Stuck in past
Sheena was studying hard. She wanted to remember every word from book. She wanted to learn them from soul. Those words were meaningful and precious to her. She needed to pass her test. When she suddenly heard screams from hall, she came out running confused. She didn't understand what was wrong. It was her mother again. She was not happy with her latest maid. Her Mom always wanted cleanliness. Mom was telling maid how did she supposed to clean hard. Sheena wished from heart that Mom should forgot cleanliness at least for one day. She screamed "Mom will you talk in low voice I am studying?!!" Mom was so upset. Mom came in her room. Mom " I am not doing this all to please myself. I am doing this just for you!!" " I know Mom and I can understand." " Then why don't you co-operate?!!" Now she was shocked. " Mom did you forgot about my exam?" " No I remember it very well. That's why I am taking special care of your health if we don't keep our house clean then you will get sick and can't go in exam." " And if you keep screaming like that I don't have anything to write in exam. If I get sick, I can go in exam with medicines but if I didn't study sitting there is useless." Mom looked confused as if she was really judging which option was right when it was clear that they had just one option. Mom smiled and said " It's perfect. I got another idea." Sheena was confused but she was glad that Mom stopped screaming. She began to study again. She was tense entire time. Her head was becoming light due to tension. She always envied her small brother Tushar for his attitude regarding exams. He never get tense. Their Dad kept cursing and insulting him. He was always on top of world. She felt scared when Dad started suggesting those things to him. He kept laughing and she started shivering. She really didn't like it. Things were not moving the way she desired. She started to feel so stressed by her Mom's screaming. She looked at watch and saw timing. She needed to go. She packed her things. She took even book with her. She could keep it outside. Then she ran towards examination hall. She remembered that she started walking. She was tense. Then she suddenly woke up by her Mom's screams " Dad you want more salad?" She looked around. It seemed like night. She saw that it was night. She was on dinner table. She began to feel scared. She stood. " I supposed to go for exam." Her Dad and her brother both looked at her with shock. Dad " Which exam?" Tushar was sitting beside him. He was looking little bit old. Then a scary looking fat man came near her. He had strange sort of appeal around him. She didn't even like his horrible glance. He was looking at her in such way as if he was going to hit her. He was looking like some villain out of movie. When she looked at him with fear he asked "What happened? Why you are looking at me like that?" He was no longer smiling towards her. She started to feel confused. She didn't say anything. She knew that this was all bad dream. She would wake up soon. Then she heard crying of baby. Mom " Rina is crying. I think you need to give her some milk." Soon two more small girls joined them on table. They all started asking something from her. They kept insisting all duties of mother on her. One girl " Mom give me some chicken..!!." She was so scared. She started doing it just with purpose to shut up mouth of that little girl. Actually she wanted to hit her hard or she might cut her tongue by knife. She started to shiver more. She never thought that she could think with so cruelty. She was becoming insane. She was trying to control herself when suddenly other girl screamed " I want pizza. Grandpa promised. He said that when you gave birth to my baby brother I will get Pizza every day." Her husband screamed loudly on that girl " Shut up." She started crying. Sheena didn't understand any of that drama. She started concentrating in serving chicken. But she put too much chicken in plate. That girl screamed " Mom what are you doing? I can't eat so much didn't you care for me?" That man who showed as her husband started to console her. But that matter was going out of his hand. Sheena's Dad " Dev is handling all can't you help him little bit Sheena?!! You are mother of these stupid girls." Now both girls started crying loudly. Sheena was so frustrated. She didn't understand who was this Dev. She was going to exam how did she landed here. She stood up and said " I must sleep then everything will become fine again." Dev nodded in agreement. Dev " Yes you are looking little bit pale. She began to go in her room. But her Mom screamed " Why are you going in Tushar's room?!! Priya is sleeping inside with Raju?!! If Raju wake up and started crying and she will get hysteric." Tushar " That is understatement of century. She will break every brick of this house will be proper statement." And he started laughing again. Even in dream he was same tension free person. Tushar " Don't worry Mom. We will shift tomorrow. I can purchase another flat." Sheena's Mom " I don't feel that will be that easy. Priya will not give up on this flat." Tushar " Fine then we will take some bricks" And he started laughing again. But Sheena didn't want to face this Priya so went in that room which her Mom pointed and immediately closed her eyes. She started to praying to avoid crisis. She just needed to stop this horrible nightmare.
