Waiting for her mom
Tara began to
paint different canvases. She was painting different designs which were
creating pleasant appeal on her mind. She was sure that soon she would start
selling them. But then suddenly she looked around. In her small house she was
adding too much canvases. It was getting so congested but she knew that no one
would complaint against her. They all were observing canvas carefully. She
began to get involved in those scenes. She knew that they were not real but
still she started to feel as if she could enter in canvas. It was such pleasant
thought. She turned around & called her mom. She began to wait for her mom.
But her mom didn’t come instead of her grandpa came. Her grandpa gave her angry
look & said “Stop screaming. You want to paint then keep painting.” She
felt so confused. “I want to show it to mom.” Grandpa looked so angry. “How
many times I need to tell you that your mom is not here so don’t talk about
her?” She didn’t understand. She was so confused. Her mom used to take so much
interest in her but now suddenly her mom was not coming out to even see her
canvas. She looked towards door doubtfully. It was really odd. She was working
hard every day. She was painting on mom’s guidance her mom supposed to
appreciate. Tara didn’t understand why did her mom was not coming & her
grandfather kept screaming on her this way. She didn’t like it at all. She
began to feel so upset. She decided that she needed to search for her mom. She
slowly began to move from one room to another in search of her mom. She was
feeling so frustrated. She didn’t find her mom in any room. Their house was not
so big. It was easy to search those three rooms. She could easily find a person
in those rooms but her mom was not in those rooms. She kept searching. She
didn’t scream this time. She knew that it would upset her grandfather. Soon she
sensed her mom was nowhere. She felt so confused. She decided that she needed
to feel positive. But she was feeling nervous only. She didn’t understand where
her mom was? She needed to find her. She wanted to find some way with which she
could find her mom. But she couldn’t. She was feeling so nervous. She was
pretty sure her mom must be around. Then she suddenly began to remember. Her
mom had died. She knew that her mom died due to illness. Her mom was ill for
some time. She didn’t understand that how could she forget it. This was so
stressful. She needed to think about all in positive way but her thoughts were
not on right track. She didn’t understand why she was searching for her mom.
She knew that now she needed to go to grandfather & began to apologize. She
didn’t want her grandfather to share this with anyone. Her father wouldn’t like
it. Her brother was also going to say many things about her. She felt so upset.
She needed to think about all in positive way. She thought about her behaviour.
She was acting like mad person. She didn’t have any doubt about it. She was
calling her dead mom. Her mom didn’t die suddenly her mom was sick for months.
They knew that she was going to die. They even kept nurse for her mom. She
couldn’t forget it all. Her mom was bedridden for some time. She couldn’t
forget those months. She didn’t understand how could she search for someone who
was not walking for long time. She told herself to relax.
Grandfather was so upset by all. He
was not expecting this. Tara was screaming such loudly. Tara was losing her
normal sense day by day. Grandfather tried to explain it to remaining family
but it didn’t help much. They just began to scream on Tara. Grandfather was
scared that if he complaint again. They might punish her. They could stop her
money or tell her to just keep staying in her own room. It would make her
worst. She needed to go out more. Grandfather tried to suggest them but no one
was ready. Neither Tara’s dad nor Tara’s brother cared for her. They were busy
with their life. It was clear that both were planning to live their life with
their life partners. Since Tara’s mom got sick, her dad began to take interest
in one widow from office. That widow was nice friend of Tara’s mom so her dad
never showed intentions while Tara’s mom was alive. But her grandfather knew
them very well. It was clear to him that from beginning Tara’s father was
using his wife’s sickness to get attention of his wife’s friend. Tara was
young. But Tara never liked that woman much. Tara even sensed that something
was wrong. Once grandfather said to Tara’s mom “I feel my son & your
husband is getting too friendly with your friend. She is widow so clearly there
is no one to stop him.” “Come on! I don’t have much days left so what is use to
stopping him. Let him plan his future.” “& what about your daughter’s
future?” Tara’s mom looked tense. It was clear that it never crossed her mind
that Tara might suffer. “I don’t understand. They just needed to find one nice
husband for Tara. They will surely do that! Her brother is also there. Tara
will be safe. They will take good care of her.” Her grandfather didn’t believe
in it but Tara’s mom was so sick. It was useless to argue with her. Grandfather
knew that Tara’s mom couldn’t do anything. Grandfather just looked away &
then he just left room. After that Tara’s mom tried to tell her father to
arrange some thing for Tara. If possible, Tara’s mom wanted Tara to get married
but Tara’s Dad done nothing. He was not planning to spend his time on his
daughter. He wanted to enjoy his life. Grandfather was observing all. Even
today Grandfather was observing situation of Tara. No one cared for Tara. It
was so frustrating. Tara slowly knocked & entered in room. She sat beside
Grandfather. Grandfather sensed that she came to convince him not discuss
anything about her with others. Grandfather was planning to agree. Since he
knew that it was useless. They didn’t care for her. Grandfather gave her one
irritating look. Her grandfather didn’t understand why did Tara kept acting so
submissively. Tara needed to fight but she was not. Tara began to talk
“Sometimes I feel as if mom is there. I know it’s wrong but it’s not so wrong.
