Rina's sorrow
Rina began to feel that she needed to feel positive about all. Her daughter Vinita was so special to her. It was new start for Vinita. She needed to keep her all negativity behind. She knew her daughter needed positivity in life. Vinita was dating Tushar who was son of her ex Boss. Rina didn’t have good experience with this Boss. Rina shared worst experience. Rina was suffering so much when she joined that company & Tushar’s Dad was such cruel man. She still remembered. Her husband was just died due to cancer. She didn’t have much financial support so she needed a job. She got this one. She was not much experienced. She had good education but she didn’t need to do job. She was dating a boy in college after completing education she got married to him. It was simple. She was happy in her life. She was taking proper care of her daughter Vinita. But then suddenly her husband fall sick. They found out he had cancer. Her entire life turned upside down. Her husband wasn’t pleasant person when he fall sick. He kept abusing her. He began to blame all on her. He started to declare that she was cause of his sickness she was bad luck to him. She didn’t understand if he acted this way due to sickness or she married wrong person. But her brother Ajay always supported her. Ajay was her pillar of strength forever. She always got support from him. But her husband managed to destroy her mentally & her confidence was zero when her husband died. In fact Rina knew that her entire family was so happy that her husband died. She didn’t deserve husband like him according to them. But in her view now she was alone to take care of her daughter Vinita who was in school. Vinita didn’t seem so much attached to her Dad. Vinita loved her Mom. She always stood by her Mom. After her husband’s death Rina took first job in one big company. Immediately on entry Tushar’s Dad taunted her dressing style. Tushar’s Dad “You are working in my company not going in some family get-together..” She needed to feel positive. But new Boss’s every word started to cut in her heart like sword. But she immediately said “ My husband died. I am widow.” “ So. Do you expect me to tolerate a woman were dress of widow every day in my office.” He screamed loudly on her. She shivered. She just said “ Sorry. I will dress in better way.” “ How hard you might try to look better still trust me you are worst!” Then he laughed in a way that she felt so hurt. She wanted to cry but she kept telling herself that she must not do it. First her husband now her Boss. She didn’t want to remember those days but her mind kept going back to them. It was worst days for her. She knew that now Jatin Seth was her relative. She told herself that he wouldn’t act in his old ways. But she was totally scared of that day when she would need to talk with Jatin Seth. She always remembered those days as worst one. Luckily after sometime Ajay managed to find job for Vinita after that Vinita managed all. Rina was thankful to her daughter from soul. Vinita managed to give money due to which Rina could managed entire household. It was important for Rina so Vinita was her biggest help. She respected Vinita so much. She didn’t want to hurt her. On that point her mobile rang. She looked towards number. It was Vinita. She suddenly felt so scared. She didn’t understand when she admiration of her daughter turned in to fear & she began to keep scared of her. She slowly took call & said “ Hello..” Vinita “ Mom I want you to make some purchases for my house.” “ Our house? But we have all.” “ Our house?! I don’t want to waste money on our house! I don’t want to spend my money even on Tushar’s house. I will give you card belong to Tushar. You need to purchase with Tushar’s money. So be careful. Can you able to do it?” Rina was scared but saying ‘No’ wasn’t her option. If she said no Vinita immediately start abusing her, she was obeying Vinita for long time. She didn’t sense heights of her fear. She looked towards phone in odd way then she said “ I will try my best.” “ Mom remember one thing if you purchased something wrong then you will waste Tushar’s money. You can’t repay since you aren’t even earning. You must do it very carefully.” On that point Vinita needed to return to office work. Rina kept holding phone. It was frustrating. She wanted to do some household chores but she couldn’t disconnect Vinita’s call. It would surely upset her. Rina kept waiting after long time finally Vinita came on phone & asked “ What’s wrong with you?” Rina was so confused. Vinita was asking odd question. Rina “ I am fine.” Vinita didn’t say anything then Vinita said “ Why did I call you?” Rina was so nervous. She didn’t understand what Vinita was saying. “ You called me for some purchases.” “ Ohh.. I don’t remember them. I will call later.” Then Vinita disconnected her call. Rina was so tense. She sensed that she wasn’t scared of Vinita she was scared since Vinita was marrying to Tushar. Vinita never used to scream on her like that. But now Vinita kept screaming. Rina wanted happy married life for Vinita with man of her choice. Vinita selected Tushar. But now Rina was confused. Rina was so sure that Vinita was in love with Tushar but now Vinita suddenly began to hate entire past life. Rina knew that Tushar was rich boy so Rina wanted Vinita to get all things that were needed to please him. Rina soon found one list on her mobile. But card for payment wasn’t available. Rina decided that she could use cash which she took out of joint account. After all it was Vinita’s earnings only. Rina didn’t earn much. It was impossible to save anything out of her earnings for Rina. Rina did job for such short time. Rina was smart at beginning. Ajay used to guide her in every way. She knew even today she could ask for Ajay’s help & Ajay immediately came running. Ajay didn’t like this marriage. Ajay told her clearly “ Rina Tushar is Jatin Seth’s son! He respected him. He didn’t even speak one word against his father. How can he be different than Jatin Seth?” “ But Vinita love him.” “ Then you don’t have option but I feel your marriage was big mistake. It gave you nothing but miseries.” Rina didn’t say anything after that she kept Ajay away from Vinita’s marriage so she decided to purchase all by herself.
