Carving dolls
Tarun started to work on wooden table. He wanted it to be best. It was not his first craft. He knew still that it had to be special for his son. He wanted it to be best. He knew that he needed to remain awake for entire night. He started to create it in night since he needed to work hard during day for office. But he had promised his son that he would create a doll for him. Actually it started when they were in village. There was small hut outside his house. He still remembered that day. His son Sandeep came running outside in garden. He slowly noticed small Hut. He started screaming that he wanted to see small Hut. Tarun was not happy about it since it was not clean at all. It was deserted for long ago. Once upon a time old widow used to stay in it. She used to work for them for long time. She was not sweet loving lady. She always used to scream on kids every time when they come to play on that ground. Only Tarun was special in her eyes he was son of her boss. But she never called his dad or grandfather her boss she called them her owner. It was strange philosophy and his dad never liked it. His dad always used to tell him that these were old long tradition which should not be followed. So after death of that lady no one stayed in that hut. Tarun turned it in his small workshop. He used to carve in wood inside it. He used to love carving from childhood. The things which he created from wood were always admired by everyone. He started using that room for just craving purpose. Every day after school he used to come running inside that hut. Then he used to crave things out of wood. That knife was so sharp once he managed to cut himself with it. There was large cut. Every day his Mom hated his hobby. He always heard argument between his parents since his Dad taught him and his Mom hated it. His father always said that it was wonderful art but his Mom felt giving knife in hands of such small kid was wrong. Every day he used to cut hand little bit. But that day he missed his move and managed to cut hand. He was alone in hut. His hand started bleeding soon entire floor began to look red. At this age he knew that it was his imagination. But in that age he felt that it was sea of blood and he was going to die in it. He ran in house while running he managed to create track of blood. Their maid was washing clothes when she saw him. She loudly started to call his Mom who came running out of house. He was feeling so sick. He didn't understand why but he was sick. His stomach began to feel strange and vomited. He didn't remember much after that. He just remembered waking up in hospital with stitches. After that this room locked permanently. Until Sandeep didn't ran towards it. When Sandeep started insisting that he had to go inside and he went there. He started carving. Suddenly he sensed his wife's voice. Reema was calling him for dinner. It was so frustrating. He wanted to complete it. But he could not do it now. He knew Reema would soon came in his room. But he still wanted to complete it. He kept doing it but finally Reena entered. Reena " What are you doing?" " Nothing I am creating a doll for Sandeep." Reema started laughing and she said that he is not small boy now. Reema " come on what's wrong with you why you are doing efforts for that useless thing he is not going to play with dolls now. Your son is now in college and next year he will be doing his job." "I know but still I feel that these doll seem like good luck to him." " Fine do as you wish but just remember one thing he is not going to appreciate those doll and I am not going to appreciate that you are not eating your dinner." " Ok I am coming and eating that dinner." " That dinner?!! Do you know what I have cook today I cooked everything which you like?" Then she gave him full list of items which he love to eat. He immediately went to wash his hands. He looked around himself. He had created such a mess in bathroom due to those wood particles. He sensed that he had to clean his dress inside that room only. He started watching in the bathroom when Reena came from behind again. " Don't worry I will clear this mess go and eat your dinner." He smiled and went in dining room for dinner. He was so excited about his dinner so he decided that Reema could clean the room. He started to serve himself his dinner. It was so exciting that smell was making him more and more hungry. He just couldn't wait for Reema. Normally they didn't have time to take dinner to get that since he was always late due to office work. He didn't like to keep Reema waiting for him for a long time. Then suddenly Reema came towards dinner table. Reema " I don't understand why did you keep wasting your time on that craving!! If you want to carve then carve something which could be useful like a beautiful design for a window. But you keep carving just dolls which are going to prove useless." Tarun was so angry he made promise to his son and promise for the promise it couldn't be broken. But he knew that it was useless to explain this to Reema so he said in loud voice " I am not doing it for money it is my hobby so let me do whatever I wish I am doing my job and earning my money that is enough." Reema think she manage to upset him she immediately smiled and said " Those dolls are cute too we can even use them as a decorative piece just create entire family of those dolls." He just nodded and after that they ate dinner but they didn't discuss anything about this.
