Thirst of success
Saurabh was getting ready for his badminton match.It was his favourite game.He used to play it on every day.He just loved that game. He knew that he had to work for his project but until now he never let his profession effect his personal life.He always kept them away from each other and until now it worked perfectly for him.He enjoyed his life and peace of mind even when he was tense.When he was about to go, his door bell rang. Mona was standing outside.When he saw Mona's face,he felt as if he was on top of world.He knew Mona for many days but still in his eyes Mona still had same magic of her first look.Still his heart beat same way whenever he saw her. She was still had same effect on him.Mona looked at him with tense expression.Mona "Saurabh I thought that you are going to work for that project?""Of course.I worked whole night for that project.Now I want to relax a bit.""But it is not right.You have to work harder on it.You are up for promotion this time.You can't waste your time like that.""But I am exhausted by working for whole night.""Come on,It is just for few days."Then Mona started moving hand in his hair.Suddenly he began to get relaxed and he felt that she was right. Saurabh "You are right.May be I shall go back to work?"On that moment his mobile rang.His friend was calling him for practice.He just couldn't say no to him. Saurabh"Sorry Mona.I will have to go to that match."Mona looked so angry.But Saurabh didn't care,he just had to go.That time he played for hours.He didn't care for any thing.He was just interested in game.He played for hours then he went back home.Mona was still sitting there.Mona "Saurabh you just can't act like that.This work is so important in life.That work is so important on every point because it will give us money. Saurabh you can't just bring money by enjoying life like that.We need many things in life.When we start our family,we need to save money so we need to buy house larger than this.We need a large car and just think about our kids. We need so finance for them.Think about their future.Just think if they want to go abroad for education and if our daughter need money for marriage and her jewelry, our son will need separate house for him and his family.We need to teach them both.Do you understand our needs?"Saurabh started laughing. "What are you talking about?Come on.We are not even married and you are planning everything.Thank god.You have not planned our old age pension.Come on.Every thing is fine.I will do my work perfectly."After saying this Saurabh did his work.He did everything perfectly.He was relaxed.He knew that this project could be success or failure and he had faced many failures.Nothing was new in this one. But Mona was making some thing bigger out of it but any way he did every thing just in his way and he went ahead with that project.Finally that day came.Mona was standing before him.She had brought sweets that were offered to god.Mona"Eat it.I want success for you." Saurabh was so shocked but he did as per her wish. She did her every thing as per ritual and then finally he went away.It was worst for him.He never used to worship god for such small things.He felt that he should pray to god just to show respect but he had to obey her wish so he acted accordingly. But inside his heart when he started going to office.He felt worst.
First time Saurabh felt that he was tense but slowly he removed that feeling and went ahead with his work.He did every thing as he normally did.He did his presentation in perfect way and it was so nice. He was so sure by smile of client that he would win.He went back to his office with smile of winner.He was going ahead with things in good way like normally he would do. But still sometimes boss was not happy with him.But Saurabh knew that with experience slowly he would win in section.When that day he finally got that project,he was happy.He knew that this project was not that much big but still he felt so happy from inside to get it. In his eyes every work was valuable. He knew that Mona was hoping that he would get promotion due to it. But he was sure that it was not going to happen. He had tried hard but he just couldn't lie to clients to get things. It really hurt his soul to do that so he could never please his boss. He was happy with his position but Mona wanted more from him. He just dreamed small house. But Mona expected big house,large cars and position of director of company for him. She claimed that this all was just for his good. He knew these were her ambitions which were forced on him. He wished just for simple life but his love and his life Mona wanted every thing so he needed to get it.But somewhere in his heart he felt that he must not let his peace to be sacrificed. He was thinking about Mona when he reached to his table. He started working on that table. Saurabh sat when his colleagues came near his table.He was their senior but still they were friendly with him. They brought cup of coffee for him. Dilip "Saurabh Sir you need to work more harshly with others. You need to act practically. You can't win with just truthfulness.You need to act in wrong ways sometimes and think about it this way.We bought vegetables from vendors.Don't they cheat us on many times.Every one does that this is business.""But this is wrong.And it is not about rupees.It is in figures of crores. It is life time investment of those clients.I just can't cheat them like that.""Come on this is not right.If you keep acting in that same faithful way your competitor in office Rajiv will take your projects.""I don't mind but I want to be honest."Every one who was around Saurabh looked at him with such shock as if he was some alien from Mars.""You want to act with so much honesty."Yes""Then you can go no where.""Yes Dilip is right.Sir try to be practical.We are all your well wisher.If you become our boss then it will be good chance for us.You will give us better raise in company.We want you to be promoted.But this way you can never get promotion.This is so wrong way,Sir please try to understand honesty will not take you ahead every time.Sometimes you need to use some cheating and it is not crime sir.We all need to move ahead and for moving ahead.We need it."Saurabh"But I will not do it.If they don't promote me then it will be fine with me .But I will never act in such a corrupt way."Saurabh said this and returned back to work. Every one went to back to work.But Saurabh knew that no one was happy with him.
