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Shirish was waiting outside.He was so excited when he went out of that car.He was interested in meeting that girl whom he planned to marry.He had seen her photo and he had seen her even with his parents when they went to visit her parents at her house.But he was with people on that moment.They were allowed to chat alone.But even that moment it felt that it was not enough.He knew that it was just beginning if he said yes to this marriage.They would meet again and again.After all they could just get married after meeting once.They had to meet again and again to adjust with each other.He was sure that until marriage they would know each other very well due to these dates.But first he had to talk to her and confirmed that she was not involved in any one.After all he had heard of marriages where parents forced their daughter to marry boy of their choice.He didn't want to get engage to a girl who was involved with someone else so he had planned this visit before saying yes to that girl.She was beautiful but her complexion was pale on every point.But he just loved that color combination.His mother was confused about it.He still remembered that how did his mother commented that her color was too pale.She felt as if something was wrong.She was too fair but Shirish liked her color combination on every point.She was looking so nice and so delicate.He loved her look on every point.That color would look perfect on her and he just wanted that combination from heart.He liked every thing about her.Even her name was lovely Gayatri Goddess of money. He just loved everything about her.It was like love at first sight but he was scared that she could have different type of opinion.It was easily possible that she could say that she was not interested in him.He had made himself ready for every thing.But from inside he felt that Gayatri was not going to say that.Finally he rang door bell.Her mother opened door.He went inside and sat on sofa.He was waiting for long time.Finally Gayatri came out.She was looking like some fairy.Every thing was so perfect in her face.Her color was so pale but at same time without any fault.She was so lovely that her beauty directly cut inside his heart.She was looking enchanting. Gayatri was so beautiful that he just could take his eyes away from her.He was so engrossed in her beauty.He had already forgotten his thinking that she might say no to him.He was just so attracted by her.That when she sat near him,he felt that his heart was beating from inside.He was so busy in thinking that he felt just one thought from inside.He wanted wife just like her. Gayatri was looking beautiful and then when she smiled at him.He felt that he had won that race.He felt so happy from inside. Shirish had to gather courage to talk to her.After all he wanted to make friendship with her.He didn't want to create bad impression on her.He stopped for some moment and then he talked with her. Shirish gave her friendly smile,when she smiled back. He felt so much encouraged that he started talking as he planned.
Shirish "What about going to hotel?I mean that I thought we should go out and talk with each other.I mean we can talk alone and in that hotel.."Gayatri looked more pale now.It was clear that she didn't like that idea.Gayatri"Why don't we talk here?"Then suddenly Gayatri's Mom stood up."I will get coffee for you."Shirish was upset by this no that he was no longer interested in drinking anything.He felt so insulted that he just couldn't hide his feeling.If Gayatri was not going out with him then why did she said yes to their marriage.He was sure that she didn't hope that he would marry her without even going out with her.He was so angry.Shirish"I am getting late."Gayatri's Mom was upset now.Her Mom"Shirish don't go like this.Just listen to me."But Shirish was so angry that he started going out.Gayatri started crying.She didn't tell him any thing.She just kept crying.It was horrible for her.When Shirish went out with him,Gayatri's hope was vanished.She just kept looking at him from closed curtained window.She was looking at her last hope.She felt that this time she would manage to get married to this boy.After all Shirish seemed a lot interested in her.But when he asked that he wanted to meet her.She was sure that it was not going to work because she knew that he would want to go out with her.But she couldn't go that it was her problem from childhood.She never wanted to go out.She preferred staying at home.But on that time she used to go to school but when her school used to get over,she used to run back home. But slowly she began to like to stay at home on every point.She just wanted to stay at home.She was so scared to go out.She was looking out of those corner of window.She was looking at him.She was his last hope.It was horrible for him.But it was worst for her.Even if she told him about her problem still every thing was going to turn into useless.She knew that he never understood her.That was her life then she heard her father's scream from inside.He was abusing her from inside.Her father"Once more she was doing every thing wrong.We managed such a nice boy for her.But she was not even ready to go out with him.I just don't know what I suppose to do with this girl."He came near her and started abusing her..She was so scared from inside.She was doing wrong on every point.But then Shirish was not first boy.Many came and went away like that at end she always got abused due to it.She never wanted to feel so inferior every time.But it was happening.She had decided in mind.That she would not try this way of marriage.In fact she had decided that she would totally forget about marriage.She had to plan for her career.Something she could do from her home.It was not easy but she had found one job of typing which she was doing from home.She had also started supplying her cooking products to many shops.She didn't needed capital for it because she could get it from her typing job.But she didn't sell them personally.She had to do it on phone.Her servant would supply it but her business was suffering due to it.She was feeling so sad by those thoughts.It was upsetting.But she couldn't control it.
