Adventure story 113. Handsome

                                                        Handsome
Rita was reading that book peacefully when her phone rang.She was so upset.She hated phones now a days.Phones meant invitations on social functions and she didn't like them.She hated many types of talks which started there.She just didn't want to discuss about many things and she hated most when people started pointing her at her mistake.She was living her life and she wanted to live it her way.But she had to pick it up.When she picked up phone,it was Swati.Swati was her old friend who was always nice to her.After her marriage Swati was such changed.Rita couldn't forget that day.She went there with all her friends.They all expected normal simple and nice Swati.But Rita was shocked to notice that change.She was behaving like snob.She was talking in such ways as if she had one something great and now she could rule whole world.Rita felt that it was wrong but she didn't dare to say anything because she didn't want to be blamed as jealous.Marriage was not Rita's dream.In fact she was happy with her life but mostly people found it hard to understand so if she said something against Swati.Rita was sure that she would get blame so she just kept quiet but she felt one thing that Swati had done something totally wrong with her life to change so much.Suddenly Swati started talking in such way as if she was perfect and every one was dust before her.Rita was so shocked but still she avoided it.After all other friends were also pretending that every thing was normal.In fact some friends were even admiring Swati.Then all were talking about kind nature of Swati and her helpfulness which Rita hardly able to see inside her now.But she kept smiling and nodding.Rita just didn't want to get involved too much in that mess after all Swati was her old friend and saying something against her seemed like back biting to her.She just kept nodding about each and every thing.But she felt that it was her last visit to her and now this issue would be over.But when she heard Swati's voice,she was such shocked.Swati"Hello Rita..It is Swati.You must have remember my voice.Why did I have to say my name?No one can forget my voice."She made that statement which didn't kept any chance of argument from Rita.Rita was already so shocked by this chatting that she hardly able to answer her.If someone asked her what was her last thought at that moment then it was that this call should not belong to Swati.She didn't like Swati now and her heart was screaming against her.But she was forced to talk sweetly so she began to talk with her.
         Swati"Actually I wanted to meet you all.I know since I have not meet you for many days.It is not fair but what did I suppose to do.I was so busy when I came here.I was in London.I think I have phoned you."Yes of course she had phoned her.Rita would not forget that phone also in which she just kept repeating how much she would miss them.But after going there she was busy that she didn't got time even to talk with her on chat or email.Such a strange person.Until now she never showed any interest and now she was showing off as if she was her best friend who cared for her from heart.Rita was so confused but she had to pretend so she spoke as sweetly as possible.Rita"Hello Swati how are you?""Actually I am planning to one get together after all when I have come in India every one must be meet me.I am going to plan something."Rita really didn't like this idea.Why did Swati want this nonsense of get together?Rita just didn't want it.Then suddenly next question came inside Rita's mind who would spend money.She was sure that Swati didn't spend that much money.She smiled happily at herself and changed subject.She began to ask about her children.Swati kept boosting about each and every thing so she was happy and they were so sure that she would be still same that other friends kept accepting her on each occasion but from heart.Rita was so upset because she just didn't like it inside life.She didn't want to talk about life to Swati so she started discussing it.After some moment she felt that she could not have keep chatting with Swati because Swati was just talking one sided.She didn't care about Rita's thought and life.At one point Rita thought that it was great but on another point she was bored by this conversation.Finally after sometime Rita gave some excuse and disconnected phone.After talking to Swati Rita was just sure of one thing that she didn't want to meet her so she decided to avoid anything planned by friends.She had started finding excuses inside her thought and her brain.When she felt that she could handle it,she went inside kitchen to cook her food.Her mother was inside kitchen.When she told her about Swati,she looked upset.Her mother"I just don't get it.Why did you care about her?Let her do as she wish ignore her.""But Mom she is irritating and I don't want to meet her.""Now don't worry.May be it will not happen?""And if it happened then?""It will be for few hours.You can manage."Rita was so upset.She started showing her anger on every pot and pan which tolerated it with patience just like Mom because they knew what she was going to suffer.A whole evening of nuisance was not that easy for Rita.Swati was never good with her now a days.That past friend of Rita was vanished from thoughts of Swati.
         For some days Rita was relieved when Swati didn't invited her but after some time suddenly she had one phone from her another friend Charu who was always considered to be most emotional in college.Charu always seemed to get convinced by each and every emotional chat.She seemed to think that she should consider every person would like most needy and help that person.She was convinced on that day that there whole college should come together to treat Swati which was ridiculous in eyes of Rita.Charu" We must treat her.""But why should we give that treat try to understand..""I have convince every one and amount is limited."Then Rita tried to convince Charu about it for hours.But Charu was already brainwashed by Swati so everything turned into useless and then after some days Charu decided that they should share money with Swati and gave that party.Rita didn't want to but she was forced to do it.Whole time Rita was trying to convinced Charu still she felt that Charu was not convinced.While finally one day Charu phoned her and apologized because she had arranged party on her behalf.Rita was so upset but she had to agree so she nodded.Then for many days Rita just kept complaining to her Mom about Charu and Swati until finally that miserable day came.Rita had to get ready so she got ready in her best clothes.She hoped that Charu had not invited whole families because she didn't want to waste that much money for Swati.But when she went inside that hotel,she was shocked to see that party was totally different that she expected.Many guests were invited and they were serving hot drinks.Rita never liked hot drinks.She was against it.She knew that most of her friends drank them.But she didn't want to tolerate those nonsense which happened after excess drinking but she knew that everyone had their right of choice so she gave forced smile.But one thing she didn't like most was her money was wasted on those drinks.Rita searched for Charu and found her.She was already drinking.Rita"Did you order those drinks?""Of course not.Swati sponsored them.I just ordered food."Rita was so shocked.When she turned around,she was so upset because every one was drinking.Then she saw small group of women who were drinking fruit juices.She was about to join them when she felt tap on her shoulder.
        Swati was standing behind her.She was so shocked to see Swati.She was looking so different and so strange.She had dyed her hairs in strange red colours.Her dress was so different.It was showing all those aspects of her body which were suppose to be hidden by clothes.It was not mini.But still it was something wrong.It's material was too much.Swati's make up was also too bright.But still she was looking good in all.It seemed as if she abroad suited her.Then Rita thought that Swati might be dressing the way woman dressed there.Rita hardly went there so how could she suppose to know.Rita"How are you?""Perfect.Every thing is so great here.I have ordered drinks.I hope you don't mind.Are you still against drinking?""Yes.""Ohh I am so sorry.""No..No..That is fine.After all it is your party so you can always enjoy it.I don't want to trouble any one."Then Suddenly some one called Swati and she went away.Rita noticed one thing that something was not right with Swati.She noticed after some time that Swati was surrounded just by men.In fact she was flirting with all those men.Her gestures seemed so wrong.When she turned around,she saw that their wives and Swati's true college friends were upset by this.She felt every thing was wrong.Then her another friend who was drinking juice with Rita spoke"You are looking at them.None of them seemed to care for wife.You are lucky that you are not married or you have to tolerate this."It was Ishita whose husband stood most near to Swati.Ishita was on verge of crying.Ishita"Bringing my husband hear was my mistake.I should have guessed.""I don't get it.Do you mean they know each other?""Not at all.They met just on party.But my husband is not in my control any more.He just wanted to dance with her."Another friend"Not just your husband all men are looking at her.Look at my husband."Ishita"But he is standing far away."Then all other women joined that discussion.All friends were upset by this.Even those friends whose husbands were stood with them were upset because it all looked so wrong."I just didn't understand why did we gave this party?"Charu was already so drunk that no one could ask her.Rita was so horrified by this that she decided that she didn't want to remain there so she started going out.When she heard a loud argument Ishita was screaming on Swati.Rita once again turned back when she returned.She noticed that Ishita slapped Swati.Rita was so confused that she turned to go back.When she noticed one man came inside running.He was about to dump Rita in his hurry.Then she noticed that this man began to join the fight.
       He was Swati's husband but he was not defending Swati in fact he was abusing her.He was telling her that he hoped that she would change her ways when she returned to India.But she was not changed.Rita was so shocked by this drama that she just stood there like statue.Then most worst thing happened suddenly Swati took hold of her hand and told her"I am coming with you.You are my only friend."She felt so worst then she had to take Swati with her.She hoped that Charu would help her in some way.But Charu was too drunk to do anything which would make sense so Rita had to take Swati with her.Rita looked once with hope at her husband but he was already sitting in his car and driving away.Then finally they went in Rita's home.Rita's Mom was waiting outside for her since Rita had already informed her about this.Rita's Mom had convinced her father that Swati was coming to stay just for an overnight.Her father didn't like it but forced to agree because they couldn't throw Swati away.Rita smiled with relief when she understood from her mother that her father was sleeping.Then they took Swati inside.Rita slowly told her Mom everything inside kitchen while Swati was sitting outside.Swati was crying loud voice.They felt that they were lucky enough that Rita's father were not waking up.Mom"Rita but she is acting wrong.She had to change her ways.""Ya.Let's talk to her."Then they slowly started talking.Swati"I just don't understand.I had to act that way or no one would pay attention to me.My mother always use to say that I will be special only if I act smart or I will remain useless.I want to become something special or people will ignore me.They will treat me like dust.My husband don't understand it.He don't even have time for me.""But he is working for you and your future.""No.He never cared.I just want to win in life my way.."After saying this she just left their house.They tried to stop her but she didn't listen to them.Rita's mom turned to her and said"I am sure something is wrong with her." For many days Swati didn't contacted her.Charu apologized for her drinking too much and not being helpful on that day.As days went ahead they almost forgot about Swati.Until one day they were so shocked to see an argument,they saw that a couple was screaming on Swati.When Rita came there and asked them"What is wrong?"They told her that Swati was making inappropriate gestures towards that man.Rita apologized to them and took Swati with her.Rita "What are you doing Swati?Don;t you understand by this behavior you are disgracing yourself?""Come on.It was nothing.""Nothing??My god are you out of your mind if you made such gesture to wrong person he could do anything to you.""I just don't care."Then Swati suddenly started crying.Swati"I just don't understand my whole life is messed.My husband is always suspicious about me and my every friend is standing against me."Then she started crying more loudly.Finally Swati told her that she was staying at parent's house and her husband had deserted her.Inside her heart Rita couldn't blame that man for doing this.She asked Swati"Did you consider of going to psychiatrist?"Swati looked at her as if Rita suggesting her to go to Mars But then she suddenly asked her"Is he handsome?""Who?""Psychiatrist."Rita was so shocked and at same time she was so sure that she needed to take her friend to one.Rita decided that she might lie.Rita"Actually we can search for one."Then they both sat for some time and finally Rita able to get rid of Swati when Swati's mom called her back immediately.
        After some days she was so shocked when Swati told her that she found a handsome psychiatrist and they should go to him.At first Rita avoided but then one day Swati just kept standing outside her house.Rita finally had to go with her.Rita"Why don't you go alone?""Because a book told me that you should not go alone because it seem so obvious.Why do you think?I mean you are not going to try."Rita was so shocked but she absorbed it and said"Not at all." because she just wanted to get rid of this.Finally they went there.On whole way Swati was planning how to win heart of that psychiatrist.When they went there,they had to wait.Whole time Swati was giving touches after touches to her makeup.Finally they were called as soon as they went inside Swati started making wrong gestures to that young Doctor but he just smiled and suggested Swati to sit.Then he told Rita to sit outside which was just on other side on glass from there Rita couldn't hear them.But she could clearly saw that Swati was trying her best to flirt with that psychiatrist who was handling it with excellent clam.Finally Rita was called inside and suggested Swati to sit outside.Psychiatrist"Your friend is suffering from Histrionic Personality Disorder that's why she is acting this way.In side her heart she felt that she was nothing so she wanted to attract attention.She was doing it with wrong way.""But why did it happen?""It could be genetic or it could be due to wrong parenting.I can't tell you all because it was all her personal matter.But don't worry she could be cured and she would be fine.I will help and you did best by bringing her.""I don't bring her.She came here because you are handsome."Psychiatrist started laughing and Rita was relaxed by it.Slowly she also joined him.First time that day she breathed without tension.She felt so relaxed that she began to feel sure that her friend was in best hand.That psychiatrist was perfect and he could cure her.
                                                            The End

