Writing letters
Arpita was
typing with full attention. She was about to complete letter when her Boss came
from behind & began to tell angrily “Do it properly? This is for important
client I don’t want mistake.” She nodded. Chetan was harsh & strict Boss.
He was not much admired in office. But then office had staff of just ten
people. It was small office. She needed to accept that their opinion didn’t
count in eyes of Chetan. She began to once again reread letters she wrote. It
started to create impact on all letter. She needed to make them best. She began
to study them step by step. Her every letter was important. Chetan sir was
observing it carefully. She knew that if she made even smallest mistake, it
would cost her big effect. Her job was going to get impacted by her every step.
She needed to do letter writing properly. She was working so hard on every
concept. She knew that it was just simple letter. But she managed to work on it
like some big project. She was studying so hard on it. She didn’t sense that
she was doing too much. She was putting extra efforts. She just felt that she
needed to do it. She told herself that it was needed. When that letter was
finally over, she took breath of relief, she immediately entered in Chetan’s
cabin. Arpita “Sir my letter!” Chetan looked towards her with great
disapproval. She didn’t understand what was her mistake but she decided to not
ask about it. She just smiled nervously. Chetan “What is so important in that
letter? Why did you come to disturb me about it?” She looked towards Chetan
with shock. “Sir you told me that it’s for important client.” “But I didn’t
tell you to come in my cabin like this! You just entered without cause. I don’t
approve such behavior.” Arpita felt so nervous. She began to feel that he was
telling her that she entered in Cabin just to impress him. Arpita immediately
said “Sorry Sir. I heard you wrong. I thought you order me to bring that letter
immediately. I thought client is coming now.” “Oh! I accept your apology. After
all you are just secretary with limited information. You will not understand
what was actually happening around.” She nodded. She knew that Chetan was
smarter than her & rich too. Chetan was someone with big influence. But she
never liked him. He was rich but never kind heart. He never showed any
affection towards any employee. His attitude was so wrong. But she was not
planning to say it. She just gave nervous smile & said “I am sorry Sir.”
Then Chetan pointed towards letter & told her “Keep it in your files. Keep
it safe.” She nodded. She felt as if she wasted her time. She worked so hard to
make that letter impressive. Now she needed to keep it carefully in her file.
It was rather scary thought. She did it so carefully now she needed to protect
it. She needed to keep it safe under her desk. Office gave her one table with
desk. She needed to store documents in it. She needed to take proper care of
them. She was working so hard to manage all in every folder. She wanted more
space but she couldn’t get it. She was always stuck in that limited space. She
knew that she needed to handle all carefully. She wanted to store those
documents. She felt that letter might get damaged. She started to pack it carefully.
It was important for her. She needed to store it with care.
Chetan was watching it. He was so happy.
He wanted Arpita to feel scared. It was important in his eyes. Arpita was
getting too friendly with him. He didn’t like it. She smiled towards him when
she said good morning. He didn’t like it. She was not supposed to smile towards him.
She supposed to look down. She must not look in his eyes. She needed to
understand that she was low level person. She was not someone who could match
him in any way. Chetan slowly looked towards her. Arpita was clearly looking
scared. He wanted her to feel that way. He knew that she needed to feel scared.
He saw how did she kept all documents carefully. She was arranging them again
& again. She wanted them to be created in positive style. She had feeling
of full confidence in her soul but now he was shattering it step by step. He could
see it. She was so scared. He smiled to himself. Arpita came out of office
& smiled to herself. Once again, she was positive. She needed to keep it in
her mind. She went home. Her father was sitting in hall & with him Dilip
was sitting. Dilip’s sweet smile always had unique impact on her. He never
directly proposed her but still she could see that love in his eyes. She smiled
sweetly towards him. She felt so nervous by entire incidence. She needed to
feel positive & Dilip would surely help her in it. She began to feel so good.
She sat beside Dilip & she began to talk with him. She started to chat with
Dilip. She was so happy in her heart. She kept feeling positive regarding all. Slowly
she began to forget negative thoughts which Chetan set in her mind. She was
once again in positive mood. But she didn’t tell her troubles to Dilip. It was
better to hide them. She wanted to keep them in her mind. She began to talk
about other positive things. Dilip also kept chatting on them. Everything was
so positive. Her Dad was watching them. Her Dad didn’t speak much but she could
notice smile on his lips. Her Dad clearly approved their conversation. It was
clear. But she still felt so nervous. She didn’t want to feel scared but entire
incidence in office kept coming back to her mind. She knew that she supposed to
forget it. But she was so scared that someone might steal letter. It was not so
important letter. Still, she began to feel so scared. She didn’t understand
what was happening to her. She was certain about one thing that she had handled
many things like bringing jewelry or some cash for Boss but she never felt so
scared. Chetan was not her Boss on that time. She used to work in one jewel
store as part time employee. But she never felt so scared. It was odd that she
was just writing simple letter still she felt scared. She told herself that
letter would be safe in her desk. She knew that it would be safe. She looked
towards Dilip. She suddenly began to feel confused about all. She wanted to
feel positive but negative thoughts started to change her world. It was giving
different impact on her mind. She kept telling herself that she needed to talk
happily with Dilip. She loved him. But she kept thinking about just that
letter. She began to feel so nervous. Suddenly her Boss Chetan became more
important than Dilip. She began to feel so guilty. She just stood & said “I
need to change. I am feeling little bit uneasy.” Dilip looked shocked by this
sudden change but he nodded & went away. She felt so sad. Her dad asked her
“What happened? If you don’t feel okay just take rest! Or do you want to visit
Doctor?” She was confused. She didn’t understand what she supposed to do. She
went in room to take rest.