When Shirish reached at his home,he started screaming with anger.He told every thing to his parents.They were shocked.In their eyes she was strangest sort of girl.They would decided that she could be forgotten.They started searching for new girls.Gayatri's guess was right.They no more cared about her.After all Shirish just liked her and in one meeting no one would give commitment of heart so he was upset for three to four days and then whole chapter was forgotten.But inside somewhere Shirish was still feeling pain of that insult. Shirish could never forget how did Gayatri insulted her.He wanted to know reason. But he just not kept inquiring about her so he decided to forget it.But then before seeing Gayatri's strange attitude he was thinking about marrying her so he had told his friend Tarun to make inquiries about it.One day Tarun came and started telling him"Do you know that this Gayatri is strange girl since childhood?""I am not interested in her any more so forget about it."Then they both started working but that sentence just kept moving inside Shirish's mind. Shirish finally went near him.Shirish"Come on tell.I know that I should not show interest but since you mentioned it..""I am dying to tell you so no need of excuse.That Gayatri was strange girl in school.She just never used to go out and whole time used to sit inside class.Sometimes teacher forced her to go out in playground to play.But she fainted there.""So something is wrong with her physically.""Of course.Why else some one faint like that she must be too weak to play or run.Any way teacher forced at first but then slowly she started sitting in class.Teachers understood one thing that forcing her was useless.She never received any marks in PT due to this which is bad patch for her future but still she never went out.She just kept inside class room.I don't know but some how her parents managed to pass her in her school. It was so strange on every point.That this girl was not ready to go out.""What?She did same to me."Then Shirish told him every thing.It was so shocking to them.Next day when Shirish reached at home.He received call from Gayatri who wanted to talk to him.He was not interested so he just disconnected her phone.Next day he was so shocked when he received one big bouquet full of flowers and one sorry card.She was just trying to convince him that she was sorry.In that card she suggested that he should come at her home and then they would talk.Now Shirish was so scared by this.He didn't want to meet her at all.He just didn't know how did he was going to do that.He just threw that bouquet in dustbin.He was no longer interested in flowers from Gayatri. It was worst nightmare for him.He was living horrible dream due to Gayatri. He was scared that Gayatri would visit him.It was horrible for him because after few days he got call from her.She was crying and requesting him to meet her once.She wanted to tell him every thing.But he didn't want to have any thing to relate with her.He was so upset by this.That he started having nightmares.
