Different painting
Sameer was so excited about entire incidence. He wanted happiness in his life. His memories had lots of it. He used to watch for hours out of window of his house. It was lovely scene. It was pleasant to watch outside for hours. He began to feel so positive about everything. He knew that he could manage to please his girlfriend today. Rani was so special. He wanted to please her. He did all he could to do that. But he didn’t have enough strength. He was artist. He was working hard to sell his paintings. He began to feel so positive about all. He needed to feel that way. Otherwise his paintings would look so beautiful. He kept observing them carefully. He began to watch canvas properly. He started to feel positive about it. He was watching different colours from his canvas. He could see each colour with wonderful spirit hidden inside it. He loved unique effect in paintings. He needed them to give positive look. He knew when painting had positive impact then it would look more beautiful. He was so happy. He looked outside. He felt that he was locked in house for such a long time. He needed to go out & enjoy nature so he started to plan for walk. In his mind he began to think about different roads he could use for walk. He wanted something unique. He knew that he was going to walk on road full of cars. He wished to live in some far away place. But he sensed that it was too costly. He planned one day to do it. But then he stopped his dream. He needed to discuss with Rani. He couldn’t decide how could he act so selfish. He began to get dressed. He got dressed properly & stood before mirror. He applied some deodorant too. It was gifted by Rani so it was special. He smiled when he thought about that day. She was so special to him. He got ready for walk. He went out. He was walking happily when he noticed. A small Puppy ! That Puppy was so cute. He wanted to take it in his arms but Puppy suddenly began to bark on him. He began to feel little scared. He never had pet & he didn’t want dog bite or even scratch. He just decided to go in other way when he heard voice. It was voice of Rani she was calling “ Toby” that Puppy immediately ran back. He turned back. Rani was waiting for Toby who immediately ran in her arms. He smiled happily & he immediately started walking towards her. She smiled & came near him. She asked “ After such long time? How are you?” He wasn’t expecting such start. He didn’t objected. “ I was little bit busy with painting. Do you have time for going out on lunch?” “ Sure. We can always go on lunch. I don’t mind.” He smiled. “ So when you will able to come.” “ Any time! I don’t mind.” He smiled. He knew that now he needed to discuss about their future. So he slowly asked “ What do you think about marriage?” She laughed & said “ Are you getting married? I will surely come for your feast. Plan big fat wedding! I love them.” He felt so uneasy. She was expecting him to get married to someone else? They were going on lunch for long time. They were chatting so nicely. He suddenly began to feel as if she didn’t understood. “ I mean our marriage!” She gave him one shocked look. She said “ I hope you are joking. I never thought that way about you.” “ But I thought..” she suddenly began to get tense. She said “ I never felt that way. I thought we are going on lunch as friend not as date.” He smiled & nodded. Then Rani went away with Toby. He kept watching her. He didn’t understand what he was feeling. It seemed that he was planning all in his imaginary world. She was never interested in him. He told himself to relax. He suddenly sensed that now he didn’t need to think about her choices. So he could relax. He smiled. He opened his door. He entered in his house. It was small house. He had his canvas in hall. He needed to shift in big one. But he was not sure that he could manage to sell it. He knew that his sister might want some money. He knew that she wasn’t going to give up rights on this house. He wanted to tell himself that he was rich but he was not. Rani might be nice girl for him but he was not suitable suitor for her. He began to look towards empty canvas. He suddenly began to think about one painting. In few seconds he began to paint. He kept painting for hours without stopping. Then finally it was over. He went little bit away from painting. He was shocked. It was beautiful but it was so negative. He felt one odd shock. He immediately covered it with cloth. He didn’t want anybody to see it. He wanted to hide it. On that point his mobile rang. It was call from one exhibition gallery. He immediately took it. Agent said “ I am on my way. I have one less painting for my show. I will take one from you.” “ Thanks.” He was so happy. He started to arrange all in paintings properly in hall. He wanted great one to be presented in Gallery. He was so excited. He began to arrange all. He knew that once he used to call Rani for help in such cases but now it was over. He couldn’t call her. He knew what Rani used to admire so he kept them in same way. He knew that Rani was perfect in every way. But Rani wasn’t in love with him. He didn’t exactly feel sad. He could understand. She wanted someone different & special. They were not exactly dating. Actually they used to eat lunch in same hotel. That hotel was always full so they forced to share table. Then they began to chat. They were very friendly. Slowly their table got fixed. Sometimes even other people used to join them when there wasn’t free place. But as days went ahead & Rani kept coming on his table he began to assume something more than just normal friendship. He knew that it was his mistake. He started to feel that he could keep friendship. He could just call her for guidance. He immediately called her. Rani took call & said “ Sorry but I am busy.” He said in sweet voice “ Ohh it’s okay. I just called to tell you forget what I said in morning. It’s just wrong thinking.” She laughed & said “ I have already forgiven you.. I just started new project. It was so important for me.” He immediately apologised & disconnected call. He arranged canvas carefully. He wanted his room to be perfect.
