Living in dream
Rina began to watch pamapalate which had different scenes. She was so happy to see them. She always loved traveling. In fact she wanted to become airhostess. It was her childhood dream but as she went ahead. She sensed that it was impossible to pursue it. She began to feel sad. She knew that her family didn't look profession of air hostess as safe one. They wanted her to live her life in old style. She must study some proper degree then she should take job if possible. Finally she was supposed to get married. That was most important for them. They were just concerned about her marriage and they could do anything to fulfill their dream of her marriage. They all worked for one purpose it was to get her married. They never sensed that she had other dreams too. Then she thought about those days. Actually she was so convinced by those people, that she wanted to get married too. She was so convinced that it was key to happiness. She thought that it would open new door for her. She still remembered that day. Her Mom sat with her and said " What did you feel about this boy?" She smiled shyly. " Mom he is nice." Her Mom smiled happily and said " Did you notice one thing?" " What?" " He seemed modern too. He might let you do whatever you want." She smiled happily. She felt that she could get freedom by marriage. Her husband Tushar would help her in getting her dreams. She wanted to do at least a job in travel agency. She didn't want to become air hostess any more. She knew that it was not possible for her. She didn't acquired any information on it. But she could work in travel agency as receiptionist. She liked that idea too. She just wanted to get near those airplanes. She wanted to see posters of those air hostess. She could even inquire there about becoming air hostess and she could become one. She suddenly sensed that this could be key to her dreams. She sensed for first time that she needed to understand those dreams in practical way. Tushar was modern enough to understand them. She began to hope that her husband would understand her desires. When she started to discuss things with Tushar, Tushar smiled happily. Tushar " I can understand your dreams. Actually we all have few dreams in childhood. I use to dream about becoming musician." Then they both started to discuss their dreams. It seemed that Tushar was even use to sing daily. He said that he needed to study his dreams in way which give ways to make it successful. He explained her that they needed to study all routes properly to achieve dream. He needed to find way to make them true. He explained that he still worked hard for music. She was so enchanted by this. She began to feel that he could complete her dreams. Then they got married. They went ahead in their life. She didn't notice him ever singing. Finally one day she asked about it. He started laughing. He said " So sorry. I made up that story just to impress you. I never able to sing anything. You were talking about becoming air hostess etc. I thought I must create some dream. So sorry!!" He said sorry to her but there was not any guilt in his eyes. He just kept laughing as if he had cracked funniest joke in world. She was so hurt. She wanted to tell him that he lied and it managed to destroy her dreams but she didn't dare. She was married to him. She knew that becoming air hostess was something couldn't be achieved. She must adjust with him. She laughed too. But even today when she saw those different international scene she felt sadness in her soul. She felt so hurt. She didn't like to see those pictures. She was so upset. Tushar brought them since they were planning to go abroad. Actually they didn't include her in discussion. Just Tushar and both kids discussed all. She supposed to nod it since it was perfect plan according to them. She needed to adjust and bow every time. She must understand different ideas which were creating effect on her. She felt that she frustrated. According to them she loved foreign tours so she must like this tour. But truthfully she wanted to become air hostess that's why she was in love with those pictures of foreign tours. She didn't want to be tourist. She took deep breath and convinced herself that she was acting childish. It was wrong. She didn't need to become air hostess. She didn't even knew much about that profession. She wanted at least one person to become her friend who belonged to this profession but truthfully she didn't have friends. She didn't have her life. She just did what they suggest and she just nodded to what they decide. So this time they decided to go on tour. She was supposed to see those pictures. She couldn't decide what they supposed to decide. She knew that they didn't want to listen to her advice. She started to feel so sad. She shivered with pain. She married to Tushar but she never thought that he could dominate her life like that. At beginning she used to try to give her suggestions. But everytime something went wrong in her suggestions. She didn't understand concept that created worst effect on life. She began to sense that she was useless. She didn't advice anymore. She just obeyed. She shivered with fear. She needed to understand her fear and get over it. Now a days she was not even confident about going in kitchen. She kept asking others about which time should be perfect for starting cooking. She couldn't even able to cook without suggestions. She sensed that it was getting worst every day. She wanted to decide at least few things. She wanted to understand those dreams which were once her dream. But now they all seemed like far away thing. She couldn't understand those dreams anymore. She shivered with fear even while looking those pictures. She was watching different pictures which used to create different hopes to her mind once. But now she was feeling nothing by it. She started to see those pictures. But they were meaningless for her mind. She started to see different pictures but they didn't create hope to her thoughts. She kept shivering with fear every day. She wanted to dream it again. She took deep breath and she let her mind back to pictures.