Poem 1191. River of life

                                                       River of life
How interesting part of this life we never know what we are doing on every day of life
We just plan to go ahead as we wish in life and our life just take us in wrong way on
Every time I used to think this way until one day I thought with clear mind that why did
Life act in wrong way with us when we know that we hardly got time to understand
Our future and our life after all my life is something which goes as it decide sometimes
I just feel it's like river it pass from one point to another point and it never stop or change
Way at all inside life after all our life never went as we wish inside life but that don't mean
Our life goes wrong way that means we just don't like which way it goes ahead from
Time to time inside our life but it never change it's route just to upset us anytime like
A river it passes from rocks and goes that which are available inside life from every point
It look so perfect sometime when it just reaches on place which we like then it look so
Perfect that my thoughts jump with it on each and every time these river which are flowing
Are so perfect in life their noise seem so pleasant on each and every point and we just
Fall in love with it's beauty from time to time but sometimes rain falls too much and then
Thing goes against us on that time we began feel that this river is our enemy because
It manage to scare us by heart and mind we don't want to be destroyed and we don't
Want our things to be destroyed that way we want them in corner and to remain safe
On inside our life we create many dam which many times manage to help them so inside
Their mind on each every point we just think one thing that is truth of our life we can
Never change anything inside life unless we start to live as we wish from our heart and
Our mind but when we see that river do you really think that river come ahead because
It wanted you to destroyed I just don't think that way I just think one thing from our mind
That is we want to win inside our life we just want life to go as we like but sadly life
Never manage to move as per our likes it always goes wrong way on many days and
Many times inside life so on every day we think that our river should go that way which we like
We don't like  we just have problems inside our life our future is dependent on our thoughts
In life we just feel one thing that our thoughts will never run that way if we win in our life
But I just feel one thing that our thoughts are something on which we have full right
But you can't change the flow of river every time inside life so on many days inside life
I just feel one thing on each time that I need to watch river on many moments and
For many times in life because river flow such way that we just feel one thing inside mind
That river which flow was suppose to flow on rocks and it is not easy to find the way
Out them in life so in case of life our life also flows from situation which are so problematic
On many times that just like river it is not easy even for life to go as we wish from time
To time inside our life when we start moving inside our life situation will go just as we wish
Inside our life that we should go smooth but like river we never got a way which was
So easy and nice for our life our days will change from time to time inside our life but
On every moment we just feel one from our mind that we don't want our future to have
Some perfect for our life things which we get inside our life that are not because life is
Our enemy that was just because life have to go from many obstacles from time to time
Thing that go from obstacles never give you any thing smooth and perfect inside life
Because when that thing goes from them it naturally get speed that goes beyond control
Of even our life so on every moment we just feel one thing from our mind that if we want
To win then we must understand river never flow in straight and simple way inside our life
In that life I just think from every moment that river never goes as we prefer and like
So on every moment in life I just feel that I will enjoy each moment of life from time to time
When I saw those up and downs of river I feel so nice to them inside life and that's
Why each waterfall have so much crowd to watch them inside life so from time to time
Inside our life we just feel one thing from every angle in life that we want our life to be
Smooth but we just forget our life is like that flowing water which moves from one side
To another side so waterfalls are also so sure part of life so when you feel so upset just
Remember one thing water finally goes in sea that is rule of water same will our rule of life
Where ever we go but finally we all will reach to same sea until we get evaporated
By our mistake or bad deeds which we have created during our journey called life.

Poem 1190. Upset mind

                                                      Upset mind
How much may you set everything perfect and right still inside our life on every point

I just feel something goes wrong from time to time because life never goes as I wish in life

It just take some wrong turns on every time so when I began to think about this life then

I just found it as mess and nothing valuable sometimes I know from my heart that life is

Precious gift of god for my life but still I found that life is not that pleasant many times

I just went ahead on each and every time I just feel one thing from time to time I just feel

That I never understand those thoughts which are part of my life when I did every thing

Perfect I just thought that it will happen inside life and on every moment I feel that my

Thoughts will not have that depth inside life so on each and every point inside my life

I just feel one thing that even after doing everything so perfect and when I have manage

To set everything right way still something goes totally wrong inside life and on every 

Point I just feel one thing from inside my mind that I can never get things as I wish in life

But then I ask my heart am I going to quit so quickly in life after all I have tried so hard

To enjoy this life my soul told me that I can find some way only if I keep cool and quiet

Feeling inside my mind I just feel one thing that nothing is perfect inside my life after all

Our thoughts are something so nice on every moment inside life I just never understand

Why after coming so ahead how can I turn back inside my future and my life I just have

One feeling inside my brain on each and every point that if I want to win then why did

I have chose so many things which look nice inside my life but not that much useful in life

Sometimes things turn wrong way inside our life and sometimes our friends can't help us

Inside our life but on those occasions do we really need to have those thoughts inside life

I just feel one thing from my heart and from my mind that just because sometimes luck

Don't turn right way inside our life do we really need to take those ways which are not

That worthy inside our life but then my heart ask me what is really less inside my eyes

When I don't manage to win because my road is complicated or when I don't want to

Walk on that road because it is immoral is less in my eyes then answer comes to me

That even when I do some work which need help is better than doing some thing which

Is wrong for our world but even when I decide from my heart that I will do what is right

But still my heart seem to have one question it asks me again and again why did I have

