Deciding sorrows of mind
Tina was enjoying cooking in kitchen. Just like normal day she was cooking food. She knew that every thing was going ahead just as she thought. She had to cook food then she had to pack tiffin for kids. Then she would go to get their kids ready. She started working as per her routine. She continued to do all. But she just started looking around. She began to do work. She just had to work hard and faster to complete it on time. She was having so much power hiddबपen on every point. She continued to do her work without stopping her hand. It was her speciality. She began to work at every section of life. She did her duty as per her instructions. She was housewife on time. She did her every work on every point. She began to move ahead at every point. She started working in kitchen. She started doing every thing as per her plan. She started to do all work. She did every duty as her work. Then she heard voice. It was alarm from kid's room Now she had to ran in room. She took away blankets. She saw her that her kids were not in that bed. She started looking around whole room for kids but they were not in bed. She felt once again her kids wanted to be naughty. She looked under bed but her kids were not even under bed. She was so shocked. She was so confused. She felt that children were not wandering around. She saw that there were not children in room. She was so much hurt. She started looking around on every point. She saw that there were not any children inside that room. She was so shocked from mind. She wanted to understand every step. Inside room there were not children. She was so much scared. She was screaming. Then she sensed that it all vanished. She was just sleeping on her bed. She was sweating once again. She just didn't understand on every point. That why did she had that dream. She saw her Mom was sleeping beside her. She was not married. She was in fact never planning to get married. Still this strange dreams seemed to irritate it. She just never understood any point. She was having that strange kind of dream. She was so upset by this. Why did she had that dream in night? She was not going to marry any one. She was so scared that one day she would woke up her Mom. She didn't want to tell this to her Mom. She knew that her Mom would feel that she wanted to get married. But she wanted one thing from mind. That never get involved inside this mess. She did every thing perfectly in her life. She was happy and she was not even planning to get married. But still she was getting nightmare regarding risk on her children. She just never understood those feelings on any point. She felt so scared about her children. She felt as if they were really existed. She once again went to sleep. But she was so confused. She just felt that one day her nightmare would became true. But she just didn't understand that why did she felt so scared. This was not truth on any point of her life. She decided that she was not going to get married so she smiled at heart. Then she went to sleep. But then she felt strange thing. That if she married, her husband would going to hate her and took away her kids from her. She just didn't want to get married. She never wanted pain. But then once again she was confused that why did she thinking this way. She was not getting married and that was decided.
Next day Tina woke up, she looked around. Every thing was perfect. It was her another day. But then she felt one thing that she was not feeling that much perfect. She knew from heart lying would not help her. She was feeling so sick. She didn't know that why did she had that strange dream. It kept upsetting her. Every time she just felt so sick on morning. She wanted to understand one thing. Why did she felt so much fear when she was not even going to give any commitment. But she was tired from morning. She just kept doing her work at best speed but still she felt that anxiety from inside. She was so scared of breaking her heart and losing those kids. But she kept thinking which kids. She just didn't understood. She just decided to ignore it and concentrate on her work. When her mobile rang, she looked at number. It was her friend again. She must have wanted to keep her daughter here. She was frustrated by this arrangement. She was not her responsibility but her friend seemed to push it on her whenever she wanted. She just didn't understood that why did not she keep one babysitter or put her in creche.After all they were expert in taking care of kids. After all she had not married with just one thought that she didn't want responsibilities. But her friend just kept forcing it on her. She just wanted to wander around with Mom for few days. She could go to vacation or cinema. They both deserved break. But her friend Meeta just never understood it. She just always kept asking of her help. In Meeta's view they had extra time since she worked from home. It was all so wrong. But then she remembered face of that little girl and she felt so sad. After all if she was her own niece, she wouldn't had taken care of her. But then she also had right on her. This was totally different. It was whole sacrifice. She was not going to have any right on that girl. One day that girl just didn't even recognize her. It was not as if she was real auntie who would get respect for whole life. But it was just for few hours and she didn't want to waste them. She decided with determination that she didn't want to get involved. She decided that she just ignore phone. But then she couldn't kept it ringing. Finally she took it. Meeta "Tina..thank god. You took my phone. Today I had big fight with my husband. I just couldn't stay with that man. He was abusive to me. I took wrong decision of marrying him. He just never wanted to take proper job. His lack in manners.." Meeta just kept telling her complaints. Tina had just one question from mind. If Meeta felt he was so wrong then why did she married him. Meeta said that she was forced by her parents. Tina just didn't understand this concept. She had observed that Meeta was very happy when her marriage was fixed. But now when it all went wrong, she decided to put blame on parents. Meeta " I am planning to stay with my parents for few days." Tina was so happy. Her parents were in another city so she was finally shifting in that city. Tina knew that it was wrong. But she wished from heart that these husband and wife just took divorce. But she knew that it was not going to happen. It was their every day drama. Meeta kept her daughter with her and then she sat in some coffee shop. Finally after some hours her husband would come and settle the matter. Tina wanted to advise her to quit this drama but she knew that it would make her worst. Instead of few hours her drama would just increase to few days because then it would want to show all that she was really in trouble. So Tina just said " It is fine. You can keep her with." Meeta started thanking her. So in few hours she would once again land here with her daughter Priya. Tina took deep breathe to relax.
