Adventure story 127. Living in today

                                                                Living in today
Everything was so perfect and ready.They all sat inside car. Pankaj was driving car with his whole family. Pankaj  was planning to drive their car in national park. He was so happy that finally he managed to take his family to picnic.Every one was so happy when he had found time to take them outside.Now he was going totally wrong way in life.He felt it when his wife Rajani fought with him because he didn't have time for his family.He wanted to spend time with them but his career would not permit it. He couldn't able to do it.He had to get enough money to fulfill wishes of his family which was not that much easy.He turned around.It was perfect day his younger son was sitting in his wife's lap and he was screaming with happiness.He was so pleased by this.When he suddenly felt that something was wrong with that smell.It was smell of those tree which was making him so upset.He knew that he was fine but still he didn't like it.He turned his attention to his elder son Ankur who was sitting near him and watching map. Pankaj was tense now.He was on lonely road and he wanted to reach to national park.But suddenly he felt that heavy feeling from inside.His heart was so tense.He felt that something was wrong with it.He suddenly began to feel that his car was so suffocating.He didn't believe it that this was happening to him.He was feeling tense from every side.His car didn't seem to have enough air for him.He felt so much tense.He started to open front buttons of his shirt.He felt that this would relax him.But before he could stop himself,he suddenly started feeling breathless.It was horrible.He had to stop car.When he stopped it,every one started looking at him with shock.Then before he could say anything.He started making sound as if he couldn't able to breath.Every one in car was scared.Specially Ankur who was sitting near him sensed something was totally wrong with his father.Rajani ran towards him.She started telling him to relax.He was trying but just couldn't stop.He was getting more and more worst.Ankur"What is happening to Dad?"Rajani told him in panic voice"I think your Dad is having Asthma attack.""But I have never saw him like this.""I know...But this is not time to discuss.Take my mobile and call Doctor and ambulance.""Ambulance do you think Dad is serious?"Ankur started crying.After hearing those voices his younger son Amul started crying.Even at his small age he sensed something was wrong.He started screaming. Pankaj was so upset by this that he wanted to stop himself.But then slowly he was turning into worst.He started seeing those incidence when he suffering.He felt that his breathing was going to stop. But then he felt that he was going to die.Then he felt as if someone was strangling his throat.It was worst. Pankaj was upset by this all.He just wanted to forget it.
         Slowly Rajani started getting upset.She had accepted nice holidays and instead of that she got this.Now she had to take care of her husband.She knew that her thoughts were wrong.Her husband was nice fellow.But she felt that he was never smart enough to get things easily as she wished on every moment. Rajani was so upset by this.She knew that she should do best for her husband but things were not good for her.First she had to quit her job against her wishes due to pressure of two kids.She had to sit home.Then Pankaj began to bring just limited money for years.Her budget was turning in wrong way.Then finally after lot of screaming by her he started working with more efforts and money was improved.But then he hardly began to show face at home.She had to take care of every thing.Their sons were growing but they were just turning into her sons.He never had time for family.She started arguing regarding it.Finally they managed this holiday until now she never got anything from her husband without arguing.She had to fight with him and push him on every point.But now her holiday was spoiled and both kids were proving useless in crisis.She immediately searched phone and dialed number.Doctor was so shocked to hear this.He said that he would send ambulance but she was sure that it would be late.She just had to stand on lonely road with just kids and with fear that on any moment she could turn widow.It was worst dreams to her.She started counting minutes.But it seemed like centuries before that ambulance came and her husband was taken with them.She was so scared even in that ambulance.She just never understood that why did this happened to her.She was best but still she got every thing worst.She had adjust with it.But inside her heart she wanted to scream on god for giving her all worst things.Finally they reached to hospital and Doctor admitted Pankaj.Then she was relaxed.She started informing others.But she was sure that they would blame her.Her thought turned out to be true.Every one just asked her that why did she took holiday in Jungle where Pankaj could get allergic to any plant. She tried to convince every one that it was Pankaj's idea.But still they just blamed her.Slowly whole family gathered there and Doctor told them that Pankaj was out of danger then after seeing Pankaj from distance.Rajani finally went home with her sons.She was upset by all this.She just went in her bathroom and started crying.She didn't want to her kids to see her in this condition.But suddenly her life seemed to take worst turn.She was upset.She didn't want to remember any of this.She wanted to become small girl again and she wanted to go back to school.But she knew that it was not possible so she cried.Then slowly she took control of her emotions and got ready to go to hospital again.She was going to drop her kids at her mother's place.She knew that it was extra work for her mother.But she was also sure that she would never say no to her and her mother never blamed her for anything. While her in-laws kept pointing finger at her on every problem and every trouble that would always upset kids.She didn't want another tension now so her mother was best option to her.She ran to do it all in time.After all Rajani always loved discipline.
