Forgetting some time
Rani was reading every word carefully. She couldn't believe that every word would be such exact description of situation. She was reading it again & again. It was so confusing. She knew that it was such excellent work but she couldn't remember writing this. But still it was on her laptop so it belonged to her. She smiled happily. Until now she had submitted so many things but nothing got success. She needed to impress someone. She started to feel so nervous. She didn't know anything about this one. She was so confused & restless. She didn't understand that how could her laptop got this work. She didn't understand how could she totally forgot writing it. She didn't remember that was truth. She wanted success at any cost so she decided to just send it. She was not thinking clearly about anything. Her one company just told her to send her work immediately & she was going to send it. She was planning to work hard for hours but when she opened her laptop she found files which could be perfect for her. She was so happy. She decided that even when she couldn't remember those things. She could submit them & give it a try. She was little nervous at beginning but then she decided that she could take it easy. She told herself that everything would be fine. Then she came out of her room. Her mom was already getting her dinner ready. Her sister was sitting in chair. She looked towards her sister Tara. Tara was her elder sister. Tara was married but Tara found a husband who lived nearby & she was staying in parent's house approximately every day. It was frustrating for Rani. But no one was asking for Rani's opinion. They all always invited Tara happily. Rani was only one who got upset due to her visits remaining family was very happy. Rani didn't like the way Tara was acting. As soon as Rani sat on chair, Tara began to talk " So? What happened with your career plan?" Rani knew that her parents didn't talk against Tara. They wanted to keep Tara happy. Tara was married in rich family. Her husband kept giving different gifts time to time so it was important for them. Rani knew that she also needed those gifts so Rani smiled & said " I just got by new work submitted." "Oh! That's great!" Rani smiled but she noticed Tara was no longer returning smile. Tara was looking pointedly towards her. Rani slowly added " This time I have more hopes." " I hope you will manage to get some success frankly I don't want you to keep failing like that. I want you to marry that cousin of my husband. Do you remember him?" How could Rani forget that man? He talked with Rani sweetly for hours & when she began to hope he might discuss marriage or dating he just distance himself. It was clear that he didn't love her. He also never chatted with her even when she tried to chat. One day finally her mom indirectly suggested about dating but he rejected that idea totally. It was clear that he was not planning to marry on that time. She was feeling so upset when his name was suggested. She slowly said " He is not interested in me." Tara nodded. " I know but I was just hoping only if we can do something to generate that interest." She felt so nervous. She didn't want to do anything to impress any man & force him to date or marry her. She just hated that idea. She declared immediately " I don't want to marry. I will marry only when someone express love for me." Tara laughed in odd way. On that point Mom began to serve food. Mom shifted their attention on dinner & that chapter didn't drag further.
Rani was so upset in her heart. She pretended everything as normal but she was so tense. Tara was upsetting her. Rani wanted normal life but Tara kept feeling negative whole time. It was stressful for Rani. On that point suddenly Rani's mobile rang. She looked towards her message box. She had email. She opened it. She was shocked when she sensed that it was positive reply. She began to read email. She was so happy. She didn't remember working on that idea but it was in her laptop so she could use it. She smiled happily. She decided to study it & understand. She was feeling scared & happy both at same time. Her heart was so nervous. She knew that inside her brain. But she also knew that she couldn't remember writing it. She began to feel so scared. She started to tell herself to feel confident in her heart. She wanted to study every word of her work carefully. She soon sensed that she could easily manage to complete it. She immediately replied positively. She was so happy. In excitement she ran out. She told all to her parents but when immediately her father called Tara she felt so upset. Tara always managed to drag her down. She didn't want to talk with Tara. But she couldn't stop her parents. She felt so stressed. She knew that now Tara would come home next day & began to comment. She didn't want to hear those comments. She knew that she didn't remember her own work. It was so scary. She just went back in room. She screamed loudly & said " I am going to sleep don't disturb I need to take rest for getting ready on next day." She began to close door when her father screamed "Tara is so smart. She will come & advise Rani tomorrow." Rani angrily answered back " I want to do it on my own. Let me do it." Her father started to talking against her " She will not understand anything & finally lose this work too. She is such stupid girl. She is nothing before Tara..." She didn't want to waste her energy further so she just closed door & tried to sleep. But she was so upset. Her father managed to scare her. She knew that she didn't remember that idea but she never doubted that it belonged to her. Now she even began to doubt it. She started to think. She didn't permitted anyone to touch her laptop. But her father's words kept coming in her mind. She was not smart enough. She began to feel so scared. She suddenly thought what if Tara worked on her laptop. She shivered. She must not say anything against Tara or it would create problem for her. She began to feel that she was taking Tara's work. She tried so hard to sleep but she couldn't. She began to feel so nervous. Next morning she woke up feeling tired. She was not certain that she was in good shape to do her work but she needed to do that. She didn't have much option. She felt so nervous by entire incidence. Her life was moving in totally wrong way. She was supposed to be happy since her work was approved but she was feeling so sad. She was feeling sleepy & negative. Still she got up. She began to get ready on that point she heard Tara's voice. Suddenly her entire world went upside down. Her hopes began to shatter. She was hoping for positive but whenever she heard Tara's comments suddenly all managed to become negative. She knew that Tara would manage to scare her. Tara was always negative about everything. She told herself that she could manage all but she knew that it was lie. She needed to go out. She dressed properly. Then she looked towards her reflection in mirror. She smiled sweetly to herself. She told herself that she was looking great. Then she came out to face Tara. She knew that Tara was going to taunt her. She told herself that she needed to remain positive. She kept taking deep breaths to control her fears. She told herself that she would be fine.
