Knocking on door
Seema woke up early in morning. It was her perfect schedule. She wanted to feel fresh in morning but today she was feeling so uneasy. She was feeling sick. She ran in washroom to clean her face. She was hoping that it would help her to feel fresh but nothing worked. She kept feeling uneasy even after washing face many times. She began to feel that she was sick. She didn’t understand from where this negative attitude came. It was confusing. She wanted to feel happy but still she was not feeling it. She worked so hard to find happiness but it seemed as if happiness was not in her destiny. She didn’t understand cause of this sorrow. She looked around. Her house was empty. She was staying alone. But it was by her choice. Her sister kept calling her to stay with her but she didn’t like that idea. Even her cousins were inviting her in abroad. They all settled in different parts of country. But they had bonding. She always kept in touch with them. But today she was feeling so restless. She knew that she needed to go to office. But she kept avoiding it. She knew that her Boss would surely get angry if she didn’t come today. They waited for long time but she didn’t completed her project. She kept staying at home. She needed to go out to complete it. That project needed field trip. She had not gone out for days. She loved to sit inside house. It was so nice & peaceful. When she went out, people started discussing wrong things. She sensed that they wanted to talk just negative things. They kept talking about hatred towards someone. She wanted to relax. Once people used to talk positive. Now all seemed to be changed. They wanted to discuss just negative. She tried to work hard to stay positive but they all kept shifting to negative points. She started to try to find something positive in surrounding but it didn’t work. She wanted to stay in home. But today she told herself that she needed to go out & work. She started to concentrating on her work. She went to check on her laptop. She began to study it. She needed to understand everything properly. She needed to understand meaning of it. She wanted to make it successful. But she needed to work hard. She did every revision while ignoring her sick feeling. She kept feeling happy in her heart. She knew it. She got dressed & then she went out with full confidence. She sat in her car & started driving. Suddenly she began to feel as if someone was sitting on back seat. She looked in car mirror carefully. No one was there. She smiled at her idea. It was impossible. She didn’t even unlock door of back seats. It was impossible. She knew that she needed to relax her mind. She kept smiling. She felt that by smiling like this she would start to feel happy. She began to get smile more. She started to feel happy. She began to feel hopeful. She thought smiling was helping her. She began to concentrate on smile again & again. She started to feel restless. She began to watch road carefully. She was driving very carefully but still she kept thinking that she might hit someone on road. She was not good driver. It was sort of frustrating. She didn’t understand why she decided to drive herself. Finally she reached to destination. She was so tense. She needed to feel relaxed. She started to get tense in soul but still she smiled & went inside office. She was welcomed nicely in her office. She was so happy when all surrounded her. They began to discuss different issues which were so interesting. She soon sensed that she was admired in her office very much. They were missing her. She started to describe her project. Soon she managed to engage herself in it. She began to feel hopes in life. She showed her plan to all carefully. They kept listening to her with full attention. Then they all started planning according to thought which she had given. She began to create a wonderful project. She was feeling so happy due to support of office staff. She began to feel normal again. She started to think that she needed to come out daily. But then she once again started to get tense. She soon sensed that slowly those people were once again started turning to unpleasant subjects. She hated when they started talking about death. She didn’t understand why. But she had some negative feelings about it. She disliked when anyone mentioned someone’s death. It was not as if she suffered some trauma recently. She didn’t lost some one so close. But still she hated it. She turned away to look out of window. She knew that these things would lead to big problems. She knew that now she would not sleep entire night. She hated negative thoughts. She immediately began to make excuse to leave office. Luckily her Boss permitted her since Boss wanted her to send few things from her home. She told Boss that she could do better drawing from home. Boss immediately agreed. So she once again sat in car. She took breath of relief. She began to feel relaxed when she started driving. But on every moment she wanted to look in back seat. She knew no one was there but she kept feeling that she would see someone. She thought that it was due to horror movie she watched. She didn’t need to get restless otherwise. She was totally normal. Then she sensed that she was not watching horror for long time. She loved watching it but due to her busy schedule she just forgot to do it. It was frustrating & strange that she was feeling so tense without cause. She tried to relax but she kept feeling restless. She just kept concentrating on road ahead. She was so happy. She managed to do her work & now she was back home on normal time. She went inside her flat when she sensed that someone was inside flat next to her. She looked towards it with suspicion. She didn’t want company. But she knew that someone was surely going to shift in that flat one day. She didn’t try to talk with neighbours. She just went inside her house. She began to regret that flat now. Her privacy was getting interfered. But then suddenly she sensed that there was voice of child. She sensed that one family came to stay next door. She hated this idea. She knew people loved to have company but she didn’t. She went in her house & locked door.
