Poem 983. Technology in life

                                   Technology in life
When ever we try to do some thing new it is never easy to learn
What is new this is one thing which occupy our mind in our life
When we start to do something new we feel that it will hard to
Understand some thing interesting as well as fully unique and new
So when that things start we pay full attention to that thing and
It's unique feeling inside you after all we want to observe some thing new
Then we observe it and some times we even scared of something new
So while using that new thing we feel we got whole precious thing
From world and that thing is better than each and every thing that
We see and while watching that thing we feel that our life will
Turn into some thing happy as well as perfect and it must be new
But then in our life on each and every time we think that this
New thing will just remain for few moment in life after all in our life
We never think that new beautiful thing will remain permanent part of life
But after some moment we can get that precious thing in our life
After all we can never get that new and modern thing in our life
Every thing which is truly new so it must be so costly for every day in life
But slowly we began to include it in our life when it comes in beginning
With each and every day in our life after all every one thinks
Since we got ahead we need some thing nice in technology in life
After all we think it must required in our life because they are future of our life
So while thinking this we include that new thing in life and with time
They get normal and common part of life we never feel that they are
Some thing unique as well as precious for life once precious and important thing
Becomes normal and usual thing of our future as well as present in life
Then we see them normal thing of each and every day of our life
But slowly even they became out dated and old things of my precious life
Every day technology goes ahead and with it went away our each and every need
After all we can't stay stuck to old thing in our life because technology
Is one thing which never remain same for many days and many years in life
After all technology is some thing which is very precious for our life
And we need to change that technology in our life even if we stick to old one
For how many days we can stick to old one in life one day we need to spend
Our money and spend it on new technology because we need it in our life
After all in life we can never stay in old life so what was once new and precious
Suddenly turn into outdated and useless for our life when it happen with things
Some times we feel it and some times we don't understand in at all in life
We don't even remember those old things which are once precious part of life
It was okay until they are just thing which are without feeling in your future and life
But some times it happen with even person in our life because they are with
Emotion and they hate when it happen with some person in life because
Like some things we also  need new and intelligent people inside our life
After all we need some time some thing new people in our life because
We need a new method in our life and for it new need was also need new people in life
When we feel emotional even about work in our life after all work is also
A important part of life and that work was our important part of our life
If we take away our work from us in our life but after all our life is some thing
Which is important to person whom we need to replace it due to problem in our life
How that person feel when we replace old one with new in our life but
Sadly many times we need to do and it was worst type of moment in life
We all know throwing some one because that one is old is not right in life
But still sadly some times people don't understand difference in things and person in life.

Poem 982. Change in sides

                                               Change in sides
How strange are those people changes in life even before sunset
Or after just next sunrise at first I use to hate them and use to think
They are dishonest and wrong towards life but then I understood
They are just confused minds they never feel sure about any thing in life
They just want to reach to top which is perfect in their thinking and eyes
But they never knew which road is perfect for them in their thinking
So they can't be sure about any thing in their life since they are not sure
They change every moment of their life but so unpredictable are those people
For entire world and there is just one question how can we trust them
From inside our feeling and our heart after all these people who starts
Are around us they change every movement and with them some times
Changes whole the world how can some one be so wrong in their life
Or should I say they always found the right side because when person stood
On both the sides one time after another time they will be surely on right side
On one time how unfair it seem in your life that you stood on both sides
And claim that they never change the side this is what they said to whole world
They said that they were completely honest to principles of their life
And they never ever change their views in this entire life time of their life
But when we clearly show them change in their side then they come ahead
And say that side has change entirely in their life since that side has
Changed we can't find any thing in our life that side is entirely changed
Which created many effects on their life and so they got convince that
That side is so perfect in their life after all in life they can't able to see
Any part of that side then we began to look at that side because that
Side will slowly change every part of entire life so step by step we observe
And search every thing in that changed side but sadly we can't find
Anything changed in that side because that side is still the same and nothing
Seemed to be different in that side after all in our life we don't need
Any confusion due to unobserved plenty types of changes in entire life
Because when we took some side we want to remain alert for any changes in that side
So how carefully and through we study once again those both sides and
Try to track any changes that happen any of that side but we can't
Find any change how hard we tried because there are no changes in any side
Those changes are something which never existed in that side that person just
Started lying because that one wanted to justify change in that one's eyes
So we think may be that one made once a important sort of mistake in life
And that mistake is going to damage that person's life so that one decide
To change the side after all no one is perfect human being always make
Mistake in their life so instead of going wrong way that one decide for once
Change side and we think that entirely it is not wrong part of their life
After all they can't do anything when they need to change their side
While listening to that one we are convinced that person feeling guilty
About changing that one's side so we think now that person will not
Do that act ever again in entire life and remain fully honest to this side
But when next sunrises we saw that person is once again confuse in life
And once again show same emotion and once again change side and
Then once again ask if that one found out some mistake is it crime to change the side
Now from that moment we got confused that if that person is confused or
It is most smart person in life and that one is changing sides according to
Benefit of that one's life so changing sides are proof of two things
One thing is confuse mind and another thing is that person is too smart
And for benefits that one can do anything in life so we feel worst when
Some one change side because we don't know what is truth of entire life.

Poem 981. Want of winning

                                              Want of winning
How I wish I win this time but I fail this time in life and why did this happen to me
Is one common question of our life each we ask this question and feel on our self
May that is why we feel so sad many times because we are told that we must win
And we want it to be turn out a truth in our life after all we live every day
In hope of winning one day in life because we were always told that winning
Is necessity of our life but problem is that we never dare to ask those person
How many times they lose in their life because we know that they never give us
True answers about their life and their achievements in their life because
We can't confirm it is a truth we are force to believe what we are told in our life
We can't count their failures easily nor we can count their success in this life
Because when some person get successful it is what we heard from that one's voice
After all in life on every day we try to do what we prefer and like but still
Every moment we feel that we all like to hear success is stood on our side
Because since when we are child we heard that success is must for our life
We just think our success depend on things we do in our future in life
But we don't want to leave what we prefer and like because it is against
Our heart and mind but still we are forced in our life to see all things
Which are important for our thinking as well as our success in our life
Because we want to win in our life after all many times we think that
Winning is some thing most important thing in this life for every person
In our life after all being a successful is one thing which we liked in life
But some times truth comes against our success as well as our winning in life
We just want to win in our life but what shall we do when we get success
When we know that process is against the truth can we adjust our self
Because we want to win success in our life but some where in our heart
We want a success as our life's important sort of part after all in our life
We want success but some where in our heart we hate success from each side
Because it comes in our life from totally wrong and disgraceful side of life
After all we want to win but don't want to forget morals in our life
How can we forget what wrong that person just done to win in our future
As well as to achieve success in this life after all if for success we take
That one's side it may damage our life but some times I think that
I have to bury truth inside my mind if I try to say it then it will
Create just problems in my life but how can you shut your mind
And just stood on wrong side because wrong side will never forgive you
In your life one day it will come to you and harm you or person on your side
You just wish from heart that those people will understand what you are trying
To say in life but finally you see it clearly impossible task of your life
So does it make difference I say not for my heart because once it set
To truth it will always remain with that truth fully from my feeling and heart
I know it is hard to win if I say it before all heart but it will never matter
Because I know finally winning will not matter that much to my heart
Only if I live properly and truthfully from my heart then I will win
One day because I know I will be peaceful as well as happy in my heart
Because winning never matter any more to my heart I will just fight
Because justice is what wanted from my heart this is what will
You say when you really know the truth from your feeling and heart
But still some times people dare to challenge that heart in that case
That heart may not win but that heart will always bring awake
Many timid heart so never feel that success will be gotten only if you took
The side which is always easy for winning in any sort or part
Because if you try with full heart winning sun can rise in any part.

