Self admiration
In that cottage when Sarika entered she felt so nice.It was so safe from heart.That cottage looked so nice and perfect.In that cottage she had those childhood memories which were so good for her thought and life.She felt that safety inside that cottage.That cottage was so good on every point.She felt that she could be safe with her childhood memories.She started her life from that house.She had achieved every thing with lot of effects on every point.She was always successful in life.Her business was growing every day.She never dared to face failure because she never wanted them.But still even after getting so much success she felt just one thing from her heart.That her childhood was so special on every angle. Sarika was so upset by that childhood memories.She always wanted them alive.She had every thing but still she wanted to have that childhood back.Sarika was watching that cottage on every point and that colour would look so nice.She had colored that cottage with nice blue.She knew that it was old because those cottage would look so dirty.All other old cottage were dirty and rusty on every point.But her cottage was looking totally perfect because she had arranged it to become perfect from every angle inside life.That cottage was so nice looking on every point.Those cottage was looking so beautiful on every time because she had made it sure that this cottage never suffered due to time.She always managed to spend enough amount on that cottage.But she didn't find enough time to visit that cottage because she was too busy to do that.She was always busy in her work.But as soon as she entered in that cottage,she felt so comfortable.That cottage was so wonderful.She sat inside.She knew that she was such a great woman.She knew that no one could design dresses as she did.She worked for that boutique.She started arranging dresses which were so wonderful.Those dresses looked different colours and those design which were so delicate on every point.There was wonderful type of delicate design.She knew that her boss must be missing her.She knew that those dresses which she had designed were so great.They looked extraordinary.Those dresses were looking so good on every point.There was beautiful and unique designs.When she finished it,her customers were showing those different designs to every one on each point. Sarika was sure that her boss couldn't did anything without her.She had to shut down her mobile.She didn't want to be disturbed.She needed vacation after hard work.She was relaxing on every point in life.That cottage was looking nice and good on every point.But when she saw that cottage,she felt one thing in her mind.That she felt most relaxed in that cottage.She felt that this cottage was perfect for her.She looked at that mobile and smiled while thinking that how did her boss was going to be tensed about her absence.
Ravi was upset by Sarika's absence.He wanted some designer immediately so he decided that he would find one.But he didn't have enough money.Sarika was so cheap while other designer asked for so much money.Of course Sarika wanted her style in life like she should be admired for her each touch and each idea.Many of them were so ridiculous that Ravi had throw them away in dustbin but not before Sarika. Sarika felt that she did every thing so wonderful that no one must say no to it.It was so problematic.Her some designs was so worst on every angle that they had to throw it away.It was worst for Ravi.But he needed some cheaper designer and also good one.Ravi started calling people who could send designers. He had to work it all from mind.He waited patiently until next day and once again his interviews were started.He started doing every thing just like last time.He knew that it was going to be hard but he decided that he needed some fashion designer who was not that much snob.He started taking interview at beginning every thing went ahead just as per his guess.It went in worst way.Some produced worst designs and some asked for money.He didn't able to get any good person as his designer.It was all turned out to be worst on every point.But then finally Lara came.She produced perfect designs and she was also ready for that money which Ravi suggested.She just wanted to get some accommodation instead.That was not bigger problem for Ravi because he had one empty flat in name of his wife's name.He phoned and asked his wife who was very much willing because she felt that she needed some one to take care of that flat.She didn't like to keep her well furnished flat empty.She felt that it was best for her because since Lara was Ravi's employee she would take good care of that flat.Then it was decided that Lara would come from next day. Ravi liked her designs but still he had limited hopes from her.But when she started her work,he felt as if their company would touch to sky.Their team was perfect.Ravi knew how to convince client and Lara knew that how to impress them with her designs.It was so good that she felt that those designers were something so perfect on every point.That client agreed and most important thing was that Lara was always ready to make changes according to client's wishes.Ravi saw her running after client's every wish.Some times he felt that Lara was right and client was wrong but still she said yes to them.Only when their choices were worst,she told Ravi with gesture to convince them.Ravi did that easily because in case of Sarika he had to do it on every design.Sarika never changed any thing in her design.In her view she was always good and perfect.But many clients disagreed with Sarika on many points and Ravi had to convince those clients.It was all Ravi's skill on which approving depend.But Lara was greatest help.Ravi felt so happy to get Lara.Even some clients admired her attitude.Many of clients even expressed dislike towards Sarika's attitude.But Ravi avoided matter.He wanted to keep Sarika after all she was his employee for so many years.He couldn't forget her for this new fashion designer.After all he was not even sure that Lara would stay with his company for long time.He felt sure that Lara would get someone with better payment and then left company.So he decided to ignore those remarks.