How hard Sheena tried to sleep but nothing was working. That baby her Mom called Rina kept crying. She decided that it was task of this dream she must put her baby to sleep. She started to calm that baby. Reena was nice baby but too weak. She didn't have chubby fat of healthy baby. She was too weak. She kept crying for such a long time that her face became totally red. Sheena tried to console her but nothing was happening. Then her Mom appeared. Mom " Why you are not feeding her? Give her some milk?" Her Mom pointed towards bottle of milk. She was so confused. She never gave milk to baby in bottle. She began to shiver. Rina was becoming red and red with anger or hunger she didn't understand but she sensed one thing. She was worst mother she didn't remember her daughter. She needed to wake up from nightmare. Her Mom came near her and started looking at her questioning way. " What happened? Give her milk." Her Mom took baby from crib and started giving her milk. She watched her carefully. She knew that she must do it to finish this dream. Her Mom asked again." What happened? You are watching me as if you have seen this for first time?!! You are mother of three kids so expert in it all. Just yesterday you did all in few minutes and ran in kitchen for cooking. I always say " you are supermom not like Priya. She is too lazy. But she got big job and large salary so they adjust with her." Her Mom stopped talking since she needed to adjust Rina under bottle. Sheena watched it carefully. She was confident that she could do this task now so she told her Mom " I will do it." Her Mom smiled. She took Rina in arms. She properly settled her and she started feeding her milk with bottle. Rina started drinking it happily. She smiled. She thought that when Rina would drink enough milk this dream would stop. She started to feed her but after some point Rina started rejecting that milk. She didn't understand what was happening. She was so confused. She began to feel that she might be entered in some virtual reality. She was in game. But her soul didn't agree to it. She didn't feel it was game. Then she felt that it was just nightmare. She couldn't marry man like Dev. He was so ugly. She knew that heart of man was precious but he looked scary. She couldn't look at him without fear. He couldn't be her husband. Her Mom looked at her with shiver. Her Mom looked sad. Mom " What happened? You started again thinking how did Priya called Dev ugly that day..!!" Sheena was so shocked. So this Priya seemed like nice girl. She seemed to have objected her marriage. She wanted to say it and blame her Mom but her Mom continued " Every girl is not like you who appreciate Dev. He is not handsome but he have normal looks. No one can call him ugly. We can easily see nice he was towards you in this entire crisis. It was not your mistake. It was mistake of your parents. He said it clearly. He stood with you. He supported you. No one act like that. I know how much you love him. You both are so attached to each other and now Priya said this.. before all.." Her Mom started crying. She was so confused. So she was in love with Dev. But she didn't remember anything. She suddenly started thinking about movies of memory loss. She asked her Mom " Did I had accident?" Her Mom looked confused. Her Mom " Accident?!! What kind of accident? Did you mean that one day you slipped on road and manage to hit your head on rock?" Sheena smiled. Now this sounded so perfect. She lost her memory due to that accident. It was clear case of memory loss. She started to feel relaxed. " Did I went to Doctor after it?" " No!! You said you are fine. Do you feel something is wrong now?!!" Her Mom started to look tense. Her Mom " We all felt something is wrong. In fact we were just discussing it but I thought that it was because of Priya. But it was many years ago.." Sheena was so frustrated. Her Mom was not talking logically. " Mom it creates blood clot and it could damage person on any time and it could be moving in my head slowly damaging me. Just imagine Mom how much damage it could do to me." Her eyes began to get clouded with tears. She started to feel so concerned. That she slowly touched her head as if she could touch and judge that clot. Her Mom stopped her. Mom " Don't move your head too much. You might harm. Just go to sleep and keep your head straight." She nodded. She went to sleep. She remained straight. She decided that she must sleep like that. She began to feel that she might be carrying time bomb. She shivered with fear. She kept sleeping in same way. While her Mom took Rina in arms and went outside in hurry. Sheena began to feel so cold. She slowly took blanket over herself. Still she kept shivering from inside. She was feeling so uncomfortable.
Sheena's Mom ran out in hurry. She was so tense. Problems were entering in Sheena's life from every point. She was so scared. She didn't want Sheena to be sick now. Sheena needed to take of her daughters. It was so frustrating. Priya kept taunting her every day. It all started when Sheena's in-laws began to harass her. They wanted grandson not another granddaughter. Rina was biggest disappointment to them. Sheena's Mom was so tense. From beginning in their family everyone was just interested in son. Sheena's Mom truthfully didn't want responsibility of her daughter too but she couldn't say no to her on face. It looked so inhuman after all she was mother but truthfully she didn't want those responsibilities. She didn't want those girls. She just wanted her son Tushar and her grandson Raju. She knew that her daughter-in-law Priya knew it too. Priya was behaving with so agressive attitude since she knew that no one wanted Sheena in that house. Her Mom went out and told everything. Her Dad turned to Dev. Her Dad " She is your wife. Frankly your responsibilty I feel you need to handle it." Dev " Dad don't worry. I will manage all. Let me call her gynaecologist first. We can't do without talking to her." " Yes. She is still not permitted to take strong medicines." Dev called her gynaecologist who gave him appointment. Dev was sensing something was strange in Sheena for long time. He felt that anger towards his parents was turning towards him. He didn't want any bitterness in their relationship but it was not working. From that day when his parents told him to go out of their house Sheena showed bitterness aloofness towards him. It was worst day of his life. His father called him. His father looked towards him with anger. His father "I am not ready to take burden of your three daughters." Now this statement shocked him. He was staying in house but he was managing expenses of entire house. He was paying bills like electricity, water, maintenance. He was providing for money so he thought that he would have right on his house. Actually his thinking that it was his house was biggest mistake. " I don't get it. I never took any money for my daughters from you. " His Dad nodded. " I know but Pradip is coming from US for few days with my grandson." Pradip was his elder brother who shifted in US long ago. He always just chatted on