Poem 980. Imaginary problems in life

                                 Imaginary problems in life
How hard and difficult is to understand a person and how easily

Some times we get caught in their words they want to convince

Whole world that how difficult you may find it is hard to not get 

Convince by our words when they spoke them to world we fully

Believe them and then we act just according to them just how easily

We convince that we need to act as they indicate and how easily 

We convince that they are saying truth again they are not lying 

But they are convinced by their words for them problem is 

Always basic truth of world so they invite with them as many as 

Possible type of problem some times I just don't understand 

Do we really need to study all those problems because some problems may come

And enter in our world while other problem will always remain problems

Which don't include in our world they are which we think always 

Effect our self after all problems are some thing always create

All kind of troubles inside our wishes as well as inside our brain

How much from my heart I hate those problems but when I see

Some one pointing at them I run near them to solve them after all

In life solving problem is not crime but to solve my problem 

Sadly I went near the problem of all kind and some people are

So good at convincing our mind that we became convince that

Problem just belong to us on each day and every moment of life

When that problem never enter in our life but just some person
Convince us that this problem is going to destroy us after all in life
We can never see problems like weather forecast for our life so
We believe this forecaster is perfect and right even we feel that
This forecaster is our best guide but in truth that person is telling
What that one think about life and that one have no knowledge of life
So we spend our days and nights in believing that forecaster is right
We dream many things positively as well as we have nightmare in life
After all in our life every day we imagine many things in life
There are many things which look interesting in our life and
Then one day we find all types of problems inside our  life
Because those were problems for which we remain ready for life
But sadly those preparations some times just tense our life after all
In end very thing prove just waste of time in our thinking and life
Because we all think that person is truly intelligent to decide in life
Which are problems really happen in our life but sadly those person
Convince us totally wrong things for our life and then we began to take
Useless measure of our life but then we all tried to do some thing
Which are useless of life then suddenly we thought that may be
We should find look for various problems inside our thinking and life
Just while solving our imaginary problem in our life and mind
We forget our real problems in our life and when they enter
We don't have even time to think about them in life because
Problem never come with warning in our life problems which come
With warning were mostly not that serious in life because if you saw
Warning you never let those problems to increase and destroy your life
But those which come without warning really hurt your life so
When they come we need to face them in life then why destroy our days
By hearing those talks by those person's in our life who tell us real problems
And destroy our life by telling imaginary problems in our peaceful life
After all we got right to live our life as we prefer and like in our life.

Poem 979. Shortcuts

                                         Shortcuts
How much whole world told me that long way are best
Still why don't know but those words seem to loose effect
And my brain began to think that shortcut is the best and
Then I began to think if other can get why don't I get shortcut
Since how quickly things come in their life every day when
My long way took me day after day so how much may any one
Tell we all love short cut every day because they are something
Like candies or chocolates even when we know they are not healthy
For any one in our life in any way still to bring smile on face
After all smile is pleasant thing in each and every way so we want
To get that smile in each and every way and for getting it
We do efforts again and again for getting that smile just giving
Some one chocolate don't seem a crime because we can't make
Some one happy in some way like playing with kids seem impossible to us
In every way when we visit some one we want to make some nice gesture
But in these things we just don't know the way so we use things
As short cut in many ways we all know that shortcuts are not perfect way
But some times short cut seems to bring quick and easy success so
We just ran after shortcut and try to use them because after all
Life is too small for us and so we don't have time to waste so
For our future short cut seems most suitable and for future a best way
But in our life if we forget our proper way to you really think that
Shortcut can always help to you think in dessert when we are thirsty
And can't get it in any way a Midas can come and help just by
Drinking imaginary water you can feel happy for few moments but
In your life you can't get that things which are in your eyes always best
After all life don't be that easy to get what you want your best
After all asking thing is most common for each and every way
But if you take a short cut just because you want to get in quick and
You think it is best but truth is that it can't be that best and I don't mean
In short time you can get best of course you can get best but sadly
You don't understand that thing which you get so quickly is really best
Some people may understand but plenty don't have that sense and
Many don't have experience to understand that how to adjust to the thing
Which is best after all each thing need training to use it even if that
Thing is not just good but in many ways the best but they just think
Getting best thing is most important in every way after all we never
Use the thing which is not a best so how can we know what happen to
Person when that one don't get best some times time teach us many things
One of them is that how to handle things when we see bad days then
Only we learn to value good days only if person understand them without pain
Then may be those bad days become useless but truth of life is that
For value of good days we need some experience of bad days after all
Many times people get knowledge of many things only when they fear
About bad days when person see sunshine after night value increases more
In many ways but many times from my heart I wish it is not this way
Why when other person cheat we began to values our true friend and
Why we saw too much heat cold wind feels pleasant in many ways
But on other side when we saw sun on brightly shining our head
Just don't we wish that it should set that is what happens when
We get too much like sunshine even happiness began to irritate
We find some problem in life or create ambitions which are harmful to
Every one else so in life we must have to keep preferring long way
And when we take some short cut which we many times took then
We should at least be prepared for each and every sort of problem
Because one rule is confirm in our life that we get nothing without pain.

Poem 978. The Work

                                           The Work
How hard it may seem some times to understand other person's work
But your whole life depend on how easily you understand their work
After all two person live together in life always need to understand the work
Of other person with whom you decide to spend time it may be any relation
May it be father and kids or mother it could be husband or wife
How can you adjust with some person if you don't understand value of their work
There are many people who comes and go from our life
But understanding their work and it's importance is not easy for life
We don't understand all of them  may not matter in our life
Until we understand their work and to give it respect in your life
Because work is some thing which is half part of our life
And it will always remain with us in our days as well as our nights
After all we all do work and give it respect in your life
Because work is something which is half part of our life
And it will always remain with us in our days as well as our nights
After all we all do work for our life most of time of our day
Still we can't expect to be friendly with person whose work we don't like
After all work is some thing so important and precious in life that
It is like claiming we like some one's heart but brain we dislike
Do you think it is proper to act like this in our life
When someone becomes your friend try to accept that one fully from all side
Don't say that you can accept just does parts of your friend
Which from your heart you prefer as well as you like
After all when you decide to spend time with some one in your life
You always find it is hard to totally adjust with your friend's like and dislike
But always remember one thing work will always part of their life
When you make friend or when you get a relation never think
You can able to ignore that person's work in your or their life
After all their life is stood around their work of days and nights
How can you imagine a life without any drop of water in world
Then you must understand your friend or relative can't be without work
Because work is part of each human being and expecting that one will leave
Work for you is like expecting some one living without water
And it is not at all fair and just for any human being of this world
After all every one have a right to do what they like as work
Your friend is not suppose to leave every thing for you because
It is not how work out friendship for any one may it be some relation
So close to heart like mother ,father and kid which are closed in eyes of every one
If you don't like some one's work you can't make nice relation with that one
After all in life we always like some person and then
When we start hating their work slowly we began to dislike
Every thing about that person because work is one thing
Which is important part of that person's half time we do
When that person spend hours in doing that work that work
How can we expect that person to adjust without that work
After all person's life is depend on their thinking and work
If some one have some ambition that one can't live without it
If you can just try to adjust with it but if you can't then
You can keep proper space from that person but try to do one thing
Never hate some person or never blame some one for their work
Because each work has it's value and it takes them ahead and
Every time in our life we just need that work on some spot or some day.

