She saw that Rajat was cleaning house. He was cleaning every thing which was already clean. It was so strange instead of searching for job. He just kept sitting in house. She went out. She did all her work sincerely that day. She did every thing as per her instructions. She was doing every thing as per her boss but in her mind she just kept thinking about Rajat's strange behaviour, It was really weird. She just wanted him to be normal. Once upon a time she wanted to him to find some job. But now she just wanted him to act normal. She didn't want any troubles for sunny. When she returned back to home, she noticed that Sunny was doing his home work. He was studying with full attention. Then she saw that Rajat was teaching him. She suddenly felt so much anger towards him. She didn't understand that cause. But then she sensed that she wanted to sit with Sunny like that. She wanted to teach him. It was her duty and right to stay home with her son. But Rajat was sitting there and relaxing while she had to earn money in his place. She didn't remember properly when last time she sat with her son . Since she started earning, she was away from her child. She wanted to be with him. Then she started feeling so tired. She sensed one thing that she had to sleep for sometime. She went in kitchen and started cooking. She started cooking. She had to work hard. She began to do all her work. She started doing all cutting and then she started getting cooker ready for rice. She just wished one thing that Rajat should help her. She didn't want to see him near Sunny. In her eyes Rajat was bad influence for her son. She couldn't explain why but one thing was sure that she felt that if Sunny stayed with Rajat. Then Sunny also started growing bad habit. Then she felt that it must be due to losing of job since jobless was worst thing for her. She never wanted to understand that influence.
After some time Rajat came out of room, he noticed that food was already there. He started eating. Neelam felt so angry towards him. He never admired any thing made by her. She looked at Sunny with hope. But Sunny was too busy in looking at television. She felt as if all her work was useless. Once again her busy day went ahead. She completed all duty of wife and mother while her husband Rajat kept sitting at home. She sensed one thing that she was no longer had any importance to any one. She had become just machine to print money. Neelam "I cooked for you every day. But you ever admire it." Rajat " What was I suppose to admire? Your vegetable of potato!!You never cook some thing so tasty that could be admired. Every day just simple food but you have to give us credit that we never complete." Neelam was so angry. They didn't admire her just manage to criticize her. Then Rajat started laughing. Rajat "I was just joking. You cook just best. But I love to eat chicken that you cook yesterday. Why don't you cook like that every day? " "Yesterday? !! I have cooked it just today at morning." "Great." Then Rajat once again began eating. They finished whole chicken in just moring now complaining as if it was yesterday. She just hated it all. She started feeling upset.She just wanted break from this. Whole time she was just working and working. Then suddenly Rajat stood up and gave her one hug. Rajat "I got great news. I got job and my salary.." All remaining words were just gone over her head. She knew that it was greatest relief for her. But it was not working. She just felt more and more upset on every second. She finally started on thinking from mind. That she wanted to get rid of this all. But then she started thinking once again. She could go back to normal life, Neelam "Can I now quit my job?" "Of course honey. I have enough salary to feed us all. You can become just show piece once again." She just hated it when he said that to her. She wanted to relax but not this way. She had to do all work in house. She had to teach their son and in return he just called her useless. Neelam had to protect her pride so she said "I said I can. I am not going to." Rajat smiled " Just great." Rajat went in their room. He was on top of world while she was on bottom of world. She knew that nothing was going to help her. Rajat had become addicted to her salary. She did her whole job once again. This time she just had to call her mother-in-law to stay with her son. She had to do all extra work. Rajat had started acting once again in his normal way. He was nice and kind to her. But she just began to hate every thing. She just pretended to smile. Rajat " Come on. Sorry for yesterday's poor joke. It was just joke. You can stay at home." Neelam "No need. Your mother is coming to take care of Sunny." "But you just hate that job." "You know this even before you joke regarding it, I am sorry. I made a big mistake by marrying you." She just went to get ready. She just started feeling so upset. She could hear Rajat was abusing her. It was all getting out of her hand. She just ran out of house. She didn't even remember Sunny. She just forgot about him and sat in her bus. Once again she had to argue about her seat then she sat peacefully near window seat. She felt touch of cold air then she immediately went to sleep.
