Sacrifice
Rajan woke up by lovely voice of Meera , his daughter. Meera was always different in every way. At each morning she used to love to sit before Krishna and sang his prayers. Her actual name was Ragini but due to her devotion every one started calling her Meera. In fact she suggested that name. She told Rajan and Seeta to change her name. At beginning they were so angry but then slowly they understood that she was right. She convinced them that she wanted peace in her mind. Her two other sister and brother were not that way. Each of them had some big demand. They all wanted things but Meera never complaint. She just love to wear white punjabi suit. In name of ornament she wore nothing except that small ear rings which forced on her by Seeta and one thread with locket of Krishna. She just never wanted any thing. She was ready to adjust in every situation. She never complained about anything. She was ready to sleep on floor. She never liked beds. She said that their softness hurt her. She always claimed that she wanted just harsh and strong things which make her happy because due to them. She was in touch with nature. She just loved to live hard life. At beginning they used to give her things just like another daughters. On birthday they used to cut cakes for her. But she decided to stop it on her fifth birthday. It was really special. Since all other kids were still excited on their birthday and they wanted to cut cakes even at their twenty fifth birthday. But Meera was different. She was always less demanding. She just used to help her Mom in every thing. She liked simple living. She hardly bought any clothes for herself. She just had few white and simple dresses. But it was worst when they had to take her on some celebration. She just dressed in simple white and with limited ornaments. Many people assumed that she was their servant not their daughter because every one else was loaded with jewelry and many times relatives take it personally. Like his sister Alka who was so angry when Meera came in her son's marriage in white dress. Alka was shocked to see it. Alka " Rajan Seeta how could you tell her do that? This marriage not funeral that she dress like that. Do you feel sorrow on my son's marriage? I never expected this from you." "Didi come on. She just don't listen to us. Let her be. You can see every one else loaded with jewelry." "But why don't you force her?" Seeta said with anger " I bought every thing ask to every member of my family. I have even tried to force it on her." Younger daughter Trushna " Mom even forced earring in her ears. But she just pushed it away and that earring was broken. It was old ear ring." Now even Alka was shocked." My god. I feel some thing is wrong with her. Why did she want to act like that?" Meera "Auntie because I am devotee of Lord Krinsha like Meera." Then she started saying prayers in her soft voice. It was really enchanting on every point. So they all heard it and continued with marriage whole time. Meera just kept telling every one about Lord Krishna and his tales. Some really enjoyed it and some found them strange. But Rajan felt that his daughter was saint by soul and he was not going to interfere with that. He would not let her life spoiled by force of luxuries on her. He convinced it to Seeta who also agreed to it since they got limited money for luxuries and they didn't want to waste on Meera who never had desire for them.
But slowly Meera became like one saint every one could come to her when they were in any trouble. In whole family she was the most mature and intelligent mind. Rajan smiled to himself . His daughter was not just saint but also intelligent saint. She just finished her school work on time. But she always hated that school dress. She always wanted to wear some thing decent but as soon as her school was over. She started wearing punjabi suits in college. But her color was always white when she walked in that college. It seemed as if some saint was coming. She was many times taunted by fellow students but she always handled it with smile. She was like that only. She always managed to handle her criticism with smile that were showing world in interesting way. She taught Rajan how to handle his troubles with smile. He always found it hard to manage his family with his limited income. But he managed to do it with Meera. When he felt upset, he just sat with her. Even today as soon as he heard her sweet sound, he woke up. He went out. In one small hall in corner she was singing while all other kids were trying to stop her voice with their rugs. Sometimes even they are screaming on her. Rajan " Go and sleep inside." All kids just ran inside to sleep on bed with Seeta. They were so irritated by her voice. He just never understood that how could they act so unemotional towards that sweet voice. Once he tried to ask, but Seeta screamed " You can sit in office whole day and then when you heard her in morning you feel so great but we have to tolerate her whole time. She just kept singing. It is so irritating. Her voice seemed to be stuck in that small hall. I feel suffocated due to it." Rajan just never understood that attitude. He just loved that voice. He just adored his daughter. He kept encouraging her. He brought many religious books for her. She loved them. She started reading many types of books. Seeta got more irritated by it. Seeta " You are wasting so much money on her." "What? Shut up. These are not some stupid make up sets or some fiction books. These are books of god which deserve far more respect. At this age you also need to read this." "Oh really !! Then increase your salary keep one maid and I will sit and just read with Meera and pray for whole day." "My god you don't even have any respect for our god." "No I don't since I need more money to feed all and keep them happy. If you keep just wasting it on one daughter. We are in big mess." He was so angry when Seeta argued like that. Then he started to use his personal money which was given to him for his daily things to purchase her books. She just kept reading them. Then after few days she said that she had enough books. Now she wanted to concentrate on them. She was so understanding not demanding like other kids. She was just saint from birth. But Seeta, her Mom never understood her. She always kept screaming against her. He just wished that Seeta could understand Meera. But some were in his heart she knew that Seeta was doing it due to love only. She wanted happily married life for Meera but Meera was never made that way. Rajan was sure in heart one day she would understand it just like him. He smiled from heart and he sat with Meera and started singing slowly. Just in soft voice which would not disturb her beautiful song.
