Incidence in shadows
Roma was observing all incidence carefully. She was watching it carefully from window. She could see in shadows. Someone was hitting another person. She shivered with fear. She couldn’t see anything clearly. She didn’t understand what was going on. She ran inside house in kitchen. She started calling her mom. Her Mom came towards her & asked “What happened?” Roma “Mom someone in house of next building hitting someone. I feel some thief must have entered inside house.” Her Mom came running towards window too. Her Mom began to observe. Her Mom said “This house belongs to Mr. Akash now. His father just died. He must be inside house only. Let me call him.” Then her mom immediately called Akash & the one who was hitting immediately ran towards table in shadow. Her Mom looked scared. Mom wanted to disconnect call but it was too late. Mr. Akash took her call. “Hello!” Mom didn’t want to enter in matter aggressively. Mom slowly said “I hope I have not disturbed you.” “No…No not at all.” “I want to know when we suppose to come for your father’s funeral. I don’t want to disturb you unnecessarily.” “Oh! It’s okay. You are neighbor you can come whenever you want.” Roma’s Mom didn’t want to talk further so she just said bye & disconnected call. Mom didn’t want to interfere too. Mom “Roma you don’t need to keep watching out of that window. It’s another person’s house.” “But Mom someone was hitting other person.” Mom suddenly got angry & screamed on Roma “Why did you need to keep talking with me like that?” “Mom, I didn’t talk in wrong way with you! I was talking nicely. I am good girl. I just told you…” “Keep away from that window.” Roma shivered. Mom screamed on her & Roma didn’t understand why. Roma just decided to obey. Roma closed that window. They were living this house for long time. One old Uncle & Auntie used to live there. Roma used to watch them for hours. They were such pleasant couple. While her parenting used to argue many times these uncle & Auntie always used to joke & laugh. But then Uncle died. Auntie left that house. They said Auntie went to stay in some house which belonged to elder people. Auntie didn’t want to stay there alone after death of Uncle. It was too painful for Auntie. She didn’t understand meanings of those things but she used to nod to them. She never thought things would become so bad. When son of Uncle & Auntie shifted there, Roma continued watching through that window. It was her habit. But today it managed to scare her a lot. She knew that this house was no longer pleasant house. Roma locked that window. She managed to keep it out of her sight. Roma still kept feeling upset in her mind. Roma didn’t tell anything to her mom after that incidence but Roma could clearly hear voices. Roma went to school as she always did. She enjoyed her school time. She didn’t like studying so much still with her friends & her teacher. She could always concentrate on fun side of her school than her studies but still she always got good marks. Her teachers admired her. She felt so positive about entire thing now. She was feeling hopeful. She came back home from school. As she always did, she once again went in her room. She was about to open window when she felt suddenly so scared. She just closed. She didn’t tell her parents about it. She just kept it in her heart. She was so scared.
Roma’s
mom was not happy after observing the way Roma was reacting. Roma’s mom wanted
to complaint but she couldn’t. Her mom was not ignoring matter entirely. She
went to visit Mr. Akash’s house next day. She talked with his wife. But his
wife was clearly happy with her life. It was problematic to even prove that
Akash was hitting his wife. Akash’s wife was admiring him so much. Roma’s mom
decided to ignore matter. But slowly Roma’s mom began to sense that Roma was
feeling so scared. Roma was not comfortable in her room. Roma used to play
& laugh whole time in her room. But now Roma didn’t laugh at all. Roma’s
mom wanted to discuss this with her dad. So, one day Roma’s mom started to
discuss it with her dad. Her dad looked so upset when her mom started to talk
about. Her dad immediately said “We don’t need to look in their house.” Then
Dad called Roma. Mom tried to stop him but he didn’t listen. Roma entered in
parent’s bedroom. Roma immediately shivered after watching her dad’s angry
look. Roma slowly asked “What happened Dad?” “Roma, don’t you know that it’s
bad manners to look inside other person’s house?” Roma nodded. Roma sensed that
it was entirely her fault. She was not supposed to look in that house. It was
their personal life. She was the one who did mistake. Roma immediately said “I
am sorry Dad. Now I keep that window closed.”
Dad looked towards her with angry eyes & said “Good! Now you must
not ever look in that window.” She felt so nervous. She immediately nodded.