To wait so long for small pleasure because when I see the world so easily get them in life

I just feel that I can win from time to time inside my life but winning is not question but

Important thing is peace of my mind which never come to me until I manage to do something

Which keep my brain happy inside life but as days went ahead I feel one thing from mind

That if I tried to keep my peace still wrong things manage to enter inside our future and

Inside our life because when things goes ahead as we wish from mind they never look 

As we like and on those moment we feel those depressions in life that tell us we have nothing
Even if we can get happiness inside five minutes if we tried because it is hidden inside heart
And not far away from mind after all our thoughts are something which are pleasant for
Our future and our mind I just feel one thing from my heart inside that I just want them
To win things inside life because things will change in our future after some time inside life
Slowly I feel one day only if I understood my thoughts inside my mind because they will
Tell me every thing which is good for our life we feel that our thoughts are something
That will not help us on each and every point we just feel one thing from our thoughts
And from our mind that we acted so right still because of others we suffer inside our life
On every point I just feel one thing from our mind that those people who have those
Thoughts inside their mind can just pity on themselves and never manage to win inside life
Because they don't help us on many points we just feel one thing from our thinking
Inside our future and life that we need to understand those thoughts which are important
For our life because those thoughts which look perfect are not the once which will
Help us on every day of life we need to understand those thoughts are confusing us
Many times we are not in that bad situation inside our life we are just upset because
We have created on beautiful castle of sand which was take away with tides called life. 

Poem 1189. Tell what is truth

                                              Tell what is truth
How interesting are some parts inside our heart I just feel something is not that right
About our thinking and our heart but still those thoughts will remain with us for so long
Time and for so long part that I just never understand how did someone understand
Those thoughts and those parts because when we go ahead slowly step by step those
Parts become something which stay with us so long that we know each and every thing
About them and about their thoughts how interesting may look those parts but I just
Feel thing from my heart I have stayed for long time with those things were not proved
As I thought so perfect and so right so inside my mind on each and every time I just
Feel one thing from my mind that when I walk in my life I just want to be happy on each
And every time but problem arises when we start going from one side and after half work
We have realized inside our life that we just want something and perfect inside life
So I feel everything to be perfect inside future and our life if you keep that side but
When that side changes and feel wrong me in life because other side understood me
A lot better in life so from each and every point I just feel one thing inside my life that
Just because it is easy I can't choose my side when I choose the side I need to decide
That in life is it perfect to remain stuck to that thinking and that side on each and every
Point I just feel one thing in life my honesty told me that I was on wrong side after all
We are just human so we can always make mistake in life but from that moment I have
Decided to change my side but how hard it feel when we stood on side since childhood
And then we get hurt by same side just because we show some difference inside life
When I say something against those people with whom I stood so many years of my life
How easily they insult me and show their true face to me inside our life after all our true
Thinking is something so perfect for our life that we can always thought wrong people
As right but I think wise one is that person who wake up on time someone who insult
Any one can never be called nice if you want to say something there are many ways in life
I don't tell you to become god and tolerate everything but some people act too much in life
That I think there is one limit why did you think that you are some sort of god after all
We are just human no one is a god how interesting are those people and their thinking
One moment they call some one god next moment that person become burden to everyone
And for their whole team so inside our life I feel I am changing my side but when I saw
This then I feel from inside my mind how easily people change their side while I take
Months to change my side but then I look at sky and hope that my god will rise and
Think that I can manage to fight even if I don't win but still I feel one happiness from inside
I feel that I am totally wrong from each and every point when my life takes some turns
Which will look so nice from each and every angle on so from some time I changed
My side but let me tell you one thing not because I like the other side because I have seen
Many badness inside first when I meet some people they just feel one thing from their mind
That I am like that from beginning and on every point I was not like that I use to be different
Inside our life I just feel one thing from each and every point that when I change the side
I feel I am a lot better than before in life sometimes we stuck in some room and we feel that
It is perfect and nice for shelter sometimes but if we want to see the world we need to go
Out of that room and see other things from life and then only we know inside our life on
Each and every view I just feel one thing that when I come out of that room I see that
World is so different inside that side or inside that room they just show what they want
Me to see in this world but when I got out I saw world in new colour I felt that nothing is
Same inside my future and inside my world so on each and every day inside my life I just
Feel one thing from my mind that is I never saw anything from outside so until then I thought
This world is so perfect and so right for our future and for our life so on every point then
I just feel from inside my life is not something which is so nice because I never able to guess
Truth about my world and truth about my life so on each and every time I just feel that
I never understood anything in life so from every point I just understood one thing in life
That until you know every thing about life you just can't decide your side that just mean
One thing that we don't know everything so we have to remember one thing that nothing
Fully perfect inside life so tell what you think truth but never took just one side any time.

Poem 1188. Work

                                                            Work
How interesting are some people who have one skill that is to upset you and still
They think they are just best help even when they just never properly manage to move
Inside our life on every point we just see some people who claim that we can just tell
A work and they are here just to do after all inside our life we just feel one interesting
Thought that their work will never going to help me or you because even when they
Claim they are going a lot of work but they hardly work is life's truth and inside life
On every point I just feel one thing that those people never understand meaning of work
Or maybe they don't want to do but still they just keep claiming how hard working
They are inside our life on every movement inside our life which is important for me and you
They are never ready to do any work but when they come they present themselves
In such a way that one each and every day they just feel one thing inside mind and in
Many ways that they are most nice and in world they are just greatest but sometimes
As days went ahead on each moment I just feel from heart one thing from brain that
If they work so hard how can they don't able to do simple things which are done by
Simple people who just do them on each and every day inside life so these people can't
Do simple thing still claim that they can change world from time to time after all changing
World is not simple process but before doing it you must need to know simple things
Inside future and inside life but these people just claim that they can do big things but
Not small things inside life I just feel one thing it is not possible for our life that we can
Just do big things and small things are kept for other people in life after all how can
We just make top floor and claim that we can't make ground floor or first floor inside
Our future and inside our life we need to understand that from time to time we don't
Need things inside our life so on each and every point inside  life we just feel one thing
That we just need simple things in life but some people just make big claim and useless
For our entire life how can we handle those people just watch on each and every time
They say that they are so great but still we feel one thing inside our future and our life
We just never think about anything which will give happiness inside our life we can
Always go ahead just as we wish inside our life but then on every moment of our life
We just wish that we can get simple things as part of our future and our life from time to time
Inside our life we just need simple things but these people never get them inside life
Sometimes I think these people never do anything for us they just do it for themselves
And for their life every time in life I just want people do understand those thoughts
Which are so perfect for our life but when some one say they can ride and reach
On peak of mountain but for us they are not even ready to do something which we like
It could as simple as carrying some bag to next corner of road on some time inside
Our life we just feel one thing from our heart and from our mind that thing which
We got are not enough for our life because some people just claim but never do things
As they claim inside life time will come and goes away from life people never understand
Those things from our life on every point in life I just feel so nice when people do for me
Simple things which are for me useful and nice every time I do something so important
Inside my future and inside my life I just feel that we can't win any way inside our life
I just feel one thing that how can I change my future inside my life if I get some of these
Type of people inside our life I feel my breaths are suffocated from time to time inside life
Just because of those tall claims inside our life which these people make and we are
Force to hear them and accept them inside life after all those claims are nothing but
Just useless thing on each and every point inside life we always claim we can ignore them
On each and every time but their claim seem to create so much hurt in our heart that
Those wound will open after some time people will claim things which they are doing
And never mention those things which are not done by them inside their life so from
Time to time inside our life we just feel one thing in our life that our destiny will not change
And we can never get credit in life we feel just these people will win without working in life
But sometimes I think when I think this way I just forgot one person in life whose I call god
And forget that it is not dependent on us what happen in life god will have last chance to decide.

