Forgiven
Lora heard loud screams from her son and she came out running.Lora"What happened?""Mom look at T.V.Look what are they saying?Just see Mom.."Her son Hiten was getting hysteric by something.Lora never saw her son in this style.After hearing his screams his younger brother came out with his grandfather.His father-in-law was always crossed about everything.He never liked noise.Lora always hated his too much discipline.Lora always wanted some free life but she never got it because her husband Ramesh was only son.He couldn't run away from responsibilities.Even Lora didn't want to act that way but her father-in-law Yogeshji was always so inconsiderate.She wished that he stop screaming on kids like this.Yogeshji "Why are you screaming?You are a decent boy.Not some vagabond from street.Don't you learn from your parents screaming like this is wrong thing.What shall I say about such nonsense? Boys always learn things from parents."Yogeshji was looking at Lora pointedly.Yogeshji"Lora tell your boy to shut up.Lora so strange name.How can parents keep such a name?"After saying this Yogeshji started going inside when Hiten screamed once again"Mom look at T.V.They are saying Papa's building is collapsed."After hearing this everyone ran to T.V.Her younger son Rohit started crying.Yogeshji"Stop crying.This is not way to behave.Your father is fine and even if he is killed.You should not cry like this.Look at me.He was my last support but still I am not crying because it is wrong."Lora"Why are you saying 'was'.My husband is alive and fine.Before Lora could argue further Hiten came near her."Mom let's go.We must go there."Lora nodded.Then suddenly Rohit hugged Lora and said"I want to come with you.I don't want to stay here."Lora was nervous now.Then Hiten suddenly spoke"Come on.We can't take you but we can drop him at house of Auntie."Lora felt relieved.Of course it was best idea.Her sister Manisha would surely help her.She could take her brother-in-law with her.After all it was a lot better than taking Hiten with her.Hiten was just college going boy so she nodded.Then they ran out from house when they began to go.Yogeshji started screaming"Tell me what happened?I am tense.You know how horrible is this age..."Then he started his emotional drama.He started making sounds and crying.But they didn't had time to waste on him so they ran out.
It was so horrible for them.Lora was continuously talking to her sister and her sister was trying to console her.According to news it could be bomb blast on some floor.Lora was literally shivering with scare.She couldn't imagine her life without Ramesh.She was so upset.She couldn't take responsibility of two boys on her own.Then she remembered her father-in-law.Suddenly whole situation turned into worst.She was so sure that she couldn't survive without her husband.But then she looked at her sons.She knew that she had to manage it for them.She was crying but she didn't want to make any sound because she could clearly saw that her boys were scared.Hiten was acting like some elder but still it was small for bearing all those responsibilities.He needed his father and that was written on his face.But still Lora had to adjust with circumstances.Finally Lora reached at her sister Manisha's house.Her husband was ready to go.They immediately took out their car but when they reached near that place.They were not allowed to go near.Lora was continuously screaming that her husband was inside.But it missed useless.They were just waiting for many hours.Hiten was greatest support to her.She was glad that she brought him with her.They were waiting far away from that office and police were just pushing them away from location.She was so angry.She wanted to abuse every one.But finally a kind constable came near her and asked her"Mam are you searching for your relative?""Yes.My husband was inside...""I will tell you name of hospital and it's number.Go there.Survivor or dead both are taken there.""My husband can't die."Then Lora felt that there was large crowd around her.She was so lot in her pain that she never felt that she was surrounded by people who were in same situation.They just wrote down that address and ran.Lora was so panicked when she understood that she could not brought pen and paper.But then she noticed that her brother-in-law wrote it all on paper and then they went inside car.It was their worst journey.She couldn't help her self.She started crying.