computer until now he never came to stay with them in India. Dev assumed that he never wanted to come. He was shocked and confused. " Dad Pradip is planning to come back!!" His Dad said " Yes and I am giving this house to him." He was so tense. Dev " Just give me few days.." his Dad " No Dev. I want you out of this house tomorrow." " DAD tomorrow?!! But how can I arrange every thing." His Dad " It's your problem. Truthfully Pradip is not going to come here. We are shifting there." " What?!! You never told me!!" His Dad looked upset. His Dad " Look Dev Pradip is ready to take my responsibilities but he is not ready to take your responsibility. He didn't want you to think and insist that you should not hope that he arrange for you anything to settle there." Dev was so upset. He never thought that way. From beginning he knew that his brother never wanted him to stay with him. Dev also didn't want to join him. Dev " I don't want to go there. I just want to stay in this house. " Then suddenly Sheena appeared with baby. His Dad gave angry look to her. " You know very well from beginning we don't want girl and you have three girls. I will not going to tolerate them. " Sheena looked so upset and sad. He saw her sorrows and decided to handle all with more force. " But Dad I am your son too." " But I am not giving this house to you. I have already managed to sell it. I am going away by flight today at night. Tomorrow buyer will take possession of flat. I hope you will shift before it." He was so shocked. For two three days Sheena told him that his Dad was packing all and sending it to some other place but he didn't took it seriously so he suffered. They were thrown out overnight. Dev was so tense. He didn't have much option so forced to take help of his father-in-law. He went there and then Priya started to talk in wrong way about him. She clearly said that Sheena married to an ugly man who was useless. She said it on his face. She made it clear that if they wanted to keep Raju then they must not keep Sheena. Dev stood slient but on that point he sensed aloofness in Sheena's eyes. He didn't like it. She didn't said any word during entire time. She kept looking far away. He knew one thing something was wrong with her. He was so concerned. But Dev knew that it was his responsibility and he would handle it all. He never told anyone but he had already bought one small flat on loan which was paying installment. But he still needed to do some arrangements to live in it like furniture and basic needs. He told his father-in-law " Don't worry I have flat I just need to do furnishings in it." Sheena's parents took breath of relief. They wanted them out of house soon.
Sheena kept sleeping in straight position as she was suggested when she felt someone entered. She opened her eyes. It was her husband Dev. Dev slowly came near her. She shivered. Then he sat by her. Dev asked " What happened?" He was clearly crying. Suddenly she began to feel that he was not as bad person as she thought at first. She was so scared. She needed to trust someone but she didn't feel willing to tell all. Dev kept looking at her with hope that she would answer him when she didn't he stood up. Dev " Don't punish me for my parent's mistake. I always showered love and affection on you and our daughters. Truthfully I feel it will be better that we are staying away from my parents. Tell me don't you feel their attitude will have worst effect on our daughters?!! I don't need it. I want them to see how much their parents like them. They are most precious things in this world." His eyes started to shine with affection. She began to fall in love with him. He was so nice, compassionate. She saw that strange affection inside him which she never sensed in anyone. He felt true respect towards her. Dev " My Dad is not kind man. He always acted in selfish way. Now he wanted just to get rid of us. My Mom was so different. She really cared for you and girls. " After hearing his affectionate tone she started crying. Sheena " I don't remember anything.." He looked at her with surprise and shock. " What? You can't remember anything!! I don't understand. You remember your name." She nodded. " My name.." " I don't remember anything about you or your daughter.. I mean our daughters. I was so shocked when I woke up." He didn't understand. " But you were fine when you went to sleep." He said it but he knew that she was not fine for long time. She didn't talk much. She kept just doing household work. But he felt that telling this to her would manage to scare her more. She was not normal. He was so upset. On last day before going out his Dad clearly told him " Your wife is not normal. Actually she is acting like mad woman." He was so angry. " I accept you don't like her since she didn't gave you a grandson but how could you show so much anger towards her." " It is not my anger. I am just doing duty as father." Dev felt confused. " I don't understand." " Yesterday she was so lost in thought that she was putting her hand on kitchen burner which was on. I don't understand how could she tolerated that heat." He shivered. He noticed her burns. But gynecologist was there for treatment so he didn't need to think so much. On that point he was so upset with his Dad that he left his Dad was lying. His Dad wanted to destroy all good things out of his life. He decided to ignore him. He thought that everything was normal. He patted on her hand and said " Don't worry I will handle all." She smiled and she went to sleep. She managed to sleep this time. But when she woke up, she looked around. She started searching for her backpack again. She was hoping that entire nightmare would vanish. But then she saw her daughters were sleeping around her. Dev was not there. She suddenly began to feel that he was her biggest support in this crisis. She was so scared. She needed to remember all. She started pushing her mind but she could remember nothing. She was so upset. She didn't understand her thoughts. She couldn't able to think straight. She was so frustrated. She wanted to be cured now. She wanted to remember all. When Dev said that he would take his responsibility, her Mom went to pay attention to Raju. Sheena knew that her Mom would ignore her. She always did that. She liked Tushar while Dad felt irritated by him. But now Tushar seemed to impress him too. Sheena woke up, she sensed that she needed to cook breakfast. Dev couldn't stay with them. He wrote a letter and told he was going out for work. She knew that they needed money. She started making breakfast. She suddenly began to sense pain in head. She began to remember kitchen. She began to remember many screaming and abuses. She began to feel strange in stomach. She started to feel strange. She ran to washbasin and vomitted. She sensed one thing that she was not in right shape. She decided that she couldn't wait for Dev. She suddenly remembered number of her family Doctor. She kept it one day in drawer and forgot it. She went to that drawer. She found number. She ran back and dialed number. Then she waited for someone to pick up her call.
