Saturday, February 28, 2015

Adventure story 178. To replace the wife

                                                           To replace the wife
When Raja was watching sky and clouds with full concentration, he just wanted to forget every thing and just wanted to remember his happy days. He just never wanted to believe that this was happening in his life. He felt as if he had living in bad dream. Yesterday his wife Ritika died. He still remembered clearly that she was sleeping with him in their bedroom. She just woke up in night and told him that she was feeling acidic which was so common for her. He just felt that she needed to take medicine due to eating wrong and spicy food of that hotel. She was feeling sick but even she was convinced that it was just due to that food. It was tasty but at same time it was so much tasty. They all wanted to keep eating that food. Even Raja felt that his acidity was increased. That food was so hot and spicy as well as delicious which would look great. They smelt it and started eating so it was clear that it was due to food. After all they were enjoying family dinner after so many years. Both girls were excited. It was due to Raja who never had free time. He was always busy with his work. He just wanted to spend some time with family. But they didn't have time in life to understand things. He was always busy. That day he decided to enjoy everything so they didn't control themselves. He felt that food was doing worst effect on him. It was showing heartburn. He felt that it was reason behind all. When food was too much oily and spicy, such things happened. That food was looking. When Ritika told him that it was hot and spicy, due to that interesting taste she ate it too much. She decided to take medicine of acidity. Then she went to sleep. He looked at her. She was really looked fine. He never remembered her taking her hand to heart. He never remembered her complaining about pain in heart. She just went to sleep. He felt that everything was fine. He still didn't know if she died in peace or she felt pain. She might had tried to wake him up but she couldn't able to do that. He just dreamed those things. It was creating worst effect on him. He felt so much guilty from inside. He felt just one thing that if only he had not slept deeply. Then he would had noticed that something was wrong with Ritika. He decided one thing that he must never sleep so deeply now. It would had some wrong effect on him. When he tried to sleep on bed, he just remembered his carelessness. He would get so much upset. He just couldn't sleep. He was getting restless on every point. He just couldn't able to take rest. On every minute he felt one burden on heart.
         When Raja went on bed, he just began to look at ceiling. He was so sure that he would not get over it. But he sensed that he had to hide it. He wanted to cry when he suddenly saw his girls entering in his bedroom. Pinky " Dad we are feeling so lonely without Mom. Can we sleep in your bedroom with you?" Raja saw that Annie was also standing with her. Of course his daughter were feeling scared. It was his duty that he should help them to sleep. Pinky and Annie needed him. He smiled and told girls "Of course you can sleep with me." When he said it, then he hugged Pinky and Annie. Both girls smiled and cried in their arms. He first time felt that he was not becoming nice father. He started one thinking in mind. That he had to replace Ritika. He took out a book to read story for girls. But they stopped her. Pinky "Dad!! Mom use to read stories to us when we are just small kids. Now we just sleep. You don't need to do any thing. Just relax and sleep." Then they both went to sleep. Pinky and Annie went to sleep peacefully. It was hardest sort of task. He didn't able to sleep. When life would had crisis, that crisis were leading to lot of troubles. Raja never imagined that in one day his life turned completely upside down like that. He just kept looking and it turned into something totally different. He started thinking once more about his mistakes. He just never understood that why would life became so hard. He just couldn't able to find those faults. He just kept thinking on every point with one hope. That he had to find faults. He didn't slept. He kept looking at his daughters. He was observing their breathing. Those daughters were sleeping peacefully. But he knew that their breathing could stop on any moment just like Ritika. He had slept on that day. If he had kept watching Ritika's breathing instead of sleeping. He could had saved her. He just felt that he murdered his wife. He wanted to cry but he couldn't. His daughter were sleeping and he had to observe Pinky and Annie. Both girls were sleeping on bed. He had to keep watch on them. He was so scared from his heart since on every point he had to keep watching those girls. Pinky and Annie both were sleeping nicely. They must had felt safe with their father. But their father Raja was not feeling safe at all. He was feeling so afraid. He was not going to sleep now. He decided that he would remain awake. He kept looking at ceiling. Slowly his eyes became heavy and he started falling asleep. He didn't want to sleep but he just couldn't control. He went to sleep. Slowly he fell asleep. He went in his dream world.