Seeta woke up due to pushing of her kids. They all were grown up now and when they all just slept on one bed. It felt so wrong. Seeta had faith in god but Meera's attitude seemed to her little bit too much. She was so scared that one day Meera became saint and it would cause them embarrassment. She had seen many ladies on road who would try to sell you some religious book .She never liked it because it seemed so risky to sell it like that. Now a days you just couldn't trust any person as gentle man. It all seemed wrong entirely. But it was truth. It could not be written on man's face or woman's face what she had in mind. Many times even women managed to kidnap girls and then sell them. She had seen many sort of such scary tells on Television. She was so scared for her daughter. She never wanted her to become that kind of devotee. But Meera just seemed to be always interested just in god. It seemed so clear that she wanted to remain that way for entire life. Seeta was so confused. She wanted her daughter to be happily married or some one who was happy with her career but not some saint who walk around and beg. But Rajan seemed to be happy with her this decision. Seeta was against it. She was upset that she woke up and looked around. All her remaining kids were scattered around bed. She didn't understood that why did Meera had to sang so loudly. Seeta went outside. She came out and screamed " Will you stop singing that song? You are disturbing my sleep." Rajan " Stop it. She is not singing some movie song. She is singing prayers. Don't you have some respect for god?" "Wow you are asking me that? I have to sell my jewel to create this small temple. Your money never manage to create. You have just one that is talking. You never earn enough to give us any thing." Rajan was so angry. " You are saying it as if your father use to earn a lot. " " Don't jump on my father or I will talk about your." Rajan stood up in anger. Rajan " What? What about him?" " Have earn lot more than my Dad but he was so unlucky that his son wasted it all." Rajan was so angry. He just couldn't tolerate this insult. He just stood up. When he was about to curse Seeta, Meera stood up. Meera " Dad relax. From tomorrow I will sing song in slow voice after all song is for god not to disturb others. This way we will arrive peace of our soul and Mom will not get disturb at all." Meera " Mom I hope you will not mind if I sing in low voice." Rajan once again turned to god after hearing Meera's talk and Seeta went back in kitchen. Seeta started to moving ahead with one thinking from mind. That Meera was never giving happiness to her soul. She started thinking about her other kids. It seemed to so nice to think about them. They were her hope in life. She just loved them all but Meera!! She was so strange. Seeta always found her nice little normal girl when she was little kid but then as she grew up suddenly she became so devoted to god that on every point she just started just talking about god. At beginning she didn't took it seriously but now a days she regretted her decision. She just felt one thing that she had to try to stop her on that time. But then she felt that she might didn't need to think about it. Every kid had their own choice so she must let her go as per her choice. She felt that thing in her heart so she went out and said "Meera you can sing your song as loud as you like. But in our room. When you want to sing, came in our room since it will not disturb others." "But it will disturb you." "Don't worry. I will wake on that time any way." Meera smiled "Thanks Mom." Rajan " But god is here." Seeta was so angry but Meera spoken before her " Dad god is everywhere I will sing prayer in room and I can sing for long time. Thanks Mom for understanding." Seeta smiled " May god give you long life." Seeta went back in kitchen to finish her work. Meera "Do you see my meaning Dad? Anger don't give any thing but peace will give all. So let's start." Then they both started singing again.