Arpita tried to sleep but she couldn’t
she was feeling so stressed by all. She was hoping for pleasant sleep but she
was not getting it. She kept feeling uneasy until now this never happened with
her. She used to sleep peacefully every night. She didn’t understand what did
she supposed to do. Chetan didn’t cause any exact harm to her so it was wrong
to leave that job. She couldn’t find any reason for it. She needed to remain
hopeful & positive in her mind. But her negativity kept increasing again
& again. She wanted to feel hopeful in her thoughts. She didn’t understand
why she was getting so excited by small comment of that person. It was not so
important. Chetan was her boss but not some lord who could decide where her
life should go. She kept telling herself that she needed to ignore him. She
wanted to feel positive in her thoughts. She started to think about happy
moments of her life. Slowly she began to think positively about all. She needed
hopes & she decided that she would surely create them in her mind. She
began to think this way. Slowly her negativity started to vanish & she fell
asleep. Next morning she woke up with hopes & confidence again. It was so
nice for her. She began to think whatever negative she was feeling yesterday
was gone. She was totally positive. She selected one proper dress. She stood
before mirror. She slowly got ready. She was certain that she was going to get
appreciated for her hard work in office. When she came for breakfast, her
parents encouraged her. She felt so hopeful. She knew that everything was going
to be fine. But then somewhere in her heart she was tense too her father had
heart issues & he was getting older day by day. Now her job was essential
it was no longer luxury like old times. She smiled & said “Don’t worry. I
am feeling totally okay today.” Her father nodded. Her mom smiled too. She went
to office with full confidence that she would make her Boss proud with her hard
work. She did that letter perfectly. She was sure about it. She began to remove
that letter. Once again, she observed that letter carefully. She read it’s
every word with full attention. She smiled happily after reading them. They
were just perfect. She was so sure that she did it right. On that point Chetan
called her in Cabin. He gave her angry look & asked “So are you ready for
this letter…” Its subject matter was totally different she started to get
confused. She began to think that she was not ready. She slowly said “I have
never typed this sort of letter.” Chetan looked towards her with anger. Chetan
“I have appointed you as secretary with hope you will write all type of
letters. But she doesn’t seem to have that skill.” She felt so nervous. Her
head began to get light. She never faced such situation but today she was
feeling so uneasy. She told herself to calm down. She started to create hope in
mind. She began to think that she was most uncapable person. She began to feel
so negative. She started to type letters. She began to understand their words.
She knew that they had different styles. She decided that she would try every
style. She typed letter of every style. Then she collected them all. She slowly
began to show them to Chetan. Chetan looked to angry. He threw those letters
down from table & screamed “Stop this. I have important documents here. I
don’t need your stupid letters.” She felt so scared. She just wanted to make
all right. But it seemed to turn wrong already. She was certain that it was
going in right way. She didn’t want it to go on wrong path. She felt so scared.
She didn’t understand where did her life taking her. She felt so sad. She once
again returned to her table. Chetan was still looking angrily towards her from
his Cabin window. She managed to irritate him so much. He wanted her to feel
destroyed.
Arpita came home that day in totally
different state. She was shivering with fear. She vomited. When they took her
to Doctor, Doctor suggested just acidity. Then slowly Doctor advised mental
help. Arpita decided to go for it. She was feeling so nervous & scared.
They took appointment of Psychiatrist after two days. During that time Arpita
decided to take leave in office. But as soon as she tried. Chetan called her.
Chetan started threatening her. She began to feel so scared. She started to
feel she needed to go to jail if she didn’t go to job. She shivered with fear.
She decided to go to office. Whole time Chetan kept targeting her. She tried
her best to ignore him. She tried so hard to concentrate on her work. She tried
hard to feel positive about everything. But nothing worked. She began to feel
so uneasy & before entire office she vomited. It was worst moment of her
life. She never felt so ashamed. Chetan abused her further & fired her
immediately. She really didn’t mind. She just ran out of office. She called her
mom & told everything. Her Mom immediately decided to take her to family Doctor.
Arpita was crying so much. It seemed as if her entire world was shattered. She couldn’t
able to face any one any more. Doctor tried hard to convince her. Finally, Doctor
asked about appointment of psychiatrist. She felt so stressed. She said that it
was on next day. Then Doctor said “Psychiatrist will handle all.” Arpita felt
so nervous. She knew that she needed some immediate medicine. But she got none.
She kept feeling that she might vomit again but she didn’t then finally she
went to Psychiatrist. Psychiatrist started her treatment & gave her
suitable medicines. At beginning she was nervous but step by step she began to
feel confident. She started to live life normally. Due to Chetan, it was
difficult for her to get job. But her parents managed to handle all. She was
most important for them. Her father just insisted one thing that was going out
with Dilip or chatting with him. But Arpita was too scared. Still Dilip kept
coming & Arpita’s parents felt certain that one day he would manage to
solve everything.
The End
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