When Mom came out, Tina told every thing to her. Mom "Come on it's okay. Don't you remember how did her parents helped us when your father died? We have to adjust and you are quite happy with Priya." "Mom it is not about Priya. It is about having my own life. I want to concentrate on my career." "Fine. I will try to attend Priya." "Mom you are not understanding my point. I want to spend some time with you." "Come on. What did you want?" "I want to go to movie." "Then we can take Priya with us." Tina loved this idea. She started searching for movie. She found nice one. Then in few hours Meeta came in with lot of tears in eyes. Meeta "Once again he came late in home, he said that he was busy. I just suggested that I needed some break. Then he started screaming. He began to make big show off. I tried to adjust but then my anger went away and I just threw his favourite gift on his face. It was just saree so it couldn't hurt him. But he started throwing every thing on me." Priya " Mom Dad just threw cushions and they couldn't hurt you." "And that flower vase?" "He threw it on floor and any way you always hated it since grandma had gifted it to you. You have to keep it. Now you can blame Dad and get rid of it." "Shut up. Don't talk when two elders are talking." "Then how did you talk when grandma and grandpa were discussing something?" "Shut up." Meeta was about to slap Priya. But Priya just vanished from her hands while laughing on her and hide behind Tina. Tina couldn't stop laughing. That small girl was such a good angle. She knew that she must not love her but she forced to love her. She was so sweet. Tina "Come on. Meeta she is just little girl. Don't involve her." Meeta started crying more. "But don't you see that she just took her father's side." Tina wanted to say because it was truth. But she decided that she must not turn matter in worst form. She just smiled and said "Come on. She is just small girl. You must not involved her in it. " Suddenly Meeta came to her senses. Meeta " You are right. " She took Priya in her arms. She started talking happily now. Tina just loved her mother instinct. She just threw away her emotions when it came to Priya's happiness. She started just thinking about Priya. Then she gave many instructions to Tina and her Mom. Tina just wanted to know one thing that why did she decided to keep her with them, if she didn't trust them. But Tina's Mom said that it was just her concern. Then finally Meeta went away, it was perfect now. They just wanted to get rid of her. Then they planned about going to movie. Priya agreed to go. They found a perfect plan. Tina was on top of world. She felt as if she was playing with her own daughter. Priya was just like her. She was shocked so much from inside. She never sensed that she was getting so much attachment. But on that point she just felt happiness when Priya announced " Daddy!!" " What?" " Look there Daddy is drinking with his friends." She turned around towards the side. It was Meeta's husband Saket. She turned around. But before she saw that he was enjoying with his friends. It seemed as if he just didn't care, he was so happy with friends. He was toasting for something. That party was going on perfectly. She felt just one thing that where was Meeta. She suddenly felt that one thing was possible that she might be enjoying herself somewhere else while keeping her daughter with her. Then she felt that she was happy with Priya so she must not mind it. But then suddenly her phone rang. It was Meeta's Mom who told her that Meeta was having high fever due to stress so it would be better if she could keep Priya to herself. Tina was so shocked. Meeta's Mom had to come to stay with Meeta while her husband was just relaxing. Then she thought that she might need to tell him. She decided to mobile him. She took phone and just decide to SMS him. She did and then immediately she looked around. Saket looked at message. Then he said something to friends. She saw for some time he sat there then he went away. But one thing was clear. He just didn't want to go away but he forced by her message. Then she once again started enjoying her day. That day was perfect every thing went very well. When they returned home, Saket came and took Priya with him. He said that they were out of station for some days since Doctor advised Meeta change of weather. But his face was telling he just wanted to avoid her. He just wanted to party with his friends but his wife and daughter were forced on him. She started relaxing with one thought that she was not his wife. Then she said good bye to Priya. She knew that she was not going to marry so it must not tense her. But she sensed that she was getting too much attached to Priya. It might cause troubles.