After ringing for long time finally Doctor picked up her call. It was clear that Doctor was breathless. Sheena was confused. His hello seemed like hard work. Sheena " Are you alright?" Doctor started laughing. Doctor controlled himself and said " I am perfect actually I am fond of basketball so playing it." She was so shocked. " Actually you remember me!! I am Sheena." Doctor sounded confused. It was clear that he didn't remember her name. She started giving name of her parents. Still Doctor looked confused. Finally he said " I can't remember name of my all patients. But did you have some serious medical problem? Then you can bring your files!!" " Actually I remember nothing." She was thinking of explaining it slowly. She took deep breath but still she said it without second thought so quickly. She knew that Doctor would get confused. But she couldn't control herself. Doctor started to sound angry. "Are you playing some joke on me? This is a cruel joke." " No this is not joke. This is something serious." Doctor sounded confused. Sheena started pleading " Please Doctor give me an appointment I need it." Doctor " But I don't work in clinic. I am retired." She started crying. Doctor " Now don't cry like that. I am not only Doctor in this world. You will find many." " But at this moment I need one on whom I can keep faith. And I trust you." Doctor " Fine. Give me your address. I will come." She didn't sense how much unseasonable her attitude was. But she needed him so she gave without second thought. She had three kids and she was not in right shape to handle them. It was emergency in her view. Then she sat in hall. She began to wait for Doctor. She was so nervous. She kept taking deep breaths. Soon her daughters came out. They started to asking for breakfast. She needed to manage all. She did all. She was no longer acting like human. She began to feel that she was doing all in automatic way. She felt as if she did it for long time. But sadly she didn't remember it. She wanted to remember all. Her girls were smiling and enjoying. She wanted to become their Mom again. But she couldn't. Then finally her door bell rang and Doctor came. She smiled happily. He had brought someone with him. Doctor " This is my friend. He will handle your case." She felt so upset but Doctor smiled and said " Don't worry he was my student. Trust him." Her parents came out with Priya. They started questioning her. They wanted to know why did she called Doctor. But Doctor signaled them to keep quiet. Then young Doctor checked her. Doctor " I don't see anything wrong in her physically. " Her Dad " I don't understand. She didn't remember anything according to her husband and you are saying she is fine?" Doctor " Yes. Since she is having this problem due to mental stress. Any way you must do this report just to confirm." She nodded. She took list of tests. Then she immediately called Dev. Dev told her that she should go to hospital with her Mom. She agreed. But in reality after dropping her daughters in school she went there alone. Her Mom did great favour on her by taking care of Rina. But she decided to hide it from Dev. She did all tests. It was so scary. Finally when she came back, she was depressed and frustrated. Whole time she kept feeling tense. She didn't find any solution. She was so upset. She didn't find any way out of that trouble. Finally she started feeling frustrated when Doctor suggested psychiatrist. Dev came to her one day. Dev " I feel we must take you to psychiatrist." She was so hopeless. She was sure that nothing was going to cure her. But still she went there. She needed to keep all girls with her Mom who was so upset. Her Mom asked " When you shift in your flat?" Sheena was confused. But Dev said with confidence " Tomorrow." Then they went to psychiatrist. She was shivering with fear whole time. When she told all to psychiatrist, he just smiled. Psychiatrist " This is post-traumatic symptoms. Did anyone attached to you died? " Sheena nodded and said " Yes My Mom." Then she controlled herself. She was confused. Dev added " She is talking about my Mom her mother-in-law." Psychiatrist nodded. Psychiatrist " Don't worry. It all will come back to you step by step. But first quit that house. Your parents are worst effect on you." Dev " Don't worry Doctor we will shift tomorrow." Psychiatrist nodded. Psychiatrist " Don't worry!! You will be fine soon." Sheena felt that it was hard. She didn't believe him. But then she sensed that she managed to remember her mother-in-law today so she could do it. She looked at Psychiatrist with hope and started listening to him. She started to co-operate fully with him.
