Sitting in wheelchair
Cool wind started playing with Nina's hair it was wonderful and she loved that but then she felt confused she didn't even remember what way that she used to love. She spins such a long time in her house and in hospital after that fracture she totally forgot what was it to go outside and wander in world. It happened after that accident in her auto. She was lucky to survive that accident. Her entire auto slipped and fall on road. She just managed to get herself out of that auto when a big truck dumped in it. Auto was entirely destroyed by its impact. She could sense easily that auto driver was died on the spot since it was impossible to survive after that trucks impact. She could not forget his screams. They were becoming her daily nightmare. She no longer able to sleep as she used to be before accident. She had to go ahead in her life on daily basis since she had her responsibilities too she had her family husband two kids and she had to do everything as a wife and mother for them. She could not stop her life just because of an accident. It was nothing but death of an unknown man but for her it was horrible incidents which kept hunting her every night. She wanted to be normal but it was not easy but people around her didn't understand it. According to them her troubles were over as soon as her fractured leg started working. It was so frustrating and upsetting. She tried her best to smile while doing everything but still anger kept coming it was horrible for her. Whenever she tried to close her eyes she began to see that horrible accident it was just not moving out of her mind. She knew that she had to forget it but it was not that easy for her. On every moment she kept getting them whenever she closed her eyes it was not easy she could not even manage to relax for few moments. It was getting horrible day by day. She needed to act normal again but it was not happening. She could not able to forget those horrible incidents. She began to sure that those incidence are going to stay with her for entire life. They were getting worst effect on her soul at every point but still she needed to smile at her kids and enjoy her life with her husband. But she knew that she was just pretending it all but today when she went out of her house for first time she feel that she could live normal life if she started going out like that for some time. She sent one thing that she needed to go out in normal weather and in normal people she needed to walk on road. Her husband Tushar felt same way so he took him outside on picnic. When he started talking about picnic she began to shiver. She never wanted to enter in any car or auto or any vehicle. He couldn't understand her fear or maybe he understood her fear very well since he started this as a solution on her. He told her on first day that she needed to go out. Everyone laughed on him on the time since her leg was in a fracture and she needed rest. But she didn't understand that she was locking herself in her home. She never sense her future would be like that. But she started to sense at Tushar was pushing her too much. He wanted her to hurry up in everything he wanted her to recover as soon as possible which was not possible for her. She could not start doing everything in just few weeks but he expected it from her. He kept telling her that she must move fast in her equal which was not possible for her but still she kept pretending. She kept hiding her pains from her family. But still she sensed that it was not easy. Now even doctors started to suggest her that she must start moving ahead. She needed to go out of her house and move around. She was still not comfortable without her walking stick. She felt need of it on every moment. She felt that she would fall if she didn't use it. She didn't want to move around without the stick. But now doctors are suggesting her that she needed to walk without stick. In fact physiotherapist suggested clearly that she didn't need a stick at all. So she sense that she must learn to walk on her legs. It was like becoming baby again and learning to walk once again. But this time she had fear which a baby never had in mind. This picnic was one move in her recovery procedure. Entire family had many Hopes from it. Kids expected to enjoy it. Tushar also expected to enjoy it. And she expected just to learn walking again on it. Life was not as easy and simple as she expected to be. After accident she saw its many faces which were worst in her eyes. But now as wind started playing with her hair she began to see hope again. She began to sense of freshness in her soul. She began to hope for best in her life. She decided that she would learn to walk on this picnic and she learnt to enjoy herself. She started looking out of window and she seems that world was so beautiful and she must enjoy every scene of it. She smile happily and for first time she sends that she could enjoy her life too after accident. But she didn't understand that in her every thought that accident was becoming part of her she needed to forget it but it was coming with her on every step. She felt if she could fly without getting stuck on that accident. she smile and started looking outside. Her kids were excited by new view and new scenery which was giving them feel of nature which was needed after long city life. Slowly she began to feel spirit of those kids to begin to sense that she could do anything if she desire so she could forget that accident and move ahead in life.