At same time Gayatri was obsessed with Shirish.She didn't know any way for her good future except one thing that she should marry Shirish and get every thing as per wishes.She felt one thing that marriage to Shirish was solution to her every problem. She wanted to escape on every point from problem and at that she felt that Shirish was her escape.She started running after him like her last hope.He was not answering her calls and he was not showing interest in her.But still she kept waiting on every moment near window.All time she was just looking from corner to outside.She was looking outside with one hope that Shirish would come and meet her.She just kept thinking on every point.She saw that from those corner that people were moving and walking outside.She envy them.She never able to walked that way freely.She always wanted to hide inside.She remembered her school days.When she was forced to go out,she used to feel so much scared.It felt as if that couldn't breathe.She never dared to go outside.She felt as if she was going to die.She felt that her life was finished on every point.She wanted to stay alive on every angle of life.She didn't want to die because she forced to go outside.She felt that she would faint.She waited for days.But slowly it became worst for Shirish.One day he finally phoned her. Shirish" Gayatri stop calling me.""But.""He started screaming on her"Live me alone.I don't want to marry you.In fact I don't want to see you again..."Then he started telling her that he would call police.It was clear that he was totally wrong and abusing towards her.She didn't want to go outside.But she knew that if she didn't able to marry Shirish. She had to do it.She tried hard but it proved useless.She just felt so sure that if she kept doing it.She could convince him.But that day finally he told her that if she phoned him again then he would talk with her father.She had to stop every thing on that moment.But after that she slowly stopped eating food.Her health was suffering.Her mother was trying to convince her.But it proved useless.Every day her mother was fighting with her and forcing her to eat some food.But such a forced food was not doing any good for her health could be seen clearly.She was getting upset on every day.Her mother was trying to console her.But she just kept looking outside.She was always locked in that house.She was getting weak day by day.When her father came home,she just locked herself in room.Still she heard all those things which her father spoke against her.While her mother was defending her whole time,her father kept abusing her mother.She always heard those insults and she wanted to help her mother.But she knew that it was hopeless.She was just a caged bird which could never go out and help any one.She wanted to escape from each and every point inside this world.She felt that her only solution was Shirish and he was gone.She started crying.Now she was getting worst on every day.Her mother was trying to console but she just had one obsession that she must marry to Shirish or her life would get destroyed.
Gayatri's mother was watching her.Slowly Gayatri was getting weak.One day her auntie came to visit her from US.She was so shocked to see Gayatri. Gayatri was looking so white and pale as if she could faint any moment.Auntie"What happened?"Gayatri's mother told everything.Auntie"Why are you not taking her to psychiatrist?""But people will talk.""Are you telling me that they are not talking now?Of course they are talking about her.She is so strange and different."Gayatri started crying."Come on Gayatri.Crying will not help you.You have to go to Doctor.It is not that scary.They will help you."Then she convinced her for hours that how did her many friends visited Psychiatrist.She gave one number.Gayatri's Mother decided to visit.But they didn't tell her father.But problem was that Gayatri was not ready to go outside.When her mother tried to take her outside,she screamed so loudly and ran inside that every one started looking at their house with suspicion.It was worst because when Gayatri went out,she felt as if some one was choking her.She didn't want to do.Then Gayatri's Mother called that Psychiatrist for home visit.It took long to convince her.Finally when Gayatri's Mother started pleading,she agreed.When psychiatrist came,Gayatri was sweating with fear.She was so scared that Psychiatrist would forced her to come outside.But she didn't do any thing.Psychiatrist just kept chatting with her for long time.Then after some time she called her mother and told them"Gayatri is suffering from Agoraphobia and it was not treated for long time so it turned such a worst.Look at her pale skin and her health.She needed sun and fresh air.""No.I don't want it.Nature scare me and cars!!They are so risky.I like to stay inside.Only if I can convince Shirish to marry me then I can stay inside and he will understand it.I am sure that he will like that arrangement.If he gave that a try.We just need some time to convince him.I will just wanted to tell him that I like him.But he was not ready.""But Shirish is not your problem.He was just temporary solution any ways he is not ready to stay with you like caged bird.He wanted freedom and I think in your heart.You feel same way.Don't you kept looking at people who walk freely outside.Don't you want to walk like them?"Gayatri just kept looking at her feet."That is your problem that you are not ready to understand what you really want and I feel you don't want Shirish.You wanted freedom to walk happily.Talk people in outside world.This room is not your world.You need bigger world and you have to accept it.What do you think?Are you ready to try?"That Psychiatrist said it in such a pleasant way that Gayatri had to say 'yes' and from that day her journey towards that freedom started.It was not easy.It was hard.She had hide every thing from her father but she wanted to do it.So she started doing every thing according to Psychiatrist's advice and slowly she managed to walk outside.She no longer needed Shirish.She started just concentrating on her business.She didn't want marriage as escape.She wanted it as pleasure for her life and most important thing was that she was no more scared of her father because when he started throwing tantrums,she just went out for walk.