When she reached in hospital,it was worst place.There was voice of scream and crying.Lora just didn't dare to look around.She didn't want to face any known face.But then suddenly she felt a hand on shoulder.It was Ramesh's friend.Lora"Where is Ramesh?""I don't know but our boss had just died and all people who were in conference."He was crying.Lora"Was Ramesh in that conference?""Our boss died on spot...""But what about Ramesh?"Ramesh's friend was so shocked that he seemed to had lost his sense.He just continued telling her useless details of death and seriousness of all other colleagues.Lora was about to scream on him.When she noticed that Hiten was screaming loudly.She saw that Hiten was sitting near some man who was sitting there like some statue.Then her brother-in-law also started calling her.She could sense happiness in his voice so she began to feel little relieved.But when she reached there,she was so shocked.Her husband was sitting there and crying.When Lora sat near him,he looked at her and smiled.He hugged them.Lora noticed there were cuts on his body which needed to treated.Lora"Why are you here?Doctor should treat you.""No..No.Don't disturb them.I am fine.They are helping people who are fighting with death."Lora nodded.Then she looked at Ramesh.He was right.There was blood on his clothes.But that blood didn't belong to him.Any way she wanted to take him away from there as soon as possible.She decided that he could be checked by private Doctor so they started to going out when they saw media was surrounding them.In fact every one who was wanted to go out was stopped by media.Then finally hospital staff showed them other gate and they went out.It was so horrible.But she was relieved that her husband was safe and sound.Still she was confused by one thing.That Ramesh was not talking anything.
When they reached home,her father-in-law was waiting at door.Yogeshji started screaming on everyone because they didn't inform him.Whole society was stood there.Lora was so ashamed but she was confused.Then finally they went inside.After going inside Ramesh just went to his room.He was so quiet.It was really scary for Lora.She wanted him to tell her everything.Finally Ramesh spoke"Will you give me clothes?I want to take bath."Of course Lora just forgot it.After all his clothes were full of dirt so Ramesh went inside to take bath.Lora could easily guess that he was crying inside.He wanted to cry but his ego didn't let him cry before his wife.This was taught by his father.It was wrong training in Lora's eyes but perfect training in Yogeshji's eyes.Lora wanted him to express his emotions.But she knew before Yogeshji's training her efforts were useless.Then finally Ramesh came out.He was still not relaxed.Lora"Are you okay?"She expected "Yes."because Ramesh never accepted his weakness before her.Her guess proved right.He just nodded and went to sleep.Lora went out to serve food after all every one was so hungry.When she went out and gave foods to kids.They began to ate it.Everyone was nervous except Yogeshji who was continuously speaking about himself.How he handled all things.When Lora knew that her father-in-law had not done anything,but he always claimed that he did everything.When their food was over and they began to go for sleep,they all heard that scream.They all ran to room.When they entered,Lora was shocked to see that Ramesh was screaming in strange way in bedroom.She saw that his hands were moving in strange way.She was holding her fingers tight and he was moving from one side to another.She just didn't understand what to do.But before she would come forward,Yogeshji began to scream on Ramesh.
It was so horrible.Ramesh was already scared by that dream and Yogeshji was screaming on him.Yogeshji was blaming him for his cowardice and how easily he should get scared about nothing.Yogeshji was telling him that he was not even scratched then why was he creating such big issue.Lora wanted to stop Yogeshji.She went near Ramesh and started patting him.But Yogeshji began to scream more and more.Ramesh was now so upset.Lora didn't understand that how should she handle it.After some time Yogeshji stopped screaming and went out of room.Then Ramesh started crying loudly.After that it became every day incidence.Ramesh started having those nightmare every day and Yogeshji started his screaming on each day so finally Lora had to fought with Yogeshji to stop it.That was worst day of their life.First Yogeshji started insulting Lora.But then Hiten also began to take Lora's side.Then Yogeshji started insulting Lora after some time even Rohit started talking against his grandfather.Then Yogeshji slapped Rohit.Lora had it enough.She went in her room and started packing bags.She knew it that it was hard to adjust because Ramesh was working in another office now.But still he was not perfect emotionally.But she knew that it was her only chance to survive.She couldn't survive with her father-in-law.Ramesh didn't say anything just went with them.Finally on that darkest night she went to stay with her parents.It was worst moment.On next morning her sister Manisha came with her husband.Ramesh was just quiet whole night.Her brother-in-law"There will not be much problem in getting place.We can always arrange it.After all Ramesh had made saving."It was true.Ramesh always saved his each rupee.It was one good habit taught to him by his father."But I am concern about him.Just look at him."They all looked at him.It was true.He was looking miserable.He looked like Zombie.