Poem 977. Stood on side

                                    Stood on side
How strange some times of life's facts that a person claim
That any one can't escape from past but many times we saw
People who escape them and get what they don't deserve any way
At that time just one questions raised in our heart that how can
That person so easily manage to escape from their bad deeds and past
But some times life is so strange and hard to understand that
Some people just escape from their past but that past never vanish
In thin air their next generation have to pay for their mistakes
Is it really fair or is it fully wrong we can't ask that question because
We all know that is their parents past many times kids took the same way
As their parents do and in that case we don't feel that sad from heart
But some times when kids took right and perfect way from heart
But still they suffer due to mistakes of their parents and their past
It really feel sad when that happen inside our life and hurt our heart
When those kids are so innocent why did they suffer from past
But then people just ask us one question that why did people
Let other people suffer in hands of their parents and their past
If world let innocent people suffer like this one time then
Next time there is always demand of justice for them in world
And then you can't able to deny it from them but revenge
Is something always worst in every type of way it always
Rule the world in totally wrong thinking and totally wrong way
We saw clearly that world is going totally wrong way but
We can't change those people who took in their brain a word
That is revenge after all they always just say one thing that
Why don't these people who are telling them now where quiet
When thing are going against them some times people just
Don't stood against some injustice and that thing began to form a mess
First one injustice is gone and then another one is done to improve them
Why people like create that strange type of circle and that strange type of chain
When some one does wrong why don't we just stop it on first moment
We always thought this way but sadly we never dare because
We don't have capacity to make any type of change we are scared
In life we never learn to fight these things we are lot happy
Without these fighting after all in life we always hoped for peace
Sadly a normal human being never expect a fighting but inside our life
On each and every time we need to fight some time and
Those fights are something which effects our life but still
We never think that we need to fight because we always think
That we can manage to avoid after all these are not our fight
These are something which needed in our life on every moment and
On every time but still we are unknown to that part of life
So we never learn to fight and then when we saw a victim
We just stood on that sight because we are as helpless as that victim in life
We never try to fight because we never learn to fight in life
May be we should learn at least basic things in life which are so simple
Like calling law to help us in life but then sadly in our life
We just decide that if we avoid this fight we may go happily ahead in life
But life is never that easy from any side it forces us to fight
And when we decide we will not then revenge of other people
Easily and quietly manage to mess our life and still we stood on side.

Poem 976. Modern

                                           Modern
Some people claim they are modern and they like everything new
But when you see them acting that way you have just one question
What is in this all modern and what is in this totally new
Everything so old fashion inside their thought that those dresses
They wear don't make them feel they are something new at all
When you call your self modern don't you think it must from thought
Can outer cloth make you so modern when you have old fashioned thought
When you can't dare to express your thought before some person
Not because you think that will insult them but because
You are so scared to express your new and modern thought
What is use of modern thinking when you can't express your thoughts
After all when modern and new mentioned you expect freedom of thought
If you can't speak freely what is use of new thoughts
If you can't keep your own opinion what is use of modern dress
Modern means in my view who have freedom in dressing and thought
But those who have just freedom in dressing can't consider modern at heart
How you dress doesn't matter if you have modern heart
But some people just think that dressing is always important part
I know some like modern dress and some like traditional form of heart
But question is that when you wear dress do you wear it
Because you like it from your soul as well as from your heart
If you dress just to please other person what is meaning of heart
Our heart is one thing which should have at least right to choose a dress
Which will be liked by you in each and every way
But if you just wear what you like and speak as per others thought
Then what is meaning of some person's thinking as well as that one's thought
If they can't share it and nod on other person's every thought
What is modern in you or modern in your attitude towards thought
I think more modern than your imagination of a person who is truly orthodox
Because in real life it is hard to imagine a person modern
Who don't have a power and guts to speak own heart
In life every day we feel that modern people have full freedom to express thought
But if modern life just means dressing style what is use at all
Freedom should be such that you should be free in thought
When you accept new things you always feel with them will come freedom of thought
But when you saw modern is just dressing not inside thoughts
How disappointing it is for you when you expected so many things from heart
I just feel shocked on their acts that I feel like they are just replica
Of some thing called modern which is inside our feeling and thought
How shocked I feel inside my heart when I saw their feeling
And how they act they don't seem modern at all in their thought
They just advice other that we must learn to adjust with today's thought
Do you really think that today's thought are not having own thought
I don't think that those are today's thought we can just dress as we wish
Is not today's thought we can act as we wish and with moral is today's thought
Being a modern don't mean using every modern product from market
And spending money as we want because just by buying products
You can't change become truly modern from your heart because
Modernness in our thought and clarity of conscious is not thing we can bought.

Adventure story 95. Panic

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Poem 975. Bad luck

                                Bad luck
How sad we feel when we lost something precious to us
At that moment we feel our sorrows from our heart
After all in life we will feel sad but question is that
When other lost something why don't we feel that sad
Instead of sharing their sorrows from our heart we began
To one ugly game of blaming even unknowingly by our heart
Instead sharing sorrow our first question is how this happen
I know we are curious and we may ask it for knowledge
But sadly after that people start totally new and world game
Which is search how that person lost something because that one's fault
We like to find other person's fault just because we don't want
All blame should be lead towards just some time due to bad luck
But it can happen to any one in this world and without fault
Which is the truth we know fully from inside of our heart
We all feel that it will just happen to that person and
That one suffer due to that one's fault and we just like to say it
Because we want to feel that we are safe since we are always from fault
But is it right to blame other person just because we want feel safe from heart
Sometimes in some circumstances it is not a person's fault because
In life death comes to us as our unwanted and sad part or sometimes
Some person are made such a way that they can't remain to us
Because they are never their when we really needed them
In both cases it is not that person's mistake or fault
Then why did we blame that one just to give secure feeling to heart
Some times bad thing happen in our life due to just bad luck as life's part
Then when bad thing happen in life we just began to search for cause
We want everything to be perfect in our life so we blame everything
For other person's mistake why do we think that some bad luck
Can easily enter inside our life because bad luck is not common
To enter in every one's life it is something rarely enters in life
If it enter in some one's life don't feel sacred it may enter in your life
You can take precaution but always remember one thing that
All bad thing don't enter in your life they are not virus that just
Jump from one body to other body in few moment and few times
Bad luck is one thing which enter in your life only if your destiny
Decide to show you some days and bad nights but that doesn't mean
You also see the same days and nights because each person
Have different future and different type of days and nights
They may help you to arise and they may help you to understand nights
But that don't mean they all will just come ahead and enter in your life
Just try to help those person in whose life problem have enter
Without this fear that they will enter in life our life is not common
And some sort of story in which problem get repeated each time
Our life is written by writer who have more knowledge in life
So none problem is mostly get repeated in others life because
Each one have one nature and each one have different eating habit in life
So how can two person have same problem at same time
I know it happen but it happened only when really some virus
Enters in our life but it is not that common and even in case of it
All people don't suffer same way because doctor is prepared next time
So things don't get mostly repeated in life and if you help some one
That thing will never make their bad luck enter in your life.