Reema started serving dinner to herself that those dolls were cute and she didn't had any objection in carving dolls but she was saying that he was carving them for Sandeep who didn't care about them. She didn't want Sandeep to laugh on him. She knew that Tarun was doing it with affection but she also knew that her grown ups son Sandeep didn't care for it. Sandeep was changed now but Tarun was not accepting it in childhood Sandeep used to love running around with dad but now he wanted independence. And she could not blame him for it. He had to work hard in his college and he also had to do part-time job. It was not about their financial crisis but his course had made it compulsory to work too. He could have done that job after completion of education but it was not wise since it would waste his more years. He was scared that if he did that all useful job would vanish. Even after working so much he was not sure that he could get a best job as he desired. In this situation he was hardly interested in wooden dolls craved by his father. Sandeep was interested in some help regarding his job and career but Tarun was not that much helpful on that front. From beginning Tarun was shy person he never made friendship with such people who could have influence. Tarun always worked hard and made his earnings with complete honesty. He had very good salary and even promoted but he never manage to create influence which should be useful for his family. His salary was enough to keep his family happy so Reema never sensed that they needed to make friendship with influential people. But their son seemed to have different thinking Sandeep think they must create more contacts. Even at this age Sandeep manage to make friendship with many influential people. They were not enough for him. He needed people who could provide him a better job and powerful position. Reema felt that he was in too much hurry to climb on top of ladder. Sandeep was not interested even spending one day on bottom of ladder. But it was not possible he had to work hard only he could get ahead. He was not ready for it and he kept giving examples of his friends whose parents managed to get influence. Reema knew many students of his class who were not such a lucky. But he never counted them. So in this situation she didn't want Tarun to give him a gift of those wooden dolls. She knew that Sandeep surely going to insult him if he did that. It was so wrong. Tarun was not ready to understand her. He seem to live in a past he kept carving those beautiful doll. She many times went inside that room. Those dolls were truly beautiful. But gifting them to Sandeep was useless thing. She sat there and started convincing him " May be may be you should sell those doll? Such things had big demand in market we can make money out of them." Tarun smiled. He like Reema's appreciation of his dolls. He always felt that she hated those dolls. " Really? Do you think we can able to sell them?" " Yes we can but we just need to understand what should be their cost and where should we sell? Actually we don't know how..how to sell thing otherwise we can make money out of it." Tarun knew that he could make money out of those dolls if he started selling them as showpiece. He was so upset even and that thought since he didn't want to treat them like showpiece. He wanted to give them to Sandeep as he promised him. Tarun " But I made them for Sandeep?" " Then sell them for Sandeep too since Sandeep wanted money not dolls. Why don't you understand he kept asking for money or influence he never wanted those small dolls now!!" Tarun nodded. He knew that Reema was telling truth. Sandeep's demand were different and he kept increasing them everyday. But it was not possible for Tarun to complete his demand. He gave sad smile to her and said "You are right he didn't need them." He ate his dinner and he didn't return back to his work. Reena was so happy. She felt that at least for one day he would sleep peacefully. After some hours Sandeep came back. Sandeep "Mom did Dad know Mr Mishra?" " Who is Mr Mishra?" "Owner of his company mom!!" " Your dad never reached to that high ladder and you know it very well so what is use of asking these questions?" She asked him angrily " Mom I was just asking question not insulting someone. I needed help so I asked you. Now if you don't know any big person with power that is not my mistake that I wanted them to be known by my family. Every kid have same demand. And many parents manage to meet them." Reema was so angry. Reema " Ok fine but you were not lucky enough to become their child so adjust with what you have." Sandeep made frustrating face and then started eating his dinner. Reema was so scared that Tarun might hear it. she went towards Tarun's room in hurry. She saw that he was fast asleep and he was smiling in his sleep. She felt so relaxed. Then soon she heard him talking in sleep. " I will create them for you.." he said that in dream Sandeep was small again and he was carving those dolls for him. It was sweet dream of past and he was happy about it. She felt happy too since he was at least happy due to past and present was unknown to him. She closed door of his room and went in kitchen to face her present.
Tarun was enjoying his past in his dream. It was so perfect he started craving the dolls and Sandeep was sitting with him. Everything was perfect when suddenly he managed to cut himself again. He became small kid and he started to feel scared. He didn't want to feel scared. But he couldn't help it. It was paining. He went inside kitchen and started calling his mom. He saw a lady who was cooking he assumed that she was his mom. But then she turned and she was his wife Reema. She gave him a strange look and started asking why you are calling your mom like a little boy. He didn't understand he was a small boy in few seconds he was a grown up again. Reema was looking at him accusingly since she expected him to be a grown up and mature person. But he looked at himself and he saw a small boy. It was just impossible he was a small boy and Reema was a adult woman. It was totally wrong. If he was small boy then Reema must had to be small girl. Then suddenly he sensed that he was a grown up and still he was calling his mom. He was so confused then he looked around. He suddenly heard screaming voice of Sandeep. Those were not screams of pains. Those were screams of anger. It was so frustrating. He wanted to change all. He wanted to convince his son that he was not calling his Mom. His head started paining strange way due to this excitement. Finally he woke up from bad dream. He looked around. He was sleeping alone in darkness. It was clear that Reema had not come to sleep with him. He wanted to knew what was the trouble. Then he sensed that voice of Sandeep was not just dream he was actually screaming in kitchen. He decided that he must go and enquire what was wrong. He started going out of his room when he saw that Reema was coming inside. It was clear that argument was over between them. Sandeep saw him. Then he started coming towards him. Reema stood between them. Reena " You don't need to discuss this with him." Why should not discuss with him I want to talk with him he is my dad?" Tarun moved ahead. " What happened?" "I want to ask did you know owner of your company?" " Yes I have met him once or twice during meeting." Sandeep smiled happily. Sandeep " Can you ask favour from him?" Knowing someone is one thing and asking for favour from someone was another. He knew his boss. He met him many times but that didn't mean his boss was going to do anything for him except paying him with salary. He didn't understand from where did got that idea in his brain. " Sandeep he is my boss not my friend he is standing on top of a ladder and I am on bottom of ladder." "So when you are planning to reach on the top?I hope you understanding your situation you are not far away from your retirement and it is about time that you should start making contacts with people who were standing on top of ladder since it is quite clear to us that you are not going to reach to the top. So we need contacts with help of them. At least I can try to reach to the top of ladder we need to move ahead that our family needs power and income what you provided us is not enough. We need more