Sarika was relaxing in that house happily.She felt that every one should come to visit her.Since she was coming after so many days as famous fashion designer.That whole town supposed to welcome her for her success.But that town was full of people who knew her success.She was sure that they would come.But as day went ahead she understood no one was going to come.She was upset at first but then she once again thought about all those town folks.She remembered them very well.They never had kind heart towards her or her Dad.Her Dad was so great businessman but still no one respected him.In fact they always taunted his as snob.She just kept sitting and guessing that what did she suppose to do now.She was getting bored now.Then she remembered her maid.She had arranged one.Why did her maid came so late?She was so angry.Finally she saw one young village woman entered inside.She knew that it was her maid but she decided to pretend as if she was sleeping.She wanted to show her that she was important inside life on every point so she just kept pretending.Until that maid didn't call her for twelve times then she opened her eyes.Then she felt sorrows from her mind,that maid was not as efficient as she hoped.She was just one stupid villager woman.Sarika "Who are you?""Priti.""What is your education?""What?!!""Did you ever went inside school?" That maid looked confused."No Madam."Now Sarika was so shocked.She didn't need an uneducated maid.She looked at that maid with anger.That maid was confused now.Maid"But why do you want education for cooking and cleaning?"Sarika started screaming"You never understand value of education.I wanted a maid who had finished her studies.Now go away."Then that maid went out but as soon as she went out.Sarika could hear that maid was cursing her for wasting time.Sarika was so upset.She forgot important thing like education while employing maid.It was shocking.She never thought that any one could do this to her.But then she looked around.She saw that she had to maintain whole house now.She was so irritated.Suddenly she began to feel that when her Dad was here.It was nice but now this place seemed so boring to her.She decided to wander around.She went inside and wore her best dress.Then she put on perfect make up.After doing it all perfectly she went out for walk.She was dressed perfectly.When she started walking around,she noticed that every one was watching her with admiration.She looked it.She knew that she was best.But it looked so good when people watched her.She felt so happy about it.Her every step made her feel as if she was queen.Even some people tried to talk to her.She acted her best.She talked about her great success and her designs.But every one seemed in hurry so they just chatted with her for few moments and then they ran to their work.She didn't feel that it is strange.She could understood that it was her vacation not their so she guessed they must be busy with their daily work.She just decided to ignore it and went back to her home.
