The Wish
That day Nisha was so happy.She was finally going to try for admission in school.She was excited from childhood.She always wanted to go in that school.But she just couldn't manage.She suddenly began to remember her past.But she just pushed it away from her mind.Her daughter Aparana could get admission so she felt happy.When her daughter Aparana would study there.She would felt as if her wishes were fulfilled so she once again looked at school.She smiled happily.When she went home,she was happily dancing in the kitchen.Nisha was so thrilled about it.Now Aparana would fulfill her dreams.When Tarun came home,he saw that she was literally dancing in kitchen.Tarun was confused.Tarun just didn't want to stop her.But he couldn't able to control his curiosity.Tarun"Nisha what happened?"Nisha turned around and gave him a big smile.Nisha"Come on guess.""What is it?I know one of your favourite film is realised."Nisha looked at him with frustration.Tarun knew that if he continued making wrong guesses.It would more upset her.Next guess was worst because he knew that he could guess properly.Nisha was secretive about every thing.Tarun"Now come on.I quit just tell me.""Aparana could get admission in school."Tarun just kept looking at her in hope of some further news.Tarun"So...What is good news?""Getting admission in school is not that easy.You doesn't understand importance of it.You got every thing so easily."Tarun knew that Nisha would start her lecture about her sad childhood again.He didn't want to listen but he had to bear.Nisha continued telling him that how hard it was for poor to survive in this life.Nisha knew perfectly how to make person feel guilty.She put those things in such a way as if it was all Tarun mistake that some people were poor.Tarun hated to listen it.But still he kept quiet because every argument was useless before her.In every matter Nisha was as soft as cotton expect this issue so Tarun never tried to talk against her in this issue.
Tarun was expecting big lecture.But Nisha suddenly stopped and gave him a big smile.Nisha"I don't want to irritate you.Some times I just get carried away.Now let me tell about that school."Tarun smiled happily talking about school was a lot better than other topics.Nisha started describing it.It all seemed like one of dream school.At first Tarun enjoyed it.But then he suddenly got tense by thinking about it's fee.Tarun"What is fee of that school?"Nisha was looked so shocked.Nisha suddenly screamed on him."You are going to change our daughter's school just because it's costly.I will never let you do this.""Come on be reasonable.Normal schools also have same education quality."Then he saw the information about school in pamphlet.Then he saw costs,they were reaching the sky.Tarun"My god!We can't afford this."Nisha took it out of his hand angrily.Nisha"Don't worry.I will manage.""I know what you will do.You just forget all your things like saries,make-ups,ornaments and let me guess.There will be no outings,picnics or films for us.Right.Ohh!I I forgot may be you cancel all birthday celebrations for you.You will let us celebrate our birthday but on your birthday you will be sick.""Now will you stop?I am doing this for Aparana's good."Tarun really didn't like that idea but he knew that Nisha just wanted that desperately so he decided to surrender this time.Nisha was on verge of crying already she knew that if Tarun went against it.She couldn't do anything.Tarun"Okay let's give it a try."Nisha was so happy that Tarun felt that she could dance with him.Tarun"But no need of saving.I think we can skip that idea of buying new flat for some years.We can adjust in this rental house for some time.In a year I can arrange loan." Nisha was top of the world now.This time she literally forced Tarun to dance with her.It was one of the most happiest moment of their life.Tarun was so happy that finally he could make his wife and daughter happy.That day they all slept peacefully.
