Dream of becoming doctor
That day Sheela was looking at her mark sheet.It was not enough.She knew that she was intelligent.But she expected that she would get better marks for entrance exam in medical.She looked at those marks.They were not good.She didn't even manage to pass.She looked around her room.Every where in that room she saw books.She studied them all for hours to pass in that exam.Then she looked at her photo.She was so small still she had dressed as a doctor.Then next to it was her album.She picked it up.She looked at those photos.Every year she used to dress as doctor on one or other occasion.Some times it was her birthday.Some times it was fancy dress party.But every time she dressed as doctor because it was her obsession.She started looking at those photos.There was tears in her eyes.She was so upset by this.She had never thought that she would fail like that in her goal.She was crying when her mobile rang.She saw that her friend was calling.She knew very well that her friends were as excited about her result as she was.She was not superb but she was wise and hard working so they all expected that she would pass.After all passing was not that hard for her.They all were going to phone her.She was sure about it.They all wanted to see her passing.Her best friend was also appearing for that examination.If she failed then it would be worst for her friend.After all they had made many plans.After all they all knew that she would pass.She started crying because she knew just passing was not that enough.She could not get admission on low marks.But she failed that was worst.
She just kept crying before computer after some time her Mom came inside.When she saw that Sheela was crying.She just assumed that she got less marks.Her Mom came near her and started talking "Come on it is fine.Do you got less marks?No need to panic.We will manage some thing.Your Dad will manage to get better marks for you..."Sheela screamed"Mom I have failed." Now her Mom looked confused.She saw that her Mom was shocked.Mom"This is impossible.You must have made some mistake check again."So her Mom sat on computer with her and saw result.But just change of viewer didn't change the result.She was failed and there was no dispute about it.Her Mom"It must be some mistake and don't worry you can reappear again.""But Mom I need to waste one year.""Come on.Just one year is nothing big.You can manage to score good next year and then you can start your career once again.""But Mom..""Don't worry sweetheart we are with you.Your Mom and Dad will be always with you."Then her Mom started holding her tight.First time in her life Sheela felt suffocated in her Mom's arms. Sheela felt it for first time in her life that she didn't want to be Doctor until now it was her ambition and wish.But suddenly she didn't want.At that moment it was impossible to say so she kept crying but she was sure that she would not study it again.She was bored. Sheela didn't want to start it all.After some time she went to sleep.In fact she was not sleeping.She was just pretending that she was asleep. After some time she heard her phone rang.This time her Mom took it away from her. Sheela didn't want to talk to any one.She just wanted full privacy.
Sheela was sleeping inside room when she heard voice of her father.She pretended that she was still sleeping.When she suddenly felt that she was touched.Her father was patting her same way as he used to when she was child.She wanted to cry but she didn't want to face her father so she put clothes inside her mouth.Her voice was chocked by it.Then she suddenly heard their discussions.Her Dad"She had to reappear and pass.""You are right.I think it's better if you find form and information about other things.After all she needed to waste one year.But I am sure that is not big deal such thing many times happen in carrier.""Of course.Who will remember this year when she become a Doctor?"Then Sheela couldn't able to control her self.She screamed "I don't want to be doctor."Her parents ran to her.Her Mom"Of course sweet heart we can understand what are you feelings.But you don't need to decide now.You are stressed .You can decide slowly.""Mom please try to understand I don't want to be doctor.""I know you are ...""I am fine."Her Dad "So what do you want to continue sitting at home?You have to complete your entrance test.Come on we have planned every thing from beginning.We have arranged all your money for further studies.This is not right.You have to do it."Her father was literally screaming on her.Her Mom "Come on calm down.Let me handle her.She is nervous at this moment.I will talk to her.""No one is going to talk to me.I am not going to study that medical and not going to become Doctor."Her father started screaming now more loudly.He was now even abusing her by calling her"Useless"He was even saying that he was going to feed her entire life and she was just going to sit there. She started crying more loudly.
That was worst day for Sheela she couldn't able to eat even her lunch on that day.She had feeling of vomiting whole day.Her whole digestion system was collapsed.She felt so sick that she just slept in her room.After some time her Mom told her that she must go to Doctor with her. Sheela went there and Doctor gave her some medicines. Sheela ate them.After taking them she just slept for whole day.She liked those medicines.She was feeling so empty and depressed that she just wanted to sleep whole day.Then one day her friends came to meet her.They all were upset.Tina"Now that is so sad but what are you going to do in future?I mean.Are you going to reappear."Another friend"Of course.She would reappear.After all she was most intelligent students among us."Sheela knew that it was true.But still they managed to pass and she had failed so it was proving other wise. Sheela was now just convinced of one thing.She didn't want to study anything now.She didn't want to be Doctor. Sheela " I have decided that I wanted to quit.""What?Are you mad? Look at your room.You have your every picture which you want to be doctor.Look at all your books.Come on just try for once more time.""No.I don't want to become Doctor.""After saying this Sheela just kept quiet.All her friends started convincing her that she must try once more. Sheela looked at them with such anger that they all became quiet.Then Tina started talking about other subject. Tina "Let's go to movie.This will take Sheela out of this tension."They all nodded.But Sheela told them that she just wanted to sit in that room.
