Ravi's hopes
Ravi was
singing such beautiful song. It was entering in every house around. Ravi was
scared at beginning that people might mind but until now no one objected his
singing. He was so happy. He knew that few societies didn’t approve singing.
But his building didn’t mind. He started singing loudly. He began to sing as
loudly as possible. He was so happy. He suddenly woke up due to pain. He sensed
his brother Tushar was slapping. Tushar screamed on him “Are you going to keep screaming
like that during night?” Ravi was so shocked. He began to massage his cheek. He
didn’t understand why did his elder brother Tushar needed to act so harsh. Ravi
slowly said “I don’t sense. I was just dreaming.” “Do you sense how much noise you make when
you sleep?” Ravi didn’t say anything. Ravi felt so nervous. Ravi said slowly “I
don’t mean to disturb you.” “Then go out in hall & sleep on floor. I don’t
want you to disturb my sleep.” Ravi nodded & went outside. He managed to
get one mattress & spread it. He slept peacefully on it. He tried to think
positively about all but still it kept turning in negative way since it was
negative. He knew that no one liked his singing. His voice was nice according
to many but whenever he tried to practice no one liked it. He knew without
practice he didn’t have any future in singing so he decided to give up his
dream. He decided that he needed to study with more attention. His studies were
getting better numbers day by day but his life was not getting better at all.
He didn’t understand why did he needed to dream about singing. It was so
upsetting for them all. He needed to just think about his studies. He felt so
sad & nervous. He was going to keep thinking about his studies. He told
himself. After that for long time he didn’t able to sleep. It seemed as if his
sleep almost deserted him. He began to feel so restless. It was becoming
problematic for him. He wanted to go to sleep but his eyes kept opening. He
kept shifting from one shoulder to another. It was so restless. He closed his
eyes & forced himself to think positively about all. He began to think
about his friends & picnics they had. They slowly began to think about TV
shows or movies which he had watch. It was so pleasant. They were those times
when he was happy. He didn’t understand when his world went in such wrong way.
He looked around in his house. On the day when his mother died. His father took
over everything. Ravi got job of cooking. They kept one cook & one maid for
some time but soon that cook left due to low salary. Ravi was only one who knew
cooking. Whole time he used to do cooking when cook was absent slowly, he began
to cook daily. He didn’t argue. Frankly he was so frustrated by entire
situation that he kept thinking that he just needed to avoid argument. He kept
remembering his mom. It was so upsetting. His mom used to like his singing. She
kept one small area in corner in which he could sing but no one would hear. It
was so positive. Then his mom sometimes took him to different musical shows. He
used to enjoy them. Some musical shows were free while some needed large
payment for ticket. But his mom always managed but then one day his mom fell
sick. He remembered very well how scared he was. He needed to handle all in
absence of his mom. He handled it nicely too. It was so frustrating. He kept
thinking one day his life would change but it never did. It just became worst
after death of his mom. He was trying so hard to remember positive & forget
negative. He knew that soon he would start crying. He just wished that Tushar
wouldn’t scream on him like that. He tried to talk so nicely with Tushar but
nothing seemed to work. He kept trying hard to relax. But he couldn’t stop
crying.
Ravi’s father Satish was not happy with
these arrangements at all. Satish wanted life in which he could get everything
easily in his hand. His wife was perfect for work. He never loved her. In his
view loving was not important in marriage. He just loved himself. It was most
important in his view. But now Satish needed one wife. He knew that his son
Ravi was not much of cook & Ravi began to score less marks. Now he didn’t
want that. Tushar was getting over dominating daily. He could clearly see marks
on Ravi’s body. He needed a wife to handle all thing. Satish didn’t understand
where he could get this wife. Satish knew that it was not possible. He was not
rich man & he had two children. On that point Tushar came in room. Satish
was so angry to see him in middle of night. Satish screamed “Why did you came
in middle of night?” “Dad I was thinking that we might permit Ravi to do
singing practice in that corner. Do you remember Mom used to permit him? This
way he will not keep singing in sleep. Whenever I wake up from sleep, I lose my
temper &…” “Don’t tell me you hit him again! Come on he is your younger
brother & he is cooking for us too. If you hurt him then we will be in big
problem” Tushar nodded. “Dad just let him practice singing. Do you remember the
way mom arranged for him?” “No need. We must not spoil him.” Tushar was clearly
not happy but Satish didn’t care. Satish just wanted things to be in his way.
Satish didn’t like when situation began to dominate him. It was complicated. Satish
knew that Ravi was obsessed with Music. Ravi needed to participate in Musical
events but he couldn’t permit it since that would create bad impact on Ravi.
Ravi would begin to dominate & he didn’t want it. Ravi needed to stay under
his thumb. He needed to rule entire house. Satish “I know your mom is dead
& you need new mom now.” “New mom?!” Tushar was shocked. It was so
upsetting. Tushar knew that any woman with positive attitude didn’t marry his
dad. His dad was worst person. But he couldn’t say it. Tushar just nodded.
Tushar went out of room. He looked towards Ravi. Tushar began to feel so
guilty. Tushar knew that he was throwing his fit of anger on Ravi without
cause. Tushar slowly sat near Ravi. Ravi could sense it easily. Ravi was
feeling so nervous about it. Ravi tried to tell himself that his brother
wouldn’t harm him but he was scared. Tushar slowly started moving fingers
through Ravi’s hair just the way their mom used to do. Ravi began to feel so
relaxed. Ravi smiled sweetly as he closed his eyes. He began to have positive
dreams about his mom. He was no longer scared of singing in dream. He knew that
his mom would protect him in every situation. His mom had such unique strength.