and we can even get more if you try. I didn't tell you to increase your salary or get promotion I just told you to chat with your boss and create nice friendly relation with him you need to talk little bit sweetly with that person and take his insults positively. " Reema " Enough! And why you are using why you should use ' I am not interested in this. I don't want your father to change his attitude I feel self respect is very important." " Self respect my foot!! mom it didn't give us anything in life if we need to move ahead. We need to butter people and get things from them as quickly as possible. Your this attitude manage to keep you at the bottom of ladder and you stayed there permanently. Look around us mom what did we got? we got nothing you needed success and everything which other families got?" "Which families just one family of Girish? I don't see any other family have any privilege. They are born rich so they got it you don't need to be jealous of him everyday." " Mom I'm not jealous I just want to reach to the top of ladder which Girish got place by birth." " You are just looking at positive side of his life. When you were just studying in school Girish was attending at least 4 to 3 classes of different type of activities. He did it all just to become perfect before world for name of his family." " Well then why don't you send me to those classes too because you didn't want to spend your money." " No stop lying. I was trying hard to send you but you rejected that idea. At that time you give me a list of your friends who were not going to that class." " Ok I made mistake but now I am trying hard to cover it up. Can't Dad help me little bit in it?" Tarun " This is not little bit and I can't go inside house of an unknown man and started talking to him as if I am his best friend for centuries." Sandeep began to look very upset. Sandeep " You will never listen to me. My future will be destroyed just because of you." Tarun was so shocked. " You are asking impossible from me and blaming me for not getting that impossible to you." "Impossible!! everything is impossible for you one day you will not even able to provide me one burger from McDonalds and going to say it is impossible for you. Just keep carving dolls you are good for nothing except carving dolls." Reema started abusing but he just went inside his room. Reema turn towards Tarun and she sensed by his face that worst thing has happened Sandeep managed to hurt Tarun's soul. Tarun once again went inside room and started carving dolls. Reema knew that now he would not come out for entire night he just kept carving.
Reema sensed every day situation started to get worst with Sandeep. He started abusing them everyday. This time she was pretty sure that it was not Tarun's mistake at all. Tarun could not go in that circle. How sweetly Tarun talk with his boss but the owner of company was too superior than him he would never invite him for dinner. And if Sandeep was thinking about Tarun's invitation for dinner to his boss. Then it should be for his immediate boss not for owner of company. In fact she was sure that owner of company would never accept his dinner invitation. He would clearly say that he could not go in house of every employee. After all a company owner had lakhs of employees. Company owner did not visit every employee and had dinner with him in his house. If he started doing that thing he would be sick in hospital. This was common sense. But Sandeep was not interested in it. He was just interested in getting things quickly. Reema slept alone in her bedroom Tarun was working on those dolls for entire night. Next day when she went in kitchen to make breakfast, he shocked her with announcement that he was planning to take voluntary retirement. Reema " but why?" " I am too tired and I want to relax and we have enough money to manage retiring life." " But it will be not enough we need to settle Sandeep too." " Haven't you heard Sandeep yesterday? One thing was clear I could not give him anything. He needed man on too high position and I am on too low position." " Come on he is just kidding." " Stop lying he was not kidding he was telling the truth. He wanted a rich and famous dad but I am his dad and according to him I am just useless thing." " But it is not your mistake he is wrong you are right even your dad we are not that much rich but you never acted with him like this I have seen you." Suddenly Tarun seem to be lost in his old memory in those old dreams when they have so happy. Truthfully sometimes even Reema wanted to go in those days when Sandeep was small and her in laws were alive. Those were truly happy days for her. They used to smile every day and they didn't have so much demands from life. They were happy in what they got. But now everything was changed. They came here in this new house after Sandeep could be happy with this big house but it didn't turn out that way. Sandeep didn't became happy he started demanding more things. Then Reema slowly sensed that they could never satisfy Sandeep. Sandeep was not that sort of person who could be satisfied. He kept demanding one after another thing. Reema " I know our past was wonderful and I still sometimes think about it but we can't move ahead like that we need to see present and you are trying to live in past. Why you keep carve dolls when you know very well that our son is not some person who value small things in life. In fact he never value anything. Don't you remember when we used to stay in small house how much he used to demand for a big house then you invested so much and did so many things to get proper amount to buy this big house. You have to gifted it on his birthday but still he was not happy since it was located far away from railway station and bus stop. I just didn't like your idea of giving him his house but then I thought it can give us some privacy. If you want to take voluntary retirement I want to shift in our village to that old house." " But what about Sandeep? He is such a small kid he could not live alone!!" " Stop believing in past your son is about to finish his graduation and he is not interested in staying with us. I am staying here with him just because of your office if you are retiring then we are moving out of this house." Tarun was shocked on Reema's outburst. Tarun " Come on.. come on Sandeep is such a small kid ...come on Sandeep is such a small kid" Tarun wanted to tell it in normal way but that sentence came out of his mouth in strange way. Reema was so shocked. Reema sensed that Tarun was not ready to give up Sandeep now. She thought that he might needed time. She decided not to hurry up. "Well I don't mean immediately but when you retire we must go in village." Tarun nodded. On that point Sandeep came inside he managed to overheard their conversation. Sandeep " Mom is right if you want to retire then you must go to village. It will be better if you take care of our farms. Some one needed to take care of our lands too. " He said it in nice way but Tarun and Reema both sensed that he wanted them out of his way. He knew that he could not say it in straight way so he was giving excuses. But it was clear that if Tarun was not going to help him, he wanted him to go away. At beginning Reema thought that he wanted just them out of his way. But then Sandeep started them telling about how could they make their land useful. Reema sensed that he just wanted more money. Tarun " But you can't stay alone." Sandeep started laughing. " Dad I am not small boy now. I am going to finish college in few months." " But this is your last year you need to get more attention." Reema suddenly sensed that she totally forgot about Sandeep's exam. She began to feel guilty. She began to feel that she might be truly ignoring him. But it was happening because of situation. Her entire attention was just on Tarun who was acting totally strange his obsession with carving was scaring her. When Sandeep started explaining Tarun how did he supposed to work on farms suddenly Tarun stopped. " No I'm not going to do farming I am going to carve dolls for you." " Dolls for me? Are you out of your mind I am grown up man now I don't need dolls." " No I will make dolls and you will love them." Tarun went back in his room instead of going in office and started making dolls again.