Tanuja came home from college. She was so excited about her tour to abroad. She wanted to go abroad for so many days. She knew that she needed to convince her Dad. Her Mom was not that much important. She knew that if she managed it then she could get it. Her younger brother Ronit was useful in this. He was small and she could mould his mind as per her wishes. She just needed to convince him that it would be heaven and then everyone was convinced. But it was not easy to convince her Dad. Her Dad was intelligent man not stupid like her Mom. She knew that this was disrespectful to think like this about Mom. But still she thought that way. She couldn't help thinking this way. Her Mom was acting like stupid person. She never went did anything with her thoughts. She kept asking others. When her Mom started to ask little Ronit for advice, she felt it was most horrible. She didn't understand how could adult act like such stupid person. She never asked her Mom for advice. She always first decide things then she ordered to her Mom to get them done. She never saw her Mom deciding anything. She always kept calling Dad. She didn't feel much respect towards her. She knew that her Mom work hard for their house. She did cooking and cleaning. They had maid but they were not so good. Her Mom just never able to decide which work should be given to them so they just did whatever they like and went away. According to her those maids were useless. She began to think about it. She began to sense that actually Mom was wasting money on maids. Mom was doing everything by herself and paying them. Her Mom was so confused personality. She knew that she would never choose any place. She rang door bell. She waited for long time. But no one opened door. Then suddenly neighbour looked out of crack of door. She was an old lady who stayed alone since her kids were settled in abroad. She was staying all alone in that house. She never chatted much. But she normally opened door and informed about things when they were needful. She came out and said " What happened? Why did you keep ringing door bell? Your Mom is not in home!! Do you need spare key?" Tanuja felt so confused. Her Mom never went away like that before. Her Mom could never able to do anything without suggestions. She thought that it was possible that her father wanted her Mom to go for marketing. He might had given her list. Tanuja decided that she needed spare key. She could use it. She started to open door. But she was so frustrated. She was planning to demand lunch from Mom of different style. She began to feel so scared. She needed to take total responsibility of house. She started to feel so upset. She never stayed in house without Mom. Her Mom always did all work. She just needed to demand. For first time she entered in kitchen. She looked around, she was so confused. She started searching for coffee but she couldn't able to locate it. She began to search for pot. She found pot. She finally found one. Then she started to heat water. She knew that it was useless without coffee. She started to search for it. It was not easy but she finally found it. She heated water. Then she put sugar in hot water. Then she put coffee in it. It was promising. She could smell aroma of coffee which was refreshing. She began to feel so happy by it's smell. She began to sense energy in her body. She was no longer tired. But she was so hungry. She started searching for cookies. Finally she found them. She began to eat snacks. She started to sense that she must complaint about it to Dad. Tanuja started to think that she wanted to show her Mom that how wrong she was. She was so angry. She was suffering due to her Mom's negligence. She began to sense that she must increase fear in her Mom's soul. She knew that her Dad was expert in it. She was watching every day. She was so happy when her Mom obeyed everything but today she disobeyed. She was sure that her Dad would never advice today's behaviour. She wanted revenge on her Mom so she called her Dad. Tushar was so upset when he saw Tanuja's call. He was expecting Rina to handle all that front. He didn't want call from house during his office hours. He was so upset. But he didn't want to upset Tanuja who was his favourite daughter. He decided to take call. Tanuja " Do you know where is Mom?" Tushar was so confused. " In house. She always stayed there. She never went out without permission. It is so risky for us. This way we might loose control on her." Tanuja felt confused. By mistake Tushar started to confess truth to Tanuja. He wanted to be boss of his family so he did everything for that purpose. From beginning he kept showing Rina how useless she was. When Rina showed desire to become air hostess, he hated it. He liked her but he didn't like her career minded thinking. Her family was not supporting it so he was lucky and he didn't need family who supported their daughter in career. He wanted beautiful and obident wife like Rina. He began to get confused. He didn't want her to become air hostess. But he couldn't say it directly. This way he could impress her so he started creating story about his dream of becoming singer. Rina was not wise enough to sense it's fake side. She believed him. She married him in belief that he would help her with career which he never intended to do. He just confused her. Then slowly step by step he presented her every small mistake as big one. She started to feel scared regarding taking decision and it was perfect for him. He wanted her to act that way. But today Tanuja's phone call shocked him. He sensed that he might have lost his grip on Rina. But he couldn't say it before his daughter who considered him perfect human being. He assured her " I am not talking to you. What did you said your Mom went away?!!" " Yes Dad and I needed to cook. She keep acting like that." Tushar knew that Tanuja doing this with intention. Tanuja was lying since she didn't want Rina to repeat this mistake. But he didn't scream on her just said " I will handle it."