Meera was just engaged in her prayers. Seeta one day finally had to ask her. Seeta " Do you want to marry some one?" Meera looked shocked. " No..no..I never want to get attach with any one except god. I just didn't want marriage and it's responsibilities. My faith is just one that is my god and I am devoted on every point to my god. I can't do justice to any relation in life. Since those effect in life so Mom just forget chapter of my marriage." Seeta have guessed this answer but next question was more important in her eyes. Seeta " So are you ready that I will start searching husband for your sisters? " "Of course." Meera gave pleased smile. Seeta was relieved. She was clear about that one concept that she had to find husband for other daughters but had to avoid mention of Meera. She started searching for son-in-law. Slowly she found it was hard for them to avoid Meera. Whenever people came to see their daughter. Meera considered as strange thing. But luckily they managed to arrange marriage of their one daughter. Seeta was so happy. Every day started to give happiness to her heart. But then suddenly one day her daughter's to be mother-in-law asked " What are you going to do with Meera?" "What about her?" "Actually I will not lie to you. One of my friend was inquiring regarding your son. She wanted to interested in him regarding her daughter." Seeta smiled happily. She wanted a nice daughter-in-law also. " I will tell you about my son." "I know every thing and I told it. She liked it from heart. But then she started about Meera." Seeta was so upset and nervous. Her daughter's to be mother-in-law " You need to understand. Either you have to buy another flat or it will be hard for your son to get married to some nice girl. Think about it. You have one daughter who is going to stay here for entire life." Seeta was so sorrowful that she had hard time to control her tears. " Just relax Seeta. I can help you in this case. I will find a nice apartment for your son on installment. " Then she told him every thing about that scheme. She was upset by it. Seeta just wanted that apartment but price was too much. She knew that her son could not manage that big loan from office. She just thought about her jewelry. She could sell that jewelry which was planning to use for Meera. She decided to sold it for her son. After all due to her he was suffering. She was not planning to do injustice to her son. She couldn't expect her daughter-in-law to adjust with that morning prayer of Meera. She decided that she must sell that jewelry. She had to discuss it with Rajan and she knew that it was not normal. Rajan would want to save it for Meera. But she needed a house. As soon as she told this decision to Rajan argument started. Every one in house started participating in it. It was all totally wrong. Rajan was on one side but all kids were supporting Seeta. Finally Rajan started to give up. He was crying and Meera was watching it all silently. Then Meera slowly convinced Rajan that she didn't want any thing except her god. Rajan cried on her laps. Finally next day that jewelry was sold and first installment for that house was paid. Then they started arranging every thing for her brother Rohit. But then in few days proposal came for Rohit. Marriage was fixed. But during every thing Meera was avoided on every point. There were two marriages in house but Meera was not interested in them. She just sat in corner chanting god's name. Rajan was silently watching all this.