The End
Sheena was studying hard. She wanted to remember every word from book. She wanted to learn them from soul. Those words were meaningful and precious to her. She needed to pass her test. When she suddenly heard screams from hall, she came out running confused. She didn't understand what was wrong. It was her mother again. She was not happy with her latest maid. Her Mom always wanted cleanliness. Mom was telling maid how did she supposed to clean hard. Sheena wished from heart that Mom should forgot cleanliness at least for one day. She screamed "Mom will you talk in low voice I am studying?!!" Mom was so upset. Mom came in her room. Mom " I am not doing this all to please myself. I am doing this just for you!!" " I know Mom and I can understand." " Then why don't you co-operate?!!" Now she was shocked. " Mom did you forgot about my exam?" " No I remember it very well. That's why I am taking special care of your health if we don't keep our house clean then you will get sick and can't go in exam." " And if you keep screaming like that I don't have anything to write in exam. If I get sick, I can go in exam with medicines but if I didn't study sitting there is useless." Mom looked confused as if she was really judging which option was right when it was clear that they had just one option. Mom smiled and said " It's perfect. I got another idea." Sheena was confused but she was glad that Mom stopped screaming. She began to study again. She was tense entire time. Her head was becoming light due to tension. She always envied her small brother Tushar for his attitude regarding exams. He never get tense. Their Dad kept cursing and insulting him. He was always on top of world. She felt scared when Dad started suggesting those things to him. He kept laughing and she started shivering. She really didn't like it. Things were not moving the way she desired. She started to feel so stressed by her Mom's screaming. She looked at watch and saw timing. She needed to go. She packed her things. She took even book with her. She could keep it outside. Then she ran towards examination hall. She remembered that she started walking. She was tense. Then she suddenly woke up by her Mom's screams " Dad you want more salad?" She looked around. It seemed like night. She saw that it was night. She was on dinner table. She began to feel scared. She stood. " I supposed to go for exam." Her Dad and her brother both looked at her with shock. Dad " Which exam?" Tushar was sitting beside him. He was looking little bit old. Then a scary looking fat man came near her. He had strange sort of appeal around him. She didn't even like his horrible glance. He was looking at her in such way as if he was going to hit her. He was looking like some villain out of movie. When she looked at him with fear he asked "What happened? Why you are looking at me like that?" He was no longer smiling towards her. She started to feel confused. She didn't say anything. She knew that this was all bad dream. She would wake up soon. Then she heard crying of baby. Mom " Rina is crying. I think you need to give her some milk." Soon two more small girls joined them on table. They all started asking something from her. They kept insisting all duties of mother on her. One girl " Mom give me some chicken..!!." She was so scared. She started doing it just with purpose to shut up mouth of that little girl. Actually she wanted to hit her hard or she might cut her tongue by knife. She started to shiver more. She never thought that she could think with so cruelty. She was becoming insane. She was trying to control herself when suddenly other girl screamed " I want pizza. Grandpa promised. He said that when you gave birth to my baby brother I will get Pizza every day." Her husband screamed loudly on that girl " Shut up." She started crying. Sheena didn't understand any of that drama. She started concentrating in serving chicken. But she put too much chicken in plate. That girl screamed " Mom what are you doing? I can't eat so much didn't you care for me?" That man who showed as her husband started to console her. But that matter was going out of his hand. Sheena's Dad " Dev is handling all can't you help him little bit Sheena?!! You are mother of these stupid girls." Now both girls started crying loudly. Sheena was so frustrated. She didn't understand who was this Dev. She was going to exam how did she landed here. She stood up and said " I must sleep then everything will become fine again." Dev nodded in agreement. Dev " Yes you are looking little bit pale. She began to go in her room. But her Mom screamed " Why are you going in Tushar's room?!! Priya is sleeping inside with Raju?!! If Raju wake up and started crying and she will get hysteric." Tushar " That is understatement of century. She will break every brick of this house will be proper statement." And he started laughing again. Even in dream he was same tension free person. Tushar " Don't worry Mom. We will shift tomorrow. I can purchase another flat." Sheena's Mom " I don't feel that will be that easy. Priya will not give up on this flat." Tushar " Fine then we will take some bricks" And he started laughing again. But Sheena didn't want to face this Priya so went in that room which her Mom pointed and immediately closed her eyes. She started to praying to avoid crisis. She just needed to stop this horrible nightmare.