In few days came day of their declaration of promotion. From morning Mona was with Saurabh. She was just discussing promotion that was all.Mona " You have finished your project so you must get it.""No Mona.It is not like that.Any one can get it.""Now stop talking like that.You have to get it.This time you must get promotion.My whole family is waiting for it.When you get it,then we will marry.""What?!!Are you out of your mind? You are marrying me just for that promotion.""That is not truth.I love you but I need to be practical also.We need more money so we can wait until you get that promotion.""My god.This is too much.You can't talk like that.We are engaged. Our family are connected.My parents and my brother both are planning everything.In fact they have managed to find some nice sort of house..""I know that house with those limited budget.I want some thing more.I deserve it and same apply to you.If you get promotion then you will get that big bungalow and we can live happily in it."Saurabh was so shocked.He never expected such a thing from Mona.She was always so nice towards every one in family.He never thought that she had so much greed. "This is too much,"Saurabh was angry.He went straight way to his office.His colleagues surrounded him as normally they did.Until now he had never discussed his personal problem with any one. But this time he had to so he spoke what incidence happened with Mona. Dilip nodded."This is what happens if you didn't act according to practical needs.""What?""Every woman expects money and power.""But in love people stay with their partner in sorrows also,"Everyone started laughing on Saurabh. "This is not truth. This is just rubbish written in book. Sir....Sir..Woman needs money and same apply to man. When we marry, we want wife who can bring money from father or who can do service and bring money.I am not talking about dowry but we expect money as in inheritance. Same apply to woman.""But I have enough money with which we can live happily.""Live happily??"Dilip started laughing once again and others joined."Sir your wife want secure life and luxuries like five star dinner.Not just every day food or something from cafe Coffee day.No Sir.She has big dream. Every woman does.Ask them."Every one nodded. Saurabh was so shocked and confused. Saurabh"I don't believe this.""Sir you are too simple. Just see now what will happen.She will leave you because you don't get promoted." Saurabh"Nonsense." Then finally their guess turned out to be true and Saurabh didn't got promoted. Saurabh had not received promotion many times before but he was never that much tense inside his life.Every thing was creating worst effect on him. But he was sure that Mona would not act like that.After all she loved him. But then he remembered the way she talked. First time he began to doubt that she might planing to marry him just for his money. She might left him. When he opened door of his flat,he felt so much tense all his logic was left behind.He felt that Mona would not leave him.