The End
Shirish was waiting outside.He was so excited when he went out of that car.He was interested in meeting that girl whom he planned to marry.He had seen her photo and he had seen her even with his parents when they went to visit her parents at her house.But he was with people on that moment.They were allowed to chat alone.But even that moment it felt that it was not enough.He knew that it was just beginning if he said yes to this marriage.They would meet again and again.After all they could just get married after meeting once.They had to meet again and again to adjust with each other.He was sure that until marriage they would know each other very well due to these dates.But first he had to talk to her and confirmed that she was not involved in any one.After all he had heard of marriages where parents forced their daughter to marry boy of their choice.He didn't want to get engage to a girl who was involved with someone else so he had planned this visit before saying yes to that girl.She was beautiful but her complexion was pale on every point.But he just loved that color combination.His mother was confused about it.He still remembered that how did his mother commented that her color was too pale.She felt as if something was wrong.She was too fair but Shirish liked her color combination on every point.She was looking so nice and so delicate.He loved her look on every point.That color would look perfect on her and he just wanted that combination from heart.He liked every thing about her.Even her name was lovely Gayatri Goddess of money. He just loved everything about her.It was like love at first sight but he was scared that she could have different type of opinion.It was easily possible that she could say that she was not interested in him.He had made himself ready for every thing.But from inside he felt that Gayatri was not going to say that.Finally he rang door bell.Her mother opened door.He went inside and sat on sofa.He was waiting for long time.Finally Gayatri came out.She was looking like some fairy.Every thing was so perfect in her face.Her color was so pale but at same time without any fault.She was so lovely that her beauty directly cut inside his heart.She was looking enchanting. Gayatri was so beautiful that he just could take his eyes away from her.He was so engrossed in her beauty.He had already forgotten his thinking that she might say no to him.He was just so attracted by her.That when she sat near him,he felt that his heart was beating from inside.He was so busy in thinking that he felt just one thought from inside.He wanted wife just like her. Gayatri was looking beautiful and then when she smiled at him.He felt that he had won that race.He felt so happy from inside. Shirish had to gather courage to talk to her.After all he wanted to make friendship with her.He didn't want to create bad impression on her.He stopped for some moment and then he talked with her. Shirish gave her friendly smile,when she smiled back. He felt so much encouraged that he started talking as he planned.
Shirish "What about going to hotel?I mean that I thought we should go out and talk with each other.I mean we can talk alone and in that hotel.."Gayatri looked more pale now.It was clear that she didn't like that idea.Gayatri"Why don't we talk here?"Then suddenly Gayatri's Mom stood up."I will get coffee for you."Shirish was upset by this no that he was no longer interested in drinking anything.He felt so insulted that he just couldn't hide his feeling.If Gayatri was not going out with him then why did she said yes to their marriage.He was sure that she didn't hope that he would marry her without even going out with her.He was so angry.Shirish"I am getting late."Gayatri's Mom was upset now.Her Mom"Shirish don't go like this.Just listen to me."But Shirish was so angry that he started going out.Gayatri started crying.She didn't tell him any thing.She just kept crying.It was horrible for her.When Shirish went out with him,Gayatri's hope was vanished.She just kept looking at him from closed curtained window.She was looking at her last hope.She felt that this time she would manage to get married to this boy.After all Shirish seemed a lot interested in her.But when he asked that he wanted to meet her.She was sure that it was not going to work because she knew that he would want to go out with her.But she couldn't go that it was her problem from childhood.She never wanted to go out.She preferred staying at home.But on that time she used to go to school but when her school used to get over,she used to run back home. But slowly she began to like to stay at home on every point.She just wanted to stay at home.She was so scared to go out.She was looking out of those corner of window.She was looking at him.She was his last hope.It was horrible for him.But it was worst for her.Even if she told him about her problem still every thing was going to turn into useless.She knew that he never understood her.That was her life then she heard her father's scream from inside.He was abusing her from inside.Her father"Once more she was doing every thing wrong.We managed such a nice boy for her.But she was not even ready to go out with him.I just don't know what I suppose to do with this girl."He came near her and started abusing her..She was so scared from inside.She was doing wrong on every point.But then Shirish was not first boy.Many came and went away like that at end she always got abused due to it.She never wanted to feel so inferior every time.But it was happening.She had decided in mind.That she would not try this way of marriage.In fact she had decided that she would totally forget about marriage.She had to plan for her career.Something she could do from her home.It was not easy but she had found one job of typing which she was doing from home.She had also started supplying her cooking products to many shops.She didn't needed capital for it because she could get it from her typing job.But she didn't sell them personally.She had to do it on phone.Her servant would supply it but her business was suffering due to it.She was feeling so sad by those thoughts.It was upsetting.But she couldn't control it.