Poem 974. Crisis made by human

                             Crisis made by human
Out of some mountain or out of some part of sky I heard that
Warning those crisis will fall on us one day from our sky
This is one feeling I always feel some time when I see some crisis
Which fall on some one from paper or news which broadcast
On some news channel they say this the cause but I feel I heard
This before because even before those crisis come I feel I was warned
Is it my intuition or is it warning from sky no my friend I don't
Think so I think it is some thing I read or saw on some documentary
Which shows how much nature we have destroyed or some
Documentary which show how security some times lapse so god is not
Needed to each time come and warn we some times can use our brain
To see our problem and to understand all but still something happens
And when we remember that we just find some other excuse
And ignore it until crisis start we want to save money and we want
Shortcuts in life but still some thing goes wrong we just look
At other person in our life because we don't want to change
What we started from heart so we just point at others with help of our heart
Pointing is easy but can that solve what we already started by
Just while going ahead with our life we just manage to ignore many facts
This is our thinking which manage to hurt us and that one will take us
Away from solving all type of problems in life if you want to really solve problem
Then you must first quit selfish motive inside us and our world
When we just think about our self and don't think about world
Those documentary seems just useless thing to us but when they turn true
I just wish from heart at least people will understand their importance
But some times person are so selfish from heart that even after seeing crisis
They never change their route from start then use one source
When they see the risk then turn other source which is equally risky
If only person understand this from heart that shortcut never make us winner
It will surely destroy us from some part only if people use hard way
To develop their future and make in life new start because life will give you
Many chances and many ways this is fully depend on you that
You will like and prefer which way because in our life when crisis began to come
We always knows that fault in us but we are so busy that we don't pay
Attention or we don't have power so we prefer to just ignore
This is our life where we want to win on every point and still some times
We feel that we don't have power to change other person's life
When I saw that documentary may be I want to change but why remaining
World listen to me they did what they wanted for them so
May be many times we heard and read warning but we can't
Change according to them because world is not in hand of you or me
World is so big thing and it is full of many human being and
Each one have their own way and their own thinking
So some times I think what is use of that warning if no one is going
To listen to them aren't they useless for you as well as for me
But then may be they are useful in their own way because some people
Will remember them at least after crisis like me and then
May be next time we can stop people and if we can't stop them
At least when crisis strike on us we know it is not fault of nature
Or god it is fault made by us who are just normal human.

Poem 973. Thoughts in heart

                                   Thoughts in heart
Can you tell my heart what do you think and what you want
Can we be clear enough in life as we speak with other human being
Can you tell me my heart how can I talk to you because
When I try talk to you I will be just talking to myself and
People will think I am a mad and I don't want to look stupid to all
Because talking to your self is clear sign of madness but
I still want to understand you without doing any madness my heart
What did I suppose to do if I want to understand my heart
If I don't understand what is happening inside my own heart
How can I solve my own problems which belong to our heart
But how strange is that truth that we can't understand our heart
Still we are ready to claim that we can understand other person's heart
We find it so hard to understand any heart that it creates problem
For us on each and every part still we tell other we know what is in their heart
Our true problem in our life that we can't even chat with our heart
And those people who claim that they understand our heart
Are hardly seem to tell us what is hidden inside our heart
So how can I understand what is inside my is one question arise
When I read some where that we must understand our feeling and heart
That is why I start to try to remember properly about my heart
So when I start to think about my heart it is due to just article
Which tells me how our true feelings effect our life from start
So from then I started searching about my feeling and my heart
But truth of life is that it is not about understanding our heart
Because our heart is something impossible to understand
With small things like questionnaire that fill many parts because
They tell you truth but it is about just limited part and they can't tell you
Just in ten question about your entire life I think in fact can't tell you
About your feeling as well as what you thought from your heart
Just by getting obsessed with our mind and heart we can't understand it
Because heart is not that easy to understand in world and just
By doing small thing you can't understand it in words because
Heart is some thing which gives fire to all some times it starts
With wrong emotions and some times it is with positive parts
Some people say you must control your heart it is right but
By getting such obsessed can you control your feeling and heart
After all by just controlling you can't win all feeling inside your heart
First we must understand when some thing goes wrong then
We must stop blaming our heart because every time our thoughts
Can't be blamed for all our problem that created around our heart
Some times life goes totally wrong way but it is not your fault
Just try to handle it positively but never blame for it your thoughts
After all luck is some thing which comes and goes in life and
We can't have on it any control in our life we can control our thought
And think about it in this world but that don't mean bad has happen
Just because of your negative thought you can't change your luck
You just do your work and with positive thoughts it is easy to do the work
But your future can't be negative due to negative thoughts
Because if you try to stop your self from negative thought with this scare
I am sure you can never get positive but just negative thought
Changing your thought is for peace of mind it can be never used
And source to change your luck or bad luck how hard you may try it.  

Poem 972. Buried truth

                                    Buried truth
Some people say in life some truth better to be buried but
Can you tell  if some one say so how much is that truth buried
Once one person knows it is known by all because when some one
Need to say thing slowly truth can't remain inside our heart
When that one says it that one must know truth and when
You ask this you must know some part and mostly when you ask
Someone you get information from some other source so what is
Hidden in that truth which known to so many hearts because
When a question raised which is about truth then there must be
Many resources who know about the truth we just feel from heart
That only we are one who knows the truth such type of truth
Are never buried underground and they just for some time hidden
It is one question which we need to ask do we really need to fight
Because people against it may be strong but when some one
Pretend that one don't know the truth just don't believe that one
Blindly because may be that one is just hiding behind innocence
Because if there is one truth about some thing important in life
Normally it happened before some people in life if not in broad light
Even at those nights our ears never sleep even in those morning
We never forget those dreams we like to pretend may be that are
Not truth but just a part of dream but still inside our heart
We all know the truth after all in life we all know very well
What is our dream at what is our part truth then that truth will
Come out surely from many mouth even a good scare can't
Help us to keep shut our mouth those people who never spoke
Began to speak about life because guilt gave them sleepless night
There are many changes in those people's life even in their dream
Those worst type of nightmares began to come alive so truth
Can't be buried it comes out of your dreams and some times
Even on darkest night it will come out of your scream becuase
Truth never die how much culprit will wish it will come out of
Even it's death because truth dies in this world god made it this way
And this is truth of life it never vanish from any part of your life
It is buried just under some leaves for some part of your life
Truth is always there and watching everything around us
And waiting when we decide that we just can't able to keep it inside us
Nothing can be buried so easily in life so how can some one believe
That truth can be buried for entire life what ever buried inside ground
It is bound to come like after some research old centuries also come
Even sea can't hide completely one ship may people die on it
But one day ship is going to be return because human like to search
And human like to research after all that is a quality which took
Human ahead and above every person in this big and large world
So what ever you hide it will be found by the world because
Curiosity is man's friend and enemies for some part of the world
When we find some thing about some one it will always destroy other person
But truth remain buried because human even like to dig in ground
When they are small kid and they do same thing in their playground for fun
So just think our world is full of such types of digger do you really think
You can stop them from digging inside this world I don't think so
So I don't believe those words that some truth better to buried
Because human being just love to dig the ground even for just their fun
And when it comes to dig the truth many times it becomes their work.  
  

