Controlling destiny
Tanuja wanted to listen to him but something was stopping her. She met Arun suddenly. She was fond of painting. She loved doing it for hours. She managed to make her canvas alive. Her Mom used to say it. She knew her Mom said same thing today but it didn’t have that much effect. She knew that her canvas was nice but not enchanting enough. People were not purchasing it. She saw many other painters. They painted their canvas in special way. She was painting them for hours but no one ever appreciated them. She wanted to do them in such way that she should be appreciated. One day she painted one canvas. She carefully watched it for hours. She did it since one person told her to show her art. She felt that she might keep them in window of show room. It could have became her dream opportunity. But she did her best. She painted for hours. Then she took it. She was so careful. She was so happy. She could sense that everyone was admiring her painting. Finally she reached to shop. She was hoping that this shopkeeper would encourage her in selling painting. But instead he called one man. That man was some great painter. That Painter looked towards canvas carefully. Clearly in eyes of painter it was bad work. Painter asked “ Have you took proper training?” “ No.. I don’t.” She felt so sad. She didn’t understand how did her painting supposed to look. She was working on it for hours. She said slowly “ I have not took training but I passed some exams..” “ Don’t tell me about those exams which you have given in school’s. They are useless. You need to learn this art from professional..” then he looked towards it with full attention. Then he slowly began to look towards Canvas. He began to tell her what defect she had. He told her mistakes of colour combinations. She knew that she was not perfect. She tried to her best. Then that painter gave her canvas back. Painter said “ Just try again on new canvas! This is not useful. You need to try again.” She just nodded. Then she gave nervous smile to shop keeper thanked & went away. It was so sad. She was expecting a chance to show her canvas to world but she got nothing. She just took canvas & looked around. Soon she located one coffee shop. She admired it. She slowly went inside. She knew waiter of coffee shop. She was little bit friendly with him. He immediately told her what was good to eat. She ordered something. She knew that she was getting overweight but on that day she was so depressed. She just needed to relax. She ordered pastries. She ordered green tea. She was so excited by ordering these things. She sat peacefully when suddenly Arun came. Arun slowly looked towards her Canvas. He began to admire it. He was looking towards it with such admiration that she couldn’t question him. She just smiled. Then slowly Arun began to look towards her. Arun smiled & said “ This is beautiful.” She smiled nervously. She wanted to talk with him. But she felt so nervous. She didn’t understand why. He was taking interest in her work. She felt so shy. It was so sudden. She tried to look towards him. She told herself that he was normal man. She didn’t need to feel so shocked. She wanted to speak. She said slowly “ I painted it.” She smiled. She didn’t want to talk further. Arun also didn’t insist. Arun just said “ You are great artist.” She smiled & said “ Thanks.” Her Mom was not with her on that time. Her Mom was shopping for some groceries. On that point her Mom came. Arun didn’t move away immediately. He turned towards her Mom & said “ Hello.” Then he went away. Mom asked “ Who was that boy?” She laughed. “ Mom he is not boy. He is man just the way I am woman.” “ For me you will remain kid forever.” Tanuja laughed loudly. Then Mom joined Tanuja & they both enjoyed their food. It was nice to sit peacefully somewhere like this. They get privacy to discuss their troubles with each other for hours. They needed it. In house they couldn’t talk peacefully. Her Uncle & Auntie always kept interfering. They didn’t stay with them. They stayed next door but still they kept interfering in matter. It was frustrating for Tanuja. Her Dad always kept appreciating them & criticising her Mom. She didn’t understand why did her Dad feel that Auntie was perfect woman. She felt so nervous with them. Her Uncle & Auntie kept coming in their house. Her grandparents were staying with them from beginning. It was odd that her Mom managed all but still her Auntie received all admiration. Her Auntie was never ready to take care of her in-laws. Auntie just came with few gifts. But they all admired every gift of her Auntie. Her Mom’s all efforts seemed useless to all. Tanuja helped her Mom a lot too. They knew Auntie was doing all just to get inheritance from her grandparents. Tanuja hoped that after getting inheritance her Auntie would stop coming & harassing them. Her Uncle also stopped coming. She didn’t even wanted to mention her cousins. They never liked her. But her cousins never even taunted her. Her Cousins just never came to visit their grandparents that much. Her Uncle kept telling that they were busy in some class or gone on some job. Her Uncle laughed & said “ Tanuja isn’t doing job so you have her in home but my kids they are busy in their jobs. They needed to keep working whole time. They want to keep Grandma & Grandpa but they never have time like Tanuja have. Tanuja is not working when you work you don’t have much options.” Then her Dad began “ It’s important to do work. Staying at home doesn’t count much in world.” Then her Dad angrily pointed towards cups & plates which were empty after eating & tell Tanuja “ Take them inside. We need to keep table clean.” She just nodded & started taking away plates. She felt as if she was doing some work but still they managed to make it clear to her that it was useless. She didn’t understand why she was doing this work. After grandparent’s death Tanuja was hoping visits would reduced but nothing like that happened. They kept coming to meet her Dad. She was so frustrated. She just desired one thing that was selling her painting in good price. Arun admired it but she didn’t feel that he was planning to purchase it so she decided to ignore Arun from her mind fully.