When Sarika reached there,she was convinced that her boss was in enough trouble now so she decided to go back.After all she stayed there for two weeks and her boss didn't contact her.She decided to make phone call.When she phoned,her phone was answered by new designer.She was so shocked.She decided to quit her job on that point.She knew that she could get any better job.She took immediately ticket.When she reached back to city,she didn't even stop to keep her bags at home.She went to office with them.She just entered in Ravi's room who was busy in arranging designs with Lara.Sarika"So she is your new girl friend?""What are you talking?Are you out of your mind?"Ravi screamed on her with anger.Lara was also shocked in same way.Sarika"Why else you take new one?Every one knows I am best.""NO..No..you are worst.I keep you just because you are cheap.I will pay you that salary and you can get lost.""You can't do it."Then Sarika started calling them with horrible names.She was trying her best to destroy their reputation.But she could see that no one was believing her.She knew that it was Ravi's trick.Finally she had to go when Ravi told her that he would call police.Then from that day she started searching for new job. Sarika started searching for that perfect job.Every time in each interview she was talking with such confidence that many people didn't like it.But she always felt sure that they were scared that she would put them behind. She was so sure that every thing was right on every point. She felt that she was great and every one was scared of her greatness.But slowly she started getting rejected from every person and then her mind started getting more and more angry on every moment.She didn't know what she supposed to do.But she wanted revenge so she started calling Ravi's client.She began to tell every one that Lara was not great designer but Ravi took her because he was having affair with her.She started her best to spread that news to every one.One day finally she got what she wanted.Lara quit that job.After all she was keeping watch on them.Lara was crying many times now a days.Sarika had managed to destroy her reputation.She was so happy on that day.When she heard Lara had left that job and got married.She felt sure that now she would get back her job.She was happy that justice was done.After all Lara would never get any job now because of her bad reputation so she had to quit that fashion designing.She expected Ravi to come and apologize to her.She had planned every thing.She had decided that she would not say yes immediately but she would take her own time.But then after some time she would agree.Until now she had kept every thing professional but now she felt that she had to make things personal also.After all she didn't want girl like Lara to attract Ravi.She could keep him with her like dog.Then she started smiling.She could easily imagined Ravi tied with her like some dog.It was so perfect and nice for her mind.She could keep him like some dog.She just loved that thought.Every day he had to do as she wished.She could tell him to cook every thing according to her choice.She could force him sometimes even to wash her clothes.After all she wanted revenge since he cheated her by taking Lara.But then she had act nicely until he got convinced to marry her.But he had to do it because he needed her for his business.He was his only source to bread and butter.She started laughing from heart while imagining things.
Sarika waited for few days.When Ravi didn't contact her, she got more and more upset.She was all alone waiting for days.Finally she called him.But Ravi told her that he didn't need her.He got new fashion designer and this time it was man so she could not spoil his reputation.Then he banged phone.From that day every thing turned worst for Sarika.She started fighting with every one.She began to got involved in fight on each moment.She even started drinking daily.It was getting worst by worst daily.Her neighbors were watching all this.But they just couldn't interfere because she was never friendly with them.Then finally she got so much involved in some fight that on road she just hit a man with her briefcase and that man got injured.Police were called and she was taken in their custody.When they asked about her relative.She could hardly able to name one and when she was asked for friend.She didn't even had any friend.Finally she called Ravi.But he was not willing to help.Then she had to tell police and she was on her own.Police talked with her for some time.Then finally police convinced that man to take back case. Sarika was told to give money to him. She did as she was told then Police convinced her that she was getting too much violent so she needed to psychiatrist.At first she screamed and said that she would not do it.But when Police forced her,She didn't have option so she went to that psychiatrist.At first he asked about her relative.But she told him straightway that she was so great and successful that whole world was jealous of her so no one wanted to keep friendship with her.Then she told her version of Ravi's part.That Psychiatrist nodded.But Psychiatrist had already guessed that it was far away from truth.Then slowly he took her to her childhood.She told that her father was rich businessman who was always busy.Her mother died when she was just small child.She just didn't remember going out with park and enjoying with Dad.Mostly her maid took her to parks.Her Dad gave her attention only when she achieved her first trophy in school.So she felt that she had to win to get attention until then she was not existed in her Dad's world.But then she was send to one reputed class for drawing.She was taught many things.Her Dad wanted her to be some great.Even when sometimes she was little bit late for some thing.Her Dad didn't say any thing but his look gave her feeling that she was nothing worthy in this world.So in her eyes her Dad made her a great fashion designer.After his death she still just kept talking about how sad it would looked if her Dad was alive and he saw her this way.So she was concerned about just one thing.That she should remain best to every one and she was blaming it all on Ravi and Lara.When they were victim of her cruelty,she was convinced that she was victim of their cruelty.It was turning worst on every point of life.But slowly Psychiatrist started treating her.At beginning she was not interested but slowly she was convinced that it was working.Psychiatrist told her that she was suffering from Narcissistic Personality Disorder.It happened due to coldness of her father towards her and over estimation of his hopes from her.She felt that it was working because she made new friends and she got new job.This time it was not her admiration that needed to approve her design.She waited for client to admire it.Everything worked just fine.She just kept doing her best but she understood one thing.She had to adjust with other instead of admiring herself whole time.So she talked less about herself now and it was doing miracles in her life.