Then one day worst thing happened while coming back to house. Rohit's to be bride got involved in accident. She became serious. They all ran to hospital. Meera came with them. They all were crying. Meera was consoling them. But then suddenly as soon as they came inside house, she told them. Meera " Mom and Dad I need to sacrifice myself to do it right." "What?" "Yes. Mom, Dad try to understand god want me to come to him. He needed me. That's why this all is happening. That day I had one dream in which I see that god was telling me that I must burn myself so that I could come to him." "Shut up." Rajan and Seeta both screamed. But Meera just moved fast. She locked herself in kitchen and started to try to burn her. But she just could not manage to any thing. She started opening gas. But by then they managed to open that weak door. They had to drag her out of kitchen. It was worst scene for them all. She was not in her senses. Finally Doctor was called and she was taken to hospital. Doctor forced her to sleep. But when she woke up, she just still kept insisting that she must do suicide to protect her family. They tried to convince her but it was not working. Finally psychiatrist was called. That psychiatrist talked to her. Then he came out. Seeta " What was wrong with her? She was mad from beginning..." Psychiatrist " Will you stop this? She was fine at beginning. But you are creating troubles for her. She wanted to chat. It was her choice. But you kept insisting that she should wear and dress like other daughters. She even felt that when you asked her about marriage. You accepted her such willingly as if you never wanted her to marry. You just want her to move as per your choice and Rajan kept opposing you instead of finding solutions. Just opposition will not help her. You want to sell your jewelry then you could have done it but you want to sell Meera's jewelry. Why? Because she never acted as per your wish." Seeta looked tense. Rajan " I tried to stop her but.." "Then why don't you by yourself arranged one flat for your son by your housing loan." Rajan was so confused. He never thought this way. "Rohit deserved one flat but it should come from every one's share. Not just Meera's jewelry. She decided to do that because she felt that slowly every one will feel that even this was happened due to her. This had not happened due to her. It happened due to lack of budget in your family. When you give birth to kid, you suppose to arrange security for them. Why don't you understand important of planning in life? You just never plan any thing and blamed it all on her. She is suffering due to major depression. Her chanting was helping her but then as she got blamed for destroying Rohit's future. It stopped helping her . She started getting depressed. Then she heard in some group regarding sacrifice for god. She liked this idea because she was in so much depression that it turned her into suicidal way. She never sense that she was not devotee but just a mental patient. Since a devotee spread peace for god, devotee never kill themselves for god. Because god is like father. Why did god want his children dead whom he had created with such love? Now don't worry. Slowly I will convince her. But I just suggest you one thing. You must stop insisting your troubles on her. You must go your own way and let her go ahead in her own way." After saying that psychiatrist went inside. But Seeta and Rajan kept looked at each other with shocked expression since they never sensed what psychiatrist just told them. But still they knew that it was true from heart.
The End
Rajan woke up by lovely voice of Meera , his daughter. Meera was always different in every way. At each morning she used to love to sit before Krishna and sang his prayers. Her actual name was Ragini but due to her devotion every one started calling her Meera. In fact she suggested that name. She told Rajan and Seeta to change her name. At beginning they were so angry but then slowly they understood that she was right. She convinced them that she wanted peace in her mind. Her two other sister and brother were not that way. Each of them had some big demand. They all wanted things but Meera never complaint. She just love to wear white punjabi suit. In name of ornament she wore nothing except that small ear rings which forced on her by Seeta and one thread with locket of Krishna. She just never wanted any thing. She was ready to adjust in every situation. She never complained about anything. She was ready to sleep on floor. She never liked beds. She said that their softness hurt her. She always claimed that she wanted just harsh and strong things which make her happy because due to them. She was in touch with nature. She just loved to live hard life. At beginning they used to give her things just like another daughters. On birthday they used to cut cakes for her. But she decided to stop it on her fifth birthday. It was really special. Since all other kids were still excited on their birthday and they wanted to cut cakes even at their twenty fifth birthday. But Meera was different. She was always less demanding. She just used to help her Mom in every thing. She liked simple living. She hardly bought any clothes for herself. She just had few white and simple dresses. But it was worst when they had to take her on some celebration. She just dressed in simple white and with limited ornaments. Many people assumed that she was their servant not their daughter because every one else was loaded with jewelry and many times relatives take it personally. Like his sister Alka who was so angry when Meera came in her son's marriage in white dress. Alka was shocked to see it. Alka " Rajan Seeta how could you tell her do that? This marriage not funeral that she dress like that. Do you feel sorrow on my son's marriage? I never expected this from you." "Didi come on. She just don't listen to us. Let her be. You can see every one else loaded with jewelry." "But why don't you force her?" Seeta said with anger " I bought every thing ask to every member of my family. I have even tried to force it on her." Younger daughter Trushna " Mom even forced earring in her ears. But she just pushed it away and that earring was broken. It was old ear ring." Now even Alka was shocked." My god. I feel some thing is wrong with her. Why did she want to act like that?" Meera "Auntie because I am devotee of Lord Krinsha like Meera." Then she started saying prayers in her soft voice. It was really enchanting on every point. So they all heard it and continued with marriage whole time. Meera just kept telling every one about Lord Krishna and his tales. Some really enjoyed it and some found them strange. But Rajan felt that his daughter was saint by soul and he was not going to interfere with that. He would not let her life spoiled by force of luxuries on her. He convinced it to Seeta who also agreed to it since they got limited money for luxuries and they didn't want to waste on Meera who never had desire for them.