Sameer was waiting for long time. He already prepared tea & sandwiches. He decided to order more snacks only if needed. But that agent didn’t came. Then after sometime finally that agent came. He took breath of relief. He began to show canvas one after another. That agent kept watching. He didn’t understand if Agent was impressed or not. He just kept trying his best. Finally Agent reached to last canvas without asking for permission Agent opened it. He tried to tell “ It’s uncompleted painting!” Agent looked towards it carefully. Agent kept observing it for sometime. Then Agent took it in hands. He tried to object. “ What are you doing?” “ This one is best. I want it.” He wanted to argue but Agent was busy on mobile & soon his painting was in Agent’s car. Agent didn’t seem to interested in his suggestions. He was so angry. He was owner of that painting still Agent treated him like some servant. It was important for him to get respect so he screamed loudly “ It’s not finished yet.” Agent looked towards painting & said “ It’s okay. Buyer doesn’t have much skill in judging art. They would like colour & mysterious look then they would purchase it.” He wanted to stop Agent but he knew that it was not possible. That man never listened to any one if he thought that he could sell that thing. His Agent was stubborn person who kept doing all to get commission. Until now they never managed to sell his canvas so he was only desperate option for Agent. He smiled & said “ Bye.” He once again sat in his chair. He looked towards other canvases. So beautiful & pleasant! He felt as if he had brought heaven on earth. But then he felt so tense. He knew that now without Rani he couldn’t create that heaven again. She was important for him. He needed to paint canvas. He took out new empty one. Once again he began to paint. He selected bright & interesting colours. Each colour had new brightness & hope inside. He needed to create pleasant one on his colour pallet. Each colour supposed to make canvas alive. He wanted them to bring positive. But as he started to paint all became so different. He completed it but his heart was not happy. He was not feeling positive at all. He just completed it. Then he kept it aside. He wanted to destroy it but he couldn’t. He began to paint new canvas. He began to get fully involved. He kept painting one after another but none of them was bringing heaven on earth. He was so frustrated. He decided that he needed break. He decided to go to his routine hotel. He might meet Rani there. He wanted to apologise to her. When he was going out suddenly Agent came running. Agent “ I want another Canvas.” He was so frustrated. He didn’t want to argue. His Agent was his most trusted acquaintance. He couldn’t call his Agent friend since there was nothing pleasant when they meet each other. They just did business & Agent always did bossing. He just gave duplicate key of house to Agent. Agent asked happily “ I can take whatever I want?!” “ Yes surely! Be my guest.” Then he just vanished. He was more interested in talking with Rani. He just went out in hurry. He started walking towards hotel. He was restless on that day. He wanted to find his table empty. He took breath of relief when he found it. He sat on table & he waited. Soon waiter came, he had no option but to order his food. He ordered lunch. He waited when suddenly one man sat on chair opposite to him. He immediately wanted to stop. But then he sensed that all places were already gone. He wasn’t sure that Rani was coming so it seemed unfair to tell him not to sit. That man asked “ Can I sit here? Every chair is already occupied.” He nodded. He told himself that everything would be fine. Rani wasn’t coming. Then that man introduced himself as “ Sudhir.” Sudhir was talkative person. Sudhir kept telling about his life & he was just needed to nod. He liked it. He could keep doing it while watching out of window. Once again he started watching out of window. He knew that he was searching for Rani but soon he sensed that Rani wasn’t coming so he began to look towards nature. Sudhir “ You like watching nature?” “ Yes for hours.” “ Then you must visit my house once. It have full sea view.” He turned towards Sudhir with shock. He didn’t understand what he supposed to say. He couldn’t just go inside other person’s house. It was wrong. “ I can’t visit you like that.” Sudhir laughed & said “ I love chatting & my wife never stayed in home. I used to be manager of one shop. I fall in love with one customer. One day her father came. It was decided that I should marry her but I must not stop her from doing business. I suppose to take care of house & kids. I immediately agreed. After that I settled in her house. I live happy life. They might consider it as something low but it’s not. I enjoyed my life. On daily bases I took proper care of house & kids. My wife gave me full respect but now kids went away for education. Wife is busy so I really prefer some company. Now I don’t want to cheat my wife otherwise I might get thrown out of house.” Sudhir said it in such a way that Sameer didn’t feel it was joke. “ My only option is keep one dog or human friend. I don’t know much about dogs. I need to try one as pet one day but today I feel you can join me as friend. Are you ready?” Sameer wasn’t happy with this attitude. He wasn’t ready to replace a dog. He stood & said “ I am getting late,” Sudhir nodded. Sudhir “ I will come tomorrow what about you?” “ I don’t come every day.” Sameer replied. Sameer was regular but he decided to skip coming there. He didn’t like Sudhir. He was so frustrated. His last chance of living happily his life was gone. Rani wasn’t going to come there & Sudhir was going to come every day. He decided that he needed to cook in his house or order from hotel for his house. He was so happy when he hoped to meet Rani. He was hoping at least he could relax in hotel but sadly he couldn’t. He returned to his home.
Sameer was so upset. He wanted to return to his normal life but it was clear to him that it wasn’t going to happen. He needed to accept it. First he was struggling to accept that Rani wasn’t interested in friendship with him after his confession that he was in love with her. Now he couldn’t even go to that hotel. He didn’t want to remain locked in this house. He needed to go out. On that point his door bell rang. It was his brother. His brother always kept coming to stay with him. Sometimes he felt as if his sister-in-law literally threw her husband or his brother out of house by giving some excuse. His brother was truly a burden. No one liked his brother. But still they kept admiring his brother since his brother was useful for them. His brother always managed to do some trick which could please other people or convince them he did something great. Sometimes Sameer just wished only if he could sell this house. But Sameer couldn’t find suitable customer. He was searching for long time. His brother always managed to criticise his paintings. He didn’t want his brother to see them. His brother sat on one chair. His brother “ So how are you? Of course you still don’t need to feel tense like me. You are free to do whatever you want. You can go around & do all. You can even waste money.” He didn’t say anything. He didn’t want to start argument. He just kept looking towards canvas. Then he took out one canvas suddenly he sensed all his new canvas were missing. Clearly Agent took them. He didn’t like that idea. He took next canvas & suddenly he began to paint once again in his dark mood. He needed positivity in his life. But he had just negative. He stood. He decided to take walk. His brother tried to talk but he just ignored & went out. He was feeling so suffocated in that house. He went out. He began to search for place after searching a lot he found one tree under which he could stand & talk. He began to feel so stressed out by all. He needed positivity in his life. He called that Agent. Agent “ These paintings are good. But it’s hard to sell at good price. Still they will make you good artist.” He asked “ Can I visit Gallery?” “ Yes. Of course.” “ I am coming.” He immediately get in Gallery. He began to watch those paintings they were so unique & beautiful. He wanted to see that Canvas carefully. He wanted to smile happily. He began to sense that they were so different most importantly he didn’t remember painting them. It was so odd. He just began to feel so sick & nervous. He was standing on Air conditioned hall but still he began to sweat. He tried to clean his face. He began to sense his clothes were getting wet. He was so upset. He didn’t want to disturb Gallery’s clients. He slowly went in corner. On that point Agent came. Agent “ Are you alright?” “ Yes..yes.” “ You are sweating.” “ No..no I