The End
In that cottage when Sarika entered she felt so nice.It was so safe from heart.That cottage looked so nice and perfect.In that cottage she had those childhood memories which were so good for her thought and life.She felt that safety inside that cottage.That cottage was so good on every point.She felt that she could be safe with her childhood memories.She started her life from that house.She had achieved every thing with lot of effects on every point.She was always successful in life.Her business was growing every day.She never dared to face failure because she never wanted them.But still even after getting so much success she felt just one thing from her heart.That her childhood was so special on every angle. Sarika was so upset by that childhood memories.She always wanted them alive.She had every thing but still she wanted to have that childhood back.Sarika was watching that cottage on every point and that colour would look so nice.She had colored that cottage with nice blue.She knew that it was old because those cottage would look so dirty.All other old cottage were dirty and rusty on every point.But her cottage was looking totally perfect because she had arranged it to become perfect from every angle inside life.That cottage was so nice looking on every point.Those cottage was looking so beautiful on every time because she had made it sure that this cottage never suffered due to time.She always managed to spend enough amount on that cottage.But she didn't find enough time to visit that cottage because she was too busy to do that.She was always busy in her work.But as soon as she entered in that cottage,she felt so comfortable.That cottage was so wonderful.She sat inside.She knew that she was such a great woman.She knew that no one could design dresses as she did.She worked for that boutique.She started arranging dresses which were so wonderful.Those dresses looked different colours and those design which were so delicate on every point.There was wonderful type of delicate design.She knew that her boss must be missing her.She knew that those dresses which she had designed were so great.They looked extraordinary.Those dresses were looking so good on every point.There was beautiful and unique designs.When she finished it,her customers were showing those different designs to every one on each point. Sarika was sure that her boss couldn't did anything without her.She had to shut down her mobile.She didn't want to be disturbed.She needed vacation after hard work.She was relaxing on every point in life.That cottage was looking nice and good on every point.But when she saw that cottage,she felt one thing in her mind.That she felt most relaxed in that cottage.She felt that this cottage was perfect for her.She looked at that mobile and smiled while thinking that how did her boss was going to be tensed about her absence.
Ravi was upset by Sarika's absence.He wanted some designer immediately so he decided that he would find one.But he didn't have enough money.Sarika was so cheap while other designer asked for so much money.Of course Sarika wanted her style in life like she should be admired for her each touch and each idea.Many of them were so ridiculous that Ravi had throw them away in dustbin but not before Sarika. Sarika felt that she did every thing so wonderful that no one must say no to it.It was so problematic.Her some designs was so worst on every angle that they had to throw it away.It was worst for Ravi.But he needed some cheaper designer and also good one.Ravi started calling people who could send designers. He had to work it all from mind.He waited patiently until next day and once again his interviews were started.He started doing every thing just like last time.He knew that it was going to be hard but he decided that he needed some fashion designer who was not that much snob.He started taking interview at beginning every thing went ahead just as per his guess.It went in worst way.Some produced worst designs and some asked for money.He didn't able to get any good person as his designer.It was all turned out to be worst on every point.But then finally Lara came.She produced perfect designs and she was also ready for that money which Ravi suggested.She just wanted to get some accommodation instead.That was not bigger problem for Ravi because he had one empty flat in name of his wife's name.He phoned and asked his wife who was very much willing because she felt that she needed some one to take care of that flat.She didn't like to keep her well furnished flat empty.She felt that it was best for her because since Lara was Ravi's employee she would take good care of that flat.Then it was decided that Lara would come from next day. Ravi liked her designs but still he had limited hopes from her.But when she started her work,he felt as if their company would touch to sky.Their team was perfect.Ravi knew how to convince client and Lara knew that how to impress them with her designs.It was so good that she felt that those designers were something so perfect on every point.That client agreed and most important thing was that Lara was always ready to make changes according to client's wishes.Ravi saw her running after client's every wish.Some times he felt that Lara was right and client was wrong but still she said yes to them.Only when their choices were worst,she told Ravi with gesture to convince them.Ravi did that easily because in case of Sarika he had to do it on every design.Sarika never changed any thing in her design.In her view she was always good and perfect.But many clients disagreed with Sarika on many points and Ravi had to convince those clients.It was all Ravi's skill on which approving depend.But Lara was greatest help.Ravi felt so happy to get Lara.Even some clients admired her attitude.Many of clients even expressed dislike towards Sarika's attitude.But Ravi avoided matter.He wanted to keep Sarika after all she was his employee for so many years.He couldn't forget her for this new fashion designer.After all he was not even sure that Lara would stay with his company for long time.He felt sure that Lara would get someone with better payment and then left company.So he decided to ignore those remarks.
