Adventure Story 40. Marks of heart

                                                         
                                                              Marks of heart
Every time when ever she looked out of that glass.She saw city around her.Everything seemed so happy and fresh.But Kira was not part of them.She was always alone standing on the corner of joy.She never able to became part of that crowd because she was shy and not enough intelligent to get a decent job.She wanted to prove herself.But she never managed to do any thing that would show her abilities.Now even her children were started calling her stupid.Kira was upset from her heart.First time even coming away on vacation was not helping her.She was sitting on seat at looking out of window in hope that something would make her happy.But nothing was doing the trick.Then she suddenly began to have strange feeling like some thing sinister was around her.She knew that it was just her imagination.Her husband Rajan was sleeping next to her on seat.He didn't like to be disturbed in his sleep.She was feeling so lonely.She looked around.She stood to clearly see all passengers.But her kids who were sitting on next seat of bus screamed on her.Little Sunny"Mom what are you doing?Standing like this while bus is in such a fast speed is insane."Pooja"Now there is no need to get shocked.Mom always acts just stupidly."Then they both started laughing on her.She just never understood that when her kids got so older than they began to insult their Mom for sake of fun.If Rajan was awake.What did he say?He would scream on them or just join them.She didn't know.Now a days Rajan had become so unpredictable that he felt never sure about his cooperation.Kira didn't want herself to be insulted so she began to sit.At that moment she felt that some thing touched her.She looked out of window and saw a banyan tree was near her.It's leaves were moving with air.Suddenly one leaf came near her and stuck to her window.She was so scared by it.Then there was a little gap between window panel and leaf came inside through it.That leaf fell on her laps and she felt that evil touched her.She screamed loudly.
             Rajan was woke up due to her screams.Rajan was shocked by seeing her like that she was little bit stupid.But she never got scared like this.She was just screaming and screaming.All the passengers of the bus came near their seat.Rajan"What happened?". But instead of answering Kira just started pointing at her feet.Kira"I just can't move my feet."Rajan smiled.He was again irritated by her stupidity."We are all sitting for many hours so blood circulation of your feet must have stopped.Try hard.You can move them.""No.I just can."A woman"May be you shall try to walk between to seats?My husband will help you.If your husband will not mind."Her husband was looked like some weightlifter.But Rajan didn't like idea of his touching to Kira.Many times people used such opportunities for wrong purposes.But situation was complicated and Rajan was not so strong due to his back problems that he could pick up Kira and her husband seemed like gentleman.Before Rajan could say anything,Conductor came there.Conductor"What's the problem?""That woman can't walk.""After sitting for so long many people can't walk.""But she is not feeling well."Conductor went near Kira and touched her feet."Sister do you feel it?""No."Then he told someone to give him a bag.Then he put it on her lap."Now you surly feel it?""No."Now Rajan got scared.He pushed conductor away.he knew that he was acting wrong.Still he hit on Kira's leg with full force.All the audience around her screamed or protested.Kira didn't felt a thing.Conductor screamed loudly and told driver to stop the bus.The driver got irritated.Driver"What is it?We are suppose to reach on time.I don't want to receive firing." While saying this he came near the crowd and pushed crowd back.When he came ahead Conductor was telling weightlifter to help Kira to stand.He tried but he had to lift her like a weight.Weightlifter"Her legs are not responding.They seemed as if they are dead."Rajan"Don't talk nonsense."Rajan screamed on weightlifter. But that weightlifter said quietly"If screaming on me help you.You can scream.But I think something is seriously wrong with her.I think we shall have to stop in some hospital."Driver"But that means we have to go by other route.It will take one hour.Half for going and half for returning.""Oh!My god!!It will waste too much time."Rajan"My wife is sick and you are talking about time.Don't you have any humanity in your heart."Weightlifter"He is right.May she is having paralysis stroke?If she is immediately admitted in hospital,she can be fine."Conductor"Come on.Do you want to keep this poor woman's curse on your conscious? "Another passenger"He is right.If she was your daughter or sister,did you even act this way?"That sentence touched many hearts and finally they changed their route.By now Pooja and Sunny both were on verge of tears.An elderly woman was trying to console them.Kira was beating her leg like a mad person.Finally Rajan stopped her.Rajan"May be you don't feel it but still you are hurting it?"There was tears in Rajan's eyes.Kira wanted her leg to be moved.She didn't want to be handicapped and she was sure about it.
          Finally that bus stopped to an unknown hospital.Kira and Rajan both were scared to see it.It was a private hospital in some village.It didn't looked like a good hospital with best staff.Even kids noticed this.Pooja"Dad this hospital is not as good as the hospital near our house."Sunny"Didi is right.Look at it's walls.They are so dirty.""Mom will get more sick by staying here."Rajan was very upset about these turn of events and after hearing kids advices.He got more angry.Rajan"Shut up both of you.Your Mom need a good doctor not a posh hospital.If they said that it is good hospital.Then it must be good one."Elderly woman"Screaming on them will not help and they are saying the truth."Driver"But it is only hospital on our route.Next one will be too inside the city and I can't take my bus there."Conductor"Ya.We have bended enough rules for her.Now let get her admitted and finish this business.""How can you act like this?"Rajan"It's okay.Thanks for your concern.But beggars are not choosers."Then Rajan went in that hospital.He clearly didn't like that unknown hospital.It's atmosphere was so strange.It was so quiet that it resembled to horror films.But when conductor one ward boy and one nurse came running.Conductor pointed out at Kira and told them that she could not walk.They all started calling doctor finally a old doctor came out.He ordered them to bring wheelchair.They brought that wheelchair.But that ward boy was too weak to bring down Kira alone and that nurse had too much weight to manage to do such thing.Finally that weightlifter once again did favour for them and put Kira on that wheelchair.Then other people took out their luggage.Then Pooja and Sunny told to sit near it and bus went away.After saying good bye to them.All passengers wanted to get rid of them because they also hated that hospital because until coming there they all were very cooperative.Just that elder woman asked Rajan that could he able to manage it.When Rajan told her not to worry.While going away she was looking at them with concern.But since there was no option.She went away with other passengers and bus.After all you could not stay with unknown person.She didn't even known them properly.She met them few hours ago.So she went away while waving at them with sad expressions.Finally Rajan had forced Kira's wheelchair inside.On his shoulders he was carrying at least three bags and two scared kids were walking with his.
          When they went inside doctor was not there.Nurse told them to wait because doctor was already gone for dinner to his house.Since there was no serious patient.He was not planning to come back until tomorrow morning so Nurse phoned him.When Rajan asked when he would come.She just told them to wait.In that lonely corridor of hospital they all were sitting alone.They sat on the bench while Kira was sitting on wheel chair.Pooja"Dad I am hungry."Sunny"I also want my dinner."Kira"May be you shall have to take them out for dinner?I don't think food of this hospital is going to be anything eatable.""But I can't leave you alone like this."After hearing his concern Kira suddenly started feeling better.She suddenly thought that she might like to be sick forever.Then she brushed away that thought.She didn't want to sit in that wheelchair forever.But then that Nurse came there.Nurse"Don't worry.I will sit here.You have to take children out for food.You can't get any dinner here now.I think may be you shall have to bring some food for your wife also."Rajan nodded."Kira bye and take care."Then Pooja and Sunny gave her a big hug.Pooja"Mom you are so brave."First time her daughter appreciated her.She just loved that sickness.Then once again she stopped that wrong thinking.She didn't want to sit on this wheelchair permanently.She wanted to go here and there.She didn't need these kind of things to prove her bravery and impress her daughter.She looked around that hospital was so depressing.If she was in some city hospital with Air Conditioner.It was okay for her.But sitting here without Air Conditioner and without Doctor.Then she got scared if her diseases increased because of delay by Doctor.Then she suddenly felt sound.She looked around then she was started feeling something was coming near her.She was so upset.She turned around to look at that Nurse.Then she saw that Nurse was snoring.Then she felt more upset.That Nurse who told her husband that she would take care of her was snoring.If something happened to her at that moment who would take care of her.Her heart started beating in strange way.She began to think that she might have heart attack.Then she suddenly noticed a man came running towards her.That man"Just relax.Nurse.."He screamed loudly on Nurse.She woke up immediately.Nurse"Doctor..""You slept when I ordered you to pay attention on her.""Sorry Doctor.""Get examination room ready."Kira didn't want to go inside with doctor without Rajan's permission.He wanted his suggestion.Kira"My husband is not there.""Don't worry.He will come." Then she closed her eyes.
           Kira felt very strange when doctor was examining her.He was checking her very carefully.Then Rajan came inside.She felt his presence by his perfume.Then she felt her kids were standing on his sides.She could easily imagine their faces.She was happy to feel that they care for her.Finally after long time Rajan asked Doctor"Doctor what's wrong with my wife?""I don't know.""What are you saying?Are you Doctor or you have purchased your degree for some where?""Mr.you are insulting me.I am telling you the truth.She is perfectly fine in every way."Kira was angry now.She also began screaming.Kira"What kind of Doctor are you?My heart is beating too fast.I can't able to move my leg and you saying that I am perfectly fine."Doctor was more confused.He started hitting on Kira's legs.But she didn't show any sign of pain."May be my medical tests are not enough?After all this is just a small hospital.I think you will have to take her in some big hospital."Rajan "I don't need your advice for it.From beginning I never like this hospital.I want her discharge paper to be ready by tomorrow so that I can shift her in other hospital.I hope you have ambulance.""Of course Sir."Then Rajan went out of that room.When Kira went to normal room.She started crying.She was so scared.She never thought that Doctor would not able to identify her problem.But Rajan came in room and convinced her that a qualified Doctor of city would cure her.She finally slept.But kids were also started crying.Then Rajan had to convince them that everything would be fine.But in his heart he was scared and he needed support so he immediately phoned his father for help.
           Then next day with his father's help Rajan immediately took Kira to bigger hospital.When they went to doctor for discharge paper.He once again told them"I think you shall have to trust my judgement.Nothing is wrong in your wife physically.She is perfect.No Doctor can change that fact.I think it's all mental."Rajan's father"This is too much.You are saying that she is pretending to be sick.She is stuck to that wheelchair for days.She can't able to go to restroom also.She will pretend all these things.""No.She is not pretending she truly believe that she is sick and that is making her sick."Rajan"Enough of this nonsense.Give me the paper.I will take her to bigger hospital.""Do as you wish.But I am telling you once again.She is physically fit."They took her in city.Then they took her to Doctor.They did many tests but Doctor didn't find any problem.Finally Rajan began to think she was pretending for his attention so he began to ignore her.But still all proved to be useless.Just she began to crying everyday.One day suddenly Rajan's mom came and suggested that they might show Kira to an exorcist.Rajan shocked hear this.But Kira reacted positively towards that idea.Kira"Actually before this I felt a evil presence.""That's it.That is the problem Doctor can't took away ghosts."Rajan"Mom will you stop it.There is no thing as a ghost and I will not permit this nonsense."After that Rajan thought that matter was closed.But one day a neighbour phoned Rajan complaining about screams from his house and exorcism.Actually that neighbour was shocked that Rajan permit it.
           Rajan immediately reached home.He was shocked to see all those drama.He literally throw out that man.Rajan"Mom how dare you bring that man in my house?"Kira"I asked him to come this is also my house and I want to be cure.You just don't care for me.Let at least Mom to help me."Rajan was shocked to see Kira's outburst.That moment Rajan first time thought about his judgement.He thought that his wife might not be as sound mentally as he thought.Rajan"Neighbor's are complaining I don't want that man in this house or may be neighbors will call the police."After that he was very nervous about whole issue.Then he suddenly remembered first Doctor's suggestion a psychiatrist.He started searching for his number.Finally he found it.At first that Doctor was not willing to talk to him.After all Rajan had insulted him.But after lot of persuasion he gave him a number of psychiatrist.Then Rajan came in his room.He put his hand on hand of Kira.Rajan"You want to walk don't you;don't you?""Yes.""Then let's take you to psychiatrist.""But I am not mad.""Who told you only mad people go to psychiatrist.It's rubbish.""But I don't want anyone to know about it.They will call me mad..."Suddenly Kira's voice began to rise.Now Rajan was sure that he was right.Rajan"I promise I will not let anyone know about it.""But kids.""I will manage it."Then next day Rajan managed everything.First he managed nice and attractive classes for kids on evening.Then he told his Mom that he had to take Kira to physician and she had to mind kids for some hours.When his Mom knew about their classes.She willingly agreed to mind them for some hours.Then finally they went to psychiatrist.He talked with Kira for many hours.Then finally he said that Kira was hiding some problem inside her heart.That was clause of this.He said that he would try to find.Then after some meeting finally Kira one day told her problem.When doctor asked her about worst day of her life.Kira"I was use.."Then she looked at Rajan and stopped talking.Doctor told Rajan to go out.Then finally Kira talked"I was use to dance.But it was considered bad in our community.One day I danced in school without knowing of my parents and won the prize.But when my father knew about it.He got so angry with me.He told my mother.She threw away my trophy and my father beat me on legs.Sometimes I feel those pains even after many days.There were not mark on my legs or wounds.But still I felt those pains.Now my kids think.I am useless.But I am great dancer.""Those marks are gone.But inside your heart you still feels those pains.What about your husband?He hate dancing.""Of course.I never told him that I can dance.""Then always keep one thing in mind.Those people who can't value your talent are not intelligent to judge you.Don't care for them.You can't dance that is your sacrifice.If they don't value it.Don't care for their thinking.Just always remember you are one of the best dancer.Then you will automatically learn to deal with such type of people."After that slowly Kira began to walk.One day Pooja called her stupid.Kira just smiled at her and ignored her.Then Sunny started laughing.Kira just said one thing "Only a stupid can identify a true stupid."After that such type of remarks were reduced and finally stopped.
                                                                The End