As soon as Saurabh opened door,his phone started ringing.That person must had called many times before because when he opened door immediately phone rang. Saurabh saw that there were many missed calls. All those calls were from Mona.He was so scared to take that phone but he had to do it.He took phone. Mona"Why did your mobile switch off?""Actually I ..I was ...upset..""So you don't got promotion.""Does it matter that much? You love me and that is important to us.We can make..""Stop it.I want to marry just winner and not a loser.If you don't got that promotion.Just forget about me.""How could you..."Then Saurabh said many abusive things to her and she returned them.They argued for long time.But then finally result was same.She left him.Saurabh was so upset by this.He went to bed.It seemed as if whole world was cruel. He felt that he had misunderstood every one.He was so upset.He just no longer bared to watch world so he wanted to die.On that moment in one impulse he went inside kitchen.He took kitchen knife and he was about to cut his hand when his phone rang.He knew that he had to do it.But then he remembered that after cutting his waist he had for some time to bleed.If he didn't pick up phone then that fellow would come and save him so he took that phone.It was his father.Dad "Saurabh are you all right? That girl was so cruel. We have misunderstood her motive.We thought that she loved you and decided to plan this marriage,I feel it is better that we saw her true face before marriage only.."Whatever might have his Dad saw but Saurabh was seeing just one thing that beautiful face of Mona with pleasant smile.He wanted to forget her but he just couldn't but when he heard his Dad. He could see clearly that he would kill his Dad even before his death by killing himself.He wanted to stop himself on that moment."Dad will you come here immediately?""Sure."Then he looked around.He just didn't want to move.He was so scared that he would kill himself by using some thing.He was getting so depressed on every moment. He just wanted to save himself for his parents and brother.He just forced himself to sit in corner. He was so upset that he just started scratching his hand.It was clear that his waist was getting hurt on every moment.But he didn't want to protect himself.Things were just turning worst for him.He wanted to kill himself. It was enough. He started moving towards kitchen knife. He had reached just on that spot when he noticed that knife. He heard door bell then he heard that key was moved in latch.Of course it must be his brother and father.They had keys of his house.When they entered, he was carrying knife. Saurabh came to his senses and told "Take away every sharp object out of my house.Every thing which could be used for suicide." His family was so scared even some of his friends came with them.They took every sharp object.Then they forced Saurabh to sleep.But he was so restless that he couldn't able to sleep.It was clear that he was depressed. But they all hoped that he would be fine by morning.
But when Saurabh woke up on morning, he was not normal.He just kept looking at sky.He was so disturbed and nervous that he told them to take out every sharp things.He was not even ready to go out.He just wanted to sit on his bed and look out of window.For days this kept happening.Saurabh just kept watching out of window.But then finally one day his Dad came to him "Saurabh I feel you have to visit Doctor.""Doctor I am fine.""Fine?You are just sitting in your room for days and don't even went to office. We have to take out all sharp objects so that you must not hurt yourselves. This is not fine.You need a Doctor.A psychiatrist." Saurabh nodded."You are right that since Mona left me.I am not fine. I need help."After saying this he once again started looking out of window. His Dad was tense.Finally they took him to Psychiatrist. Saurabh waited there outside.He was no longer cared about anything even death didn't matter to him that much.But his father and mother were getting upset by each moment. Then when they called he went inside.But he was just in his own depressed mood.Slowly Psychiatrist started asking him things.Slowly he told every thing about Mona and her behavior. Then he told what his friends had told him. That psychiatrist started laughing "Nonsense.People says such things when they want others to act wrong just like them.Woman don't marry just for money. May be at beginning they see a man who is financially secure but once they choose that person then they never leave him.Don't you see your mother staying with your father in crisis? And what about other women?""I have seen many who stayed.""Yes that is truth of life.When a woman really love you for your quality like honesty or intelligence then they will understand that you are failed at this moment but slowly you will win.It is totally wrong advice to you."Then psychiatrist turned towards parents "He is getting depressed due to circumstances that was leading to suicide.Don't worry. We will do counseling and he will be fine.But I suggest that for few days.Follow guidelines which are precaution of suicide.""You feel our son will try to do..""Don't worry.I don't feel he will try but safety is better."After that Saurabh sat with psychiatrist for one hour alone. At beginning he was getting upset again and again.They had to keep watch on him.But slowly he got normal.He even started going to office.Then after some time he was introduced with another girl who wanted to live honestly just like him. This time they were careful when they choose. Then slowly he got promotion.It was best day of his life because on that day he was told by his wife that they were going to have baby. Saurabh had stopped to visiting that psychiatrist but still that day he went to give him sweets.It was happiest day for psychiatrist also.Psychiatrist and Saurabh both celebrated their success on that day because Saurabh no more cry for Mona. Even when one day he saw Mona.He felt nothing about her.Now he loved just one woman.That was his wife.He never understood Mona's thirst for success and now he didn't even want to understand it.He was busy with his own life.