Poem 1187. Wrong or right guess

                                           Wrong or right guess
From every point inside life I just think how perfect my guesses are sometimes but
Believe me my friend when I use my full brain and try to guess properly in life then
My guess don't seem accurate on those time maybe I use some extra brain which
Manage to confuse me and my mind inside my world I just feel one thing about life
When I think too much my thoughts will change from time to time when I feel around
Those thoughts which are part of my life and then I just don't feel sure which guess
Will be perfect for entire life I just think sometimes I need to find shortcuts while
Guessing inside our life from time to time inside our life I just feel one thing that my guess
Are something that are so important for our future and for our life but still too much
Thinking manage to destroy my guessing inside life after all in all those points I just
Feel one thing from my mind that is when I guess I just wish may be I just don't think
Too much about those things in life because when I think too much then I began to
Add more and more options inside life sometimes they help but mostly they just
Manage to hurt me on every point in life they just create troubles for me on each
And every time in my life but when I say this then I began to think about some of
Those times on which we just find happiness inside those thoughts which will give
Life many problems and manage to upset my thoughts inside life how sure I feel but
Still sometimes from time to time I just think one thing that I need to think inside life
About other factors before deciding things inside life but sometimes my first guess
Is my best guess inside my life and sometimes my first guess is my worst guess for
My future and life but still from time to time inside my life I just feel one thing that
Guess is not that easy thing for life so I just decide to spend my some hours in guessing
Sometimes and hope that it is wasted inside life like sometimes I walk in shop to
Buy some gift and I just locate one thing on first sight it looks nice to me and then
It look perfect in price so I decide to buy it and hope to give it to that person whom
I decided to give it in life but then when I look at that thing again I feel that it is not
Right for that person and then I began to search for some thing perfect and on it
I spend my entire time maybe it is not hours but those confused minutes seem equal
To another lifetime so inside our life we always thought every time that thing are not
Same in our future and in our life so from point to point inside our life we just thinking
About things which are part of our life from each and every point in our life we think
Every time that guess is something so perfect for our world and our life then once again
We began to feel something is wrong in that thing in many ways so I began to think
Again about those thing which we choose is not that perfect so after some time I just
Feel one way I just buy some thing I thought as best but inside our life on every day
I just feel one thing in my brain that I need to understand what I really feel about
Those things again and again so inside our life on every moment we just do one thing
In every way that instead of just choosing first thing we began to think again and again
But sometimes our second guess will prove the best but sometimes I feel first one
Are better in each and every way because inside our life on every day we need to
Make guess on every moment but many times I saw many people just gifting money
On each and every event they all claim that it is best because if we give wrong gift then
Money will be waste I don't know what is right but I just wish to give gifts to people as
Things not as money every day maybe some people need money in life on each and
Every day and every way but still in life on many points I just think in one way that
Maybe we can stop gifting people with things to avoid the guess but can we always
Manage to avoid each and every moment to doing some guess because inside this
World on every moment I just feel that I don't know what is best but I feel one thing
From my heart that even if inside my life I just feel one thing that is not best we feel
That since we don't know properly other's feeling so we can avoid those guess which
Will harm us from each and every point inside our world and which will never let us
Win in race but we can't do it on every day of life at least on some times we need to
Make guess which will help us inside our life and which will tell us that we need best.

Poem 1186. Our wishes to god

                                                 Our wishes to god
I always want to have some good things inside my life because whenever I think about
Those things I feel so scared inside my thoughts and my mind that one day I will lose them
And they will not be part of my future and my life because from time to time inside our
Life on every moment I feel what will happen if something happen and life changes inside
Our life on each and every point I just always hope that good thing will not go out of my life
I always hope that sun will keep shining in my life and I will not miss nice things out of life
When sometimes good things don't happen inside life because on every moment I feel
That good things are just temporary part of their future and life after all good things are
Not that important part inside life because those good things are something so perfect
In life that we feel we can always learn to enjoy life time to time but without those good
Things inside our life after all things which are good goes away from us after some days
Of life still many times we find ourselves praying before god that we can get success in life
Those things which we want are not right for our life we keep praying for them but sadly
God can't come and tell us about it straightly inside our life because when we do our
Prayer we feel that we are doing what we have right to do in life but then sometimes I feel
That I am asking god to against rules just to please me inside life those rules which are
Set by god are something so nice for our life that we just feel on each day that we need
Those rules if we want to win inside our future and inside our life we just feel one thing
On every point that we are just asking because god can help us in life but if we ask for
Something that is not possible how useful will be those prayer inside life it is like asking
Some one for same thing again and again every time even when we know very well that
This person will not able to give it inside life because giving those things are not easy in life
When we ask sometimes I feel we are keeping on one side our thoughts and our mind
Because we just go ahead and ask whatever we like never any logical thought seem to
Cross our brain and our mind we just always feel that one thing from inside our mind
That our thoughts are something so impossible for life that it shows to us that we just
Never think about other things inside life I like when I used to ask to god they take all
Problems away from my life I never thoughts once then what will remain inside my life
Only happiness can't be part of life because we just can't have only one side after all
When we buy or get anything do we expect just one side no my friends I don't think
It's possible to have  thing in life without two sides and we must learn to have them in life
One side will be nice and you will love it inside your life but you have to learn to tolerate
Those problems in life and there is another thing in life which we always want to give us
By god inside life every person goes and claim that they want to win in life so if there is
Just one cup how can god make so many winners inside life after all god have to choose
Someone out of all those person in this life god can't fulfil every strange wish which we have
Created on each day of life god can help us only when we ask something logical in life
We ask to god show us good way inside life then god can show us but then comes
Next question can we see them in life because some times our minds are so busy in other
Things and thoughts that we can't able to see that light so even if god give us something
Many times we just forget our wish and don't use that thing in life because we don't have
That good memory which will help us on each and every time inside our future and life
We just wish something from god and then go ahead in life we just don't remember
Our wishes on many occasions and on many times inside life we all need help and
Sometimes we just wish it because we are repeating sentences which are written in
Some book inside our life we just never think what are we asking inside our life so
When we ask for truth then we will get it in life but when truth is not on our side then
Sometimes our wish of being winner turn false in life after all when we wish we have then
Wished from both sides we just want everything inside our future and our life on
Each and every point inside our life we just wish from heart that we can get that sunshine
But before it sometimes we see darkest night because we have wished to win what is
Right inside our life and sometimes god play such strange game that god let wrong win
Sometimes and teach us a lesson which tell us for entire life that we just want happiness
Inside our life and for it we need peace of our mind other things we ask are just useless in life.

Poem 1185. Walks of life

                                                         Walks of life
From one side we start to walk in our life but then after some time we began to walk on
Totally different side in our life and in our mind every time we just live on one side
We just wish on every moment of our life that our walk will be such nice that on every moment
We just enjoy it on days and nights so from point to point inside our life we just feel one thing
From our mind weather will change on many times but our walk will remain same as it was
Before inside life how interesting are those thoughts of mind which tell us that this is not
Just walk but a prolong fight I just don't understand one truth of life is just walk or some
Fight but then as I went ahead in life I just feel one thing from mind it doesn't matter what is
My life one thing matter most inside my life that is I want to live it happily on each and every
Moment inside my life how much maybe I wish not to think about life but still life seem to
Have many point when we need to choose road in life on that moment we began to think
About our future because people tell us that this easily take us to destination we must not decide
Route we choose in life so easily on many times inside life because those routes which
We will choose something not so nice in life those routes are hard one which create problem
In our future and in our life when we heard all this I think we began to think about life because
When we heard all this we learn many stories which are about wrongly spend life and
They will tell us that we must think twice before doing something inside our life we just
Wish from heart not to remember them inside our life on each and every point inside life
When we walk every day we will feel that roads are not pleasant for our future and life
Because those stories took grip of heart and remain inside mind so even when we don't
Wish still we feel one thing inside our life on many points that when we walk I just feel
One thing from our thoughts and our mind that those walk which we choose can be risky
And can harm our entire life on each and every point so whenever we start walking on
Our road we just feel one thing from our mind that our want or feeling which will tell us
About problems which are created inside life so walks on which I walk no more seem
Safe to me inside my life when we walk on every moment we just feel one thing that
Maybe we took wrong road so maybe we will not win so easily inside my future and life
On many points we just feel one thing inside life that we can never win until we can see
Clearly those walks and where they take us inside life so whenever we come on turn
Instead of walking with confidence I feel that I am too scared about everything inside
My future and my life as days went ahead with nights I just feel one thing that this walk
Which was pleasant for me suddenly become like scary forest of life just because people
Told me I needed to find anything nice inside life so I just feel that I must walk on those
Roads which look so perfect in life but when crisis are increased then we must understand
That those roads are good only if we keep positive thinking while choosing road
Is not wrong for life but when we choose some road and thinking turn on wrong way
Inside life we must need to understand that our thoughts are precious things inside life
And we need to understand them when we sit peacefully sometimes inside our future
And our life so when we walk some road we see those pleasant parts of our life which
Will show us perfect ways which look so perfect for our future and our life after all
Inside our life I just feel one thing that our thoughts are so nice until we don't understand
Those risks inside our future and in our life after all those thoughts will give us
Bad dreams inside our life so on each and every moment I just feel one thing that our
Nightmares are started just after those people told us about risks inside future and life
I just wish from my heart that we need to be careful about things inside our future
And in our life before understanding those risks I use to be happy with my life and
On each and every day I use to think that my life is always best for me and it will
Always bring light inside my life but sometimes those advice help me and sometimes
They harm us in big way so I can't say surely I hate those advice inside my future
And my life but still I feel one thing from my heart and my mind I want them in life
But only if I take them in limited way inside my future and life because these walks
Will harm many people if they don't learn to enjoy them properly in life because
Some time taking wrong route is always truth and one of important part of our future and life.