He knew that even after
death his mom could protect him when he was sleeping. He fell asleep happily. Ravi
felt that his mom was still with him. But Tushar knew that she was not &
their dad was planning to bring another mom & Tushar was sure that this
woman would be worst. Tushar didn’t understand how could he escape from this.
Ravi was
confused when he woke up since Tushar was sleeping beside him on floor. He
didn’t understand attitude of Tushar any more. He tried to remain positive as
best as he could. It was very important for him. He felt that his singing was
not something which was creating problem for Tushar. His elder brother Tushar
was so changed. Once Tushar used to be topper in class now slowly his marks
were reduced so much that he managed to pass. Ravi wanted to help Tushar
regarding some mathematics problems. Tushar was doing simple mathematics in
wrong way too. Ravi was in small standard still he could correct Tushar since
Tushar was forgetting basic mathematics which he learnt as small boy. Ravi was
observing Tushar carefully while sitting on mattress. Tushar began to clean all
pots & pans once again. He didn’t understand why? Ravi personally cleaned
those plates & pots & pans for hours. It was frustrating but if Ravi
asked something Tushar began to scream on him. Tushar might begin to hit Ravi
too. It was getting worst daily. Tushar’s anger kept rising. Tushar tried so
hard to control his anger but it was not working. Ravi felt so nervous by all.
Ravi was feeling so suffocated. His father was so selfish that Ravi knew his
father would never care for any of them. But he knew that once Tushar used to
care. Ravi had hopes that slowly Tushar would become normal. Ravi smiled
sweetly & shake Tushar. Tushar woke up. Tushar looked towards Ravi in
strange way & said “Why mom is just standing behind you? She is not cooking
breakfast! Mom I will be late for school. Do it fast!” Ravi kept looking
towards his elder brother. Something was wrong with his brother. Ravi slowly
said “Mom...is…dead!” Tushar gave him strange look & said “She is standing
behind you. How can she be dead?” Tushar slowly pointed. Ravi turned &
looked behind. Ravi was so scared. Ravi loved his mom but he was not certain if
he wanted to see her ghost. Then Ravi saw no one was there. Ravi screamed
angrily “This is not funny.” Tushar kept laughing then Tushar even started to
talk with that invisible mom.” Ravi felt that it was just to scare him. Ravi
started to cook breakfast. Satish entered in kitchen. Satish “Where is your
brother?” “He is…” Ravi decided to lie. “He is sleeping.” Satish decided to not
scream on his son Tushar. Satish already started discussing dating. It seemed
as if he was not so unwanted as widower. After all he got this house &
money from late wife. He just needed to get rid of his sons. Then many women
were ready to start dating him. Satish didn’t show his wealth to his sons. He
kept it for himself & his sons didn’t need to know. He knew that Ravi was
useless but Tushar was not smart too. He didn’t like them at all. He needed
another wife & more children. He slowly looked towards Ravi & asked
“Don’t you feel staying in this house & doing all work it hard?” Ravi felt
scared. He didn’t want to anger his dad so he just nodded in such way that it
could be negative & positive too. Satish continued. “I feel I need to send
you in hostel.” Ravi just nodded. Ravi knew that his grades were reducing he
didn’t have much option but accept it. On that point Tushar began to talk. Ravi
felt nervous. Satish looked out. Satish began to look towards Tushar. Tushar
was talking to invisible mom again. At this point Ravi sensed that it was not
joke. Satish began to scream on Tushar but Tushar was not ready to accept that
mom was not standing there. He kept talking. Satish started to beat him. But
Tushar didn’t stop. Ravi tried to convince Tushar. But it didn’t work.
Tushar was no longer beating Ravi. He just
kept talking with mom. Satish was irritated at beginning but then Satish got
one idea. Tushar was objecting marriage so it was better that Tushar was acting
like mad person. Satish got another plan. Satish contacted mental hospital talked
about Tushar. Psychiatrist talked with Tushar. Ravi was also present. Psychiatrist
looked tense. Psychiatrist slowly said “You don’t care for your son?” Satish gave
angry look & said “I can’t keep him alone in house. Ravi is going in
hostel.” Ravi didn’t say anything. Psychiatrist nodded. “Fine you can admit
him. But when he will be better what will you do?” “Send him in hostel too.”
Psychiatrist “Then I feel you don’t need to take Tushar back in your house
again.” Satish smiled happily & nodded. Psychiatrist wanted to argue but then
Psychiatrist said “Fine. You can do it. That will be better.” Ravi didn’t say
anything just kept watching Tushar taken away. Tushar was still talking to their
dead mom. Ravi just hoped that Tushar would get well soon. Then next day Ravi packed
& took bus ride for hostel. On that point Ravi hoped that he would like
hostel but Ravi decided that he would never return home. Ravi hoped for many
good things but he decided one thing that his house was no longer his house. He
didn’t want to have any connection with his dad & with the woman whom he
decided to marry. Since if that lady would be nice then their dad would harass
her like he harassed their mom & if that lady was bad by nature, then she
would harass Tushar. So best option was he shouldn’t return home at all. His dad
would surely spend some money to keep him away. Ravi knew that his all hopes
were standing far away from his house.
The End
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