Arpita's house
Arpita was so happy to find her new house. It was so pleasant. She knew that she was just tenant but still it was wonderful to have much a big house. It was all her own. She looked towards different rooms. They were so big & enormous. She began to look around that house was so pleasant. She wanted to feel such positive for long time. But she never felt that way. She began to get stressed in that small house. She wanted big one. It was not possible to purchase it so she decided to rent one. She needed a big house. She wanted to arrange big house for her. She started to admire that house. She began to look inside house there were different rooms. She watched different rooms which would have different decorations. She watched every room very carefully. It had different colours & pleasant looks in each room. They had unique look in them. She was walking around so happily. She knew that she was wasting her father’s investment but she didn’t care. Her father never permitted her to enjoy her life & she wanted to enjoy it. She had one odd feeling in her heart. She felt as if her Dad would still object. Then she started to laugh at that thought. She was so happy that finally she began to look around house. She started to feel rent was worth of every rupee. She began to sense happiness in thoughts. She started to arrange different things in rooms. She didn’t needed to throw away anything now. She was planning to fill her things with reasonable rates. She was planning to arrange rooms in reasonable rates. She was going to arrange things with pleasant articles. She began to place things with nice interior. She was so happy. She had just few mattresses. She sat on it. She slowly opened her mobile. She began to choose furniture on stores available on internet. She began to arrange all in her mind . She wanted to make her house perfect. Then she stood up again. She kept looking in different rooms of house. It was her dream world. She began to look in different rooms. It was so pleasant. She kept watching that house. She knew what she supposed to place in those rooms. On that point she shivered. She sensed some one was behind. She turned & sound of laughter started to spread in her empty house. She was so shocked. She knew that she didn’t need to assume any ghosts in this house since it was totally normal house. It never had any history of hauntings. Then she sensed what happened. She had watched too many shows of supernatural or ghosts due to which this was having. Her mind was playing with her. She just decided to ignore that voice. She sat peacefully on mattress & on that point suddenly she heard angry voice from next room. Someone was calling her name. Arpita ran in that room. She was so shocked when she saw her father standing before her. Her Dad “ You took away my money without asking me. How could you do that?” She was so shocked. She said “ But you are dead?” Her Dad started laughing & who told you that.” She didn’t understand. She was so sure her Dad was dead & she owned all property. She said nervously “ I mentioned it in world..I mean Doctor told me. There is death certificate.” Her Dad screamed “ Show me.” She shivered. She didn’t understand. She was so sure her father was dead & she got all inheritance. She began to spend it too. But suddenly he was alive. She slowly said “ I just rented this house that’s all. I didn’t waste more after it.” Her Dad gave one look to house. She didn’t want to faint but suddenly entire earth began to move as if some earthquake was happening. She needed to hold wall for stopping from falling down. Her Dad was looking towards her with such a anger. She began to see redness in her eyes. She started to get nervous about it. She never understood how could her Dad’s eyes became red like that. Her eyes never looked that way. Her eyes always looked same. She tried to avoid eye contact with her Dad. She was so scared. He might come towards her. She just sat on mattress peacefully. She suddenly sensed that all her dreams were shattered. She couldn’t settle down as she wished. She just said “ Sorry.” She was waiting for her Mom to join them. But her Mom didn’t appear. She asked “ Where is Mom?” Her Dad said “ She is gone dead! She is no longer coming. You need to do all.” She wanted to argue but she couldn’t. She didn’t understand why her voice was not coming out. She tried so hard to scream. It was shocking. On that point she suddenly felt that she lost her balance. She tried to stand to avoid fall & she sensed that she was sleeping on ground . She looked around. She was in her old room. She was sleeping on her mattress. She looked towards wall. She noticed her Dad’s photo frame which was garlanded by artificial flowers. So he was dead. But she was still in her old house. She planned to get rid of it but it wasn’t working. She was too scared to try. She had odd fear that someone would object. She was too scared to get help. She might ask for help from neighbour but it wasn’t going to work. She knew that they never took interest in her. She was always alone. It was due to her Dad. He never permitted her to talk. She felt so upset. She needed to develop her friendships but it never happened. She was so scared. She took deep breath & controlled her fears. She began to feel positive about entire incidence. Her Dad was dead so her nightmare could became true. But then she wanted that house but it was not possible even to get one. She needed to feel hopeful about her future. But she couldn’t find such house in reasonable rent. She decided that she would go around next day & try to find one. She told herself that she didn’t need to worry she would find one nice house soon. She just needed to check for right one. She told herself that & she closed her eyes. She started to dream about pleasant houses which would create hopeful atmosphere for her. She began to feel positive about them. She could dream anything after all no one was going to charge money on her dreams. In dream she could shift in old palace & enjoy her life. She could live it with positivity & hopes.