Poem 1184. Harms in life

                                                     Harms in life
Have I told you one thing I had one dream this thing happen with me on many times
That we want to tell our thoughts but instead of repeating we prefer to call them some part
Of our dream those thoughts which come to us on days and nights and evening they never
Help any person as human being but still we want to share them as part of our life and
Part of our thinking because those thoughts will make us so happy inside our mind and
Inside our thinking each person feel something which is inside that person but sometimes
That thinking don't help us inside our world and our future so inside our life as human being
We just feel one thing that we want something really important for life and that dream
Make it possible at least inside our thinking for sometime so those dreams become precious
Inside our life and even if we know that we can't get them still we think about them in life
Those dreams which we see on days as well as nights they are not something which we can
See on every day of our life after all our dream are some thing which can easily imagine
By some people inside life so people feel from heart that their dreams will win only when
They try them inside life but while some think this way other people feel that such dreams
Are so impossible that we are force to accept that it is not possible to get them in life and
When we have some dream we just don't know on which side it will fall inside our life
So we just keep telling others about that dream on every time but most funny thing is that
Some people will quit it after telling about it on just one time and some people just kept
Telling it every day as if they want to check if you are ready to risk in life I use to think
Those people who repeat their dream are those people who never understand value of
Other's thoughts and other's problems inside life which they will get if they will try to follow
That dream inside their life we start to get that dream then cost of that dream will cost so
Much harm in our future and life we try to convince those people it once but still they seem
To repeat again and again same thing inside life because in life on every point we need
Someone who will really help us inside life after all that person who was forcing on us
Such a horrible dream seem neither helpful nor happy inside life after some point inside
Our life I just feel one thing inside my mind that those dreams which those people have
Are something so horrible in life that we can't expect them to fulfil those dreams inside life
But still they keep on telling them on every point inside life and on those spot they hurt
People unknowingly many times because people never understand thoughts of other mind
Inside our life on each and every time we just feel one thing inside mind that thoughts which
Comes inside our life will not stay in mind on every day of life but they can become
Part of our future only when they are force inside our life we feel weight of those dreams
Which was for those people who thought them very light we can never understand problems
Which are created by our dream because we never manage to come out of those dreams
Sometimes inside life we have some dreams which are perfect for our life but those dreams
Are something small and limited inside life big dreams means major problems inside life
So when someone started repeating it they feel like big problems in life and even when
We are pursuing some dream still these people began to tell us that we must change our dream
Inside life from time to time in life we feel that our dreams are nothing important
For our thoughts and our mind those small dreams are every thing even if they don't give
That big profit inside life but for these people those dreams are something just needed in life
But I just feel one thing from heart they may go ahead and pursue any dreams they like in life
When we try to say this most famous line is that it is not possible for them inside life and
Each person will give different excuse but results are same for every one in life because
As days went ahead we just see one dream inside life that our thinking which bring happiness
Inside our mind on every time in life but when we go ahead on each and every moment
In life we just feel one thing from our thoughts that is our need of understanding our future
And our life sometimes these people who suggest us things are not even having any knowledge
About them inside life they just said it because they want to waste their time but when
We heard some suggestion again and again inside life I just feel that my anger began to rise
On each and every time inside our future and inside our life we must learn to ignore
Some sentences from time to time or those sentence can cause many times of harm inside life.

Poem 1183. Forced to keep quiet

                                             Forced to keep quiet
How sure I was that interesting will be that task because it was made that way which
I always like from my heart how nice it may seem inside our world to have that task
But after some time inside our heart I feel one thing that nice was not that task for my mind
As I hope it will shine inside my life it just kept irritating from time to time inside life
How confuse I felt when my hopes don't shine don't you have same feeling many times
Inside life I just feel that on those moment I feel worst inside my thought and inside
My life because those thoughts will not help us inside life after all those thoughts which
Will help us from time to time will keep us alive inside life after all those thoughts are
Something which were kept after research inside life and I just feel one thing inside mind
That is I need to understand truth of life that I can't understand when I will get bored
Inside life after all our thoughts are something which are so perfect and nice I just have
One feeling inside our life that is those moments are moments on which we feel most
Depress and alone inside life because on those moment we have one feeling inside
Our thoughts and our mind I feel that I am all alone in life when I make so much efforts
Just to get that fun and I can't get it in life I feel as if someone have hit me in stomach
And believe me no one have done it in my life this is something worst in my dream and
In dreams of many other people in life when we expect so much fun and suddenly every
Thing turn wrong way inside our future and our life but I just feel one thing from heart
And mind that when we expect fun then we must understand that fun is not going to be
A permanent part of our future and our life because from time to time inside our life I just
Feel one thing from our mind that is most interesting fact of our life just once things don't
Happen inside life as we like I don't know what you feel but I can never take that easily
Inside my life I feel as if my whole world is drowning inside sorrows of my mind and
On those moment I just feel that every thing I got is wrong inside life suddenly I will become
A slave who is cheated from each and every right and each and every work I do become
Force on me and who ever told me to become a cruel master of my life suddenly I began
To feel that every one is happy and enjoying perfect life while I am that only one who
Want to be free but still forced to live a slave life I don't know what is truth of slavery
But still it seem like I know every thing about it inside life and even when I was treated
Like princess that extra work become something horrible for my thought and my mind
But sometimes I feel one question inside my mind did really princess enjoy such a nice
And such a happy life they must have also need to work for one thing or another thing
In life after all they can't enjoy that free life they can't even jog like we do inside our life
Sometimes when I went some place just because I want to walk around and enjoy those
Wind around me for while I just feel one thing that I am so lucky to have this freedom
Inside life because even if I work for sometimes I just feel that I am lucky walk inside life
Because while walking I saw a person on wheel chair who don't have that happiness in life
But then I look at that person and felt sad for sometimes then I notice that person's laugh
And I felt confuse in my mind because that person was also happy maybe more happy
Than me inside life because with my leg I have convince myself of happiness that person
Seems to have adjusted with things inside life so suddenly I felt that my problem is not
About finding interesting thing it is about adjusting with what we got inside our life so
When you learn to be happy then you can enjoy that happiness from time to time inside life
After all our happiness is not about something having inside life but it is about valuing things
From our life because on my walk next place was that graveyard in which many people
Are sleeping and even those people are not complaining about life then I thought may be
Many of them reached to that graveyard just because they complained and worried too much
Inside their life so now they sleeping so quietly inside that they just can't say anything in life
And on next graveyard they are burning people with peace and quiet so no one complaining
I thought until I saw people come away from those place and started talking with each other
So one person have died but other person seem to understand one thing from one's heart
That once we are dead then we must have to be quiet so when they come out they were chatting
In such voices that even manage to disturb those graves that forced to keep quiet in life. 

Poem 1182. Swing of thought

                                                    Swing of thought
One thought come inside my mind and I thought it is not perfect so I let that thought swing
This is what happen in life inside mind of some human being they just say something and after
Few days it will not matter that much same thought for that human being those thoughts which
We store in life will look so perfect for a human being inside our life on every point we just
Feel one thing inside life that we must understand those thoughts which are inside those person
And then only we can decide what is wrong and what is right inside life because our life will
Not act same way every time and just because we know their first thought we assume that
We are giving them right thoughts from point to point inside life how much I wish from my heart
That I can able to keep track of person's mind but mind seems like something which changes
On every moment inside life of some people on every point and I just feel one thing from my
Thoughts and from my mind that I can never understand what I felt in my mind how nice it may
Seem but we are always on confuse side because even if that person is with us for some moment
Or that person will remain with us for our future and  our life how confuse we may feel for
Each and every time still we just feel one thing from our mind those thoughts which may swing
Will create bad effects on mind because thoughts will never stay on one place in entire life
After all thoughts are something which look so perfect to human mind but we just feel one thing
That at least for some days those thoughts will remain on same point inside life I just never
Understand what these people will think about life will these people just think one way or they
Will find other ways which look nice for our mind because if they are thinking against us and
Then change their mind then it will be miracle but it hardly happen in our future or our life
But sometimes our thoughts will just remain on one place from time to time inside our life so
We began to hope that other people will keep same type of mind inside their life we feel that
They also keep same thoughts from day after day inside our life and we can never get things
As we wish inside our future and our life because things never go in way that we prefer in life
Things just went sometimes wrong way inside life I just feel one thing on each point inside life
I feel that people must kept things as they wish them inside life because just while assuming
They will like that thing we made decisions inside our future and our life but sadly inside life
On every point we just can't get others thoughts because they are changed on each and every
Moment inside future and inside life after all in this world I just feel one thing in life when
I feel that I have support and then when I find out that my support is lost I can never adjust
With those thoughts inside life because life is something so interesting on each and every point
When things are something so nice for our life because those thoughts are something so nice
For life after all those thoughts are something so unique to our thoughts and mind we just
Feel one thing inside life that our thinking should be such that I can at least understand it
On some important point inside our life on every important point we just feel that one thought
Will hurt me on days and nights that even after making so many efforts in life I can hardly
Find those thoughts which touch my soul and their mind because I just don't understand
Their mind but then once again I think about it then I thought maybe I have problems
About my soul and also about it's understanding how easily it will change on every moment
In my life every time I claim that I know my mind but sometimes when I ask my heart
It tells me that I can't understand even my own mind we start from one source and then
Went to other source inside life because many times I thought that my sources and confuse
Just because I don't understand my thought and my mind how interesting it may seem but
Still it just frustrate me from time to time that those sources which we have are something
Not in my thoughts are not in my mind I ever feel that thing inside life because every moment
When I walk I just feel one thing from my mind my thoughts just kept shifting on each day
Of my life and my want are not same even if I pretend to think that those thoughts are something
Which are kept changing on each and every moment inside life we just feel one thing on
Every time that our thoughts are not for every day but they are for our entire life but then
When they change from inside of our mind how can I pretend that they are same on every time
So every one change thoughts from time to time so why did we complain about them inside life
I know honesty is important in life but if your mind says something different then don't you
Think that honesty is in some times saying it before everyone in proper day light in life.