Nisha worked hard to get her admitted in school.Tarun was looking at her efforts.But he saw that even little Aparana was doing justice to her.Aparana was also studying hard.She was writing everything with her little fingers.When Tarun saw this,he was so happy his family was working very hard and he was with them.He began to help Nisha in her housework after returning from office.Nisha tried to tell him that he was tired but he didn't listen.Nisha was so pleased.She didn't tell it with her mouth but her eyes were telling this.He was so happy even little Aparana was excited about it.Finally that day came when they all had to go out for school interview.Every thing luckily went according to their wishes and they felt sure that Aparana would get admission.They all were so happy.But when they were about to go out Tarun saw that Nisha was turned and watching at school.There was strange feeling in her eyes.Tarun just couldn't describe them in words.But he just wanted Nisha to stop looking at that school so he tapped on her shoulder.Tarun"What are you looking at?"Nisha just looked confused.Nisha"Nothing."And then she just went away.Nisha's face was clearly telling that she was upset about something.But she was not willing to tell about it.Tarun wanted to discuss but when Nisha didn't show any willingness,he just decided to skip that matter.Then they went home.Nisha was very excited about everything.Tarun was also tense.After some days they got letter which told them that Aparana got admission.They were so happy.Nisha did all the shopping for Aparana.Then they planned to go out in hotel.Nisha was so happy.Finally that day came when Aparana started to going in school.
Nisha was so happy on that day.She did everything very carefully.When Aparana was finally ready,Nisha decided to go in temple before going to school.Nisha did everything with perfection.Then they went to school.Nisha was so happy.But as soon as she went near that school.She began to feel unhappiness in her heart.Aparana was all ready scared so she had to control her feelings.Aparana"Mom I am so scared.I wish that I don't have to go to that new school.""Now don't worry sweet heart.Everything will be just fine.""If you really think so then why there is sweat on your face?"Nisha suddenly touched her face.She was shocked.She never thought that she was sweating due to fear.She just didn't like it.She didn't believe that she was sweating because of fear.Why did she feel scared?She looked around.She was sure that some thing was wrong with her heart.She could feel her heart was beating so fast.She was alone in Taxi with her daughter.If something happened to her..She just didn't want to think about it.Then she saw school,she hurried told Aparana to go inside.Parents were not permitted inside so she was luckily allowed to go.Aparana was looking at her with hope of support.Nisha just gave her forced smile and patted on her cheek and went away.She started literally running away from school.She knew that she had to take Taxi.But at that moment she was so scared.Then she suddenly remembered her phone.She dialed Tarun's number.At first he didn't pick so she had to shut the phone.Then suddenly she felt little bit okay.She sat under a tree slowly some people started looking at her in strange way.They were all confused.She didn't seem like beggar.But she was sitting on roadside.She was feeling so thirsty.Finally she called one woman.She tried to tell her about her problem.But her words were not coming out as if she had lost her voice.Now she was sure that she had a heart attack and she was going to die.At that moment suddenly her mobile rang and that woman took it and Tarun was on phone.That woman informed him everything and then she started to call Police.Then slowly crowd gathered around her.But Police told everybody to stay away.Then suddenly a man came near her and checked her pulse.Then that man told to Police"Her pulse rate is high.It could be anything.Normal stress attack or heart attack.Better to call ambulance."Then for some time she was told to sleep on ground.Then after sometime she felt that she was taken on stretcher.She was feeling so weak that she could not even open her eyes.She could clearly heard that voice when ambulance was taking her away.Such a strange feeling!She was going near death.