Cool wind started playing with Nina's hair it was wonderful and she loved that but then she felt confused she didn't even remember what way that she used to love. She spins such a long time in her house and in hospital after that fracture she totally forgot what was it to go outside and wander in world. It happened after that accident in her auto. She was lucky to survive that accident. Her entire auto slipped and fall on road. She just managed to get herself out of that auto when a big truck dumped in it. Auto was entirely destroyed by its impact. She could sense easily that auto driver was died on the spot since it was impossible to survive after that trucks impact. She could not forget his screams. They were becoming her daily nightmare. She no longer able to sleep as she used to be before accident. She had to go ahead in her life on daily basis since she had her responsibilities too she had her family husband two kids and she had to do everything as a wife and mother for them. She could not stop her life just because of an accident. It was nothing but death of an unknown man but for her it was horrible incidents which kept hunting her every night. She wanted to be normal but it was not easy but people around her didn't understand it. According to them her troubles were over as soon as her fractured leg started working. It was so frustrating and upsetting. She tried her best to smile while doing everything but still anger kept coming it was horrible for her. Whenever she tried to close her eyes she began to see that horrible accident it was just not moving out of her mind. She knew that she had to forget it but it was not that easy for her. On every moment she kept getting them whenever she closed her eyes it was not easy she could not even manage to relax for few moments. It was getting horrible day by day. She needed to act normal again but it was not happening. She could not able to forget those horrible incidents. She began to sure that those incidence are going to stay with her for entire life. They were getting worst effect on her soul at every point but still she needed to smile at her kids and enjoy her life with her husband. But she knew that she was just pretending it all but today when she went out of her house for first time she feel that she could live normal life if she started going out like that for some time. She sent one thing that she needed to go out in normal weather and in normal people she needed to walk on road. Her husband Tushar felt same way so he took him outside on picnic. When he started talking about picnic she began to shiver. She never wanted to enter in any car or auto or any vehicle. He couldn't understand her fear or maybe he understood her fear very well since he started this as a solution on her. He told her on first day that she needed to go out. Everyone laughed on him on the time since her leg was in a fracture and she needed rest. But she didn't understand that she was locking herself in her home. She never sense her future would be like that. But she started to sense at Tushar was pushing her too much. He wanted her to hurry up in everything he wanted her to recover as soon as possible which was not possible for her. She could not start doing everything in just few weeks but he expected it from her. He kept telling her that she must move fast in her equal which was not possible for her but still she kept pretending. She kept hiding her pains from her family. But still she sensed that it was not easy. Now even doctors started to suggest her that she must start moving ahead. She needed to go out of her house and move around. She was still not comfortable without her walking stick. She felt need of it on every moment. She felt that she would fall if she didn't use it. She didn't want to move around without the stick. But now doctors are suggesting her that she needed to walk without stick. In fact physiotherapist suggested clearly that she didn't need a stick at all. So she sense that she must learn to walk on her legs. It was like becoming baby again and learning to walk once again. But this time she had fear which a baby never had in mind. This picnic was one move in her recovery procedure. Entire family had many Hopes from it. Kids expected to enjoy it. Tushar also expected to enjoy it. And she expected just to learn walking again on it. Life was not as easy and simple as she expected to be. After accident she saw its many faces which were worst in her eyes. But now as wind started playing with her hair she began to see hope again. She began to sense of freshness in her soul. She began to hope for best in her life. She decided that she would learn to walk on this picnic and she learnt to enjoy herself. She started looking out of window and she seems that world was so beautiful and she must enjoy every scene of it. She smile happily and for first time she sends that she could enjoy her life too after accident. But she didn't understand that in her every thought that accident was becoming part of her she needed to forget it but it was coming with her on every step. She felt if she could fly without getting stuck on that accident. she smile and started looking outside. Her kids were excited by new view and new scenery which was giving them feel of nature which was needed after long city life. Slowly she began to feel spirit of those kids to begin to sense that she could do anything if she desire so she could forget that accident and move ahead in life.
Tushar was watching Nina attentively for entire time. He was so tensed about her. She was supposed to walk and move normally around. Long time ago doctor told them that she was perfect. But she was still not walking and it was totally strange. He didn't understand what was her problem but doctor had warned him that it might happen in her case. Doctor told him that she kept talking about that accident which was creating worst impact on her mind and she needed to quit thinking about it. She needed to forget it she was not ready to do that. It was not right for her and for their entire family. He knew that it was sad incidence and it was hard to forget but still she needed to forget it after some point. After all she could not carry on burden of that sorrow for entire life. But she was not getting over it. She was totally stuck in that incidence. During every day she talked about that accident on plenty of times. Even children had started to get irritated with it. They kept complaining that mom is telling again and again that horrible story of accident. At beginning she thought that she would slowly stop it but she didn't. Now they even started to accept it. They didn't care anymore about it. They started to think that their mom would keep on talking about this accident for entire life. They liked their mom and started to accept her one weakness as a part of life. After all their mom did everything for them so they feel that they just adjust one thing for her? It was nice thought but Tushar knew it was not solution for Nina. He knew that she needed to get over it. She needed to stop dreaming about it every day. He sensed many times that she considered herself responsible for death of that auto driver. " What do you think did you like this weather?" Nina smiled. " It is wonderful to come out in care after so many days. I have never understood that I managed to lock myself in house. " " Yes you have to move around in this nature and in this weather." " Yes mom you need to go out and see you will sense how nice our trees and flowers are." She smiled happily. She was so happy that her little son Raju was encouraging her to go out. " You are right Raju we need to go out sometimes." " Not sometimes papa on everyday." Their daughter Reena added. They both smiled happily. They felt so lucky to have such a nice and mature kids. Their kids were really concerned about them. Nina felt she was so lucky that she got such a nice kids. Nina " you are right from today your mom will start going out everyday. " Raju " and you will not talk about that accident too?" Raju's this innocent question manage to hurt Nina and Tushar sensed it. Tushar " come on let's start talking about good things not about bad things." Reena" Yes let's plan what will we do on this vacation? Until now always mom planned everything but this time we are going to plan for mom." Nina smile happily. It was wonderful moment for her life since she was getting full attention from her family. She wanted it for such a long time specially after accident she was so upset and she needed their attention. But in their busy daily schedule she could hardly demand it from them. Instead of that she needed to give full attention to them. What she began to sense that she could not hide her fear about that accident from her kids. She knew that she needed to do that she needed to hide her fears but it was not happening. She is slowly turn towards Tushar and started talking to him. " I think kids are getting upset due to my chat about that accident I must try to stop talking before them about it." " Stop this Nina stop this. It is not just about kids it is also about you look at yourself. You are scared of everything and you needed to get over your fear stop hiding it just try to face it." " Do you feel I am not trying? Do you think that I want to remain scared for entire life? No one like that everyone want happy life and I have same desire for myself. But I am scared what I supposed to do to tell myself that I am not scared I'm not scared and it is going to change the situation. Do you feel that I have not tried it of course I tried hard in fact I tried everything including everyday prayer to God. But nothing is working for me even my faith seem to be not that strong." Tushar sensed took wrong move by instigating her this way. " Just relax I don't mean to hurt you. We will go slow then slowly you will reduce your fear and we will enjoy." Raju " But is it possible on this picnic? "Now Tushar wanted to scream on Raju since he ask wrong question on wrong time. But Nina stopped him. She didn't want him to show anger to kids. She could sense that he was very angry not with kids but with entire situation. She was feeling same way why did she had to get involved in that accident. She was so happy before that. But this accident had destroyed her life. She started to try to move her legs again but still she felt strange sort of cramp inside them. She knew that just for one leg was injured but she was feeling pains in both legs. It seems as if pain was increasing day by day which was worst for her. But she felt sure from her that she needed to go out of that car and walk on those fields that day. She needed a fresh air and happiness for her soul. She began to try more to move her legs. She wanted to come out of car with a smile and start everything in normal way it used to do before accident. She was so frustrated she didn't want to think about that accident but it kept coming in her mind as it became her shadow. She didn't understand when it started to follow her like shadow on every spot. He knew that it was worst incident but she needed to forget it until now she managed to forget every worst incident of her life. She managed to get over her father's death. She became her mother's best pillar in life. They didn't have much money at that time when her father died but they managed to get everything in right way. Actually it was not about money they had enough but it was about sudden death and loss of support. Her father was always positive support for their family and after his sudden death her brother and sister feel so much for that it was hard to move ahead. She had to become replacement of her father. She was not best but at least she was something replace as a replacement and it was better than nothing. So she became her father and tried to act like him so now she was a biggest pillar of both families. She was happy that at least before accident she managed to complete her duties towards her brother and sister. Both were living happily with their families. but still her accident adverse effect on them too. She was getting the record on every day. Even their spouse kept calling her in hope that she would visit them one day and everything would be normal. So she needed to act normal and became normal to save many families. She started to stretch her leg in hope that when car stop she could walk out of it in normal way with a smile.
Nina watch so happyily when finally they reached to their hotel. It was beautiful hot in just by watching it she started to feel that she could enjoy every moment in it. Raju " Wow dad what a hotel? I love you made my vacation so great." Reena " papa you seem to forgot to totally about money when you book a hotel? I mean we have never invested so much in a holiday." Tushar was so upset by Reena's statement. Tushar " Reena you are becoming just a complaint box and nothing else. I have booked such a good hotel for us and you are complaining about it. I thought we all deserve some holidays after that.." Reena screamed angry " just say it papa just say it!! Accident!! You both just keep on talking about it and thinking about it. You are no longer concerned about our future but your sole concern is that accident. It's not just about mom you are also keep thinking about that accident only." " It is happening because your mom is not fine when she become alright I will totally forget about it. You don't need to create such a big drama out of such a small issue. Are you not interested in staying in this hotel and enjoying vacation? If you feel that way I can call your uncle or aunty and tell them to take you with them in their home. Do you want me to call your uncle or aunty?" Raju " Are you stupid why you are doing like that? If dad is spending money why you want to keep complaining about it. Dad know how to do budgeting. You don't need to oversmart like that and spoil our vacation. Your such a spoilsport." Suddenly Reena changed her mistake. Reena gave sweet smile to her both parents. Reena " sorry mom sorry dad." Tushar was about to argue but Nina stopped him with her eyes. Nina " Take your bags and go to room wait I will show you your room. I might need some time to come in room." Reena nodded like a good girl and vanished in that Hotel with Raju. Nina turned towards Tushar. " Don't scream on kids like that she is just a little girl. She didn't understand our situation." " Frankly I don't understand your situation. You had one accident and now according to doctor you are fine still you could not walk. According to me this is worst situation of my life. If you had some serious sickness I could have done after each doctor and manage to find some solution but now you are not sick then what did I supposed to do? I don't understand how did I supposed to cure you?" " Just relax." Nina tried to come out of car without her stick. But it was useless effort she needed help of Tushar. Tushar just managed to hold her before falling on ground and hurting herself. Tushar "I think you should not try to walk so early." " But few minutes ago you said that Dr said I am fine then why I couldn't walk?" Tushar was totally confused now he began to think that he might need to change doctor. Tushar "Maybe we need to take second opinion?" " Really? but I don't think it is going to be second opinion. I think it might be 3rd or 4th." Tushar was totally confused now and he is saying that he was not moving in right way regarding his wife's treatment. He decided that he needed new doctor and new way to treat his wife and cure her. " Maybe we need to try some other way of medicines. I mean we have tried just allopathic we can try other ways to cure your legs?" " And you feel it will cure me? What if it managed to harm more?" " Stop this negative thinking I don't feel it will harm you. We will go to good doctor who will manage to cure you soon." Neena nodded but there was not faith in her eyes. She sat on one stone and told him to bring out her