Vrinda's nightmare
Vrinda was working so hard for long hours. Her life was so complicated since birth of her child. She wanted to keep working. But she didn’t have anyone to take care of child. She managed to give that responsibility to her mother-in-law for sometime. But then her mother-in-law decided to go back to village. She felt that her mother-in-law didn’t wanted responsibility of grandchild. She was so frustrated. Vrinda never thought that one small girl would become much big issue. But her daughter Mitali was big issue. It wasn’t easy to handle Mitali. It was very complicated. Mitali always kept acting in irritating way. She felt so sad. Vrinda was married to Ashok for three years. But during those years Ashok never showed much attachment to her. In fact he didn’t have time for her. She was so frustrated while sitting alone in house that she decided to take this job. She didn’t understand what she was doing with her life. When she got pregnant she was full of hopes. She felt that now her husband would pay attention to her & her life would become such pleasant that she couldn’t feel more happier in her mind. She needed to handle all. Her husband wasn’t much interested even in child. She finally gave birth to Mitali. Mitali wasn’t easy baby to handle from beginning. Mitali kept crying throughout night & sometimes even day. It was so upset. Sometimes she felt that she was cause of distress in Mitali. If mother was upset surely it would impact baby. She remained in house for sometime but then she decided that she needed to work. She was feeling so depressed. So she convinced her mother-in-law to take care of Mitali. After all her mother-in-law was staying with them after marriage. Her mother-in-law never went village. Vrinda was hoping for some privacy but she never got it. Her mother-in-law always wanted to house set in the way she preferred. Her mother-in-law kept bossing on her. While her husband was always busy. Ashok never took interest in her life. Ashok didn’t care how much his mother bullied her. Every furniture & every showpiece was selected by her mother-in-law. Her mother-in-law kept pointing to her. That this house belonged to her son Ashok. It was totally forgotten that she was Ashok’s wife so she had right on house too. So until birth of Mitali her mother-in-law kept staying with them. But as soon as she decided to join job her mother-in-law decided to go to village so now she needed to take help of her friend. Her friend wasn’t happy about it. She told her friend that it was for just week. Finally today that week was over. Now she could do work from home. She was running towards her friend’s house to take Mitali. When she reached there, she noticed entire neighbourhood was standing outside. She ran inside crowd. She began to ask “ What happened?” Finally someone said “ There was robbery in house. All died including one baby.” She looked towards that man with shock. Then she ran towards Cops. She told everything. Cop said with sad face “ Your baby is dead too. I don’t advise you to see dead body. You can show me picture. Then I will confirm & give your DNA too.” She showed photo of Mitali from mobile. It was so shocking. She felt that it was just nightmare. It couldn’t happen to her. She had read such stories in News but she didn’t believe that it could happen to her. She called Ashok but he wasn’t taking her call. She started crying. Then she suddenly sensed pressure on her shoulder. Someone was shaking her & she opened her eyes. She was sleeping on her bed & Ashok was shaking her. Ashok “ What happened? Why are you crying in sleep?” She looked around in nervous way. She sensed that she was sleeping in her bedroom. It was just nightmare. She took deep breath. She looked around in her room. Soon she sensed that she wasn’t have any child. She was so happy. She didn’t wanted her child to be dead. Ashok was watching her with full attention. She didn’t want to tell him what happened. She just gave nervous smile & said “ I thought I had a daughter who died.” Ashok smiled nervously. Ashok “ This is odd dream. We never had any child.” She nodded sadly. She never got pregnant & that was truth. She knew that she wanted child but then she didn’t understand if she wanted it. She was living happily in that house. She didn’t needed to earn much. Ashok was loving & affectionate husband nothing like she saw in dream. He was busy but he managed to get good salary. She had much big & beautiful house. She needed to just handle household chores with help of servants. Her life was pleasant one. She was happy in it. She told herself that she didn’t have any sorrow. Her mother-in-law Kavita was nice woman too. She smiled & said “ It was just bad dream.” Ashok nodded. Then he went back to sleep. She was so nervous. It was so nice of Ashok that he didn’t scream on her. She disturbed him during his sleep. Normally husbands get angry. Ashok was nice man. He tolerated her. He turned his back towards her & went to sleep. She was so glad that he wasn’t angry. She began to feel positive about all. She wanted positivity in her life. It was so upsetting when she managed to create such trouble in house. She wanted to appear like wonderful wife. She closed her eyes & once again she went to sleep. This time she didn’t want to see that nightmare. She told herself that she didn’t need it. She closed her eyes & started thinking about past. Her childhood! All her positive memories started to come. She was suddenly so happy. She smiled in her thoughts. All her troubles vanished. The way they came. She began to think about it with hope. She was so nervous when she came to stay in Ashok’s house but now everything was fine. She was happy & Ashok loved her. She laughed with positive thinking. She needed to think hopefully about her life. She needed to increase her confidence. She told herself that her entire family loved her. She kept thinking positively. Slowly she fall asleep. This time she was sleeping peacefully but Ashok was looking towards her with anger. Ashok was having nice dream when she screamed. Ashok just wanted her to help him in handling things. But she was just increasing his troubles. He decided that he would discuss this in morning.