Ramesh was looking strange.Lora knew it's reason.He was not eating properly and sleep was far away.But Lora felt that since Yogeshji was not here. She could able to handle Ramesh more easily.Lora"Actually he is not eating properly.""Why?Ramesh tell me.We are friends.We can discuss things.""Actually I have nightmares every day ...""What kind of nightmares?""Actually when we are stuck in that building.Every one was in that room.But when I was told to go out to toilet,I went out of room.Then there was loud voice fire and smoke started coming.I want to help other but still I have to go out.We are just four people in toilet.We are on third floor.But I know there was a ladder which was kept by construction workers.I told everyone that we have to remove glasses because it didn't have AC so glasses could be removed.Luckily there was no fire on that side.I had opened that window and we started climbing from that ladder.While coming down I saw it all ,we were lucky that we could walk down.From each floor people trying to break that windows and to came near ladder.But they couldn't because windows were locked.Then I saw Madam Neena.You remember her"Ramesh turned to Lora.Lora"Of course she was the one who gave us money when Hiten was six years old and needed that expensive operation.What she was inside?"Ramesh nodded."She died before me.I wanted to help her.But can't.How can I help her?I got nothing to break that window.She was calling me.I can feel it from her lip movement.She expected that I would help.But I had to go ahead.When I went down she smiled.I think that she must had thought.I would bring some help.Then when I reached down.I saw that building collapsed.I did a wrong thing.I didn't deserve to live."After that Ramesh went in room.Lora was so shocked.Lora"That woman was angel.How can god kill her?"Then Lora also started crying.
Many days went but still Ramesh didn't show any improvement.Then once again her brother-in-law came with her sister."I think we shall have to visit psychiatrist.""But Ramesh is not mad."Manisha"So you want to wait until he turn mad.Look at him.He need help."Lora finally nodded.Then they took Ramesh to psychiatrist.Ramesh told him details of that incidence.Then psychiatrist asked"Do you know anything about Madam Nina's family?"Ramesh looked guilty."Come on.Tell me.""She had two daughters and they both were financially secure.They were crying.I want to help them.But I am not that financially secure.But sometimes I think that I am not that poor.""Then you might help them.You can't be rich but you can help them in your own ways by giving them small gifts with lot of affection.You can always try that."Ramesh nodded.Then psychiatrist told"This is post traumatic symptoms.They are very common in such incidence.After some days counseling your husband will be fine."Lora nodded.Ramesh went to psychiatrist as per appointment then he even went to Madam Nina's daughter with his whole family.He told them everything.But they said"Uncle it was not your mistake.It was our bad luck that we lost her."Ramesh felt so relieved.He felt as if Madam Nina had forgiven him.From that day they made those girls part of their family.Slowly they started coming to them every day.One day in morning Ramesh came out for breakfast and smiled.Ramesh"Lora You know what happened to day Madam Nina came in my dream and said she had forgiven me because I didn't have option and just want me to take care of her daughter."Then Lora turned around.Ramesh was shocked to see that it was not Lora.It was Madam Nina's daughter who wore Lora's dress.She smiled and said"Of course.You are forgiven.My Mom will never blame you.In fact she just hoped that you could help.In fact that day she phoned me while that crisis and told me that she told you to take care of us.You would come to help us and you came."Now Ramesh understood that what was Madam Nina screaming towards him.She wanted his help."First time there was not any guilt in his eyes.