When Neelam woke up, she was sit on one bench. She was so confused. She started looking around. She did understand where she was. But it looked like some kind of radio station. She decided that she was sitting on wrong place. She just started to running out. She went in lift then she literally ran out of that radio station. But she was so confused when watch man gave her smile and salute her. That watchman knew her so well. She worked hard to find her road. She was so far away from her office. She looked at watch. She was so late. She didn't able to go there. She phoned and told them that she couldn't come. Suddenly her boss started screaming on her. He told her that she was taking leave again and again so she was out of her job. She didn't get it. She never took leave. She started remembering her every day. She remembered just entering in office and then she started to work. But then many times she was so involved in her work that she just forgot time. But after she had done so much work her boss was blaming her. She decided to go home. She didn't want to go in office again. She tried hard then finally she found one taxi which agreed to take her home. But then as he started to take her home he asked her " Madam today you are not going to that office." "Office?" "Yes, you went there every day after your recording." "My recording?" Then she suddenly remembered her fight with Rajat few days ago when he claimed that she was doing some secret job as radio DJ. She wanted to understand it. She didn't remember it. But Rajat was showing her paper. She was so shocked. She was doing something which she just heard in movies. She was spending sometime which she never realised. She was so scared. She wanted to hide it. But she knew that it was hard. She suddenly remembered her family doctor. She ran to him. She sat in that line. She noticed all physically sick patients but she was only one who was carrying that time bomb with her. She was so scared that she would suddenly change into something. She was trying hard to keep herself awake up on every point. Then finally she went inside. When she went there, she was shivering. Doctor" My god do you have fever?" "No.. No..Doctor I am just scared." She started telling him every thing. She began crying. "I just didn't want to tell any thing to Rajat." "Now relax. I will tell.." "No..No he will hate me and then Sunny will not come near me. He is now seem to staying away from me.." "May be due to your problem he is staying away. Let me talk to Rajat." Now she was so confused. She suddenly sensed that Rajat was getting upset with her just due to this problem. Then Doctor gave her psychiatrist number "Go to him immediately. He will help you." Neelam nodded. But she just sensed one thing that she was in big trouble. Doctor told her that Rajat would meet her there. But she was not that much sure. When she reached there,she went inside immediately. It was arranged for her. She started discussing every thing step by step. Psychiatrist " When did you first start to forget things? " She started remembering "I remember that it happened when first my husband lost his job and I went there to make enquiry." "Why did your husband lost his job? " "I don't remember." "Can you give me number of his old office?" She nodded and searched it in her purse. Finally she found it. She felt so lucky that she didn't threw it away. Psychiatrist " Your husband didn't come with you." "No..my doctor phoned him but still he didn't come." Then psychiatrist called old boss. Then psychiatrist put down phone. Psychiatrist " Your husband lost job because he was harassing his junior." "What? It is not possible.." "It is happening to you since you want to forget that. You had nice married life but then you saw that demon in your husband. You don't want to accept it so you started to forget this. But at same time you began to feel that you need freedom from him. So you started developing another personality. This is Disassociate Personality Disorder which happened due to problems in your married life. Can you tell me when exactly you remember gap in memory?" She said slowly "When some one admire their husband or Rajat abused me." "That's it." "Can I get cured? " "Of course. But I have to admit you for some days to observe you." Neelam nodded. She no longer cared about Rajat. She just wanted to be cured and she knew that she could force him to help her. After all she was sure that his new boss didn't know his last record. So she just admitted in that hospital. She knew that she could hide it from all since Rajat already had one secret he had to cooperate. She smiled while thinking from heart that it was so strange that people treated a mental problem like crime. But that was world and she had to deal with it. She was just happy to get proper psychiatrist. She would be fine after some days.
