Shamita's fault
Shamita was so happy. She started to look around in nature to see it’s beauty. It was so nice. She started to feel sense of movement of wind. It was so pleasant & positive in atmosphere. She came out of her house after so many days. She looked around in bushes. There were such pleasant flowers. She was spending her days inside her house due to work for such long time. She deserved pleasant feeling of happiness. She was arranging all for her daughter’s wedding. She knew that it was her duty. She arranged all. She didn’t remember how many shops she managed to wander in search of proper goods. She got every item which was needed. She began to feel positive when she sensed that finally it was over. She knew that she was mother so she needed to do all. She had done all properly too. She was so happy that finally it was over. She could take breath of relief. She wanted to feel positive about all. She didn’t understand why she was feeling still upset. She kept looking towards her mobile. She tried to smile but still something was hurting as if she was still missing something. She told herself everything was just fine. She turned her attention to flowers once again. Their beauty was enchanting. She felt strange pleasure in her soul. She wanted to feel hopeful about all. She needed to feel positive. She began to think about her childhood. She was so happy during those times. She kept thinking hopefully on each step. She didn’t understand what she wanted but her heart was feeling restless. She began to smile with hope. Her dream was getting painful now. She knew that she was no longer child. She tried to feel refreshed since she was going to smile & live her life happily now. Her restless thoughts were causing discomfort to her. She needed to feel positive towards all. But her heart was feeling so upset. She started to look towards nature. Her daughter was married & her in-laws were dead so she had no responsibility now. She could walk freely & relax. She started to feel positive. She began to look around with pleasant thoughts in soul. She knew that she needed pleasant thinking. She needed her life back. She started to walk on road. She didn’t understand what was happening to her. She was not so comfortable in walking on road. She was feeling so upset. She kept looking down. She was so scared that her feet might get stuck & she would fall. Actually nothing like that was happening but still fear was there in her heart. She felt so restless. She told herself that she was totally fine. She didn’t sense how long she remain just inside house. Of course she went out for shopping but it was always in car. Her daughter Reva used to tell her on every step what she supposed to do. Shamita did all. Shamita never dared to disobey Reva. Reva was so important in house. It was all about Reva. She was only child & only heir, Shamita had just one daughter. She never took chance after Reva. Her husband Samir was interested in second chance. But she didn’t see enough financial strength. She needed to take care of all. She didn’t have earning & Samir was earning so limited. She managed all with her hard work when Reva was child. At least she felt it. But now she was confused. Her family felt that she was just useless person. Reva kept screaming on her & telling her that she needed act properly. Shamita tried her best but clearly it was not enough. It was so stressful. Shamita wanted positivity in her life. When Reva was in house whole time she kept moving just as per Reva’s wishes. Shamita supposed to fulfil every desire of Reva. She supposed to move ahead positively while hoping one day Reva would appreciate her. But sadly it never happened. Reva hated her always. Her in-laws were never affectionate too but they were a lot better. Shamita did all for them. She felt so happy when they appreciated her during end of their life. She sometimes started to think about it. She suddenly began to think about her past. Before Samir she used to date one boy. He was boxing champion of her college. She was so happy when first he asked her out. But it was not much promising since next year she took different subject & he took different. Sadly she never able to meet him. But still she was hoping that he would come to her. She was calling him. He was talking nicely on mobile but he never discussed date. But one day one girl took her call. That girl was sweet & bubbly. Even by style of her talking Shamita could sense it. That girl told Shamita about her engagement. Shamita was shocked but then that boxing champion came on call & invited her on his engagement as his best friend. She agreed. But on that point she sensed need of her boyfriend. She told her parents that she wanted to marry. Soon they found Samir. She was in such hurry. She needed one life partner with her on that engagement. Samir was perfect. Samir was good looking & also nicely educated. His family was not so rich but it was not visible so Samir was perfect. She was so happy to find him. But she didn’t sense that she was permanently stuck with him due to that mistake. Samir was biggest mistake of her life. She knew it & she forced to literally live with it. Samir kept calling her on dates. She never had guts to say no. She kept going. Finally they got married. She didn’t see much option. She invited all her troubles. She kept forcing them on herself. It was so frustrating. She knew that Samir was bad choice. But then she wanted to feel positive about it. She was so stressed. She began to feel so scared. She knew that it was wrong. Still she kept feeling restless. She began to think she might stop her marriage if she got back in time. It was easy to hear angry allegations from every one that marry a man who never loved her. She took wrong decision. But now Reva was married. She felt that Reva was not going to disturb her. Samir would give her break too. She could live her life happily. She was so upset by every thing that was happening. But she was sure that it would stop now. She smiled happily towards flowers which she saw on road. She went near them. She wanted to pluck them. But she felt so scared. She knew that Samir didn’t approve if she plucked flowers. She knew that it was wrong so she just looked towards them & started remembering those days when she was kid & she used to pluck flowers.