The End
Saurabh was getting ready for his badminton match.It was his favourite game.He used to play it on every day.He just loved that game. He knew that he had to work for his project but until now he never let his profession effect his personal life.He always kept them away from each other and until now it worked perfectly for him.He enjoyed his life and peace of mind even when he was tense.When he was about to go, his door bell rang. Mona was standing outside.When he saw Mona's face,he felt as if he was on top of world.He knew Mona for many days but still in his eyes Mona still had same magic of her first look.Still his heart beat same way whenever he saw her. She was still had same effect on him.Mona looked at him with tense expression.Mona "Saurabh I thought that you are going to work for that project?""Of course.I worked whole night for that project.Now I want to relax a bit.""But it is not right.You have to work harder on it.You are up for promotion this time.You can't waste your time like that.""But I am exhausted by working for whole night.""Come on,It is just for few days."Then Mona started moving hand in his hair.Suddenly he began to get relaxed and he felt that she was right. Saurabh "You are right.May be I shall go back to work?"On that moment his mobile rang.His friend was calling him for practice.He just couldn't say no to him. Saurabh"Sorry Mona.I will have to go to that match."Mona looked so angry.But Saurabh didn't care,he just had to go.That time he played for hours.He didn't care for any thing.He was just interested in game.He played for hours then he went back home.Mona was still sitting there.Mona "Saurabh you just can't act like that.This work is so important in life.That work is so important on every point because it will give us money. Saurabh you can't just bring money by enjoying life like that.We need many things in life.When we start our family,we need to save money so we need to buy house larger than this.We need a large car and just think about our kids. We need so finance for them.Think about their future.Just think if they want to go abroad for education and if our daughter need money for marriage and her jewelry, our son will need separate house for him and his family.We need to teach them both.Do you understand our needs?"Saurabh started laughing. "What are you talking about?Come on.We are not even married and you are planning everything.Thank god.You have not planned our old age pension.Come on.Every thing is fine.I will do my work perfectly."After saying this Saurabh did his work.He did everything perfectly.He was relaxed.He knew that this project could be success or failure and he had faced many failures.Nothing was new in this one. But Mona was making some thing bigger out of it but any way he did every thing just in his way and he went ahead with that project.Finally that day came.Mona was standing before him.She had brought sweets that were offered to god.Mona"Eat it.I want success for you." Saurabh was so shocked but he did as per her wish. She did her every thing as per ritual and then finally he went away.It was worst for him.He never used to worship god for such small things.He felt that he should pray to god just to show respect but he had to obey her wish so he acted accordingly. But inside his heart when he started going to office.He felt worst.
First time Saurabh felt that he was tense but slowly he removed that feeling and went ahead with his work.He did every thing as he normally did.He did his presentation in perfect way and it was so nice. He was so sure by smile of client that he would win.He went back to his office with smile of winner.He was going ahead with things in good way like normally he would do. But still sometimes boss was not happy with him.But Saurabh knew that with experience slowly he would win in section.When that day he finally got that project,he was happy.He knew that this project was not that much big but still he felt so happy from inside to get it. In his eyes every work was valuable. He knew that Mona was hoping that he would get promotion due to it. But he was sure that it was not going to happen. He had tried hard but he just couldn't lie to clients to get things. It really hurt his soul to do that so he could never please his boss. He was happy with his position but Mona wanted more from him. He just dreamed small house. But Mona expected big house,large cars and position of director of company for him. She claimed that this all was just for his good. He knew these were her ambitions which were forced on him. He wished just for simple life but his love and his life Mona wanted every thing so he needed to get it.But somewhere in his heart he felt that he must not let his peace to be sacrificed. He was thinking about Mona when he reached to his table. He started working on that table. Saurabh sat when his colleagues came near his table.He was their senior but still they were friendly with him. They brought cup of coffee for him. Dilip "Saurabh Sir you need to work more harshly with others. You need to act practically. You can't win with just truthfulness.You need to act in wrong ways sometimes and think about it this way.We bought vegetables from vendors.Don't they cheat us on many times.Every one does that this is business.""But this is wrong.And it is not about rupees.It is in figures of crores. It is life time investment of those clients.I just can't cheat them like that.""Come on this is not right.If you keep acting in that same faithful way your competitor in office Rajiv will take your projects.""I don't mind but I want to be honest."Every one who was around Saurabh looked at him with such shock as if he was some alien from Mars.""You want to act with so much honesty."Yes""Then you can go no where.""Yes Dilip is right.Sir try to be practical.We are all your well wisher.If you become our boss then it will be good chance for us.You will give us better raise in company.We want you to be promoted.But this way you can never get promotion.This is so wrong way,Sir please try to understand honesty will not take you ahead every time.Sometimes you need to use some cheating and it is not crime sir.We all need to move ahead and for moving ahead.We need it."Saurabh"But I will not do it.If they don't promote me then it will be fine with me .But I will never act in such a corrupt way."Saurabh said this and returned back to work. Every one went to back to work.But Saurabh knew that no one was happy with him.