As soon as Rani came out Tara looked towards her. Tara didn't like Rani at all. Whenever she saw Rani immediately she began to feel strange sort of jealousy. She tried to think positively about all but it didn't work. She began to feel that she needed to taunt Rani. Tara " So you are going to present that idea?" Rani just nodded. " I hope you remember your idea properly! Presentation is not joke Rani!" Rani began to feel so nervous. She looked towards her parents with hope. Her mother tried to defend her. " Come on. Rani studied all properly. She will do it quickly." Her father began to talk angrily " What does you know about office work?" It was angry remark towards her mother. It was clear that Rani was useless in his view. Rani didn't want to argue on that point. She wanted to keep energy. Rani just watched herself in mirror. Then Rani took deep breaths. Rani knew that her eyes were swollen little bit since she couldn't sleep last night but her mind was alert so she could do it. Rani didn't say anything to Tara. Tara was laughing towards her in odd way. Rani felt so upset. Rani decided to ignore her. Rani didn't let her fears come on her face. She went to office. She did all perfectly. She was so happy to get that work. But as soon as she called Cab to return home. She began to feel nervous. She didn't want to return home. She just wished only if she had some other place to stay but she didn't. She knew that it was impossible for her to find rental place with her limited budget. She began to feel so scared. She started to think due to her father's interfere & Tara's attitude she might not able to complete work. Tara started to feel so tense. She finally reached to house. She didn't want to talk about her success so she pretended that they were just discussing things. She felt so scared & upset. Her entire life was getting confused. She opened her laptop for that project. She suddenly opened her eyes & she was sleeping on bed. Morning sunlight was falling on her eyes. She felt so scared. She didn't remember anything once again. But she knew at least one thing that she was doing all work. She didn't understand why she didn't remember working on it. She looked towards time. She needed to hurry up. Once again she woke up & got ready while Tara also came in morning. Tara was coming daily. Rani didn't understand why Tara didn't enjoy her life in her husband's house. But Tara didn't. Rani decided that she needed to go as fast as possible. Rani literally ran out of house. Rani began to feel as if that entire house belonged to Tara only. Rani once again reached to office. She once again started to work. She was working hard but in her soul she was scared. She was so nervous. She began to feel that she might just forget her project in middle. She kept telling herself that she was fine but she was no longer sure. She knew that every day when she did her work in home she didn't remember much. She was getting total blank out in memory. She didn't want to tell anyone about it. But she knew that she needed help.
Finally one morning when Rani woke up she decided that she had enough. She needed to talk with her doctor. She didn't want her family to know about it so she found one friend of office who agreed to help her. That friend took her to their family doctor. She told everything to doctor without fear. She knew that this doctor didn't know her family. She began to look towards doctor with hope. Doctor " I give you few physical tests. You need to do them to confirm if you have physical issues." She shivered with fear. It was just beginning of her career she didn't want it to end like that. She knew that she might needed to tell her family too. She didn't want to hear pleasure in voice of her father & Tara over her misfortune. Sometimes she felt that Tara just wanted her to face pains. She never understood cause of Tara's jealousy. It was so upsetting. She knew that she didn't have any option. She took that prescription from doctor & came home. She immediately told all to mom. When they started to tell it to her father, he immediately declared " That doctor is trying to make money. You are fine." Rani felt so nervous. Then her father called Tara. He explained all to Tara. Tara came there too. Tara gave her angry look & asked " Why did you go to that doctor at all? You don't need to visit doctor." She felt so sad & upset. Rani didn't understand what she supposed to think. Tara " Gap in memory are just sign of low IQ. You are never much intelligent. We can't waste money like that when your earning are nothing on this point. You are living on just dad's earning. It is really sad that before making your earning you already started to waste them. You don't need a doctor." Rani nodded. She began to feel that she took wrong decision. She started to feel she wasted money. She went in her room. Slowly she began to sense that daily same thing was happening. She just forget some hours in her house. One day her friend from office asked about her health. When she told what her family said, her friend said " I will pay you can return step by step. You don't need to hurry up." She nodded happily. She needed to visit doctor. She didn't dare to say it before her family. They were not going to give her money it was clear. Finally they once again visited hospital & did tests. They were shocked when they understood reports were normal. Rani was on verge of depression but Doctor gave them card of psychiatrist. Doctor " It was not shocking for me. I just want to confirm you are physically okay." Rani nodded. Then finally Rani visited psychiatrist. Psychiatrist understood her problem & began to guide her to get over it too. She began to feel so much better. She slowly managed to sell some gold she had & gave back money to her friend. Her treatment managed to reduce gap of moments which she didn't remember at first. Finally it stopped. She sensed that she was doing it just to keep negativity out of her mind. Now with help of psychiatrist she learnt to just stop negativity & keep memory in her mind. It helped her a lot. She began to do her career. Her life started to move ahead. After sometime Tara didn't remain so important to her. Tara also began to get busy with her own life. Rani's father kept trying to bully but Rani learnt to ignore. She learnt to understand who was important & who was not important in her life. She began to live her life in positive way while ignoring negative.
The End
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