When Shirish reached at his home,he started screaming with anger.He told every thing to his parents.They were shocked.In their eyes she was strangest sort of girl.They would decided that she could be forgotten.They started searching for new girls.Gayatri's guess was right.They no more cared about her.After all Shirish just liked her and in one meeting no one would give commitment of heart so he was upset for three to four days and then whole chapter was forgotten.But inside somewhere Shirish was still feeling pain of that insult. Shirish could never forget how did Gayatri insulted her.He wanted to know reason. But he just not kept inquiring about her so he decided to forget it.But then before seeing Gayatri's strange attitude he was thinking about marrying her so he had told his friend Tarun to make inquiries about it.One day Tarun came and started telling him"Do you know that this Gayatri is strange girl since childhood?""I am not interested in her any more so forget about it."Then they both started working but that sentence just kept moving inside Shirish's mind. Shirish finally went near him.Shirish"Come on tell.I know that I should not show interest but since you mentioned it..""I am dying to tell you so no need of excuse.That Gayatri was strange girl in school.She just never used to go out and whole time used to sit inside class.Sometimes teacher forced her to go out in playground to play.But she fainted there.""So something is wrong with her physically.""Of course.Why else some one faint like that she must be too weak to play or run.Any way teacher forced at first but then slowly she started sitting in class.Teachers understood one thing that forcing her was useless.She never received any marks in PT due to this which is bad patch for her future but still she never went out.She just kept inside class room.I don't know but some how her parents managed to pass her in her school. It was so strange on every point.That this girl was not ready to go out.""What?She did same to me."Then Shirish told him every thing.It was so shocking to them.Next day when Shirish reached at home.He received call from Gayatri who wanted to talk to him.He was not interested so he just disconnected her phone.Next day he was so shocked when he received one big bouquet full of flowers and one sorry card.She was just trying to convince him that she was sorry.In that card she suggested that he should come at her home and then they would talk.Now Shirish was so scared by this.He didn't want to meet her at all.He just didn't know how did he was going to do that.He just threw that bouquet in dustbin.He was no longer interested in flowers from Gayatri. It was worst nightmare for him.He was living horrible dream due to Gayatri. He was scared that Gayatri would visit him.It was horrible for him because after few days he got call from her.She was crying and requesting him to meet her once.She wanted to tell him every thing.But he didn't want to have any thing to relate with her.He was so upset by this.That he started having nightmares.