After chatting for long time her friends finally left her.After that on every day her parents started insisting that she must do something.Her father wanted her to try for that test.But her Mom became considerate after some time.She told her that she could take any course but she must start some thing. Sheela was irritated by those pressures now that she thought.She must do some thing when she suddenly saw a job of receptionist which required just education of 10th standard.She decided to take it.She was so upset that she just went there and took that job.She who wanted to be Doctor turned into receptionist. It was worst shock for her parents.Her father just continued screaming when she heard his screams.She felt so happy.She wanted to see him upset so she continued with that job.But one day she suddenly met her professor.Her Professor was so shocked. Professor "Sheela I just don't understand why don't you complete your education?You were so intelligent.""Because I don't want to."There was a strange anger in her voice.She felt so wrong.She didn't meant to insult her professor. Sheela " I am so sorry.But I just don't want to study further.""But why?""I felt so pressure of it on me.I feel as if I can't breath.Every thing was stressful.Every one was just pushing me that I must do continue with my studies.But I hated it.I just felt empty.In fact I feel so hopeless now a days.All my dad cares about is having me as a doctor.But I am not wise enough to pass.How I can become Doctor?"There was tear in her eyes."He was so irritating that I decided to irritate him more so I took this job.""Can I suggest you?""Anything but don't tell me to continue by studies.I don't want to appear on that exam again."Her professor nodded.Then he gave her a card of counselor and told her that she must visit her. Sheela agreed to this.She started going there.Slowly counselor convinced her that she was depressed and feeling upset due to too much pressure.Counselor examined her ways to deal it. Sheela wasted her two years but after that she appeared for same entrance test and passed.Finally Sheela became Doctor.But she could never able to adjust with her father.She learned only to tolerate him.
The End
That day Sheela was looking at her mark sheet.It was not enough.She knew that she was intelligent.But she expected that she would get better marks for entrance exam in medical.She looked at those marks.They were not good.She didn't even manage to pass.She looked around her room.Every where in that room she saw books.She studied them all for hours to pass in that exam.Then she looked at her photo.She was so small still she had dressed as a doctor.Then next to it was her album.She picked it up.She looked at those photos.Every year she used to dress as doctor on one or other occasion.Some times it was her birthday.Some times it was fancy dress party.But every time she dressed as doctor because it was her obsession.She started looking at those photos.There was tears in her eyes.She was so upset by this.She had never thought that she would fail like that in her goal.She was crying when her mobile rang.She saw that her friend was calling.She knew very well that her friends were as excited about her result as she was.She was not superb but she was wise and hard working so they all expected that she would pass.After all passing was not that hard for her.They all were going to phone her.She was sure about it.They all wanted to see her passing.Her best friend was also appearing for that examination.If she failed then it would be worst for her friend.After all they had made many plans.After all they all knew that she would pass.She started crying because she knew just passing was not that enough.She could not get admission on low marks.But she failed that was worst.
She just kept crying before computer after some time her Mom came inside.When she saw that Sheela was crying.She just assumed that she got less marks.Her Mom came near her and started talking "Come on it is fine.Do you got less marks?No need to panic.We will manage some thing.Your Dad will manage to get better marks for you..."Sheela screamed"Mom I have failed." Now her Mom looked confused.She saw that her Mom was shocked.Mom"This is impossible.You must have made some mistake check again."So her Mom sat on computer with her and saw result.But just change of viewer didn't change the result.She was failed and there was no dispute about it.Her Mom"It must be some mistake and don't worry you can reappear again.""But Mom I need to waste one year.""Come on.Just one year is nothing big.You can manage to score good next year and then you can start your career once again.""But Mom..""Don't worry sweetheart we are with you.Your Mom and Dad will be always with you."Then her Mom started holding her tight.First time in her life Sheela felt suffocated in her Mom's arms. Sheela felt it for first time in her life that she didn't want to be Doctor until now it was her ambition and wish.But suddenly she didn't want.At that moment it was impossible to say so she kept crying but she was sure that she would not study it again.She was bored. Sheela didn't want to start it all.After some time she went to sleep.In fact she was not sleeping.She was just pretending that she was asleep. After some time she heard her phone rang.This time her Mom took it away from her. Sheela didn't want to talk to any one.She just wanted full privacy.