Sarika was relaxing in that house happily.She felt that every one should come to visit her.Since she was coming after so many days as famous fashion designer.That whole town supposed to welcome her for her success.But that town was full of people who knew her success.She was sure that they would come.But as day went ahead she understood no one was going to come.She was upset at first but then she once again thought about all those town folks.She remembered them very well.They never had kind heart towards her or her Dad.Her Dad was so great businessman but still no one respected him.In fact they always taunted his as snob.She just kept sitting and guessing that what did she suppose to do now.She was getting bored now.Then she remembered her maid.She had arranged one.Why did her maid came so late?She was so angry.Finally she saw one young village woman entered inside.She knew that it was her maid but she decided to pretend as if she was sleeping.She wanted to show her that she was important inside life on every point so she just kept pretending.Until that maid didn't call her for twelve times then she opened her eyes.Then she felt sorrows from her mind,that maid was not as efficient as she hoped.She was just one stupid villager woman.Sarika "Who are you?""Priti.""What is your education?""What?!!""Did you ever went inside school?" That maid looked confused."No Madam."Now Sarika was so shocked.She didn't need an uneducated maid.She looked at that maid with anger.That maid was confused now.Maid"But why do you want education for cooking and cleaning?"Sarika started screaming"You never understand value of education.I wanted a maid who had finished her studies.Now go away."Then that maid went out but as soon as she went out.Sarika could hear that maid was cursing her for wasting time.Sarika was so upset.She forgot important thing like education while employing maid.It was shocking.She never thought that any one could do this to her.But then she looked around.She saw that she had to maintain whole house now.She was so irritated.Suddenly she began to feel that when her Dad was here.It was nice but now this place seemed so boring to her.She decided to wander around.She went inside and wore her best dress.Then she put on perfect make up.After doing it all perfectly she went out for walk.She was dressed perfectly.When she started walking around,she noticed that every one was watching her with admiration.She looked it.She knew that she was best.But it looked so good when people watched her.She felt so happy about it.Her every step made her feel as if she was queen.Even some people tried to talk to her.She acted her best.She talked about her great success and her designs.But every one seemed in hurry so they just chatted with her for few moments and then they ran to their work.She didn't feel that it is strange.She could understood that it was her vacation not their so she guessed they must be busy with their daily work.She just decided to ignore it and went back to her home.
When Sarika reached there,she was convinced that her boss was in enough trouble now so she decided to go back.After all she stayed there for two weeks and her boss didn't contact her.She decided to make phone call.When she phoned,her phone was answered by new designer.She was so shocked.She decided to quit her job on that point.She knew that she could get any better job.She took immediately ticket.When she reached back to city,she didn't even stop to keep her bags at home.She went to office with them.She just entered in Ravi's room who was busy in arranging designs with Lara.Sarika"So she is your new girl friend?""What are you talking?Are you out of your mind?"Ravi screamed on her with anger.Lara was also shocked in same way.Sarika"Why else you take new one?Every one knows I am best.""NO..No..you are worst.I keep you just because you are cheap.I will pay you that salary and you can get lost.""You can't do it."Then Sarika started calling them with horrible names.She was trying her best to destroy their reputation.But she could see that no one was believing her.She knew that it was Ravi's trick.Finally she had to go when Ravi told her that he would call police.Then from that day she started searching for new job. Sarika started searching for that perfect job.Every time in each interview she was talking with such confidence that many people didn't like it.But she always felt sure that they were scared that she would put them behind. She was so sure that every thing was right on every point. She felt that she was great and every one was scared of her greatness.But slowly she started getting rejected from every person and then her mind started getting more and more angry on every moment.She didn't know what she supposed to do.But she wanted revenge so she started calling Ravi's client.She began to tell every one that Lara was not great designer but Ravi took her because he was having affair with her.She started her best to spread that news to every one.One day finally she got what she wanted.Lara quit that job.After all she was keeping