Adventure story 100. Tension

                                                               Tension
Once again Nitu was ill.It was happening again and again.Since Jay's Mom died,they were forced to keep their daughter with baby-sitter.This time matter was serious.Doctor phoned Jay and told him that his daughter was suffering from food poisoning.Jay ran to that Hospital.He was waiting for Manasi.As always she was late.He hated her busy job which was taking life out of her.Manasi was always busy.She just never had time for any one.After all inside their life she was mother.She was supposed to be taking care of kid not him.Then he suddenly remembered that he had promised her in beginning only.That he would not object her job.But at that time he had never guessed.It was so hard but after all she was getting more money than him.It was not right.But he was so confused.He couldn't leave his job and stay at home.He couldn't think of it so he couldn't claim it from her also.He might need more expensive baby-sitter.He smiled at this idea.It looked best solution.After all he didn't want to force his wife just to cook for family.His one part of mind was totally against it.He just didn't want to discriminate towards his wife.Then suddenly he felt touch of hand on his shoulder.He turned.Manasi was standing behind him.She was crying.Manasi"I had it enough.I will quit my job."Jay was so happy but still he controlled himself and said"Don't jump on conclusion.We can have solutions.It don't seem fair that you quit your career on this stag."Manasi"No.I had enough.I am quitting.My daughter is more important for me than my job."Jay was so happy but on other side he felt that he was doing wrong.Manasi was perfect mother who was ready to quit job and he was useless father.Then Doctor came to them and started giving instructions.Manasi ran towards Nitu and hugged her.Jay was looking at her and feeling guilty.He just wished from one side that he could stop her.But on other side he was glad that he was no longer called less earner from his family because now he was sole earner.
          Then when Nitu came back home,Manasi was forced to go to job for three months because she couldn't quit without notice of three months.During this time Manasi's mother stayed with them for some days.She took total care of Nitu.Manasi was doing her every duty.Jay was watching all this.One day when he came from office and sat on table for dinner.His mother-in-law started talking "I just wish there is some way for Manasi to stay on that job.She always love that job.It is not fair that she had to quit it."Jayesh was getting hurt with her each word.Jayesh"I just don't know..""No..No..it is not your mistake.You adjusted your best.But now a days we just don't get nice servant.In our days we use to get such nice baby-sitters.They use to take care of kids like mother.Those old days were so nice.Now we can't get that type of servants.Really sad."Then she began to serve Jay.But he was feeling so guilty that he couldn't able to eat.After all Manasi's mother was right,Jay was really doing wrong.He had never liked Manasi's job much because he might be jealous.Jay suddenly started feeling more guilty when he noticed Manasi was not there.Jay"Where is Manasi?""She decided to quit so they force her to do some extra work.After all she was on important job,she have to train some one.Her working days are over.I still can't accept it.My poor girl.Come on Jay eat your food.Why are you looking so pale?I am not blaming you."Jay was feeling more guilty now.Since his mother-in-law started consoling him"Come on.You tried to cooperate in every thing.My daughter told me about every thing.You were much nice to her but I can understand.There was no option."Jay couldn't take it any more.He literally ran out of that room.Manasi's mother was screaming but he just stayed in bathroom for some time.After some time he heard knock on door.Manasi"Jay are you alright?Why are you inside bathroom for such long time?"Now Jay was confused.He didn't want to confess truth.He didn't want to tell that he was crying so he screamed."Come on.I want some privacy.I will come out."When he came out,he looked just perfect.All three ladies asked about his health and he told them that he was fine.Then he started eating but he knew that he was tense.
          After some days finally Manasi became full time house wife.At beginning it was not known in Jay's office.That Manasi had to quit the job.But one day finally it came out when some one asked Jay about Manasi's promotion.Rakesh"What your wife had quit her job?But I thought that she was on verge of getting promotion.""Actually she had to because our daughter was getting sick again and again...""Come on.You can do some thing else.It's not fair.She is such intelligent woman and you force her to sit in house and do your cooking as well as our laundry.So unfair.How can you act like that with her?She had so bright future now it's all destroyed.You acted like those dominating husband who treat their wife like slave.."Slowly every one heard their talking and joined them.Another woman from office"Most of the husband act that way and then it is beginning of crack in their marriage."Now Jay was shocked.He never thought this way.Jay"I never force her.""But still it will have that effect."His friend said that in such a determination that Jay felt shocked.Every one around him were started discussing this.Jay could not able to remember every thing but he knew one thing.That he did biggest mistake in life and he felt that all his colleagues were hating him for this.Every moment he started feeling stressed.On that day he did every thing his best.Jay was so tense that he would do some mistake and insult someone.After all he didn't want to insult any one in his life now.He wanted to tell Manasi that she could join her job but inside his heart he knew that he couldn't do this.His daughter would need her mother.At end of day when all his work was over and he was about to go home.Suddenly his friend appeared near Jay."Jay will you finish my file?""What?But...""Come on.I want to be at home on time.Your wife is already at home.Now she could take care of kids.You don't need to think about her that much.She was resting in home for whole day and my wife need some rest.Come on finish my work."Jay wanted to say no and wanted to say many things to him about work which his wife was doing at home.But he was so scared that he might upset his friend so he started doing that work.
       Manasi was looking at wall clock.Jay was so late today.She wanted to tell him about her day.Manasi was quite comfortable with her new life.She could do all her housework personally.Then she could do her painting which was her hobby.She never had chance to pursue it.Now she could do it.Then she could do cooking for Nitu.She was so busy with Nitu whole day that she hardly got time to think.Actually she liked this kind of life.She preferred to stay at home.She wanted share this with Jay.She wanted to explain him that her mother was wrong.She was very happy with this arrangement.Finally Jay came.He was looking so tired as if he was working on some hardest project.Manasi welcomed him.She was looking so happy but still she saw that there was some doubt in Jay's eyes.Jay"Manasi you are really happy?"Jay asked this when Manasi bought tea for him."Of course.I really liked this arrangement.We have to adjust with our budget but I think we can do it.If we ...""I know.You are unhappy because we are poor now."Manasi was so shocked."What are you saying?We are not poor and I am not unhappy.I just said that I have to make budget.Every wife do that.If we don't do it then how can we do saving.""But you never did this before?""I know and I think this was my mistake.I want to improve it.""No need to pretend.We have financial crisis.""No.We don't have.Come on.What's wrong with you?Why are you turning in so negative? Think positive.""Yes.I know positive thinking is my only option now."Manasi thought that Jay was so depressed.She came near him and started counseling.Slowly he looked normal.But something was not normal and Manasi could feel it.Even after showering of affection from Manasi Jay was not convinced that she was happy.He felt so upset and scared with this.He was sure that he was going to lose everything.He was so sure that she was pretending that happiness.He could see that on her face.When she came out with his food,she was tense.Manasi"Can I ask you something?""Sure.""Why are you upset?"Jay smiled and said "I am fine."
          From that day Jay's every day became so busy.He used to come on time from office but these days his desk was loaded with work.Jay just didn't want to say no to anyone.One day when he was getting ready for work,he was in so much hurry that he forgot his lunch.Manasi saw it but it was too late.Jay had already left for office.Manasi was upset but then she got an idea.She decided that after dropping Nitu to school.She would go to Jay's office and give him his lunch.She smiled.It was perfect idea for her.She was watching Jay attentively every day suddenly Jay was so busy.She wanted to know cause behind it.She went just on time.It was lunch hour in office.When Manasi entered in office,she saw crowd of Jay's colleagues.They all were enjoying their time.She slowly went near them and heard their conversation.They were joking about Jay."Look at Jay.Still working.""That man is so strange always after pleasing every one just like some puppy.Strange indeed.""I think he is so stupid.He think that if we get disappointed He will be out of job..."That was enough for Manasi.She went inside and saw her husband was working.Manasi "Why are you clearing other files?""Manasi speak slowly.Some one will heard you.""Let them heard me.They are called you stupid and I don't care for any of them.These bullies who treated you like servant."After hearing her voice Jay's boss came out of cabin.He was so shocked to hear it.Jay was so scared now that he would be thrown out job.When boss started looking at his files,he started shivering.He was sure that his boss would fire him.Jay"I am sorry.I ..I just .."Boss"Why are you sorry?These people should be?"Boss looked at other staff with anger.Boss picked up all files.Boss "Now I can know who is getting paid without work."Then Boss went inside.Then all colleagues came near Jay and started abusing him.Jay looked so scared.Then Manasi noticed that he was sweating.He was just saying "Sorry."Then finally Manasi was so shocked that she went away.
         When Jay came at home,he was sweating more and more.Jay"I am not feeling alright.""What happen?"Jay screamed on her"Why did you do that ?"Manasi started crying after all she was helping her husband.Then Jay start looking at her with tears.Jay"So you will divorce me.""Why?What are you saying?""I am scared that you will divorce me.Then suddenly I feel scared that may be Rakesh will harm me.You know he can put some scam or fraud on me.""It is impossible.""But I am scared."Then Jay started crying.Jay"I am scared about everything.I am useless.""Come on.Relax everything will be fine."From next day Jay started going to office.Everything was just fine.Now no one was harassing Jay.But still he was scared.Sometimes he was scared about sickness of his family.One day he bought a big doll for Nitu.Nitu was so happy about it.But Manasi found it strange.Then he started showering them with gifts then suddenly he started showering them with medicines.So one day he was scared that they would be angry because they didn't get gift then next day he felt that they would be sick.One day finally he bought fire alarm and burglar alarm for house.Then one day he changed locks.Finally he started changing locks on each and every week.This was too much for Manasi every day he was tense.Finally she asked"What is your problem?""I am tense every time."Then he started telling about his tension.They seemed like non stop.Finally Manasi said"I think that you may have some physical problem due to which you are getting tense to Doctor."He nodded.But when they went to Doctor.He suggested psychiatrist.At first they shocked but then they accepted.Then they went there.Then Manasi was told to sit outside.When Jay told everything,psychiatrist said"You are suffering from Generalised Anxiety Disorder and according to my guess.It had happen due to some stress can you tell cause?"Slowly Jay spoke"I wanted Manasi to quit that job because I am jealous of her job and so I force her to quit it."Then Psychiatrist called Manasi asked her about job.Manasi"I quit it because I want to stay with my daughter.Jay never forced me.""No..NO.I force you.You don't understand.I tricked you.""No No.You don't.I want to become house wife."Manasi tried hard to convince Jay this truth.But it seemed useless.Then Psychiatrist stopped her."Let me handle this.It is slow process.I will convince him."Masani nodded.She knew that Psychiatrist would convince him but he would take money.Only if she could convince her husband but she knew that she couldn't so she nodded and just paid the fees.
                                                                     The End