Samir was so frustrated when he sensed that Shamita was taking long walk. He was expecting her to cook breakfast & make tea & coffee for him. She supposed to do all for him. He knew that she was so much exhausted by wedding that she might had decided to take break for one day. But he couldn’t manage to control his anger. He was one who was earning & she was one who supposed to handle all in house. She couldn’t ignore him like that. He kept maids to help her too. In this wedding she needed to attend so many guests so he even kept one cook. He still didn’t get a coffee & breakfast. He was so angry. He married her since he wanted his life to be easy. He was happy that Reva was obeying him not her. He got a wife who couldn’t able to dominate daughter. It was perfect. He desired a son since it would make all better for him. He could have given superiority to man in house. This way he could have dominated all. But when Shamita gave birth to a girl. He was scared that she might get influenced by mother. Girls were attached to mother. It was normal assumption according to him. So he felt same thing would happen with him. But he was careful. Slowly step by step he managed to turn Reva in his favour. He liked the way it all moved. Until now Shamita was obeying him perfectly. He liked her at beginning but when he sensed that she didn’t. He was so upset. He was just tool to make world envy on her. She used him & he felt even now she was using him. He was earning & she was using it. He didn’t like when she spent money on herself. He wanted her to suffer. Shamita was just low level creature in his view. He still remembered the way they went in wedding of her childhood crush. He was so angry. She didn’t planning to marry him. He forced it on her. But then he smiled. He was not planning to let her go like that. He had found his true love already in office. A clark who was suitable for his age. That clark Kavita didn’t manage to find husband or Kavita’s greedy parents didn’t let her date. He didn’t know but he knew one thing that she was perfect replacement. But he didn’t plan to give Shamita chance of easy freedom. He was planning to torture her. He liked that idea. Shamita was walking out peacefully. He was not happy about it. She supposed to feel concerned about him. But Shamita was walking freely. He began to plan something which might make her guilty. He didn’t find idea. Then slowly he found one. He knew which bottle was most precious to her. He took it out. Carefully he observed each delicate flower on that perfect crockery. He smiled sweetly while thinking she would cry if she lose that crockery. He smiled loudly & then he began to observe her Cups one by one. Her bottle was not enough. But still he couldn’t waste so much money for new crockery so that bottle needed to become enough. With loud sound that bottle fell down. He was laughing. On that point Shamita was opening door. She knew that she was late so she literally came running & opened door with her key. She was far away from kitchen but she could easily see through there. Samir intentionally took out bottle & threw it. He was laughing happily. She was so shocked. She didn’t understand what she supposed to do. It wasn’t just frustrating. She was scared. She was shivering. She didn’t understand why did he hated her so much. But she knew that he did. Then somewhere in her heart she blamed herself. He never loved her enough. She slowly came inside. He gave her angry look. She said “ Ohh! It’s okay. I will manage.” “ Actually you are worst thing that happened to me in life. I need to do positive thinking but you always managed to hurt me. You kept telling me I am fine. I am happy but I am not.” She didn’t say anything. She just kept nodding. She was trying so hard. He finally said “ I had enough. I want divorce.” She looked towards him with shock. She was not expecting it at this point. She felt now she could relax. Her responsibilities were over. But she sensed that it was totally wrong. She was not happy about entire situation. She was upset & scared. She wanted to take all in positive way but life was not moving that way. She felt so nervous. She said slowly “ I will do tea & breakfast.. don’t be angry.” “ I can get one maid for it. Just go away.” She was so confused. She couldn’t just go in her brother’s house. Her parents were dead for long time & her sister-in-law didn’t like it. She didn’t have much option but to demand. “ Where I can go? No one is there.” “ You can go anywhere you want I don’t care.” She took deep breath. She didn’t have much option but use her legal rights. “ I am staying here for so many days so I have right on this house.” He screamed loudly “ So you want me to go away?” He was standing in a way that suggested he might hit her. She was nervous now. She just looked around. She didn’t understand what was right & what was wrong. But she knew one thing that he was stronger than her. But still she could answer back. Still it was not permitted. She knew that she needed to act nicely with him. That was her duty as wife. She slowly said “ I just needed small house. I need to stay somewhere.” He seemed to change his mind. He went in bedroom & offered key of one small flat which was far away from main city. She didn’t mind. But it was not even on her name. He just said “ Go away.” She took keys & began to pack. She just took her limited luggage. Most importantly she took her keys of locker. Her Mom told her to keep them in her cupboard so she decided to keep the in locker. She had keys & she could remove it. She took them. Then she called one Cab. She didn’t know where that flat was but she could find it. Then he suddenly appeared. “ These are documents. I give you that flat just sign these papers.” She nodded. She didn’t mind leaving him. She was so scared of him. She just wanted to come out of that flat. She didn’t want to stay in it. She began to pack as fast as she could. He immediately called mover & packer. Then he said “ My parting gift to you. You can take away furniture. I need new one for new wife.” She couldn’t help herself. She just said “ Thanks.” sweetly. He said “ You are excellent beggar so I give you our TV set too.” Then he started laughing. She stood in corner. Then she started slowly packing clothes. He came inside & for first time he helped her in household work. He started folding her clothes.