Poem 355. Dream of Alice

                                                      Dream of Alice
Have you ever felt you are missing something those lovely things which happen in life of many
Human being have you ever felt I just want one thing to say we have never lost some train
Any thing we were before human still we are human being we have all those talents which god
Have given us as human being and if you ask me I feel best talent is to imagining things I know
We can't waste our life just imagining things but still I feel from my mind that I can enjoy any
Thought or thinking as human being because I can live my life just by my nice thinking so in
Our life on every thought and every thinking I just feel one thought that I can imagine those
Beautiful things like those flowers and those trees which I like as human being because I can
Have right to imagine in free time as human being when days went ahead slowly as I imagine
I just feel one thought as human being I feel those nature have that beauty which will please
My thoughts and my thinking because as some human being I just did one wrong thing that
Was thinking in one way as human being that if I imagine something nice and it don't happen
It will hurt my feeling I feel that on every point anyway things are happening as human being
I feel that we are never winner as human being but then when I think that I will fail in something
I just feel I will feel hurt even when I know that I have wrong thinking as human being so
Then in life on some points and some thinking I feel nothing can prepare me in case of failing
I can't be prepared for failure by imagining wrong sort of thing I will just upset my thoughts
And I just can't imagine happy things instead of that I feel sometimes I can imagine nice things
Because as days went ahead on every point and thinking I just feel that I can have whatever
I want while imagining because as days went ahead I just thought one thing that this beauty
Of life never look perfect for human being because as days went ahead with every thing then
I just feel one thought from my thinking that those beautiful scene which we can see and visit
In dream sometimes we don't deserve as human being because as days went ahead on every
Thinking I just feel that I like that nature on every point as human being I feel that can even get
Nice flower in desert if I am willing to think this is what I feel life as I can live in dreams on
In every point as human being we feel just one thought and one thing that in our life we need
To understand all part of thinking this dream is something perfect from that garden which is
Full bloom and flower with perfect colours and smell for human being because in that garden
Of mind we don't need to include any wrong thing in our life as human being I feel that my mind
Will be so perfect only if we like those dreams which are so perfect for our thinking and on
Every moment we just imagine things we feel that when colours enter in sky and make it so
Perfect for our liking then we will be so happy as a human being we will just feel one thought
From our mind and from our liking that those beautiful landscape which we saw from mind
Are most refreshing we don't need any one or world's any part as to go and visit as human being
Only our mind can understand our thoughts and make for us all those perfect and unique things
When we walk on road in life we see many things but inside our dreams each thing reach to
Such perfect and such a nice dream I just feel from heart that our satisfaction lies inside us
As a human being we just feel on every moment that we are nothing important but just one
Big bunch of dreams which will please us on each and every thinking so when we can have
Every thing in dream why did we feel scared while dreaming some just feel one thought on
Every dream that if it broken it will hurt us in our thinking but I feel from my mind that
There are many things which look so perfect in life but still not that good as human being
I feel just one thing as human being I feel that I have pleasant sort of our dream but then
I think that pretty sort of beauty I feel that this is so unique and lovely dream because
On aspect of our dreams I just feel that it is so unique sort of dreams I just feel on every point
Inside my life after all those dreams are beautiful for unique sort of dream so then on each
And every point I feel that it is impossible to become cinderella inside our world because
On every moment we can't get always royal sort of treatment I feel that those royals
Things are something totally wrong for every one as human being so then on every point
We can be something nice in this world by dreaming like Alice we can dream in every way
So I just feel one thing that it is not easy to royal but easy to dream so I become Alice of dream.