Poem 1181. Dark clouds

                                                     Dark clouds
On one spot of our life I always assume something will remain as they are before in life
But I assume it only when things are good inside life when things are bad then I assume that
They will be change inside life after some time like wind take away dark cloud of our life
I feel things will be normal after some days and after some time after all inside life on some
Occasions and on some points I just feel one thing from my heart that we want things to
Turn better inside our life after all things never look that bad inside our life things are perfect
On each and every moment and each and every time in sometime my view I feel that thing
Will be handle by someone inside life I feel one thing when things are always from my eyes
I assume they will be normal after some time but inside our future and inside our life I just
Feel one thing from my mind our life is not taking me the way that I wanted it in life because
I want it to improve those things which are behind my eyes I wanted it to understand that
My need of change inside life I just feel one thing if life changes for bad sometimes then
Why don't life change for good at least sometimes but when I return back at that thing and
Find that it is just as before inside my life I just feel so shocked at that truth which shows me
Life have not at all change on those points but when I just go back there for some minutes
I suddenly began to feel one doubt inside my mind that maybe life have change in bad way
And I can't able to see it in just few moments of our life our life never win in any part of
Our thoughts and our life because on each and every part of our life I just feel one thing
From our thoughts and our mind that things will never change as we hope on every time
Sometimes when people don't try to improve them then they turn in wrong way for entire
Future and life but then what shall I do in some parts of life when person are grown up
Enough and have experience of their life still they must take which don't seem okay for life
Some people just complaint on face and some complaint behind I know it is wrong to do it
But still I follow same strategy inside life after all our days are depend on it and same apply
To our thoughts and nights we don't have anything useful inside our life because as days
Went ahead we will find some things which are totally wrong for our future and our life
But still I found myself doing nothing on some occasions and part of life after all it is one thought
That tell us from time to time that we are on wrong point inside our future and our life and
We just feel one thing inside our mind that when we do something mostly it manage to hurt us
On each occasion and on each spot in life how can we expect things to change when we can't
Able to do anything in life how can anyone change them so easily but still sometimes I feel
That I like to assume that way inside life my thoughts are one thing which look perfect in life
But when they truly touch our spirit I feel that I can win many things inside life so on many
Moment inside life I just feel one thought inside that our life will change in some days but
That is not for good for worst sometimes because those person who suppose to change it
Turn it into totally wrong way inside life and on every thought which we have we just feel
That we don't have anything in life but just trust me my friends sometimes our all ways have such
Dead end for our life that even if we decide to move mountain we can't able to do it because
In reality moving mountain is not possible in life some people say that if we wish we can move
Mountain but still I have my doubts about it in life because when I tried to move even a struck
Cover of jar I can hardly able to do that inside life how sad we feel when we just watch and
Don't able to do things inside life how from heart we wish to change things but they are not
Changed with time on those occasion we have two options one we can find a way to break
Mountain which required knowledge courage and money in life and in my life I found it's hard
To get three things together on one point which are ready to help us in life because if we find
Them together on some place then we find that such person have own plans in mind and that
Person can hardly got sometime to discuss things inside future and inside life so on many times
We just feel one thing from mind that we need to understand those thoughts which look perfect
Inside our future and our life that how much we may want to change things but still thing remain
Same on each and every point inside our future and our life because we just feel one thing inside
Our mind that thing will change when we like and future never work that way it change only
When it decide that change is what look perfect on that spot inside our life and our mind.

Poem 1180. Numbers and words

                                                  Numbers and words
How interesting was that games of numbers which one is first and which one is last
That is just one question for some people life is just game of numbers they never understand
Anything than those numbers may something good happen or may something bad happen
Inside this world still I feel one thing that I need to understand this games of numbers
On which some people just spend their days and nights inside world so on every moment
Inside your world I just feel one thing from inside my mind and my world that every day
In life sometimes we feel so much pleasure that  every moment we just feel one thing
Inside our world that is we must understand those thoughts which will always happen
Inside our world after all those games of numbers are something so perfect in our world
That we feel on every moment we need to understand those thoughts which will help us
On every point inside world those numbers are something in which we play every game
Of this world those numbers are something which are always important for future of person
So inside our world we just feel one thing from our thoughts about world that we need to
Understand why people love so much those numbers you can see on every moment that
Even in success of person or even in failure of a person people just set one thing that is
Numbers which will help us on every moment inside world we need to think how easily
We can rule this world only if we know how to get that number I know you are confused
But still go ahead and look at any card you own inside the world most important thing
You will get out of it nothing but just one number representing you inside this world and
In world's thinking name may matter to you as important for your heart but when you go
Inside this world number seems matter more to other heart when ever you do something
People just began to count how many people in this world manage to do that thing because
Inside our life and inside our thinking those number on which we stood matter us more than
Any other thing so inside our life and in our thinking we just feel one thing from our heart
That is our need of having that thing in our world as we feel that need as days went ahead
With them began to increase our love of numbers even on smallest occasion we want ask
About person and next we began to need that person's mobile number so when you go ahead
And give this to other people in this world one thing you feel that you are sharing your top
Secret inside this world because when you give number you feel that you are sharing some
Thing precious while giving name now a days seem so common in this world because
One is unique inside this world that we feel just one thing important in our world that
We feel one thing so nice for our thoughts inside our world we can become unique by that
Number after all names are so common in world that when one name is called we can
Easily see standing and responding to it of many person so name can never make us
Something great in world and name can never help us to rise on proper occasion so from
Inside of our heart and inside of our mind we just feel one thing inside our life that
On each and every point we need to understand many things about our future and our life
Those numbers are something so perfect and nice for our mind because they are not
Common for two people so easily in life we just want something unique inside life and
At same time we don't want to be that unique that we look too different in life so we are
All walking on one rope of life on one side we want to be unique and on other side
We hate uniqueness of our thoughts and our mind but on each and every point we just
Feel one thing from our mind that we can always change our thoughts about those days
And those nights inside our life because we don't want to look odd on same time in life
Our thoughts will change by moments and by hours in life we feel just one thing that
Those thoughts are something on which we need to understand issues of our life because
When we want something unique numbers seems better inside life because if we keep a unique
Name then people find it even hard to call you every time so they cut it to their comforts
And make it small as per their likes so finally name can't be unique but number can have
That quality inside life I just feel one thing that I see everyone prefer number but I just never
Understand why on some occasions they seem wrong to our eyes like when we see marks
We feel that maybe we should not see those numbers in life I just never understand but
In case of marks people prefer words over numbers many times but finally one day even
On that front we use numbers on one point which shows our worth so number seems like
Began to capture each days of my life and mind but still I think words are more like friend in my life.