That night Tina slept peacefully on her bed. Every thing was nice and peaceful. But she sensed slowly that every thing was not that much nice. When she went to sleep slowly step by step, she lost sense of reality. She was once again in her dream world. She was once again married. This time she could also saw her children take away by some man. She started running after them. She was screaming. She wanted to grab that children. She was crying so much. Then finally he took away her kids. She was all alone in that house. She just sensed that she lost every thing. She was so depressed. She just turned away. She went in kitchen. She took blade and cut herself. She started bleeding. She sensed those pains. Then suddenly she woke up. She was sure that she was feeling pains on her wrist. She looked at them. They were hurt but not due to cut on her blade but due to her nails. She took hold of her hand in such a way that there were marks of nail on her hand by other hand. It was so horrible. She managed to hurt herself in sleep. She just woke up her Mom. Tina "Mom..Mom."Her Mom slowly woke up from sleep. Mom "What happened Tina? Are you alright?" "See this Mom. What I have done in sleep?" Her Mom switched on table lamp. Mom "My god!!You have showered in your own sweat. Are you alright? " Her Mom touched her forehead to check temperature. Mom "You don't have fever." "I know Mom. I am fine. But look at my hand." Her Mom was shocked to see blood. Mom" Why did you hold your hand like that? It is bleeding." "Mom I am not mad to do it intentionally. I have done this in sleep." "You hurt yourself in sleep!! Since when you started sleep walking?" "Mom are you out of your mind? I was not walking. I was just sleeping when I took hold of my hand. Try to understand Mom...I just couldn't spoon feed you every time." " I can't understand it sweet heart until you tell me." "Cut out that sweet heart stuff and stop pretending. Don't you understand. I did this in sleep. Mom I had a nightmare and in it I took hold of hand." "In such a bad way?" "Mom what are you suggesting? That I have hurt myself intentionally. That I want to grab attention or do you feel that I am getting mad because I am unmarried. Mom you know me very well. I never wanted to get married. But trouble is that I am getting this nightmare regarding marriage on every night." " Just tell me." Tina was so frustrated that she started throwing away cushions. Her Mom was so confused that she just stood up in corner then in few moment she controlled herself and told every thing to Mom. "Mom do you think this is happening due to Priya?" "PRIYA!! You mean you feel that you will lose her one day. No..No..this doesn't make sense." "So what makes sense? Mom we just needed to avoid her. Okay." Her Mom nodded so after that day. They decided to avoid Priya. Then suddenly their luck shined and they received good news that Saket was transferred in abroad so whole family went away. Tina and her Mom went to see off them. Tina was so happy that finally her troubles were getting over. She looked at her wrist again. It was marked in worst way. She felt just one thing. She would not treat herself in that way in night. She sensed one thing that she was becoming her enemy due to Priya. Now since Priya was out of her life every thing will be okay. That day she went to movie with her Mom and enjoyed her whole day. That day was so much great on every point. She was so happy. Even her Mom was on top of world. They enjoyed whole day. Finally she felt so tired on every point. She just changed and went to sleep. She was feeling so best about every section in life. Then after some point she felt one thing that today she was going to enjoy sleep in her dreams.