The End
Neelam was looking at watch. She was observing time. She could look at those clock. She saw that it's time would have effect on her mind. She just wanted to be there in perfect. When she wanted to every thing to be turned right on time, after all Rajat had always wanted to those things to be on time. He just never wanted to be late. It was her duty to turn things right for him. She just never wanted to hear his screaming regarding time. It was so irritating. She just wanted to get rid of this morning work. Then she had to make lunch. Then she had to pack lunch box for their son. Then she had to get ready for her office. She just wanted to sleep little longer. She could manage all even if she woke up little late. But Rajat never permit. He just wanted every thing on time. He called this his disciple. But his family considered it as a cruelty. They wanted to relax. After all he was not even going on job. Then Neelam got more upset by that thought. There were many sort of thoughts which were hidden inside her mind but first one was that she wanted to understand that why did he was not trying to find job. He always woke up on time. Then he was in home. She didn't know what he was doing. But she was sure about one thing. He was not doing any thing useful still when she returned home. He immediately started demanding tea. He said that he wanted his tea on time. Few times she suggested that he should make his own tea. Once he nodded then he started telling her that he was late for tea so he was not having it. So when a particular time was passed, he didn't take things. Like once when she was late, he didn't even ate food since it was late. In his eyes every second and minute had value but she had one question that if he value time so much then how could he waste time without searching for job. He was no longer interested in life. He started working on every moment with one thought. That was just to move with every daily schedule with timetable. He never crossed it. He started at every point in life. But then she started thinking once more about her job. She had to manage to get promotion. She started thinking one thought from mind. That they had one son. She wanted to get best future for her family and son. She started working on every point to get expensive budget for her son. She started doing her work in kitchen after all she had to complete her project in best way. She wanted a best home for her son. She knew that she was only hope of her son. Her husband was nothing useful for them. Rajat never managed to do any thing for them. He was just busy in one thing that was making his timetable and following it on every step of life. He needed to understand his work but he just understood his timetable inside his life. He was not ready to understand any other thing in his life. He started moving with just his schedule on every point. He wanted those schedule to be perfect. He was not any father or husband. He was just robot programmed to do his work according to his schedule nothing else. He was not like that in beginning he was human being but now he was just robot.
Neelam still remembered on every point. In old days he was so nice and wonderful. She still remembered when he used to take her on late drive. He was so nice. She still had her golden jewelery and diamond ornaments. She just still loved looking at them. On those days he used to shower them with gifts on every day. He used to take her in restaurant. She had many times told him just not to waste money like that. But he had never listened to her. On every point he just kept telling her that life was short to enjoy it. She wanted to understand those thoughts. But she was scared somewhere in heart regarding their spending. Then suddenly one day he came to her and told her that he had lost his job. After that he never went out for job. He just kept sitting in home. Finally she started to complain then he told her that he just couldn't find any job so soon since his past employer lodge complain against police station. She tried to ask him that what was that complaint. But he just ignored her. She wanted to call his office and ask. But then she decided against it. After all she knew that it must be regarding money. She knew that Rajat got excess money and he was spending it like water. She didn't want to understand cause since she already knew it. She wanted to dig that dirt. She just started feeling one thing. She had to adjust with situation so she took job. She wanted to forget mistakes of Rajat and move ahead. But Rajat was getting irritating day by day. She just didn't understand one thought that what was he doing for whole day. She just decided that she would continue working on each day. She had to manage his time schedules and then she moved ahead with life. Then she suddenly noticed that she had forgot to take out butter for Rajat when she noticed. There was chicken in kitchen. She was so shocked. Rajat never mentioned chicken. In fact she never liked even smell of it. But she looked it for Rajat. She never wanted to taste it but her son loved it. She took it out of freeze. She just hated it when Rajat didn't tell her much important thing. She just took it out and started cooking it. After all she didn't want it's smell when she went in office. Then she thought that this chicken would make her work easy. She could just cook it and then others things would not be that necessary. She could just took lunch in her office canteen. She just wanted to get ready so she decided to cook that chicken and make some chapatis. Then she suddenly remembered that she had to pack lunch box for son. She decided to give him bread butter after all when he had chicken for lunch . He would hardly cared for his lunch box. She managed every thing and she had finally managed to cook it. Then she started preparing simple breakfast. As soon as alarm rang, Rajat came in kitchen. Rajat "My break fast." "Your tea and toast jam," Rajat then suddenly smelt that chicken. Rajat "You are looking chicken." "Yes. I will make it and put it in freeze. You have to warm it in microwave. Then you can eat it." "I know. Just give me my breakfast." She gave it. Then she went back in bedroom. She looked at wall clock. She still got some time to sleep. She decided that she could little nap and then she would dress.