Sandeep was shocked by his behaviour. Sandeep turn towards Reema and started asking her " What's wrong with Dad?Why he is doing those dolls again and again?" " I don't know but he seemed so obsessed with them I tried to stop him many times but one thing that he is not stopping. This is not just about today almost every night spend in the different room while carving dolls. " " Did he always used to do this? " " No this is new obsession I never saw him carving dolls before but in few months he started to carve them like obsession he used to do it in village but never in city with us. In fact according to my knowledge even his mother hated carving of dolls since he managed to injured himself one day due to it. Your grandmother always used to tell me a story that in village when he lived there he started carving tools like his father and then he managed to cut himself. After that his mother never let him touch them and soon they shifted in city for his education. But since coming in city he never carved those dolls." Sandeep also confused he sense one thing that what was happening to his dad was not normal. Sandeep " let him carve now but if he didn't stop by night I think we need to contact doctor." " Doctor? How can doctor stop him from doing things? " " "Mom I mean psychiatrist." " But your dad is not mad I don't think I need a doctor now." " Now stop it! Educated person like you who is not mad I don't understand why did we need to discuss this issue every time I have suggested same thing but you were not ready. His troubles are increasing day by day we need to do something about them. He can't survive like that." " I know but did you feel I didn't try to convince him? But it didn't work he was not ready to come with me." " But at that time he at least used to go in office now he is not even going in office we need to do something about we need to understand that seriousness of situation. Go fast and call his office and tell them that he is sick so at least his office work will not affected if he started acting like this it will clear have effect on his promotion and salary don't think it is right time for his retirement." " I totally agree with you but we need to convince him to to go back to office. I tried so hard when he was not ready then I suggested that we might just shift in village. I feel that you didn't want our responsibly so it is better to shift." " It is not about responsibility but staying here that will not help you at all!! His troubles will increase day by day it will be hard for you to handle him." " I know. It all started just because of you." " What did I have done?" " Replacing your demands without any second thought. This is totally wrong you can't act like that. You have to understand our budget, our capacity you can't just start demanding everything you can't just start demanding sky from us. Meeting with owner of companies!! Are you out of your mind? Maybe you needed visit to a doctor too?" "Mom I was just asking not insisting." " No you were insisting not even giving us any options." " Ok mom! I am sorry but that is my nature I can't change it?" " You can and you have to." " Fine Mom I will try. But you can't just blame everything on me."Reema was confused she knew that Sandeep did many wrong things but she also know that many kids did it but their parents didn't react like Tarun. Reema " I feel I could not get it I think we need a doctor for that judgment you are right we need doctor." " I think we can wait for one day and then see what will happens. If dad goes to office today who will not go to doctor but if he didn't we will have to go to doctor. Now I am going out for college then I have to go to my job too but you have to try your best to send him to office. If he went to office it will be a most big relief to us we can handle it but if he didn't we need a doctor and we have to convince him to go to doctor." Sandeep went out and Reema immediately went Tarun's room. Atmosphere of that room was such a strange Tarun was carving dolls not like a normal person but like a mad person he seem to lost totally inside those dolls. When Reema went near him he was not even ready to talk with her. Reema " You have to go to office if you are not going to office. We need to visit a doctor at least." " Why did I need to visit a doctor I am not sick?" " If you are healthy why you are not going to office?" " Because they will not let me carve dolls in office. They are acting just like my school even in school they didn't let me carve a doll." Reena was shocked. He was talking in strangely manners and she was sure that he needed a psychiatrist. Then he turned towards her and gave her a smile and asked her "Did doctor permit me to carve dolls in his clinic? Wait a minute I have a number of a doctor who will permit me. He is very nice doctor I will come with you if you take me to him." When he gave her case paper so it became clear to her that her husband had a little trouble in past but he just forgot to mention it. She took that file from him and started studying. She became clear to her that he suffered in a same way when his grandfather died. He developed his obsessive compulsive disorder due to death of his grandfather. They clearly mentioned risk that it might occur again on death of his parents. But Tarun tried to hide it entire time so it return in worst way. She called his doctor she understood that doctor was not working now he had retired but he easily shifted her to his another good colleague. He gave her full confidence that in few days Tarun would be fine since it was a case which was known to him very well. Reema " But will it return on every death of his dear one?" "Well we can't say that it will not but why we need to scare when we know the treatment don't worry we will cure him so just relax and bring him on time." She called Sandeep and told him everything. She apologize to Sandeep for blaming him. But Sandeep said he was too demanding too. Finally they went to psychiatrist's Clinic and when they went inside it turned out to be very easy than Reema expected. One thing become clear to Reema that they knew his problem very well and they would handle soon so she took breath of relief and she sensed that finally her life was going to became normal again.