Shamita took breath of relief when finally she managed to keep all her stuff in that flat. She knew that she needed to throw away some out of it. She was so upset. But she started doing it. On that time Reva called. She took call. Reva “ So finally Dad left you?! Do you sense how wrong it will look in eyes of my husband & his parents? You needed to plead or beg! You must have done something wrong! It is your mistake that you came out of house.” Shamita didn’t say anything. Then she said “ Your father decided to throw me out of house after begging I got this flat & I am happy in it.” Reva “ You are such stupid woman. How will you live?” “ I will manage don’t worry.” She felt so nervous. But she decided to act brave. She told to Reva “ I will not give burden to you. I have arrangements.” “ Even if you decide I will make one thing clear. I can’t or I will not take your burden. You need to adjust in life not me.” Shamita couldn’t disagree. She just kept quiet. Then Reva disconnected call. Shamita was glad about it. Shamita was arranging things when she suddenly began to feel so scared. She immediately closed all windows & doors. She was so breathless. She began to steady her breath. Then after sometime she started to relax. She began to develop positivity. She slowly started to arrange all. That house was small but she was happy with it. Then she slowly began to plan her next day lunch. She knew budgeting would be difficult. But she decided that she could do it. Then suddenly she remembered her locker. She decided to waste some money on Cab & go there. She was scared but still she managed to go in locker & took out all jewellery easily. Since this time she was not scared due to her husband. If she lost something it was just her personal issue. She felt so nervous when Samir used to come with him. She began to feel relaxed now. She smiled happily when she locked them in cupboard. Then she began to plan about locker. After this she kept working whole time to arrange one thing or another. She was so busy that she didn’t find time to feel nervous or sad. She wasn’t feeling restless. Finally one day Samir called her. Samir “ I know you took away your jewellery.” She felt so uneasy. But he added “ Now I will close that locker & I am removing your name from all accounts & Fixed Deposit.” He explained procedure. She immediately agreed. She didn’t want anything. She had her savings or she could find some way to feed herself. She just wanted to get rid of him. She was relaxed when she disconnected his call. She shivered with fear. She suddenly didn’t want to go out. She began to start to become presentable. On that time someone knocked. She opened door. But she was nervous, she didn’t sensed her face was so pale. She saw one woman was standing before her. She was pleasant looking. Shamita wanted to talk but she couldn’t. She kept trying that woman helped her to sit on sofa. After long efforts Shamita able to control herself. Then without second thought Shamita started telling all to that unknown woman & began to cry. It was so upsetting. Shamita didn’t want to expose her personal matters to an unknown woman but she did it. She wanted to feel happy in her soul. She needed to survive so she told everything. That lady asked “ Do you have lawyer?” Shamita turned head negatively. That lady immediately called someone. That lady said “ I am your neighbour Mita. I called lawyer. Go with him. He is our relative so don’t worry about charges.” She nodded. Shamita waited. Then when she went to meet Samir with her lawyer, Samir began to scream on her. But lawyer immediately handled situation. Shamita once again just stood like statue. Samir controlled himself & left since he didn’t brought his lawyer. Shamita’s lawyer sensed she was not normal. Lawyer started to call Doctor. She wanted to stop but she knew that she needed one. But she slowly said “ How could I pay?” That lawyer said with smile “ Don’t worry. I will take all this from your husband.” Then they went to Psychiatrist. Shamita kept telling all. Lawyer was also present. Shamita wanted lawyer to present. Psychiatrist asked “ What was name of that Champion of college? What was name of your first lover?” She slowly told it. “ I want full name.” She once again stopped & told it. Psychiatrist smiled & asked lawyer “ Do you see any sorrow in her eyes?” Lawyer laughed & said “ Your husband tricked you. You never loved that first lover. He just used that first lover as cause to form guilt in your mind.” Then Psychiatrist started counselling sections. She began to feel so relaxed. Finally when she came out, her brother called her. She told all to her brother. Her brother told her that he gave her accounts where her parents kept money for her. She was so happy. She said slowly “ I have money.” “ Yes. I don’t mention since I don’t want you to waste it on Reva. She is good for nothing.” She smiled. Then she told her lawyer that she could pay for Psychiatrist. Lawyer declared that he would take money after case was over. She nodded happily. Then she went back in her new hope, she was once again hopeful about her life. She knew that it was not easy but she felt her married life was more hard. She was happy in life as divorcee or separated. But she knew that Reva would start calling her again. Now she could decide when she wanted to & when she didn’t. Finally she got freedom in her life to decide her life.
The End
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