In few days came day of their declaration of promotion. From morning Mona was with Saurabh. She was just discussing promotion that was all.Mona " You have finished your project so you must get it.""No Mona.It is not like that.Any one can get it.""Now stop talking like that.You have to get it.This time you must get promotion.My whole family is waiting for it.When you get it,then we will marry.""What?!!Are you out of your mind? You are marrying me just for that promotion.""That is not truth.I love you but I need to be practical also.We need more money so we can wait until you get that promotion.""My god.This is too much.You can't talk like that.We are engaged. Our family are connected.My parents and my brother both are planning everything.In fact they have managed to find some nice sort of house..""I know that house with those limited budget.I want some thing more.I deserve it and same apply to you.If you get promotion then you will get that big bungalow and we can live happily in it."Saurabh was so shocked.He never expected such a thing from Mona.She was always so nice towards every one in family.He never thought that she had so much greed. "This is too much,"Saurabh was angry.He went straight way to his office.His colleagues surrounded him as normally they did.Until now he had never discussed his personal problem with any one. But this time he had to so he spoke what incidence happened with Mona. Dilip nodded."This is what happens if you didn't act according to practical needs.""What?""Every woman expects money and power.""But in love people stay with their partner in sorrows also,"Everyone started laughing on Saurabh. "This is not truth. This is just rubbish written in book. Sir....Sir..Woman needs money and same apply to man. When we marry, we want wife who can bring money from father or who can do service and bring money.I am not talking about dowry but we expect money as in inheritance. Same apply to woman.""But I have enough money with which we can live happily.""Live happily??"Dilip started laughing once again and others joined."Sir your wife want secure life and luxuries like five star dinner.Not just every day food or something from cafe Coffee day.No Sir.She has big dream. Every woman does.Ask them."Every one nodded. Saurabh was so shocked and confused. Saurabh"I don't believe this.""Sir you are too simple. Just see now what will happen.She will leave you because you don't get promoted." Saurabh"Nonsense." Then finally their guess turned out to be true and Saurabh didn't got promoted. Saurabh had not received promotion many times before but he was never that much tense inside his life.Every thing was creating worst effect on him. But he was sure that Mona would not act like that.After all she loved him. But then he remembered the way she talked. First time he began to doubt that she might planing to marry him just for his money. She might left him. When he opened door of his flat,he felt so much tense all his logic was left behind.He felt that Mona would not leave him.