Then Neelam suddenly heard noise on glass panel of window. She woke up. She looked out of window. She heard those voices on window. She saw that one dove was making voices. She just looked at clock. She saw that she was getting late. She ran to mirror. Then she was shocked to see that she was already dressed up. She was so confused. Her dress was so different. She never remembered buying it. But then she thought that she must had dressed before sleeping. Then she started adding all finishing touch to her. She was getting so stressed up now a days. She just wanted to go to office. Then she went to out to get her son ready. But then she noticed that her son was not there. She started calling "Rajat.. Rajat.." "What happened? " "Where is Sunny?" "You took him to school." "Stop joking. I was sleeping." "You were not sleeping. You took him to school. In that strange way when he was crying regarding that school trip." "What school trip?" "He wanted to go to some school trip but you said that he would not. You just hit him and took him away." "Why did I do that?" Then she suddenly looked at clock. She sensed that Rajat was wasting her time. He must had took Sunny to school. She went inside. She took all proper files in her office bag. Then she started running. She knew one thing that Rajat was getting irritating and strange day by day. She saw that Rajat was cleaning house. He was cleaning every thing which was already clean. It was so strange instead of searching for job. He just kept sitting in house. She went out. She did all her work sincerely that day. She did every thing as per her instructions. She was doing every thing as per her boss but in her mind she just kept thinking about Rajat's strange behaviour, It was really weird. She just wanted him to be normal. Once upon a time she wanted to him to find some job. But now she just wanted him to act normal. She didn't want any troubles for sunny. When she returned back to home, she noticed that Sunny was doing his home work. He was studying with full attention. Then she saw that Rajat was teaching him. She suddenly felt so much anger towards him. She didn't understand that cause. But then she sensed that she wanted to sit with Sunny like that. She wanted to teach him. It was her duty and right to stay home with her son. But Rajat was sitting there and relaxing while she had to earn money in his place. She didn't remember properly when last time she sat with her son . Since she started earning, she was away from her child. She wanted to be with him. Then she started feeling so tired. She sensed one thing that she had to sleep for sometime. She went in kitchen and started cooking. She started cooking. She had to work hard. She began to do all her work. She started doing all cutting and then she started getting cooker ready for rice. She just wished one thing that Rajat should help her. She didn't want to see him near Sunny. In her eyes Rajat was bad influence for her son. She couldn't explain why but one thing was sure that she felt that if Sunny stayed with Rajat. Then Sunny also started growing bad habit. Then she felt that it must be due to losing of job since jobless was worst thing for her. She never wanted to understand that influence.
After some time Rajat came out of room, he noticed that food was already there. He started eating. Neelam felt so angry towards him. He never admired any thing made by her. She looked at Sunny with hope. But Sunny was too busy in looking at television. She felt as if all her work was useless. Once again her busy day went ahead. She completed all duty of wife and mother while her husband Rajat kept sitting at home. She sensed one thing that she was no longer had any importance to any one. She had become just machine to print money. Neelam "I cooked for you every day. But you ever admire it." Rajat " What was I suppose to admire? Your vegetable of potato!!You never cook some thing so tasty that could be admired. Every day just simple food but you have to give us credit that we never complete." Neelam was so angry. They didn't admire her just manage to criticize her. Then Rajat started laughing. Rajat "I was just joking. You cook just best. But I love to eat chicken that you cook yesterday. Why don't you cook like that every day? " "Yesterday? !! I have cooked it just today at morning." "Great." Then Rajat once again began eating. They finished whole chicken in just moring now complaining as if it was yesterday. She just hated it all. She started feeling upset.She just wanted break from this. Whole time she was just working and working. Then suddenly Rajat stood up and gave her one hug. Rajat "I got great news. I got job and my salary.." All remaining words were just gone over her head. She knew that it was greatest relief for her. But it was not working. She just felt more and more upset on every second. She finally started on thinking from mind. That she wanted to get rid of this all. But then she started thinking once again. She could go back to normal life, Neelam "Can I now quit my job?" "Of course honey. I have enough salary to feed us all. You can become just show piece once again." She just hated it when he said that to her. She wanted to relax but not this way. She had to do all work in house. She had to teach their son and in return he just called her useless. Neelam had to protect her pride so she said "I said I can. I am not going to." Rajat smiled " Just great." Rajat went in their room. He was on top of world while she was on bottom of world. She knew that nothing was going to help her. Rajat had become addicted to her salary. She did her whole job once again. This time she just had to call her mother-in-law to stay with her son. She had to do all extra work. Rajat had started acting once again in his normal way. He was nice and kind to her. But she just began to hate every thing. She just pretended to smile. Rajat " Come on. Sorry for yesterday's poor joke. It was just joke. You can stay at home." Neelam "No need. Your mother is coming to take care of Sunny." "But you just hate that job." "You know this even before you joke regarding it, I am sorry. I made a big mistake by marrying you." She just went to get ready. She just started feeling so upset. She could hear Rajat was abusing her. It was all getting out of her hand. She just ran out of house. She didn't even remember Sunny. She just forgot about him and sat in her bus. Once again she had to argue about her seat then she sat peacefully near window seat. She felt touch of cold air then she immediately went to sleep.