Sheela was sleeping inside room when she heard voice of her father.She pretended that she was still sleeping.When she suddenly felt that she was touched.Her father was patting her same way as he used to when she was child.She wanted to cry but she didn't want to face her father so she put clothes inside her mouth.Her voice was chocked by it.Then she suddenly heard their discussions.Her Dad"She had to reappear and pass.""You are right.I think it's better if you find form and information about other things.After all she needed to waste one year.But I am sure that is not big deal such thing many times happen in carrier.""Of course.Who will remember this year when she become a Doctor?"Then Sheela couldn't able to control her self.She screamed "I don't want to be doctor."Her parents ran to her.Her Mom"Of course sweet heart we can understand what are you feelings.But you don't need to decide now.You are stressed .You can decide slowly.""Mom please try to understand I don't want to be doctor.""I know you are ...""I am fine."Her Dad "So what do you want to continue sitting at home?You have to complete your entrance test.Come on we have planned every thing from beginning.We have arranged all your money for further studies.This is not right.You have to do it."Her father was literally screaming on her.Her Mom "Come on calm down.Let me handle her.She is nervous at this moment.I will talk to her.""No one is going to talk to me.I am not going to study that medical and not going to become Doctor."Her father started screaming now more loudly.He was now even abusing her by calling her"Useless"He was even saying that he was going to feed her entire life and she was just going to sit there. She started crying more loudly.
That was worst day for Sheela she couldn't able to eat even her lunch on that day.She had feeling of vomiting whole day.Her whole digestion system was collapsed.She felt so sick that she just slept in her room.After some time her Mom told her that she must go to Doctor with her. Sheela went there and Doctor gave her some medicines. Sheela ate them.After taking them she just slept for whole day.She liked those medicines.She was feeling so empty and depressed that she just wanted to sleep whole day.Then one day her friends came to meet her.They all were upset.Tina"Now that is so sad but what are you going to do in future?I mean.Are you going to reappear."Another friend"Of course.She would reappear.After all she was most intelligent students among us."Sheela knew that it was true.But still they managed to pass and she had failed so it was proving other wise. Sheela was now just convinced of one thing.She didn't want to study anything now.She didn't want to be Doctor. Sheela " I have decided that I wanted to quit.""What?Are you mad? Look at your room.You have your every picture which you want to be doctor.Look at all your books.Come on just try for once more time.""No.I don't want to become Doctor.""After saying this Sheela just kept quiet.All her friends started convincing her that she must try once more. Sheela looked at them with such anger that they all became quiet.Then Tina started talking about other subject. Tina "Let's go to movie.This will take Sheela out of this tension."They all nodded.But Sheela told them that she just wanted to sit in that room.
After chatting for long time her friends finally left her.After that on every day her parents started insisting that she must do something.Her father wanted her to try for that test.But her Mom became considerate after some time.She told her that she could take any course but she must start some thing. Sheela was irritated by those pressures now that she thought.She must do some thing when she suddenly saw a job of receptionist which required just education of 10th standard.She decided to take it.She was so upset that she just went there and took that job.She who wanted to be Doctor turned into receptionist. It was worst shock for her parents.Her father just continued screaming when she heard his screams.She felt so happy.She wanted to see him upset so she continued with that job.But one day she suddenly met her professor.Her Professor was so shocked. Professor "Sheela I just don't understand why don't you complete your education?You were so intelligent.""Because I don't want to."There was a strange anger in her voice.She felt so wrong.She didn't meant to insult her professor. Sheela " I am so sorry.But I just don't want to study further.""But why?""I felt so pressure of it on me.I feel as if I can't breath.Every thing was stressful.Every one was just pushing me that I must do continue with my studies.But I hated it.I just felt empty.In fact I feel so hopeless now a days.All my dad cares about is having me as a doctor.But I am not wise enough to pass.How I can become Doctor?"There was tear in her eyes."He was so irritating that I decided to irritate him more so I took this job.""Can I suggest you?""Anything but don't tell me to continue by studies.I don't want to appear on that exam again."Her professor nodded.Then he gave her a card of counselor and told her that she must visit her. Sheela agreed to this.She started going there.Slowly counselor convinced her that she was depressed and feeling upset due to too much pressure.Counselor examined her ways to deal it. Sheela wasted her two years but after that she appeared for same entrance test and passed.Finally Sheela became Doctor.But she could never able to adjust with her father.She learned only to tolerate him.
The End
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