Her own smile
Charu was arranging dresses of shop carefully. She was so excited to get chance to sell her dresses. She worked hard to select dresses for her shop. She went around in all wholesale shops & waited for hours until they didn’t got all their new designs. Some stores took some time to show their design but she waited with patience. She worked so hard to set up her shop. Her clothes boutique was special to her. She kept all clothes which she loved or wanted to wear. It was as if she was creating her wardrobe. It was really wonderful thought. She felt so happy at that thought. She began to imagine her life with wonderful dreams. She wanted unique life. She started to imagine different styles of dresses which were so artistic. She kept creating pleasant looks with each dress that unique look began to improve boutique. She began to admire every corner of her shop. It had her dream hidden inside. She could see pleasant look in every dress. She kept watching them. She was admiring those dresses so much. It was nice to have that beautiful boutique for herself. She was dreaming it for so many years. But she was so scared that there wouldn’t be any chance for her but finally she managed to get loan. Her husband Ramesh arranged it for her. She was so happy. He told her that she didn’t need to worry about repayment. She was on top of the world. She married to Ramesh for five years. He was never nice towards her. He always taunted her. She tried to please him but nothing was enough for him. Her cooking wasn’t impressive. Whenever she tried to talk he immediately started to joke on her intelligence. She felt so nervous before people. She didn’t want to remember those times when she talked & every guest laughed on her. She was stupid in their eyes. She didn’t understand why she didn’t have enough intelligence to impress people. She kept trying. Her in-laws were calling her burden from beginning. Her in-laws were expecting some gifts from her family. Her parents gave few things but they were not enough. After giving few gifts her parents stopped. One day her father called her & told her to visit him. On that visit her parents sat in their house with her & her brother. Her father told her peacefully “ We decided to married off you to Ramesh.” She gave confused look. She didn’t where was this conversation going. Her Mom “ I mean you dated Ramesh due to our mistake.” She was so upset. She was happy with Ramesh now. She loved her husband. She didn’t choose him just for her parents. She dated him since she loved it. It was upsetting for her when her parents began to describe it as mistake. “ What is this nonsense? I love him.” Her brother gave shocked look. Her brother asked “ You love him?” “ With all my heart?” Her brother laughed. “ Then this settled it. Actually our parents couldn’t give more gift to your husband.” Her parents nodded. She was so angry. She said “ I don’t need them to survive my marriage. We love each other.” “ Fine. No problem. But no more gifts.” “ Okay!” She said loudly & left house. After that she didn’t visited her parent’s house much. They met only on functions. But she still remembered how angry Ramesh was when she told him what her parents told. He screamed “ They want me to just carry your burden & not ready to pay for it. You are just burden. Now you need to at least earn some money.” She felt so nervous. She didn’t want to try anything. She was totally sure that she was stupid so she wouldn’t be successful on any point. He kept screaming on her. He kept taunting her. She didn’t understand but then she felt that he was hurt since her parents considered him greedy. She kept apologising. After that she began to try her best to avoid doing anything against Ramesh & his family. She did whatever work they told her to do. She obeyed them in every way. She didn’t able to please them. But still she tried her best. She knew that Ramesh loved her. He was upset just due to financial stress. She kept trying her best. She was trying so hard but according to all she was useless thing in house. She wasn’t earning & according to them maids were actually doing all work. Soon Ramesh suggested that she should start cooking snacks for his meeting. She immediately agreed so Ramesh started inviting around 20 people sometimes after two weeks or once month. She didn’t feel it was too much burden. Then his sister who was doing job started dropping her son to babysit. Her mother-in-law used to come on that time. They said that Ramesh’s house was near school. So it was convenient. That little boy was nice child. She enjoyed his company so she never objected taking care of her boy. She was so happy in doing all. She knew sometimes she felt exhausted. But she was so happy when that boy started to treat her affection which was just like affection towards mother. That boy was so affectionate. She gave so many hours in taking care of house Ramesh always encouraged it. She stated to feel hopeful when she played with child. She was so tense. She needed child. She began her treatment just few time ago. She found out that she had issues but it could be handled. She told it to Ramesh. He nodded. Clearly he wasn’t interested in her. For long time she was hoping to become pregnant. This time she was so hopeful. She was smiling towards dresses while arranging. Suddenly she sensed what was happening. Ramesh was giving her all since he was hoping to become father. She kept arranging when she sensed that it was night she decided to sleep in that boutique only. It was so late. She called Ramesh & told him about her hopes of child. She thought that was why she got his support. She smiled happily. But Ramesh said “ It’s okay you can stay in boutique. But regarding that child? Frankly I am not interested. Don’t you sense it? I am not taking much interest in you.” She did sense it but she felt that was due to not having child. “ But now I can give birth to child.” He said “ But I don’t want child from you. My Mom will pack your things send them in boutique. Don’t come back. Bye.” Then he disconnected her call. It was end of conversation. It was over. She wanted to argue but she knew that it wasn’t possible. She needed her items. She immediately called him back & said “ I will come & take away my things.” Ramesh talked sweetly with her after long time “ It’s great idea. Honestly you were nice wife but we are not suitable for each other.” She said slowly “ I understand. I will come tomorrow.” “ No problem. Just give your keys to neighbours.” Indirectly he didn’t want her to keep key of their house. It was just his house now. She said automatically “ Of course.” & he disconnected call.