But slowly Meera became like one saint every one could come to her when they were in any trouble. In whole family she was the most mature and intelligent mind. Rajan smiled to himself . His daughter was not just saint but also intelligent saint. She just finished her school work on time. But she always hated that school dress. She always wanted to wear some thing decent but as soon as her school was over. She started wearing punjabi suits in college. But her color was always white when she walked in that college. It seemed as if some saint was coming. She was many times taunted by fellow students but she always handled it with smile. She was like that only. She always managed to handle her criticism with smile that were showing world in interesting way. She taught Rajan how to handle his troubles with smile. He always found it hard to manage his family with his limited income. But he managed to do it with Meera. When he felt upset, he just sat with her. Even today as soon as he heard her sweet sound, he woke up. He went out. In one small hall in corner she was singing while all other kids were trying to stop her voice with their rugs. Sometimes even they are screaming on her. Rajan " Go and sleep inside." All kids just ran inside to sleep on bed with Seeta. They were so irritated by her voice. He just never understood that how could they act so unemotional towards that sweet voice. Once he tried to ask, but Seeta screamed " You can sit in office whole day and then when you heard her in morning you feel so great but we have to tolerate her whole time. She just kept singing. It is so irritating. Her voice seemed to be stuck in that small hall. I feel suffocated due to it." Rajan just never understood that attitude. He just loved that voice. He just adored his daughter. He kept encouraging her. He brought many religious books for her. She loved them. She started reading many types of books. Seeta got more irritated by it. Seeta " You are wasting so much money on her." "What? Shut up. These are not some stupid make up sets or some fiction books. These are books of god which deserve far more respect. At this age you also need to read this." "Oh really !! Then increase your salary keep one maid and I will sit and just read with Meera and pray for whole day." "My god you don't even have any respect for our god." "No I don't since I need more money to feed all and keep them happy. If you keep just wasting it on one daughter. We are in big mess." He was so angry when Seeta argued like that. Then he started to use his personal money which was given to him for his daily things to purchase her books. She just kept reading them. Then after few days she said that she had enough books. Now she wanted to concentrate on them. She was so understanding not demanding like other kids. She was just saint from birth. But Seeta, her Mom never understood her. She always kept screaming against her. He just wished that Seeta could understand Meera. But some were in his heart she knew that Seeta was doing it due to love only. She wanted happily married life for Meera but Meera was never made that way. Rajan was sure in heart one day she would understand it just like him. He smiled from heart and he sat with Meera and started singing slowly. Just in soft voice which would not disturb her beautiful song.