Tanuja was happy after that call to Dad. She was sure that her Dad would handle her Mom. She didn't understand how but everytime he managed it before. She began to eat cookies. She started searching for her lunch. She needed lunch on time. Her Mom knew that very well that after college she always wanted lunch. She needed to get it on time. If she didn't get lunch, she started to feel as if she was going to faint. It was her low blood pressure problem. She was so delicate and weak. She started searching for lunch. She found it in pot. She needed to take it in plate and ate it. She was so frustrated. Her Mom never treated her like that. She was always given respect but today she sensed that things were different. Her Mom just kept lunch and went away. She managed to heat it in microwave. She started eating it. But she sensed that it was not Mom's regular lunch. It was something different. It was something out of restaurant or served in air plane. She started laughing. She sensed that her Mom was totally obsessed with traveling. She felt that her Mom wanted to go in air plane. In fact she felt that her Mom was thinking so much about it that she cooked this way. She ate it with smile. But she decided that she preferred normal lunch more so she just tell it to Mom. She ate it and started waiting for Rina. Tanuja didn't wait in normal way. She didn't want Rina to sense that she was waiting for her. She felt that it would give her too much importance. She shivered with anger and frustration. She was waiting for Rina but she needed to hide it. She started TV. She began to play something. Truthfully she was not paying attention to it. Then door opened she thought that it should be Mom. But she was shocked when she saw that it was Ronit. She screamed on him " How did you open door?" Her neighbour said from behind " Sorry if I distrubed you but I thought this will help." Tanuja controlled her anger and said " No..no I just felt scared." She pointed towards kitchen and told Ronit " Mom made lunch and I managed to heat it in microwave." Her neighbour smiled happily. Neighbour " You are such a good girl. It is nice that you are to help your Mom. She truly need her life. She kept working for you whole time. Your Dad never even appreciate her. Such appreciation by kids will easily change her life. I still remember that smile which I see on her face when she came here for first time. She wanted to be air hostess." Neighbour seemed travelled in past with mind. She started to see that face of Rina. " She had that sweet smile on her face. An unique touch in soul. She wanted every one to become her friend. I made friendship with her. But then suddenly she drifted apart it was so strange." Then neighbour sensed that Tanuja was not interested in conversation. She knew very well and Tanuja was never interested in anything related to her Mom. Her neighbour also sensed that Tanuja was not helping Rina willingly but forced in it due to her absence. Her neighbour just smiled and went away. Tanuja was so angry. Tanuja " I don't understand how could Mom vanish like that?!!" Ronit started eating. His mouth was full of food. He smiled happily and said " But Mom made tasty food. No doubt." " This is something they serve in air plane." " How did you know that? When you travelled by air plane?" " I didn't but my friends did. They told me about it." Ronit nodded. Tanuja was so irritated. Then finally Rina came. Tanuja was shocked to see her. Rina was wearing dress just like air hostess. She was in fact carrying bag like air hostess. She was looking such way as if she was participating in fancy dress competition where she was taking role of air hostess. Tanuja asked " Where were you?" Rina " On flight. We just landed." Tanuja and Ronit both kept looking at her with shock. They didn't understand her meaning. Tanuja " Mom I don't understand!! We have not planned even foreign tour then how could you buy air ticket and travel.." Ronit added " And come back in such short time. It is magic!!" Rina gave them irritating look. Rina " Come on kids. I am too tired. I want to sleep." Then she went in room. Rina started to search clothes in cupboard. Rina clearly looked disappointed by her choice of clothes. Rina " Who wear such old fashioned clothes now?" Tanuja " You did until yesterday!!" Rina started laughing. Rina " Nice joke. I know you must have brought them from maid to harass me. But bringing other person's clothes is too much." Tanuja " Mom we are not playing prank on you. These are your clothes." " No they are not. I am modern woman!!" Tanuja started laughing. " Mom now enough of this joke!! Let's act normal." " I am acting normal. I am air hostess and I have just return from flight." After saying this Rina sat in different way. Her entire body gesture was different. She was acting as if she was some modern lady who came home after hard work during day. Tanuja was so shocked. Tanuja knew that she didn't have much option but to call her Dad. But Tanuja didn't want to call him again. She knew that Tushar would punish Rina in harsh way. Tanuja hated it when her Dad started screaming on Mom. He began