Poem 354. Rush

                                                            Rush
Never ever rush in your life for making anything just never jump on conclusions which
May not help you in life on everything sometimes we feel that life is fast track train in
Life as human being so on every point we just rush in things we began to tell other people
What we like and think but sometimes while giving our opinion we forget one thing that
By doing it again and again we began to become irritating there are some front on which
You can say your things but on some we must understand that we should not began to
Express that thing on every point we can have our options on every moment and on every
Thought and on everything because as we rush to in life to tell what we are thinking
Sometimes we cross our every limit as human being so then on every point and our thinking
I just feel that sometimes we rush too much in our thinking as our life goes ahead on every
Aspect as human being we just feel one thought from our mind that we are totally wrong
About our thinking that we are concentrate on just one thought that was dominating our
Thinking when we try this I just have one feeling that inside our life on every thinking
You always say same thing and then we get involved in that fight which is for us worth
Nothing as a human being as days went ahead on every thinking we just feel one thought
As human being that inside our life I feel that sometimes we need to forget those things
Because when we want to win on that point we feel just one thing that we have to say that
Point on every moment and on every thinking but as life went ahead on every point as a
Human being we just feel one thought from our mind as human being that we are on wrong
Point it seem to us so perfect in life still on every moment we need to understand in life
That sometimes we should not just give views inside life so then on every point in our life
We feel that thinking is totally wrong for our life when we started repeating our every view
In our life we feel as if we are on totally wrong point we feel that in our life we just never
Need to understand those minds which are so important part of our life that we are fighting
For those people whom we don't matter much inside life as our life goes ahead on every point
We just feel one thing in my life that on every point we need to understand our views about
Our thinking and our life we feel that may be we are on just doing it for some one who don't
Care for us inside life as we went ahead on every point we just feel that our opinion will not
Matter in our life we need to understand all views about life and we must not have them
So strong on every point that one day we will feel we have destroyed our peace of mind
After all those thoughts which enter in our life are nothing but just those thinking from life
That will tell us we are always giving our opinion on every point and never once thought
What it will mean inside life sometimes I feel we just need to think twice when we say
Something in life so when we speak on some point we just feel one thing from our mind
That we will never lose in our life unless we choose wrong thoughts from mind we have
Pleasant thought on one side and upsetting thinking on other side which just manage to hurt us
Many times then why are we just discussing those thoughts which look not so proper in our life
We can also have pleasant thought but sometimes we just stop using our thinking in our life
And we just take on wrong front totally wrong thoughts of life as we walk on every moment
In our life I just feel one thought from my mind that those thinking which are part of life
Are not something so pleasant for our life as we went ahead on every point we just feel
One thought from our mind we feel that after sometime in our life we are totally lost on
Each and every point because inside our life on every point we just feel one thought that
We need to push too much on that point I just wish from heart on those moment we need
To look at other people who have control on their mouth and control on their mind they just
Don't start talking on wrong point on every time we need to understand that thinking in life
Which tell us on every point that we are not part of that life we need to understand those
Thoughts which are part of our life are not those thoughts which look so wrong in our life
So when we start to argue about some thought we need to understand in life that did that thought
Really deserve so much attention in life on every thought and on every moment of our life
We just need one thought that is our happiness in life so maybe instead of digging on those
Wrong points we have discuss sometimes friendship in our life and maybe on those points
We need to understand that we are on totally wrong side when we start pushing those thoughts
Which other person are not enjoying after all bringing up those thoughts again and again is
Totally disturbing and wrong for our future as well as for our life on each and every point.

Poem 353. Unanswered

                                                     Unanswered
People are sometimes so strange in life that we just never understand what are they mean
In life when we ask them some question they just prefer to avoid and began to tell us about
Many things in life sometimes we can go ahead as they wish in life but sometimes we can't
Because that question is important for our life but some people just talk about whole world
And never answer our one question in life then I just feel one thing in my mind that which
One is my friend and which is enemy of life because when unanswered question seem to
Create more question inside life suddenly it feel that we should be more aware in life and
They just keep on telling us plenty of things in life but some people say that they are not lying
How funny is that answer in life if some one keep quiet do you really think that is not lying
When some issue arise that person who spoke every time suddenly become so much quiet
As if that one is most shy person in life as I think about this in life I always feel there is
One big list of such a person's in life who just never answer me and change subject in life
On every moment of my life I just wish from my mind that I get answers to my those
Questions which are important not just for me but also for others in life but sometimes
I feel that I am only person who ask that question again and again in life but then I just
Feel one thing in mind even if I am alone still I will not stop asking truth in life because
That question is so important to me maybe not that much important to other people in life
As their life went ahead they just seem to care for one thing that money and wealth other
Things don't matter them in life but then when I think from my deep mine I just feel one
Thing in life that they will not even get that money which is so important for them in life
Because when I start to ask question in life I feel just one thought on every point that in this
Thought and in this life we need to understand many things from mind first thought is that
We need to understand things in life we need to ask question from our mind we never help
Any one on any day of our future and our life I just feel one thought from my mind that
One each and every time those questions which we have raised in our life are those which
Finally enter inside our future and our life so on every point in our life those question are
Something so important for our life after all those question which are so perfect for our
Thoughts and for our mind I have just one thinking about life that when we start our thoughts
In our mind I just feel that those thoughts are so perfect on every day of our life because
When we start to ask question to our mind we just feel that those are just question of our life
But I feel after some time that if I wait for little some time these people will not get what
They want and slowly it will open their eyes how funny are those people who we met on
Every day of life that we just can't understand their thoughts about our future and our life
They just keep asking those questions inside our life but then on every moment in our life
Those questions which we ask in life are so complicated in our life that on every moment
We just feel one thing from mind that on each and every day of our life we feel just one
Thought from mind that when we think about those questions which hurt us in life we just
Feel them unanswered many times as we went ahead in our life we just feel one thing from
Our mind that we will win in our life but then as I think about it in life I feel those questions
Are not about me it is about every one in life but they just don't understand it now but then
I feel they will understand it after some time they just need time to understand that money is
Not just solution for every thing in life in fact until we don't find solution for each thing
Money never easily enter in your life for getting money you need to solve each question in life
Because before giving you money people will ask same question in your life they just frame it
In totally different way and totally different type slowly as days went ahead in life we just
Feel one thought from our mind that in our thinking and in our mind we need to get answer
For each and every question in life as our days went ahead on every time we just feel one
Thing from our mind we can get answer on those questions which are never perfect for
Our future and our life as we start going from one point to another point we feel that those
People can chat on other things as much as they like but one day they have to face same problem
And same question it will be interesting how did they handle it on that time but when I ask
That question in life I just want to stop that issue with answer in life I know that it will hurt
Someone again so much that I will feel that I need to understand that I just can't change
Destiny it will go in same way as it is going every time we can't change something in life
Those question will remained unanswered on many points inside our thoughts and our minds.