But then once again Tina started dreaming. She was so shocked on that night. She just sensed once again she was living her dream from inside. It was so wonderful at beginning. But then slowly she sensed that all beautiful things would start to vanish. She sensed that once again she was in same house. She knew once again. Her dream of enjoying time with her Mom was just her dream. She started crying. She just couldn't able to control herself. She was awake now. Her Mom was sitting near her. Her Mom was patting her in hope that she would relax. But she just kept crying. Finally she stopped. Then her Mom started talking. Mom " I just feel one thing sweet heart. You need to understand that you must relax. And for it you need a .." "What Mom? Just tell me what?" "Actually you have to relax and think quietly." "Just say it Mom." She screamed. " I think you need a Doctor." "You mean psychiatrist!!" "Yes. Look at yourselves you are hurting your own body. It is all wrong." She wanted to scream that she was fine. But she knew that it was not truth. That night she spent whole night in just crying. But she accepted one thing that just leaving Priya behind would not solve her problem. Then finally next day they took appointment of psychiatrist. They had to wait in long line. When she went inside, she just wanted to get over it. She was so frustrated by all this. She started telling every thing to psychiatrist who just smiled and talked with her in such friendly way that she began to tell him everything. When finally she started to tell him every thing that happened, that psychiatrist listened to her. Tina " I just began to feel Priya was my problem. I got so attached to her that I started avoiding her. She went away abroad but then still I just kept having those dreams. What's wrong with me? Am I mad? Priya was never my problem?" "No..Priya was never your problem. She was positive hope but your problem was her parents. Meeta and Saket just kept creating troubles for you. They just kept all your fears alive. You wanted to get rid of your friend Meeta since she was just trouble for you. But you can't since your conscious didn't permit it. But then slowly you started wishing from heart that you must help her. Then you see Saket. You began to feel scared that just because you are not helping her. You will get punished. This is Anxiety Disorder developed due to guilt of not helping friend." "But I took her phone and helped us many times." "Yes but you hated it from heart so you felt guilty." Tina felt so confused. " It become worst when you saw Saket enjoying himself without caring for his family." "So what do I suppose to do now?" "Stop worrying. I am here to help you." Slowly psychiatrist started convincing her that she never needed to feel guilty. Meeta must had to own for her decision. It was not her duty. First time Tina felt a relief. She knew that she might not able to sleep that night without help of medicine. But she was sure that in few days she would sleep like innocent child. Just like her favorite Priya. That child which just gave her pleasure never harmed her. Her mind played one game which always kept her confusing from truth. She felt that her happiness was cause of her sorrow. Every need to think twice before deciding sorrows of their mind.
The End
Tina was enjoying cooking in kitchen. Just like normal day she was cooking food. She knew that every thing was going ahead just as she thought. She had to cook food then she had to pack tiffin for kids. Then she would go to get their kids ready. She started working as per her routine. She continued to do all. But she just started looking around. She began to do work. She just had to work hard and faster to complete it on time. She was having so much power hiddबपen on every point. She continued to do her work without stopping her hand. It was her speciality. She began to work at every section of life. She did her duty as per her instructions. She was housewife on time. She did her every work on every point. She began to move ahead at every point. She started working in kitchen. She started doing every thing as per her plan. She started to do all work. She did every duty as her work. Then she heard voice. It was alarm from kid's room Now she had to ran in room. She took away blankets. She saw her that her kids were not in that bed. She started looking around whole room for kids but they were not in bed. She felt once again her kids wanted to be naughty. She looked under bed but her kids were not even under bed. She was so shocked. She was so confused. She felt that children were not wandering around. She saw that there were not children in room. She was so much hurt. She started looking around on every point. She saw that there were not any children inside that room. She was so shocked from mind. She wanted to understand every step. Inside room there were not children. She was so much scared. She was screaming. Then she sensed that it all vanished. She was just sleeping on her bed. She was sweating once again. She just didn't understand on every point. That why did she had that dream. She saw her Mom was sleeping beside her. She was not married. She was in fact never planning to get married. Still this strange dreams seemed to irritate it. She just never understood any point. She was having that strange kind of dream. She was so upset by this. Why did she had that dream in night? She was not going to marry any one. She was so scared that one day she would woke up her Mom. She didn't want to tell this to her Mom. She knew that her Mom would feel that she wanted to get married. But she wanted one thing from mind. That never get involved inside this mess. She did every thing perfectly in her life. She was happy and she was not even planning to get married. But still she was getting nightmare regarding risk on her children. She just never understood those feelings on any point. She felt so scared about her children. She felt as if they were really existed. She once again went to sleep. But she was so confused. She just felt that one day her nightmare would became true. But she just didn't understand that why did she felt so scared. This was not truth on any point of her life. She decided that she was not going to get married so she smiled at heart. Then she went to sleep. But then she felt strange thing. That if she married, her husband would going to hate her and took away her kids from her. She just didn't want to get married. She never wanted pain. But then once again she was confused that why did she thinking this way. She was not getting married and that was decided.