When she woke up,she was sleeping on hospital's bed.She was expecting doctors and instruments.But nothing was there.She was sleeping in a room.She looked around.Then she saw her stepmother was sleeping on sofa.Nisha was upset.She wanted to blame Tarun.But she knew that he could do anything.After all he was not allowed to sleep in ladies ward.Then her stepmother woke up."Nisha how are you?""Fine.""Doctor said that it's just stress."Nisha was shocked by this.Nisha"What kind of stress?I don't have any sort of stress.I have a happily married life.Why did I have stress?""May be due to that interview?But don't worry everything is fine now.Do you want something?"Nisha just wanted to scream on that woman.Nisha always hated her.In her eyes her stepmother was never much of support.She just always pretend to be there with her.Her stepmother had never took any responsibility.She just nodded on Nisha's decision which was worst for Nisha.Nisha needed a mother who would help her not just nod on everything.Nisha suddenly began to scream on her."Can you call Doctor and go away from here.I want to Tarun.""But...""I say call the Doctor."But her screams had already reached outside and Nurse came running inside.Nurse"Will you stop this?You are disturbing other patients."After hearing this Nisha felt shameful and she apologized.That day every one came to meet her except the Doctor.Finally after some hours Doctor came.He checked her and told that she was fine and she could go home tomorrow.But Nisha was sure that she was not feeling fine.Whole day she was feeling uneasy.But at night it was worst.When she couldn't able to sleep finally Nurse gave her some tablet and then she slept.But that was when that nightmare began,when she woke up.She was screaming Nurses were rushed to her side and trying to calm her.But they just couldn't finally Doctor came and then slowly she was calmed down.But when Doctor asked why did she scream?She just didn't know whole dream was literally vanished from her mind.But she was not ready to sleep.Next day she told everything to Tarun.She was crying and he was trying to console her.But it was useless.After that day these nightmares became common part of her life.At home Aparana was so scared when she heard that screams.But always her dreams were vanished.In this process Nisha totally forgot about Aparana's school.Tarun took responsibility of dropping her at school.But due to sleepless nights slowly Nisha's health started to show effects so Tarun took her to Doctor again.Doctor"Physically she is fit.She is getting exhaust due to lack of sleep and for it you need a psychiatrist not me."Nisha was shocked.But Doctor told Tarun a number and he took it willingly.Nisha was shocked.When Nisha went out of Doctor's cabin,she began to scream."So you think I am mad."Tarun looked at her with anger.Tarun"Look at yourself Nisha.Don't you think something is wrong with you?You are one who always remain clam.But now look at yourself.Yesterday you screamed on Mom.Then you were talking to every one in such a way as if talking was hardest task for you.You never seem to care about Aparana;your own daughter!and now you are screaming on me.Just think about it."Nisha was confused now.Tarun was right.She hated her stepmother but never showed it to anyone.She never screamed on any one like that and now a days she only screams on everyone.She didn't even see her daughter carefully due to this stress.Nisha started crying and Tarun started consoling her.
Next day they went to psychiatrist.Psychiatrist"I think your wife is suffering from depression.She was angry with every one because she is trying to hide her depressive thoughts.Now let me talk to her alone."Tarun began to go out.When Psychiatrist suddenly asked"Did you notice anything strange about her?Like a look of sorrow."Tarun suddenly remembered the moment when Nisha looked at that school."She was looking at my daughter's school in a strange way."Then suddenly Nisha felt that there was tear on her cheek."So what is it about that school?You can tell me about it clearly.I will not tell any one."Nisha first told him everything about Aparana's admission."Now stop talking about this.Tell me the true problem.""I wanted to go in that school but my stepmother didn't let me.""Why?""Because my sister wanted to go to some drawing class and Papa didn't have enough money.""Your step sister?""No.I have a step brother not sister and he is always nice to me.But my step mother never cared about anything except drawing.My stepmother let us do anything without even caring.She just don't care about expect my sister and her drawing.She is obsessed with drawing so I never able to go in that school and I wanted my daughter to complete my dream.""That's the point when you are wrong.When you went in that school,you were reminded of your past and it was giving you depression.Your daughter is Aparana and you are Nisha.It is written somewhere in your mind so this trick is not working.You have to accept what you got....."Then that Doctor explained Nisha what to do.After that Nisha accepted that she could never finish her dream.She decided to stay away from that school.She decided put Aparana in some reasonable school with less fees and Aparana really liked that school a lot better.Nisha was so happy that she was not repeating her stepmother's mistake.She was not forcing her dream on her daughter.