The End
Tarun started to work on wooden table. He wanted it to be best. It was not his first craft. He knew still that it had to be special for his son. He wanted it to be best. He knew that he needed to remain awake for entire night. He started to create it in night since he needed to work hard during day for office. But he had promised his son that he would create a doll for him. Actually it started when they were in village. There was small hut outside his house. He still remembered that day. His son Sandeep came running outside in garden. He slowly noticed small Hut. He started screaming that he wanted to see small Hut. Tarun was not happy about it since it was not clean at all. It was deserted for long ago. Once upon a time old widow used to stay in it. She used to work for them for long time. She was not sweet loving lady. She always used to scream on kids every time when they come to play on that ground. Only Tarun was special in her eyes he was son of her boss. But she never called his dad or grandfather her boss she called them her owner. It was strange philosophy and his dad never liked it. His dad always used to tell him that these were old long tradition which should not be followed. So after death of that lady no one stayed in that hut. Tarun turned it in his small workshop. He used to carve in wood inside it. He used to love carving from childhood. The things which he created from wood were always admired by everyone. He started using that room for just craving purpose. Every day after school he used to come running inside that hut. Then he used to crave things out of wood. That knife was so sharp once he managed to cut himself with it. There was large cut. Every day his Mom hated his hobby. He always heard argument between his parents since his Dad taught him and his Mom hated it. His father always said that it was wonderful art but his Mom felt giving knife in hands of such small kid was wrong. Every day he used to cut hand little bit. But that day he missed his move and managed to cut hand. He was alone in hut. His hand started bleeding soon entire floor began to look red. At this age he knew that it was his imagination. But in that age he felt that it was sea of blood and he was going to die in it. He ran in house while running he managed to create track of blood. Their maid was washing clothes when she saw him. She loudly started to call his Mom who came running out of house. He was feeling so sick. He didn't understand why but he was sick. His stomach began to feel strange and vomited. He didn't remember much after that. He just remembered waking up in hospital with stitches. After that this room locked permanently. Until Sandeep didn't ran towards it. When Sandeep started insisting that he had to go inside and he went there. He started carving. Suddenly he sensed his wife's voice. Reema was calling him for dinner. It was so frustrating. He wanted to complete it. But he could not do it now. He knew Reema would soon came in his room. But he still wanted to complete it. He kept doing it but finally Reena entered. Reena " What are you doing?" " Nothing I am creating a doll for Sandeep." Reema started laughing and she said that he is not small boy now. Reema " come on what's wrong with you why you are doing efforts for that useless thing he is not going to play with dolls now. Your son is now in college and next year he will be doing his job." "I know but still I feel that these doll seem like good luck to him." " Fine do as you wish but just remember one thing he is not going to appreciate those doll and I am not going to appreciate that you are not eating your dinner." " Ok I am coming and eating that dinner." " That dinner?!! Do you know what I have cook today I cooked everything which you like?" Then she gave him full list of items which he love to eat. He immediately went to wash his hands. He looked around himself. He had created such a mess in bathroom due to those wood particles. He sensed that he had to clean his dress inside that room only. He started watching in the bathroom when Reena came from behind again. " Don't worry I will clear this mess go and eat your dinner." He smiled and went in dining room for dinner. He was so excited about his dinner so he decided that Reema could clean the room. He started to serve himself his dinner. It was so exciting that smell was making him more and more hungry. He just couldn't wait for Reema. Normally they didn't have time to take dinner to get that since he was always late due to office work. He didn't like to keep Reema waiting for him for a long time. Then suddenly Reema came towards dinner table. Reema " I don't understand why did you keep wasting your time on that craving!! If you want to carve then carve something which could be useful like a beautiful design for a window. But you keep carving just dolls which are going to prove useless." Tarun was so angry he made promise to his son and promise for the promise it couldn't be broken. But he knew that it was useless to explain this to Reema so he said in loud voice " I am not doing it for money it is my hobby so let me do whatever I wish I am doing my job and earning my money that is enough." Reema think she manage to upset him she immediately smiled and said " Those dolls are cute too we can even use them as a decorative piece just create entire family of those dolls." He just nodded and after that they ate dinner but they didn't discuss anything about this.