Next day Tina woke up, she looked around. Every thing was perfect. It was her another day. But then she felt one thing that she was not feeling that much perfect. She knew from heart lying would not help her. She was feeling so sick. She didn't know that why did she had that strange dream. It kept upsetting her. Every time she just felt so sick on morning. She wanted to understand one thing. Why did she felt so much fear when she was not even going to give any commitment. But she was tired from morning. She just kept doing her work at best speed but still she felt that anxiety from inside. She was so scared of breaking her heart and losing those kids. But she kept thinking which kids. She just didn't understood. She just decided to ignore it and concentrate on her work. When her mobile rang, she looked at number. It was her friend again. She must have wanted to keep her daughter here. She was frustrated by this arrangement. She was not her responsibility but her friend seemed to push it on her whenever she wanted. She just didn't understood that why did not she keep one babysitter or put her in creche.After all they were expert in taking care of kids. After all she had not married with just one thought that she didn't want responsibilities. But her friend just kept forcing it on her. She just wanted to wander around with Mom for few days. She could go to vacation or cinema. They both deserved break. But her friend Meeta just never understood it. She just always kept asking of her help. In Meeta's view they had extra time since she worked from home. It was all so wrong. But then she remembered face of that little girl and she felt so sad. After all if she was her own niece, she wouldn't had taken care of her. But then she also had right on her. This was totally different. It was whole sacrifice. She was not going to have any right on that girl. One day that girl just didn't even recognize her. It was not as if she was real auntie who would get respect for whole life. But it was just for few hours and she didn't want to waste them. She decided with determination that she didn't want to get involved. She decided that she just ignore phone. But then she couldn't kept it ringing. Finally she took it. Meeta "Tina..thank god. You took my phone. Today I had big fight with my husband. I just couldn't stay with that man. He was abusive to me. I took wrong decision of marrying him. He just never wanted to take proper job. His lack in manners.." Meeta just kept telling her complaints. Tina had just one question from mind. If Meeta felt he was so wrong then why did she married him. Meeta said that she was forced by her parents. Tina just didn't understand this concept. She had observed that Meeta was very happy when her marriage was fixed. But now when it all went wrong, she decided to put blame on parents. Meeta " I am planning to stay with my parents for few days." Tina was so happy. Her parents were in another city so she was finally shifting in that city. Tina knew that it was wrong. But she wished from heart that these husband and wife just took divorce. But she knew that it was not going to happen. It was their every day drama. Meeta kept her daughter with her and then she sat in some coffee shop. Finally after some hours her husband would come and settle the matter. Tina wanted to advise her to quit this drama but she knew that it would make her worst. Instead of few hours her drama would just increase to few days because then it would want to show all that she was really in trouble. So Tina just said " It is fine. You can keep her with." Meeta started thanking her. So in few hours she would once again land here with her daughter Priya. Tina took deep breathe to relax.