Roma wanted to feel positive about all but she was feeling so nervous. Roma
knew that she couldn’t help herself. She would look towards that window. She
knew that she had developed bad habit of looking out of that window. She told
herself to not watch out of it. Her Mom got so angry with her dad. Mom “Come
on! It’s not her mistake. Kids look out of window it’s normal.” “Really? So,
you use to look in other’s bedroom as small child?” Her dad asked her mom
accusingly. Her mom didn’t say anything. It was clear that her mom was on verge
of crying. Her dad said something totally wrong. Her dad was laughing in
strange way. Then her dad added “Even if you were doing this as child, I don’t
want my daughter to follow your example. You need to disciple her. She is my
daughter too. She uses my name.” It was very painful for even Roma. Roma could
understand what did her father mean. She never understood why did her father
talk this way with her mom. Her mom belonged to such good family. She was
certain that her mom never made any mistake in her life. But one day she heard
her Auntie. Her Auntie said to her mom “Just because our father was not rich
man your husband kept taunting you. When you have such good character looks
& education.” Her mom said “What is use of this discussion? No one agreed
to marry him so I needed to marry this man. Now I even have one daughter from
him. I can’t change anything now.” “Your marriage was biggest mistake in my
view.” “But it can’t be repaired so what’s use of thinking about it.” Roma didn’t like that discussion. She wanted
to think positively about her dad. But she knew that her dad was not nice man.
She couldn’t change it. Still, she once again started to convince herself that
her dad was nice man. She needed to believe her dad.
Roma was totally convinced that it was
her mistake that she looked out of her window. She could clearly hear her dad targeting
her mom again & again for supporting her. She always made sure that this
mistake couldn’t be repeated. She kept that window locked. One day Roma came
out of school bus when she started to walk towards her home. She saw that woman
who stayed in flat which was visible from window. She came down to take her
kid. Roma could see red marks on her face. Her husband was hitting her. Roma
was growing up. She could understand every meaning of that shadow now. She
shivered with fear. She never saw anyone actually hitting other person in her
life like that. But she knew that her dad often threatened her mom to do that.
Roma shivered with fear. She was feeling so nervous. Roma didn’t want to go
home. She just wanted to go in some other place. But she knew that it was not
possible. She felt so scared. She began to feel that she needed positivity in
her life. But her life was stuck in negative world. That day when she came
home, she immediately ran towards kitchen. Her mom was cooking. She knew that
her mom was planning to join some office soon. Roma sensed that it was perfect
time to tell her fears. Roma began to tell mom how much scared she felt. Mom
“Don’t worry. No one will harm you. I just wish only if you can avoid that room
& shift somewhere else.” Roma smiled. It was wonderful idea. Slowly Roma
began to shift her things in hall. Her dad noticed it. Roma felt scared but her
dad didn’t mind. He began to shift his things in Roma’s room instead. Soon
Roma’s dad managed to take entire room. So now he had one bedroom & another
room as his study. When her mom tried to suggest that they might give their
room to Roma but her dad said “This is my house. I work & I earn. I need
more place why waste any room for that girl? She is just useless.” After that
her mom argued for long time. But Roma knew that it was useless. She disliked
her room but now she began to dislike everything in house. Her dad was
screaming so loudly. She just wanted to hide somewhere. She went to mom &
started to convince her mom that it was okay. Finally, her mom gave up. Roma
once again sat in hall. Roma began to feel that it was end of argument. She
knew that she could never see those shadows now. But her dad kept talking about
those people again & again. Whenever Roma came in hall & started TV her
dad began to talk about them. Roma felt so scared. She was no longer interested
in cartoons or dramas of TV. Her dad didn’t permit her to listen. She stopped
watching them too. She began to entertain herself by her books & her tablet.
Her mom managed to get one for her. Roma was living in her world but her dad’s
comments managed to scare her. Slowly she began to feel scared of all. She was
not sleeping even in her room. Finally, one day her mom decided to discuss it
with their family Doctor. Doctor “It can’t be happening just due to
neighborhood flat! There must be more issue. Take her to this counsellor.” Roma
was so scared. Once again, she knew her dad wouldn’t agree. But this time her
mom managed to arrange payment through her own savings. They visited that
Psychiatrist. When conversation with Roma was over Psychiatrist told her mom
that stress was due to Roma’s dad not due to neighborhood’s voices. It was so
frustrating for her mom. But slowly Roma began to understand issue. Roma wanted
her room back. She once again started sleeping in it. Her dad tried to object
but he couldn’t exactly have cause. Slowly Roma once again settled in her room.
Her dad kept irritating her. But Roma knew that he was cause not those shadows.
Slowly Roma began to handle. It managed to impact her but still she learnt to
adjust with it in her life.
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