On that first visit Tanuja thought that she couldn’t manage to earn anything. She never thought that Arun might take interest in her. She didn’t know much about him. She was not thinking about marriage at all. Tanuja just kept painting new canvas. Slowly she began to put them on Social media. She was so happy when people admired them. Soon Arun came there too. Today Arun was admiring her paintings. It was more than just admiration sometimes she sensed it but still she choose to ignore. She kept sensing that she was not properly responding him. She was writing answer to him when suddenly her Dad appeared. Her Dad screamed “ I need to sit on that computer now. Give it to me.” She was so frustrated. She needed it. She wanted to start career but how could she do it if her Dad kept using computer entire time for his timepass. But she couldn’t say it. She just stood up. She was no longer interested in Arun. She told herself that he was not so great. She opened new canvas & started painting. She kept painting for hours. Then suddenly her room door opened. In her house she never got privacy. She always desired it but she never managed to get it. She felt so tense when her Auntie entered. Her Auntie looked around her room. She could sense that how much Auntie disliked her paintings. She didn’t understand why she needed to come in her house & criticised her. It was her house but then she sensed that it was wrong. All this belonged to her Dad. Her Dad loved Uncle & Auntie both. So they could go anywhere & say anything. She didn’t say much. She was scared. She smiled towards Auntie & started painting. She could hear her Dad’s screaming. Auntie “ Your Dad is calling you for long time.” She ran out. Her Dad “ Where were you? Don’t you understand you supposed to attend guests! You are such useless girl..” Uncle “ It’s okay. Slowly she will improve. I know she is not smart but step by step she will earn.” Tanuja was so angry. She wanted to say something but she was too scared. She wanted good reputation around society. She didn’t want people to call her names. She was hoping to find nice boy one day. Her Dad then suddenly screamed “ I found one boy with good job in this town for you. He is ready to marry you since he got issue with his parents. Their arguments many times heard on street so no one is interested in marriage in their house. But you can marry him. I will go there & discuss tomorrow with his parents.” She looked towards her Dad with shock but her Mom came & said “ No need of doing it. She is not going to marry that boy. She is better off unmarried than getting married to wrong sort of boy.” Auntie came from behind “ You are taking wrong decision. It is impossible to find right sort of boy for Tanuja. She didn’t earn money & people demand money from girl’s side.” Her Dad “ How hard I tried to tell Tanuja to find some job but she couldn’t! I never saw more useless..”Tanuja didn’t say anything. She just ran back. She once again sat on computer. She saw many messages from Arun. She was so happy. She wanted to talk with him. She began to type on computer. She typed & he didn’t answer. She didn’t understand if he was busy or he didn’t want to talk with her any more. She was so confused. She wanted to connect with him once again. She got so restless. She was so stressed. Her Dad started screaming loudly. Her Dad was planning to invite more guests. She hated all those guests. She supposed to serve them & help Mom. But none of them respected her. They all keep telling her career was useless. She was feeling so upset. She once again returned to canvas. She painted for hours. She selected different colours to create bring that effect. She worked so hard but no one appreciate it. She knew that she loved to cook too. But even it was not so special in eyes of guests. They never admired her much & if some guest did her Dad make sure that she should be insulted. She started to waiting for Arun. But she sensed that he was not coming. Finally she went in kitchen. She began to cook. She enjoyed cooking with Mom. She began to dream about her future. With her Mom entire world looked so nice but just until her Dad didn’t enter. She was cooking happily when suddenly she sensed that their was noise of her mobile. She saw Arun messaged. She was excited & nervous both. She started to look towards it on that point her Dad began to talk loudly. Her Dad was abusing. She looked towards him. She couldn’t see anyone. It was sort of shocking. She knew that he did every day but now it was getting more & more problematic. She turned to Mom “ Mom I don’t understand why no one see anything wrong in him?” Mom didn’t say anything. Mom knew that she was right. Tanuja’s Dad was not normal man. After marriage her Mom sensed it on every step. Tanuja’s Dad kept talking with himself for hours. Her Mom had seen him screaming in air. Whenever situations came & they needed to do something important. This man never helped. Whole time this man just kept screaming. While she did all for her in-laws, she didn’t receive much respect from her husband. He kept admiring his brother & his sister-in-law. They kept doing fake admiration too. She knew that behind back they must be taunting her husband. They never lived in joint family since they did like them. Now Tanuja & her Mom was never issue. They didn’t like to stay with Tanuja’s Dad. But they kept giving excuses. They kept abusing time to time. It was so frustrating. Tanuja was feeling so scared. Tanuja wanted to hope but her Dad was stopping her way to hope. She just turned to mobile. She decided that she could use her mobile to do all her work too. Slowly she began to click pictures of her Canvas. She kept posting them. After sometime once again Arun came. Arun began to chat. Arun was so nice. She started to chat with her. She didn’t understand when she began to tell him everything. She didn’t sense that she was also confusing him on some points. She was so upset & that she just wanted to keep discussing. She felt so confident after chatting with him. Her tension was vanishing after it. She smiled to herself & relaxed her heart.