Reema started serving dinner to herself that those dolls were cute and she didn't had any objection in carving dolls but she was saying that he was carving them for Sandeep who didn't care about them. She didn't want Sandeep to laugh on him. She knew that Tarun was doing it with affection but she also knew that her grown ups son Sandeep didn't care for it. Sandeep was changed now but Tarun was not accepting it in childhood Sandeep used to love running around with dad but now he wanted independence. And she could not blame him for it. He had to work hard in his college and he also had to do part-time job. It was not about their financial crisis but his course had made it compulsory to work too. He could have done that job after completion of education but it was not wise since it would waste his more years. He was scared that if he did that all useful job would vanish. Even after working so much he was not sure that he could get a best job as he desired. In this situation he was hardly interested in wooden dolls craved by his father. Sandeep was interested in some help regarding his job and career but Tarun was not that much helpful on that front. From beginning Tarun was shy person he never made friendship with such people who could have influence. Tarun always worked hard and made his earnings with complete honesty. He had very good salary and even promoted but he never manage to create influence which should be useful for his family. His salary was enough to keep his family happy so Reema never sensed that they needed to make friendship with influential people. But their son seemed to have different thinking Sandeep think they must create more contacts. Even at this age Sandeep manage to make friendship with many influential people. They were not enough for him. He needed people who could provide him a better job and powerful position. Reema felt that he was in too much hurry to climb on top of ladder. Sandeep was not interested even spending one day on bottom of ladder. But it was not possible he had to work hard only he could get ahead. He was not ready for it and he kept giving examples of his friends whose parents managed to get influence. Reema knew many students of his class who were not such a lucky. But he never counted them. So in this situation she didn't want Tarun to give him a gift of those wooden dolls. She knew that Sandeep surely going to insult him if he did that. It was so wrong. Tarun was not ready to understand her. He seem to live in a past he kept carving those beautiful doll. She many times went inside that room. Those dolls were truly beautiful. But gifting them to Sandeep was useless thing. She sat there and started convincing him " May be may be you should sell those doll? Such things had big demand in market we can make money out of them." Tarun smiled. He like Reema's appreciation of his dolls. He always felt that she hated those dolls. " Really? Do you think we can able to sell them?" " Yes we can but we just need to understand what should be their cost and where should we sell? Actually we don't know how..how to sell thing otherwise we can make money out of it." Tarun knew that he could make money out of those dolls if he started selling them as showpiece. He was so upset even and that thought since he didn't want to treat them like showpiece. He wanted to give them to Sandeep as he promised him. Tarun " But I made them for Sandeep?" " Then sell them for Sandeep too since Sandeep wanted money not dolls. Why don't you understand he kept asking for money or influence he never wanted those small dolls now!!" Tarun nodded. He knew that Reema was telling truth. Sandeep's demand were different and he kept increasing them everyday. But it was not possible for Tarun to complete his demand. He gave sad smile to her and said "You are right he didn't need them." He ate his dinner and he didn't return back to his work. Reena was so happy. She felt that at least for one day he would sleep peacefully. After some hours Sandeep came back. Sandeep "Mom did Dad know Mr Mishra?" " Who is Mr Mishra?" "Owner of his company mom!!" " Your dad never reached to that high ladder and you know it very well so what is use of asking these questions?" She asked him angrily " Mom I was just asking question not insulting someone. I needed help so I asked you. Now if you don't know any big person with power that is not my mistake that I wanted them to be known by my family. Every kid have same demand. And many parents manage to meet them." Reema was so angry. Reema " Ok fine but you were not lucky enough to become their child so adjust with what you have." Sandeep made frustrating face and then started eating his dinner. Reema was so scared that Tarun might hear it. she went towards Tarun's room in hurry. She saw that he was fast asleep and he was smiling in his sleep. She felt so relaxed. Then soon she heard him talking in sleep. " I will create them for you.." he said that in dream Sandeep was small again and he was carving those dolls for him. It was sweet dream of past and he was happy about it. She felt happy too since he was at least happy due to past and present was unknown to him. She closed door of his room and went in kitchen to face her present.
Tarun was enjoying his past in his dream. It was so perfect he started craving the dolls and Sandeep was sitting with him. Everything was perfect when suddenly he managed to cut himself again. He became small kid and he started to feel scared. He didn't want to feel scared. But he couldn't help it. It was paining. He went inside kitchen and started calling his mom. He saw a lady who was cooking he assumed that she was his mom. But then she turned and she was his wife Reema. She gave him a strange look and started asking why you are calling your mom like a little boy. He didn't understand he was a small boy in few seconds he was a grown up again. Reema was looking at him accusingly since she expected him to be a grown up and mature person. But he looked at himself and he saw a small boy. It was just impossible he was a small boy and Reema was a adult woman. It was totally wrong. If he was small boy then Reema must had to be small girl. Then suddenly he sensed that he was a grown up and still he was calling his mom. He was so confused then he looked around. He suddenly heard screaming voice of Sandeep. Those were not screams of pains. Those were screams of anger. It was so frustrating. He wanted to change all. He wanted to convince his son that he was not calling his Mom. His head started paining strange way due to this excitement. Finally he woke up from bad dream. He looked around. He was sleeping alone in darkness. It was clear that Reema had not come to sleep with him. He wanted to knew what was the trouble. Then he sensed that voice of Sandeep was not just dream he was actually screaming in kitchen. He decided that he must go and enquire what was wrong. He started going out of his room when he saw that Reema was coming inside. It was clear that argument was over between them. Sandeep saw him. Then he started coming towards him. Reema stood between them. Reena " You don't need to discuss this with him." Why should not discuss with him I want to talk with him he is my dad?" Tarun moved ahead. " What happened?" "I want to ask did you know owner of your company?" " Yes I have met him once or twice during meeting." Sandeep smiled happily. Sandeep " Can you ask favour from him?" Knowing someone is one thing and asking for favour from someone was another. He knew his boss. He met him many times but that didn't mean his boss was going to do anything for him except paying him with salary. He didn't understand from where did got that idea in his brain. " Sandeep he is my boss not my friend he is standing on top of a ladder and I am on bottom of ladder." "So when you are planning to reach on the top?I hope you understanding your situation you are not far away from your retirement and it is about time that you should start making contacts with people who were standing on top of ladder since it is quite clear to us that you are not going to reach to the top. So we need contacts with help of them. At least I can try to reach to the top of ladder we need to move ahead that our family needs power and income what you provided us is not enough. We need more