        When Raja woke up, he was so shocked from inside. He had slept whole night. He couldn't believe it. He looked around. He slept peacefully for whole night and he looked around. He looked at that side of bed where his daughters were sleeping. But they were not there now. He was so scared. He slept and lost his daughters also. He started screaming their names. He was screaming at top of his lung. Suddenly his daughters came running inside, he screamed on them "Where did you went? Don't you understand that you are not suppose to act like that? You have to wake me up before going out of room." Then both looked scared and started crying. Annie "Dad we are preparing breakfast for you."" Breakfast?!! But you are not suppose to go near gas without elder." "But Dad we don't use gas. We just toast bread and put jam on it." Annie" Then we made some lime water. I  don't even use knife. Pinky was permitted to use knife to cut lemon so she cut it. Then we put it back on shelf." Raja sensed that he had over reacted but still he didn't want to take risk. Raja " Okay.. Okay but from tomorrow you will do first thing that is to wake me up." "Okay Dad sorry. But we want to go to school today. We are not feeling so lonely without Mom in home." Raja started thinking if he should send them. His wife had died just on yesterday. It seemed so wrong that he send those girls to school. But then he sensed that he would not able to pay that attention to them. He had to do many arrangement like some baby sitter who would stay with girls when he went on job. This all looked so wrong. He never trusted any one with girls expect  Ritika. Now he had to trust some unknown baby sitter. It was so hard. His world suddenly began to look worst to him on every point. He had one feeling that he needed to adjust without Ritika but in his heart he knew that he couldn't do it. He loved her. He never felt it so much until now. When she was gone out of his life, he suddenly began to feel that he needed her like water and breathe. He never had time to think about this until now. In his busy days he always took her for granted. But now she was gone. He wanted to cry and for that he had to send his daughters to school. He told them to get ready. He decided that he would meet their class teacher and took her advice regarding it. He knew that they had to stay at home for at least three days. But that home had turned in worst place due to absence of Ritika who never left them alone like that even for few days. Ritika was devoted mother and perfect wife. Raja never thought about thanking her regarding it. He always thought that he could do it during retirement age. He would compensate it. But now Ritika was gone. He would never able to do it. He wanted to cry. But he had to drop girls at school before it. He just wished from heart only if he had some relative to take care of them. But it was not possible because he was only child and Ritika's Brother stayed in U.S. who just came and then immediately had to go back. He didn't had any help. His parents or Ritika's parents could had helped him. But they both were not alive so he was all alone with limited help. All other relatives just came and went away and same applied to neighbour. World was no longer that much helpful place for him.
           When Raja reached to school, he sensed that he made mistake because every one was just full of sympathy which managed to upset them more. Girls began to cry. Even he could say anything, class teacher told him that his girls could stay at home as long as they want. It was understood between the lines that it would be for week. Raja had to agree with principal and then they went back to home. Raja sensed one thing that he was not in his sense. How could he just act that way. He should not take his daughters in school next day after his wife's death. But at that moment he felt that it was good idea. He knew that he could arrange something after some days. But he was doing every thing in wrong way. Even girls were looking at him with confusion when he came out and took them with him. Pinky "We are not going in school? " "Of course not. You can't go in school so early. You have to wait for at least three days. Don't you understand that it doesn't look good?" "But Dad we feel so scared and upset at home." "I am there with you. Then why did you feel that way?" Small Annie started crying. It was clear to him that he was not turning in good sort of father in life. Those girls were looked really scared of him. He just never realized when this happened. Raja "Are you scare of me?" Pinky smiled. "No..No.. Dad not of you. We are scared of ghost. ""Ghost? Whose ghost?" Annie "Mom's ghost." Pinky " Yes Dad. Mom died with incomplete wishes so she must have turned into ghost." Raja was so shocked. He never heard such a nonsense. Of course he heard but never believed it that much. He performed all rituals with just one wish that it would keep his mind relaxed. Raja thought that he could use it now. Raja "But we have performed all pooja so her soul will be gone in heaven now." But it was all wrong. Those girls didn't looked convinced. Those girls would look so upset. Pinky "No Dad she is still wandering in house." "Why do you feel that?" "Yesterday Annie was playing with her toy and then she felt that something was behind her door. She went there and just on that moment. She heard Mom's voice. Annie looked so much upset." "She had imagined because she was so upset by her mother's death. " "No. Dad you have to understand our thinking. Even I have seen something in life." "Like?" "Dad Mom put my things on it's place. She was taking care of my things." Raja couldn't help it. He started laughing. Raja "Your Mom came from heaven just to pick your toys. It is not possible." "But Dad it happened." Raja felt on that point. It was just their childish thought.