Tanuja’s Dad was watching her. Tanuja’s Dad disliked it when she smiled. Tanuja’s Dad was so angry. He wanted her to cry. Tanuja’s Dad enjoyed himself when they cried. Tanuja’s Dad started laughing at thought that how did he would target Tanuja before guests tomorrow. He knew that all was planned. He always planned everything carefully. He needed to control Tanuja. He needed to control them all. He was boss & important in house. He wanted to feel happy. But his life was stuck in strange way. He felt happy only when his family felt pain. He liked to put them down that was his happiness. He looked towards Tanuja. She was so busy on that mobile. He knew that she could get some friends there. He wanted to stop it. He came from behind & started to scream on her. “ You are such waste. I don’t understand why I am feeding you.” He slowly began to come near her. Tanuja was so confused. Tanuja began to sense he was threatening her. Tanuja was so shocked. Tanuja just pushed him aside. He needed to balance himself. He was so scared. He didn’t wanted to feel scared but he was. Tanuja went out. Tanuja began to do more canvas. She was planning to show them to Arun. She smiled at that thought. Actually those canvas were just excuse. She wanted to meet him. She decided to take Mom with her. She wanted to be on safer side. She didn’t knew him properly. She did three canvas. She was planning to go out. But suddenly her Dad came out screaming “ I have invited guests tomorrow.” Then he pointed towards her Mom “ You need to do all cooking.” Tanuja wanted to argue but she knew that it was not going to work. She just went back. She told Arun that she couldn’t come. But Arun seemed to have great understanding. He typed “ It’s okay.” She smiled. Then she began to go ahead in normal way. But she began to sense one thing that nothing was normal about her Dad. He was acting strange day by day. He kept abusing people calling them names. He was following her every day. She didn’t understand why. She kept thinking that he was visiting every point where she was gone. He kept doing something. She understood what. She didn’t mind anymore. She was so influenced by social media that she didn’t care about anything else. She began to feel so happy. She began to ignore her Dad. She started to concentrate more on her friends. Her Mom encouraged it too. Her Dad was behaving more & more odd after it. They were watching his odd behaviour. His screaming in air then his talking to himself. Uncle & Auntie slowly started to stop visiting too. It was clear that they began to get nervous too. It was common when someone was beneficial people kept connecting but when that one started to lose sense they didn’t want to come. Especially when that person began to taunt them too. Tanuja started to sense that her Dad was abusing to her Uncle too. She began to feel so nervous by behaviour of her Dad. She could see that he was losing his mind but it was impossible to convince it to him. He began to tell them that he could control all. He said “ I am manage to do all.” Tanuja was so confused. Her Mom just kept telling her to move ahead in her normal way. But when her Dad was around nothing seemed normal. She began to concentrate more on her Canvas. Slowly step by step she began to truly ignore him. Most importantly they reduced list of his guests. They didn’t show those smiles which would encourage them. Slowly they began to suggest no to them. Many didn’t argue since they all knew that if her Dad would say something it was going to be problematic for them. But step by step Arun began to take interest in her. Slowly his family began to discuss about her. She wanted to stop at beginning but she knew that her Dad couldn’t control her destiny. One day finally Arun came with Proposal. Her Dad kept looking upset. Her Dad tried his best to act negative but they all knew about him. Tanuja was tense at beginning then slowly she began to feel happy & normal. Arun just told her one thing. “ We will enjoy our life. It’s not dependent on your Dad so just relax.” Step by step she started to smile & enjoy her life. She was no longer cared for her Dad’s attitude. She was so happy. She started to get connected with Arun’s family step by step. Her Mom was so happy about all. She was hoping positively. She wanted happiness in her soul. She kept smiling. Her Dad kept watching her with full attention. Her Dad wanted to stop all but he couldn’t. He tried to appear like part but he couldn’t change his attitude. He just kept talking like mad person whole time. Luckily no one wanted to pay attention to him that much. Tanuja was so happy in world that she didn’t even able to pay attention to her Dad. Tanuja was watching just Arun & Arun was watching Tanuja. Tanuja was just concerned about him now. She wanted Arun to be happy & healthy. Finally they got married & Tanuja shifted happily in her bigger & comfortable house. She was so happy in it. She wanted to feel positive & it was happening. Her Mom was happy too. But her Dad kept asking to himself again & again. “ How does she manage this? I decide all. She can’t have right to choose anything.” Her Dad kept talking to himself but now Tanuja was married & happy so clearly her Dad couldn’t change anything so her Mom smiled happily & just ignored her Dad. Her Mom knew that he needed psychiatrist but he was not going to visit one. Frankly her Mom no longer cared. Her daughter was happy so she was satisfied. She decided to just ignore husband who was talking to himself.
The End
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