The End
Lora heard loud screams from her son and she came out running.Lora"What happened?""Mom look at T.V.Look what are they saying?Just see Mom.."Her son Hiten was getting hysteric by something.Lora never saw her son in this style.After hearing his screams his younger brother came out with his grandfather.His father-in-law was always crossed about everything.He never liked noise.Lora always hated his too much discipline.Lora always wanted some free life but she never got it because her husband Ramesh was only son.He couldn't run away from responsibilities.Even Lora didn't want to act that way but her father-in-law Yogeshji was always so inconsiderate.She wished that he stop screaming on kids like this.Yogeshji "Why are you screaming?You are a decent boy.Not some vagabond from street.Don't you learn from your parents screaming like this is wrong thing.What shall I say about such nonsense? Boys always learn things from parents."Yogeshji was looking at Lora pointedly.Yogeshji"Lora tell your boy to shut up.Lora so strange name.How can parents keep such a name?"After saying this Yogeshji started going inside when Hiten screamed once again"Mom look at T.V.They are saying Papa's building is collapsed."After hearing this everyone ran to T.V.Her younger son Rohit started crying.Yogeshji"Stop crying.This is not way to behave.Your father is fine and even if he is killed.You should not cry like this.Look at me.He was my last support but still I am not crying because it is wrong."Lora"Why are you saying 'was'.My husband is alive and fine.Before Lora could argue further Hiten came near her."Mom let's go.We must go there."Lora nodded.Then suddenly Rohit hugged Lora and said"I want to come with you.I don't want to stay here."Lora was nervous now.Then Hiten suddenly spoke"Come on.We can't take you but we can drop him at house of Auntie."Lora felt relieved.Of course it was best idea.Her sister Manisha would surely help her.She could take her brother-in-law with her.After all it was a lot better than taking Hiten with her.Hiten was just college going boy so she nodded.Then they ran out from house when they began to go.Yogeshji started screaming"Tell me what happened?I am tense.You know how horrible is this age..."Then he started his emotional drama.He started making sounds and crying.But they didn't had time to waste on him so they ran out.
It was so horrible for them.Lora was continuously talking to her sister and her sister was trying to console her.According to news it could be bomb blast on some floor.Lora was literally shivering with scare.She couldn't imagine her life without Ramesh.She was so upset.She couldn't take responsibility of two boys on her own.Then she remembered her father-in-law.Suddenly whole situation turned into worst.She was so sure that she couldn't survive without her husband.But then she looked at her sons.She knew that she had to manage it for them.She was crying but she didn't want to make any sound because she could clearly saw that her boys were scared.Hiten was acting like some elder but still it was small for bearing all those responsibilities.He needed his father and that was written on his face.But still Lora had to adjust with circumstances.Finally Lora reached at her sister Manisha's house.Her husband was ready to go.They immediately took out their car but when they reached near that place.They were not allowed to go near.Lora was continuously screaming that her husband was inside.But it missed useless.They were just waiting for many hours.Hiten was greatest support to her.She was glad that she brought him with her.They were waiting far away from that office and police were just pushing them away from location.She was so angry.She wanted to abuse every one.But finally a kind constable came near her and asked her"Mam are you searching for your relative?""Yes.My husband was inside...""I will tell you name of hospital and it's number.Go there.Survivor or dead both are taken there.""My husband can't die."Then Lora felt that there was large crowd around her.She was so lot in her pain that she never felt that she was surrounded by people who were in same situation.They just wrote down that address and ran.Lora was so panicked when she understood that she could not brought pen and paper.But then she noticed that her brother-in-law wrote it all on paper and then they went inside car.It was their worst journey.She couldn't help her self.She started crying.