Next morning Vrinda wake up by voice of alarm clock. She immediately ran towards washroom. She needed to brush her teethes then she needed to fix tiffin for Ashok. Cook didn’t come so early so she needed to cook for Ashok’s tiffin. She didn’t want to be late. It was very important. She brushed her teethes. Then she washed her face & ran in kitchen. She immediately started cooking for tiffin. Slowly Kavita & Ashok came in kitchen. Vrinda smiled & said “ It’s almost ready.” “ I know but yesterday I can’t able to sleep.” Kavita immediately looked towards Vrinda pointedly then Kavita looked towards her son Ashok “ Why? What happened?” “ She had nightmares.” “What?” Vrinda felt so nervous. She started to shake. She wanted to steady her hands but she couldn’t. She was so scared. She began to look around. She wanted something to hide her shaking. Then Ashok began to describe how did she had nightmare about their child. Kavita gave a look which told Vrinda that she was nothing but biggest burden on them. Kavita asked “ Why she is having nightmares about children? You don’t have children!” “ Yes. She didn’t got pregnant still she kept getting tense about having children.” She was more disturbed now. She knew that she didn’t visited Doctor regarding not having kids. She wasn’t getting pregnant but Ashok never discussed it. She slowly said “ Maybe I need to visit Doctor?” “ For what? For mental treatment? Do you had mental issues before?” “ No..no never in life.” She totally forgot about her desire to visit gynaecologist. She began to feel that she just wanted to visit psychiatrist. She needed to stop those nightmares. Her nightmare was worst curse. She didn’t sense that she had just one nightmare. She began to think that it was beginning of worst disaster. Soon she would start to have one nightmare after another. She was sure that this would be permanent. She said “ I never had before. This is just started.” “ I find it hard to believe you never had any nightmares in your life before last night.” Ashok laughed in support of his Mom Kavita. Vrinda began to feel so guilty. Vrinda started to remember all her dreams from childhood. Soon she sensed that she had few nightmares. But she never thought that she needed to take them seriously. Suddenly she began to feel that it was wrong. She slowly said “ I had few nightmares..” Ashok “ I feel that you need to go to your mother’s house & discuss.” She immediately nodded. She knew that her Mom would surely do something for her. Vrinda said “ I will go to Mom.” But Kavita immediately objected “ But who will do cooking in house?” Vrinda “,Don’t worry. I will tell all to cook.” “ Yes Mom cook will handle all. We don’t need her for cooking.” Vrinda felt so uneasy. She was clearly not needed in house. Kavita “ So true. Vrinda doesn’t need to do much work.” Vrinda packed tiffin & served them breakfast. On that point Ashok told “ Cook some Mango Pickle today. My friend in office wanted it.” She nodded. Kavita “ & clean roof too. Maid will not clean roof & curtains. Then you also needed to do some stitching.” She nodded. She had servants so she could do this extra work. On that point mobile rang & Kavita declared some guests were coming. Now Vrinda needed to cook for at least four people some snacks. She nodded. She knew that she couldn’t go to her Mom’s house on that day. She slowly started working. She needed to do all those things. Cook came & she explained cook what she supposed to cook. Then she started to cooking & storing pickles. She needed to clean entire house. She had to change cushions. She began to change curtains. Then she began to cook tasty snacks for guests. She even used cook books to cook tasty snacks. She arranged all & she felt totally positive about all. She changed her dress & waited for guests. When guests arrived, she took them in Kavita’s room. Kavita smiled & pretended that she was working so hard to adjust in this life. Kavita kept telling that she wanted to go to village but Vrinda couldn’t survive without her help. All guests nodded according to them. Vrinda was useless. Vrinda couldn’t manage her house. Vrinda didn’t oppose it. Vrinda just kept accepting her failures. Vrinda accepted that she was most useless. Vrinda sometimes wished that she shouldn’t have married Ashok. Ashok clearly deserved better wife. It was so sad. She married to a man who was far superior than her. She kept nodding on her every failure. She kept telling herself that she was moving in right way. She knew that if she kept accepting her weakness people would give her chance she would be forgiven. After working whole time & attending those guests she went in kitchen & managed to heat dinner made by cook. When Ashok came she served dinner to him. He didn’t took much interest in dinner. He was more interested in his discussion with his Mom Kavita. She also sat to eat. But when she started eating suddenly Ashok screamed “ Serve me some curd.” She saw that curd was on table only. Ashok could take it easily but he didn’t wanted to move. She didn’t suggest that he should take it since she wasn’t working. She was dependent on him. She didn’t work much in her house. She slowly served curd to him & once again sat on her chair. On that point Ashok screamed “ When you are going to stay with your Mom! I want some privacy in my room. I want peace not your continuous interference.” She felt so sad. She said slowly “ Tomorrow.” He nodded. Then Kavita said “ I hope she will not scream today in night.” Ashok gave angry look to her. She was so scared. She decided that she wouldn’t sleep to night. She kept looking around nervously. She pushed her food under her throat. She didn’t want to eat but she needed to eat. She went in room. She knew that still she needed to clean table & keep all dinner plates & pots in corner since in morning maid would wash them. She was glad that she had servants. It was her husband’s favour on her. She immediately started packing her bag. Then she carefully kept that bag in corner. She must not disobey her husband. She needed to go to her Mom’s house tomorrow.