          When Rajani went to hospital,she was so upset about Pankaj's health. Rajani was doing every thing.She ran inside hospital.She started running towards Pankaj's room.Then just in few moments Doctor came out. Rajani ran to him. Rajani"How is my husband?""Which patient?"She told him.She started pointing his room. When she told him,he gave every details about her husband.Doctor"I have checked reports.It was Asthma attack."Then he just went away.Rajani had lot of questions but that Doctor was too busy in life.Then she ran towards room. She just felt one thing that taking that tour to forest was mistake.When she went inside room,she noticed that Pankaj was fine now.Rajani"What happened?""That Doctor said that it was Asthma attack.""But you said that you had it only in childhood when you were 10 years old and then you never had it.""You are right.It was so shocking.How did this happen to me?"Pankaj started crying.Rajani was such shocked.She never expected it.She did all inquiry at time of marriage.Pankaj was telling truth.He never had any sort of attack since childhood.Rajani"I just can't believe it.This is happening to me.My whole life was ruined.How can this happen?"Pankaj got more nervous.Suddenly he once again started feeling restless,he just ran to that pump which Doctor had given to him for emergencies. He needed it.He felt so relaxed after using it.Rajani was so shocked to see all this.He never expected such weak person as husband.She wanted a strong person but Pankaj was looking so weak.She was so upset.But still she went near him and started helping him.After all Pankaj was her only hope.Rajani started helping her any way now she loved him so she had to compromised with his problems.She tried hard to smile but she knew that her smile was not natural.It was just artificial thing.Pankaj slowly began to relaxed and went to sleep.Then after some days he got discharged.But once again he started keeping that pump.Rajani was so scared by that experience that she also started insisting on it.Pankaj could see that Ankur was tense due to it.Ankur looked always nervous and scared.Pankaj tried to talk to him.But Ankur said that he was fine.But Pankaj sensed it all.Everything was not fine.Every one in his house was tense due to that incidence.He wanted to act normal.But no one was ready to accept it. Specially Ankur was so nervous.He just kept that looking at Pakanj again and again with scared eyes.Just in few days he started going to his office.But somewhere he felt so scared that he just kept pump in his pocket when he got ready.Each family member asked him about pump just except his younger son who could not talk due to his age.Pankaj was sure when he would grow up.He did same thing after all he was observing it.He hated it but still he kept all those things inside life.He was sick.