Poem 1035. Wrong friend

                                                   Wrong friend
After all in our life we need some person who really care for us in life
So that is what we feel every time that we must relate with person's who
Really care for us in life may it be our friend or some relative in our life
We always say that sweet talking is useless we must find some one who
Really care for us in our life after all in our future on each and every time
Inside our life we all think that we really want some one who truly care
For every person inside our life and each person want some one who
Really care for us inside our life but after all in our life every time we can't
Stop person who don't care for us from entering in our life but we all feel
Sure that when we respect some one we feel that person will be some one
Really care for us and every type we feel that in world there is lack of
That person after all inside our life we all think that when we see some person
Who is perfect for our heart after all in our life we find some one who is
Wrong for our heart because in life we think that we must understand
That in our life we just think this but when we don't find those person
Around us who don't really care for our life so inside our life we think
That when we find some person who really like us is some thing for life
After all in our life we think that inside our life we must think that
We must find some thing which will effects part of our life surely
Those people who really care for us seems so really rare in life so we think
That world is so cruel that we can't find proper thing inside our life
We can't find some thing but they are not those people who care for us in life
How cruel it seems is this world for every time because we hardly find some one
Who care for us inside our future or our life after all in life we find some thing
Some times we must do some thing after all inside our life we all think that
These person are some thing which are important for our life but we hardly find
Them in life but we think that such person who are really part of our life
Many times it seem in life we get wrong time of people in our life and
Many times we see that people whom we trusted don't prove that trustworthy
Inside our life and inside our future and our life so began to believe that
This world is not kind but cruel from each and every side but then one day
I thought that may be we must understand every part but is it possible
Then after some time I saw that world is not that bad when after some time
We thought about our surrounding and those friends which we made in life
They are all who never said any thing bad about me I just don't like any one
Who said some thing bad about me but problem in our life is that
The person who really care for me never just say good things because when
We want to improve other person's future then we must need to say about
That person some bad thing because until we said some thing bad about
Some person we can't point out their mistake and it will be impossible
For us to improve it but sadly in our life mostly we like those person who
Talk sweetly to you and me after all inside our life on every moment
We want some confidence which from talk we can able to get  and
Then suddenly some thing turning totally wrong in each and every way
Because for our false confidence inside our life don't give any thing
But just false hopes in life so instead of choosing correct friend we choose
That person who gave false confidence because we are not trusting some one
Who telling things which are not fully true because they just want our friendship
For their convenience so world is not bad but our choice is we choose wrong person
Because they are some thing which just show us false pleasant thing and
We keep away those person who really care for us just because they say wrong thing.

Poem 1034. The cause

                                                        The cause
Many times we search a cause and we feel that we are sure after all
In this some thing which is important for our heart after all in our life
Cause are some thing which just need to rectify our life style and our thought
From our heart after all searching for some cause is some thing which
Means some thing needed to change some part of our life when we search
For our cause then we began to find some thing which are perfect for life
But some times these things are some thing which will take away freedom
Out of our life so in our life freedom is some thing which is important
For life after all in life freedom is some thing which goes away from life
There are many things which are cause of those problems inside life
After all in our life we will find some causes are nothing but just problem
Inside our life I just find some problem inside our life but we must think
Of cause which will make effects inside our life because some times
Even in cold we may like to find some cause inside our life because
That cause will be some thing which will help inside our life and in case
Of cold we think some fruits are some thing which may began to cold in life
So then we find fruits as cause of cold some times so we began to stay away
From those fruits in life after all those fruits are some thing which are tasty
Thing and thing which we use in daily life so in case of fruits we feel
Their thirst in our life so when we find that cause and it stops us from
From daily use of our life after all fruits are also our life's regular part
After all fruits are some thing which will be tasty for entire life after all
These fruits are some thing which are nice and tasty for each and every day
In life those fruits are some thing which make us fresh on each and every time
And those causes are some thing which are not perfect for our life
Causes are some thing which are just creating problems inside our life
These causes are some thing which are important but some thing
Are important part after these causes are solution for their life's part
Just still at some moments we all want some thing as a cause
Which is cause in our life after all cause is something which gets solution
After all cause is some thing which is always kept as solution for every part
We think that if we find solution we may not able to win inside of our heart
Because every time we can't find any solution for our thinking and heart
Since cause will create a problem for our heart we need to add control
Inside our heart after all purchasing some thing will just hurt our heart
We need to control all feeling with that cause but question is that do we really
Need to control so much of our heart even for small causes are some thing
But cause of life are some part which always confuse heart after all in life
We all think that we have some thing wrong in our life because this is
Which may hurt our brain inside our heart after all inside our heart in life
Some times even causes create problems in our heart after all causes are
Some thing which take many precious thing inside our mind and our heart
These causes are some thing which effects our heart after all causes
Which are some thing that will happen it is some part inside our life
After all cause are some thing which may touch our heart this cause is
Some thing perfect for our heart and those causes are some thing which
Are important for our heart after all causes are some thing which are important
Inside our mind and our heart after all causes are some thing which to
Improve our future so some thing important for heart after all in life
Health will improve slowly by that cause but some times our wishes take us
Wrong side of our life and our heart after all cause is some thing which instead
Of improving our self we feel hurt by those causes which hurt our heart
So may be we should understand cause should be used only when it is
Needed for our life and for our mind take us ahead on each and every front
Every time may be we should not just go and find some kind of cause.