Seeta woke up due to pushing of her kids. They all were grown up now and when they all just slept on one bed. It felt so wrong. Seeta had faith in god but Meera's attitude seemed to her little bit too much. She was so scared that one day Meera became saint and it would cause them embarrassment. She had seen many ladies on road who would try to sell you some religious book .She never liked it because it seemed so risky to sell it like that. Now a days you just couldn't trust any person as gentle man. It all seemed wrong entirely. But it was truth. It could not be written on man's face or woman's face what she had in mind. Many times even women managed to kidnap girls and then sell them. She had seen many sort of such scary tells on Television. She was so scared for her daughter. She never wanted her to become that kind of devotee. But Meera just seemed to be always interested just in god. It seemed so clear that she wanted to remain that way for entire life. Seeta was so confused. She wanted her daughter to be happily married or some one who was happy with her career but not some saint who walk around and beg. But Rajan seemed to be happy with her this decision. Seeta was against it. She was upset that she woke up and looked around. All her remaining kids were scattered around bed. She didn't understood that why did Meera had to sang so loudly. Seeta went outside. She came out and screamed " Will you stop singing that song? You are disturbing my sleep." Rajan " Stop it. She is not singing some movie song. She is singing prayers. Don't you have some respect for god?" "Wow you are asking me that? I have to sell my jewel to create this small temple. Your money never manage to create. You have just one that is talking. You never earn enough to give us any thing." Rajan was so angry. " You are saying it as if your father use to earn a lot. " " Don't jump on my father or I will talk about your." Rajan stood up in anger. Rajan " What? What about him?" " Have earn lot more than my Dad but he was so unlucky that his son wasted it all." Rajan was so angry. He just couldn't tolerate this insult. He just stood up. When he was about to curse Seeta, Meera stood up. Meera " Dad relax. From tomorrow I will sing song in slow voice after all song is for god not to disturb others. This way we will arrive peace of our soul and Mom will not get disturb at all." Meera " Mom I hope you will not mind if I sing in low voice." Rajan once again turned to god after hearing Meera's talk and Seeta went back in kitchen. Seeta started to moving ahead with one thinking from mind. That Meera was never giving happiness to her soul. She started thinking about her other kids. It seemed to so nice to think about them. They were her hope in life. She just loved them all but Meera!! She was so strange. Seeta always found her nice little normal girl when she was little kid but then as she grew up suddenly she became so devoted to god that on every point she just started just talking about god. At beginning she didn't took it seriously but now a days she regretted her decision. She just felt one thing that she had to try to stop her on that time. But then she felt that she might didn't need to think about it. Every kid had their own choice so she must let her go as per her choice. She felt that thing in her heart so she went out and said "Meera you can sing your song as loud as you like. But in our room. When you want to sing, came in our room since it will not disturb others." "But it will disturb you." "Don't worry. I will wake on that time any way." Meera smiled "Thanks Mom." Rajan " But god is here." Seeta was so angry but Meera spoken before her " Dad god is everywhere I will sing prayer in room and I can sing for long time. Thanks Mom for understanding." Seeta smiled " May god give you long life." Seeta went back in kitchen to finish her work. Meera "Do you see my meaning Dad? Anger don't give any thing but peace will give all. So let's start." Then they both started singing again.
Meera was just engaged in her prayers. Seeta one day finally had to ask her. Seeta " Do you want to marry some one?" Meera looked shocked. " No..no..I never want to get attach with any one except god. I just didn't want marriage and it's responsibilities. My faith is just one that is my god and I am devoted on every point to my god. I can't do justice to any relation in life. Since those effect in life so Mom just forget chapter of my marriage." Seeta have guessed this answer but next question was more important in her eyes. Seeta " So are you ready that I will start searching husband for your sisters? " "Of course." Meera gave pleased smile. Seeta was relieved. She was clear about that one concept that she had to find husband for other daughters but had to avoid mention of Meera. She started searching for son-in-law. Slowly she found it was hard for them to avoid Meera. Whenever people came to see their daughter. Meera considered as strange thing. But luckily they managed to arrange marriage of their one daughter. Seeta was so happy. Every day started to give happiness to her heart. But then suddenly one day her daughter's to be mother-in-law asked " What are you going to do with Meera?" "What about her?" "Actually I will not lie to you. One of my friend was inquiring regarding your son. She wanted to interested in him regarding her daughter." Seeta smiled happily. She wanted a nice daughter-in-law also. " I will tell you about my son." "I know every thing and I told it. She liked it from heart. But then she started about Meera." Seeta was so upset and nervous. Her daughter's to be mother-in-law " You need to understand. Either you have to buy another flat or it will be hard for your son to get married to some nice girl. Think about it. You have one daughter who is going to stay here for entire life." Seeta was so sorrowful that she had hard time to control her tears. " Just relax Seeta. I can help you in this case. I will find a nice apartment for your son on installment. " Then she told him every thing about that scheme. She was upset by it. Seeta just wanted that apartment but price was too much. She knew that her son could not manage that big loan from office. She just thought about her jewelry. She could sell that jewelry which was planning to use for Meera. She decided to sold it for her son. After all due to her he was suffering. She was not planning to do injustice to her son. She couldn't expect her daughter-in-law to adjust with that morning prayer of Meera. She decided that she must sell that jewelry. She had to discuss it with Rajan and she knew that it was not normal. Rajan would want to save it for Meera. But she needed a house. As soon as she told this decision to Rajan argument started. Every one in house started participating in it. It was all totally wrong. Rajan was on one side but all kids were supporting Seeta. Finally Rajan started to give up. He was crying and Meera was watching it all silently. Then Meera slowly convinced Rajan that she didn't want any thing except her god. Rajan cried on her laps. Finally next day that jewelry was sold and first installment for that house was paid. Then they started arranging every thing for her brother Rohit. But then in few days proposal came for Rohit. Marriage was fixed. But during every thing Meera was avoided on every point. There were two marriages in house but Meera was not interested in them. She just sat in corner chanting god's name. Rajan was silently watching all this.