How hard Sheena tried to sleep but nothing was working. That baby her Mom called Rina kept crying. She decided that it was task of this dream she must put her baby to sleep. She started to calm that baby. Reena was nice baby but too weak. She didn't have chubby fat of healthy baby. She was too weak. She kept crying for such a long time that her face became totally red. Sheena tried to console her but nothing was happening. Then her Mom appeared. Mom " Why you are not feeding her? Give her some milk?" Her Mom pointed towards bottle of milk. She was so confused. She never gave milk to baby in bottle. She began to shiver. Rina was becoming red and red with anger or hunger she didn't understand but she sensed one thing. She was worst mother she didn't remember her daughter. She needed to wake up from nightmare. Her Mom came near her and started looking at her questioning way. " What happened? Give her milk." Her Mom took baby from crib and started giving her milk. She watched her carefully. She knew that she must do it to finish this dream. Her Mom asked again." What happened? You are watching me as if you have seen this for first time?!! You are mother of three kids so expert in it all. Just yesterday you did all in few minutes and ran in kitchen for cooking. I always say " you are supermom not like Priya. She is too lazy. But she got big job and large salary so they adjust with her." Her Mom stopped talking since she needed to adjust Rina under bottle. Sheena watched it carefully. She was confident that she could do this task now so she told her Mom " I will do it." Her Mom smiled. She took Rina in arms. She properly settled her and she started feeding her milk with bottle. Rina started drinking it happily. She smiled. She thought that when Rina would drink enough milk this dream would stop. She started to feed her but after some point Rina started rejecting that milk. She didn't understand what was happening. She was so confused. She began to feel that she might be entered in some virtual reality. She was in game. But her soul didn't agree to it. She didn't feel it was game. Then she felt that it was just nightmare. She couldn't marry man like Dev. He was so ugly. She knew that heart of man was precious but he looked scary. She couldn't look at him without fear. He couldn't be her husband. Her Mom looked at her with shiver. Her Mom looked sad. Mom " What happened? You started again thinking how did Priya called Dev ugly that day..!!" Sheena was so shocked. So this Priya seemed like nice girl. She seemed to have objected her marriage. She wanted to say it and blame her Mom but her Mom continued " Every girl is not like you who appreciate Dev. He is not handsome but he have normal looks. No one can call him ugly. We can easily see nice he was towards you in this entire crisis. It was not your mistake. It was mistake of your parents. He said it clearly. He stood with you. He supported you. No one act like that. I know how much you love him. You both are so attached to each other and now Priya said this.. before all.." Her Mom started crying. She was so confused. So she was in love with Dev. But she didn't remember anything. She suddenly started thinking about movies of memory loss. She asked her Mom " Did I had accident?" Her Mom looked confused. Her Mom " Accident?!! What kind of accident? Did you mean that one day you slipped on road and manage to hit your head on rock?" Sheena smiled. Now this sounded so perfect. She lost her memory due to that accident. It was clear case of memory loss. She started to feel relaxed. " Did I went to Doctor after it?" " No!! You said you are fine. Do you feel something is wrong now?!!" Her Mom started to look tense. Her Mom " We all felt something is wrong. In fact we were just discussing it but I thought that it was because of Priya. But it was many years ago.." Sheena was so frustrated. Her Mom was not talking logically. " Mom it creates blood clot and it could damage person on any time and it could be moving in my head slowly damaging me. Just imagine Mom how much damage it could do to me." Her eyes began to get clouded with tears. She started to feel so concerned. That she slowly touched her head as if she could touch and judge that clot. Her Mom stopped her. Mom " Don't move your head too much. You might harm. Just go to sleep and keep your head straight." She nodded. She went to sleep. She remained straight. She decided that she must sleep like that. She began to feel that she might be carrying time bomb. She shivered with fear. She kept sleeping in same way. While her Mom took Rina in arms and went outside in hurry. Sheena began to feel so cold. She slowly took blanket over herself. Still she kept shivering from inside. She was feeling so uncomfortable.
Sheena's Mom ran out in hurry. She was so tense. Problems were entering in Sheena's life from every point. She was so scared. She didn't want Sheena to be sick now. Sheena needed to take of her daughters. It was so frustrating. Priya kept taunting her every day. It all started when Sheena's in-laws began to harass her. They wanted grandson not another granddaughter. Rina was biggest disappointment to them. Sheena's Mom was so tense. From beginning in their family everyone was just interested in son. Sheena's Mom truthfully didn't want responsibility of her daughter too but she couldn't say no to her on face. It looked so inhuman after all she was mother but truthfully she didn't want those responsibilities. She didn't want those girls. She just wanted her son Tushar and her grandson Raju. She knew that her daughter-in-law Priya knew it too. Priya was behaving with so agressive attitude since she knew that no one wanted Sheena in that house. Her Mom went out and told everything. Her Dad turned to Dev. Her Dad " She is your wife. Frankly your responsibilty I feel you need to handle it." Dev " Dad don't worry. I will manage all. Let me call her gynaecologist first. We can't do without talking to her." " Yes. She is still not permitted to take strong medicines." Dev called her gynaecologist who gave him appointment. Dev was sensing something was strange in Sheena for long time. He felt that anger towards his parents was turning towards him. He didn't want any bitterness in their relationship but it was not working. From that day when his parents told him to go out of their house Sheena showed bitterness aloofness towards him. It was worst day of his life. His father called him. His father looked towards him with anger. His father "I am not ready to take burden of your three daughters." Now this statement shocked him. He was staying in house but he was managing expenses of entire house. He was paying bills like electricity, water, maintenance. He was providing for money so he thought that he would have right on his house. Actually his thinking that it was his house was biggest mistake. " I don't get it. I never took any money for my daughters from you. " His Dad nodded. " I know but Pradip is coming from US for few days with my grandson." Pradip was his elder brother who shifted in US long ago. He always just chatted on