Poem 352. Old friend

                                                       Old friend
Whenever you see a old friend who is no more part of our world and future but still we feel
Happiness inside because they are those parts which happiness of our world so towards them
We feel a string of love we feel as if they are our that part of happiness from our past and
We can make it alive on every part because inside that world we just feel one thing that we
Have just one thought within those thinking which are making us happy on every moment
In our thought and our world after all our thinking is just attach to that thought of that world
Even if we are happy we feel what is bad in going back once again to that past which is
Nice for our world and sometimes I use to chat with those friends from hour after hour
After my past and those games which we use to play when we were not that big but we were
Just small children but then slowly I found what is most nice for my future I got that ambition
And which become passion for my world then suddenly I felt one thing from my mind that
Since I have landed as I wish I no longer want to go behind I feel that those childhood talk
Which we to please my mind are nothing but thoughts of my confused and frustrated mind
I just feel one thing that when I start live just as I like suddenly all things change in my life
Suddenly I felt why did I have to think so much about my past when I have that future which
I prefer and like and suddenly I felt that no more I want to stuck in that past which use to
Touch my thoughts and my mind as life goes ahead on every point I just feel one thing from
My thinking and from my mind that those thought which are so alive in mind began to capture
My thoughts and every thing from mind I don't feel at all that catch towards my past life
I mean  to say I still feel happy when I see old friend of mine but this time I want to chat to
That friend about my future and my present inside life but when our thoughts are such that
They are making us happy in our life then why did I need to go in that past which is no longer
Part of my future or part of my life because on every moment when I went ahead in life then
I just feel one thought from my life that on every moment in my life I went as I wish so
When I see my old friend I feel that I must tell that friend new things in life I just began to
Talk from every point in life which is present in life but my friend sometimes keep talking
About that past in life I just never understand why did that past don't seem so pleasant to
My thinking and my mind but then I felt maybe my good old past was nothing but just
A golden cage for my thought and for my mind as days went ahead on every point then
I feel that my friend can never understand those thoughts in life I am like free bird who is
Happy with what it got in today's life I no longer cry for that past which is behind in my life
I just want to keep my future as target of my life I know still I talk about my past but
It is just within some years of my life I never want to think how happy I was when I was
Small child because I am still happy on many points of life sometimes I get upset today
But sometimes I even use to get upset in my past life and sometimes I use to get depress
In my past even when I was child it is not true that I don't have bad times as a child but
I feel as if I have forgotten all those bad patch from my mind because as I walk ahead
On every day of life I feel that people are making me upset by talking about past life because
As life went ahead on every time I just feel one thought from my mind that every day of
My present is something I love to discuss in life and I don't like those people who began to
Discuss about that past which is far behind I feel as if they are once again caging me in
That golden cage of past from which I have just freed my thinking and freed my life and
I never want to go back again in that golden cage which just manage to trap us in that
Maze which tell us that our past is better on every point in our life so then I feel that
Maze which will stuck in our life so in life after all those past are something which are
Our thought so then our past and our present which are something is wrong inside our life
Since from every point in our life cage is nothing good but just bad thing of life so then
You feel sometimes happy in life but then suddenly I feel that past is something so
Important inside your life that my future become nothing before their eyes I just never
Understand one thing about my friend and their past is something important for our life
So on every point inside our life I feel just one thought that for me present is everything
And past is every thing for some friends in life so friendship then suffer from every side
I just can't convince my friend that past is some golden cage for me and you can't
Convince me to chat to past which is something so precious for your thought and not mine.

Poem 351. Walking

                                                      Walking
Some time while walking in life you may stop looking behind because this is your life
So you can always make some small mistake on every time those mistakes don't make
You that wrong in life we are all human so we all make mistakes on some part of our life
And our mistakes are something so important in life that on every day of life we just turn
And look behind to find that mistake in our life I feel many times we just gather all our
Mistakes because they are pointed by people around us in life and then we just can't
Find any route out of them inside life when we began to walk on every time we just feel
One thought from our mind that those mistake will keep us so middle in their circle for
Our entire life so we can't walk out of them just feel that we are surrounded on every time
Inside our life I just have one feeling that when I listen to other people I just have one
Feeling from my mind that those people with whom I talk are those who just showed me
All my mistakes and I just stored them inside life and then I just can't walk ahead because
I am too scared of everything inside life as I start to walk on every point I feel that I must
Understand one truth of life that those people who point out our mistake are making their
Own mistakes on every moment of life they just never understand those thoughts about
Mistakes on every day of life as I start thinking and going ahead on every moment of life
I just feel one thing in life that my mistakes are something so interesting for my life
Because mistakes are those parts of life which will take us ahead on every front of life
But that positive thought just vanish in air when I heard other people telling me how big
Was my mistake in life as days went ahead on every thought I just feel one thinking from
My mind that on every day I just search for my those mistakes which affect us in life
But then after some time I just have one feeling from my mind that I should keep everything
Just as I wish in life if I learn to ignore those criticisms in life because when I pay
Too much attention to them I feel just one thought from my mind that on every aspect
Of life I need to more attention to my future than mistakes in life because when we start
Looking at our mistake we began to feel that we can make new mistakes in life so instead
Of going ahead on every moment I just began to think about those mistakes in our life
Because our mistakes are something we feel so big for our life and on every moment
We feel a need to understand those mistake in life and then when we start a new thing
We just think about mistake on every point instead of doing that thing we feel that we must
Understand those thoughts in life those walks on which we make mistake are something
Not pleasant in life because on every moment I feel those mistake can be repeated by me
In life so instead of taking risk I feel that I am going backward inside my life and on every
Moment I just have one thought which tell us that we are on worst situation inside our life
As we went ahead on every moment of life we just feel one thought from our thinking
And from our life that we must ignore those mistakes and those who ignore them can only
Go ahead in life mistakes are part of our life and just thinking about them will not going to
Help us on every point in life because when we start to going ahead on every front in life
Mistake is that part which will stay with us for entire life I just feel one thought from my mind
That I must learn to ignore my mistake in my life then only I can see that beautiful sunshine
Which will take me ahead on each and every point I need to see those voices which are
Telling me from inside never scared of mistakes because you have done them from first standard
Of your life so they are most known things to you inside life so just keep on making them
And start learning from them as you learn as a kid so on every moment in this world and
On every point so mistakes can't avoided in life they will come with us as honestly as
Some dog who follows master on each and every time as we walk on that beach of our life
Tides of many things will come to visit many times so just go inside water without thinking
About drowning because this dog of our mistake will take us out of that water many times
Because when we make small mistake we just understand things on starting about life and
Then when we get skilled only on that spot we enter in that water of our life so on every
Moment just think one thing about life never consider mistake as enemy it is best friend of life
Because it is one thing which keep control on our ego as well as our pride inside our life.

Poem 350. Opposite effect in life

                                                  Opposite effect in life
How nice it is feel when someone took our side we feel that all human beings are understanding
Our side but how funny it feel when for many days we just stood on one side and then situation
Told us that we have to change our side from each and every front and thoughts in our life
I just have one feeling that I must change my side so from every front I don't want it to be
Perfect and nice inside our life on every point we just feel that we need many things in life
But when we feel that in exchange of them we are negotiating freedom of life on every moment
We feel that we are something totally wrong in our life when I have just one thought in mind
I feel on every moment that I have changed my side but how shocked I that when I stood
On other side there are not much people who stood with me in life but still I start to fight and
Then after some moment in our life I just feel one thought from my mind that every day future
Will have those thinking in my life which will ask me why did I remain stuck to old things
In our life but sometimes I feel that in life that understanding are something which are important
For thoughts in life because I just went in my life that way even when I know that I can't let
That way so easily in my life because on every moment I feel that this new beginning in life
Since from every point in our life I just have one thought from my mind that I can win in life
Until my thoughts become perfect for our future and for our life as we walk ahead on
Every spot in life so then I feel one thing in life because those thoughts which are nice
After all those new thoughts which are part of our future and in our life so then I think
That in life on every moment I have just one thought from mind because I want everything
To be perfect for our future and life I want to go ahead in life so then on every moment
I create castle in our life because as we start to think those thoughts which are perfect
For our life those thoughts are something so important for our future and our life since
Those thoughts are something I began to think which happen in life so then on every point
I feel that one thing is perfect for our life because those thoughts which are nice for
Our thinking in our life that I started thinking those thoughts which are nice for life so
When I start to enjoy those thoughts in my life I just forget all other thoughts from life
Which are first existed in life but then sometime I feel so funny is my life at first for
One purpose I started my life but then after some time in my life I feel just one thought
In my life so then I feel one thing from my mind those thoughts are something important
In our life because those thoughts are something totally perfect for life so then I went
That way for sometime in life since every thing look so nice in our life I feel that in life
I have just one thought in life but then things don't turn right way in life because then
After some time I feel that one thing in life that thing which I want to go ahead went
With totally wrong way in life as time went ahead on every point I feel that some people
When reach on top in life goes wrong way in life as we start walking from side to side
We feel one thing in life when we reach to peak we just stood there and those people
Began to try for benefit in life we never have selfish motives but these people are full of
Those selfish motives in life as we went ahead in life I feel just one thought in life so
Then I feel that in my life those thoughts are something which are important in life
Become useless for them and we just keep watching it for some time but that thing don't
Stop for long time after some moment we began to think that we must understand
That we are on wrong thought in life because those thoughts are something so unique
For our life because on every moment I just feel one thing from mind that those thoughts
Are something so interesting in our life because as thoughts are something so horrible
In our life because in life we need to understand those thoughts are something which
Are important for our life but then I feel those thoughts which are important for life but
Then I  think I must change things in life so I think that in my life I stood against
Same thing which I have helped to go ahead in life at first time feel it is okay but then
One day when I look at my enemy from every angle in life that I stood against my own
Thoughts in my life because suddenly I can see my own thoughts have opposite effect in life.