wheelchair. When he took out her wheelchair she finally sat once again in her wheelchair she sense one thing that she could not walk. She was so upset she wanted to walk once again but it was not happening she didn't understand what was her trouble. She needed to move ahead in life happy but if she couldn't able to walk it was not possible. Nina " what if I never able to walk?"Tushar "We can survive even with it our relation is strong enough to bear such a small incidence." " Small incidents?" " It is not that big issue even with wheelchair you managed our entire house in perfect way and slowly we all will manage to see you in it. I know it will hurt us at beginning but then slowly we all except so don't worry it will be just fine." Then Tushar took her inside the hotel. She was relaxed Now since she knew that even if she had to spend her entire life in Wheel chair Tushar would be always with her. She sensed wanting that now she could enjoy that picnic since she was not forced to be perfect. She didn't want to be pushed regarding walking. She tried it and she tried it before Tushar still it was not working so she had accept her destiny. She knew that she had to kept trying but if she couldn't able to do it. It was not her mistake. She began to sense that everyone would understand it. She was trying so hard to walk but it just couldn't happen. She kept falling and her legs were not cooperating. Those episodes of trying to walk was frustrating for her until now but today she said that she might not needed to do it again. She was so happy and she began to sense that she could enjoy her life even without using those legs on that wheelchair. She was pleased with that thought after all she had to accept her destiny. She couldn't walk then she couldn't walk. She looked at her hand there was scratches due to her fall but she decided that she could accept them since she needed to try hard at least for last time.
Tushar said it to increase Nina's confidence but in his soul he just couldn't accept it. He was so upset. He didn't understand why did Nina had to sit in that wheel chair when every doctor was telling him that she could walk. He could have accepted it if doctor told him that he must but doctor were telling him totally different story they were saying she must walk. It seemed so wrong. It was so horrible for him when he saw her in wheelchair. He never wanted that for her but he could not change it because he didn't able to find any cure. But he didn't understand one thing why this was happening. That didn't make sense. He contacted many experts specialists. Nothings seemed to be working on her. She was feeling still sick and she could not walk. At beginning he was thinking that she was not trying but today before his eye she tried hard. He knew that she must have hurt herself. It was so scary she was falling on the ground. She could have cut her head on that marble but luckily he manage to control the situation. It was so strange but he didn't able to find any answer. When he returned in room he saw that Nina was getting ready happily. It was so strange that because of her handicap he was feeling sad but she didn't seem to mind it. She was acting as if she never able to walk and she was handicapped from birth. It was not just his thinking but even her brother and sister felt same way. Her brother told him clearly on phone that she was acting totally strange. Her brother told him that when he called her she clearly told him that she could never able to walk. But when he asked which doctor told her that she was confused. So he decided to call Tushar about it. Tushar was so confused since none of the doctor told her that she could not walk in fact every doctor was telling them that she could walk. It seemed as if she decided from her mind that she would not walk. Sometimes Tushar felt that she was punishing herself for some reason by not walking. But after today's incident he decided that she could not walk and that was fact. He decided that he must give up his dream otherwise he might hurt her. He went in their room with smile. She was sitting before big mirror and getting ready. She was still same beautiful lady in his eyes. But he could not ignore her pale complexion and her weight gain. It was not about beauty but it was about health. If she could not walk then he needed to understand which diet was perfect for her. She could not keep eating same way as she used to eat before when she used to walk. But he knew that talking about that was going to hurt. After all she didn't want to discuss her weight. Normally he could have ignored it but now this was issue of her health and he wanted her to remain healthy. So he came towards her mirror from behind. He slowly gave smile to her reflection in mirror. She also smiled back. " Neena I know that you could not walk now but if you couldn't walk then you need to do some diet too." He was expecting an angry outbursts but she just give a sad look. " I can understand that I need to go to dietitian and manage to control my weight." He was so happy that she cooperated him in every way. Then he started talking sweetly with her. It was wonderful day for him but she was still in wheelchair and he needed to accept it. He began to feel that he was not accepting faith as easily as she did. He started to sense that he might be wrong from beginning to end. He began to think that she might never able to walk it was just his wish for which he was forcing her to walk. He was lucky that she didn't harm herself that much. He began to think that she was not having any mental trouble it was he who needed help. She needed to accept that Nina could not ever walk. After accident he was acting stubborn. He was not ready to accept that she could not walk. But he decided that from today he would stop forcing her to walk. He told her that he was going in dining room of hotel and she could join him there. He decided that she must do it alone since it was not possible for him to help her everyday if she was going to be on that wheelchair for entire life. She was clearly upset now. " You are going ahead alone and telling me to get ready alone?" " Yes sweetheart this is not issue of few days now this is issue of entire life and you needed to manage everything on your own. I can't come and help you everyday. Until now I kept a nurse for you since I thought it was going to be sickness of few days. If it is going to be sickness of entire life then we need to get more trained." " Trained ?!! What kind of training?" " Training which handicapped person gets for moving ahead in everyday life." She suddenly began to look upset it seemed that she didn't like idea of being treated in differently because of her handicap. He knew that it was frustrating but it was truth of world that handicap were treated in different way. She could no longer use accelerator now she was going to need lifts. She suddenly began to grasp total idea when suddenly tears appeared in her eyes. She started crying and saying " Why did God do this to me? It was not my mistake the driver is dead I tried my best." " I know but life is not always easy and fair sometimes we needed to tolerate sorrows which we don't deserve." Tushar kept consoling her for sometime but then he decided that he must had to act strict. He went out of room while leaving her alone to get ready. Tushar came out of his room he went near kids room and knocked on the door and told them to come down in dining room. He didn't hear any answer he sensed that kids were already in dining room and they were waiting for their parents. He knew that this was supposed to be for picnic and they supposed to enjoy it but it was not moving that way. He sensed that kids must have come to them when they were arguing and when they had their argument they went away in dining room. They was so busy in Nina's sickness that they were totally forgetting the kids. It was not right so he decided that he must hurry up in dining room and try to cheer up his kids.