         When Pankaj returned to office,he looked at his desk.Every time his desk used to be empty was full of files now.His pending work was waiting for him.He hoped that some one at least help him with some files.But they were not interested.They were just too busy in their chatting on phone.That was what his colleagues were doing when he entered.But when he looked at them with anger.They returned back to work.Pankaj started clearing files.He knew that it would take him days before he could complete it.But still he just continued doing his work with hope that he would do it more earlier.That day he worked so hard that when he reached home.He just fall on bed and went to sleep.Rajani had to wake up him for dinner.He just ate it and then once again fall asleep.Rajani was so upset by this.She could see that Pankaj was working too hard.She thought that it would be just for few days.But even after clearing backlogs still files just kept coming to Pankaj's desk and he continued to work. Pankaj was so tired by his work.He just tried his best to do every thing.Then one day his boss called him.He felt that he would get some credit.But when he entered his Boss looked at him with anger and started counting all mistakes.Finally Boss said"Pankaj you have become just useless thing.""But worked so hard.""You called it hard work.I feel it is useless."Then his boss threw file before him and said"You can go."He said it in just way as if it was some abuse or curse. Pankaj was so upset but again he started working.Then as he began to return back from his work once more he started feeling breathless.It was so horrible.He was on road between unknown people.He tried to relax himself but he just couldn't control.He started using pump.Every one was looking at him with concern.Finally he took a auto and reached home.He didn't dare to drive his car.As soon as he reached home,he went to sleep.Then slowly he told everything to Rajani who was more scared after hearing this.Rajani "I think you did whole check up.You can't survive like this with that pump.We need something to change it.""It is my defect.How can I change my destiny?I am so sorry.I have destroyed your life."Rajani was already over first shock.Now she just had love for her husband.Rajani"Will you stop it?We are okay.Just take care of yourself."She went out of her room and then she started crying. Pankaj was so sick.She had to do something.She called their family Doctor who told her that they would do something.He said that he would guide Pankaj about use of pump and train him about using it. Rajani was relaxed a bit.Then Doctor gave them a list of tests.They decided to do it.So from that day Pankaj began to keep that pump with him like life support.He began to feel that it would make him safe
              Then Pankaj checked and did many tests.They found his problems and cured them.But then one day Doctor called husband and wife.Doctor"Can I ask you one question Pankaj?""Sure.""Just promise me you will answer it honestly.""Of course I will answer you properly.""Are you in some mental stress when you had that attack?"Pankaj thought about it and then he felt that Doctor was right."Yes.I was stressed.But I was not pretending.""No..No.I am not saying that.This time you are not getting them due to allergy but you are getting them due to mental panic or stress.I feel that you should go to psychiatrist who help you to handle it.""But I am not mad.I.."Suddenly Pankaj felt stress and he started to feel problem in his breathing again.Doctor"Take it easy.I was just suggesting.You can do as you wish."But when they went out,Rajani was fully convinced.Rajani started persuading him again and again.She started telling him that if he wanted to become okay.He must do it.Slowly he began to feel that he must do it so that Rajani would stop  irritating him.After all things were getting worst for him.He started feel so uneasy and scared by all this.Finally he went to that Psychiatrist who was quiet friendly with him.Then he chatted with him for some times.He slowly understood his problems in life.He didn't feel that he was visiting a Doctor of mad people.In fact that fellow was quite friendly with him.He felt as if he found some old friend.After some sessions with that Psychiatrist he felt so much relaxed.In fact he learned many ways to relax himself on point of stress.Slowly his asthma attack were so much reduced that once again they became part of their past still for safety sake.He always kept that pump with him.But they are so few that slowly they were no longer scared of them.After this all he even convinced his family to treat them normally like some normal fever etc.and slowly it was achieved.So once again their life became normal which in Pankaj's eyes never was so normal because he was no longer scared of tomorrow.Since he learned to live in today,he began to enjoy every day of today.