Poem 349. Pretend

                                                         Pretend
In the life why we have to pretend on each and every day so then I feel that in my life
In our life I feel one thing from each and every point I have to say I have to pretend on
Many points that my life is so perfect on every time even when some time I have sorrows
In our life because I feel that on many points in life since we are part in our life so then
I feel that I must think on every point in life I have those things which are not nice when
I feel that even in our life so I feel that on every moment in our life so I will like in life
But then I feel that something are precious thing in life after all those thoughts are in life
I have such thoughts out of our mind but then sorrows are hidden and I gave such big
Smile but then after some time in our life I feel just one thought from my thinking and
From our mind then suddenly I feel one thing in life because those thoughts are something
I feel that in our thoughts are something not so perfect in life we all know that on some
Problems in our life I feel that our life is something so important for our life but then
Sometimes we just pretend that we are happy even in our sorrows of life to make people
Happy in our life because from every point in my life I have just one feeling from my
Thoughts and from my mind I feel those sorrows are nothing but just something should
Not stretched but ignored in our life as our life went ahead I feel on every moment
And on every time that I need to forget our sorrows and our life because on every point
I feel that sorrows are something which are something so hard for our soul and life
Because sorrows should be something which are nice for our life those sorrows are
Something which are not nice for our life because on every moment and every time in
Our future and life I feel that forgetting sorrows will be nice for our life because as days
Went ahead on every time we just feel one thing from my mind that if I keep pretending
Some times that happiness is thing which look nice for our life as I went ahead on every time
Sometimes those sorrows were replaced by happiness in life as days went ahead on every
Thought I feel that we must forget sorrows as part of our life so when I pretend happiness
I feel it is okay for my future and for my entire life I have just one feeling on every point
That those sorrows which I gathered in life can be forgotten slowly from my future and
From my life on every moment I just feel one thing in my life that I can be happy if I
Forgot thought of sorrows on each and every point in my life on every point I have just
One thinking in my life I have forget those sorrows which seem so nice in life but when
I have something important in my life that is token of happiness even if it means pretending
That happiness inside life as we go ahead on each and every point I just feel one thought
From my mind that happiness is something good for our life I just feel one thought on
Every moment in my life that only if I have to pretend this way it is nice for our life but
Sometimes we even have to pretend sorrows inside life when we are happy to get something
In our life even some unknown person suffer some loss we need to pretend sorrows and
That time if unknown person die inside your life even if you see that person you will see
Those sorrows on every point I have one thought from my mind that those sorrows
Which we will gather are something not that important in our life as we want to go on
Every day of our life I just feel one thing from my mind that I don't want to bear sorrows
In my future and in my life on every moment I just feel that I can't cry I know that
Is not nice but how can for unknown person we can forget our happiness and cry
But this is truth of life just pretending happiness is not enough for our life sometimes
We even have to pretend sorrows and learn to cry on each and every time I feel just
One thought from my mind that those sorrows which we have are something so important
For our future and for our life that on every moment I feel that I just want to stay away
From those sorrows and store happiness inside my mind but I just feel one thing on every
Moment and on every point that those sorrows which enter in our life are something not
So pleasant for our thoughts and our mind we need to understand them on every moment
Of our future and of our life because those sorrows are something not much good for
Our future and for our life those sorrows are something which are not perfect for our life
But still they are something which look so precious for life and I just feel one thing in life
That those sorrows which we need to pretend are another truth of life which teach us that
We can't live alone we have to live with other person inside our future and inside our life.

Poem 348. Privacy

                                                       Privacy
Why sometimes people forget to give other people their privacy I feel many times I did that
Mistake in my life on many point and on many times as I went ahead in my life I just feel
One thought from my mind that when I see someone with emotions I just feel one thing from
My thoughts and from my mind that on each and every point we just don't give privacy to
Any one inside our life as days went ahead on every point we just feel one thought from inside
That our mind will just get confuse on every thought from mind we feel that we need to
Understand what we feel about life we just have one thinking from our mind that when some
Thing different come before us we began to feel curious in life as days went ahead on each
And every time I just feel one thought from my mind when I never like when someone ask
Me personal thing why did I observed those personal thing in life as days went ahead on
Each and every part of life because on every moment we just feel that we must observe
Things inside life which are so perfect for our future and important for our life as I think
About them I just feel one thing from my thoughts and from my mind that I want to look
In other thing because privacy seem like something of life because as days went ahead then
People began to think that I am interfering in their life since curiosity is some part which
Will return one thought from our mind because as days went ahead in my life I feel that
When I look others they just dislike it in their life but sadly with curious heart I feel just
One thought from my mind that curiosity is one thing which look so perfect for my life
But when due to it I look at others business I feel that I need to understand that curiosity
In life and on every moment I just feel that I have to look careful at everything in life so
As days went ahead on each and every time I feel that I should not look at others who
Are part of our life because those people who are important for our life we feel that just
When we look at those people we are doing wrong things in our life our privacy is just
One thing which is part of our future and our life when we keep looking at people we are
Doing wrong thing but it even feel right on sometimes when someone is in need we have
To understand that thinking in our life so on every moment I just feel one thing in my life
That we have one feeling from our thought and our mind those people who have gather
Around us are those who really want to help us in life but some people who gossip in life
Because after some days I just feel that those gossip are that part of our future and life
We need to understand when I have some feeling I feel that I am standing on totally
Wrong thought and wrong side because people who love privacy are those who need
To understand their own thoughts of life when we talk too much with each other we just
Feel one thought from our mind that our thinking will remain same on every angle of life
There are some moments when we just feel that we must go and see ahead what is
Happening in other people's life but on each and every moment in life I just feel one thing
Inside our mind I feel that those people who are discussing things are not business but
Still we just want to hear them in life so from point to point in our life I feel that those
Thoughts which are important in life that on every time I feel that those thoughts are
Something which take me on wrong I feel that I must spy on those people in our life
Because as days went ahead in our life so on every moment in our life I feel that I must
Think properly in our life we can always think positively in life because on every point
That I feel one thing in life they think that in our life I have one feeling that I must understand
Those thoughts in life but then as I went ahead in my life I feel one thought in our life
So then on every moment I just feel one thought about life that spying people is not good
For our life I feel that those people on whom I want to pay attention hate me because
I feel that I am doing it all for good in my life because as days went ahead in our life so
I think in life I never like spying in life because those thoughts are so wrong inside life
I feel that those people whom I pay attention may be something precious in their thoughts
And their life so busy while fulfilling that curiosity in life that I just feel that I have to be
Sadly every time needed to be reminded of it by their angry stares in life but then I feel
One thing from my heart that at least I stop by it but some people never stop it in life and
They are always worse for us still they are famous by their gossips inside their life even
If sometimes they are true and sometimes they are fully wrong and nonsense in side life.

Poem 347. Lose

                                                          Lose
Sometimes in life nothing seems perfect and the best because as we went ahead in life on
Each and every day losing is seem like something worth for our future and our life because
As days went ahead on each and every time I just feel one thing from my mind that on every
Thought in our life I have to think about those things which are not perfect in our life I feel
That those thing which are nice are not something so important to win in our life since on
Every day we feel that success is something so important in life that losing seem something
So impossible to accept in our life so on every point in our life we just feel that those thoughts
Of success are something just part of our mind we need to have those thoughts on each point
And we just feel that we have got them in wrong way in our life so when we start walking
Around in our life we feel that we must act perfect on every moment of our life because
When we walk on many ways and on many time we just feel one thought from our mind
That on every moment in our life we need to understand our special talent of winning on
Every time because as we go ahead and win something we feel that we just never want to
Lose in our life because losing will be such horrible thing in life so on every moment we just
Struggle to make things perfect for our future and our life so on every thought and on every
Point we just think one thing in life that on every moment we need something perfect so
That we will not choose after once winning in life because we can just see those tears of
Losers on every angle and every point we just see that appreciation we get when we win
In our life we feel so happy when people clap for you on each point that we want that
Clapping to continued on days as well as on nights so we just keep working until we get
Full exhausted in life we just keep going ahead from every point to point because as days
Went ahead on every moment of life I just feel one thought from my future and my mind
That every time when I win I feel more fear of losing in life and that's when I start to think
Those wrongs ways which I can use on every day of life I feel just one thing from my mind
That on every point in our life how can I just win on every day of my life but still when I get
Success I feel that it is necessary like breath in life so too much success give us those
Wrong signs which tell us that we will lose everything if we lose just on one time in life
We feel that appreciation will keep people with us and it will help us on every point so in life
That people will leave us alone behind and then we will remain shattered and useless for life
If we lose once in our life so I just feel one thing from my mind that losing become worst
Kind of thing and worst type of future for our entire life so on every point in my life I just
Feel one thing in life that as days went ahead in my life on every point I just think that
We just become too scared of failure in life we run after success and failures seem like
Some monsters of our life but sometimes my heart ask do you really think that those failures
Are that bad part of life I mean when it is bad one which harm our future in big way
I can understand that we feel that it is monster of our life but then when I think about it
In other way I just feel one thing in my life that on every moment I need to have my future
So perfect that I feel we must understand it in our life that without failures no one can get
Perfect future in life because those failures show us true friends and true enemies of life
They show us what we are searching on every day of our life I just feel one thing from
My mind that my future is perfect only when I get true friends and false friends leave away
My life and this never happen when we have success in our life all people just remain stuck
To us on every moment in our life as days went ahead on every point we just feel one thought
From my mind that we should have to see truth of this world only when we fail in life and
Then only we can learn to value happiness in life I know it seems nonsense but this is
Truth of our life those who get just success never feel that it is so great thing in life just like
Some singer singing is just normal thing in life they never feel how lucky to have it in life
Some people just feel same way about happiness in life they just don't thank god for it
And just store it inside even they are not ready to share it to those who are near to their heart
In life because they are so sure that it is not that special thing in life or they just store it
Because they feel it so hard to get it for entire future and for our entire life on every time
So when you lose you can understand life is not that hard for you in future or any time
So sometimes even losing is good and healthy for our future and for our perfect type of life.