When Tushar came near dining room he was shocked to hear laughing voices of his kids. This never happened before normally when they started arguing after sometime kids also started arguing with each other. But this time they were enjoying themselves. He went inside dining room in hurry to see what was going on. He wanted to see who performed this miracle. A normal looking men with glasses for sitting with kids on table. That man was not looking someone special but he was having so much positive effect on kids. His kids had never laughed like that since his wife's accident. It was not as if they never laugh but not this freely. Today he saw them laughing he suddenly felt that happiness which was hidden in the soul was coming out. He was so happy that finally his kids were enjoying their life due to someone. He didn't know who was that man but he decided that he must develop friendship with him and he needed a family friend like this. It was important for him to bring out hopes from soul of his family members. He went ahead with smile and join them on table. Raju " Papa this is Uncle's friend he brought mangoes for us." Tushar smiled. He knew that Nina's brother was smart business man. He had developed his inherited land and bought few lands in village too. He did many sort of farming there. He always sent their share in their houses. Sometimes in products and sometimes in form of money he was financially good. He never minded sharing it with others. But it was totally strange that he send mangoes on Resort where they were having vacation. It didn't seem logical at all. Tushar seems that something else must be reason of sending this man. Tushar started chatting with that man in friendly way. That man was very nice. It was clear that he was not staying in that resort he saw that he had just visited them for giving those mangoes. Tushar could not believe anyone could come such a long way for such a small purpose. They were chatting for some time but then suddeny waiter came running towards Tushar. Waiter " sir madam want help with her wheelchair actually her wheelchair is stuck on carpet in lift." Tushar stood up and ran towards lift. Nina was clearly upset when she saw him. She tried to pretend that she could do it on her own but one thing was clear that she could not take out her wheelchair from that carpet. She gave forced smile and said " Hi why did you come running like that I was coming?" Then suddenly that man said from behind" But we are gentlemen so we decided that we must help lady to open a lift just like opening car door." Everyone started laughing and suddenly atmosphere become positive and hopeful. Then they came in hall with Nina. Kids were looking so tense. That man " Don't worry we went just to help your mom since lift was too old and it was stuck. I think it needed to be changed long ago." Suddenly manager looked scared and he ran towards lift. Tushar screamed " It was a joke." That man " No need to warn him I think that lift was really too old. It was making strange noises when I entered in it. I don't want anyone to be stuck in that lift and I don't need to increase my patients. It's such a thing happened possibility of claustrophobia will increase in that fellow by at least 60 to 70%." Tushar asked with curiosity " You are psychiatrist?" " Yes and I have clinic full of patients I don't need to increase." Then he turned towards to Nina. " If you don't mind can I see your reports?" Suddenly Nina looked angry. " My problem is not mental. " " Well then my one patient will be reduced I am happy but do you want to spend your entire life in pretending you are fine? I mean it is not truth. I am a doctor. I can tell that by watching at you. You are having dark circles under your eyes so you are not sleeping.Am I wrong." Nina looked away. She started looking out of window. Reena answered " Mom have nightmares every night." Nina was shocked so kids were hearing her screams daily. Psychiatrist " How did you know? Did she scream?" Raju " Yes. Every day. Sorry mom but I feel scared when you scream at night." Reena " Yes he came in my bed and I found it hard to control his shivering." Tushar was so shocked. His kids never trusted anybody so much. " So what did you feel now? If you were screaming in nights due to pains physical therapy is perfect. But you are screaming due to nightmares. So you need psychiatrist. Trust me it is not going to be easy for your family if you don't accept." Nina looked around. She sensed her entire family was giving pleading look. Nina " Fine. From when we will start?" Psychiatrist " We have began already. You have accepted your family is important than anything else. Now slowly I will convince you that death was not your mistake. People die every day due to accident. It is not due to passengers mistake." " But I could have saved him. " Tushar " You can't that auto was on fire. It was driver's mistake." " It was not. I kept insisting to driving fast. I want to catch bus. I have wasted too much time in choosing dress." " And whom you are going to meet?" Nina suddenly didn't answer. Tushar was shocked. He turned to kids. " Go out and play." Kids sensed something was wrong. They obeyed. Tushar " You went to meet your old friend who married to your ex boyfriend?!!" " Yes I want to show them how happy I am? I want to see regret in their eyes. He rejected me since my father died and I had responsibilities. I want to show how happy I am." " And you want to hide it from me so you forced driver to drive fast." " Yes. You were so upset when I suggested of meeting them." " Because I don't want that man in our life and look what happened!!" Psychiatrist " Relax. You are not helping my treatment. " Tushar controlled his anger and went out. Nina started crying. Psychiatrist " Don't worry. He is not angry due to accident but he was insecure since you meet old boyfriend." " But I was not dishonest to him. I went to meet entire family not him alone." " But it is same for him. I will handle all when it will over. Finally you will walk. Remember one thing just because you said hurry up that person don't suppose to break rule. Driver was responsible for his mistake." Nina nodded. " You are nodding not believing. That is our trouble." Then Psychiatrist started chatting with her. Finally her treatment for walking started.