When she reached in hospital,it was worst place.There was voice of scream and crying.Lora just didn't dare to look around.She didn't want to face any known face.But then suddenly she felt a hand on shoulder.It was Ramesh's friend.Lora"Where is Ramesh?""I don't know but our boss had just died and all people who were in conference."He was crying.Lora"Was Ramesh in that conference?""Our boss died on spot...""But what about Ramesh?"Ramesh's friend was so shocked that he seemed to had lost his sense.He just continued telling her useless details of death and seriousness of all other colleagues.Lora was about to scream on him.When she noticed that Hiten was screaming loudly.She saw that Hiten was sitting near some man who was sitting there like some statue.Then her brother-in-law also started calling her.She could sense happiness in his voice so she began to feel little relieved.But when she reached there,she was so shocked.Her husband was sitting there and crying.When Lora sat near him,he looked at her and smiled.He hugged them.Lora noticed there were cuts on his body which needed to treated.Lora"Why are you here?Doctor should treat you.""No..No.Don't disturb them.I am fine.They are helping people who are fighting with death."Lora nodded.Then she looked at Ramesh.He was right.There was blood on his clothes.But that blood didn't belong to him.Any way she wanted to take him away from there as soon as possible.She decided that he could be checked by private Doctor so they started to going out when they saw media was surrounding them.In fact every one who was wanted to go out was stopped by media.Then finally hospital staff showed them other gate and they went out.It was so horrible.But she was relieved that her husband was safe and sound.Still she was confused by one thing.That Ramesh was not talking anything.
When they reached home,her father-in-law was waiting at door.Yogeshji started screaming on everyone because they didn't inform him.Whole society was stood there.Lora was so ashamed but she was confused.Then finally they went inside.After going inside Ramesh just went to his room.He was so quiet.It was really scary for Lora.She wanted him to tell her everything.Finally Ramesh spoke"Will you give me clothes?I want to take bath."Of course Lora just forgot it.After all his clothes were full of dirt so Ramesh went inside to take bath.Lora could easily guess that he was crying inside.He wanted to cry but his ego didn't let him cry before his wife.This was taught by his father.It was wrong training in Lora's eyes but perfect training in Yogeshji's eyes.Lora wanted him to express his emotions.But she knew before Yogeshji's training her efforts were useless.Then finally Ramesh came out.He was still not relaxed.Lora"Are you okay?"She expected "Yes."because Ramesh never accepted his weakness before her.Her guess proved right.He just nodded and went to sleep.Lora went out to serve food after all every one was so hungry.When she went out and gave foods to kids.They began to ate it.Everyone was nervous except Yogeshji who was continuously speaking about himself.How he handled all things.When Lora knew that her father-in-law had not done anything,but he always claimed that he did everything.When their food was over and they began to go for sleep,they all heard that scream.They all ran to room.When they entered,Lora was shocked to see that Ramesh was screaming in strange way in bedroom.She saw that his hands were moving in strange way.She was holding her fingers tight and he was moving from one side to another.She just didn't understand what to do.But before she would come forward,Yogeshji began to scream on Ramesh.
It was so horrible.Ramesh was already scared by that dream and Yogeshji was screaming on him.Yogeshji was blaming him for his cowardice and how easily he should get scared about nothing.Yogeshji was telling him that he was not even scratched then why was he creating such big issue.Lora wanted to stop Yogeshji.She went near Ramesh and started patting him.But Yogeshji began to scream more and more.Ramesh was now so upset.Lora didn't understand that how should she handle it.After some time Yogeshji stopped screaming and went out of room.Then Ramesh started crying loudly.After that it became every day incidence.Ramesh started having those nightmare every day and Yogeshji started his screaming on each day so finally Lora had to fought with Yogeshji to stop it.That was worst day of their life.First Yogeshji started insulting Lora.But then Hiten also began to take Lora's side.Then Yogeshji started insulting Lora after some time even Rohit started talking against his grandfather.Then Yogeshji slapped Rohit.Lora had it enough.She went in her room and started packing bags.She knew it that it was hard to adjust because Ramesh was working in another office now.But still he was not perfect emotionally.But she knew that it was her only chance to survive.She couldn't survive with her father-in-law.Ramesh didn't say anything just went with them.Finally on that darkest night she went to stay with her parents.It was worst moment.On next morning her sister Manisha came with her husband.Ramesh was just quiet whole night.Her brother-in-law"There will not be much problem in getting place.We can always arrange it.After all Ramesh had made saving."It was true.Ramesh always saved his each rupee.It was one good habit taught to him by his father."But I am concern about him.Just look at him."They all looked at him.It was true.He was looking miserable.He looked like Zombie.