Poem 1033. Wishing good

                                                   Wishing good
How interesting it is when some one get confuse we just laugh on that one
Or just scream with anger on that person when some one else get confuse
It seems like some thing worth enjoy or blame but what will we do when
We get confuse when some have some problem inside their life we always
Feel thank god that we are not in their life but question that is it right to feel
That way in life or may be we just want to have other problem inside their life
But when I ask my self do I am so selfish that I want problem in others life
My heart answered me not all other people inside my life I don't want problems
For kind nature and good people who entered in my life but I want problem
In those people who are creating problems in my life those people are those
Who show off me their pleasure inside their life after all in our life we never
Like those people who just love to point out our good is their life while
Have special way to show others how unhappy they are in their life and
Inside our life on every time we just feel that we need some thing nice
Even when we have every thing some things seem missing from our life
So even when we are having nice life they manage to show us that
They got some thing far better in life I hate those people who manage
To depress me in my life and also hate those who show fault in my life
But those who show faults can be well wisher some time but those who
Show that they have better life are some person who can't improve
Our life because they never show our faults with hope to bring light in our life
They just do it because they want to show us how good they got in their life
I know it is wrong but some times from my heart I will troubles in life for
Such people in my life who just depress me by showing I don't got much in life
I want to show the world that I am happy in life and I except it if some one
Does that in their life if these people just show me that they are happy in life
But they also show me that I don't got what they got in life even when
We are happy these type of thinking take us on totally wrong side in life
And even when we are not much happy still we just have to entertain such people
Some times in our life because our life is made such a way that we can't
Always meet only those people whom we like in our life and we can't
Always manage to keep friendship with each and every person we meet in life
After all keeping friend is not easy task in our life it is like having friendship
With worst person and smiling some times how frustrating it is to have
Some person who just depress us in our life and even when that one is acting bad
Still wishing for that one good in life when I was child I use to think that
Just thinking good about others before us is enough for pure mind but now
I understood that we can always wish good for those person who are good
For our future and our life but problems starts when we need to wish good
Before us in our life every time we need to find some thing in our life
But that don't mean we need to find some thing good for our life but
Wishing good for those people who manage to depress us seems hard task in life
I know it is hard but some times I think it is needed for our life so we think
That until we forgive those people we can't live peacefully in life we got depress
But it is due to some problems inside our life and it is also because it hurt our ego
Which is strong inside only if we destroy that ego our life will be some thing
Happy and nice those people who don't forgive just keep that thought inside
Their mind and inside their life every time after we find it hard to understand
Thoughts inside our life after all forgiving some one is hardest task of life
Still we manage to do it on each and every time if we think that it is good for our future
And for our life because by showing off their happiness these people manage to
Take us on totally wrong as well as totally faulty side in our future and our life.

Poem 1032. To help some one

                                                 To help some one
We were always told that we must give respect to other human being
And help them specially if they related to you or some part of your distance family
So we run every time to help such person as a human being but sadly in life
Many times we feel they don't care for us as a human being when we see this
We feel  sad in our heart we feel that world has turn into some thing evil
Which is horrible for our life we feel sad that every good culture is going away
From our sight we feel that every thing turn into wrong side after all many times
We ignore their crime and many times we just feel that we are doing some thing nice
So inside this life on each and every time we do things which are perfect for our life
We are told that we must go ahead and help some person and so we go ahead
To help that person but if we search for truth inside our life then we will find
That nothing is perfect in our life because our relations are turned in such a way in life
That we just start from one way and then turn into some thing wrong from every side
Because when we help some one that person insult our good nature without such
Thoughts in their life we began to think that acting good is one of our best crime
Inside our life when we act good it suppose to give pleasure to our mind but
When things turn wrong way suddenly that pleasure vanishes from every side
So inside our life on each and every time we just don't feel pleasure because
It is not for good person who is help by us so that one just set one example for us
We began to think that we must not help others because some people just never
Care for other person so when we help some one who is of wrong type slowly
We began to hate those person who will just help us in our life when we help
Some one who is wrong type that feeling of helping human being suddenly began
To vanish from entire life it is so nice to help human because helping some one
Is once use to nice it turn into some thing wrong for entire life because helping
Human don't give nice feeling when human are not right just helping some one
Is not enough in our life we need to find proper person who need help inside our life
So inside our life we began to hate helping just because we choose wrong person
In this life how can we go ahead in life if we are force to some person who are
Of wrong kind of person in our life after all they have some thing good inside
Our life every times in our life  goodness which is part of our life but
Sadly in our life helping some one is good for our life but then at one moment
We need some one who is good person and take it kindly act happily about that help
In our life so every time when you see some thing in life just find that person who
Is perfect for help in life just helping some person just because that one related
To you in family or in life but still some times we find some people in our life
Who really don't deserve any help from us in their life they just take help and
Talk in such a way that we feel helping them is biggest but question is that
How can we escape inside our life from those duties which are required in life
But some times our duties become pain in our life after all in our life on every time
We just feel that helping that person takes away from good side of life so
Confuse is our life when wrong person are in circle of life we just don't know how to
Go ahead in our life because on each and every time of this life we all feel
In life we need some one who is good to help that person in life so if I feel
Confuse like this in life that day when I do much duty it is horrible in my life
But after some days in my life I just don't want things to turn in wrong way
For my entire life because helping some one is fully needed in our life and
When our duty is needed to fulfilled it seemed so clear in life that one every time
Inside our life I feel as if we all having some nightmare when I fulfill that duty in life
So on that day I went out to enjoy those parts inside my life and want them
To be perfect for every future in our life because on each time those people
Harass us in our life so when we do some duty it will surely hurt us in life
But when we do some duty which will please us in life then we surely think
That we are looking at sunrise but when for that person whom I hate in life
I just think that it is sunset which needed for life and after that moment
I always went to enjoy some part of life it could be anything but it should
Relax my mind after all helping worthless person never help us inside our life.

Poem 1031. Change in place

                                                      Change in place
When ever we start going from one place to totally different place
Missing it is some thing natural which happen every time some thing
Like this happen with each and every change inside life after all in life
When we start every thing in our life after all change in thinking our life
Once I start from one point but after some point inside our life in this
Life is some times we need to go different places for our future and life
For going to some other place is perfect for their life because going to other place
Is one truth inside our life because those problems are some thing which
Is some thing because some thing starts from one spot to different spot in life
From one point we start but still we can't able to miss some thing important
But one point is some thing which is perfect for our life but slowly
In life we need to go to totally different place that is one point when person
Makes mistake in life instead of keeping past behind people take it with them
In their life past never gives smile to your mouth and eyes after all past will
Never take you ahead at all inside our life because past is some thing
Which should be left behind and past is some thing which never compared
With future inside our life so on every point we select some things in life
Which are not part of past but still when we go to that place we take past
Inside our soul and inside our mind because past is some thing which is part
Of our life and past will never goes away until we decide but we think
That we must keep past as a responsibility in life but question is that
Do we keep it just as responsibility or always to compare it with future life
When we went ahead we compare each part of our life and just keep thinking
That we must adjust past with future because it always remains inseparable
Part of our life because when we start from one place we just enjoy it in life
But when we change our place we feel that it will be better than first place in life
So every day in life from time to time we change our places and thoughts in life
But question is that what do we really want in life if we want peace and happiness
Then we should learn to forget those changes in life because when we change place
And hope it will be good for our life it will be false hope for us in our life
Just change of place can't change your future because no place is bad or good in life
After all if you spend your life happily on one place then it must have special place
Inside our heart and our mind after one side we start and we know that side
And it is mostly good for our life but still in life some times opportunities take us
On totally different side which are unique for us and perfect for our future and life
So on that point we thought that it will be nice for our life and that place will be
Biggest heaven for our entire life because life is made such a way that with each
Opportunities we think in our life that we will need some thing special for life
We thought that we have left our first place so we must need better thing in life
When ever we leave some thing we demand compensation in our future and life
From one point in our life we change to other point and on that place we except
Heaven of our life after all in life we can't bring heaven in life until you change it
Properly according to like and dislike inside our future as well as inside our life
So on every spot in life from first place in our life we try to get some better place
Which will bring light inside our life from one point in our life when we went
Separate way from entire life just in hope of getting some thing nice in life
From first place in life on every time we just think that we are doing all to get
What we truly want in our future or in our life because for days and nights
We change every thing in life just to get better and hope that this change will
Bring heaven inside our life but peace of our mind is inside our mind from our side
We just get resources from outside but inside of our heart will show us one thing
That how to get happiness in our life and how to adjust and enjoy each change in life.