and we can even get more if you try. I didn't tell you to increase your salary or get promotion I just told you to chat with your boss and create nice friendly relation with him you need to talk little bit sweetly with that person and take his insults positively. " Reema " Enough! And why you are using why you should use ' I am not interested in this. I don't want your father to change his attitude I feel self respect is very important." " Self respect my foot!! mom it didn't give us anything in life if we need to move ahead. We need to butter people and get things from them as quickly as possible. Your this attitude manage to keep you at the bottom of ladder and you stayed there permanently. Look around us mom what did we got? we got nothing you needed success and everything which other families got?" "Which families just one family of Girish? I don't see any other family have any privilege. They are born rich so they got it you don't need to be jealous of him everyday." " Mom I'm not jealous I just want to reach to the top of ladder which Girish got place by birth." " You are just looking at positive side of his life. When you were just studying in school Girish was attending at least 4 to 3 classes of different type of activities. He did it all just to become perfect before world for name of his family." " Well then why don't you send me to those classes too because you didn't want to spend your money." " No stop lying. I was trying hard to send you but you rejected that idea. At that time you give me a list of your friends who were not going to that class." " Ok I made mistake but now I am trying hard to cover it up. Can't Dad help me little bit in it?" Tarun " This is not little bit and I can't go inside house of an unknown man and started talking to him as if I am his best friend for centuries." Sandeep began to look very upset. Sandeep " You will never listen to me. My future will be destroyed just because of you." Tarun was so shocked. " You are asking impossible from me and blaming me for not getting that impossible to you." "Impossible!! everything is impossible for you one day you will not even able to provide me one burger from McDonalds and going to say it is impossible for you. Just keep carving dolls you are good for nothing except carving dolls." Reema started abusing but he just went inside his room. Reema turn towards Tarun and she sensed by his face that worst thing has happened Sandeep managed to hurt Tarun's soul. Tarun once again went inside room and started carving dolls. Reema knew that now he would not come out for entire night he just kept carving.
Reema sensed every day situation started to get worst with Sandeep. He started abusing them everyday. This time she was pretty sure that it was not Tarun's mistake at all. Tarun could not go in that circle. How sweetly Tarun talk with his boss but the owner of company was too superior than him he would never invite him for dinner. And if Sandeep was thinking about Tarun's invitation for dinner to his boss. Then it should be for his immediate boss not for owner of company. In fact she was sure that owner of company would never accept his dinner invitation. He would clearly say that he could not go in house of every employee. After all a company owner had lakhs of employees. Company owner did not visit every employee and had dinner with him in his house. If he started doing that thing he would be sick in hospital. This was common sense. But Sandeep was not interested in it. He was just interested in getting things quickly. Reema slept alone in her bedroom Tarun was working on those dolls for entire night. Next day when she went in kitchen to make breakfast, he shocked her with announcement that he was planning to take voluntary retirement. Reema " but why?" " I am too tired and I want to relax and we have enough money to manage retiring life." " But it will be not enough we need to settle Sandeep too." " Haven't you heard Sandeep yesterday? One thing was clear I could not give him anything. He needed man on too high position and I am on too low position." " Come on he is just kidding." " Stop lying he was not kidding he was telling the truth. He wanted a rich and famous dad but I am his dad and according to him I am just useless thing." " But it is not your mistake he is wrong you are right even your dad we are not that much rich but you never acted with him like this I have seen you." Suddenly Tarun seem to be lost in his old memory in those old dreams when they have so happy. Truthfully sometimes even Reema wanted to go in those days when Sandeep was small and her in laws were alive. Those were truly happy days for her. They used to smile every day and they didn't have so much demands from life. They were happy in what they got. But now everything was changed. They came here in this new house after Sandeep could be happy with this big house but it didn't turn out that way. Sandeep didn't became happy he started demanding more things. Then Reema slowly sensed that they could never satisfy Sandeep. Sandeep was not that sort of person who could be satisfied. He kept demanding one after another thing. Reema " I know our past was wonderful and I still sometimes think about it but we can't move ahead like that we need to see present and you are trying to live in past. Why you keep carve dolls when you know very well that our son is not some person who value small things in life. In fact he never value anything. Don't you remember when we used to stay in small house how much he used to demand for a big house then you invested so much and did so many things to get proper amount to buy this big house. You have to gifted it on his birthday but still he was not happy since it was located far away from railway station and bus stop. I just didn't like your idea of giving him his house but then I thought it can give us some privacy. If you want to take voluntary retirement I want to shift in our village to that old house." " But what about Sandeep? He is such a small kid he could not live alone!!" " Stop believing in past your son is about to finish his graduation and he is not interested in staying with us. I am staying here with him just because of your office if you are retiring then we are moving out of this house." Tarun was shocked on Reema's outburst. Tarun " Come on.. come on Sandeep is such a small kid ...come on Sandeep is such a small kid" Tarun wanted to tell it in normal way but that sentence came out of his mouth in strange way. Reema was so shocked. Reema sensed that Tarun was not ready to give up Sandeep now. She thought that he might needed time. She decided not to hurry up. "Well I don't mean immediately but when you retire we must go in village." Tarun nodded. On that point Sandeep came inside he managed to overheard their conversation. Sandeep " Mom is right if you want to retire then you must go to village. It will be better if you take care of our farms. Some one needed to take care of our lands too. " He said it in nice way but Tarun and Reema both sensed that he wanted them out of his way. He knew that he could not say it in straight way so he was giving excuses. But it was clear that if Tarun was not going to help him, he wanted him to go away. At beginning Reema thought that he wanted just them out of his way. But then Sandeep started them telling about how could they make their land useful. Reema sensed that he just wanted more money. Tarun " But you can't stay alone." Sandeep started laughing. " Dad I am not small boy now. I am going to finish college in few months." " But this is your last year you need to get more attention." Reema suddenly sensed that she totally forgot about Sandeep's exam. She began to feel guilty. She began to feel that she might be truly ignoring him. But it was happening because of situation. Her entire attention was just on Tarun who was acting totally strange his obsession with carving was scaring her. When Sandeep started explaining Tarun how did he supposed to work on farms suddenly Tarun stopped. " No I'm not going to do farming I am going to carve dolls for you." " Dolls for me? Are you out of your mind I am grown up man now I don't need dolls." " No I will make dolls and you will love them." Tarun went back in his room instead of going in office and started making dolls again.