Charu was observing her boutique. It was only gift from her husband Ramesh. She never felt so upset. She knew that she needed to thank him for it. She didn’t give him anything. She was just burden. She didn’t done house chores or she didn’t give any baby which would have considered important as heir. She didn’t know if it had helped but she hoped that baby would. She was thinking that baby would give her place in that house. She began to look towards herself. She was hoping to get pregnant. Then she thought. She didn’t confirm that she wasn’t pregnant. If she was pregnant he wouldn’t divorce her. She smiled with hope. She immediately took appointment of doctor. She wanted to tell herself that she could still remain wife of Ramesh. She called him again & asked “ If I am pregnant then you will come back don’t you?” Ramesh didn’t answer for sometime then he declared “ No..no I hate you. I don’t want you. Just come & take your things out of this house. I don’t want any child from you. If you had given birth to child I might have just decided to keep child but I never going to keep you. You are most disgusting & embarrassing person In life. I don’t have you back.” She felt so sad. She didn’t want to stop talking but he disconnected her call. She knew that if she called him again, she wouldn’t able to go inside house next day. She was so sad & confused. She looked around. Suddenly she started to feel so happy. She was in her dream store. She started to dance after wearing one dress. She got another idea. She began to record it. She slowly lost sense of time & began to dance on each step with full concentration. She was so happy. She began to take different dance steps. Every dance step was so meaningful & pleasant. She started to form different concepts on each dance. On every dance her dream was becoming pleasant. Slowly she became so exhausted. She came to her senses when her door knocked. She went to open. There was food parcel. She ordered but she totally forgot. She smiled nervously & immediately paid. That delivery man looked towards shop & asked “ Are you new owner?” She nodded. Delivery man gave sad look & said “ This shop didn’t got success last time.” “ Why? What happened?” “ That woman was trying so hard but she didn’t manage much. Her husband used to come & beat her.” She felt so nervous. She asked “ Where is she now?” Delivery man looked frustrated “ How did I know? Madam I am just delivery man I use to just deliver Pizza.” She nodded. She felt so nervous once again she did mistake. She never learnt to act properly. Then that delivery man left. She took parcel. She began to eat. Once again she began to think. She started to think how could she had managed to stay in Ramesh’s house. It was important to her. She didn’t believe what happened. She just needed a reason. She began to cry. She kept crying. In morning she woke up, she was sleeping on floor. She suddenly sensed her mobile was ringing. She looked towards mobile. It was Ramesh calling. She immediately took it. “ When you going to come & take back your things?” “ You could have kept me if I have something which can take hold of you.” Ramesh didn’t say anything. Her call was disconnected. She sat peacefully. She started to get freshen up. She got ready after breakfast. She looked in boutique. She just wanted to start it. She called Ramesh but he didn’t took it. She decided to call his Mom. His Mom took call. She immediately started talking “ I don’t want to go back. It will odd. If you can tell me time when..” “ I will pack your luggage I will shift cupboard directly. I send all to boutique.” She said “ Thanks.” “ You were nice daughter-in-law but you were not skilled. I saw how hard you tried & I respect it too. But still it wasn’t enough. I hope you will understand.” “ I can’t able to get pregnant.” Her mother-in-law didn’t say anything then added slowly “ It might be one cause but I don’t feel it could have saved marriage. You could have dragged marriage but it wasn’t enough.” Charu didn’t say anything. Charu disconnected call. She looked inside her boutique. She arranged all. She waited for customers. But they didn’t come. She kept feeling nervous. She didn’t have much option. She tried so hard to relax. But she started to feel that she was going to fail in her business too. She didn’t see much hope for her future. She felt feeling upset didn’t help her. She suddenly got ready. She decided to find some disco. She never visited one. So she decided to skip that idea. Then she decided to go to some bar. She thought that she would have some fun there. She began to get ready. Then she started searching. She soon sensed that it wasn’t easy. She needed to feel happy in her heart. She was feeling more tense. She began to get hopeful when she decided that she would just go in restaurant. She got dressed & went there. She closed door of boutique. She was went out happily. She started searching for restaurants. Finally she found one. She looked around. There wasn’t suitable man with whom she could chat. She sat there waiter asked for order. She just began to chat with waiter. She began to get friendly with waiter. After all she needed friend. She didn’t sense that in few minutes in that restaurant she managed to make so many friends who she didn’t manage to make in her entire life. She was so happy. She began to feel that finally she was entering in her new unique world. She began to dream about it. She kept chatting & enjoying. She was no longer concerned about her divorce. She just forgot all. She started to pretend that she didn’t have anyone in life. It was just her boutique & even it wasn’t doing much business wise. They all appeared such nice people she enjoyed her life.