Rina went in shop. One by one she began to purchase items. She felt that it was so odd. She was purchasing different items for Vinita & Tushar’s new house. She didn’t understand why they were not purchasing for their new house! It seem as if they didn’t have any excitement for it. But she decided that she needed to do her job so she began to purchase in a way as if she was purchasing for her own future house. She never managed to shop & redecorate her house this way after marriage. She was so excited. She purchased all as she wanted then she took key of new flat. She decorated entire flat without any discussion & finally she called Vinita excitedly about it. Vinita wasn’t interested in listening what she did. Vinita just said “ Mom you always did best for me. You are my guardian angel. Always remember one thing. Whatever issues we have now aren’t due to you. It’s because of Dad.” Rina felt so sad. She wanted her daughter to hold sweet & pleasant memories of her father but she couldn’t stop her husband from acting in wrong way. Her husband managed to create worst impact on them. Rina wanted Tushar to remove it for Vinita. After all Vinita was going to marry him. When Tushar would shower her with love every thing would change. She was expecting happiness for her daughter. She said “ Now Tushar will change all for you.” Vinita laughed in strange way & disconnected call. Rina didn’t like it. Vinita wasn’t looking happy. It was so confusing. Rina was accepting all to make her daughter happy. Rina wanted to question her but she didn’t dare. She just decorated Vinita’s house & went away. Rina went back in her house. Clearly she needed to spend some money on her house too. She looked towards card. She was so confused. Then she decided to call someone to do repairing & painting of her house. She told them to do in limited budget . As she paid advance immediately Vinita called “ Mom why did you took out that money?” “ To paint our house!” “ Mom Tushar is so upset. You must not waste money like that. Now be careful on that budget.” Rina felt so guilty. She immediately told her budget. Vinita heard it & said “ Good. This is small one & reasonable. Great. Mom now try to understand you must not waste my money any more. I need it for my future.” Rina “ I understand. I am so sorry. This will never happen again.” “ Okay.” Then Vinita disconnected call. Rina was so upset. Rina didn’t understand how could she act. Her every action seemed to go in wrong way. She looked towards her house. It really needed repairs no doubt about it. She just told herself to calm down & sat peacefully in one chair. On that point she felt first time. Voice of her husband was talking to her. “ You are much useless person.” She looked behind. She sensed that no one was there. Then her head started to paining in such way that she began to hold it. She needed to reduce that pain. She was so confused. Entire world was moving in strange way before her eyes. She felt upset & restless from her soul. She didn’t understand what was happening to her. She didn’t want to faint on that point. Her house was full of construction workers. She had taken one job in her hand. She needed to stay strong & complete it. She told herself to steady her mind & went inside. She began to feel so nervous. She didn’t understand what was happening to her. Her husband was dead for such long time. She never loved by him so it was impossible that she was missing him. Then she sensed that she loved him but he didn’t love her. At beginning he loved her or she thought that he did. She didn’t understand why did she kept going back in past tense. She looked inside house. Her head was light. She was feeling so upset. She wanted to feel positive but her thoughts were moving in negative way. Her mind was full of negativity. She was so stressed. She didn’t understand how could she change that. She looked inside. Workers were busy in their work none of them was paying attention to her. She was just one middle age woman who was repairing her small flat. She was one widow without much money & hope. But Vinita had bright future & now she needed to think about it. She suddenly sensed that now she didn’t have much option. She needed to meet Jatin Seth. She decided that she must talk to him. She dialled number. She still had number of her old Boss. She didn’t understand why but she had it. She said slowly “ I am Rina. I want to talk about marriage of my daughter.” Jatin Seth didn’t say anything for sometime then he screamed “ Who told you this nonsense?!” She didn’t understand “ Vinita said…”” No he will not marry her. He will just live with her for sometime then he will decide if you ask me he will not marry her. Your daughter is as useless as you so why did my son will marry her? This is temporary arrangement. You were not ready for such a arrangements but your daughter is. She will live with Tushar for sometime then he will decide. I am telling you in advance he will decide against marrying her. I have already busy in searching for suitable girls.” She was so shocked. She was so angry. She was about to scream in anger but once again her head started to pain. She didn’t able to say anything & her call was disconnected. She didn’t understand what was happening. Why her head was paining so much? She didn’t able to think clearly due to it. She was sick. She shivered. She saw her husband suffering. She didn’t want to face same destiny but she couldn’t decide her destiny. She took deep breaths which she was taught by one doctor when she used take her husband in cancer hospital. That Doctor said “ Your mental health is getting effected by this so whenever you feel stressed do this & then visit Doctor.” She felt so sad. She could do breathing but she couldn’t visit Doctor since she wasn’t earning & she didn’t dare to touch Vinita’s money. She kept doing breathing exercises.