Poem 1030. To win the truth

                                                 To win the truth
When in life we began to do good thing in our life after all good work
Is some thing which is precious for our life for good work after all
When we began good  work we must start some thing good in life
We need to do it perfectly with team in our life because when we will
Began to gather some team because when we began to think that
Only when good will win surely then only good will win in life
Because good is something which perfect for our life but at same time
Sometimes our heart get so frustrated in our life that we began to think that
Good is not Some thing which is perfect for our life after all good is not easy
To achieve inside our life after all in our life winning is some thing
Which is worthy for goodness in life still gathering goodness is some thing
Which is hardest for our life because when we start good we feel that
It will get support but it is not easy to get support inside our life because
Even some times good don't get support inside our life but after so
Many efforts finally we get support inside our life so we think that
We have win some part in life but it is not true just having one opinion
Will not help us every time inside my life we think that if we have
More people on our side we will win that game inside our mind
After all in our life on every time we think that when we think on one side
We will win one day because we have wrong opinion in our life and
Every time we think it but then slowly we understand in our life
Just having people is not enough for our life because these people
Are not enough after all inside our life on every point we see some thing
Which we never expected in life people want us to have some plan
And want capacity of leader in us in life and if we don't have it then
It is something useless in our life because after all people don't expect
Just group but also expect some strategy to move after all in life
It is so easy to create some group but hardest task is to lead that group
After all in life we can't forget and then we think that every time
We just don't want to think that we may need strategy to win after
All inside our life every time in life we need some path or way to win
Inside our life just by joining in some mission we manage to get some thing
Better as human but while doing it we want some one else to become
A leader and instead of leading it we find some one else to come ahead
With proper source inside our future as well as our world after all in life
For some thing is important for our world but just strategy is not enough
After all some thing is perfect for our future but for some people
We must need to have some strategy to win after all by just joining
Group of people don't meaning doing some thing big for our world
Just by screaming truth you never achieve a thing we need some plan
To win what is use of pretending that we like truth if for truth we don't
Got some plan which will help to win the truth after all in life we all
Need proper planning just running around and screaming will take us no where
In our future or life but just because we want to win the truth we can't
Just get some wrong guide and if we do that mistake we will have list of
Other truth due to that guide so when we began our fight we must remain
Ready with lot of plans which will help us in our life because winning
Means not just taking people with us for one day in life but it means that
We need to take people on some proper road for our entire life so just
By telling truth to the people and convincing them in their life you are not
Doing that much work until you show them road in their life after all
While fighting for truth we don't need just telling truth in life we need
Many things which will make proper plan for us in every day of entire life.                                                      

Poem 1029. Precautions

                                             Precautions
When ever I see darkness in the sky which bring in life a perfect light
Even at some light you can see sunrise because some sunrise will come
Inside our mind and we don't need sunrise always from outside some times
It's enough for our life to have those sunrise from inside our mind because
What is most important inside our life it is to see that sun rise inside our mind
Because mind is one place which really need sun rise and it is work which
Should be done by us in our life because we can't change timing of sunrise
And those sunrise are some thing which help us in our life but they are
Not some thing which is made by nature as per our like and dislike in life
After all in our life on every light we need nature to improve it with each tide
We can't do any thing which will improve that nature by doing some thing in life
May be every time we don't like sunrise as part of our life because some times
We want to sleep and we need to prefer it at our night so inside that darkness
We can sleep peacefully and quiet but in case of our mind we never need
Darkness or never need sunset in our mind but sadly in our life that
Happens many times our sunset also become part of our stressful life
And after sunset in our just darkness remains which destroy peace of mind
So in every day of life sunrise inside our life are some thing which are made
Inside our mind after all in our life those sunrise mean brightness in life
We need to understand those are some ways who shows person's brightness
Inside our life because those are some thing which keep away from scare in life
Those scare are some thing which are darkness of life but many times I think
That if only those scares vanish from mind but then some one said we also
Need those nights inside our life because they make us aware inside our life
When ever crisis arise we can guess and took precautions in our life and
Those precautions are our darkest thoughts of our nights they give us in life
On each and every time we don't need them as part of our life because
Those darkest thoughts are some thing which always remain in our future and life
But many times I feel we take too much precaution in our life and we just
Do it so much that every time it's just night in our thought and in our eyes
So some time precautions began to harm us in life but don't worry it is not
Risky until we understand this in our life instead of feeling scared we start
To stop them on time but problem is that we don't understand it until they
Fully capture our life in case of normal sunset and sunrise any change will be
Noticed so easily in our life when we wake up if our sun is clouded by black cloud
First thing we say is that it is going to be darkness and there will be thunder
And we must careful because rain is coming to visit us in our life so on that point
We can easily see lack of sun light and easily understood that problem and
Took proper care of it in life but as easily as we understand problems with sun light
We don't understand those problems when they happen inside our thought and
Inside our mind we just ignore them as some problem inside our life because
In our life we see never notice them with so much clarity in our life they seems
Like nothing such until they attack our life they seem like some air bubbles
Which burst away in seconds in our life but mostly it will problem of our life
We hope that our too precautions will vanish and continue taking all precaution in life
Because precautions are some thing we really want to rid of in our life but we think
That it will slowly reduce by itself and carry on taking precautions in our life
Some precautions are necessary but some are just darkness in our mind and they
Manage to destroy our peace of mind which is needed inside our life but on each day
We must understand value of our life and for peaceful life we must took precautions
When they are truly needed inside our future and inside our life on each and every time
So just take all precautions which are needed in life because if you take too much
Precautions in your life some time we forget some we truly needed in our life.

Poem 1028. Fight against lie

                                                       Fight against lie
Many times we see truth is stood before you but still people say it is lie
Or try to ignore you what shall I do that moment I use to think that I need
To fight that I need to rise and advice others to rise and speak against that
Wrong thing of life or may be I try I can do movement against it in life
But when I ask my soul it told me may be I should just control my self
And try to control my thoughts inside my mind and try to give one smile
How confusing is this thought of giving big smile and just ignoring other
Things in our life because when some one lie don't we need to tell it
To whole world and become aware in life just by ignoring them what will
We get inside our life but when I ask my soul it tells me it is not proper time
When time will come I can speak as I wish and as I like so I just stood there
And just said one thing that I don't agree with them in my life then I went
Away from there without looking at other people around me who may be
Agree with that person inside their life but then in mind I have just one
Question why my soul given me such a cowardice advice if I want to say
Some thing don't I need to rise that night I just hated my self for following
That advice but next morning I know how right was that advice because
When some one said some thing more aggressively it look totally wrong for life
Because anger took control of that fellow and that person began to speak
Against abusively in life when you get carried away with anger then we can't
Think how bad it will look to other people who stood before us in this life
And how upsetting it will be when we need to prove our point because when
We start to fight for some thing we lose one thing that is peace of our mind
And then we easily forget to give respect to other person inside our life
Even if our enemy is worst still we need to control our language in this life
And those who can't control it can't achieve convincing other in their life
Because convincing is so slow process even if that thing is clear as white
Because once some person form opinion that person need to understand
Value of that opinion in life just because we have opinion may be it's best for life
But that don't make it best for other person in life because when we start
Convincing before that lot of people have convinced them against it in life
Before we went ahead and try to convince them so it seems that it is not right
To decide what is wrong and what is right for our future and our entire life
Because some time lie becomes so strong for some person that they just
Want it to be proved for their heart to be truth and they are not ready to
Understand any thing wrong in any part because lie is some thing which
Is not easy to except by heart and it will always have many effects on heart
So I just want to forget lie for life's some part and want it to be hidden inside heart
But my heart have just one question how can I keep quiet when some times
People again and again raise same topic which manage to hurt my feelings
And my heart but if you frankly trust your heart then may be we will feel
Happy only when we understand that screaming for truth is useless part
We need to take more time on those people to convince them our heart
Because when we want to convince some one first we need to go back
To that person and give respect to some of that one's opinion because
We have to convince that one that we are not showing that one don't know
The world at all because many time intelligent people make mistake and
Accepting it seems for them a hardest task and hardest art so inside this world
We must understand to bow before other and give them respect when we want
Them to accept thing which we want to convince from our heart because
No one can accept that they are fool when some one convince them wrong
And they said it then it will take lot of efforts to change their rules so inside life
When you want to convince some one lie just learn to give that one a nice smile
Because only that smile will control that anger which will going to destroy
What truth you are telling or what you want to convince other person in their eye. 