Arpita woke up in next morning. Her house didn’t seem so promising. She wanted to forget all negative but it kept coming in her mind. She went in kitchen. She observed what she needed in kitchen. She began to arrange all food items. She stored them in house. She looked towards budget. Budget of one person was not so big. She needed to buy different things if she had more people in her house. But now she was alone. She was glad about it. She didn’t want any one as company. She began to search for someone who could rent that special house to her. She was sure that she needed to find one house & that was enough. Her life was depended on that house. She knew that house would bring happiness to her heart. She needed to find that house. She began to dream about it daily. She wanted pleasant house. She started to think whom she should call. She began to think about her neighbours. She felt that she needed to try. She opened door. She went out. She stood before mirror & smiled. She began to watch her face. She could see her every feature carefully. She needed to look positive for getting help. She prepared herself perfectly. Then she slowly went out. She looked towards her dress. She watched herself in mirror but she looked beautiful. She slowly rang doorbell. One girl opened door. She didn’t recognise her. But then she didn’t recognise anyone from society. She spent her entire life locked in her house. She didn’t care much about people who lived around her. Today she needed them so she was planning to try to talk. But that girl had odd sort of angry expression. Clearly that girl was not interested in talking with her. It was upsetting but most upsetting was that thought which told her no one in that house wanted to talk with her. She slowly asked “ Can I meet your Mom?” “ She is not at home.” Now Arpita was confused. Arpita continued “ When your Mom will come? “ “ I can’t tell.” Arpita nodded. That girl was not interested in giving further information so Arpita said “ Bye” & went away. It was so frustrating. She needed help to sell her house & buy new one. She returned in her house. She began to feel so sad. She didn’t understand what she supposed to do. She suddenly felt as if she wanted to forget all & go to sleep. She felt so nervous. She was so scared of this house. She kept as if her father was following her on every move. She was not alone. She went in kitchen began to cook. On that point she heard voice of TV. She didn’t understand from where. She looked behind. She knew that she had not turn on TV. It was clearly noise of TV. She began to shiver. Her Dad was dead. But she began to feel so scared. She started to remember when he used to come in kitchen. How much she hated it. He used to abuse her Mom. She never showed her fear but she was scared. She used to shiver. She began to feel as if entire room was getting cold. She wanted to feel courageous but she was feeling cold & scary. She began to wander in that house. She didn’t understand what she was searching for. She didn’t understand. She heard that TV shows voice but it was clearly not inside her house. Her Television set was closed. She didn’t understand why she was nervous about it. It could be from neighbour but she was concerned. She was upset about that voice. Then she slowly smiled & told herself that life was normal. She needed to do cooking. She once again started to cook. She finished it. She didn’t understand why she was so nervous. She was alone in her house. She was okay. She still kept looking for something which might upset her. She began to feel that she needed to get rid of this old house. It was bringing back memories. She sensed one thing that shifting house was not so easy. Then she suddenly got one idea. She could book some tour. Then she could enjoy her time away from home. She knew one nice Tourism company. She decided to go for tour of just ladies but when she began to search she sensed that she could find some group which would include her. She began to chat with few. But soon she began to get uncomfortable. She was single woman so majority men were taking interest in her. She didn’t want to start dating. She wanted to enjoy her trip. Finally she found one widow who wanted to travel with her kids. They chatted with each other & Arpita felt relaxed without much thought Arpita started to give her details & she was about to give away her address when she suddenly felt some suspicion. She told that lady to email her address. That lady immediately agreed. She immediately made excuses & stopped chatting. She felt so nervous. She began to read emails one by one. They were just useless one. She didn’t understand what those investment meant for her. She spent her entire life just in fear. Now she wanted to just go for tour. She kept waiting but that lady never sent email. She finally went for lunch. She once again returned but no thing came. She began to feel scared that this lady might had selected another partner. She once again began to chat but immediately that widow typed “ Sorry I am not interested.” She was so upset. She typed “What happened?” That Widow didn’t write anything. Soon she sensed that she was not going to get any answer now. She didn’t understand what was her crime! Why everyone was treating her that way? She began to cry. She just wanted to go out of that house & relax for sometime. Sadly it was not happening. She felt so upset by entire situation. She went back to TV & began to watch some thing. She had not used TV for long time due to her Dad so she didn’t had interest in any routine program. She soon got bored. She wanted to built her life but she kept feeling that someone was still pulling her behind & it was her Dad. She knew that he was no longer alive but still she kept feeling as if she was there. She started to cry loudly. She began to sense that even after his death still due to him. She was losing all. She was so weak. She couldn’t stand strongly any more. She felt so upset.