When Neelam woke up, she was sit on one bench. She was so confused. She started looking around. She did understand where she was. But it looked like some kind of radio station. She decided that she was sitting on wrong place. She just started to running out. She went in lift then she literally ran out of that radio station. But she was so confused when watch man gave her smile and salute her. That watchman knew her so well. She worked hard to find her road. She was so far away from her office. She looked at watch. She was so late. She didn't able to go there. She phoned and told them that she couldn't come. Suddenly her boss started screaming on her. He told her that she was taking leave again and again so she was out of her job. She didn't get it. She never took leave. She started remembering her every day. She remembered just entering in office and then she started to work. But then many times she was so involved in her work that she just forgot time. But after she had done so much work her boss was blaming her. She decided to go home. She didn't want to go in office again. She tried hard then finally she found one taxi which agreed to take her home. But then as he started to take her home he asked her " Madam today you are not going to that office." "Office?" "Yes, you went there every day after your recording." "My recording?" Then she suddenly remembered her fight with Rajat few days ago when he claimed that she was doing some secret job as radio DJ. She wanted to understand it. She didn't remember it. But Rajat was showing her paper. She was so shocked. She was doing something which she just heard in movies. She was spending sometime which she never realised. She was so scared. She wanted to hide it. But she knew that it was hard. She suddenly remembered her family doctor. She ran to him. She sat in that line. She noticed all physically sick patients but she was only one who was carrying that time bomb with her. She was so scared that she would suddenly change into something. She was trying hard to keep herself awake up on every point. Then finally she went inside. When she went there, she was shivering. Doctor" My god do you have fever?" "No.. No..Doctor I am just scared." She started telling him every thing. She began crying. "I just didn't want to tell any thing to Rajat." "Now relax. I will tell.." "No..No he will hate me and then Sunny will not come near me. He is now seem to staying away from me.." "May be due to your problem he is staying away. Let me talk to Rajat." Now she was so confused. She suddenly sensed that Rajat was getting upset with her just due to this problem. Then Doctor gave her psychiatrist number "Go to him immediately. He will help you." Neelam nodded. But she just sensed one thing that she was in big trouble. Doctor told her that Rajat would meet her there. But she was not that much sure. When she reached there,she went inside immediately. It was arranged for her. She started discussing every thing step by step. Psychiatrist " When did you first start to forget things? " She started remembering "I remember that it happened when first my husband lost his job and I went there to make enquiry." "Why did your husband lost his job? " "I don't remember." "Can you give me number of his old office?" She nodded and searched it in her purse. Finally she found it. She felt so lucky that she didn't threw it away. Psychiatrist " Your husband didn't come with you." "No..my doctor phoned him but still he didn't come." Then psychiatrist called old boss. Then psychiatrist put down phone. Psychiatrist " Your husband lost job because he was harassing his junior." "What? It is not possible.." "It is happening to you since you want to forget that. You had nice married life but then you saw that demon in your husband. You don't want to accept it so you started to forget this. But at same time you began to feel that you need freedom from him. So you started developing another personality. This is Disassociate Personality Disorder which happened due to problems in your married life. Can you tell me when exactly you remember gap in memory?" She said slowly "When some one admire their husband or Rajat abused me." "That's it." "Can I get cured? " "Of course. But I have to admit you for some days to observe you." Neelam nodded. She no longer cared about Rajat. She just wanted to be cured and she knew that she could force him to help her. After all she was sure that his new boss didn't know his last record. So she just admitted in that hospital. She knew that she could hide it from all since Rajat already had one secret he had to cooperate. She smiled while thinking from heart that it was so strange that people treated a mental problem like crime. But that was world and she had to deal with it. She was just happy to get proper psychiatrist. She would be fine after some days.
The End
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