At same time Gayatri was obsessed with Shirish.She didn't know any way for her good future except one thing that she should marry Shirish and get every thing as per wishes.She felt one thing that marriage to Shirish was solution to her every problem. She wanted to escape on every point from problem and at that she felt that Shirish was her escape.She started running after him like her last hope.He was not answering her calls and he was not showing interest in her.But still she kept waiting on every moment near window.All time she was just looking from corner to outside.She was looking outside with one hope that Shirish would come and meet her.She just kept thinking on every point.She saw that from those corner that people were moving and walking outside.She envy them.She never able to walked that way freely.She always wanted to hide inside.She remembered her school days.When she was forced to go out,she used to feel so much scared.It felt as if that couldn't breathe.She never dared to go outside.She felt as if she was going to die.She felt that her life was finished on every point.She wanted to stay alive on every angle of life.She didn't want to die because she forced to go outside.She felt that she would faint.She waited for days.But slowly it became worst for Shirish.One day he finally phoned her. Shirish" Gayatri stop calling me.""But.""He started screaming on her"Live me alone.I don't want to marry you.In fact I don't want to see you again..."Then he started telling her that he would call police.It was clear that he was totally wrong and abusing towards her.She didn't want to go outside.But she knew that if she didn't able to marry Shirish. She had to do it.She tried hard but it proved useless.She just felt so sure that if she kept doing it.She could convince him.But that day finally he told her that if she phoned him again then he would talk with her father.She had to stop every thing on that moment.But after that she slowly stopped eating food.Her health was suffering.Her mother was trying to convince her.But it proved useless.Every day her mother was fighting with her and forcing her to eat some food.But such a forced food was not doing any good for her health could be seen clearly.She was getting upset on every day.Her mother was trying to console her.But she just kept looking outside.She was always locked in that house.She was getting weak day by day.When her father came home,she just locked herself in room.Still she heard all those things which her father spoke against her.While her mother was defending her whole time,her father kept abusing her mother.She always heard those insults and she wanted to help her mother.But she knew that it was hopeless.She was just a caged bird which could never go out and help any one.She wanted to escape from each and every point inside this world.She felt that her only solution was Shirish and he was gone.She started crying.Now she was getting worst on every day.Her mother was trying to console but she just had one obsession that she must marry to Shirish or her life would get destroyed.
Gayatri's mother was watching her.Slowly Gayatri was getting weak.One day her auntie came to visit her from US.She was so shocked to see Gayatri. Gayatri was looking so white and pale as if she could faint any moment.Auntie"What happened?"Gayatri's mother told everything.Auntie"Why are you not taking her to psychiatrist?""But people will talk.""Are you telling me that they are not talking now?Of course they are talking about her.She is so strange and different."Gayatri started crying."Come on Gayatri.Crying will not help you.You have to go to Doctor.It is not that scary.They will help you."Then she convinced her for hours that how did her many friends visited Psychiatrist.She gave one number.Gayatri's Mother decided to visit.But they didn't tell her father.But problem was that Gayatri was not ready to go outside.When her mother tried to take her outside,she screamed so loudly and ran inside that every one started looking at their house with suspicion.It was worst because when Gayatri went out,she felt as if some one was choking her.She didn't want to do.Then Gayatri's Mother called that Psychiatrist for home visit.It took long to convince her.Finally when Gayatri's Mother started pleading,she agreed.When psychiatrist came,Gayatri was sweating with fear.She was so scared that Psychiatrist would forced her to come outside.But she didn't do any thing.Psychiatrist just kept chatting with her for long time.Then after some time she called her mother and told them"Gayatri is suffering from Agoraphobia and it was not treated for long time so it turned such a worst.Look at her pale skin and her health.She needed sun and fresh air.""No.I don't want it.Nature scare me and cars!!They are so risky.I like to stay inside.Only if I can convince Shirish to marry me then I can stay inside and he will understand it.I am sure that he will like that arrangement.If he gave that a try.We just need some time to convince him.I will just wanted to tell him that I like him.But he was not ready.""But Shirish is not your problem.He was just temporary solution any ways he is not ready to stay with you like caged bird.He wanted freedom and I think in your heart.You feel same way.Don't you kept looking at people who walk freely outside.Don't you want to walk like them?"Gayatri just kept looking at her feet."That is your problem that you are not ready to understand what you really want and I feel you don't want Shirish.You wanted freedom to walk happily.Talk people in outside world.This room is not your world.You need bigger world and you have to accept it.What do you think?Are you ready to try?"That Psychiatrist said it in such a pleasant way that Gayatri had to say 'yes' and from that day her journey towards that freedom started.It was not easy.It was hard.She had hide every thing from her father but she wanted to do it.So she started doing every thing according to Psychiatrist's advice and slowly she managed to walk outside.She no longer needed Shirish.She started just concentrating on her business.She didn't want marriage as escape.She wanted it as pleasure for her life and most important thing was that she was no more scared of her father because when he started throwing tantrums,she just went out for walk.
The End
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