Arpita began to feel so nervous. She decided to book some holiday package of wonderful tour. She got dressed. She didn’t even looked towards her neighbour’s house. She went outside on road luckily by that time it was already evening so temperature was okay. She looked around. She started to search for some tourism’s agency. Finally she found one. She smiled & went inside with confidence. Step by step she sensed that she was not feeling relaxed. There was one lady who was telling her all with full affection & in charming way. She wanted to control her emotions but she couldn’t. She suddenly began to cry. Slowly all people in Tourism company began to look towards her. That lady became nervous. “ What happened Madam?” Then one senior gave that lady angry look & asked “ What happened?” Arpita controlled her tears & said “ I am so sorry. My Dad just died so I want to forget about him. I want to forget him so I want to go out.” They all started consoling her. They all assumed that she was crying out of love towards her Dad. No one sensed that she hated her Dad & wanted to forget his existence. But then one Customer came. That Customer sat beside her. “ I am Doctor. I don’t feel you can get over sorrow this way. It’s risky you might get nervous break down during your tour.” Suddenly entire staff began to look tense. That Doctor gave one card to her. “ You need to call this psychiatrist.” She was so shocked. “ I am fine.” She began to walk away but that Doctor forced that card in her hand & said “ I know but you might get breathless or you start to feel as if your walls are closing on you. Then you need it.” She started laughing. She was so sure that she wouldn’t get upset. She began to feel so relaxed. She was so sure that she was perfectly normal. She decided to go for some shopping. But whenever she turned towards any shop she began to get tense. She didn’t want to purchase that thing. She knew that no one was in home to scream on her but still she was scared. She was so upset. She decided to not purchase anything & went back in her home. She was so nervous. She didn’t understand what was happening. She was so tense. She decided to return home. She immediately started walking towards home. Soon she literally began to run. Finally she went inside building. She ran towards her flat. She sensed that her neighbour was watching her when she went to ask for help they were too busy but now that same neighbour was watching her with full attention. She began to get restless. She was started to reach home but after sometime she began to sense she was feeling so uneasy. She began to feel strange in her stomach. She felt that she was going to vomit. She ran in washroom. She kept just feeling uneasy. She didn’t understand what was wrong with her. She began to sense that she couldn’t eat anything. She decided to sleep on empty stomach but then she felt that it would make her acidic. She felt that she needed to eat food. She went in kitchen & started cooking. Once again she began to feel same nervousness in her soul. She was so confused. She suddenly remembered that card. Her Dad was not alive & there was no one who could target her or abuse her. She began to feel restless once again in her mind. She suddenly heard voice of TV. Her neighbour was watching TV with loudest voice. She tried to control her negativity. But it was not happening. She began to shiver. She had enough. She called Psychiatrist. That Psychiatrist talked pleasantly. She got one appointment after four hour. She felt so lucky. She stopped cooking. She began to get dressed. Entire time things kept falling from her hand but she kept trying. It was so frustrating. She finally got dressed then she locked house. She began to call Auto. After sometime she managed to catch one. She was so happy. She suddenly began to feel one hope. She wanted to get over her fear. She went inside. She was early. She just sat. Then Receptionist told her to go. They managed to adjust her in one early appointment. She went inside & immediately she told about her Anxiety. Psychiatrist discussed it for long time. At beginning she didn’t feel much hope but then when she told about things she could do to reduce Anxiety she started to feel hopeful. She began to feel positive. But it was temporary on that moment. She returned home. Slowly she managed to concentrate on cooking. She began to remember positive side of her life. She started to feel hopeful about it. She smiled happily. After much long time she was happy. She sensed one thing that she needed to remove fear of her Dad from her heart. Her Dad’s death didn’t going to solve that issue. She began to start her dancing steps. Her Dad abused her when she tried to dance. Her Dad didn’t like it. She decided to call her dance teacher. She called & asked “ Can I get part as side dancer? I don’t want money I just want to dance.” “ But you have wasted so many years of your youth!” “ I know but I still want to start again.” Her teacher didn’t say anything for long time then finally her teacher gave timing & place for practice. She started practising in her house. She selected a Balcony for practice since she didn’t want to upset neighbour by her noise. Just her house had Balcony on that side. She began to dance for hours. She suddenly entered in her own world. She was so happy. But then someone from other flat complained “ You are doing too much noise. Building fall down due to it.” She felt so nervous & she immediately stopped dancing. Once again she felt caged in house. Voices of her father started to disturb her. She called Psychiatrist. Psychiatrist said “ Do you have Garden or empty place in society ground?” “ Yes!” “ Go & dance there. They can’t say you will cause earthquake.” She laughed. Then she started dancing in area near garden. It had tiles so she didn’t get hurt by stones. She began to enjoy it. Slowly step by step she began to feel more & more normal. One day she took part in dance show on stage. She began to go in every charity show. She came free of cost so they invited her. She started to enjoy it. She kept going to Psychiatrist too. Slowly she started to feel so much better. One day finally Psychiatrist told her to stop her treatment. She began to live her life normally. Now she didn’t try to shift from that house. She just managed to make suitable changes in it to suit herself. She didn’t feel scared of her negative memories. She learnt ignore them. Most importantly she took one room of one hall on rent for few hours where she practiced her dance daily. She knew it was lavish but she wanted to dance so she did. She didn’t care what people felt. She learnt to dance in her style with her own steps.
The End
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