Ajay didn’t like the way issue was moving ahead in Vinita’s case. Rina was spending money. Vinita earned that money but still Rina took care of entire house & Ajay felt Rina had some right on that money too. Ajay decided that he needed to at least day of marriage. Ajay called Vinita “ Hello Vinita It’s Ajay Uncle how are you?” “ Fine.” After that Vinita didn’t say anything. It was odd silence. Vinita used to talk so much. He didn’t understand what he supposed to say next. But he told himself that he needed to ask. It was about Rina not Vinita. He said slowly “ So what will be your date of marriage?” “ I am not getting married. I will stay for sometime with Tushar..” “ I don’t feel he is planning to marry you! Why don’t you understand? He is just like his father.” “ I don’t care. I want money & luxuries. Mom rejected Jatin Seth’s request I accepted Tushar’s. I want money. If he didn’t want to marry with me it’s fine since he is going to give me that flat.” “ What if you get pregnant?” “ I think then he might need to marry but mostly we avoid it.” “ How can you behave like that? Have you thought what Mom will think?” “ I don’t care. I want my life which is my own. I don’t want to take anymore responsibilities. I keep taking responsibilities. I know Mom will understand. I don’t want to keep working hard & earning less. If I started to live with Tushar he will..” “ I don’t want to hear it. I am just tense about my sister. Rina will not like it.” “ But she need to except it since Tushar will be feeding her & making her payments now.” Vinita just disconnected call. For Ajay this was worst. He looked towards his house. He knew that his family wouldn’t agree. It was going to be worst for Rina. He tried to call Rina but her mobile was busy in some call. He could easily guess whom she might be calling. But still he hoped that she wasn’t calling Vinita. Rina called Vinita as Ajay guessed. Rina told all to Vinita. Vinita said “ So?!” “ You are marrying to Tushar?” “ Mom I don’t say that you assumed. Mom this is my life. Let me live as I like until now you used all what I earn now you can use all what Tushar earn it doesn’t make difference for you. In fact Tushar is happy that you are repairing house. It will be nice place for you to live. Then we will manage some fix amount..” “ What are you saying?” “ Mom you need to permit me live the way I want.” “ But this is so wrong. I taught you so much & still you are doing this.” “ Then living life on daughter’s earning is right?” Rina didn’t say anything. She was so wrong when she decided to quit job. Then suddenly her head started to pain. She began to scream slowly. Vinita asked “ What happened Mom?” “ My head! It’s paining so much.” “ Mom you need to go to hospital. Dad never done it.” Rina didn’t want to spend money but she didn’t have option. She needed to go to doctor otherwise she would keep screaming like that. She just wished only if she was dead. It was all wrong. But she couldn’t help it. Vinita “ I always needed to take care of you.” Then call was disconnected. Rina was so sad. She kept hearing voice of her husband. She just wanted to kill herself. She didn’t understand what she supposed to do. She went in house. She saw workers were not around & she began to search for something which she could use to kill herself. She didn’t understand that she was making strange noises. One worker came back. He tried to talk to her. She didn’t understand what she supposed to do. She began to cry & scream “ I want to die. My husband is talking to me.” She kept talking like that. All thought that she had nervous breakdown. She was so stressed about her husband that they thought. She was losing her mental balance due to his death. Vinita came. She called in hospital & Rina was taken in psychiatric hospital. Rina went to Psychiatrist & began to talk. Psychiatrist “ You took so much time to come that your mental issues are increased. It was created by your husband & Jatin Seth increased them. Now Jatin Seth’s son Tushar is managing to damage life of your daughter. But there is maybe in it & you need to think about your life now…” she felt so shattered & confused. She decided to stay in hospital for sometime. She didn’t want to hear her dead husband’s voice again. Vinita was totally upset by entire incidence. Now she didn’t want her Mom around her but she needed someone to take care of her house chores. Vinita was so frustrated when this happened Tushar declared that he didn’t want to live with her any more. Tushar “ I don’t want any connection with daughter of mad woman.” Vinita cried so much. Ajay decided to use this opportunity to introduce her with one boy who worked in his office. Vinita didn’t like that boy much but he seemed best option so she dated him & finally got married. When Rina came back in her house, her son-in-law was already living in her house with her daughter. They didn’t prefer to keep children with Rina since she was mentally unstable according to them. Rina had money kept in her account she used it for sometime. Then one day she found one job of sales person in one small retail store. Her life became better. Now she was living alone in her house but still she was happy. At beginning her neighbours were nervous about her mental state. But slowly they sensed that she was fine now. They felt that it happened due to wrong behaviour of her daughter. Rina was living happily like lonely widow. She was happy since she no longer needed to talk with her daughter Vinita. She didn’t need to keep photo of her late husband. She decided to ignore them. They were part of her life but she didn’t care. In shop where she worked she managed to make new friends & she was happy in that life. She even told Ajay to not worry for her. She wanted Ajay to enjoy his life. The way she was enjoying her.
The End
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