                                                               The End 

Poem 1360. Fog of problems

                                                      Fog of problems
How interesting see that fog out of window sometimes it shows us an important part of life
When things are behind that fog we just can't guess them as all in life but when they come
Before us slowly things will turn into something different on many points I just feel one thing
Inside my future and from my mind I feel that I can't win until I guess that thing right but
When that fog comes I just can't able to decide what is ahead of me inside my life on every
Moment and on every thought I just feel one thing from my thoughts and from my mind
That which thing can be seen through fog on each and every time I just never able to guess
What is ahead and what is behind I feel sometimes life is same way on every point but
Problem with life is not we never understand it inside our mind that we can feel one thing
That we need to see things in life but you feel sure that you could watch your past on
Many occasions and on many times you just never able to think that you are not even clear
About your past in life because some part of our past are not even clear inside our thought
And inside our mind we all feel that we remember every thing of some part so they must be
Perfect and right but when we go ahead we just find one thing that we are standing on
Wrong interpretation of life we just thought something about some concepts of our life
And then we assume they are truth of our life when we go ahead on some points in life
We just feel one thing that our life something so perfect on every side that we just don't
Need to live as we wish inside life I have just got one feeling that in my past I have assumed
Somethings inside my life and felt that is true and I felt I have understood my past from
Every side and from every point but still I just feel one thing that I don't understand in life
That did I ever in past done anything so right that I can accept past as it comes before me
Inside my life on every moment I just feel one thought from my mind that my past is something
Which I have decided inside mind and on every moment I just have one feeling from inside
I feel that this past is not anything which I truly know in life past is also one guess work
Which I did on each and every time I just got one feeling from inside of my mind that I want
My past to be perfect and always right for my mind when I start going ahead on each and
Every point I just feel one thought that I have just assumed things in past which become
Then part of my future and my life I just always dream things just as I wish from my mind
And things goes ahead slowly went they become past I began to believe that what I assume
Must be perfect as well as right inside my mind on every moment and on every point I just
Have one thought from my thinking and from my mind I have feeling that these fogs which
I can see on each day of my life are not that much perfect on every moment and on every
Thought and time I just keep thinking inside my mind that in case of past I know it perfect
As well as right inside my life because when I remember those things so properly in life
I just assume that they are so true and so perfectly known part of my life I just never felt
Confused about past because I feel that I know it from each and every side I feel that
What is unknown is just my future and not what is behind but sadly inside life that fog
Which comes before us can also stood behind we just can't watch it because we don't
Have eyes on our back inside our life so what happen inside past is hidden behind and
We just have to look ahead inside our life but sadly when we want to see clearly inside
Our life when that fog needed to go away then it will goes away from both sides and
It will vanish from ahead as well as vanish from behind and on every moment of our life
I just feel one thing from my mind that I want to go ahead inside my life but I just never
Want to upset my thinking as well as my mind because when I went ahead inside my life
I just feel one thing from every point that I want to win inside my life but I just never
Think that I even have to solve mysteries of my past before I went ahead in life because
Life is something so interesting on every point that until you can't solve past you can't
Just go ahead in life so in life we must think that our problems are like fog which will
Live us behind after some time but when that fog is existed we must act carefully in life
Because that fog can hurt us when it is existed inside our present and damage many times.

Poem 1359. Winning in life

                                                     Winning in life
When that day I feel that I have won in life I just feel one thing from my thoughts and from
My mind that on every moment inside my life I just if only that thought would say for some
More hours and some more time every time when I went ahead inside my life I just feel that
Those thoughts are all stuck on wrong point I just never understand what is truly written inside
Our destiny and our life I just have one thinking from my mind that those thoughts which are
Part of life are not that perfect on any point because when I think I win mostly it is not about
My thinking and peace of my mind but it is about winning inside our life when I went ahead
On some points I just have one thought hidden in my life I feel that those who win inside life
Are those people who never understand meaning of winning from our mind I just feel one thing
From every angle of life that we want to win just fame or money or something of that kind but
We just never understand winning means having peace inside life because peace is important
On every point when I went ahead inside my life I just never understand what is true winning
Means peace of our mind every time when just running after those things which look so nice
And beautiful to eyes finally never understand our thinking on many points we just feel one