watch on them.Lara was crying many times now a days.Sarika had managed to destroy her reputation.She was so happy on that day.When she heard Lara had left that job and got married.She felt sure that now she would get back her job.She was happy that justice was done.After all Lara would never get any job now because of her bad reputation so she had to quit that fashion designing.She expected Ravi to come and apologize to her.She had planned every thing.She had decided that she would not say yes immediately but she would take her own time.But then after some time she would agree.Until now she had kept every thing professional but now she felt that she had to make things personal also.After all she didn't want girl like Lara to attract Ravi.She could keep him with her like dog.Then she started smiling.She could easily imagined Ravi tied with her like some dog.It was so perfect and nice for her mind.She could keep him like some dog.She just loved that thought.Every day he had to do as she wished.She could tell him to cook every thing according to her choice.She could force him sometimes even to wash her clothes.After all she wanted revenge since he cheated her by taking Lara.But then she had act nicely until he got convinced to marry her.But he had to do it because he needed her for his business.He was his only source to bread and butter.She started laughing from heart while imagining things.
Sarika waited for few days.When Ravi didn't contact her, she got more and more upset.She was all alone waiting for days.Finally she called him.But Ravi told her that he didn't need her.He got new fashion designer and this time it was man so she could not spoil his reputation.Then he banged phone.From that day every thing turned worst for Sarika.She started fighting with every one.She began to got involved in fight on each moment.She even started drinking daily.It was getting worst by worst daily.Her neighbors were watching all this.But they just couldn't interfere because she was never friendly with them.Then finally she got so much involved in some fight that on road she just hit a man with her briefcase and that man got injured.Police were called and she was taken in their custody.When they asked about her relative.She could hardly able to name one and when she was asked for friend.She didn't even had any friend.Finally she called Ravi.But he was not willing to help.Then she had to tell police and she was on her own.Police talked with her for some time.Then finally police convinced that man to take back case. Sarika was told to give money to him. She did as she was told then Police convinced her that she was getting too much violent so she needed to psychiatrist.At first she screamed and said that she would not do it.But when Police forced her,She didn't have option so she went to that psychiatrist.At first he asked about her relative.But she told him straightway that she was so great and successful that whole world was jealous of her so no one wanted to keep friendship with her.Then she told her version of Ravi's part.That Psychiatrist nodded.But Psychiatrist had already guessed that it was far away from truth.Then slowly he took her to her childhood.She told that her father was rich businessman who was always busy.Her mother died when she was just small child.She just didn't remember going out with park and enjoying with Dad.Mostly her maid took her to parks.Her Dad gave her attention only when she achieved her first trophy in school.So she felt that she had to win to get attention until then she was not existed in her Dad's world.But then she was send to one reputed class for drawing.She was taught many things.Her Dad wanted her to be some great.Even when sometimes she was little bit late for some thing.Her Dad didn't say any thing but his look gave her feeling that she was nothing worthy in this world.So in her eyes her Dad made her a great fashion designer.After his death she still just kept talking about how sad it would looked if her Dad was alive and he saw her this way.So she was concerned about just one thing.That she should remain best to every one and she was blaming it all on Ravi and Lara.When they were victim of her cruelty,she was convinced that she was victim of their cruelty.It was turning worst on every point of life.But slowly Psychiatrist started treating her.At beginning she was not interested but slowly she was convinced that it was working.Psychiatrist told her that she was suffering from Narcissistic Personality Disorder.It happened due to coldness of her father towards her and over estimation of his hopes from her.She felt that it was working because she made new friends and she got new job.This time it was not her admiration that needed to approve her design.She waited for client to admire it.Everything worked just fine.She just kept doing her best but she understood one thing.She had to adjust with other instead of admiring herself whole time.So she talked less about herself now and it was doing miracles in her life.
The End
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