The End
Nisha worked hard to get her admitted in school.Tarun was looking at her efforts.But he saw that even little Aparana was doing justice to her.Aparana was also studying hard.She was writing everything with her little fingers.When Tarun saw this,he was so happy his family was working very hard and he was with them.He began to help Nisha in her housework after returning from office.Nisha tried to tell him that he was tired but he didn't listen.Nisha was so pleased.She didn't tell it with her mouth but her eyes were telling this.He was so happy even little Aparana was excited about it.Finally that day came when they all had to go out for school interview.Every thing luckily went according to their wishes and they felt sure that Aparana would get admission.They all were so happy.But when they were about to go out Tarun saw that Nisha was turned and watching at school.There was strange feeling in her eyes.Tarun just couldn't describe them in words.But he just wanted Nisha to stop looking at that school so he tapped on her shoulder.Tarun"What are you looking at?"Nisha just looked confused.Nisha"Nothing."And then she just went away.Nisha's face was clearly telling that she was upset about something.But she was not willing to tell about it.Tarun wanted to discuss but when Nisha didn't show any willingness,he just decided to skip that matter.Then they went home.Nisha was very excited about everything.Tarun was also tense.After some days they got letter which told them that Aparana got admission.They were so happy.Nisha did all the shopping for Aparana.Then they planned to go out in hotel.Nisha was so happy.Finally that day came when Aparana started to going in school.
Nisha was so happy on that day.She did everything very carefully.When Aparana was finally ready,Nisha decided to go in temple before going to school.Nisha did everything with perfection.Then they went to school.Nisha was so happy.But as soon as she went near that school.She began to feel unhappiness in her heart.Aparana was all ready scared so she had to control her feelings.Aparana"Mom I am so scared.I wish that I don't have to go to that new school.""Now don't worry sweet heart.Everything will be just fine.""If you really think so then why there is sweat on your face?"Nisha suddenly touched her face.She was shocked.She never thought that she was sweating due to fear.She just didn't like it.She didn't believe that she was sweating because of fear.Why did she feel scared?She looked around.She was sure that some thing was wrong with her heart.She could feel her heart was beating so fast.She was alone in Taxi with her daughter.If something happened to her..She just didn't want to think about it.Then she saw school,she hurried told Aparana to go inside.Parents were not permitted inside so she was luckily allowed to go.Aparana was looking at her with hope of support.Nisha just gave her forced smile and patted on her cheek and went away.She started literally running away from school.She knew that she had to take Taxi.But at that moment she was so scared.Then she suddenly remembered her phone.She dialed Tarun's number.At first he didn't pick so she had to shut the phone.Then suddenly she felt little bit okay.She sat under a tree slowly some people started looking at her in strange way.They were all confused.She didn't seem like beggar.But she was sitting on roadside.She was feeling so thirsty.Finally she called one woman.She tried to tell her about her problem.But her words were not coming out as if she had lost her voice.Now she was sure that she had a heart attack and she was going to die.At that moment suddenly her mobile rang and that woman took it and Tarun was on phone.That woman informed him everything and then she started to call Police.Then slowly crowd gathered around her.But Police told everybody to stay away.Then suddenly a man came near her and checked her pulse.Then that man told to Police"Her pulse rate is high.It could be anything.Normal stress attack or heart attack.Better to call ambulance."Then for some time she was told to sleep on ground.Then after sometime she felt that she was taken on stretcher.She was feeling so weak that she could not even open her eyes.She could clearly heard that voice when ambulance was taking her away.Such a strange feeling!She was going near death.