Poem 1260. Imagining my life

                                                    Imagining my life
Sometimes I feel life is just about me and sometimes I feel that life is about just imagining
Things which may happen to me many times in life nothing wrong happen with me but still
On every point I just manage to scream about those things which I imagine because life is
About getting each and every thing it is about that thought which tell you that you can go
In worst problem on each and every day in your thinking so I just feel one thing that I don't
Want to take any risk but still my mind can't stop imagine worst scenario on days as nights
On each and every thinking as I imagine things I just feel one thought as human being that
Inside our life on every evening we just feel one thought that our imagination is part of life
Of every human being on every day of our life as human being we just have one thing that we are
Imagining all those things which are going to happen only inside some film sometime they are
With happy ending sometimes they are causes for destroying peace and thinking because
Some scenes are about tragedies in life of human being and some scenes are about those
Thoughts which enter inside life as human being inside our life as a human being it will be
So nice for us to have things inside my life I feel about imaging things that as human being
We always imagine strange sort of things as human being I feel inside my life on every moment
As human being I just imagine wrong sort of things and then get scared for every small and
Big thing as human being but when days went ahead in life as human being we feel just one
Thought and one thinking that those screams which we heard are something so perfect
For human being and they warn us about everything but now a days I just smile on that
Thinking because my thinking never warn me on proper timing it just tell me bad things
After I am in problem and scare me more than anything it just irritate me on every point
As a human being we never go ahead in life as we thought while thinking we just feel one thing
That we must understand our thoughts and thinking as days went ahead in life on every time
And on every thinking we just feel one thought in life that we are imagining wrong thing
Because when bad thing happen we just don't need that type of thinking we need to go
On positive side so that we can imagine nice sort of thinking as days went ahead in life on
Each day and every source of thinking we just feel one thing from mind that we are losing
Our peace of mind just on those imagined things as days went ahead in life we just feel
That sometimes even our positive thinking manage to harm us if our imagination goes in
Wrong way while thinking as human being as days went ahead in life and we go ahead
With our thinking we just feel one thought from mind that how can we imagine those thoughts
Which help us as a human being people feel inside our life when we think as human being
Sometimes we imagine so great future for us that even those thoughts manage to hurt
Our thinking and our feeling we can go ahead in life without that thinking which ask us
Every time are we living truly our life or we are just imagining those different sort of things
As I feel inside my life on half time I just feel one thought from my thinking that I feel
Inside my life on every moment I need to understand my thoughts and my thinking about
As days went ahead in life I just have one thought inside my mind as human being we just
Feel one thing in life what is wrong in imaging positive things but question is that do you
Really know from heart that you are imagining things or somewhere inside your heart
You began to think that you can truly have that things so if you dream something totally wrong
And impossible as human being you will just feel that you are totally wrong as imagining
Because sometimes those dreams took hold of reality and you began to weigh those things
When you get something in reality you feel that is not perfect thing as days went ahead
You began to feel that you could have got your dream and then you just can't appreciate
What you got as human being so inside our life on each and every day I feel just one thing
May I truly living my life or maybe I am spending half of it while imagining good and bad things
Imagination is so good if you keep it for perfect thing it is nice when used properly but otherwise
It manage to damage many things so inside our life I just imagine in wrong way many things
Because as days went ahead in life I feel that I am not living my life I am just imagining things.

Poem 1259. Our want of sunlight

                                                   Our want of sunlight
Sunlight inside sky look so nice sometimes that I just want to watch that sunlight on many
Occasions and on many times as days went ahead from time to time I just feel one thing
From mind that sunlight is so perfect and that sunlight is so nice I just love it's brightness
On each and every point I feel if only I can keep in some box that beautiful sunlight on every
Time inside my life I just feel that it will look so beautiful and nice for my life beauty of that
Sunlight is part of our life it gives so much colour of rainbow to my life that sunlight which
Shine properly on my life's one side I feel to look just like golden jewel on every moment of life
But sadly when I tried as child to store that sunlight I just don't able to store it inside life
And that sunlight which look so perfect in life is not as nice as I wish from every side of life
When I look at that sunlight I feel that it is so nice for our life as days went ahead from every
View and point we feel that we need to have that sunlight inside our life that sunlight which
I store was not for me inside life on every moment I just think that this sunlight will not that
Look so nice inside life when I see that sunlight inside our life I just feel that I can't store
That sunlight on any position of life but even at that moment I feel that I don't understood
One truth of life that like sunlight I can't store many things inside life are not going to be
In my hand on every moment inside life I feel from my heart one thing about life that I just
Like many things but sometimes I can't like them inside life I like silver many times over
Gold inside life but still I feel that I prefer to get gold because of it's value inside life but
Then sometimes I feel my true wishes are something just remain hidden inside my life
On every point I just feel that those wishes are something in my life then every time I feel
That while searching for those profits my true wishes are vanished inside life since those
Wishes are something which are hidden inside and they are those things which will remain
Alive inside our mind and inside our choice I just have one feeling from my mind that I feel
My wants are stored under my conscious and inside my mind on every day I feel that in my life
I need to act practice with many parts of life so as things seem inside life it seem that I can't
Have something which look so perfect inside future on each and every time I just feel one thing
Inside life that when I just can't get something then why can't I understand that some thing
Are not just made for me inside life I know it upset me on many times but still from my heart
I just feel one thought inside life that those sunlight which are so perfect for us are not
Something nice for my future and for my mind as days went ahead from time to time I just
Feel one thought from my mind I feel that running after sunlight become thinking of my mind
And every day I just run after wrong thing by this method inside life I just feel one thing on
Each and every point that how can I get something which is not that much truth but just lies
Inside our life as days went ahead from time to time we just feel one thing that I see in sunlight
In that sunlight I feel I am on wrong point inside my life and on every moment I just feel
One thought from my mind that sunlight which shines every day as we prefer and like I feel
That this sunlight is doing perfect thing inside life I feel that those things which are not part
Of my future and part of my life I just feel every day that I should not get involved in such
Wrong things inside my life on every moment I just feel that I can do anything as I like in life
I feel that on every day I hold that sunlight inside our mind as nice thing for life so in that
Sunlight inside our life I just feel that I should try to use it and admire it instead of using it
On every day of my life I feel my life will take me on totally wrong side I feel that my thinking
Of holding something is totally wrong in life when something is useful for our life we can
Just use it or admire it because we like but we can't have it because when we keep something
With us we have to think about future from every angle of life and every moment we need
To think what is wrong and right so inside our life on every point we just feel one thought
Inside life we feel that holding something which is not good for our life is not something
Perfect and nice for our entire life as days went ahead on every time we just feel one thought
From our mind we feel that we are on wrong point inside our life we feel that we can win
If we try to do thing properly inside our life but just trying to get something because we want it
Inside life is totally wrong thought for our future and for our mind as days went ahead from
Each and every time we just feel one thing that our wants are different than thing which we got
Inside life but sometimes we can manage to get want like sometimes we can buy silver instead
Of gold and that need could be satisfied but if we want to hold sunlight then we can't do it in life
Because it is most dangerous want which will manage us to destroy on every point of life.