Nina watch so happyily when finally they reached to their hotel. It was beautiful hot in just by watching it she started to feel that she could enjoy every moment in it. Raju " Wow dad what a hotel? I love you made my vacation so great." Reena " papa you seem to forgot to totally about money when you book a hotel? I mean we have never invested so much in a holiday." Tushar was so upset by Reena's statement. Tushar " Reena you are becoming just a complaint box and nothing else. I have booked such a good hotel for us and you are complaining about it. I thought we all deserve some holidays after that.." Reena screamed angry " just say it papa just say it!! Accident!! You both just keep on talking about it and thinking about it. You are no longer concerned about our future but your sole concern is that accident. It's not just about mom you are also keep thinking about that accident only." " It is happening because your mom is not fine when she become alright I will totally forget about it. You don't need to create such a big drama out of such a small issue. Are you not interested in staying in this hotel and enjoying vacation? If you feel that way I can call your uncle or aunty and tell them to take you with them in their home. Do you want me to call your uncle or aunty?" Raju " Are you stupid why you are doing like that? If dad is spending money why you want to keep complaining about it. Dad know how to do budgeting. You don't need to oversmart like that and spoil our vacation. Your such a spoilsport." Suddenly Reena changed her mistake. Reena gave sweet smile to her both parents. Reena " sorry mom sorry dad." Tushar was about to argue but Nina stopped him with her eyes. Nina " Take your bags and go to room wait I will show you your room. I might need some time to come in room." Reena nodded like a good girl and vanished in that Hotel with Raju. Nina turned towards Tushar. " Don't scream on kids like that she is just a little girl. She didn't understand our situation." " Frankly I don't understand your situation. You had one accident and now according to doctor you are fine still you could not walk. According to me this is worst situation of my life. If you had some serious sickness I could have done after each doctor and manage to find some solution but now you are not sick then what did I supposed to do? I don't understand how did I supposed to cure you?" " Just relax." Nina tried to come out of car without her stick. But it was useless effort she needed help of Tushar. Tushar just managed to hold her before falling on ground and hurting herself. Tushar "I think you should not try to walk so early." " But few minutes ago you said that Dr said I am fine then why I couldn't walk?" Tushar was totally confused now he began to think that he might need to change doctor. Tushar "Maybe we need to take second opinion?" " Really? but I don't think it is going to be second opinion. I think it might be 3rd or 4th." Tushar was totally confused now and he is saying that he was not moving in right way regarding his wife's treatment. He decided that he needed new doctor and new way to treat his wife and cure her. " Maybe we need to try some other way of medicines. I mean we have tried just allopathic we can try other ways to cure your legs?" " And you feel it will cure me? What if it managed to harm more?" " Stop this negative thinking I don't feel it will harm you. We will go to good doctor who will manage to cure you soon." Neena nodded but there was not faith in her eyes. She sat on one stone and told him to bring out her wheelchair. When he took out her wheelchair she finally sat once again in her wheelchair she sense one thing that she could not walk. She was so upset she wanted to walk once again but it was not happening she didn't understand what was her trouble. She needed to move ahead in life happy but if she couldn't able to walk it was not possible. Nina " what if I never able to walk?"Tushar "We can survive even with it our relation is strong enough to bear such a small incidence." " Small incidents?" " It is not that big issue even with wheelchair you managed our entire house in perfect way and slowly we all will manage to see you in it. I know it will hurt us at beginning but then slowly we all except so don't worry it will be just fine." Then Tushar took her inside the hotel. She was relaxed Now since she knew that even if she had to spend her entire life in Wheel chair Tushar would be always with her. She sensed wanting that now she could enjoy that picnic since she was not forced to be perfect. She didn't want to be pushed regarding walking. She tried it and she tried it before Tushar still it was not working so she had accept her destiny. She knew that she had to kept trying but if she couldn't able to do it. It was not her mistake. She began to sense that everyone would understand it. She was trying so hard to walk but it just couldn't happen. She kept falling and her legs were not cooperating. Those episodes of trying to walk was frustrating for her until now but today she said that she might not needed to do it again. She was so happy and she began to sense that she could enjoy her life even without using those legs on that wheelchair. She was pleased with that thought after all she had to accept her destiny. She couldn't walk then she couldn't walk. She looked at her hand there was scratches due to her fall but she decided that she could accept them since she needed to try hard at least for last time.