When Mom came out, Tina told every thing to her. Mom "Come on it's okay. Don't you remember how did her parents helped us when your father died? We have to adjust and you are quite happy with Priya." "Mom it is not about Priya. It is about having my own life. I want to concentrate on my career." "Fine. I will try to attend Priya." "Mom you are not understanding my point. I want to spend some time with you." "Come on. What did you want?" "I want to go to movie." "Then we can take Priya with us." Tina loved this idea. She started searching for movie. She found nice one. Then in few hours Meeta came in with lot of tears in eyes. Meeta "Once again he came late in home, he said that he was busy. I just suggested that I needed some break. Then he started screaming. He began to make big show off. I tried to adjust but then my anger went away and I just threw his favourite gift on his face. It was just saree so it couldn't hurt him. But he started throwing every thing on me." Priya " Mom Dad just threw cushions and they couldn't hurt you." "And that flower vase?" "He threw it on floor and any way you always hated it since grandma had gifted it to you. You have to keep it. Now you can blame Dad and get rid of it." "Shut up. Don't talk when two elders are talking." "Then how did you talk when grandma and grandpa were discussing something?" "Shut up." Meeta was about to slap Priya. But Priya just vanished from her hands while laughing on her and hide behind Tina. Tina couldn't stop laughing. That small girl was such a good angle. She knew that she must not love her but she forced to love her. She was so sweet. Tina "Come on. Meeta she is just little girl. Don't involve her." Meeta started crying more. "But don't you see that she just took her father's side." Tina wanted to say because it was truth. But she decided that she must not turn matter in worst form. She just smiled and said "Come on. She is just small girl. You must not involved her in it. " Suddenly Meeta came to her senses. Meeta " You are right. " She took Priya in her arms. She started talking happily now. Tina just loved her mother instinct. She just threw away her emotions when it came to Priya's happiness. She started just thinking about Priya. Then she gave many instructions to Tina and her Mom. Tina just wanted to know one thing that why did she decided to keep her with them, if she didn't trust them. But Tina's Mom said that it was just her concern. Then finally Meeta went away, it was perfect now. They just wanted to get rid of her. Then they planned about going to movie. Priya agreed to go. They found a perfect plan. Tina was on top of world. She felt as if she was playing with her own daughter. Priya was just like her. She was shocked so much from inside. She never sensed that she was getting so much attachment. But on that point she just felt happiness when Priya announced " Daddy!!" " What?" " Look there Daddy is drinking with his friends." She turned around towards the side. It was Meeta's husband Saket. She turned around. But before she saw that he was enjoying with his friends. It seemed as if he just didn't care, he was so happy with friends. He was toasting for something. That party was going on perfectly. She felt just one thing that where was Meeta. She suddenly felt that one thing was possible that she might be enjoying herself somewhere else while keeping her daughter with her. Then she felt that she was happy with Priya so she must not mind it. But then suddenly her phone rang. It was Meeta's Mom who told her that Meeta was having high fever due to stress so it would be better if she could keep Priya to herself. Tina was so shocked. Meeta's Mom had to come to stay with Meeta while her husband was just relaxing. Then she thought that she might need to tell him. She decided to mobile him. She took phone and just decide to SMS him. She did and then immediately she looked around. Saket looked at message. Then he said something to friends. She saw for some time he sat there then he went away. But one thing was clear. He just didn't want to go away but he forced by her message. Then she once again started enjoying her day. That day was perfect every thing went very well. When they returned home, Saket came and took Priya with him. He said that they were out of station for some days since Doctor advised Meeta change of weather. But his face was telling he just wanted to avoid her. He just wanted to party with his friends but his wife and daughter were forced on him. She started relaxing with one thought that she was not his wife. Then she said good bye to Priya. She knew that she was not going to marry so it must not tense her. But she sensed that she was getting too much attached to Priya. It might cause troubles.
That night Tina slept peacefully on her bed. Every thing was nice and peaceful. But she sensed slowly that every thing was not that much nice. When she went to sleep slowly step by step, she lost sense of reality. She was once again in her dream world. She was once again married. This time she could also saw her children take away by some man. She started running after them. She was screaming. She wanted to grab that children. She was crying so much. Then finally he took away her kids. She was all alone in that house. She just sensed that she lost every thing. She was so depressed. She just turned away. She went in kitchen. She took blade and cut herself. She started bleeding. She sensed those pains. Then suddenly she woke up. She was sure that she was feeling pains on her wrist. She looked at them. They were hurt but not due to cut on her blade but due to her nails. She took hold of her hand in such a way that there were marks of nail on her hand by other hand. It was so horrible. She managed to hurt herself in sleep. She just woke up her Mom. Tina "Mom..Mom."Her Mom slowly woke up from sleep. Mom "What happened Tina? Are you alright?" "See