As soon as Saurabh opened door,his phone started ringing.That person must had called many times before because when he opened door immediately phone rang. Saurabh saw that there were many missed calls. All those calls were from Mona.He was so scared to take that phone but he had to do it.He took phone. Mona"Why did your mobile switch off?""Actually I ..I was ...upset..""So you don't got promotion.""Does it matter that much? You love me and that is important to us.We can make..""Stop it.I want to marry just winner and not a loser.If you don't got that promotion.Just forget about me.""How could you..."Then Saurabh said many abusive things to her and she returned them.They argued for long time.But then finally result was same.She left him.Saurabh was so upset by this.He went to bed.It seemed as if whole world was cruel. He felt that he had misunderstood every one.He was so upset.He just no longer bared to watch world so he wanted to die.On that moment in one impulse he went inside kitchen.He took kitchen knife and he was about to cut his hand when his phone rang.He knew that he had to do it.But then he remembered that after cutting his waist he had for some time to bleed.If he didn't pick up phone then that fellow would come and save him so he took that phone.It was his father.Dad "Saurabh are you all right? That girl was so cruel. We have misunderstood her motive.We thought that she loved you and decided to plan this marriage,I feel it is better that we saw her true face before marriage only.."Whatever might have his Dad saw but Saurabh was seeing just one thing that beautiful face of Mona with pleasant smile.He wanted to forget her but he just couldn't but when he heard his Dad. He could see clearly that he would kill his Dad even before his death by killing himself.He wanted to stop himself on that moment."Dad will you come here immediately?""Sure."Then he looked around.He just didn't want to move.He was so scared that he would kill himself by using some thing.He was getting so depressed on every moment. He just wanted to save himself for his parents and brother.He just forced himself to sit in corner. He was so upset that he just started scratching his hand.It was clear that his waist was getting hurt on every moment.But he didn't want to protect himself.Things were just turning worst for him.He wanted to kill himself. It was enough. He started moving towards kitchen knife. He had reached just on that spot when he noticed that knife. He heard door bell then he heard that key was moved in latch.Of course it must be his brother and father.They had keys of his house.When they entered, he was carrying knife. Saurabh came to his senses and told "Take away every sharp object out of my house.Every thing which could be used for suicide." His family was so scared even some of his friends came with them.They took every sharp object.Then they forced Saurabh to sleep.But he was so restless that he couldn't able to sleep.It was clear that he was depressed. But they all hoped that he would be fine by morning.
But when Saurabh woke up on morning, he was not normal.He just kept looking at sky.He was so disturbed and nervous that he told them to take out every sharp things.He was not even ready to go out.He just wanted to sit on his bed and look out of window.For days this kept happening.Saurabh just kept watching out of window.But then finally one day his Dad came to him "Saurabh I feel you have to visit Doctor.""Doctor I am fine.""Fine?You are just sitting in your room for days and don't even went to office. We have to take out all sharp objects so that you must not hurt yourselves. This is not fine.You need a Doctor.A psychiatrist." Saurabh nodded."You are right that since Mona left me.I am not fine. I need help."After saying this he once again started looking out of window. His Dad was tense.Finally they took him to Psychiatrist. Saurabh waited there outside.He was no longer cared about anything even death didn't matter to him that much.But his father and mother were getting upset by each moment. Then when they called he went inside.But he was just in his own depressed mood.Slowly Psychiatrist started asking him things.Slowly he told every thing about Mona and her behavior. Then he told what his friends had told him. That psychiatrist started laughing "Nonsense.People says such things when they want others to act wrong just like them.Woman don't marry just for money. May be at beginning they see a man who is financially secure but once they choose that person then they never leave him.Don't you see your mother staying with your father in crisis? And what about other women?""I have seen many who stayed.""Yes that is truth of life.When a woman really love you for your quality like honesty or intelligence then they will understand that you are failed at this moment but slowly you will win.It is totally wrong advice to you."Then psychiatrist turned towards parents "He is getting depressed due to circumstances that was leading to suicide.Don't worry. We will do counseling and he will be fine.But I suggest that for few days.Follow guidelines which are precaution of suicide.""You feel our son will try to do..""Don't worry.I don't feel he will try but safety is better."After that Saurabh sat with psychiatrist for one hour alone. At beginning he was getting upset again and again.They had to keep watch on him.But slowly he got normal.He even started going to office.Then after some time he was introduced with another girl who wanted to live honestly just like him. This time they were careful when they choose. Then slowly he got promotion.It was best day of his life because on that day he was told by his wife that they were going to have baby. Saurabh had stopped to visiting that psychiatrist but still that day he went to give him sweets.It was happiest day for psychiatrist also.Psychiatrist and Saurabh both celebrated their success on that day because Saurabh no more cry for Mona. Even when one day he saw Mona.He felt nothing about her.Now he loved just one woman.That was his wife.He never understood Mona's thirst for success and now he didn't even want to understand it.He was busy with his own life.
The End
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