to take hold of her hand in such harsh way that she started to scream in pain. But Tanuja didn't understand what else she could do. Then she suddenly remembered their family Doctor. She felt so happy. She knew that Doctor could surely help. Tanuja started to calling him when Rina screamed " Will you bring some red wine for me?" Tanuja was so shocked that she felt that she might faint on floor. Her Mom who always talked against drinking was asking for alcohol as if it was every day. Tanuja knew that it was common for her Dad but not for Mom. Then she heard Ronit's weak voice " Mom you never drink!!" " What then how did I survive? Don't you feel if I stop drinking then I will die out of dihydration?!!" Then Rina laughed on her own joke. By this time finally Tanuja managed to get in contact with Doctor. She told everything to him. Family Doctor " I don't think this physical trouble. I think this is mental. Does your Mom under some stress?!!" " Since I came in world I found my Mom just stressed on every day!!" " Well then you must contact psychiatrist. I can give you name and number." Tanuja felt relieved. She wrote down them on paper. Then she disconnected call. She knew that she couldn't take further action. Now Tushar needed to move things ahead. Tanuja just went back in room.
Rina was so upset when she sensed that Red wine was not available. She began to search for liquor stores who gave home delivery. She finally found one and ordered. Tanuja was so shocked. She never thought that her Mom would able to find liquor store so easily. She was watching all. Rina was ordering liquor with full confidence. But when it came to payment she sounded little confused. She started looking in purse then said " Cash." Then she disconnected call. She started calling Ronit near her who was shivering with fear by that time. She started laughing. Rina " What happened? Did you saw some horror movie?" Tanuja said under breath "Mom you are lot more scary than ghosts of horror." Rina turned and asked " Did you say something to me?" Tanuja was scared of this new Mom. She didn't want to take risk so she said "No..no" immediately. Ronit " I need to do my homework." " Ohh..go go ..we don't want letter from your class teacher." Ronit immediately went away. Tanuja was watching her while shivering with fear. She had seen things like that only in ghost stories. Tanuja sensed one thing that things were out of her control. Then door bell rang. Rina went there. She took delivery of red wine. Then she smiled. She checked if it was chilled when she felt satisfied. She took out small tall glass which she normally used for milk shake and began to pour red wine in it. Tanuja felt so odd. She couldn't imagine drinking milk shake again in it. She ran away and immediately called her Dad. Tushar was very angry now. She was distrubing him in work. Tushar " I hope you have some big reason for calling like someone's death.." " Actually Mom is acting like someone possessed!!" He started laughing. " Now stop this joke. I don't like it. I know you are playing some trick on me. I know very well ghost is not in our house. We are staying there for long time. Nothing really happened there. You are just making it up." Tanuja began to feel frustrated. Tanuja " I am not pretending. I can send video." Then she went in Rina's room angrily. She saw that Rina was dancing after drinking red wine on some tune. It was English tune unknown to her. In fact she heard it for first time. She didn't know even that they had that tune. But Tanuja sensed that she must find way to prove all to Dad. She started recording then she immediately sent it. Tushar was so shocked. Tushar " This is happening truly? Your Mom is drinking and dancing?" Tanuja " Yes Dad come home." Tushar felt as if his entire life was destroyed by that one video. Rina didn't seem like his wife at all. He immediately informed his Boss and ran to his house. He went there as fast as possible. He was so angry and upset. She was drinking and dancing before kids like that!! He never saw her like that. If she was doing this drama, he was going to teach her lesson. But his heart was telling him that she was not doing drama something was truly wrong with her. He rang door bell. Ronit opened door. He was crying. Tushar went inside. Rina was dancing. She was totally lost in her thoughts. He sensed that she was no longer part of reality. She was in her dream. He never saw her that way. He began to feel so scared. She came near him. She offered red wine. He didn't took it. He was shivering with fear. She was no longer his wife. She was someone totally unknown to him. He didn't understand how could this happen. He suddenly began to remember ghost stories. He began to think she might be possessed. When Tanuja entered in room. Tanuja felt relaxed when she saw her Dad was dancing with Mom instead of arguing. Tanuja understood that he managed to grasp sensitive appeal of issue quickly. She began to feel so scared. She slowly went near them and told her Dad in ear " Doctor gave number of Psychiatrist." Tushar smiled with relief. He understood all. Rina was depressed for long