Loss of memory
Pratap started to drive peacefully. He knew that he needed to go on this tour. His office insisted on it. He kept thinking again & again about his work. He studied entire night for it. He didn’t even slept properly & now on his driving. He began to regret not sleeping. He was feeling so sleepy. He decided that he needed to stop car & take rest. He began to search in corner. Finally after long search he found one hotel. He began to look carefully at that hotel. That hotel was not looking so great. He was not sure that he wanted to go in it. He felt so confused. He didn’t want to enter in unknown hotel. But he couldn’t drive more. He looked towards seats which were empty. He never had family. He always preferred to stay alone. He loved his job & enjoy his life without any responsibilities. He was glad that he was alone now. He didn’t like to take anyone in that unknown hotel. But he knew that he never traveled with anyone then he kept thinking like that. He didn’t need to worry. He slowly pushed inside hotel door. It didn’t open then he noticed sign pull. He pulled it. He was expecting a guard to welcome on door. But no one was there. Then he noticed a beautiful lady with nice dress sitting on sofa while reading magazine. It was clear that many ladies were staying in hotel. It was his unessential fear. He might be giving excuses to his mind for not getting married or not falling in love. He didn’t understand why he needed it. He went to desk of Hotel. He waited with patience for someone to come. When after long time no one came he began to go inside then suddenly guard came out of nowhere & screamed “ Mister where are you going?” “ I want to book room.” Guard started calling manager. Manager came. Manager was clearly upset. He was sleeping peacefully in his room. Then he saw Pratap & came running towards him. Manager tried to look professional but in his night dress it was impossible. Pratap didn’t like this hotel at all. “ I want one room.” He told to Manager since he clearly didn’t have much options. Manager nodded. Manager immediately ran to Hotel register. Manager asked for his identification documents. He was so shocked. He didn’t expected that much alertness from this type of hotel but he gave them any way. Manager pretended as if he was checking validity. Then he asked “ Which room you want single or double?!” “Single?” He was so frustrated. He just wanted to go inside room. It was so upsetting. He needed to find a room in hotel which was unknown. He began to call Boss. His Boss didn’t took his call. He decided to disconnect. He looked out. It was afternoon. But due to rainy clouds entire weather was looking so dark. He felt as if it was night. He began to sense that it might be indication of storm. He could see different look of atmosphere. He was so tense. He couldn’t drive in this weather. He slowly said “ It shows sign of storm.” Manager looked confused. Manager “ Storm?! This is perfect sunny weather.” He felt so shocked. He looked out. It was perfect day. He didn’t understand why did he felt that it was going to be storm. He didn’t need room. He could drive. He suddenly stopped Manager. He didn’t give his card for money which was already demanded by Manager. He gave back Hotel keys & ran out while screaming “ I don’t need room. My Boss just messaged me that I needed to hurry up to my work.” Manager screamed angrily “ How could you act like that? You wasted by after Nap. Now when my boss see this entry to be canceled he would scream on me. He would blame me. He would say I gave you bad service so you went away. It will look so bad on my record. Never...never ever come back to this hotel again. This is not joke. I will not let you in. I will call Cops..” he kept giving threats while Pratap ran in his car. Pratap was clearly confused. He didn’t understand why did he thought that there would be storm. It was clear weather. He could see sunlight. He could feel refreshed by it. He kept watching himself in car mirror when suddenly his Mobile rang. It was his Boss. He started his car & decided to ignore call for sometime. He sensed that something was wrong with him & he needed to hide it. He could tell Boss that he was driving. He didn’t want near to that hotel. Then after sometime he took call. “ You called me!” “ Yes Sir little bit confused about road!” “ Road! Which road?” Now Pratap was so shocked. He was so sure that Boss told him to go on trip. He began to think that he might be completely losing him mind. “ Boss you told me to go to tour..” Boss talked in frustrated voice “ I know..I know I don’t suffer from amnesia! I remember very well what I told. I want to know road to guide you the way. Wait I sent it on what’s up.” “ Thanks Boss so great. Okay bye. I start driving.” He began to drive soon he saw route on what’s app. It was same one. So his memory didn’t confuse him about route towards client. But he suddenly felt that some storm was coming. He began to sense after that one storm he kept seeing that storm daily. He needed to get over it. He knew that if he kept remembering it he would go mad. It was not big thing. No one was actually hurt. They all went to hospital & came back fine. Just their driver died but he was driving so it was his mistake. It was not their mistake. He was so confused. He kept remembering that storm. He kept thinking about that unfortunate accident. He didn’t scared of driving. He was happy while driving but sometimes he felt as if weather was going to change. He knew that sometimes he felt too sleepy since he couldn’t sleep in nights when he needed to go on tour. He needed it. It was not optional. He knew that he must began to his normal life. He was actually living normal life. He turned his attention on road. He began to keep attention on driver. He didn’t start music on that day their music was too loud. Sometimes he felt that accident happened due to it. But driver suggested it. His Mom was objecting but she always objected loud noise. Driver said that it was okay. He concentrated on road. He just needed to forget it. He was so confused. He kept remembering it. He needed to go to client that was enough.