Poem 346. Two poles of my mind

                                             Two poles of my mind
Sometimes it's future and sometimes it's past just in few minutes it changes from all part
That is neither book nor film which touch our heart we just feel one thing from every thought
Because on every moment from our heart we just feel one thing from thoughts that how
Different are our thinking about our heart when first scene changes into two I feel that
This change is something important for our heart but inside our life on every thought I just
Feel one thing from my heart that when thing goes wrong way in any part my mind started
Shifting for worst future and I feel so scared that I just push it towards my past on every
Moment in my life and on each day I just have one feeling in my mind on every way that
When I start from future and went towards past just want to forget my depression but
I am increasing it in every part we may feel our past is best but it is not the truth we are
Feeling this way because human being is not good at remember those dues which we are
Force to pay in our past and all those fights which we have win seem nice to our heart so
On every moment in my past I just have one feeling that I can't touch that heart when ever
I went ahead in my life I just see many things on every time I just have one feeling in my life
That my past will not help me and my future can't be bright but for forgetting it I just look
At with full hope towards my those days which are called past but they are something which
Are just taking me away from that problem which will manage slowly to reach the heart
On every day of life and on every time I just have one thought from my mind and from heart
That I can't win in life until I will manage to find those happy days which are nothing but
Just some part of past as I went ahead on every time I have one feeling in my mind that as
Days went ahead in my life and on life's each part I need to understand those thoughts
Which are part of my past I feel that in my life on every moment and on every time I need
To understand one thought from my heart that my heart want to keep me away from that
Hurting and painful part as days went ahead on every time from my heart I just feel one thought
That I need to understand that problem even if it was just a small part of present because
It is not something just part of past we can go ahead in life after leaving behind our past and
Until it knock on our door again we can relax in our life and in our life's every moment can be
Enjoyed until we are once again confronted by past but one thing you can't avoid that is present
But we are just seem running toward future from our past once our mind is on one pole of
Those thoughts then when we try to take it to present it forget past but run towards future
And start to think about them in every part I just feel one question from my heart do we have
Such bad present that we just can't stood near it on some parts but then I feel that our present
Is not bad but we have made one habit our mind to shift from one part to totally other part
It never like to stop on life's any part it jumps from one road to other road which are so apart
In your mind you can see summer and winter on same frame of heart how interesting is
That life's part when our mind manage to bring in our present our future and our past but
As days went ahead on every part we just feel one thing from our heart that future is something
That important for our heart and past is something so precious to our heart so these are our
So favourite gems but present don't seem to have become any thing's part why did we always
Complain about present when we never complain about past I just remember every day that
I always wished something different from my heart but problem is that I can say my present
Is nice but I saw some mind who just like past and when I sit with someone who just discuss
Our past I feel so irritated because I feel I like to remember my present and not just my past
So I am happy with what I got just because I taught that way to my heart but still I don't like
Those people who push me once again to that past but when someone start discussing future
I still get too much involved in future than present from my heart so on with many efforts
I manage to come out of those clutches of our past but still I feel that in my life I have paying
Too much attention to my future and from every thought and from every part I just feel one
Thing from my mind that those poles of thoughts are something which don't take us away
From our life's each and every part and instead of going ahead we fall in one deep well of
Our thinking as well as our thoughts on every part we need to understand those thinking and thought.

Poem 345. Heroes

                                                           Heroes
When I saw on that wall those picture who look so young and did so many things for
Our country I feel great and proud of them is one thing I always say to everybody but
Since you are my best friends let me tell you something when I see picture of those
Young dead hero they just manage to scare me my heart just put one question before me
Do good people need to die or just when they die we put them this way on every moment
And on every thinking because inside our life on our each thinking I just feel those pictures
Are looking at me accusingly but I just never understand why did people have to add
Always one thing that I am alive because they fight in my heart I just feel so hurt and guilty
If in life we need to give respect why did we need this way to respect thing why you need
To insult some one if you want to give that person some respect which is nice thing
But in life on every time and on every thinking I just feel one thought that people can say
They are brave person and then can tell stories of their bravery I can respect that person
From heart if they don't began to blame some one for that death on every point and on
Each and every thinking when we began to go ahead in life on every thought and on
Every thinking we just feel one thought from our mind that why with respect we began
Process of insulting on every day of our life we need to understand that when we respect
Some one then it will be so nice feeling after hearing that story will began to feel we must
Act like them and act with same bravery we are not maybe fighter but still we have many
Sort if duties if we do them honestly then I feel that is perfect bravery but when people
Began that blaming game they hardly advise that person to improve their attitude and
Their thinking it seem like from start to finish they are giving respect to some one they are
Just using their situations for their personal thinking so inside our life on every point
We just have one thought as human being do we give them even that respect for fulfilling
Just our personal thinking sometimes I feel we never even care enough for their wishes
And some time even for their families we just feel that they have died for our country but
Don't you think they also wished some money for their family when we do some work
In our life we wish that we should get paid properly but in case of those heroes we just
Say it is not about money my dear friends I don't agree with them because every one want
One thing that is happiness for that person's family so whatever may that person do in
Return that person always wants and demands some money just by saying that they are
Doing it just for our country don't you think we are too selfish when for our every duty
We want money then why don't for them we don't demand more money just by demanding
Those things which are impossible what are we doing is just showing we really care for
Those people and their sacrifice even if brave one dies still in heart that person will always
Wish money for their family no one can just want to die without helping their families so
When someone says that they are doing it for money don't just reject that idea demand for
More money my dear friend some people just understand pains when they feel more clutch
Of money or at least we can give some money to their families we must put those demand
Before world which can be done in our life just by saying nonsense things we are not helping
Any body as human being every one need one thing in life that is need of money and we can't
Bring back life nor we can guarantee life we can just guarantee those some money so just
Try to get that thing which is really important and possible to get for you or me just by saying
Those nonsense dream we are not helping any body  in life just choose those things which
Are possible for us to do and help some body by just saluting those pictures we are just
Scaring ourselves not helping any body help is thing when we did something important
For some human being just by talking tall we are not helping any body world can't be change
As we wish in our thinking but we can at least give secure future to some people's families
But I just hate when even those things are used for publicity I just feel from heart when
Those families were given help people should do these thing personally without showing it
To whole world and claiming that they are great human being because those who died are great
Those who gave them money are not giving their whole but just people's money to deserving
Person who really have value to receive that money giver is just one source that giver never
Have any value or any worth so why did giver get clicked by each and every body instead
Of doing it privately why did people do it so openly and with so much publicity to giver
That it seem like anyone hardly notice hero people just look at giver and clap for him as if
He was someone great when giver is not someone great in this case he was just no body.