Poem 1027. Kind heart

                                              Kind heart
Good will finally win and evil had a fall that is what we thought
When against some wrong person good person win a war but
Question is that are we really good that by our winning good will
Really win in all heart and while defeating are we sure evil don't
Leave it's seeds in many heart mostly evil leaves seeds of hate and anger
Which will slowly grow in other part while good one mostly don't
Seem so good after winning because no human being will be perfect
As long as that person is human being and on this world and on our earth
We can hardly every day hope of god so god is rare visitor and
Those human being are not that good which will make good winner
As long as earth stood and there is breath in all heart because after
Winning one war people start to look around and they want many things
Like dominating people who stood around winner have one bad habit
That is thinking other are nothing before him because he was winning of that part
Only if winner understand it in just one chapter of book called life and
It will not end on that part even normal books can't end in one part then
How can we expect life to stop on just one part and life never fail from heart
It always take revenge in further part but question is that what will be your role
In next part some times last chapter's hero may turn into villain in life's next part
So you need to be careful about what you want and what you ask just
Don't think you are going to be hero every time just because you win in first part
Life loves to change in each and every way so life can easily find new hero
For next part so if you don't act properly be prepared to turn into villain in next part
But some people just don't think they need to think about future from their heart
They just think that they are winner so they deserved to enjoy it from their heart
But while enjoying that part they forgot may be villain is not dead at all
We need to be prepared for evil because it is not in just one person but
It is inside each and every greedy heart so hero is not based on anything in any part
Hero is based on people who have their kind heart so inside our life on every part
How can we be winner inside our heart because kindness is some thing seems
Rare in heart and only just kindness don't make you hero of that chapter which
Written in part but if you really want to have some important part then
Some people are ready to become villain instead of playing so small part
So this is greed of importance which have destroyed many noble hearts
They say that they have done in for their people but do you think destroying
Others and hurting others is right part in life in many ways we feel we are wrong
But that don't mean we have right to hurt other people's heart but when
Such wrong chain start we can't control any person or many injured heart
But some people just said that they done it because other person hurt their heart
And we can't stop them because they will say we don't know pain inside their heart
So while claiming they have right to fought they forget easily that they may created victims
Who will become heroes in next part but strange thing is that people always see fault
Like when some says heroes they also want mention heroins as different part
How can person treat thing this way and always manage to start some war
After all heroes mean niceness of nature why even in that one word people
Manage to start another war how interesting is process of justice that it have
Art of finding mistake in every part and then they easily claim that we all need
Hero to fight that war and then they get hero's part so do we really need hero of that sort
Who just start a war not because they have respect for any one but just because
They want a chapter in which they can become hero of people's heart but
In life if you want hero it's some thing made by luck not by talking art after all
Heroes are some person who act due to circumstances and due to kindness in their heart.

Poem 1026. Different way

                                                   Different way
How interesting was that speech when it is the way we like and
The way we want but problem arises when person who stood before
You just don't like at all that thinking they want some thing different
From their heart and then one question enters in their life which
Is perfect for our thought that can we become a friend of some one
Who is not like us at all in thoughts or it is impossible to keep friendship
With such person who are perfect as human but have too different thought
Some says that friend meaning just meeting for few hours and chatting
For some time in days then why think so such about their thought but
In our life friend is a person who lives with us every day in our life
Even if for few moment still we share that moment with that person
In our future as well as in our life is some times depend on us in life
After all in our life on each confused moment we need a friend for advice
And if that person don't agree with us in thoughts how can we win in life
With that person's advice because thought of that person will not apply
To our thinking and our thought then our decision will change in many part
So we need some one who must know what is good for our heart but
Then some times it's better to have such friend who say some thing against us
Because that will tell fault in our strategy and help us to go ahead every day
Same thoughts never mean that we are perfect some times it just means
That two person think same way but some times that thinking can be wrong
In each and every way we thought that we can see proper because
We both think the same way so two friends who think same way are like
Mirror image it will be perfect and identical for every one else but
But question is that did you think that image will help because that
Image will be some thing which is perfect for our world and every one else
But question is that in our life if we want to go ahead do we need a identical
Image which just repeat our sentence since it will the be just same way or
May be other person can't think like us in each and every way and that
Person is not using brain just nodding on our each and every sentence
Because those sentence are some thing which will please us in each way
After all we like our image but just watching our self in mirror is never
Going to help us in our entire future and in our life on each and every day
We need some one who will help us in each and every way because
Those images are important for us because they will support us in their way
And we need some one to support us in life because in world we see many person
Who will like to pull us behind in each and every way and since we all know
That this is our life we see many people who pull our legs we need as a support
Our true and sincere friend as our mirror image because we will stay with
Each other without any condition about our life in each and every way
So inside this life we need some one who is just like us every way but
If we really want to go ahead in our life we also need some different thinking
From our friend after all in our life  every time we need some one
As our best helper and as our friend because unless we get different views
How can we learn to win the game because for wining we need all views
We can get after all in our life we need plenty of views in each and every way
But question that the person who have views which are against us every day
How can that friendship survive for a day in my life I find it hard to adjust
With such person who have different way because when ever I say some thing
That person claims it different way so inside my life I prefer a friend who is
My mirror image when may be in my life I need also some one who thinks different way.

Poem 1025. My wants

                                                          My wants
There are some thoughts which becomes life's part and to destroy them
From heart is always hardest task for all because those thoughts are some thing
Which kept coming back from heart those thoughts are something which
Just always remain your part like some storm they take you away from world
But you feel as if you got wings to reach the sky and you can began to fly
Those thoughts are some thing interesting to the world but that thoughts
Are some thing which are so addictive that we are keep them away from heart
Just we need to beware of those thoughts which take us on totally wrong way
But easily manage to capture out heart those thoughts are that world which
Is in strange form and it always manage to take inside and we hardly find
Why  that circle for our heart those thought could any thing but they have
One thing in them common that is our want they lead us to destruction with
Our want when we are first born so small were our wants but as we grow up
Grows up our wants but worst thing is time which take us ahead in our life
And with it slowly increased our want we need so many things which require
In our life but there are some thing which just become necessity and want
When we went ahead modern become the world so we need many gadgets
Which were luxury until some months so inside this life on every time
We need some thing interesting for our life those luxuries were never turn in to want
And they never take us ahead in our life because they were truly needed in life
As it's part we need them for work and we need them to go ahead so on them
We need to spend money then why are we wasting it on other thing every way
But what shall we suppose to when our need become different than our want
We can't ignore our need but can we ignore our each and every want because
Need is some thing which always stood before us and it some thing require like
Clothes for us we can ignore that need until we can but one day need will come
Before us and we have to fulfill it because it will not matter then what will
We want from our thinking and our heart because needs are some thing which
Have skill to force and needs just never like to be ignore so one day we need
To fulfill our need but what about many things which comes in our heart like
Some tide of want like want some thing new like want for some unknown trip
Or want for some jewel which please our heart or may be it could a want of car
Can we ignore them but truth of life is that we need to ignore them because
If we start to spending money on them saving which never exist on our card
And saving is important for whole life but then one question comes that
What about need of happiness in our heart but once you fulfill some heart will want more
And once you fulfill need they also arise more so every one seems to want more
From our part but question is that how much we can afford is true question
Not heart but for brain who calculates it all so we need to adjust some times
Our want instead of going unknown trip we can always enjoy some known holidays
If we convince our heart we can use some nice and old car instead of real jewel
Artificial jewel can fulfill our heart so this is what we do in our life on each and every part
But why we feel sad about it because we feel we are cheating our heart but
Trust me my friends you can never fulfill your heart even you do these things
Heart will not find peace it just want more from heart so try to understand that
Your heart will not fulfill until you force your heart because heart will just want more
And one day you stop fulfilling your need and just concentrate on your want from heart
And slowly unfulfillment of need destroy your life on many point and many part
Heart's want are not nature like sunrise they are some thing like light bulb which
Don't close automatically until you keep that system or close with your hand in life. 