Tushar said it to increase Nina's confidence but in his soul he just couldn't accept it. He was so upset. He didn't understand why did Nina had to sit in that wheel chair when every doctor was telling him that she could walk. He could have accepted it if doctor told him that he must but doctor were telling him totally different story they were saying she must walk. It seemed so wrong. It was so horrible for him when he saw her in wheelchair. He never wanted that for her but he could not change it because he didn't able to find any cure. But he didn't understand one thing why this was happening. That didn't make sense. He contacted many experts specialists. Nothings seemed to be working on her. She was feeling still sick and she could not walk. At beginning he was thinking that she was not trying but today before his eye she tried hard. He knew that she must have hurt herself. It was so scary she was falling on the ground. She could have cut her head on that marble but luckily he manage to control the situation. It was so strange but he didn't able to find any answer. When he returned in room he saw that Nina was getting ready happily. It was so strange that because of her handicap he was feeling sad but she didn't seem to mind it. She was acting as if she never able to walk and she was handicapped from birth. It was not just his thinking but even her brother and sister felt same way. Her brother told him clearly on phone that she was acting totally strange. Her brother told him that when he called her she clearly told him that she could never able to walk. But when he asked which doctor told her that she was confused. So he decided to call Tushar about it. Tushar was so confused since none of the doctor told her that she could not walk in fact every doctor was telling them that she could walk. It seemed as if she decided from her mind that she would not walk. Sometimes Tushar felt that she was punishing herself for some reason by not walking. But after today's incident he decided that she could not walk and that was fact. He decided that he must give up his dream otherwise he might hurt her. He went in their room with smile. She was sitting before big mirror and getting ready. She was still same beautiful lady in his eyes. But he could not ignore her pale complexion and her weight gain. It was not about beauty but it was about health. If she could not walk then he needed to understand which diet was perfect for her. She could not keep eating same way as she used to eat before when she used to walk. But he knew that talking about that was going to hurt. After all she didn't want to discuss her weight. Normally he could have ignored it but now this was issue of her health and he wanted her to remain healthy. So he came towards her mirror from behind. He slowly gave smile to her reflection in mirror. She also smiled back. " Neena I know that you could not walk now but if you couldn't walk then you need to do some diet too." He was expecting an angry outbursts but she just give a sad look. " I can understand that I need to go to dietitian and manage to control my weight." He was so happy that she cooperated him in every way. Then he started talking sweetly with her. It was wonderful day for him but she was still in wheelchair and he needed to accept it. He began to feel that he was not accepting faith as easily as she did. He started to sense that he might be wrong from beginning to end. He began to think that she might never able to walk it was just his wish for which he was forcing her to walk. He was lucky that she didn't harm herself that much. He began to think that she was not having any mental trouble it was he who needed help. She needed to accept that Nina could not ever walk. After accident he was acting stubborn. He was not ready to accept that she could not walk. But he decided that from today he would stop forcing her to walk. He told her that he was going in dining room of hotel and she could join him there. He decided that she must do it alone since it was not possible for him to help her everyday if she was going to be on that wheelchair for entire life. She was clearly upset now. " You are going ahead alone and telling me to get ready alone?" " Yes sweetheart this is not issue of few days now this is issue of entire life and you needed to manage everything on your own. I can't come and help you everyday. Until now I kept a nurse for you since I thought it was going to be sickness of few days. If it is going to be sickness of entire life then we need to get more trained." " Trained ?!! What kind of training?" " Training which handicapped person gets for moving ahead in everyday life." She suddenly began to look upset it seemed that she didn't like idea of being treated in differently because of her handicap. He knew that it was frustrating but it was truth of world that handicap were treated in different way. She could no longer use accelerator now she was going to need lifts. She suddenly began to grasp total idea when suddenly tears appeared in her eyes. She started crying and saying " Why did God do this to me? It was not my mistake the driver is dead I tried my best." " I know but life is not always easy and fair sometimes we needed to tolerate sorrows which we don't deserve." Tushar kept consoling her for sometime but then he decided that he must had to act strict. He went out of room while leaving her alone to get ready. Tushar came out of his room he went near kids room and knocked on the door and told them to come down in dining room. He didn't hear any answer he sensed that kids were already in dining room and they were waiting for their parents. He knew that this was supposed to be for picnic and they supposed to enjoy it but it was not moving that way. He sensed that kids must have come to them when they were arguing and when they had their argument they went away in dining room. They was so busy in Nina's sickness that they were totally forgetting the kids. It was not right so he decided that he must hurry up in dining room and try to cheer up his kids.