Poem 344. Laugh

                                                        Laugh
When someone laugh at you why do we feel a shame after all making someone cry is crime
Make someone laugh is nice in world on every day we feel it because we feel they laugh
On our wrong things but I feel just one thought that I don't need to understand that thinking
When someone find something funny inside us if think that we are doing mistake then I feel
Maybe we don't need change it in this world because once we did that thing just remember
One thing by our thinking and your face that on every point you need to understand that
If you did thing by mistake or by choice and if you do it by mistake just laugh with others
Because act stupid on one day is every one's right but if you did it by your choice then
I don't think we need to change our choice because some people hate bright colours and
Some hate light and in life I really feel that some people laugh on that dress sometime
Because they feel it others just follow others to look perfect in life that is what I observed
Inside my life that on every day in life we just feel one thing that we must laugh on that
Matter but inside my mind many times I just like that dress in life I know hurting someone's
Thought is really crime but now a days people don't observe it but when some one dress
Just as that person's wish it become latest crime you can have your hand red with blood
But still you dress should be just proper then whole world will see just your dressing style
And then say what great person you are inside life and after seeing it we all feel in mind
That we must dress properly on every day of our life as our thoughts tell from each and
Every point we just feel one thing that we need to laugh and smile in our life but then
On every moment I have just one thought in our mind that we are on wrong side in life
Because in this world those who dress perfect get special respect in life it doesn't matter
What is past of that person in life those who dress like taxi seem so wrong in life even
If some one's hand are full of blood still people notice that person's dress that this person
Is so nice because you dress in just wrong style do you really want to impress those people
In life who will hurt them on every day and by every thought in life I just have one feeling
Inside our life that we must not think about how we dress we must think about how we
Think and talk in life as days went ahead on each and every point so I dress as I like
In my life after all what use of us if we dress just to please others in life when you try
To please someone pleasing becomes impossible in life because on one point some people
By small things while other people don't please by any thing in our life since we need
To understand those thoughts from our life we just feel one thing on every point in life
That we should dress or act as we like in our life because on some moment in our life
We just feel one thing from every side that we need to understand every thought of
Our future and life so then on every point those thoughts about dress which is nice
When on every point I feel that on every point that dress which is not perfect for life
So then those dresses which are nice in our life I feel that those dresses which are not
In our life after all those dresses which look so perfect in our life so I feel that
Dresses which are pretty and perfect in life since on every point that those dresses
Which are not perfect for some minds can bring nothing but smiles in life so when
Some people laugh on you just remember one thing in life that you are good and they
Don't have fashion sense in life you can act happily only when you treat yourself
Just as you wish in life if people can like just dress and don't care for hearts then
Why should we care for such people on any day of our future as well as our life
We all feel just one thing on every day of our life that our future will be perfect if we try
To understand that when someone laugh on us we can ignore it and we are not doing
Any crime in life smile is some thing precious and we have just give that gift to other
People who are part of our life and on each and every day I feel that we just want
Those people to remain with us on every day of our life then we must understand that
They will never understand us but we must not let them change our life because this
Life is so precious we can't just spend it on someone's choice and someone's advice.

Adventure story 39. Good Bye

                                                             
                                                                    Good Bye
Anjali was shocked when she received that letter.Sayali was clearly telling that she didn't want that job.Sayali was always wanted a good job.In fact Sayali was jobless for many years before finally she took that job.Anjali never liked her sister's job.She was a companion of an old rich lady.Her son and daughter appointed Sayali on this job.Sayali had to do nothing.She just stayed with that lady and spend time with her.Sayali's salary was very high so Anjali had doubts about that old lady's attitude.Anjali was sure that lady must be short tempered and irritating.It had to be true or why else they were spending so much money on companion.But Sayali said that lady was really nice with her.Still Anjali didn't like the nature of that job so she searched for a new job that would perfectly suitable to Sayali.When Anjali at first told Sayali about that job.She was very happy.But few days ago Anjali received a letter telling her.She didn't want to do that job.Shocking thing was that she didn't even phone.In place she received just letter.Anjali was shocked to see it.In today's world instead phone Sayali was writing letter.At beginning she thought it might be forged.But that she noticed handwriting was perfectly matched to Sayali so why did Sayali was doing such a stupid thing.Anjali was not going to let that matter go away such a quickly.She knew Sayali was forced to write that letter.But why?This was a biggest question for her.Anjali was offering Sayali a best job.In that letter she clearly wrote that old woman who was her employee was sick and lonely.She was like mother to her.She could not live her alone.Anjali was getting angry even by remembering that letter.Sayali was her sister and she never believe that she was living her alone for that old woman.What did in said in that letter.She was like a mother.When they had their own mother,why did she call someone else mother?It was impossible.Anjali was sure that something was wrong.She started calling her Mom.Anjali"Mom look at this letter.Can you believe it?Sayali will never write like this.She always loved us."Anjali noticed her Mom was crying.Anjali"Mom don't cry Sayali never write like this.""I know Mom.But Sayali was feeling so useless.She always wanted a job and she just went to meet that Indumati.""I never forget that horrible day.She didn't listen to anyone and just went to meet her.I wish that day.I had got some idea to convince her.But she went away.""Mom she didn't go away there willingly.Circumstances had force her to do so and I will bring her back.""But we can't force her."Anjali was stubborn by nature so she decided to go there means no one could stop her.Anjali's determination was so strong that she could do anything to get her sister so she immediately booked tickets.
          Next day Anjali and her mother took the train to meet Sayali.During the journey they both were equally tense and disturbed.After all they just didn't find any reason for Sayali to go away like this.But Anjali noticed that her mom was trying to hide something.Anjali didn't like her mom's attitude.Suddenly she thought that her mom must had received something which was she trying to hide from her.Anjali"Mom did Sayali tell you anything why didn't she want to come?"Her mother looked scared when Anjali asked her that question."No sweetheart she didn't tell me anything.But I just thought that may be she don't want us and went a head with her life."After hearing this Anjali got very angry."So you really believe that letter.Then may be we should take our luggage and get down on next station.I think better option will be return home and totally forget about Sayali.After all she got new mother so may be she don't need us?"After saying this Anjali started taking out their luggage.But her mom started to stop her.All the passengers in the train started looking at them in a strange way.Mom"Anjali stop it.Everyone is looking at us."Anjali looked around there were many people who were enjoying this drama.Anjali stopped doing it.Mom"We are going there to confirm that Sayali is fine and she is doing it intentionally.If that is truth,I don't like to keep any relationship with her.""Mom we can't leave her like this.She is my younger sister.""Now Anjali stop getting over sentimental.If she don't care about us.Why will we care for her?""But Mom she is so young.""If she is old enough to live alone with that creepy old woman and call her mother,she is old enough to understand what is right and bear with results.""Mom she is just..""I don't want this rubbish."Then her mom had started looking out of the window.She saw that her Mom was not ready to talk further.Anjali wanted to convince her that they had to give a chance to Sayali.But in beginning their journey Mom and Anjali spoke nothing.Whole time Mom was pretending to asleep.Anjali finally after some hours Anjali decided to change the subject.Anjali"Mom so what are you planning to eat for dinner?"Mom just stopped pretending and looked at her."Go and order something nice.But food have to be boiled."Then once again Mom started looking out of window.But Anjali put hand on her shoulder.Anjali"Mom look at me.Now don't act like that.We can't let our relation spoiled just because of Sayali.I promise.I act just as you said.I will never talk about Sayali and never speak her name.But let me confirm that she is not force to do it.""Forced?How?""Mom you can't tell.Sayali is young and innocent girl.She can easily get carried away.""What do you mean?""A handsome boy can do wonders.I mean that old woman must have arranged a boy to attract Sayali whom she had promised to stay with him all her life.That is true reason behind this letter.""What?Who told you that Sayali interested in some boy?""I can easily guess because at first time when I call her.She was happy.But when I told her job is near our house.She stopped talking for sometime and at that moment.I heard a voice of a boy who was screaming Sayali's name.Then she suddenly said that she had to leave.""My god!My small girl!We have to go there and had to solve the issue before Sayali get fully trapped."Anjali was happy that she at least convinced her Mom.After that they enjoyed their dinner.Then whole time they enjoyed every moment.Both of them intentionally avoided Sayali's subject.They knew it very well that when they reached on their destination.All joy would be destroyed.After all convincing Sayali and then bringing her back to her normal life was not easy task so they began to enjoy each and every moment.Those were their happy moments of life.
             Slowly their train started to stop on station.Anjali was quiet excited to meet Sayali.She took out the address and began to search the place.She was hoping to find that bungalow quickly.After all the rich old lady was living there.But no one knew anything about it.It was shocking for Anjali.Then her Mom screamed from behind"If you don't know where is her house.Why did you drag me here?""Mom don't worry.I will find out that bungalow."After that Anjali began to ask each and every person about bungalow.Finally she got an address but it was still hard to locate the bungalow.Whole time her Mom was blaming her.Anjali was so depressed by Mom's attitude.That she was on verge of crying.She was hiding her tears when Anjali saw that bungalow.She literally wanted to dance.Then they told watchman that they wanted to meet Sayali.Then Sayali came to gate.Anjali hoped a pleasant smile on Sayali's face.But that smile was vanished just after few moments.Sayali"You suddenly come here.You don't even phone."Anjali"You said.You don't want to come back so we decided to visit you.I hope you don't mind.""No,No.Not at all.I was just surprised.That's all."Mom"I hope your boss.Oh sorry.Your new Mom don't mind it."Anjali could easily convince her sister.If her Mom would stop making those sarcastic remarks,Sayali would easily get convinced by Anjali."Mom will you stop these kind of jokes?Sayali is taking them seriously.You don't want to hurt her.Do you?"There was a strange anger in Anjali's eyes after seeing them.Mom just nodded her head.Then Sayali took them inside.It was big apartment in a tall building which was just behind the bungalow.Mom was as shocked as Anjali.They both thought that Sayali was living in a bungalow was a big shock to them.Such a idea never crossed their mind.When they went inside flat.They saw that it was big and spacious flat.That old lady was inside.But due to their noise she came out immediately.She was a nice,simple lady who gave them sweet and soft smile.Then she started talking to her Mom.After talking to her Mom was convinced that Sayali was safe.Anjali was watching all drama.But she didn't want to interfere after all Mom couldn't get convince so easily.She always hated this lady.She always blamed her for taking Sayali away from her.But then she heard her Mom laughing sweetly on some stupid joke and Anjali was shocked.The old woman who was creepy and cunning for few moments ago was now Mom's friend.Anjali could see that kind of affection in Mom's eyes.Sayali was literally jumping with joy.Anjali began to think that finally Sayali won game and she was happy about it.Mom was now on her side.Then suddenly she thought that she was thinking it in very wrong way.It was not Sayali who was planning this.It was that old woman who acted this way and took hold of Sayali and her Mom.Anjali had to search a way to open their eyes.She just needed a proof and that moment a young driver entered in room and Anjali smiled happily.
           Then that old lady introduced that driver to Mom."This is my driver Raju."Anjali looked at Mom meaningfully.Mom quickly grasped it.Mom suddenly once again began to hate that lady so Anjali once again began to win.As soon as Raju left the room Mom asked"Did he stay with you?""Of course not!How can I permit that.After all Sayali stays with me.I can understand that it will harm your daughter's reputation.He stays in that small hut.""Thank god.I just don't trust these young men.""Don't worry about him.He is not as young as he looks.He is a father of two children."Anjali"But that don't make him a gentleman."That lady first time looked at Anjali."So you are Anjali.Sayali always talk about you."Anjali was confused to her this.Sayali was telling every thing to this unknown lady.Her whole trust on Sayali shattered.She never thought that Sayali would do backbiting like this.When she looked at Sayali.She saw Sayali clearly avoiding her eyes.Then Anjali started looking at that flat.It was not a big house.She always imagined a big house with majestic lady who impressed Sayali by throwing her money.But that old lady was not that much rich.Anjali was sure that money was not thing that was keeping Sayali there.Then suddenly she thought about the driver and she thought that she understand the problem.But married man with two kids was too much in her mind.She wanted to talk to Sayali.This house had two bedroom,hall and kitchen.In Mom's eyes it was a lot better that Sayali was living in a building with neighborhood instead of staying in separate bungalow.Whole time Mom just couldn't stop admiring Sayali's boss.Anjali was got tired of hearing that.Finally Sayali and Anjali got some time alone in a room because their Mom was talking to Sayali's boss and ordered Anjali to unpack clothes.That old lady ordered Sayali to help her.Anjali"Sayali What's wrong?Why do you want to stay here?""Because I care for Madam.""Lie.A one big lie.I know you like that driver.""Are you mad?""Now you are calling me mad.I will teach you a lesson."Anjali started going out.Sayali tried to convince her to stop.It was useless.She came out."Mom I think Sayali loves that driver."After hearing her voice that driver's wife who was actually a cook there came out.She started looking angrily at Sayali.Sayali"That's not truth.She is mad."The cook"I don't believe you.Why your sister will lie like this?""Because she is mad.She wanted me to stay with her for whole life.She can do anything to take me back.She want you to argue with your husband.Then Raju will leave this job and you also quit.Finally Madam will get angry with me and throw me out of here.She always acted this way.She wanted everyone to be under her control.""I don't believe you.You are right.I will quit this job."Sayali tried to stop her.But she didn't listen to Sayali.Now Anjali started screaming"Now you saw it clearly Mom.His wife also believed me.I was telling the truth.""No.She believed on your lies and you had destroyed her married life.Why are you doing this?Why do you want Sayali back?""Because I want my sister back.She is so stupid.How lucky she is to have me.She is planning to marry that driver.But I stop her on time.""That's enough.We are going back.""Yes Mom.You are right.Come on Sayali pack your bags.""No.Sayali will stay here.You are coming with me.""Mom are you out of your mind?You can't let Sayali stay here with this old creepy lady and look at this house so much down market.No Mom.You are as stupid as Sayali. Come on Sayali."She started pulling Sayali's hand.But Sayali forcibly freed herself."So you are going to insult me now.Then go to hell.Anyway you are always below you as nurse and servant.If you want to spend whole life in taking care of this old woman as you wish.But you are going to be busy in future,you have to do lot of work.Imagine things you have to do when she don't able to walk."Mom"Enough Anjali.Let's go."Then Anjali throw her hair in such a fashion as if she didn't care.Then she went in her room to get ready.After all she needed three hours to get ready."What is wrong with your daughter?"Mom and Sayali both started crying.Finally Mom spoke"She is suffering from Narcissistic Personality Disorder.She always thinks she is the best.She always taunted Sayali about it.That was the main reason Sayali took this job.But her sister's job was also too low for her.She convinced me.That you are treating Sayali badly and I got convinced.I knew that I made a mistake.I am sorry.""It's alright.But why don;t you take her to doctor?""I tried.But just after some months she stopped the treatment.I don't think I can cure her.But I want good future for Sayali so she will stay here.If you agree to keep her,it will be biggest favour on me.""I just love to."After sometimes Anjali came out with bags."Mom let's go"and she went out like a queen.But Mom looked at Sayali.There was tears in her eyes when she waved good bye.You can do anything for your loved one.Sometime even say them good bye for their good future.
                                                             The End