time. He tried to encourage her. But he was actually too busy. He knew that he spent more time in dominating her than showing affection. He smiled and said " Why don't you go to sleep now? I mean you must be tired. " Rina smiled and agreed. She went to sleep. Then Tushar immediately called Doctor. He took appointment of psychiatrist. He was sure that she would be normal when she would woke up. He saw this in movies. After sometime she woke up. Tushar " So when you are planning to cook dinner?" She gave strange smile and said " Why don't you cook dinner for change?" He felt so shocked. He looked at her. She was no longer his wife. She was that another Rina. He was scared of her. She was different unpredictable. Tushar smiled and said " I can't cook." She gave him upset look. " I know you are useless. I don't understand why did I married to you? It was my biggest mistake." He needed to control his anger. He knew that she was not in normal state. He took deep breath and said " Today we are going to visit Doctor." " For whom? You?" Then she started laughing loudly. He took deep breath. " Not for me but for you. You are not acting normal." Rina looked shocked. Rina " Really!! But I feel most normal." " Enough!!" She looked at him with anger. He could see it in her eyes. She was not in good mood. He never saw her this way. He felt so scared and he didn't say anything. He just looked away. He took deep breath and started hoping for best. He tried to avoid her his best. She kept discussing her foreign tours where she never gone. It was so irritating. He needed to nod on her every lie. Finally time came for visit of psychiatrist. He happily went there with her.
Tushar and Rina sat for long time then finally their turn came. Rina went inside and started talking with confidence. She began to give her whole record of wonderful career and everything. Psychiatrist listened to it with smile then he said " Great. So is it possible for you to give me number of your Boss?" " Sure!!" She said then she started searching. Soon she sensed that she didn't got contact diary. But she smiled and said " I think I forgot contact diary at home..it must be somewhere in bedroom." Psychiatrist smiled and said " Then you must have it in your mobile who need diary now. Everyone stored number in mobile." She nodded. She took out mobile. Soon she began to lose her confidence. It was shocking. In it she just had few numbers. She looked at psychiatrist. " I don't understand." " You can't find them since they didn't exist. They are just thought of your imagination which became so real for you that you start to think they are really existed." She said " Impossible !!Today I called one of them." Then she turned to call records. She soon found it was not in mobile. She began to scream " You are lying. You planned all this." She was looking around. She began to sense that they were changing her something which saw in one movie where husband brainwashed his wife so that she could act as per his wishes. She gave angry look to Tushar. " You are trying to brainwash me. You are trying to tell me that I am your obedient wife? But I am not." She ran towards him with paper weight. But Psychiatrist stopped her on time. She looked at him in anger. " You are with him!!" " No..no I am not with Tushar. We met few hours ago. I heard his story but that doesn't mean I will not hear your side. Tell me." She smiled and began to tell " I work for airlines as air hostess." " What is name of it?" She got confused. She started counting name of different airlines. She was so upset. But Psychiatrist smiled and said " Maybe you worked for them all!! I mean you keep changing jobs." She looked very angry. " Do you feel I am mad? I know person can't keep changing jobs like that." Psychiatrist smiled. " I was just joking." " I know but this is not time to joke. I can't remember anything." " That's the reason why your husband brought you here and you even forgot it and become angry on him!!" She began to feel guilty. She immediately apologized to Tushar. For few moments he felt he saw glimpse of his old wife but they vanished soon. Then she started discussing. Slowly Psychiatrist convinced her to stay in hospital. She agreed happily. Tushar was so confused. But after that paperweight drama he didn't wanted to take risk. He let her get admitted there. When she went away with Nurse, Psychiatrist said " I need to study her to give proper diagnosis. But don't worry she will be fine." Tushar nodded. He went out but he was scared. What did he supposed to tell his kids. He went away with their Mom but came back without her? But he knew that they would understand. He began to regret his every decision in life. He didn't understand how did he managed to destroy his life beyond repair. He felt that it might be possible his desire of dominance managed to take him away from his role of caring husband. But he knew one thing that he needed to work hard to get all back. He didn't know if he had strength to do it. But he didn't have option. He must do it. He went home with tears in eyes,
The End
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