Poem 971. Disliked claim

                                        Disliked claim
When I look at plant I like it's greenery but most beautiful part is that
I like it's charity it gives many things to us but never make any claim
It may stood against rain but never stood for claim
That plant when grow up into some big tree it gives so many things
But never once in life it claims for any favour or anything
In this life may tree never learn this things like claiming many things
In our life from childhood we learn many types of things
Some are good for person but some are totally bad for world
After all there are some things which we must learn from world
But there are somethings which we learn are fully wrong for world
After all trees are which always stood as per strong pillar
Then trees are something which have most helpful nature of the world
After all trees are wonderful and nice in nature but they never learn like us
Our world taught us that we must learn to claim or our work is useless
So every time we all try to claim and we forget to do the work
Just by claiming thing we went far away from people on whom we claim
Because no one like a person who help you and then claim
They say people forget you if you don't go ahead and claim
But do you think with your mouth you really need each and every claim
If people don't give your work value do you think it can be done by claim
I don't think with talk you can prove anything in your life
Because you need things to do if you want to do something in life
You can try a vacation from your work for some period and time
Then may be you will understand true meaning of this life
If your work is worthy they will miss you for that time
Like some trees which are no longer their but still we miss them in our life
But do you think they really claimed something in their life
And even if they can claim do you think that could have stop people
From cutting them down in their thinking do you think
Just by claiming we can get justice in each and every thing
I don't think from my heart that we can get justice by claiming
For justice we need plan and proper way to get that thing
May be you can start your process by claiming when
You decide to fight in your life but if you want to keep friendship
Or nice relation then claiming will be against in any kind of advice
Because when you began to claim suddenly that person began to dislike
Each and every thing you did for that person in their life
Slowly you get one strange habit in life you just claim and
Forget all the other things people do for you in your life
You just feel that you have done all sacrifice and you are some great person
Who just spend for others that one's whole and entire life
After all no one is that great who have never taken any favour in life
Each one need some one to help them in life so what you get by claim in life
If you want some thing then be ready that when you get that thing
It will be a fight but it is not good to fight with every one on every day of life
May people say you are too simple in your life but I still think
By just claiming and telling other about it you can get justice in life
Because getting justice is not that easy in our life for it
We all need long and in large fight so when you claim
Always do it only when you ready for fight and be prepared
That the person may in future develop towards you a dislike
But some times I know it is necessary to start such fight
But never claim when you want your friendship to be happy and perfect in life.  

Poem 970. Enemy in friend

                                         Enemy in friend
How interesting was that song when it was heard by me
How many things I learn from that song it was so nice and interesting song
That it's each word seem to create new thought for my mind and heart
But question is that for how many days did I remember that song
Because that song miss to vanish from my heart without much thought
How much I want to cherish but that is truth of my heart that
No song can stay in my minds after some time in my life
After one thought there always comes next thought in our life
After one song I always forget after some time that one nice song
In my life after one day I just find it too hard to understand that song
Because no thought can have power strong enough to claim that song
Some thoughts stay with me for some more time but many times I think
My thoughts vanish in between lines because may be something different
Enter in my life with me that first thought began to confuse me
After all in life we can't understand what is truth of life and what is
Totally wrong from all part I just say one thing I hate my enemies
But some times do I really hate them or circumstances force me
What is our enemy is one question in my heart do we really hate that one
Or that one just stood against us because we set there as per enemy
But that don't mean that we can love enemy so complicated is our life
That we can't even properly hate our enemy because in this life
Many times we hardly know who is our enemy so I started one song
And that one was to win against my enemy but suddenly I am so confused
Some times our friend turn into our enemy some times in life
We just don't understand our surrounding and we just assume
Our competitor as our enemy but do you really think that is definition of enemy
I don't think just because we race with some person and due to we clash
From many parts and sectors can be considered as our enemy from the world
Enemy is a person who try to destroy us so may be not just song
I began to even change my enemies because when your friend stood
Against you in bright light there will be no question but this is truth of life
That friend is your true enemy from your heart and that one will never
Help you in life's any part so instead of getting other person and
Singing wrong song just try to find that person who really hurt your heart
Many will scream against you but they all are not our enemies
But those who truly think negative about you is from heart your enemy
So not just our song and not just our thought some times I feel
Even in life I change my friend and my enemies when I started life
I never thought it will run this way I never thought that time
Can manage to change so many things and in so many types and ways
But in this life we never thought properly which person is our friend
And which person is our truly and fully enemy because in this life
We all think that when we start friendship it will remain until end
And until we don't do any thing wrong there it will remain but
That is not truth of life,life have it's different ways after all life
Will decide what is our proper and most suitable way
After all in our life we can search many ways but shifting
From one song to another becomes life's most famous game
I just hate to do when I have to do but if I try to stuck to one song
Justice seems to go totally against it after all in life how can
You dislike your friend even if you saw it in your enemies face
And how can in life you like that friend who shows all signs of enemy
And still whole world is trying to tell you that one is your true friend
You know what is right and you know what is best because
If you have read proper books and got proper knowledge then
You can easily see difference in enemy from any kind of friend. 

Poem 969. Umbrella

                                             Umbrella
At each weather I see some pretty dream which take me ahead as a human being
After all every weather gives me new thinking and totally new dream
But we don't feel satisfied by just those nice beautiful sort of dream
Each weather have something new for every person and it develops
In a person new want like in summer we need soft and cotton clothes
And we want to buy some nice and costly clothes as life's part
In winter many types we run after warm clothes but even then
On those season I manage to keep myself in my budget and control
But in rain I want costly umbrella because it's need to be best because
It is wanted to protect us from water and cold on each and every day
These umbrellas were pretty and some of them touch my heart
I just love that design from our heart it have so nice style
That we all just love that one's design after all we just want
That design from our heart and I feel that everyone will want it in life
I feel that every one will do anything for that beautiful umbrella
Because that design was so special which must be loved by everyone in life
That is what I thought when I decide that it is something I must bought
Because it is most precious for world's each and every part in life
When I spend so much on expensive umbrella I feel I took most correct step in life
In my thoughts as well as inside my brain this what think at that moment
I feel from my heart that umbrella is want of my day and mind
But when I see it's beauty I just forget what is value of my money
Inside my heart somewhere I know it that why I am acting this way
It happened when I used some normal umbrella and that one broken with wind and air
While feeling wet all friends laughed on me on my face
This is what happen when we get hurt inside and our heart began to complaint
We just began to think we need that thing and money don't matter anyway
We just spend our money on thing which don't matter
To us in life before that frustrating moment but
After that moment umbrella become a important part but
I have just one question inside heart do I spend too much money to please others heart
Whenever I wear something and some one criticise I just don't dare to wear it in life
Why do I care what others say about my life
After all this is not their life but it is my important life
So why on each moment they have full right to damage my happiness as I like
At one season it is umbrella on other season it is something different in life
We all went something pretty and good but everyone describe different thing as good
And it all seem fine until that one began to force others to like as that one like
You can live your life as you like but spend money only on those things
Which you want from your heart as well as your brain
I know spending money unnecessary is wrong even if you like shopping every day
After all our life is depend on that how we manage our money and spend
Money is important to us as well as we need entertainment so we must spend
Properly on at least on those items which we like and have some gain
Just because some one taunt spending money is wrong way of our life
After all once gone that money will not come back how much we like
So we must think properly before we do something which is only waste
Some people just like taunting to every one on each and every day
We must learn to ignore them instead of spending money as they wish
We must use our money for our wish and never let other dominate
After all this is our life we know what is good for us
Never pay attention to others smile when you want different thing for you
Just spend your money as you desire never let it be spend it on some nonsense.