am just fine.” He felt so uneasy. That Agent immediately called driver. “ My driver will take you to my Doctor.” “ I am just fine.” “ Don’t worry. I will manage all.” He didn’t say anything. He suddenly began to feel cold. He didn’t want to show it but anyone could see this. Soon Driver came & Sameer went with him. Sameer was so glad when finally he reached to Doctor. If he was dying he preferred it without pain & soon. He went in clinic. Doctor took him inside by number. Then Doctor checked him for sometime & in details. He was so scared. Finally he sat down against Doctor. He asked “ What happened?” “ You are fine. You are just too much scared or upset. What happened?” He felt so nervous. He knew that he didn’t have much option but to wait. He needed to calm down. He smiled sweetly. He slowly told all about Rani. Doctor smiled. Doctor “ I suggest one visit to psychiatrist.” “ No..no I am just fine.” “ You need someone to discuss issue or it will complicate. You can ignore it but finally it will create trouble for you.” He began to get so restless. He said “ I am mentally sound.” Doctor laughed. “ My friend mentally sound people fall in love then their heart get broken when that person denied it’s common.” He nodded. Then he took card. He went down. He kept looking towards card. He threw in on road as he started going ahead. He began to feel uneasy again. He ran behind & started searching for card. Finally one person gave it to him. He thanked that person. Then he immediately called. He asked appointment of that day. But they were full so he needed to wait for two days. He agreed. When he returned home, his brother was taking rest. It seemed as if his brother owned that entire house & he was some homeless. He was so upset. He sensed one thing that he needed some Psychiatrist to move ahead in life, he told himself that he could wait for time until he didn’t get appointment. He told himself that he would be fine. He began to sense that he was so tense. He decided to avoid his brother as best as he could. He didn’t even went for lunch outside. He just kept ordering from hotel. Then finally day came when he supposed to go to psychiatrist. He was so glad. Whole time his brother was literally making him crazy. He wanted to act normal but he couldn’t. He needed help. He came one hour early for his appointment. He felt that it was better to sit there than at home with his brother. Finally his number came he went inside. He smiled towards Psychiatrist who returned his smile. He slowly began to tell his story to psychiatrist. Psychiatrist said “ It isn’t just your heart break. You are suffering from Anxiety too. In fact your brother is increasing your inferiority which is causing you anxiety. You start to feel nervous. Due to that nervousness you develop Anxiety which lead to this sickness. But you don’t need to worry. You will not need medicine. You came on time with counselling & relaxing exercises you will fine.” He nodded. After that his session started.
Slowly Sameer began to feel positive then he began to paint on Canvas painting were still in new style but he remembered them very well. He didn’t need just those colours which had Rani’s approval. One day finally he went in old hotel. He saw Sudhir was sitting on table he always used. He decided to sit on it. Sudhir smiled & asked “ So you planned to come home with me!” “ No. I came near just for lunch.” Then he kept eating lunch without paying attention to Sudhir. Sudhir kept talking but he used his headphones to avoid listening to him. After sometime he even saw Rani but he didn’t look towards her. He knew that he couldn’t become just friend of a girl whom he once loved & he noticed that Rani was with one rich man. He sensed that this man might be her boyfriend or fiancee. Then he sensed that puppy belonged to him. Suddenly Sameer felt that it was possible that Rani broke up with him since she wanted to marry this rich man. She tricked him for this rich man. But then he remembered what Psychiatrist told him. It was over & he didn’t need to think about it so he just went away. He felt glad that he visited Psychiatrist & most importantly his treatment was over so he was trained to handle emotions so he went away from her without showing Anxiety & that was biggest success for him in his life. He needed to get over her.
The End
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