Poem 343. Human

                                                          Human
Have you ever  feel something is just part of you and you just can't live without it in life
Because it is everything for then I hope it is some art or it is some book I just feel one thing
From my heart that those things will stay for entire life with you as days are something
Which are part of our future and part of our art then I feel that those art will be something
Which are something not suitable for your art or can remain with you for entire life then
I feel that in our life how much that art and book are best for me but then I think about
Person who think some person is something without which they hardly manage to live
I feel that it is something horrible thing that in our life we want some light which is help me
After some days and after some time I just feel one thought from my mind I feel that
In life on every moment we feel that those art and book are nice but if we keep a person
On that place and then how will I feel that when that person don't like me I just feel
That person is good for me I think that thinking will just manage to destroy me so on
Every point in my life on every thinking I feel that attaching those people to that point
That on every thinking of this life I feel that those people who are attached to every point
Inside our life those people will become our life but in case of art and many books in life
They don't have those feeling which we can have in life it is possible in any case may
It be your parent may it be lover or may it be your child each one have their life and sadly
Have their choice so for them how much you may devote your efforts or time some will
Just throw you away from their life as soon as it is possible for them in our life as days
Went ahead from time to time I just feel one thing from my life that on every moment
In our future and our life we just feel one thought from our mind that we are totally tense
In our life because on every point I just feel one thing from my mind that on every moment
In our life I have just one thought in my life that human can never help me in my life
Because since our thinking become some important of our life and human being have their
Own thoughts which may not help us every time they can become best companion or
Adviser in life but on them depending our life is never nice from every point in our life
I just feel one thing from my mind that our thinking can't be same on many times and
Even if we are lucky and we got right relation in life who have given us guarantee of
Their death and life our life goes ahead on every point so I just feel one thing from mind
That we are  totally wrong in those thoughts of life because we can't go ahead on
Every point in our life because on every moment in our life I have something important
In my life that those thoughts which are perfect for our life are something related to things
In life I just feel one thing that art is something better and important that human in life
Because if person dies we can't stop our life we need to go ahead on every moment in life
And I just have one thing in my life that on every moment in my life I need to understand
People and their thoughts on every time in life I feel that when something bad happen
And then they go away in life things like art and books stay away in life so never ever
Let your heart to be dependent on someone human is life even our own shadow vanish
For some time may be you have spend for them days and nights and maybe during
Their sickness you stay awake many times or maybe you have given them respect which
Is great in your eyes and you have care about them before your self in life still one thing
Happen in our life that on every point you will just think since I care so much for that
Person this person will care more for me inside our life I feel that something happen
That person in our life so on that point in our life I feel that on our life because those
Things which are important part of our life since those books as well as art in our life
Are just things so we want feeling in life but if you ask me I suggest you books and art
Are best because human being can't promise you anything in life because they never have
Any hold on their thinking as well as on their life so on every point they just feel one thing
From their mind that they can never win inside our life as days went ahead slowly
After some time inside life and we feel that art and books are better since even if one person
Left us we have many commitments so we for just one person we can't left this world
And life so when you give importance to one person slowly it will destroy your honesty
In your work and commitments which we have inside our life we gave from time to time.