Just working hard
Ajit began to read carefully every word of his document. He was typing them carefully for hours. He started to feel so nervous & upset. He was writing those words so attentively on his documents. He needed to do all properly. He was working so hard on each document. He was studying everything for days. He knew that his success was dependent on it. He was working for hours. He needed to study hard to get that project in proper order. He knew after doing it. He needed to study how could he sell those products. It was job of other department but he was working with company for such a long time that he developed affection towards it. He was planning to do his best for survival of his company. He was feeling so negative on that day. On that point his wife Sheena entered in room. Sheena “Once again you are working for them. You work for hours. But in return you don’t get much.” “Come on! I earn my salary! That is enough in my view.” “Enough?! They all earn salary & you are the only one who is working.” He felt so upset. On that point Sheena started to make call to her some friend. It was clear that now she was going to talk with her friend for hours. Sheena always managed to get some way to earn money with help of her friends. He didn’t understand how could she manage to dominate him every time but she did. She was always one who bossed. He didn’t mind it at beginning but now she even began to interference in her decisions regarding career. He didn’t like it. He loved his company. He wanted to keep working in same way. She kept taunting him on his work daily basis. It was creating worst impact on him. He wanted to work freely like old times but it was not like that. He was married. He had kids. His children kept demanding things. Sheena managed to get some but he supposed to provide more. He was father so it was his responsibility. He tried to convince them regarding not demanding too much. Sheena didn’t feel it was right. According to Sheena he was working so much & earning so limited. He didn’t understand what he exactly supposed to do. After talking for some time on mobile Sheena said “I feel you need to find some other job.” “What? I am happy…” “Stop this nonsense. You do job for money not for job satisfaction.” Ajit felt so nervous. He didn’t want to argue. He said slowly “I feel so upset when you start like this every time. It is stressful for me.” “Come on! I am thinking about our earnings. I am not talking about some small things. This is big issue not something which we can take lightly.” He began to feel so nervous. He started to feel upset. He knew that things were not moving in positive way. He needed to change them. But he didn’t want to change his job. He wanted to keep feeling positive on every step. His life was not moving in negative way on each time. He slowly continued “I don’t want to change my job.” Sheena gave angry look & said “Fine.” Then she slowly looked towards his laptop. She said “I hope it will survive for long time. I want you to put limit to your purchases.” He felt so nervous. He knew that his earnings were not so high but he never thought how much he was wasting on himself. Until now he was always considered important in his family. He was permitted to spend. But now he sensed that he needed to reduce his spendings. After all he didn’t want to change job. He immediately nodded. He smiled & said “Don’t worry I will not spend large sum on me.” Sheena smiled happily. She began to feel positive.
Sheena began to feel upset. She wanted Ajit to earn like his cousins & brothers. They all managed to make money through different tricks. They managed to do so much. They were earning a lot. While Ajit was working hard with honesty, still his earnings were so limited. She knew that he was not exactly poor but still his earnings were not so good. She knew that she needed to convince her children to protest more. Sheena was so upset. Sheena decided that she needed to pressure on Ajit. She began to talk again but she noticed. Ajit was not sleeping on bed. He was once again on his laptop. She didn’t sense when he started his laptop again. He began to work on it. It was important for him. He needed to work on it for long time. He wanted to feel positive about all. But he was feeling totally negative. He decided that he must work. Sheena was shocked to notice him working again. She felt so nervous. She wanted him to reject that company but he was working too hard for it. She didn’t understand when he would learn to ignore that company. He was not even paying attention to other things. He was just concentrating on that company. She began to feel so upset. She slowly came near him & said “This is time to relax. Why did you want to work even now? Come on. I am telling you to change company & you are concentrating more & more on existing company. It is not right.” Ajit looked towards Sheena with frustration. Ajit “Sheena! I want to work for this company let me do it. There is no need to force me to change my life.” Sheena was so angry. She screamed “Close those lights. I can’t sleep.” He immediately did it. Still, he kept working on laptop. He needed to complete his project. He needed to create it’s every step. He was planning to spend entire life this way then Sheena had her doubts. Sheena began to feel so suffocated in that room. She closed her eyes & started to try to sleep. She could hear voices of Ajit’s typing. He was typing faster & faster. She didn’t understand why he was doing this. It was so irritating. Next morning she woke up. She felt so tired. She looked on other side of bed. Ajit was not sleeping. She immediately sensed that she was late. She rushed in kitchen. She could hear both kids were demanding something from Ajit. It was clear that kids already began to have demand. She was not required to instigate them anymore. She knew that kids observed school friends. They wanted everything in same way. It was sort of frustrating for them.Ajit kept nodding. She knew that he would never manage to fulfill their demand. She decided to enter in argument. “You must not give fake hopes to kids! If you can’t give it to them then tell it to them.” Ajit nodded & said “I can’t give it.”Then he stood up & left room. It was odd. He was without emotions. Kids were angry. They were screaming on him but he didn’t care. It was not so important for him. Ajit slowly went in his room & he started to get ready. It was strange but their words were no longer creating any impact on him. He was happy while working himself.