Nita was so tense. Pratap started his job but he was clearly not normal. She didn’t understand what was happening to him. He kept telling different things. Sometimes he even began to forget that he was married to her. He started saying that he was not married. It was getting worst day by day. It was hard to hide. She knew that it was his mental trouble. He needed to visit Psychiatrist but he was not ready. Today he went out f tour. She began to call him. Pratap noticed her call. Pratap was driving but he saw Nita on mobile. He was confused. Then he remembered. Of course his wife! He was married. He didn’t understand what was happening to him. He was not drinking or developing other bad habits. But still he kept getting confused. He knew that if he drank excess then sometimes mind managed to get confused but he was not doing it. He was so upset. He once again started thinking about his work. He reached to destination. He went inside hotel. This was nice hotel. He told his name. He went in room. Then he came out to lobby. He started to search for lunch area. When he came near Guard showed him his reserved seat. Then client entered. He immediately managed to found his confidence. He began to act so normal. In fact he began to feel normal. He did all perfectly. Client was clearly impressed. Then they took dinner. Client told him that he needed to leave immediately after dinner. He agreed. Then he booked one room for himself. He slept in hotel peacefully. He began to get restless. He felt little drinking would help. He slowly filled his glass & started drinking. He began to remember all. His marriage to Nita. His job! His kids?! Once again his mind went blank. He started to think hard then he remembered his two boys. His boys were men now. They were earning in abroad. He smiled. Then he looked towards himself. He was not that old. He couldn’t be having such big kids. He watched himself carefully in mirror. He was looking so energetic. He needed to feel healthy too. But he was not feeling. It was strange that he kept feeling sick & old. It was so confusing. He didn’t understand why he couldn’t remember his family. It was so confusing. His mobile rang once again. It was Nita, his wife. Nita “ I was calling you for such long time! Why you were not picking up mobile?” He took deep breath & decided to tell her truth. “ I don’t remember anything at beginning.” “ What you don’t remember even me? This is happening second time. We need to take that appointment.” “ This started after that stupid accident?” “ Accident?! Which? That car accident?! But no one was hurt even in it?! Something is wrong with you. You need Doctor.” He suddenly sensed that she was referring to psychiatrist. He didn’t want to go to. If his Boss knew this then he would lose all. He needed his job. “ No..no I am working in perfect way. My Boss loved my work. If he knew about this then he might fire me. I don’t want to lose my job. I am fine.” Nita was so scared. She didn’t understand cause but she knew that he needed Doctor. “ You can’t remember properly you can’t carry on like this.” “ Don’t worry I will handle.” “ How?” He was so confused. He tried to remember their relation but everything was slipping out of his mind. He didn’t want to express it before her. “ Don’t worry. I managed that meeting perfectly.” “ What?” She sounded happy & shocked. “ Do you feel you can get that contract?!” “ Yes. I will. Just keep trust on me.” “ I am. But I hope it wouldn’t turn out like blind faith. I don’t want you to get in trouble.” Then she paused for sometime & said “ When you are coming back.” “ Well soon.” “ You are staying in which hotel?” He didn’t like the way she was cross examining him. “ Why are you asking me questions like this? Do you feel I am lying?” “ No..no I am your wife. If someone ask me where are you what I supposed to say?” “ On business trip!” “ Where?” “ It is none of their business.” “ Really? What about our parents?” She angrily asked. “ Now don’t tell me our parents were not important. They are not supposed to talk to them. They will ask me about you. Specifically your parents! Your Mom is getting tense. You can call her from there then I don’t ask where