Thing from our mind that those things which are just luxury to us look special to our life but
From some thought and from some point I just feel one thing from my thinking and from
My mind that on every point we just run after those things which are important in life and
On many occasions and on many points we just feel one thing that we just look at those things
Which look so perfect and nice inside our life we never able to think about those things
As nothing but just luxuries of life when things turning in wrong way and on wrong points
I just feel that if I have those precious things inside our life then things will turn in wrong
Way on every thought and on every point I will just never understand things which look so
Pretty are not just cause of happiness in life when someone show new things I just see that
Person's smile and somewhere in my mind I get just one feeling that this smile is something
Precious and it can be bought with that thing inside my life I know that thought is wrong
Still it stay inside my mind and on every moment that thought manage to upset my thinking
On every point I just never understand that those thoughts which are kept in my mind
Are wrong because when life went ahead inside every point I just feel one thing that those
Goods can bring that happiness in my life but when I see it with patience I feel just one
Thought on every point when that person shows that thing mostly that one tell how did it
Was gifted to that person inside life or how did that one search for it with dear one's in life
So when that gift was shown it was not about just thing which is important to my mind
But this gift is also that thing which is given to people inside their life when someone admire
Some thing mostly that one is more attach to memories of that thing inside life and that's why
Sometimes we even use those old things which can be hardly used normally in life when
I went ahead on every moment and on every point I just feel one thing from my mind that
When life starts to go ahead on every thought of my mind it will not about those gifts but
It is about those memories which are hidden in those gifts I just feel one thing always from
My mind sometimes useless things become with their memories so important part of our
Future as well as our life when I went ahead inside my life on every moment I just feel
One thing that my future is not that much perfect and nice inside life I feel that those things
Which are important in life are not because of their cost but we hardly understand them
On some points inside our life I just feel one thing from my thoughts and from my mind
That those things which look so perfect are not that nice inside life until we get those
Feelings from our mind which tell us what is good and what is right inside our life so
When we think of winning we just think of that thing and decide that it will bring that smile
But if you ask me then I will just say feelings are going to bring some smile and those
Feelings which are precious to my thoughts and my mind but still when we think of winning
We just remember things from our mind only if we just think with little patience then
We can change whole world and our life because our success is something which is hidden
Inside our mind our pleasures can win us many things in life I just feel one thing that
If we even win inside our life then that winning should mean getting happiness by peace of mind.

Poem 1358. My thoughts in life

                                                     My thoughts in life
When I start to tell you everything from my heart I just feel one thing that it always help
A lot because when we say something just half from our heart those things which are unsaid
Still remain inside us and then slowly they began to grow in big sort of problems on every
Thought and on every moment in this world we just feel one thing from our thoughts of this
World that on every moment we have said those half things just because we are scared that
Full truth can harm you and me so inside this world on every thinking I just feel one thought
From my mind as a human being in life that on every moment I just feel one thing about those
Thoughts or about those acts inside life I have just one thought from every point I feel that
My thinking of full honest truth is lot better than half truths which are told in life and on each
And every moment I just feel one point that those truth which are told clearly are so perfect
Inside my life on every moment I just feel one thought from my mind that those things which
Will help me are not that much good and perfect for my life on every moment I just feel
One thought from my mind that I should always speak clear truth in life because when life
Went ahead I just feel one thought from every point that all truths are stuck inside some
Concepts in life there are many truths which are part of my life and still those thoughts kept
Hidden on many point we just never say it because we feel that we will lose many things
Due to it inside life I just feel one thing from my thoughts and my mind that on every point
I just feel one thing from inside that I want to say that truth but my selfish motives mostly
Come in my way inside life but even on those occasion when I lie I just manage to say that
How right was my decision of not telling truth inside life I just kept going from one side to
Other side which will show me that my truth should kept hidden because they will harm me
And my mind because when our true feelings are against someone inside our life we just feel
One thing from our mind that on every occasion and on every point we need to understand
Those thoughts from our life those truths which are hidden on each and every side will just
Become something so perfect for our life after all no one want to say something against someone
And sadly our most of truths are consisted of them in life because innocent and harmless truths
Will come out so easily inside our life when I went ahead on each and every point I just feel