Poem 1024. Just one thing

                                                Just one thing
Some times some problems just remain part of our world but
Many times we never able to accept that problem or that trouble
Which lead to many problems in our logic as well as our world
Because when that problem enters inside our word we began to think
That our problem is nothing but just biggest cause of our sorrows inside
Our logic fails to tell us every truth and our logic never wins in any part
When we began to think that problem is going to destroy our heart
And after some time in logic then we began to think that problems
Have create so many troubles inside our world because these problems
Are some thing which are our part so never hurt your self because
We think that our problem is main cause of our sorrows when it was
Always our life's part it was with us even from beginning but it began
To harm us when we start thinking actually some thing else is irritating
Our soul and heart but since we can't stop it we began to think that
Stopping that problem is best for our heart because that problem is
Some thing which always stop us from our help after all in our world
Our life is some thing which get disturbed and then we start to see some cause
Which will destroy our world those problems which hurt us are many times
Due to some people and when we can't stop them we began to think that
If only we solve our some minor problem it will fully change our world
So on every moment inside our world problem are some thing which
Manage to create lot of troubles for us but if since childhood we have
Some problem inside our world why suddenly it become bigger and
Began to destroy logic inside our thoughts and inside our future of world
When we have some thing as our life's part like some people are taller
And some people are short they are same way since they are children then
Why we began to think it's big when some other problem arise and if
Some one is unhappy because people call them dark then why don't they
Feel  satisfied  at their heart when they win the game  I don't think my friend
Problems are our body part problems are those things which hurt our heart
When some person who are nothing before us easily manage to insult us
May be that one was not that much better than us still that feeling always manage
To hurt our feeling which are hidden inside heart even when we win we can't
Feel the same because those things are like glass particles which are inside
Our body and manage to hurt us again and again so inside our life all logic
Will fail and we just want make that change in our self but do you really think
That change will do any good I don't think that change will help us much again
After all in our life we can see many logic at that moment that if only we remove
That fault we will become great so to remove that part we do many things
In hope that it will help us to move ahead but if you ask your heart then
Truth is that we can never win any game unless we accept that we are not
Less in any way and those people who are saying bad about us are going to
Blame us in each and every way so inside our life if we want to move ahead
We need to understand those things don't make us less it is those people
Who don't have proper thinking to went ahead just claim that some person
Are good and some person are less in each and every way so inside our life
On every moment we must understand this logic is just waste no one is more
And no one is less we are just different and that don't make us in any way less
Some have some thing and other have different thing but we must understand to
Give each other respect so what ever you are just remember one thing every day
When ever you win in your life just treat properly each person on every day
And give them respect because every winner is going to lose one day and
Every loser is going to go on top on the mountain on which you stood today.

Adventure story 99. Gift from god

                                                                      Gift from god
Tushar began his job.He was a Doctor and his job was to treat patients perfectly and he was doing it.But when he started entering in hospital,he felt strange panic.This was what happening now a days with him.When ever he entered in that hospital,he began to feel panic.Life was never easy for him.Especially since his father left his mother for that other woman.His father was a rich man and always had wrong habit.Every one knew it very well but no one dared to say anything against him.But when one day he announced that he was going to stay with that new actress.It was too much for his mother.She decided to take divorce.It was all so horrible for him.When it all started,he was just in tenth standard and every one started asking him strange questions which were not easy to answer.They all wanted to know that why his parents were taking divorce after so many years of marriage.He couldn't tell them all that his father was having affairs and they were so many that he had lost his count about it.His mother was forced to take divorce after his latest drastic step.His mother was scared that his father would give all his money to this woman.He couldn't say it all.He had to give just small answers and ignore it.That chapter just dragged for five years because his father was not ready to give them enough money. But finally that actress decided to break up with his father and his father once again returned to his mother. Tushar knew that he would cheat his mother again but he left that it was useless to convince his mother either her love was blind or her need of money blinded her.He didn't know which was the cause but when his father started talking sweetly his mother took him in his house again and it was worst for him.Anyway on that moment he got nice job in this hospital so he shifted here.Away from his parents and their all those family dramas.He hoped that he would find peace here.But..then suddenly he heard that he was called so he ran towards operation theater.
      When Tushar started going towards operation theater.He noticed that patient's relative came running towards him.They wanted to talk to him.They needed to be consoled but he literally pushed his way out of them.This was perfect place for him.He didn't want to face patient's relatives so he went inside.His surgical mask was waiting for him.He felt so happy to see it.He immediately put on his mask.Then he felt relaxed.He went outside. Now he could easily talk with patient's relatives.He started talking to them.But in few moments he called again so he entered in operation theater.Tushar was relaxed now.He could talk easily with everyone now.He was instructing nurses and talking with senior Doctor.He was confident now.He was sure that he wanted to do it perfect and with that mask.He felt like some one who would win. Once again he operated perfectly.He smiled then he saw that every one was removing mask.He was scared now.At first he didn't remove this mask but then his senior asked "Dr.Tushar remove your mask.""Yes Sir."He removed his mask.Tushar was once more scared.Doctor Rohan noticed sudden change in Tushar's face.Doctor Rohan"Dr.Tushar what happen?"Now Tushar felt tense.His face was not normal.He could feel that.His jaw was turning in strange way.But before Dr.Rohan could ask him further questions.Relatives of patient came running towards him.Then Dr.Rohan observed that Tushar literally ran away from them.Dr.Rohan was so confused.Then he thought that Tushar might had some important case so he left this way.
           For Tushar his worst day was started.He could feel that he was acting strange.He saw it clearly in faces of everyone.Just few years ago Tushar was such friendly Doctor to everyone.Each nurse and ward boy used to smile at him.Even when he was student and doing his internship even on that time his senior Doctor used to chat with him.But then suddenly he began to scared of facing them.Whenever someone came to chat with him.He started avoiding.Mostly people took it as insult so he was all alone in his world.Then he turned on that moment he saw Pradip.He was chatting happily with someone.He felt that his anger was rising inside him.It was all Pradip's fault.No.Not just fault.It was Pradip'd sin.Tushar wanted to him to be punished.Not just him Tushar wanted Rosa to be punished also.He was imagining them to be died in some painful accident or then he thought that slab which was above Pradip fall on his head and his head was broken .He just liked his idea.He was smiling to himself when he felt touch on his shoulder.Tushar was scared that some one had noticed him.But it was nurse.Nurse "Doctor your patient is waiting for you."That nurse was looking at him with smile.But still he felt nervous.He knew that some thing was wrong with his expression because her smile vanished.He was sure that he would not face any one now.He was shivering with fear and this nurse was telling him that he must attend patient.Tushar"I will attend them tomorrow.""Tomorrow?You have avoided them for one week.I don't think that I can avoid them any more.If you do this then they will report it.Please Doctor handle your case."Tushar nodded.Once again he looked at Pradip was smiling happily.Tushar thought that he must be boosting about this love and relationship.Tushar felt more upset.He was turning in to chicken and Pradip was turning into macho man.This was all wrong.God was doing injustice towards him every time.He wanted to cry.But he had to attend his patients.He knew like always.He would more upset his patient and they left his cabin unsatisfied.He never understood that how did they come to visit him.Then he remembered that he was surgeon and he was perfect in operation theater.He thanked his stars for that choice in career.
      When Tushar entered in room,he immediately started looking at pictures on this wall.Then he noticed that there was not any picture on them except as dirty painting because he never spent any time on decorating room.But he spent lot of time on decorating his home.He suddenly began to remember that how nicely he used to decorate his house with help of Rosa.He started remembering every time in which they both lived happily.Then suddenly patient spoke"Doctor.."Tushar came back to his present tense.Suddenly he began to remember all that money he wasted on interior of his house whole wastage.He was never going to marry now so it all was waste of money.Then once again he sat on that chair and started looking at patient's reports.He made all diagnosis which was perfect.He knew that his patient was upset because he was not making eye contact.It was new patient so he didn't know his habit.New patient mostly wasted lot of time in efforts to chat with him.Old patients knew him very well.After some time finally they gave up and took report with which they went away.He was sure that they would ask for second opinion and only if they didn't find any better Doctor then they would come to him.Number of his patients was reducing.They were no more satisfied with him as once they used to be.But he knew that it was his mistake.After some time there was knock on his door."May I come in?"He looked up.It was his old friend from college.He was just shifted to this hospital.Obviously he expected Tushar to introduce him to every one.Tushar was avoiding him.Finally his friend Kunal came in.At beginning Kunal chatted about every thing around him.Tushar just nodded.Whole time Tushar was looking at tabel.Kunal"Tushar you are Doctor right?""Yes I am.""But still I think you need a Doctor.""Come on.I am fine.""Physically you are.Mentally you are not.Today your nurse was telling me that you were postponing your patient's appointements without reason."Tushar suddenly got angry.He was about to scream on her.But Kunal stopped him."Come on Tushar can't you see?She was concern about you.Even Dr.Rohan mentioned your strange behaviour today." Now Tushar was tense.Tushar"What did he say?""He did feel anything that wrong.But he just suggested that you were in too much hurry today.You didn't even waited to say good bye before going."Tushar was so shocked.He was making mistake everywhere now a days.Tushar wanted to cry but not before Kunal.He didn't trust his friends any more.
       Tushar wanted to change his behaviour but nothing was changing.He was trying to avoid every one and slowly eye contact with patients or even with other Doctors became impossible for him.Then one day Pradip told everyone that he was going to marry Rosa.Everyone looked shocked.They all looked at Tushar even when they didn't want to hurt Tushar.After that everyone in hospital started gossiping.Tushar's problem was doubled by it.He just wanted to avoid hospital but he couldn't do it.Then one day Kunal came in his office.Kunal"I think you should visit psychiatrist.""I ...am..fine""Then look at me."Tushar tried but he just couldn't.Kunal "Dr.Rohan wanted you to do it and you must go.I have taken appointment."Before Tushar could say anything.Kunal forced him to come.Tushar wanted to object but somewhere in his heart he knew that he needed this.So he went there.As soon as Tushar went there,Kunal immediately left him alone with Psychiatrist.Psychiatrist smiled and said "Now tell me your story."Tushar never felt that he was that much eager to tell it.But he started telling it.After his father's behaviour he always thought that he would be honest to his wife.Then he met Rosa who was staying in his neighbourhood.At first they were just friend then slowly they got involved.But Tushar never crossed his limits.Finally one day he proposed her.Then they got engaged.At their engagement he introduced her with Pradip his best friend.At beginning it was all nice Pradip never came near her always treated her respectfully before Tushar.But one day when Tushar was free from hospital unexpectedly.He returned to his home.Then he noticed that some one was inside Rosa's house.It was horrible.When he saw that Pradip was with her,she told him clearly that he wanted Pradip more than him.She broke their engagement without any feelings.Then Tushar came back after that his problem started.Tushar never told any one about it.Tushar"Now Pradip is enjoying his life and look at me I am useless.God is so unfair.""What is unfair?You got everything.You have brain and perfect body every thing and you want god to come running just because you made wrong choice.""But I loved her.""So what?She didn't love you.Don't you think that you are repeating your mother's mistake.Kids normally do it.Now let me explain medically.You are suffering from Social Phobia.It happened due to continous stress in your parent's relationship and now this incidence triggered to in full force.Don't worry.You will get over it."Then Doctor started counselling him.After that for some time Tushar had to go to Doctor.Slowly his stress was reduced.He started meeting every one happily again.But there was just one person he still prefered to avoid his ex friend Pradip so he never went to attend Pradip's marriage.In fact his many friends had avoided it tactfully.But those who attended it had told him many things.This time he didn't took it to heart.He just looked at his body which was perfect and that one gift from god was enough for him.
                                                                          The End