you live? I trust you. I know you will not cheat me. On that day when you cheat me I will lose faith on world.” He looked around. Then he found name of hotel somewhere. He immediately gave it. “ I don’t want to call anyone. Do it for me?” She agreed. Then he disconnected call. He kept looking at ceiling. It had nice design. He wanted to feel happy & normal. But it was not happening. He was forgetting things one by one. It was so upsetting. He needed to control his emotions. He needed to keep working & he didn’t need to go back to his family. He suddenly got one idea. He could divorce his wife. He didn’t remember her anyway. This way on issue would be over. He didn’t need to remember anything about her. He started laughing at this idea. But he needed to remember everything about her even for demanding divorce. He didn’t remember at all. He knew that slowly he was starting to forget all. It seemed as if some strange virus was inside his mind & it wad eating his all memories. It was so upsetting. He tried so hard to remember everything. He began to think about different way to start new life. He sensed one thing. He didn’t need to remember all. He just needed to start his new life. He called Nita once again. He said nicely “ Nita I don’t remember you so I want divorce from you will you give it?” She was so shocked. Her all hopes were shattered. She knew that he was not in his right mind but still he could manage to divorce her. She suddenly began to think that it was all drama. “ Who is that woman?” “ Which woman? Did I forget her? Any way I don’t remember anything so it is possible. What about that woman?” She was so irritated. She didn’t understand that if he was pretending or he was not in sound mind. She decided that she needed to meet him. But she didn’t warn him. She just disconnected all.
It was so hard for Nita. She didn’t want to tell in-laws about it but she didn’t have option. She had one small boy & her husband started to lose his mind. It was so upsetting. She needed help. She called her mother-in-law & told her everything. Her Mother-in-law sounded shocked. Her mother-in-law “ Since when this started?” “ I don’t know properly. One day he came home crying that he lost his pet dog. I sensed something was wrong on that time. He was crying too much.” “His dog died. But it was not such a big issue. Was it?” “ I don’t understand. He kept talking in strange way since then. I need to go & fetch him. Can you take care of your grandson?” “ No problem.” She took breath of relief. She immediately booked cab. Then she packed everything. She decided that she would drop her son on the way. She packed his things. Then she closed everything inside house carefully. She checked all then she went down. She sat in Cab & told driver about hotel. Driver knew it. But when she insisted on picking her son. Driver didn’t like the idea. Driver “ It will be out of way.” “ I need to drop him to in-laws otherwise I can’t go.” “ Take him with you. He will enjoy vacation too.” She couldn’t explain Driver her purpose. She just kept insisting. Finally they took that route. Her son was clearly upset when he was told that he needed to stay with his Grandparents. He said “ I will come with you.” “ No Rohit you can’t. You need to understand..” “ I know something is wrong with Dad. I will help you.” She wanted to argue but Driver supported Rohit & she needed to surrender so she took Rohit with her. They started their journey. While Pratap was watching ceiling, he didn’t want to remember anything. Finally waiter came & asked for order. He was so confused. He didn’t remember what he liked. He took just menu & ordered few items at random. He didn’t understand how could he remember his work & forgot what he wanted to eat. He sensed that he might start to forget it too. He shivered with that thought. Waiter brought what he ordered. Soon he sensed that he didn’t like any of it. He ordered everything wrong. He felt so upset. He needed to start new life but he couldn’t just forget what he liked. He still kept liking same things. It was stressful for him. He took deep breath & started thinking about different things. He wanted to learn what he had already