One thing from my mind that every time that truth I said from my mind is not that much perfect
And lovely for our life I just always kept thinking about things from many sides are many
Truths are kept hidden on many points of life I just never understand that truth of my life
Which will harm me only waiting in life to come out on some point I just keep feeling that
I need that truth inside our life on every moment and on every point I just feel one thing
From those thoughts are important in life I feel that my truths are important in our life but
Then I just feel one thing from my mind those truths which are hidden from each and every
Point inside our life I just feel that those truths are so precious from every side not because
They are truth but because they are those basic thoughts which will make us act as we act
Inside our life and those thoughts will tell us that we are standing on which side I just have
One feeling from each and every point those thoughts are important inside life but then on
Every moment I just feel one thing on every point that those thoughts which are precious
Inside our life are those true feeling which help us act in our future and in our life because
After some points when we move ahead in life I feel sure that you all will know my views
So then why should I hide them on first point why should we kept those views hidden in
My life when one day every thing will be known then why should it be kept hidden inside
My mind so from that one point I have decided in life I will not just scream my views but
When some one say something against them I will not at least nod on those points when life
Went ahead on each and every point I just feel that I should keep quiet even if I can't scream
Against them I should just stop on that moment in life or I can scream as I wish because those
Options are inside my future and my life when my life went ahead it will float of boat of hope
On each time it will just keep moving ahead on each and every point inside my life I just have
One thought from inside of my mind that when my life floats ahead why should I stop on
Some points inside my mind I just never understand those things inside my thought and in my
Thinking and my mind because on every moment I just feel one thing that my thoughts are
Something so perfect inside my mind because when I went ahead slowly things will go as
Per my wish but I have one need only it was to remain stuck to same thought as well as
Same thinking inside life on every point because that truth will come out and I will win only
If I remain brave enough to stuck on it and I will never cross limits inside my thought and mind.

Poem 1357. Fights of our right

                                                    Fights of our right
I just always heard one biggest fight that is about one thing what is wrong and right so many
Times I have found even myself got involved in that fight but problem is that inside my mind
I just feel one thing that fight is wrong thing inside our life so then I just feel one thought from
My mind if fights are wrong then why should even for justice we start those fights because
I just feel one thing from my mind that if fights are so wrong then how can they bring out
Any right I just wish from heart we should think properly before we start our life and start
Our fights on every moment and on every point I just feel one thing from my mind that when
I went ahead inside my life I just feel one thing I am doing wrong in my life but problem is
That if I keep quiet people just assume that I have same thought inside my life and when my
Life went ahead from point to point I just feel one thing that I am standing on wrong point
Of my future and of my life when I went ahead inside my life I just feel one thing from every
Thought and from every point that those wrong things are so important inside my life that
I suddenly began to think just one thing from my mind that I want to win my right so I must
Fight but question is that can those fight really manage to give us success on any point I just
Feel one thing that my thoughts are totally wrong inside my life I feel that when I went ahead
With my mind I just feel my thinking will turn on wrong side in my life I just never understand
When those rights of my mind turn into wrong because instead of creating some wonderful
I just engaged myself in one big fight I know in my heart and on every point my thinking will
Just manage to hurt me in my life I just keep thinking one thing in life that I want right thing
But sometimes I forget creative side while start my fights on every moment I just feel one
Thought inside life when I want some right maybe I need to concentrate on good creative
Things inside life I just have one feeling from each and every point that my life is not going
Ahead just by positive sides it just began to go ahead from one fight to another fight in life
I just want to know one side of my life which will be creative on every side I just feel one
Thing inside life I have just one thought from my thinking and my mind when I went ahead
I feel that positive thoughts are more important parts of my life I feel that I must go ahead
On every side but I never dreamed that while fighting for right I began to ignore positive
Thoughts and side we need to understand one thing in our life that those positive thoughts
Will never look perfect inside our life I just keep thinking from every point that those thoughts
Which are creative for me no longer become part of my life just because we are on right side
That doesn't mean that we can act just as we like things will develop only when we began
To think create in our life just fighting will not help anything may it be wrong or right
Because creativity is always basic of our mind when we walk ahead we must understand
Each and every creative thought and creative point I just never understand what we think
About those thinking of our life I just feel that creativity is something precious in our mind