Poem 1023. Human's world

                                           Human's world
How innocent way some times we see some thing which will cause
Many sort of problems inside our life and our world then after some time
We began to think that if we do something innocently inside our world
It will turn into nice every time in the world we think that when things
Are done with pure heart they just turn every thing on the earth in heaven
So we are so sure when we do some thing good for our world which
Nice thinking in our mind then we will do some thing that bring heaven on earth
So I feel so sure that pure heart never does any mistake in world and
Person with nice heart only show me best and perfect way in entire world
How wrong it may turn everything inside our world still every time
We feel that we have chosen some one with nice heart and just believe
That this person never decide some thing wrong and harmful for us
Even if we want to change view inside our thinking and our earth just
Because we want to adjust that person's thinking inside our heart and world
Those innocent people can never to anything wrong inside this world
So we began to trust each and every point inside our life which is told by
Those innocent people but question is that did those innocent people
Really know this world after all every time we began to think about
This world after all how much those innocent and pure heart know
About world and about truth which are hidden inside our thinking and world
But those people who work every time inside our mind and our world
Then after some times that innocent people are not that perfect sort of people
So inside my mind we began to trust our thinking inside our world
Those thoughts are some thing which force me every time trust person
Who are kind hearted and of nice nature so without trusting those people
We began to think those innocent thoughts are perfect for our world
And we just began to trust them without ever thinking about them in world
Those innocent thoughts are not always perfect for our future and our world
Because those thought don't tell us anything inside this world and they don't
Teach every thing in world after all in this world every time those people
Can't make perfect decision on this earth because those decisions are
Some thing never so perfect as we thought inside our future and our world
So we think that innocent person is something who always do some thing
Which is right for world but finally we find that inside our world every thing
Will not turn into some thing which is perfect for our world after all
In their thought some times turn wrong for our world so then we began
To change our way from their thoughts inside our world but some people
Sadly inside our life don't change their thoughts and just follow
Those innocent people but after some time we can easily see change
In them on every movement inside our world and we destroy our world
But when all turn in wrong way we start to feel those ways were wrong
And we are cheated by those innocent people because after all those innocent
People are never that perfect inside our world because they just misguided
Our thoughts and our world so we are all got confused by those wrong
Thoughts and thinking inside our future and our world after all those
Thoughts were never that perfect for us but we always think that
Those thoughts are not perfect for our world because logic is some thing
Which left us when we began to trust but it is some times wrong to trust
Some person because person can have wrong logic in their world so
I think that we must not too much trust that person after all in this world
Logic turns in wrong way when it comes to thinking of a person in this world
We are not god so even an innocent person with pure heart can make mistake in world
So don't even keep blind faith on any thing in the world since person are
Just human being and mistake is just other rule of human's world. 

Poem 1022. Our life

                                                                Our life
When some thing fresh happen in life we just get so involved in our life

Inside our life always some thing new which create some nice effects in our life

There are some thing which get us so involved in it that we forget our days and night

We are so involved in those new happening in life that we are in just few moments

Forgot our own life may there be big lines of people who are waiting to be their work

Completed by you still instead of completing our work we began to discuss

New and interesting happening inside our future as well as inside our life 

Even if those happening can't change our life still we just love to spend our hours

Discussing life of those person who never going to become part of our future and life

Because our future is some thing which never involved in that news which come

Before us in that news as new happening of our life still we get happy or we may get

Upset when some famous person does some thing in their life may it be their marriage

Or may it be their divorce in their life we began to think about just their life

I saw some times even honeymoon couples who should be enjoying their life

Were discussing some thing about those celebrities in their life and they were

Instead of thinking about their life they were discussing divorce of those celebrities in life

They were when suppose to discuss their life and plan what they suppose to do
In their future as well as their life because they never feel need to discuss their life
Instead of planning their future they just feel that they discuss about latest news in life
Which seem to them more important than their own life how easily person
Began to think importance in their life they began to think that their life is not
That important as that celebrity's life because they began to think that in life
We slowly began to think that nothing is important about our life than those celebrity's life
After all in our life on every day of life we spend so many days in reading about
Those celebrities in our life that some people think more about them instead of their life
Their happiness and sorrows become part of our life but important question is that
Is it wrong or right in happiness when we discuss their sorrows in life
I just don't like it because I think that is reducing happiness in life and sometimes
When I saw on funeral people discussing marriage of celebrities on wrong time
I feel as if those people are far away from their own future and their life
They just get so involved in life of other people in their life so many people think
That celebrity don't want interfere in their life after all in our life we don't want
Every one to jump and advice but sadly in our life we always went ahead to give
Other person's advice so why do we need to discuss their life who don't want
To have advice in their life when ever we look at them even by mistake
Many times they give that expression so tight that their expression tell us that
They even don't like it when we look at them with curious eyes so when
Some one hate even when we look at them in our life why we need to discuss their life
I don't think that it is wrong that they hate when we watch them inside their life
After all if some one started watching other person every time no one is going to like
What they show on television is just only their one side and they just want
Some thing in their life after all inside our life we all think that we all want
Some thing which is perfect for our life so in life that person have one hidden side
Inside our life that bad side is some thing which affects our thinking and life
That bad side is some thing which they want to hide from people which they want
To hide from our life so they don't want us to look at them so inside our life
We spend our hours on such people who never want us to look at them in life
Just being famous don't mean people want you to discuss them in your life
Just try to discuss more your self than other people in our future or in your life
But I think some times people discuss other life just because they want to escape
From their problems and their life so they just discuss celebrity's life to avoid
Talking about them and about talking about their future as well as their life. 