Ramesh’s Mom was shocked when mover & packers told her that boutique was locked. Now this was frustrating. Ramesh’s Mom said “ What? Didn’t she picking up your call?” “ Madam you didn’t give her number.” Then Ramesh’s Mom remembered Charu’s mobile wasn’t working. This time Ramesh didn’t fill balance. She said “ I will come with keys.” Ramesh’s Mom was so frustrated. She was so stressed. She immediately called Ramesh. Ramesh “ This woman keep doing drama.” Ramesh was so angry. He began to left office. On that point mover & packer called once again Ramesh’s Mom & told Charu was there. Mom told Ramesh again. It was sort of upsetting. Ramesh decided to ignore. Charu was so nervous when she came back. She totally forgot about this delivery. She opened door. She suddenly looked beside her. She brought one man called Satish with her for coffee. She didn’t understand what was she doing. It was too early to keep so much faith on him. But Satish smiled & said “ So you told me to come here for helping with this.” She nodded nervously. Satish “ Don’t worry. I will help you.” Then he helped delivery people. Satish was nice person. He helped her in handling things. But she suddenly began to feel scared of him. They managed to arrange all. On that point Ramesh came. He looked towards Satish & asked “ Who are you?” “ I came to help her.” “ So you have male friends too.” “ I didn’t actually I just called.” On that point Satish interfered “ What are you talking? This lady was alone so I came to help ask his mover & packer people. I just helped this needy woman whose husband didn’t seem to care for her.” All people from mover & packer already nodded in support of Satish. One man said “ We were waiting for so much time. No one came. Finally this fellow came with this lady to help us to unpack. We need some assistance too.” Ramesh gave angry look & said “ My Mom paid you for it.” Satish “ Come on! Accept your mistake.” “ We are getting divorced.” “ Ohh so you are creating this issue to get some allegations in divorce. Like you want to show as if I had affair with her.” Charu started to cry slowly. People of mover & packer also started giving angry look. Ramesh “ This is enough. I will go now. I made remaining payment.” Ramesh went away. Charu started crying uncontrollably. She never felt so nervous. All people around her were watching her. Then Satish said “ Can I call someone?” “ I don’t have anyone. My family broke all relationships with me.” “ Why?” “ He was asking for gifts so they wanted me to divorce him. I was in love with him. At beginning they supported then suddenly they wanted me to throw him out of life. I married to him. I love…” then she started crying again. Satish said “ I call my wife.” Packer mover’s people nodded too. Satish was nervous. He knew that his wife didn’t like it. Then he suddenly got another idea. “ I got another idea. This one is better I call my doctor.” All nodded. Charu didn’t understand what was happening. She nodded. Then Satish called his Doctor & explained all. Immediately his Doctor gave another number. Satish took it. Then Satish told Charu “ Doctor said you need psychiatrist.” Other man immediately said “ Of course if a woman get such a horrible husband she would surely have mental issues. It’s her luck that she survived so long.” Charu suddenly began to feel new energy. She suddenly wanted to arrange boutique. She stood up & said “ Let’s begin our work.” Soon she began to arrange all properly. She began to keep all on proper places. She looked around in room. Charu looked inside that flat. It was beautiful. She began to feel so positive. It had her boutique & house. She managed to arrange. Then she looked towards Satish. She remembered how did she met him in restaurant. She told about boutique. He told her that he would bring customers. She was so happy that she remembered every part. But then she sensed that she forgotten it for sometime. It was odd. She didn’t remember Satish so much. She was so tense. Then Satish came near her. She shivered in fear. He gave her one number. He said “ This is Doctor’s number you must visit him.” “ Why?” “ Since you keep feeling stressed & you also kept forgetting don’t you?” She nodded. One visit to psychiatrist didn’t do much harm.” She once again nodded. But then she remembered that she didn’t have balance in mobile for recharging. Ramesh already managed to close her debit card so she didn’t have card. She had card. But she couldn’t recharge with it. She told Satish & Satish immediately did it. She thanked Satish then all other mover packer people also went away after she gave them nice tip for such hard work. Then she sat & peacefully called Psychiatrist. She discussed about appointment. She got one for next morning. She tried her best to control her negativity for that night. She worked so hard to keep herself calm. It was problematic for her. She took breath of relief when finally next morning came & she managed to go to psychiatrist. She was so scared but she wanted to go there. Finally she entered in room of Psychiatrist. She told everything. Psychiatrist explained her how did her broken marriage impacted on her mind. She understood step by step what she supposed to do to calm herself. Finally she decided that she wanted to feel positive. She decided to follow all procedures of Psychiatrist. At beginning she didn’t got customers. But she kept running store to just keep herself engaged. Slowly step by step her store began to get customer. It wasn’t much income but still she started to enjoy her life. When Ramesh called her in Court, she went there with pleasant smile. She easily declared that their marriage was mistake they were not compatible on any point. So their divorce procedures went ahead without any negativity. She sensed sometimes Ramesh kept giving her angry look but she didn’t permitted herself to intimidated by him. Finally they got divorced. Charu kept running her store. She even managed to make some friends from restaurant. Her life was pleasant & nice. She wasn’t married but she was enjoying her divorced life. She felt that it was relief to live by herself. She didn’t kept much contact with her parents or brother too. She preferred privacy & they respected that thought. She was happy with her life. She learnt to live for herself & value her own smile.
The End
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