Is it? You don’t need to tell it to anyone.” “Right? It’s normal to search for
dead person!! I am old man but I have not lost my marbles. When person started
to search for dead person or talk to dead person something is wrong with that
person’s brain. I know that much & I am sure about it. But your family
don’t care & I am not planning to spend my energy in this old age on you so
you can relax. You can keep searching for dead people.” Her grandfather said
this & left room. It was taunt but she was happy since she just wanted him
to keep quiet & he was planning to do that. She went back in her room
happily.
Nisha was Tara’s mom's friend so she acted
nicely with her family but after her death she didn’t like the way Tara’s father kept coming to visit her. Nisha wanted to stop it. Nisha never planned to keep
any relation with Tara’s father but she began to feel as if Tara’s father was
planning some romantic commitment from her. It was sort of shocking for her.
She was so frustrated. She began to avoid his call. But today he once again
insisted that she must meet him. She told him that it was going to be last
time. He agreed. So, she was sitting on one table of restaurant. Nisha was so
frustrated. Nisha began to feel that now he needed to concentrate on Tara. But
he was searching for new wife. Nisha never understood his attitude. Sometimes
Nisha felt that she also got carried away. She wanted someone with whom she
could share her memories. She got no one. She didn’t even had children so she
began to share her memories. She began to chat for hours with Tara’s father but she never planned to disrespect soul of her late husband. She always loved
him. She was still honest to her late husband. It was so sad. She wanted him to
understand. She decided that today she would make it clear to him. He came
towards her table & immediately started talking “I know Sara was special to
you. But now she is dead. We need to move on…” “It’s not about Sara. I never
loved you & that was truth.” She felt so shocked when he began to say “Come
on. All know we love each other.” “Who told you that?” Now it was his time to
feel shocked. He assumed that it was true. He felt that she loved him. “I don’t
get it. You never loved me?!” “No; never!” “So, I imagined all.” “Well. I was
thinking about my late husband always.” She once again began to smile that same
way. He sensed that it was not about him. He smiled even when he wanted to cry.
He knew that he didn’t want her as his wife now. She was thinking about some
one else. He regretted losing his wife so much on that moment. He always felt
that he would have Nisha as his wife immediately. Now he needed wife. He couldn’t
imagine life without companion. He needed someone. Nisha slowly continued “You
need to understand. Now you need to pay attention to Tara. Try to find husband
for her…” He suddenly began to understand. No one was interested in him since he
had children. He had daughter. Nisha kept talking with hope that he would sense
his responsibility. Nisha “Now you needed to pay attention to Tara. She is not
acting normal. She kept searching for her mom. She needed to go out & get
some help.” He understood all. It was Tara’s madness that cause this issue.
Nisha was not interested in him since Tara was his daughter. Tara needed to be
taken to Psychiatrist. He immediately nodded. He knew that he couldn’t win
Nisha but he could find another woman. He just needed to handle Tara first. He
immediately agreed. “You are right but do you have mobile number of Psychiatrist?” Nisha nodded. Nisha was so happy. She wanted
to give it for long time. “Now Tara’s mom is no longer alive. I will come with
her. Of course, if you don’t mind.” He nodded immediately. He got new idea. Now
he needed to use Tara for keeping Nisha with him. His sick wife was dead but
his mentally disturbed daughter was alive. He could use her. “It will be so
kind of you if you help.” Nisha felt so happy at this suggestion. Tara’s dad invited
Nisha in house & Nisha immediately agreed. Nisha wanted to help. When Nisha
came, Tara’s Grandfather was so upset. But when they started discussing taking
Tara out, Grandfather felt happy. Grandfather was happy even when they
suggested Psychiatrist. The way Tara was searching for her dead mom regularly.
He felt that she was better in mental institute than at home. He was scared
that she might harm herself one day in these moments. Then after sometime Tara
joined them. Tara was scared at beginning but soon she sensed that before Nisha
her dad was acting sweetly with her. She agreed to their every suggestion. They
visited to Psychiatrist. Psychiatrist talked with her. Soon she sensed that
Nisha was her best help. She felt calling Nisha home. Due to Nisha her father
began to shower her with love & gifts. Soon her life became better. Step by
step Nisha even got convinced to marry to Tara’s dad but Tara was always special
for Nisha. So, Nisha insisted giving her best. Tara’s brother was so upset. But
Tara’s dad didn’t care. Finally, Tara planned to make career in banking. Tara
decided to keep canvasing as hobby. After sometime she found suitable boy &
she got married. Tara’s dad was so happy on that day. He was tired of pretending
love towards his daughter. Finally, Tara went to her husband's house. Her dad
smiled happily & began to live his life with his second wife Nisha. Now
Nisha was no longer concerned about Tara & most importantly Nisha felt that
she did right by doing second marriage. She was happy with her decision. Her
sacrifice of those memories which had of her first husband Tara deserved love
& attention.
The End
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