Seema began to cook dinner for herself. She managed to do few things in morning but still she needed to cook remaining items. She started doing it when her doorbell rang. She was so irritated & scared. She didn’t want to invite anyone in her house now especially her neighbour. She began to imagine a talkative woman with kids who began to ask questions about her life. She didn’t want any question about her life. She was living her single life happily but people kept pushing for marriage. She didn’t want to hear their lectures. She loved her privacy but they didn’t respect it. She was happy in her house but they kept convincing her that she was not. It was such a strange world. They didn’t let other person live life as per their want. She went to door with frustration. She watched from eye hole but she saw no one. She opened it. She didn’t see anyone. She was so confused. She immediately closed it. She felt as if she was in some horror movie. It was frustrating. She kept looking out. She didn’t see anyone then she sensed that she needed to close door immediately otherwise that evil would enter on any point that evil was standing just nearby. She closed door immediately when she was closing it she heard laugh of child. She wanted to scream on child. But she didn’t want to waste her time. She felt so upset. She didn’t want to meet parent or parents of that child. She just wanted to live peacefully. She was so frustrated by all. She went in kitchen & started cooking again. She began to feel so upset by all. She needed to find something which could make her cheerful but she didn’t see any hope. She was so scared. She began to feel so upset by entire issue. She wanted to live peacefully. She kept cooking. Then she went in bedroom. She began to start TV. She started to search for a show that she would like. She wanted to find a perfect TV show which would make her happy. She began to search but she kept thinking about that knock on door. She wanted to feel positive. She kept getting tense about everything. She soon sensed that her food was getting test-less too. She didn’t understand what went wrong. She began to get so sad. She started to feel her cooking skills were not same. She didn’t understand what was wrong with her. She was not able to keep positivity. Finally she decided to go to sleep. She thought that she could sleep easily. But she was sleepless. Next day she looked stressed. She woke up feeling so tense. She knew that no one was coming to meet her. She didn’t understand cause of her fear. She started to thinking about it. She was so upset. She needed to feel relaxed. She decided that she would go out somewhere to feel safe. She began to think about shopping centre or mall located around. Soon she found one & went there. It was mostly full of people. She didn’t find place to sit. After sometime she found one place on bench. She sat there. She started working on laptop. She didn’t look around. Soon she got involved in her work. Even her colleagues came on laptop. They questioned about surrounding at beginning but then they felt that she went there since she wanted company. No one could guess that she went in mall to avoid company. Since mostly people managed make new friends in such places. Soon she sensed that she was happy with her privacy in mall. She could see that mall in totally positive way. But after some time she needed to go home. She didn’t understand why she felt so upset about going back to home. She wanted to feel pleasant about all. But she was sensing a stress in it. She needed to go back so she went. But before going she took some thing to eat. She didn’t wanted to cook in kitchen again. She went back in house. Once again she heard voice of child. She felt so scared. She didn’t understand why did she felt so scared of that child. It was just small child. A child couldn’t do anything to harm anyone. It was so scary to think that some child might harm her. It was impossible. She knew that she needed to face that child. She went back in her house but she was feeling as if she entered in some haunted house with ghost. She didn’t feel that she was comfortable in kitchen any more. She was happy with her life but suddenly all started to look complicated. She began to look around. She didn’t understand why she didn’t like this house any more. She suddenly began to think about selling it. She could buy some house which would be on far away location. It was nice & appealing idea. She began to smile on that thought. She was so happy about it. She started looking around. She knew that her house was not