computer until now he never came to stay with them in India. Dev assumed that he never wanted to come. He was shocked and confused. " Dad Pradip is planning to come back!!" His Dad said " Yes and I am giving this house to him." He was so tense. Dev " Just give me few days.." his Dad " No Dev. I want you out of this house tomorrow." " DAD tomorrow?!! But how can I arrange every thing." His Dad " It's your problem. Truthfully Pradip is not going to come here. We are shifting there." " What?!! You never told me!!" His Dad looked upset. His Dad " Look Dev Pradip is ready to take my responsibilities but he is not ready to take your responsibility. He didn't want you to think and insist that you should not hope that he arrange for you anything to settle there." Dev was so upset. He never thought that way. From beginning he knew that his brother never wanted him to stay with him. Dev also didn't want to join him. Dev " I don't want to go there. I just want to stay in this house. " Then suddenly Sheena appeared with baby. His Dad gave angry look to her. " You know very well from beginning we don't want girl and you have three girls. I will not going to tolerate them. " Sheena looked so upset and sad. He saw her sorrows and decided to handle all with more force. " But Dad I am your son too." " But I am not giving this house to you. I have already managed to sell it. I am going away by flight today at night. Tomorrow buyer will take possession of flat. I hope you will shift before it." He was so shocked. For two three days Sheena told him that his Dad was packing all and sending it to some other place but he didn't took it seriously so he suffered. They were thrown out overnight. Dev was so tense. He didn't have much option so forced to take help of his father-in-law. He went there and then Priya started to talk in wrong way about him. She clearly said that Sheena married to an ugly man who was useless. She said it on his face. She made it clear that if they wanted to keep Raju then they must not keep Sheena. Dev stood slient but on that point he sensed aloofness in Sheena's eyes. He didn't like it. She didn't said any word during entire time. She kept looking far away. He knew one thing something was wrong with her. He was so concerned. But Dev knew that it was his responsibility and he would handle it all. He never told anyone but he had already bought one small flat on loan which was paying installment. But he still needed to do some arrangements to live in it like furniture and basic needs. He told his father-in-law " Don't worry I have flat I just need to do furnishings in it." Sheena's parents took breath of relief. They wanted them out of house soon.
Sheena kept sleeping in straight position as she was suggested when she felt someone entered. She opened her eyes. It was her husband Dev. Dev slowly came near her. She shivered. Then he sat by her. Dev asked " What happened?" He was clearly crying. Suddenly she began to feel that he was not as bad person as she thought at first. She was so scared. She needed to trust someone but she didn't feel willing to tell all. Dev kept looking at her with hope that she would answer him when she didn't he stood up. Dev " Don't punish me for my parent's mistake. I always showered love and affection on you and our daughters. Truthfully I feel it will be better that we are staying away from my parents. Tell me don't you feel their attitude will have worst effect on our daughters?!! I don't need it. I want them to see how much their parents like them. They are most precious things in this world." His eyes started to shine with affection. She began to fall in love with him. He was so nice, compassionate. She saw that strange affection inside him which she never sensed in anyone. He felt true respect towards her. Dev " My Dad is not kind man. He always acted in selfish way. Now he wanted just to get rid of us. My Mom was so different. She really cared for you and girls. " After hearing his affectionate tone she started crying. Sheena " I don't remember anything.." He looked at her with surprise and shock. " What? You can't remember anything!! I don't understand. You remember your name." She nodded. " My name.." " I don't remember anything about you or your daughter.. I mean our daughters. I was so shocked when I woke up." He didn't understand. " But you were fine when you went to sleep." He said it but he knew that she was not fine for long time. She didn't talk much. She kept just doing household work. But he felt that telling this to her would manage to scare her more. She was not normal. He was so upset. On last day before going out his Dad clearly told him " Your wife is not normal. Actually she is acting like mad woman." He was so angry. " I accept you don't like her since she didn't gave you a grandson but how could you show so much anger towards her." " It is not my anger. I am just doing duty as father." Dev felt confused. " I don't understand." " Yesterday she was so lost in thought that she was putting her hand on kitchen burner which was on. I don't understand how could she tolerated that heat." He shivered. He noticed her burns. But gynecologist was there for treatment so he didn't need to think so much. On that point he was so upset with his Dad that he left his Dad was lying. His Dad wanted to destroy all good things out of his life. He decided to ignore him. He thought that everything was normal. He patted on her hand and said " Don't worry I will handle all." She smiled and she went to sleep. She managed to sleep this time. But when she woke up, she looked around. She started searching for her backpack again. She was hoping that entire nightmare would vanish. But then she saw her daughters were sleeping around her. Dev was not there. She suddenly began to feel that he was her biggest support in this crisis. She was so scared. She needed to remember all. She started pushing her mind but she could remember nothing. She was so upset. She didn't understand her thoughts. She couldn't able to think straight. She was so frustrated. She wanted to be cured now. She wanted to remember all. When Dev said that he would take his responsibility, her Mom went to pay attention to Raju. Sheena knew that her Mom would ignore her. She always did that. She liked Tushar while Dad felt irritated by him. But now Tushar seemed to impress him too. Sheena woke up, she sensed that she needed to cook breakfast. Dev couldn't stay with them. He wrote a letter and told he was going out for work. She knew that they needed money. She started making breakfast. She suddenly began to sense pain in head. She began to remember kitchen. She began to remember many screaming and abuses. She began to feel strange in stomach. She started to feel strange. She ran to washbasin and vomitted. She sensed one thing that she was not in right shape. She decided that she couldn't wait for Dev. She suddenly remembered number of her family Doctor. She kept it one day in drawer and forgot it. She went to that drawer. She found number. She ran back and dialed number. Then she waited for someone to pick up her call.