When Tushar came near dining room he was shocked to hear laughing voices of his kids. This never happened before normally when they started arguing after sometime kids also started arguing with each other. But this time they were enjoying themselves. He went inside dining room in hurry to see what was going on. He wanted to see who performed this miracle. A normal looking men with glasses for sitting with kids on table. That man was not looking someone special but he was having so much positive effect on kids. His kids had never laughed like that since his wife's accident. It was not as if they never laugh but not this freely. Today he saw them laughing he suddenly felt that happiness which was hidden in the soul was coming out. He was so happy that finally his kids were enjoying their life due to someone. He didn't know who was that man but he decided that he must develop friendship with him and he needed a family friend like this. It was important for him to bring out hopes from soul of his family members. He went ahead with smile and join them on table. Raju " Papa this is Uncle's friend he brought mangoes for us." Tushar smiled. He knew that Nina's brother was smart business man. He had developed his inherited land and bought few lands in village too. He did many sort of farming there. He always sent their share in their houses. Sometimes in products and sometimes in form of money he was financially good. He never minded sharing it with others. But it was totally strange that he send mangoes on Resort where they were having vacation. It didn't seem logical at all. Tushar seems that something else must be reason of sending this man. Tushar started chatting with that man in friendly way. That man was very nice. It was clear that he was not staying in that resort he saw that he had just visited them for giving those mangoes. Tushar could not believe anyone could come such a long way for such a small purpose. They were chatting for some time but then suddeny waiter came running towards Tushar. Waiter " sir madam want help with her wheelchair actually her wheelchair is stuck on carpet in lift." Tushar stood up and ran towards lift. Nina was clearly upset when she saw him. She tried to pretend that she could do it on her own but one thing was clear that she could not take out her wheelchair from that carpet. She gave forced smile and said " Hi why did you come running like that I was coming?" Then suddenly that man said from behind" But we are gentlemen so we decided that we must help lady to open a lift just like opening car door." Everyone started laughing and suddenly atmosphere become positive and hopeful. Then they came in hall with Nina. Kids were looking so tense. That man " Don't worry we went just to help your mom since lift was too old and it was stuck. I think it needed to be changed long ago." Suddenly manager looked scared and he ran towards lift. Tushar screamed " It was a joke." That man " No need to warn him I think that lift was really too old. It was making strange noises when I entered in it. I don't want anyone to be stuck in that lift and I don't need to increase my patients. It's such a thing happened possibility of claustrophobia will increase in that fellow by at least 60 to 70%." Tushar asked with curiosity " You are psychiatrist?" " Yes and I have clinic full of patients I don't need to increase." Then he turned towards to Nina. " If you don't mind can I see your reports?" Suddenly Nina looked angry. " My problem is not mental. " " Well then my one patient will be reduced I am happy but do you want to spend your entire life in pretending you are fine? I mean it is not truth. I am a doctor. I can tell that by watching at you. You are having dark circles under your eyes so you are not sleeping.Am I wrong." Nina looked away. She started looking out of window. Reena answered " Mom have nightmares every night." Nina was shocked so kids were hearing her screams daily. Psychiatrist " How did you know? Did she scream?" Raju " Yes. Every day. Sorry mom but I feel scared when you scream at night." Reena " Yes he came in my bed and I found it hard to control his shivering." Tushar was so shocked. His kids never trusted anybody so much. " So what did you feel now? If you were screaming in nights due to pains physical therapy is perfect. But you are screaming due to nightmares. So you need psychiatrist. Trust me it is not going to be easy for your family if you don't accept." Nina looked around. She sensed her entire family was giving pleading look. Nina " Fine. From when we will start?" Psychiatrist " We have began already. You have accepted your family is important than anything else. Now slowly I will convince you that death was not your mistake. People die every day due to accident. It is not due to passengers mistake." " But I could have saved him. " Tushar " You can't that auto was on fire. It was driver's mistake." " It was not. I kept insisting to driving fast. I want to catch bus. I have wasted too much time in choosing dress." " And whom you are going to meet?" Nina suddenly didn't answer. Tushar was shocked. He turned to kids. " Go out and play." Kids sensed something was wrong. They obeyed. Tushar " You went to meet your old friend who married to your ex boyfriend?!!" " Yes I want to show them how happy I am? I want to see regret in their eyes. He rejected me since my father died and I had responsibilities. I want to show how happy I am." " And you want to hide it from me so you forced driver to drive fast." " Yes. You were so upset when I suggested of meeting them." " Because I don't want that man in our life and look what happened!!" Psychiatrist " Relax. You are not helping my treatment. " Tushar controlled his anger and went out. Nina started crying. Psychiatrist " Don't worry. He is not angry due to accident but he was insecure since you meet old boyfriend." " But I was not dishonest to him. I went to meet entire family not him alone." " But it is same for him. I will handle all when it will over. Finally you will walk. Remember one thing just because you said hurry up that person don't suppose to break rule. Driver was responsible for his mistake." Nina nodded. " You are nodding not believing. That is our trouble." Then Psychiatrist started chatting with her. Finally her treatment for walking started.
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