Sandeep was shocked by his behaviour. Sandeep turn towards Reema and started asking her " What's wrong with Dad?Why he is doing those dolls again and again?" " I don't know but he seemed so obsessed with them I tried to stop him many times but one thing that he is not stopping. This is not just about today almost every night spend in the different room while carving dolls. " " Did he always used to do this? " " No this is new obsession I never saw him carving dolls before but in few months he started to carve them like obsession he used to do it in village but never in city with us. In fact according to my knowledge even his mother hated carving of dolls since he managed to injured himself one day due to it. Your grandmother always used to tell me a story that in village when he lived there he started carving tools like his father and then he managed to cut himself. After that his mother never let him touch them and soon they shifted in city for his education. But since coming in city he never carved those dolls." Sandeep also confused he sense one thing that what was happening to his dad was not normal. Sandeep " let him carve now but if he didn't stop by night I think we need to contact doctor." " Doctor? How can doctor stop him from doing things? " " "Mom I mean psychiatrist." " But your dad is not mad I don't think I need a doctor now." " Now stop it! Educated person like you who is not mad I don't understand why did we need to discuss this issue every time I have suggested same thing but you were not ready. His troubles are increasing day by day we need to do something about them. He can't survive like that." " I know but did you feel I didn't try to convince him? But it didn't work he was not ready to come with me." " But at that time he at least used to go in office now he is not even going in office we need to do something about we need to understand that seriousness of situation. Go fast and call his office and tell them that he is sick so at least his office work will not affected if he started acting like this it will clear have effect on his promotion and salary don't think it is right time for his retirement." " I totally agree with you but we need to convince him to to go back to office. I tried so hard when he was not ready then I suggested that we might just shift in village. I feel that you didn't want our responsibly so it is better to shift." " It is not about responsibility but staying here that will not help you at all!! His troubles will increase day by day it will be hard for you to handle him." " I know. It all started just because of you." " What did I have done?" " Replacing your demands without any second thought. This is totally wrong you can't act like that. You have to understand our budget, our capacity you can't just start demanding everything you can't just start demanding sky from us. Meeting with owner of companies!! Are you out of your mind? Maybe you needed visit to a doctor too?" "Mom I was just asking not insisting." " No you were insisting not even giving us any options." " Ok mom! I am sorry but that is my nature I can't change it?" " You can and you have to." " Fine Mom I will try. But you can't just blame everything on me."Reema was confused she knew that Sandeep did many wrong things but she also know that many kids did it but their parents didn't react like Tarun. Reema " I feel I could not get it I think we need a doctor for that judgment you are right we need doctor." " I think we can wait for one day and then see what will happens. If dad goes to office today who will not go to doctor but if he didn't we will have to go to doctor. Now I am going out for college then I have to go to my job too but you have to try your best to send him to office. If he went to office it will be a most big relief to us we can handle it but if he didn't we need a doctor and we have to convince him to go to doctor." Sandeep went out and Reema immediately went Tarun's room. Atmosphere of that room was such a strange Tarun was carving dolls not like a normal person but like a mad person he seem to lost totally inside those dolls. When Reema went near him he was not even ready to talk with her. Reema " You have to go to office if you are not going to office. We need to visit a doctor at least." " Why did I need to visit a doctor I am not sick?" " If you are healthy why you are not going to office?" " Because they will not let me carve dolls in office. They are acting just like my school even in school they didn't let me carve a doll." Reena was shocked. He was talking in strangely manners and she was sure that he needed a psychiatrist. Then he turned towards her and gave her a smile and asked her "Did doctor permit me to carve dolls in his clinic? Wait a minute I have a number of a doctor who will permit me. He is very nice doctor I will come with you if you take me to him." When he gave her case paper so it became clear to her that her husband had a little trouble in past but he just forgot to mention it. She took that file from him and started studying. She became clear to her that he suffered in a same way when his grandfather died. He developed his obsessive compulsive disorder due to death of his grandfather. They clearly mentioned risk that it might occur again on death of his parents. But Tarun tried to hide it entire time so it return in worst way. She called his doctor she understood that doctor was not working now he had retired but he easily shifted her to his another good colleague. He gave her full confidence that in few days Tarun would be fine since it was a case which was known to him very well. Reema " But will it return on every death of his dear one?" "Well we can't say that it will not but why we need to scare when we know the treatment don't worry we will cure him so just relax and bring him on time." She called Sandeep and told him everything. She apologize to Sandeep for blaming him. But Sandeep said he was too demanding too. Finally they went to psychiatrist's Clinic and when they went inside it turned out to be very easy than Reema expected. One thing become clear to Reema that they knew his problem very well and they would handle soon so she took breath of relief and she sensed that finally her life was going to became normal again.
The End
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