After ringing for long time finally Doctor picked up her call. It was clear that Doctor was breathless. Sheena was confused. His hello seemed like hard work. Sheena " Are you alright?" Doctor started laughing. Doctor controlled himself and said " I am perfect actually I am fond of basketball so playing it." She was so shocked. " Actually you remember me!! I am Sheena." Doctor sounded confused. It was clear that he didn't remember her name. She started giving name of her parents. Still Doctor looked confused. Finally he said " I can't remember name of my all patients. But did you have some serious medical problem? Then you can bring your files!!" " Actually I remember nothing." She was thinking of explaining it slowly. She took deep breath but still she said it without second thought so quickly. She knew that Doctor would get confused. But she couldn't control herself. Doctor started to sound angry. "Are you playing some joke on me? This is a cruel joke." " No this is not joke. This is something serious." Doctor sounded confused. Sheena started pleading " Please Doctor give me an appointment I need it." Doctor " But I don't work in clinic. I am retired." She started crying. Doctor " Now don't cry like that. I am not only Doctor in this world. You will find many." " But at this moment I need one on whom I can keep faith. And I trust you." Doctor " Fine. Give me your address. I will come." She didn't sense how much unseasonable her attitude was. But she needed him so she gave without second thought. She had three kids and she was not in right shape to handle them. It was emergency in her view. Then she sat in hall. She began to wait for Doctor. She was so nervous. She kept taking deep breaths. Soon her daughters came out. They started to asking for breakfast. She needed to manage all. She did all. She was no longer acting like human. She began to feel that she was doing all in automatic way. She felt as if she did it for long time. But sadly she didn't remember it. She wanted to remember all. Her girls were smiling and enjoying. She wanted to become their Mom again. But she couldn't. Then finally her door bell rang and Doctor came. She smiled happily. He had brought someone with him. Doctor " This is my friend. He will handle your case." She felt so upset but Doctor smiled and said " Don't worry he was my student. Trust him." Her parents came out with Priya. They started questioning her. They wanted to know why did she called Doctor. But Doctor signaled them to keep quiet. Then young Doctor checked her. Doctor " I don't see anything wrong in her physically. " Her Dad " I don't understand. She didn't remember anything according to her husband and you are saying she is fine?" Doctor " Yes. Since she is having this problem due to mental stress. Any way you must do this report just to confirm." She nodded. She took list of tests. Then she immediately called Dev. Dev told her that she should go to hospital with her Mom. She agreed. But in reality after dropping her daughters in school she went there alone. Her Mom did great favour on her by taking care of Rina. But she decided to hide it from Dev. She did all tests. It was so scary. Finally when she came back, she was depressed and frustrated. Whole time she kept feeling tense. She didn't find any solution. She was so upset. She didn't find any way out of that trouble. Finally she started feeling frustrated when Doctor suggested psychiatrist. Dev came to her one day. Dev " I feel we must take you to psychiatrist." She was so hopeless. She was sure that nothing was going to cure her. But still she went there. She needed to keep all girls with her Mom who was so upset. Her Mom asked " When you shift in your flat?" Sheena was confused. But Dev said with confidence " Tomorrow." Then they went to psychiatrist. She was shivering with fear whole time. When she told all to psychiatrist, he just smiled. Psychiatrist " This is post-traumatic symptoms. Did anyone attached to you died? " Sheena nodded and said " Yes My Mom." Then she controlled herself. She was confused. Dev added " She is talking about my Mom her mother-in-law." Psychiatrist nodded. Psychiatrist " Don't worry. It all will come back to you step by step. But first quit that house. Your parents are worst effect on you." Dev " Don't worry Doctor we will shift tomorrow." Psychiatrist nodded. Psychiatrist " Don't worry!! You will be fine soon." Sheena felt that it was hard. She didn't believe him. But then she sensed that she managed to remember her mother-in-law today so she could do it. She looked at Psychiatrist with hope and started listening to him. She started to co-operate fully with him.
The End
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