I just have one feeling from inside that those creative thoughts will take us ahead in life
Just hurting each other never help us in life and that is only task of each and every fight
If we can go ahead and cross wide oceans on many points I just feel one thing from
My thinking and from my mind that on every moment inside my life I just have to be
Creative inside my life but many times fights look so perfect and needed in our life because
Then I just feel one thought from my mind that I also wanted creative things inside life
But then when I went to that creative side people just told me that I must fight inside
My future and my life on every point I just feel one thing in my life that those fights are
Something which will began to show us every moment in our life I feel that those fights
Are something so capable inside life but still creativity is that sweet song which touch
My heart and thinking on every time when that innocent thought song of creativity touch
My soul and my mind suddenly all songs turn into some thing wrong inside our life
When I get involved in fight I know we need to fight for right but still I think there must be
Sometime limited to those fights if those fights goes on every day and every time and
Creativity just remain hidden inside then we will see in our fight just empty fights because
Just fighters are not enough they also need creative things to protect inside their world and life. 

Poem 1356. Perfection

                                                             Perfection
When I start something from my life I just feel one thing that it can look better if I done it
More carefully in life I know I did my best on that time I just feel one thing from my mind
That on every day and on every point I need to act carefully when I did my things in life
But I just have one feeling that when I do things in my life I feel as if I never did them proper
And nice on many point I always feel that they are wrong in some way or in some type
I just never feel satisfied with the way which goes ahead my life I just feel that I have never
Done things enough and properly in life I have one feeling that my heart is not satisfied
With all facts of life when I went ahead on each and every point I feel that things are not
Perfect as I expected them inside life I always have one feeling from my mind that things
Are going ahead as I wish from my mind because life is not as easy as I thought every
Moment and every time life is always confused on each and every point I just  never have
Understanding in my life that I am doing things right but still they look so wrong from
Each and every angle of our life I just never stop on any occasion of my life I always
Remain stuck to my thought from my mind that something must be improved inside that
Thing so many times when I make some perfect thing I just feel that in life I need to try
That thing because that thing will just went ahead with my each and every thinking and
Then after some time I feel I am just upsetting my thoughts as well as my thinking when
I went ahead on every moment I just feel that I always manage to find some fault in those
Things which I make in my life on every moment and with every thinking my mind seem
To tell me that I just can't get proper sort of things because on every moment I just kept
One thought or one feeling that inside our life with our thinking we all feel that in some way
We are wrong while making same thing when other make that thing we feel it so perfect
In our thoughts and in our thinking because on every moment inside our thinking we just
Feel one thought that we are not getting perfect sort of things as human being because
When we went ahead in our thoughts and thinking we always manage to find some faults
In making of our things I just have one thought inside as human being I just have one feeling
That when I make something it should be made in perfect way as human being so in life
When I start thinking I just keep one thought inside my mind as human being that I will
Mistake which is kept with just motive so that I can improve my things but it don't happen
In my life as a human being I just kept one thought and one feeling that these things will
Not help me as human being because instead of improving myself after some time I start
One job of searching and I just began to search for those faults which are so small that
I feel they could be ignored when things are done by other human being I just keep one
Thought inside me as human being that on every point I need to have understanding
Which tell that I am making mistake as human being by just looking at my faults and
Ignoring my merits I am destroying myself in life as human being I just have one thinking
In my mind that if things are done by me then there is some mistake inside them in and
In my thoughts as well as in my thinking on every moment I just feel one thing that
When I went ahead on every thinking those things inside me tell me that I am getting
It wrong are totally false on many points and thinking when I made many types of things
I just have in our thoughts one feeling I just kept again and again on thinking that when
We start collecting our faults we just never feel that we are getting in right way each and
Every thing because life is so hard when we want perfect thing but if we decide to adjust
On some small point then we can easily get those things which look perfect for us
But not so perfect as written in books and those things are just hardest things so maybe
Every time we should not just remain stuck to book and hurt our life by ignoring logical
Thoughts and thinking because those thoughts will only manage to take us ahead as a human being
We don't have so much time to waste in making perfect everything because something are
Not needed to achieve that perfection as human being I just never understand then why did
I always manage to hurt myself by reading from books of things because some times book
Tell us too much about some concept and then it try to get too perfection that will hurt human being.