       But then at every point Raja had one feeling. That something was strange in house. When next day Annie came running in his room and told him that Mom was calling her. He tried to convince her. But she didn't agree. Finally he decided that he would go with her. As soon as he entered, he clearly heard voice of Ritika. He was so shocked. Annie hugged him. He just ran around room. But when he started searching that voice was gone. Then after some minutes he remembered that he had not seen Pinky. Then he heard scream of Pinky. He ran in that room. All the books from Pinky's room were thrown in different directions. He was shocked when he noticed a note of mirror. That hand writing was just like Ritika's hand writing. In that note it was written that Pinky had to do homework. Raja was so confused. He didn't believe that it was ghost. He just felt that it must be some thing else. Then from that day every night girl started sleeping in his room. Even night he felt tense that something would happen to girls while sleeping. But one thing just kept happening. They kept hearing Ritika's voice. Raja performed every rituals but nothing helped. It was so strange. Annie and Pinky were getting scared on every night. Finally Raja decided that he couldn't let girls live like that so he decided that he would put them in hostel. He started searching for hostel. But then Pinky came in his room one day and told him "Dad I feel we have to change this house. I mean how can you just stay alone in this house. Don't you feel that it will be scary?" "Don't worry sweetheart I will manage." Pinky smiled and then Annie hugged her. Annie couldn't able to go in hostel since she was too small to get admission in hostel. Annie was expecting admission from hostel. But they rejected her so she had to stay. Until last day Pinky was hoping that Annie would go with her. They hoped that she would taken as special case. Finally Pinky went away and Annie stayed with Raja. Raja started living his daily life. But still he didn't got over his fear so he began get worst dreams. Finally his body began to show this. Then one of friend suggested counsellor. Raja went there for few days and started feeling okay. Everything was back to normal. Raja was sure that everything was fine. Until one day he suddenly received call from Pinky's hostel. They told him to come immediately. When he went there, he had to take Annie with him. He was tense whole time. One thing was clear that Pinky did something totally wrong. But he just never able to guess how much wrong did she acted. When he went in principal's room and told his name. One thing became clear that some thing was totally wrong with Pinky because there was sympathy in those eyes. Then in few moments one of teacher took Annie with her. Raja sensed that trouble was coming. Then that Principal slowly told Raja that Pinky was pretending that she was her Mom. Raja was so shocked every thing made sense now. He was upset that he was so busy in his mental problem that he hardly noticed one thing that since Pinky went to hostel. Annie never heard her Mom's voice. Raja "So what shall I do?" "Take her to psychiatrist." "I had went to counselor for treatment after my wife's death. Shall I take her to that one?" "Great do it immediately." When Raja phoned that counselor, who immediately told him to come with Pinky. Pinky looked fully normal to Raja. But inside his heart he was so scared and she would did some harm to Annie. When he reached in his city,he immediately took her to counselor. At beginning Pinky looked upset when they went inside there. Then slowly Raja sensed that what was wrong with his daughter. She started telling him in Ritika's voice that if he did took her to house. She would not tolerate this. Annies started crying. Luckily nurse heard those voices and came out who pretended Pinky that she was on her side. Then she took Pinky in room and gave her juice after drinking it. Slowly Pinky started feeling sleepy and she slept. Then counselor came in room who advised that Pinky should admitted to hospital immediately. Raja did as he told. Then finally he got chance to talk with counselor. Counselor "Due to stress of her mothers sudden death Pinky is suffering due to personality disorder. She was becoming her mother on some moments when she feel that she needed her mother." "Is it risky for others? " "Of course not. She is your wife who loved you and Annie so she just cared for you. So nothing is bad in her.Don't worry she will be fine." Raja nodded. He went out but in his heart he was so scared of his own daughter. He just hoped one thing from heart that he would get over it. After all he was only support of his daughters. Annie was his hope and Pinky was his crisis. But as a father he had to treat them both in same way. He just decided that he would do it. After all he was mother as well as father of them. Pinky was pretending to be Ritika but he had to replace Ritika. He knew that he didn't like it. In fact he would hate it but still he had to do it. He decided that he would replace Ritika for his daughters.
                                                                  The End

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