forgotten. He ate what he ordered & paid large sum for it. He sat in room. He started TV. Once again he didn’t remember what he wanted to watch. He decided to find something new but suddenly his head started paining. It seemed as if someone hitting it with hammer. He went to bed & slept. Waiter came for plates but he didn’t open door. Waiter waited. Then Waiter went for other work. After it waiter kept coming back. Waiter came at least four times. It was shocking for Waiter. Finally he went to Manager. They were discussing issue. They didn’t understand what they supposed to do. Finally they decided to open door. They opened it. Pratap was just watching ceiling. In beginning they thought that he was dead. But it seemed that he was alive. Still he was not moving. They were so tense when Nita entered in hotel. Nita began to ask about Pratap. They immediately took her to him. She was shocked to see him that way. She tried to talk but he didn’t say anything. Then he suddenly came to senses. He started laughing & began to say he was joking. All looked angry. But Nita knew that it was not joke. Nita apologised. Then she slowly called Psychiatrist. She told everything to Psychiatrist step by step. Psychiatrist told her to immediately bring him. Nita booked Cab. Rohit was with her entire time. Pratap was just sitting on sofa while Rohit packed all luggage. She wanted to cry but she controlled herself. Once more she booked Cab. This time directly to Psychiatrist’s clinic. She forcibly took Pratap with her. She was so tense but Rohit was acting so brave. She was glad that she kept trust on him. They took Pratap in Psychiatrist clinic. Pratap clearly didn’t remember anything. Psychiatrist kept asking but he didn’t able to tell anything. Psychiatrist “ Your husband is suffering amnesia which is increasing strange way. It must be due to some trauma. But he is not telling it.” Rohit spoke “ Dad killed Dog to show how strong he is.” Nita was shocked. Psychiatrist looked shocked too. Psychiatrist “ How?” “ That Doggy was asking biscuit which Dad didn’t gave him. Doggy tried to snatch it. Dad got hurt by mistake. He kept kicking him. Finally Doggy died.” “ What? You saw all thing with your eyes.” Rohit nodded. “ Dad always hit all.” Nita looked out of window to avoid answering. Psychiatrist “Clearly your husband have anger management problem. But he didn’t visited Psychiatrist. Luckily he killed dog not you or other human. Lucky for you not for that innocent dog since now he will not land in jail.” Psychiatrist was very angry. Psychiatrist “ After killing that innocent dog he wanted to forget it so he tried to forget that memory in that process he managed to forgot all. He didn’t want to remember his sin. Killing an innocent animal is sin too.” Nita nodded. Pratap didn’t respond. He just kept looking far away as if he was not there. Psychiatrist “ I need to admit him. I need to see what else he did in anger & cure him too.” Nita nodded. When she began procedure of admitting him. Pratap began to scream that she was not his wife. She wanted to cry loudly but she controlled herself. She did all procedure & ward boys took him inside forcibly. He kept abusing her in worst way. Then as she started to go. Psychiatrist stopped her. “ I suggest you must start sessions for yourself & your son too. You need to just come for counselling for few times. We don’t want to take risk...” he didn’t need to explain. She immediately agreed. Then she came out. Suddenly Rohit said “ Thanks Mom. I needed that Psychiatrist.” She hugged him & started crying loudly. She wished from heart only if her husband had this sense which her son had in such young age she could have avoided many problems. But anyway she was glad someone had it. She knew that she would manage to move ahead with bravery for her son. She brushed away her tears & smiled. She said “ Let’s go for ice cream.” “ Yes one butterscotch.” She took hold of his hand & they went in ice cream parlour with luggage. All thought they were tourists but they didn’t care. They kept laughing & enjoying ice cream while keeping their sorrows in one side of mind.
The End
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