this Mom. What I have done in sleep?" Her Mom switched on table lamp. Mom "My god!!You have showered in your own sweat. Are you alright? " Her Mom touched her forehead to check temperature. Mom "You don't have fever." "I know Mom. I am fine. But look at my hand." Her Mom was shocked to see blood. Mom" Why did you hold your hand like that? It is bleeding." "Mom I am not mad to do it intentionally. I have done this in sleep." "You hurt yourself in sleep!! Since when you started sleep walking?" "Mom are you out of your mind? I was not walking. I was just sleeping when I took hold of my hand. Try to understand Mom...I just couldn't spoon feed you every time." " I can't understand it sweet heart until you tell me." "Cut out that sweet heart stuff and stop pretending. Don't you understand. I did this in sleep. Mom I had a nightmare and in it I took hold of hand." "In such a bad way?" "Mom what are you suggesting? That I have hurt myself intentionally. That I want to grab attention or do you feel that I am getting mad because I am unmarried. Mom you know me very well. I never wanted to get married. But trouble is that I am getting this nightmare regarding marriage on every night." " Just tell me." Tina was so frustrated that she started throwing away cushions. Her Mom was so confused that she just stood up in corner then in few moment she controlled herself and told every thing to Mom. "Mom do you think this is happening due to Priya?" "PRIYA!! You mean you feel that you will lose her one day. No..No..this doesn't make sense." "So what makes sense? Mom we just needed to avoid her. Okay." Her Mom nodded so after that day. They decided to avoid Priya. Then suddenly their luck shined and they received good news that Saket was transferred in abroad so whole family went away. Tina and her Mom went to see off them. Tina was so happy that finally her troubles were getting over. She looked at her wrist again. It was marked in worst way. She felt just one thing. She would not treat herself in that way in night. She sensed one thing that she was becoming her enemy due to Priya. Now since Priya was out of her life every thing will be okay. That day she went to movie with her Mom and enjoyed her whole day. That day was so much great on every point. She was so happy. Even her Mom was on top of world. They enjoyed whole day. Finally she felt so tired on every point. She just changed and went to sleep. She was feeling so best about every section in life. Then after some point she felt one thing that today she was going to enjoy sleep in her dreams.
But then once again Tina started dreaming. She was so shocked on that night. She just sensed once again she was living her dream from inside. It was so wonderful at beginning. But then slowly she sensed that all beautiful things would start to vanish. She sensed that once again she was in same house. She knew once again. Her dream of enjoying time with her Mom was just her dream. She started crying. She just couldn't able to control herself. She was awake now. Her Mom was sitting near her. Her Mom was patting her in hope that she would relax. But she just kept crying. Finally she stopped. Then her Mom started talking. Mom " I just feel one thing sweet heart. You need to understand that you must relax. And for it you need a .." "What Mom? Just tell me what?" "Actually you have to relax and think quietly." "Just say it Mom." She screamed. " I think you need a Doctor." "You mean psychiatrist!!" "Yes. Look at yourselves you are hurting your own body. It is all wrong." She wanted to scream that she was fine. But she knew that it was not truth. That night she spent whole night in just crying. But she accepted one thing that just leaving Priya behind would not solve her problem. Then finally next day they took appointment of psychiatrist. They had to wait in long line. When she went inside, she just wanted to get over it. She was so frustrated by all this. She started telling every thing to psychiatrist who just smiled and talked with her in such friendly way that she began to tell him everything. When finally she started to tell him every thing that happened, that psychiatrist listened to her. Tina " I just began to feel Priya was my problem. I got so attached to her that I started avoiding her. She went away abroad but then still I just kept having those dreams. What's wrong with me? Am I mad? Priya was never my problem?" "No..Priya was never your problem. She was positive hope but your problem was her parents. Meeta and Saket just kept creating troubles for you. They just kept all your fears alive. You wanted to get rid of your friend Meeta since she was just trouble for you. But you can't since your conscious didn't permit it. But then slowly you started wishing from heart that you must help her. Then you see Saket. You began to feel scared that just because you are not helping her. You will get punished. This is Anxiety Disorder developed due to guilt of not helping friend." "But I took her phone and helped us many times." "Yes but you hated it from heart so you felt guilty." Tina felt so confused. " It become worst when you saw Saket enjoying himself without caring for his family." "So what do I suppose to do now?" "Stop worrying. I am here to help you." Slowly psychiatrist started convincing her that she never needed to feel guilty. Meeta must had to own for her decision. It was not her duty. First time Tina felt a relief. She knew that she might not able to sleep that night without help of medicine. But she was sure that in few days she would sleep like innocent child. Just like her favorite Priya. That child which just gave her pleasure never harmed her. Her mind played one game which always kept her confusing from truth. She felt that her happiness was cause of her sorrow. Every need to think twice before deciding sorrows of their mind.
The End
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