Poem 968. Winner

                                               Winner
Winning is some thing which make addiction to us after winning
For some times losing seems like crime for person when some people
Win race after race they just can't understand they may lose some day
So winning seems something important to mind after all winning
Is something hidden inside our thoughts and our mind because
When once we win we feel that strength inside our brain and body
And that energy some times bring good out of us but not at all some time
Winning is some thing which must after tries because then only person
Can understand what is life because if people win easily in their life
Slowly they just dominate people and forget importance of other thing in life
For such type of people losing comes as shock and they can never adjust it
With proper understanding in any part they just argue with each person in life
After all winning seems to them a necessary part of their entire thought and life
They think they will win each and every thing because some where in heart
They are convince that they are greater than other human beings
Losing make you depress and destroy you from many side but
Winning some times take your head on such spot that we can't understand
Some day losing can also become part of life so one day that one lose
And that one will blame anyone for that thing in their life because
Their not winning was in their eyes world's greatest fraud in their life
Every one like to win and winning is greatest feeling in life but
Saying that just I have right to win is strangest thought for human mind
Some times we win and some times we lose but every one love
To keep alive feeling of winning in their life because one after another
Every one want to win no one want to become loser in this life
But question is that if every one win then how can be their winner in life
Some person win some time and some person lose some time
These are true rules which take us ahead on every time of life
But we can't win every time because we also need to give chance
Others to win in life because when a person wins then only we can
Understand true feeling and nature of that person in our life
Because when a person win that one will show it's true face
Winner are not bad some are kind but some are cruel in every sense
So in your life always remember when you lose in your life that
Life just gave you chance to understand true face of other people in life
Winner have one face which hold a smile but they are not same
They may differ in all other styles some will help you in your life
Just once winning is enough for them they want others to enter
In their future as well as in their complicated type of life for them
Winning is not easy thing just people full of false admiration don't
Appeal to them or their thinking after all in life we act as we like
Winning remain some thing important for each and every day of life
But once winning can be enough for some person they just win once
To show that they can win in any contest from any part of world
But there are also other type of winner for whom winning is everything
And they want to win each and every front they fully believe that
Each person wants to just win happiness in mind and brain
Don't matter to them as feeling so they are most deadly sort of winner
Beware of them because once you turn them into loser
They will try with help of each source to turn from loser into winner. 

Poem 967. Dream in night

                              Dream in night
How nice was my that dream which I had that night
And how true it seem but when my eyes open I just saw
It's just a dream and we all feel sad to understand that
I feel so much sorrow to understand it's broken dream
So when we woke up just in few minutes we forget happiness of that dream
How sad we feel in just few seconds lose that joy of dream
Because in our life we can hardly able to retain that dream
We just think that it is not near that much to true so dream
Is something which is always part of our desire and truth
We know it could be good or wrong but it is always our thinking's part
But that don't make it wrong to feel pleasure of that dream
You can always feel nice and happiness of that dream
Without thinking it is broken because if you think this way
Just tell one thing to your heart that nothing is permanent
And every thing is one day going away from our life as impossible part
No one can be permanent because there is always end to each part
Then why did we have to feel when dream break we miss some part of life
Because every thing goes away same apply to dream
So when we wake up why do we feel sad and want to scream
How nice you may feel when you have some dream
But we stop that sadness which we feel when went away that dream
Every thing will vanish it is a rule of life nothing stay as a stone
And become some sort of permanent thing as a part of life
So that dream will vanish and goes away like some tides
But in case of dream we can at least have hope of returning of same tide
in some nice and wonderful sleep of  night as part of our life
But those things that vanish due to many other part of life
Can never return how hard you may try to bring them back in life
Because once they gone away they never manage to some back in life
We just keep searching for them on each and every day of life
So may be dream is bigger treasure than any thing else in life
It just change every day but we can still hope some day of same sight
How nice it may look when we see that nice and beautiful sight
So when your dream break up just smile and hope you can see
Some day same beautiful sort of dream and same type of sight
After all in life you see many things which are so nice but
They all get destroyed by circumstances and after some time
But dream is some thing wonderful that never destroy with time
It will always come back to you if you keep it in your heart like a treasure
Always precious and alive then some day we can see it once again
As a peaceful, nice and attractive part of our life because
Dreams are something which we see on every day of life
But they are just good or bad part of our thinking or life
If some nightmares comes again and frustrated our night
Then why can't we hope to that dream to be returned in life
As part of our peaceful thinking and greet our mornings with smile
And hope that dream will return soon to our night and life
After all our thinking is a major part of deciding process of dream in night
So we can always hope that we see that dream and have a good night.

Poem 966. The smog

                                The smog
When I see that smog how thrill I feel from my heart
I thought cold weather created nice and pleasant smog for me
In that smog world look so lovely and beautiful to me
It is like white curtain before world created just for me
Behind that curtain world was so beautiful and pretty
I was so happy that I just want to keep looking at it because
Everything look perfect behind that curtain to me and my heart
It is like some dream coming alive before my own eyes for me
Seeing this is like seeing heaven on earth from every side
I just can't stop my heart from admiring what I like
This is something so nice and pure for my eyes as well as mind
In that smog I see each tree from beautiful side
I feel it must be cold so going near it seemed to me against advice
So I just decided that I can't help anyone in seeing this sight
I am not a true friend which people can admire in life
After all friend should share every thing in life and it should
Always start from happiness and fulfillment that fulfill our future and life
So I decided I must talk to my some friend who can also observe that sight
And together we both can share this biggest joy of life
Life is something precious part of nature which surround us in part of life
So I pick a phone and called my friend as soon as I saw time
Which was suitable for my friend to receive call I make to describe
Then in that call began to tell smog which I like
But my friend started laughing which hard to describe
Then that one told me I am cheated by my eyes
There is no fog in any side it must be just smoke
Not a smog I tried to describe and then that one told me
That it was not interesting thing in their life since they see smoke many time
I ran near it to feel touch of it to my body and life
But it's just smoke due to paper which are burning behind
It began to hurt my throat as well as eyes which was hard for my mind
And I hear people scream to stop pollution on that point
How easily my own eyes have betrayed me in life
By just giving wrong meaning of some sort of sight
I was expecting some smoke but fog was also expected in life
After all I wanted to enjoy at least some part of life
But sadly when I come out I face disappointment of my life
There is just smoke not even any shadow of my lovely fog
How easily our life manage to cheat with help of our eyes
Even when they are our best friend still they some times
Tell us something wrong in our thought as well as in our life
We were so sure about our thinking and we trust our eyes
But many times they cheat us with help of our own life
And we see something which we wanted from every side
But many times it is not truth of our life and we have to accept it
If we are intelligent and wise some times in want of some thing
We ignore many things from our life which are important
For our knowledge about life after in life we see many things
Which are more common in life but still sometimes our wishes
Force us to see something which was never existed in our life
So we run after totally false imagination and they get shocked
By how easily we all get cheated in our life after all what is
So easily understood and common we don't remember
We just remember some thing unique because we want
That precious thing to be part of our whole life
After all we all want some thing nice in stressful life
So we just guess wrong thing to enjoy some part of our life.