Adventure story 112. House of dolls

                                                     House of dolls
When finally Ritika reached to that call centre where she hoped to get that job.She felt so relieved.Ritika was searching for that job since so many days.She was all alone inside this world with no more to care.Her whole family was settled now.No one really seemed to care for her.She remembered those days when she used to hope for some bright future but now all her hopes were gone.She was living her life just on money which was kept on her name so her life was so senseless in her eyes.She had to get something so that she could once again feel that life inside.But when she went inside it,she saw it clearly that they didn't want her.She just didn't understand that what was wrong in her but she could feel it.That they didn't want to give her a job.She had to go outside.She was upset.Once again she went inside her home.She was not feeling any peace now.She didn't want to go outside.She felt so nice when she was inside but whenever she went out side.She felt so scared.But every one was telling her that she must do something.She was just sitting inside her home.In fact she kept herself inside it.Ritika didn't want to go out side.Even inside her house she had created her nice paradise.She had made many types of dolls.This was her favourite hobby buying cheap dolls from market and then changing them into some thing like Barbie or she felt that they were more beautiful than that.She just went inside her room where she started creating dolls.She had selected perfect red colour out of her dress.She had cut her dress to create it because now a days her finance was not that good so investing more money seemed like useless.She had to do something for living.But inside her heart she knew that she could live on her investment but still her brother was insisting that she must do something.He suggested that she should at least go out for sometime to walk.But she hated it.She knew that she would get fat if she didn't exercise properly but she was not feeling much hungry now a days so that problem was solved.She didn't get fat if she didn't eat that much so she went inside kitchen.Once again she made that normal sandwich with limited spice and ate it.Then she once again went to do those dolls.Ritika had developed strange hobby of storing those dolls outside in gallery.She put her doll there.She was about to turn when she noticed a man looking at her.She hated him on first sight.She felt from heart that he was a criminal.She went inside immediately.
        Just like her normal schedule Ritika started doing each and every thing.Nothing was changed.She was fully involved in her work.She once again ordered all needed things on phone.She felt that she was blessed after that she didn't want to go out in that hot weather.Ritika nodded to herself.When doorbell rang,Ritika went near door and saw from keyhole.She saw that a woman was standing outside.She dressed so perfectly that Ritika quickly guessed that she wanted to show Ritika that how good she was.Then she noticed that this woman was watching again and again at her door.Ritika felt that some thing was wrong.She knew her special ability but she didn't want to use it now.In fact she didn't want to think about it.Then Ritika felt that she had to ignore that woman so she went inside.After ringing doorbell for sometime that doorbell stopped ringing.That woman must had gone away.Ritika just didn't trust that thought she knew that people could do anything to such lonely woman like her so she went near keyhole again.She couldn't see any one.But she was not sure about it any way because in case of key hole they could see every one properly.She wished that she had created small window in that wooden door.That small window was something which needed to be done by carpenter.Her brother had suggested that she should do it but she didn't want those carpenter and noise inside life.From every point inside she thought that she did the right thing in life.On every point she thought that she couldn't tolerate them.Then she once again felt that something was not right.She was so scared inside life about every thing now a days.Then she suddenly noticed that she forgot to order things.Ritika smiled.It was such a small matter and she had forgotten to give so she phoned and gave order.Then she went back to Television and started watching her favourite shows.She was so involved in it.That she just jumped when some one touched on her shoulder.She was so scared.It was her brother.Ritika"How did you enter in house?"Her brother smiled."Of course with my keys.Now don't you tell me that once I used to live in this house?"Of course she knew it.The house in which she was staying was their old family home.Her brother shifted because he didn't adjust with parents.After her parent's death she was living there alone.Even her brother's family was not much welcomed in this house because at beginning her parents never liked that daughter-in-law who took their son away from them.But inside her heart Ritika never blamed her daughter-in-law for it.She knew that she was simple woman.Her brother was never fond of his parents.But she never said it because she didn't want to chat with some one for such a long time.She wanted to be alone in life and only her brother was one who never left her alone and kept coming every time inside life.She knew that it was not for love just for this house.
          Ritika was acting most strange today her brother Yogesh felt it.But he wanted to stay with her for at least some days.She was acting in such way that he could convince her anything.He wanted her to shift with him so that he could sell this house.He knew that Ritika would never agree.At first he started visiting her just to convince her.But then slowly he began to notice that something was wrong with Ritika.She kept herself locked inside this house.Then his wife announced that she didn't want to stay with Ritika so question of selling house got scraped.But Yogesh was concerned about her sister.He didn't want his mind to blame him for anything if something happened to Ritika so he just kept coming.But he didn't understand what did he suppose to do.Ritika once again looked at him with suspicion.Ritika didn't like it when he came to meet her.He was so involved in his thoughts that he didn't understand that she was looking at her with anger.On that moment doorbell rang Ritika was so upset.Suddenly she knew that what was happen that man whom saw outside her balcony was a friend of her brother and they were planning this.She was so sure that this man would be outside.But instead of him it was that woman.She didn't went near the door.She just kept sitting there while doing her dolls.She was listening to them.That woman was pretending that she was her neighbour and she wanted to make friendship with Ritika.Ritika already sensed that something was wrong.Then that woman gave something to eat and then she went away.While going away she looked at dolls and admired them.That woman"Hello I am Radha,your neighbour.Glad to see you.."Ritika just kept stitching and tried her best to ignore her.Yogesh"When my sister is involved in her art.She never speak.""Those dolls they are so lovely.Actually my husband have a toy shop and we like to keep them for sale."Radha was about to touch the doll when Ritika slapped on her hand.Ritika"Don't touch it."Radha looked so hurt and upset.She suddenly went away.Radha turned around but Ritika knew that she could guess her mind.They had that ability in family.Her mother ..no..her grandmother..no her auntie..no..she was sure that all had that special secret power.She suddenly remembered it all.She could read those minds and then she looked at doll.She could even put soul inside them and then kill them.But she was not going to tell that to Yogesh.He didn't have that talent because he insulted his parents or...then she understood it that talent must be inside just woman's of their family so Ritika had it and Yogesh didn't.She could read that woman's mind.She knew that man under her balcony was her husband or some relative who sent her.Yogesh was so shocked by Ritika's attack that he just kept looking at her.Ritika"I can read her mind and tell you that this woman and her partner wanted to capture my dolls.""So what great in it ?She asked for them just a few minutes ago.""You just don't understand.They want to capture my talent with them.I got...""Stop that nonsense will you.If you have so much talent why don't you use it to get things you like.I mean like money,fame etc.?""I will use it but not now.I will use it on suitable time.""And who will tell you that suitable time?""I will understand that from my heart..""Enough.I am going and just talk properly with those neighbours or they will complaint about you to secretary of society and then you will have to go."Ritika started screaming on him."No one can take me out of this house.This is my house.This is place where my all powers will stay."Then after some time she relaxed and then once again she smiled and said "I am just joking."Yogesh nodded and went away.
        When Yogesh went down,he just felt that some thing was not right with his sister.He couldn't properly point it out.But he sensed it from mind and as days were going ahead it was increasing on each day.He didn't clearly point it out but he could sense that she believed all those nonsense.He just wanted to take her to Doctor.But he couldn't force his sister like that.She was not a child.If she didn't wish to go then he couldn't do anything.He was feeling so sad from inside that he couldn't help her.He knew that it was hard.But he had to go away for week on some business and he could expect his wife to come to visit Ritika every day.He had to leave Ritika that way for few days.He knew that he had done this before but this time his heart was telling.It was not right.As soon as Yogesh went away Ritika locked that door.After some time doorbell rang once again.There was unknown man outside.When she asked that man told her,he was from shop.She gave him all that money from gap of locked door and told him to keep those things outside.Then as soon as he went away,she just took them inside in few seconds.It was her every day routine.After that day when that woman asked about those dolls.She became more careful.Now she had started locking those dolls in cupboard.Then she even started to putting two or three chairs before her door.She noticed once and twice.Some people were looking at her window in strange way.She noticed that some people were also talking about it.She didn't hear their words but she sensed it.One person even pointed out at her window.One day once again that woman came outside.This time that man was also with her.Ritika sensed it all.She knew that they were doing it for dolls.But she kept them locked.She checked inside.After ringing bell for sometime they just went away.She smiled happily on every moment.She knew that they were coming for dolls but she never understood which way so she just kept every door and window locked.She had to save her talent.As days passed slowly banging of that door decreased.She felt so glad.She was sure that every one thought that she was not in house.But slowly her food supply was finished.She decided to phone for it but then she felt scared.She didn't want to take risk.She was so scared by that idea.She could still remember that evil couple.She was sure that they would take away her dolls so she just kept inside.Her hunger was killing her but she just didn't want to bear this.She had eaten everything.She could but after some time knew that nothing was left to eat.Slowly she started feeling so weak.She just couldn't able to move so she just sat beside her dolls.She could sense that now banging on her door was increased.But she was so helpless and useless that she kept sleeping near those dolls.
         Radha was watching that door every day.She didn't see her neighbour going out for some days.She sensed that something was wrong but she couldn't just go and tell it.On first day she kept ringing bell.On second day she just started looking inside from corner of door.She knew that it was wrong but still she felt that she was doing it.She sensed that this strange woman was inside and not opening her door.On third day she finally asked watchman who told her that Ritika did things like that but mostly she called people to deliver her food.Radha"But this time no one was coming.I think something was wrong with that woman.""Madam that is her house.She could act as she wish.That woman never like to come outside."That watchman also ignored that matter for that day.But after fourth day he was also tensed.He went there and started ringing then he started hitting door.Then finally he was convinced that something was wrong so he went to secretary who phoned to Yogesh.When Yogesh told him that he was out of town,secretary had become tense.But when Yogesh told him that he would come.He was little relieved.Radha,her husband and whole building was standing outside now.Every one tried everything.Finally they all thought that Ritika was murdered inside.Then finally Yogesh came and they went inside.Ritika was sitting beside dolls and she was looking so weak.They called ambulance and took her into hospital.Doctor told them in hospital that she was not eating for four days so she was such a weak.Radha"Yes.She locked herself inside that house but why?"Yogesh"I don't know."Then when Ritika woke up,she once again started screaming for dolls.Finally Doctor forced her to sleep.Then they called psychiatrist who went near Ritika and started talking to her.Slowly she told him"In my house I have those dolls in which I have special power our whole ancestor had it."Then she explained that how did she capture souls in that dolls."Did you ever saw those dolls flying?""No.Never.""Or any sort of unreal stuff?""Never Doctor.I am not mad.I have just one special power that's all."After that psychiatrist came out,and said"I think she was suffering from Schizotypal Personality Disorder.Did you have Schizophrenia in family?"Yogesh nodded."Yes my uncle had it.""So she had this disorder which we get due to genetic defects.I think there is risk of increase in this.If that happen it will turn into Schizophrenia.I will admit her to hospital and when she would be cured.I will send her home."Yogesh nodded but inside his heart he knew that his sister would never be cured.He saw that in his Uncle.He even knew that his father had some problem but he used to take medicines.He hoped that Ritika would do the same.He knew that Ritika had to live alone entire life now and he also knew that his wife would not take this lightly because now even their children might suffer like this.But he had to bear it.Some where in his mind he felt as if he was also going to have same disease one day.After all many people inside their family had it.But that shouldn't stop them from living their life,should it?He just kept thinking about one thing that did he do crime by getting married.
                                                       The End