Sheena was so shocked. It was odd the way Ajit was acting. It seemed as if nothing was having impact on him. He got ready & went to his office. He kept telling himself that everything was fine. But he knew that it was not. He felt so frustrated. He began to feel so scared. He needed to feel positive but his mind kept turning towards negativity. Then once again he began to concentrate on his files. His mind started to move towards thought which increase interest in his work. Slowly he once again started to concentrate on his work. He began to feel need of doing his work. He needed to concentrate on doing his job. He began to forget all things that were happening in his house. He started to feel that he didn’t need to think about his family. He must concentrate only on his work. His work must become his important priority of life. He didn’t need to think about other things. It was frustrating. He decided that he wanted positivity in his life but his life was moving in negative way. His hopes were shattering. He was feeling so sad & nervous. He started to think that if he began to think negatively about these things his life would become more complicated. He began to work in office for hours. He started to forget all. When time came to go back to his house, he started to feel confused. He didn’t want to go back. He wanted to stay in office. He was getting so nervous since he didn’t remember anything about his own family. He kept feeling so tense. He knew that he needed to remember those family members. But he couldn’t. It was so strange. When he entered in his house, he didn’t feel as if he was recognizing Sheena. She seemed like some unknown woman. He gave nervous smile but she began to scream on him “ Kids were suggesting few things in morning but you just said you couldn’t give. Don’t you feel guilty?” Without second thought he answered “No!” Sheena was so shocked. Kids were observing him too. He was acting strange. He just ran away in his room. He opened laptop & started working on it. She was so shocked by entire incidence. She didn’t understand how could he ignore their children like that! But she sensed one thing that he was behaving in strange way. He was literally avoiding eye contact with her. He went in room & began to read his office documents again. She didn’t understand what he was exactly doing. He kept working on his laptop non stop for hours. He was working so hard. He needed to stop on some point. She was about to say something when their daughter came & said “This is so frustrating. Dad is acting so odd. It looks as if we are invisible to him.” Sheena felt so sad. She wanted to feel positive in her life but she was feeling negative totally. She told herself to relax. She needed to convince her husband Ajit to listen to her. When she entered & started talking Ajit didn’t answer. She began to feel so nervous. Ajit didn’t even look towards her. It was too much then after some time she began to realise Ajit truly didn’t feel any connection with her. His eyes were odd. She couldn’t stop herself from commenting now. She slowly asked “What happened?” He didn’t say anything. He just kept working. At beginning she thought that it was reaction of just first day argument. But then slowly he began to do it daily. Ajit kept avoiding them all. It began to become frustrating for them. Sheena finally one day waited for him until he didn’t come from office. She decided to chat with him. He kept looking at her with confusion. Finally, he said “I really feel so nervous. But I don’t remember much about family.” She was so shocked. She couldn’t believe it. She thought that he was just joking. She smiled & said “This is funny.” But he didn’t smile & she began to feel scared.
Sheena didn’t talk further with Ajit but she decided to call their friend who was doctor. She told all to that one. Immediately psychiatrist was suggested. She felt so nervous. She began to get tense. She started to think that she might be cause of this all. Sheena took appointment immediately. Then she told Ajit about it. He just nodded. He didn’t seem to mind anything. Finally, that day came when they needed to go to Psychiatrist. When they reached, Sheena kept telling all while Ajit kept quiet. Psychiatrist “Why are you so nervous? Sheena!” “I feel I pushed too much.” Psychiatrist laughed. “Many times, such things happened but this is not due to it. Ajit has some issues of his own don’t worry. It’s not due to it but I suggest you need to avoid pushing too much for some time.” Sheena nodded. Then Psychiatrist told Sheena to go out. Ajit talked with Psychiatrist for long time. Then Psychiatrist declared that it was due to depression & some physical issues too. Sheena didn’t understand physical term. But she never understood cause properly. Since Ajit didn’t want to tell Sheena that it was happening due to his college days heart break. He dated one girl for long time & she left him for rich man. He took long time to get over it. After marrying to Sheena everything was fine for long time but then when Sheena began to insist on changing job once again, he began to remember his old girlfriend who led to depression. After treatment Ajit went over entire issue. He began to feel positive. After some time, he even changed his job without Sheena’s suggestion. Their life became normal. Sheena still kept advising him. It was old habit. She just couldn’t break but Ajit makes joke out of them now & kids also joined in laughing. Their life was nice now. It was normal one with happiness.
The End
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