Poem 965. Some people

                                                       Some people
Some people claim that they are happy and they are on top of the world
And they look so happy that you are so sure that they are on top of the world
Sorrows never seem to touch them or their heart and sorrows never seem
To exist for them in this world they show you their many things and make
So big show off after all in our life we think that these people have each and
Every thing inside their life they make so many time they show many things
And put them before our eyes that we are convince that they are having
Life's best part and then we began to think why are some thing which please
Our heart after all in life every person have some dreams but some person have
Skill to show others how best they got in each and every thing but these
Things began to frustrate when those people began to show us every thing
They have some ways to make us feel insecure and they have their ways
To show us that that they are better in every part and every skill which
Existed on earth in every point which existed there so inside our life on
Each and every point we just see some things which make us feel insecure
Because they creates trouble in our thinking and in our eyes since when
They began to show us their money how easily they manage to destroy
Every thing which we created in our life by making so many efforts in it
But when other person began to show off we suddenly feel so unhappy
Even if in life we got loads of money some people just have their ways in life
That they show how bright are their days and their nights so inside their life
On each and every time we just see what they got and felt that we got
Nothing in life but we need to understand that these are not truth of life
Some people just manage to show off even when they don't got any thing in life
But when our mind see such a show off it get so convinced in life that
There is no perfect thing in our future as well as inside our life because
On every spot and on every moment of life we just get those things which
Are not that much important for our life and in this life on every time
We just think that we can win if only luck shine on us like it shine on
Those people in their life because these people seems like some thing which
Have so much money in life that we began to think we will win only when
We can use their ways in life but I think that is totally wrong approach
In our life just don't go after those show off which are pretended to show you
That they are in best condition in their life many people have many things
But some have skill to show it to other people in their life and also skill to show
Every thing in special way in life even if they got a stone they show it like
Some diamond  to life and slowly people began to feel that those stones
Are not just sandstone but true valuable diamond called stone in our life
So if you even wear true diamond still it look useless to their thinking and eyes
Because we don't got skill to show off beautiful diamond and those people
Got a skill to show off their diamonds in life it depends on person who saw
Them that how important that thing will look in life and we are perfect audience
And so they can show off every thing perfectly in their life while they are some thing
Which are called most wrong audience in life when ever we began to show
Our thing they began to ignore them in life so when we got good thing
They are useless before the world because these people manage to change
Subject about those things in world they can easily find mistake inside them
And they can easily find what they don't like in them and some times
They even claim that those things are not that special to them or they already
Got them so on every day inside this world we will find some thing which
May be diamond but before those people it is equal to sandstone so inside
Our life on each and every time we get any thing but it is useless and
Each thing they manage to get seems like some thing perfect for them.

Poem 964. Your dream

                                     Your dream
So wonderful was my dream when at beginning it start but
Why some thing goes wrong always after some special part
Our ego come in way and our thinking stop proper way but
Sadly even if I control my ego that don't effect our feeling and heart
There are many thing which help you from heart at beginning
We all think that dream have started perfectly with help of all friends
And so we are safe and comfortable until end we never thought
For one minute our friends may change their heart and instead
Of standing with us they began to search for other part but
When they left our dream we don't even feel that pain and
After all we can understand that they are concern about their gain
They want to have profit which cheer up their heart after all in life
Everyone have to go ahead and no one just wait for some one to get
That dream which was once part of your thought and your heart
So we all accept that person will go ahead and our dream will be
Something that one want to left when it was impossible to achieve
And gain but in life it is worst part that we can't understand our
Friend's feeling or that one's heart after all we just thought that
One want to go ahead in life and give it new start we never thought
In mind that one want to win and that one was planning some race
Which we never thought of running after all what is meaning of that heart
Which some times talk about friendship and dreams then suddenly
Turn into some rival from their heart so easy it seem when we start a dream
We were always so sure about our friend and their faithful friendship
On that moment we think so honestly in our heart that even if our friend
Don't help us that one will not run race against our wish and dream in some part
We never thought that one will have so negative thoughts and when
Our dreams differ we just thought it is about our difference of thought
But we never imagine that one was so obsessed in heart that one
Start a race with by that one's own mind and never let us know that from start
Any way we can now understand from heart that one was running a race
Which we never run from heart I just wish I can ignore that person from heart
But some times some thing just come in our mind again and again
To confuse us and our thoughts if that friend left that don't stop us
From trying to win our dream from heart only now that friend don't understand
After even losing the race why don't we feel sad from inside of our heart
They just never understand it was one race they just run by them self
And we have never become that race's any part we never want to run
That strange kind of race which just stop us from having our freedom
So when we all thought that our friend is dreaming with us but
Sadly instead of dreaming our friend was competing with us and
It is so sad but that don't matter after some part after all no one can
Force you to run the race which you were never running from start
So your friend was never part of that dream and dream was never easy
Because while dreaming you were just alone so now winning that dream
May turn out little bit hard for you as well as your plan from heart
Because since your plan included some person who are never interested in that dream
May cause little problem for us as well as for our strange dream
After all when we plan some dream we can't include other person in any part
Even if that one seems to agree be part of our dream still that one
Have right to leave that dream so if that happen we must adjust
Without that person have to complete that dream so we must not complaint
About that problem of that dream because we included some one in that dream
Who have fully right whenever they want to left that kind of dream
So don't worry in life when your friend left your dream because
You have to find some more sources to fulfill your dream.