Ramesh was looking strange.Lora knew it's reason.He was not eating properly and sleep was far away.But Lora felt that since Yogeshji was not here. She could able to handle Ramesh more easily.Lora"Actually he is not eating properly.""Why?Ramesh tell me.We are friends.We can discuss things.""Actually I have nightmares every day ...""What kind of nightmares?""Actually when we are stuck in that building.Every one was in that room.But when I was told to go out to toilet,I went out of room.Then there was loud voice fire and smoke started coming.I want to help other but still I have to go out.We are just four people in toilet.We are on third floor.But I know there was a ladder which was kept by construction workers.I told everyone that we have to remove glasses because it didn't have AC so glasses could be removed.Luckily there was no fire on that side.I had opened that window and we started climbing from that ladder.While coming down I saw it all ,we were lucky that we could walk down.From each floor people trying to break that windows and to came near ladder.But they couldn't because windows were locked.Then I saw Madam Neena.You remember her"Ramesh turned to Lora.Lora"Of course she was the one who gave us money when Hiten was six years old and needed that expensive operation.What she was inside?"Ramesh nodded."She died before me.I wanted to help her.But can't.How can I help her?I got nothing to break that window.She was calling me.I can feel it from her lip movement.She expected that I would help.But I had to go ahead.When I went down she smiled.I think that she must had thought.I would bring some help.Then when I reached down.I saw that building collapsed.I did a wrong thing.I didn't deserve to live."After that Ramesh went in room.Lora was so shocked.Lora"That woman was angel.How can god kill her?"Then Lora also started crying.
Many days went but still Ramesh didn't show any improvement.Then once again her brother-in-law came with her sister."I think we shall have to visit psychiatrist.""But Ramesh is not mad."Manisha"So you want to wait until he turn mad.Look at him.He need help."Lora finally nodded.Then they took Ramesh to psychiatrist.Ramesh told him details of that incidence.Then psychiatrist asked"Do you know anything about Madam Nina's family?"Ramesh looked guilty."Come on.Tell me.""She had two daughters and they both were financially secure.They were crying.I want to help them.But I am not that financially secure.But sometimes I think that I am not that poor.""Then you might help them.You can't be rich but you can help them in your own ways by giving them small gifts with lot of affection.You can always try that."Ramesh nodded.Then psychiatrist told"This is post traumatic symptoms.They are very common in such incidence.After some days counseling your husband will be fine."Lora nodded.Ramesh went to psychiatrist as per appointment then he even went to Madam Nina's daughter with his whole family.He told them everything.But they said"Uncle it was not your mistake.It was our bad luck that we lost her."Ramesh felt so relieved.He felt as if Madam Nina had forgiven him.From that day they made those girls part of their family.Slowly they started coming to them every day.One day in morning Ramesh came out for breakfast and smiled.Ramesh"Lora You know what happened to day Madam Nina came in my dream and said she had forgiven me because I didn't have option and just want me to take care of her daughter."Then Lora turned around.Ramesh was shocked to see that it was not Lora.It was Madam Nina's daughter who wore Lora's dress.She smiled and said"Of course.You are forgiven.My Mom will never blame you.In fact she just hoped that you could help.In fact that day she phoned me while that crisis and told me that she told you to take care of us.You would come to help us and you came."Now Ramesh understood that what was Madam Nina screaming towards him.She wanted his help."First time there was not any guilt in his eyes.
The End
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