Monster in soul
Arpita was working on that project for hours when she began to feel so stressed out. She just needed some tea. She was preparing snacks & drinks for long time. She kept arranging them all for hours. She knew that her family wanted everything to be ready. Her children would come from school soon. She was doing this project just for her desire so she needed to keep her family happy. She knew otherwise her family would be upset & angry. She did all household chores & now she was planning to work on project. But today she was feeling so upset by all. Her project was not going ahead as she wished. She knew that she needed to appreciate her work but it was not working. She was feeling upset & sad while doing it. She didn’t earn much through this work. She needed to do for hours. At beginning she used to love it but now she began to get irritated. She remembered how did her husband Mandar said “Arpita you are just wasting your time on nonsense things. You need to act in logical way.” Mandar always told her to keep positivity in her mind but now he didn’t want her to work on these projects anymore. She created these projects for long time but she never managed to get capital for them. She always remained stuck in her own circle of issues. She kept thinking that something right would happen in her life after sometime. But it didn’t. Now Mandar started to tell to forget about it. It was so odd. Mandar wanted to her to earn at least a little bit. It was frustrating for her. She was feeling so negative in her mind. She knew that she loved her work & she was not even certain any other thing would help her to move ahead. She was married woman with two children but none of them were truly attached to her. As babies her kids used to love her but as they grew up their world changed. Children didn’t exactly dislike her but she was not important for them. She just supposed to do all household chores for them. They supposed to move ahead in life while she supposed to just remain behind. She knew that she couldn’t even blame anyone for it. She tried so hard but her project didn’t move ahead. She felt so sad. She sometimes began to think about getting some loan but then she remembered Mandar’s face when she asked little bit money for sofa cum bed in hall. Mandar was so upset. He wanted her to save. He was creating two houses for their children. He was planning to keep separate house for them after their marriages. He was arranging all. His children must get everything in best way. She agreed to all. But now sometimes she began to get doubts in her mind. She did it all with good faith that her kids would help her.
Mandar was
in office but his mind kept going back to Arpita. He knew very well that Arpita
was not happy in her life. He knew that he couldn’t able to pay attention to
her. He wanted to create happiness in her life. But it was not happening. His
every suggestion managed to hurt her. Worst thing was their children were not
behaving properly. It was not about her. Their kids began to get detached from
them step by step. He didn’t understand where did all went wrong. But he felt
as father a failure. He was expecting to share his disappointment with Arpita
but life didn’t move that way. Arpita kept blaming all on him. He didn’t
understand why did Arpita took in her mind that he was suggesting their
children that she was someone low. He never did that. He admired her skills. He
knew that he didn’t give her capital to show them before world since he didn’t
have enough savings. Their kids were too demanding. Most of the money needed to
spend on classes & tuitions of their children. Then their kids demanded
money for extra activities like sports dancing or singing… he never discouraged
them but he felt sad when he paid money for skating & they didn’t go even
for ten days. They just went on first day & decided that they didn’t want
it. It was not only one case. It was happening again & again. Sometimes he
felt that he needed to stop wasting money on his children. If he stopped
spending money on their unessential expenses then he could surely manage to
give money to Arpita. He was thinking about it for long time. He was trying to
tell his kids indirectly. He kept telling them that they needed to save money
for their mom’s project but they didn’t seem positive on it. He felt as if he
triggered anger towards her in their mind by saying it. He was trying to help
her but he managed to put her in more trouble. After that incidence kids
started to act in worst way with her. He wanted to handle things but he
couldn’t manage anything in right way. He was feeling so upset. He was losing
all one by one. First, he used to at least feel certain about affection of his
family. His parents always admired him. Even when he didn’t got job
immediately. His father was positive towards him. His father kept telling him
that everything would be fine. Life didn’t go the way he wanted but he never
suffered this way. He knew that Arpita didn’t love or admire him. He was stuck
in worst misfortune. She didn’t talk with him happily. He was feeling so
frustrated. He just wanted to live with Arpita alone. He wanted his life like
old times.