Adventure story 94. Tony

                                                                       Tony
Until that Alisha was cooking in kitchen from there,she could clearly hear that Tony was getting their luggage ready for their trip which was planned for years.This trip was a trip.They planned for many years. From starting of their family life they planned every thing together.Tony used to live near Alisha since childhood they used to play together.When they used to play husband and wife in their childhood games.Their parents used to say they would make perfect couple.When they grew up that was first idea in their minds as well as their parent's mind.Every thing worked out just perfect for them.Tony got nice job in Private Company and then their marriage happened just as planned.Then they managed their house in their limited budget.But Alisha knew that perfectly because her mother taught her about it.They all knew from beginning that Alisha and Tony were going to get married one day.Every thing was perfect but then one day while reading paper Tony saw a tour to London.He got excited about it.Tony came running to kitchen and told Alisha"What do you think about this tour?"Then he showed this advertisement.Alisha loved it but she had other news for Tony.She told him that she was pregnant.Tony was so happy by it.But still Alisha saw a little disappointment in his eyes. Alisha "Tony don't worry when we will get some more money.We can go to this tour."Tony smiled and said"Our child is important not tour.We can go to tour together."They knew that it was impossible.They didn't have that much money.But any way they created lots of dreams. Then their daughter was born.They had to make cut in expenses.After that their budget was always tight.They had another son.But Alisha and Tony did every thing perfectly.They managed their budget in perfect way.Finally their both kids were settled in other parts of world according to their wishes.Now their children were happy and nice settled.So they were relaxed when one day Tony came inside running in kitchen with excitement of young man and showed her those tickets of tour.This time Alisha smiled and agreed happily.It was perfect time for their tour.
          So Alisha was cooking in kitchen,she was so lost in thoughts that forgot to watch clock.It was just about time to serve their dinner.She turned because she was hoping that Tony must be sat on dinner table by now.But when she turned it was shocking.Tony was not there.She began to call him.But he didn't come.She was so confused just few hours ago.Tony came into kitchen to make many sort of plans and he was so excited about it all.Alisha was so confused.Tony was just in their room.She was hearing all that voices which he was making while packing.Then she remembered for few time.She didn't heard his voice so she ran to bedroom.Then she saw that Tony was fallen on ground.She was so shocked.She tried to move him.She screamed.But he was not waking up.She ran out of her house and she began to call for help.Their neighbours came running from all flats.There was big crowd in their flat now.Then she finally heard that some one was about to call Doctor when some one said that Tony was dead.She began to scream that it was not possible.Her Tony was perfect few hours ago.She was not ready to accept it.She was just crying and couldn't stop her tears.Finally Doctor came and announced that Tony was dead.Then she just sat quietly beside his body.She was watching it for last time.Many people came near her and tried to console her but she felt nothing.She just sat their.Her kids were called.She saw that her kids came with her grand children.She cried once again when she saw them.But she could feel that her sorrows were not over.She just didn't know that how did she manage her life without Tony because her life was revolved around Tony.
         For some days kids stayed there with Alisha.But they couldn't stay with her permanently. They came in Alisha's room.Alisha was still wearing a suitable dress for widow.She was just observing around.Her son"Mom we are going back to our home."Alisha just looked them.In Alisha's heart she no longer felt that sorrow which used to feel when her children used to go back home earlier.She was just lost in her thoughts about Tony.She was remembering every moment.She was no more interested in any thing else.But they were talking to her so she had to answer.She just nodded.Her daughter "Mom do you want to stay with us?I mean instead of living alone here.You can join us."Alisha"No.I will stay here.You can go now.You must join your jobs."Alisha saw that her children were not happy with her answer.Her daughter-in-law"Mom you can at least come for some days.""No.I am okay."Alisha knew that her daughter-in-law saw upset about her attitude.But she couldn't help it.She didn't want to change her home now.They all tried to convince her.But it proved useless.So finally they went away.Alisha felt so relieved when they left.She wanted to be alone. After saying this she just kept looking at some unknown point and they tired to convince her for long time.But Alisha just kept ignoring.Finally they went away and Alisha was left alone with her memories of Tony.Then after that day she decided to spend whole time in thinking about Tony.It was making her depress.But in her view her whole life was finished without Tony.Her phone always kept ringing.But she didn't care.She just picked it up and tried to keep her conversation as short as possible.At first her children used to phone her weekly.But then she noticed that after some time it turned into daily.Even her daughter-in-law started insisting on her to visit them.Until now her daughter-in-law never showed much interest in those visits. Alisha just didn't understand her attitude.Then one day suddenly her friends called her.Nita "Alisha we have organized a charity function.Why don't you come?""No.Nita I don't want to.""Come on, it is six months after Tony's death and still you are not going anywhere it is just charity function not any fancy....""I just don't want to come.""Then when do you decided to attend functions?"Nita asked this with strange determination.Alisha was confused.She never thought that way.Alisha "May be after one year?""My god it is to long.""I have decided that way.""Okay.But after one year you must come."
         Alisha thought that this matter was closed.But thing didn't turn out that way.Next day Nita came to meet her.Aisha hated to Nita there.Nita literally screamed with shock after seeing her house.Nita"Alisha why don't you burn those light?Why are you staying in dark like this?"Alisha was so confused. She didn't notice any changes in house until now. She suddenly remembered once her maid mentioned the darkness but she ignored it.Alisha"I like this way.""You like to stay without light!!I don't remember your that type of choice until now.""I told you.I prefer this."There was strange anger in her words.That Nita decided to keep quiet.She thought that if she act this way.Nita would leave her alone.But that didn't happened her friends kept coming to meet her.She hated to see them.Alisha who was always most talkative in all friends suddenly started to be left alone.But still her friends kept coming.One day Alisha was so upset by all this that she straightway told them not to come.But after that her children phoned her.Slowly she began to hate their phone calls so she stopped picking up that phone.She just pulled out that plug.She just sat in her room in darkness with dreams of Tony.She even told her maid that she didn't need her.Since she was alone now.She could manage.One day her door bell rang.She thought that it must be some of her friends so she decided to ignore it.She just kept sitting in room.When she heard small voices of her grandchildren.They were calling her.Until now doing their last visit,they were never came near her much because they were crying due to death of Tony.This time their voices forced her to enter back to their world.They hugged her.Then she saw that her daughter and daughter-in-law stood behind.
       Her daughter "Mom we need to take you for routine check up.""I don't want to go.I am fine.""But after what happen with Papa.We can't take that risk."Her daughter-in-law"Come on.We are not taking you to some function.It is just visit to Doctor and you said that after year you will going out and year is completed."Alisha was blow up with anger when she understood her daughter-in-law was spying on her."You were spying on me?How dare you act like that just leave my home!!"Her daughter "Mom are you out of your mind?How could you speak like that?She was not spying on you.In fact she phoned you many times out of concern when you didn't pick up the phone.She was forced to ask Nita auntie and she told us every thing.Mom why are you doing this?Why did you told all friends not to visit you?"Alisha started crying."Because I wanted to be alone."Her daughter-in-law was also crying now.Alisha apologized to her.Then her grand children who were observing this, spoke "Grammy please go to Doctor we need you."When she looked at their faces,she had to agree so she finally went out of that house.She hated it but they forced her.Then they took her to Doctor.First they did her physical check up.Then Doctor told them that she must go to psychiatrist.Alisha hated that idea.But she was once again forced to go.They took her to Psychiatrist who talked to her in friendly way.Slowly she told every part of her sorrow to him.He listened to her with kind heart.Then he told them"She is from Adjustment Disorder due to which she is leading to depression.It is common disorder when person suffer from post traumatic stress like sudden death of loved one.There is grieving process for about a year after that some person adjust with life but some people will go in depression and can't able to cope it.I suggest that you should take her to visit your homes.""We tried to convince her but she is not ready."Psychiatrist" Why don't you come here for some time and take her to places?She loved her grandchildren.""But we don't live her.""Then take her with you until you are here.Slowly she will start showing interest.Then she may like to come with you."It seemed impossible to them.But still they agreed.Then they started taking her out every day with children.At beginning she didn't show any interest but children forced her to show interest.Then finally their vacation was over.They were returning back.They were tense regarding Alisha but they had to go away.They phoned Alisha's friends to come out and continued with visits.But after some months when they phoned Alisha. They received first shock when she first decided to visit them.She agreed to visit her daughter and she stayed longer than planned.Then she visited her son.Even there she enjoyed every thing.Then finally she bought that same tickets of tours for her which she planned with Tony.But this time she took all her family with her.She smiled and cried at same time.In her thought she felt that Doctor was right.Tony must had wished same way because his grand children had some of him in every one.One had eyes like him.One had hairs like him so when they were together.She felt that Tony was watching with her and enjoying everything.She was happy once again in life.
                                                                          The End