When she woke up,she was sleeping on hospital's bed.She was expecting doctors and instruments.But nothing was there.She was sleeping in a room.She looked around.Then she saw her stepmother was sleeping on sofa.Nisha was upset.She wanted to blame Tarun.But she knew that he could do anything.After all he was not allowed to sleep in ladies ward.Then her stepmother woke up."Nisha how are you?""Fine.""Doctor said that it's just stress."Nisha was shocked by this.Nisha"What kind of stress?I don't have any sort of stress.I have a happily married life.Why did I have stress?""May be due to that interview?But don't worry everything is fine now.Do you want something?"Nisha just wanted to scream on that woman.Nisha always hated her.In her eyes her stepmother was never much of support.She just always pretend to be there with her.Her stepmother had never took any responsibility.She just nodded on Nisha's decision which was worst for Nisha.Nisha needed a mother who would help her not just nod on everything.Nisha suddenly began to scream on her."Can you call Doctor and go away from here.I want to Tarun.""But...""I say call the Doctor."But her screams had already reached outside and Nurse came running inside.Nurse"Will you stop this?You are disturbing other patients."After hearing this Nisha felt shameful and she apologized.That day every one came to meet her except the Doctor.Finally after some hours Doctor came.He checked her and told that she was fine and she could go home tomorrow.But Nisha was sure that she was not feeling fine.Whole day she was feeling uneasy.But at night it was worst.When she couldn't able to sleep finally Nurse gave her some tablet and then she slept.But that was when that nightmare began,when she woke up.She was screaming Nurses were rushed to her side and trying to calm her.But they just couldn't finally Doctor came and then slowly she was calmed down.But when Doctor asked why did she scream?She just didn't know whole dream was literally vanished from her mind.But she was not ready to sleep.Next day she told everything to Tarun.She was crying and he was trying to console her.But it was useless.After that day these nightmares became common part of her life.At home Aparana was so scared when she heard that screams.But always her dreams were vanished.In this process Nisha totally forgot about Aparana's school.Tarun took responsibility of dropping her at school.But due to sleepless nights slowly Nisha's health started to show effects so Tarun took her to Doctor again.Doctor"Physically she is fit.She is getting exhaust due to lack of sleep and for it you need a psychiatrist not me."Nisha was shocked.But Doctor told Tarun a number and he took it willingly.Nisha was shocked.When Nisha went out of Doctor's cabin,she began to scream."So you think I am mad."Tarun looked at her with anger.Tarun"Look at yourself Nisha.Don't you think something is wrong with you?You are one who always remain clam.But now look at yourself.Yesterday you screamed on Mom.Then you were talking to every one in such a way as if talking was hardest task for you.You never seem to care about Aparana;your own daughter!and now you are screaming on me.Just think about it."Nisha was confused now.Tarun was right.She hated her stepmother but never showed it to anyone.She never screamed on any one like that and now a days she only screams on everyone.She didn't even see her daughter carefully due to this stress.Nisha started crying and Tarun started consoling her.
Next day they went to psychiatrist.Psychiatrist"I think your wife is suffering from depression.She was angry with every one because she is trying to hide her depressive thoughts.Now let me talk to her alone."Tarun began to go out.When Psychiatrist suddenly asked"Did you notice anything strange about her?Like a look of sorrow."Tarun suddenly remembered the moment when Nisha looked at that school."She was looking at my daughter's school in a strange way."Then suddenly Nisha felt that there was tear on her cheek."So what is it about that school?You can tell me about it clearly.I will not tell any one."Nisha first told him everything about Aparana's admission."Now stop talking about this.Tell me the true problem.""I wanted to go in that school but my stepmother didn't let me.""Why?""Because my sister wanted to go to some drawing class and Papa didn't have enough money.""Your step sister?""No.I have a step brother not sister and he is always nice to me.But my step mother never cared about anything except drawing.My stepmother let us do anything without even caring.She just don't care about expect my sister and her drawing.She is obsessed with drawing so I never able to go in that school and I wanted my daughter to complete my dream.""That's the point when you are wrong.When you went in that school,you were reminded of your past and it was giving you depression.Your daughter is Aparana and you are Nisha.It is written somewhere in your mind so this trick is not working.You have to accept what you got....."Then that Doctor explained Nisha what to do.After that Nisha accepted that she could never finish her dream.She decided to stay away from that school.She decided put Aparana in some reasonable school with less fees and Aparana really liked that school a lot better.Nisha was so happy that she was not repeating her stepmother's mistake.She was not forcing her dream on her daughter.
The End
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