Poem 1021. Faith in life

                                                             Faith in life
How strange is this world when we know what will happen in world
When we do some mistake still we do same mistake in our life and
In this world when we start walking we feel that god will come to us
And god will help us every time but is it wise to act so wrong in this world
On every time just because we trust the god and think that god will help us
On each and every time so strange is the world that on one side this world
Got some people who will hope god will come and help than do any thing in life
They even cross their roads without looking around in life but I have just
One question is it really wise after all these eyes are given by god so
We are supposed to use them in our life but some people in life just say that
Faith means believing from heart and in every thing in life so we must
Learn to keep faith in god and then we can do anything as we like
Even some time they say it's okay to do some crime just because god is with them
God can't let them be harmed in any way and by any route inside our life
Just because they have faith in god then they can do anything in their life
So on each and every time they do as they like and for them even crimes are okay
Because they are made by god with thought of keeping faith inside their mind
But I never think god will ever like crime so why are we so scared of those people
Who can do those crime after all god never support any crime in entire life
And still some times in our life we feel scared just because those people
Tell us god is on their side I just have one question in my life that don't we
Understand that god before whom we pray on our days and nights if we understand
Then how can we believe in our life that god is stood on their side after all in life
Since we are child don't we every time pray before god to help us on each point
But still when we start living life our faith start to diminish on each and every point
And we began to think that god will help them those who don't have kindness in mind
So strange is this world that person who do crime can able to say so easily that
God is on their side while person like us who always keep kindness in mind have
No faith in that god who is ready to help kindness on every time just because
Some one's sword have power to shine that don't mean that person is perfect and right
And that never show that god is stood behind that kind biggest question in life
Is that god is on which side but god never answer it even if we want it to be answered
From our heart as well as our mind after all in life some times we need to read others mind
So may be god think that many things are so clear that they don't need again to told in life
But human being never have enough memory in life due to which after every few moments
God need us to remind what is truth of life on one side are those people who don't
Have enough faith in mind but act as honestly as they can able to act in their life
And on other side even these people are making some mistake in their life which
Are pointed by those who claim they are worship god on each and every minutes in life
So if they worship so much how did they manage to make that much money in life
Those who have real faith don't need money in their life but some person throw
Their money every where and say their faith have given them that money in life
But do you really think that god will give person money to keep faith on him inside life
God never gives gift in return for his faith in life because in return on faith
You just get one gift that is your faith and your peace of mind for entire life
Other things we get are just destiny in our life god never give money to person
Because that one keep faith in him in life when faithful person get money in life
That one just say that it is god's gift inside that one's life what ever that one may get
That person have nature to give it credit to other person inside their life and
Those people give of their every success to god in life because that is their true faith
In god and that is their true pureness inside god never give you money in return of your faith in life.

Poem 1020. Helpful crisis

                                           Helpful crisis
Have you ever woke up in morning and don't able to see sunlight
And even those mornings are so dark for our mind that when I woke up
I just see darkness in my mind due to those mornings in my life that
Is one question which comes in mind that is can darkness destroy every sight
When these things are described by people they seems so horrible for
Our thinking as well as for our mind so when we heard these descriptions
We are convinced in life that those people have suffered a lot more than us
And that problem is crisis for our mind so some people are so perfect
When they start to describe that they tell us many things which seemed
So scary to our ears that we just never want to see them in our life
We just think that how horrible it will be when we wake up in morning
And can't see sunshine how scary it seems to think about that sort of night
Because when that day starts we can just able to see darkness of night
And we just feel that darkness will enter in our heart and manage to destroy
Some parts of our life because when we think of morning our first thought is
Of bright and clear type of sunlight which will bring crisis on them and
Which will never let us live peacefully and happily in life so we can't
Imagine those crisis in our life so when some one said that if we do some thing
This happen in our life that we can't even able to sun on morning in our life
When they say this way we feel so scared in our life as if it is some thing
Worst in our life we think due to some mistake they are suffering worst
Crisis in their life but do you really think crisis happen because there is
Some reason behind in life on each day I feel that every time crisis is
Some thing which is written in destiny without any idea in life but some times
I think there must be reason behind all those crisis in our thinking and life
That is most interesting question in our life do we really have some reason
In life which lead to those crisis in our life after all these crisis are some thing
Change us in many ways inside our life but these crisis which we need in life
Those crisis are some thing which created problems inside our life but
They change us so they seems like examination which are kept before us in life
To teach us how to go ahead and try to manage our future with more clear life
These things are some thing which show us many lights but still some times
I feel that crisis are not made some thing which help our thinking and our life
But they just come as per rule truth is that they suppose to come in life
After all those crisis are some thing which are not right in any part of life
Crisis are some thing which help people but it is their thinking which manage
To change their heart so in life on every part we think that in our life
On each and every part we think that those crisis can be useful for heart
But crisis are just one of part which take us to change of thinking but
It is our inside heart which is always show us true way and gives light
To our thinking and our heart since those people are some thing important
Which are important for heart that crisis are some thing which are not
Suppose to give some light inside our heart so those light will give
Us but I just want to know why do we always need crisis to understand
Truth in our heart so after some time we think that these thing are
Some thing which depend on our thinking and our heart in our life
We just turn simple things inside our life which created problems in life
Because those problems seems to wake up some good and thrill in our heart
Like at first we said that in life every time we need to think crisis in life
Just think that it is not crisis which created in cloudy season in life after all
The darkness is nothing but so simple sort of problem in our life
But we need it to be crisis because we want to shine bright in our life
So many times we create crisis which are not existed inside our future and life.

Poem 1019. Quit in life

                                                             Quit in life
Some times some dream start so irritate me that I began to wish from heart
Why did I have that dream people says in life if you kept some dream then try
Until end of your life you need to try because if you just keep shifting you can't
Get things which are important in your life or important for your sky but
Still some times some dream upset you so much that I began to think that
Do I need to stick to it so much because that dream is some thing which don't
Take me where I want so why do I need to stick it after all life is not just about
Proving your point some times if you think you are totally wrong do you really think
Turning back is crime I know turning back is called coward act but how can you
Remain stick to such dream which will just manage to hurt our feeling and heart
But there is one question which is always awake in our heart do our feeling
Are more important or more important is success of our life so some times
Our dreams to such a turn that on one hand stood our heart and other hand
Stood success inside our life so every day we thought that our life is some thing
Which always tell us that we must fulfill our dream from mouth of every one
So even when our dream began to irritate us we start to try hard in our life
And on every spot of mind we forget what is wrong and what is right for our mind
Those dreams are some thing which are in our view important and right
But what can we do when those same dreams seems like irritation in our life
People may claim that you are saying this just because you are not getting them
But there is always one truth in life which means such a dream always give
Happiness and pleasure to all man kind now how strange is our life that
When we can't make our self happy still we need to take job of making happy
To all man kind but do you really think this is truth of life that a dream which
Can't make us happy can bring happiness for other person in our future or life
Some times I think these are just excuses to force us to do some things in life
Some times they say it will make happy that person then it point other person
Who stood next to us in life how can just one dream make us happy inside life
When we just carry on thinking about others inside life and their happiness by it
Because when we made that dream it was just for us and for our mind
It was not for others and make them happy in life how can just having success
In our dream can make others happy when that dream don't bring happiness
For us inside this life after all dream is some thing made for us and we never
Thought about world at that time but many times people says that we suppose
To think about other persons in our life but I have just one question how much
Those person think about us in their entire life if our morals are perfect then
Why don't we just quit that dream in life because many times such dreams are
Unknowingly force on us by other minds because when some thing you heard
When you are small kid that thing just create some effect on your mind
So always in our life keep those dream which bring happiness in our mind
They say we must think about world not just about our self in our life but
If they really act that way then why don't they think about us on that moment in life
Every one just claim big things but question is that who do them in life
After all expecting from other is easy doing it is hardest part inside our future and life
They just force you to do many things in your life saying that it is important for
Whole world and that is what whole world demand from you in life but
If you ask your heart it will tell you what is wrong and what is right and if you don't
Trust your heart then there are lot of other things which can give you advice
But just never stick to some dream because some one said it is good for world
And for others life because people normally say this just when they want to force
Their thoughts on you and on your mind just do as you wish and fly in sky
As you like never keep some dream just because some one said once you dream
Some thing you can't quit it entire life because achieving as well as quitting both are your right
And every person do it on some time or on some spot in their life just some says
The truth and some prefer to hide but on some point people need to quit in life.