Arpita completed
her project. Then she began to close her laptop on that point doorbell rang.
She went to open it. She saw both kids were waiting to come inside. She wanted
to smile but she couldn’t do it. She disliked them so much. Suddenly they began
to scream on her. She was so shocked. She was not expecting this. They pushed
her away. They ran towards her laptop & they began to throw it. She was
working so hard for long time. They destroyed her entire work before her eyes.
She started screaming & crying. But her kids didn’t stop. They began to
laugh loudly. She was so shocked. She held them as babies. She took such good
care of them. But she never thought one day they would turn out monster like
this. She began to fight back but she was weak. Soon she sensed that her entire
laptop was destroyed. There was not any hope. She began to remember every step
which she took to create that project. She felt so sad. She suddenly sensed her
world was shattered. She began to cry loudly. She started to feel so negative.
She couldn’t stop crying. Kids looked towards her. They started to feel scared
now. They just decided to run away. She kept crying whole time. She decided
that she didn’t want to live with Mandar any more. In her eyes Mandar was
responsible for all. She just went to cupboard. She started to pack her
suitcase but she sensed that she couldn’t go anywhere. She didn’t have any
place. She began to cry loudly. She started to feel so negative. She decided
that she needed to get rid of all this & she ran towards Balcony without
second thought she took on railing. She looked down. She wanted to jump. But
she stopped. She could see her kids laughing & enjoying. They were hoping
that they would dominate her. She was so stressed. She didn’t understand how
could she create those monsters. She didn’t come down. She just kept taking
steps ahead until she didn’t fall. When Arpita fell down on ground, her scream
scared all. Her kids looked towards her with shock. They wanted her to suffer
but her suicide was something they were not expecting. Her kids were so
shocked. But then soon they sensed that it was beneficial for them too. Kids
began to cry & started to tell everyone their mom was unsound. All people
started to gather. Cops came. In every conversation kid kept telling their mom was
unsound. Then Mandar was called. Mandar kept telling all his wife Arpita was
sound but no one seemed to believe him. His kids were more convincing. Then
after watching CCTV, it proved that it was suicide. Kids were questioned. But
they lied. They told all that their mom threw away all things. Inside house
there was not CCTV so Mandar didn’t able to prove anything. It was declared
that Arpita was depressed due to failure in career so she killed herself.
Mandar nodded to all. Mandar was in his sorrow. He didn’t understand what was
happening. He kept crying for days. But after sometime he returned to work. He
began to think about things. He saw that laptop destroyed & he knew one
thing that Arpita would never do that. He began to doubt. He kept observing his
kids. They were laughing & enjoying. They were not sad about their mom’s
death. He sensed something was wrong with them. He wanted to complaint but
there wasn’t any proof so he just decided to observe them. Soon he heard them
talking. He knew that they destroyed that project for money. He cried so much.
He saved so much but he got nothing out of it. He didn’t understand where he
supposed to go. He began to have nightmares. Finally, he decided to visit
psychiatrist on suggestion of his friend. He told all. Psychiatrist listened
& started treatment for his mental stress. Slowly he got over his issue.
Then he called lawyer. He just divided all in three parts. His kids were not major
but he kept it under his name as guardian. He managed to give them full freedom
that way. He was not planning to improve his kids since they were soon going to
enter in adult age. Just one or two years were remaining after death of Arpita
their confidence was increased. Mandar was so scared whole time. His
psychiatrist kept counselling him. Finally, his kids became major. He transferred
their share in their name & he decided to left town. His kids were so
happy. They gave him big party. He laughed & smiled in party. But he was
still scared. Finally, when he went away, he smiled. Entire time he kept
remembering Arpita’s face. He just wished only if he could have managed to
shift like this with her. But he never went to anyone to get help to do counselling
in their marriage. He regretted it so much. But any way he had her sweet
memories in his heart & one mystery in his soul how did his kids become
such monster? Neither he nor his wife even acted in such evil way. But he knew
that he needed to accept fact so he accepted it & started his new life in
new town.
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