Poem 1355. Creative

                                                          Creative
What is important that is you understand me and I understand you other things slowly vanish
From life just like dew because those points which we keep in our mind are just before we have
That understanding between me and you because in every relationship what most matter is that
Understanding which develop in thinking and views we just judge people inside our life because
We want to know if they can understand our mind that judging is not about what we really like
But we just don't want to complicate our views because there will be fight when two person will
Come together who have totally different views inside our life on every thought and point I just
Feel one thought which is so perfect in every view that when two thinking mix with each other
In our life we just feel that we are keeping wrong views or in this world no one will support or
Understand our view but there is just one logic inside our mind about our views that when we
Experience same scene on every point we just have same thought inside our view when I start
Moving ahead in my life I just feel one thing that my experience will not be same as others which
Create for me my views when crisis arrive we see other as part of our life and thinking of our
Every view so on those moment it never matter where we stand and we have what kind of view
We just keep one feeling inside our heart that we want to run and win on each and every part
But when we start searching for understanding and to explain our views first we always felt
That we should not just express our limited thoughts and our views so we explained to our
Neighbours as well as our friends what is inside our heart and what did we felt but when things
Goes in different way I just feel one thing on every day that it doesn't matter on what place
Your really live what matter is what kind of life you have lived I neither mean money nor poverty
About our thinking and our view I just mean to say that I can have understanding based on
How we will manage to live because some just have their work and they just keep doing it
Other things don't look that much important to them to observed or to see because when they
Went ahead inside their life they just feel one thing from our thinking and from our mind that
When we want to keep clear and proper views I just have one thinking that inside my view
That some just never spend their time in observing people and taking their views they just
Never thought that way inside life about life they just have one view that they just have their
Work and they must do it without much thinking what other feels and what are other people's
Thoughts and views on every moment and on every point we need to understand our thinking
And our view should match with them only when they look at us with same care and same
Thoughts and view some people are so different about their duty just they care and it is not
Wrong because their jobs are so hard that they can't allow their heart to melt so on every
Occasion and on every point they just never look at other in way which many soft hearten
People look in life so they have their views and they have their ways which never look same
To us and our ways we may spend hours after hours with them they just never feel what
Inside we felt so when we have such people around us in life we hardly understand that
What we suppose to think about our life on every thought and on every moment we just
Keep thinking on which way is best because we just feel so alone when people near us
Just don't think the way we does but that is mistake of our thinking and our mind we just
Feel one thing inside our life we feel that we must have to find our friend inside those people
In life who are near us on every time but that will not happen inside our life many times
Our thinking will match with people who are far away from us inside life because that
Thinking which we keep inside our life is not depend on where we stay in our life but
It is about our nature and thoughts of our mind are we really care for people and who are
Those people inside life will only answer that question in our life on every moment when
We walk ahead in life I just feel that we need to find those people who think like us in life
Sometimes they will be around us but sometimes they will be far away from us in life
But then it will not matter because they will think like us inside life I just never understand
Those thoughts of mind which tell me that on every moment I am standing on wrong
Thinking of my life I just never understand when I will see some one near me that don't
Really mean that one is with me inside life that one could be as far away from me as
That horizon and it's line so I feel it will never matter where you stay until you understand
My thoughts and we can create some nice and creative by our thoughts inside our life.