As soon as Vrinda went out of kitchen Ashok smiled. Ashok “ I needed to keep telling her about her level. She must not scream like that in night.” Kavita “ Of course. I don’t understand how could she dare to do that? I hope her Mom would take her to some Psychiatrist.” Ashok nodded. Then he waited for sometime. Finally Vrinda came back in kitchen to clean table. Ashok told her “ I will sleep in hall today. I don’t want my sleep to be disturbed.” She immediately said “ No need to do that I will sleep in hall.” Kavita immediately said “ She is right you are going in office tomorrow you must sleep peacefully in night.” So it was decided that Vrinda would sleep in hall & Ashok would sleep peacefully in bedroom. Vrinda felt so happy. She didn’t want to feel tense. Ashok could come in hall whenever he wanted but she didn’t needed to go in bedroom since she kept having nightmares. She was so happy by this arrangement. Then they went in bedroom to sleep & she started to arrange kitchen properly. She was feeling so sad. She didn’t understand what was happening to her. She decided to call her Mom. Finally in hall she had some privacy. She called her Mom & started to tell everything step by step. It was very important to describe all. Her Mom “ I don’t understand why does just one nightmare became big issue.” “ I might continue having them.” “ Then Ashok need to handle them as husband.” “ Mom I am not much useful for Ashok & this is fact.” Mom “ I don’t understand. Doesn’t he love you?” Vrinda nodded negatively. It was so upsetting. She couldn’t say it on mobile. She felt so sad. She didn’t understand what was happening. She crying slowly. She kept looking towards mobile. She didn’t understand what she supposed to say. Her Mom said “ Come home tomorrow.” “ Okay.” She knew that her Mom would keep her in Mom’s house for some time but she finally needed to return to Ashok’s house. She was so depressed. She woke up in morning on her couch. She immediately ran in her room. She took out her bags & she went out without making noise. She didn’t want to disturb Ashok. She started stopping Cabs finally one Cab stopped & she returned to her Mom’s house. When she reached to her Mom’s house she felt such relieved. It was so pleasant feeling for her. Finally she was returning to place where she received affection. It was so nice. She rang doorbell. Her Mom came out to open door. She could easily see her Mom wasn’t alone. Her sister-in-law was standing just behind her Mom. Her sister-in-law was okay but she knew that her sister-in-law didn’t want her to return. Vrinda’s marriage needed to survive since Vrinda didn’t have other place to stay. Vrinda gave pleasant smile & told to her sister-in-law “ I came for few days. Is it okay?” Her sister-in-law smiled & nodded. So she finally confirmed that Vrinda was returning to home. Vrinda went inside. Then Vrinda told everything. Her Mom said “ We can ask our physician about Psychiatrist don’t worry.” She smiled happily. Vrinda was so stressed. She wanted to feel positive but she couldn’t. Vrinda knew that soon she would find some psychiatrist. Vrinda told herself that she would be fine. Ashok called her after sometime she told Ashok about finding Psychiatrist. It was nice decision for Ashok. He needed to stop her nightmares. Vrinda felt so uneasy. Then they visited physician. Physician immediately suggested a psychiatrist. Physician “ If nightmares are recurring you might need one Psychiatrist but at this point I am confused. You had just one nightmare!” She said “ But I feel tense.” Physician nodded & gave name of Psychiatrist. She observed that name. She smiled. Finally she would be fine. Then when they returned her Mom called Psychiatrist & managed to get appointment. She was so positive. She went to Psychiatrist after two days. She was so sure that she would cured. Then she started telling all to Psychiatrist step by step. Psychiatrist kept listening to her. Then finally Psychiatrist asked “ I don’t understand what is your mental issue?” “ I feel nervous..” “ Since they give you inferiority. You married to wrong person who don’t love you. If you want to have child I can give you number of gynaecologist but I can’t give any treatment to you since you are mentally fine. Of course I can teach you how to keep yourself calm in such situations when your husband or mother-in-law harass you.” She nodded. Then she listened to psychiatrist. After two appointments she returned home. She once again started her life. She wasn’t happy in it. But she knew that she was staying there just because she didn’t have home. She went to gynaecologist. She found out that she had issues which could be cured. But she decided to tell Ashok that it was hard to have baby. Ashok was so upset. Slowly Ashok showed willingness to get divorce. She pretended to be sad but then she agreed. She got small flat for herself. She agreed willingly to divorce. Slowly she settled in her life. She was little bit dependent on her brother but she accepted it. She started to appreciate her freedom. Ashok got remarried & he even had one child. But frankly she was not jealous. She was happy that he was no longer interested in her. She knew that her life didn’t went the way she wanted but still she was happy in this life. She was living in her own world. Now there was no one to convince her that she was burden & failure. She was very happy about it.
The End
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