Then one day worst thing happened while coming back to house. Rohit's to be bride got involved in accident. She became serious. They all ran to hospital. Meera came with them. They all were crying. Meera was consoling them. But then suddenly as soon as they came inside house, she told them. Meera " Mom and Dad I need to sacrifice myself to do it right." "What?" "Yes. Mom, Dad try to understand god want me to come to him. He needed me. That's why this all is happening. That day I had one dream in which I see that god was telling me that I must burn myself so that I could come to him." "Shut up." Rajan and Seeta both screamed. But Meera just moved fast. She locked herself in kitchen and started to try to burn her. But she just could not manage to any thing. She started opening gas. But by then they managed to open that weak door. They had to drag her out of kitchen. It was worst scene for them all. She was not in her senses. Finally Doctor was called and she was taken to hospital. Doctor forced her to sleep. But when she woke up, she just still kept insisting that she must do suicide to protect her family. They tried to convince her but it was not working. Finally psychiatrist was called. That psychiatrist talked to her. Then he came out. Seeta " What was wrong with her? She was mad from beginning..." Psychiatrist " Will you stop this? She was fine at beginning. But you are creating troubles for her. She wanted to chat. It was her choice. But you kept insisting that she should wear and dress like other daughters. She even felt that when you asked her about marriage. You accepted her such willingly as if you never wanted her to marry. You just want her to move as per your choice and Rajan kept opposing you instead of finding solutions. Just opposition will not help her. You want to sell your jewelry then you could have done it but you want to sell Meera's jewelry. Why? Because she never acted as per your wish." Seeta looked tense. Rajan " I tried to stop her but.." "Then why don't you by yourself arranged one flat for your son by your housing loan." Rajan was so confused. He never thought this way. "Rohit deserved one flat but it should come from every one's share. Not just Meera's jewelry. She decided to do that because she felt that slowly every one will feel that even this was happened due to her. This had not happened due to her. It happened due to lack of budget in your family. When you give birth to kid, you suppose to arrange security for them. Why don't you understand important of planning in life? You just never plan any thing and blamed it all on her. She is suffering due to major depression. Her chanting was helping her but then as she got blamed for destroying Rohit's future. It stopped helping her . She started getting depressed. Then she heard in some group regarding sacrifice for god. She liked this idea because she was in so much depression that it turned her into suicidal way. She never sense that she was not devotee but just a mental patient. Since a devotee spread peace for god, devotee never kill themselves for god. Because god is like father. Why did god want his children dead whom he had created with such love? Now don't worry. Slowly I will convince her. But I just suggest you one thing. You must stop insisting your troubles on her. You must go your own way and let her go ahead in her own way." After saying that psychiatrist went inside. But Seeta and Rajan kept looked at each other with shocked expression since they never sensed what psychiatrist just told them. But still they knew that it was true from heart.
The End
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