enough lovely to her. She started to think positive about every corner in different way. She began to think about how could she sell her house. It was complicated. She needed to find agent but she didn’t know if her siblings would agree to sell such a good flat. She might just plan wonderful location to buy flat. But it was not that easy. She needed to find customers for this flat. She needed to find another flat & she didn’t even understand cause. She looked around. This house was not so bad. It was so upsetting. She started to get restless. She was so happy in this house but everything was changed now. She always felt so scared & so upset. She knew that kid was irritating her. She needed to find that child. That child was pain in neck. Suddenly she got one idea. She decided that she could tell watchman to pay attention to it. She decided to call watchman. She immediately called him. She told watchman about child from next flat knocking on her door. She began to get restless. She felt that she was not getting response. Watchman sounded confused “ Which child? Which number flat Madam?” She gave her flat number with confidence. Watchman “ But flat next to you is empty?…” then he added “ Those must be kids from top floor. Don’t worry Madam. I will talk to their parents.” He disconnected call. She was so tense. She was so sure that someone came to stay in next door flat. She took deep breath to control her fear & went out of door to check that flat.
Seema slowly went out of her house. She turned towards other house. She observed it’s door was close. It was night so she felt as something was behind. She turned to look but no one was there. She was feeling so scared. Slowly she turned towards flat. It was empty. She felt that it was totally empty. She was about to turn behind when she sensed that someone was inside. She started to feel restless again. She began to think about different ways in which someone could enter in flat. She watched carefully. She was so sure someone was inside. She came near that window & looked inside. She watched carefully. She didn’t see any reflection inside. She sensed suddenly someone was behind. She turned & screamed. Watchman “ Madam I came to tell you that children from upstairs didn’t do it.” Then he introduced her to another couple with kids. That lady said with anger “ My kids are not like that!” “ Then who is doing it?” Her voice came so weak & scared. Suddenly that lady looked concerned. “ Are you sure that it was child? I mean adults can pretend like child & try these things..” Suddenly all started to look concerned. Then husband from couple pointed towards footsteps. They began to observe them. They sensed plenty of footsteps were there. Watchman “ During day few people came to work there.” She nodded. She said “ I must talk with secretary.” She immediately called secretary. All society members came to discuss. They sat together & they all began to panic. They all decided to see CCTV. She was so scared. She knew that she heard knock but she decided to back out. “ Forget it. This might be wind.” All looked towards her with confusion. “ But you disturbed our sleep for your imaginary fear.” She immediately apologised. She decided that she needed help. She needed to visit to Doctor. She started to think about psychiatrist. She said “ I am sorry. I will visit Doctor. Something wrong with my brain.” They didn’t say anything. She ran in house. She was so sad. She began to cry. Then she searched for Psychiatrist. She knew that she was losing her mind. She had no doubt about it. But then society secretary called her down again. She came down. They all sat with her & she told them everything. Many members smiled. “ This is not big madness.” “ Yes..yes it is normal.” Another lady agreed. “ We all imagined sometimes. It alright. So which Psychiatrist you are planning to visit?” She felt so nervous. She started to think about different names. “ I am confused.” Then they suggested some names. She felt relieved. Next day she took appointment. She waited & when she entered, she told everything. Psychiatrist gave her confused look. Psychiatrist “ Are you sure that you imagined?” “ Yes!” “ Did you check CCTV?” “ No..” “ Then why you assumed?” “ I feel they think I am mad. I feel many people think that way.” “ Did anyone called you mad?!” “ No..no.. but I feel they dislike me. I prefer to be alone.” “ Did they tell you not to come or you don’t go.” “ I feel they don’t want me. I don’t understand what is wrong with me. But I don’t feel they like me.” Then she began to answer Psychiatrist. Psychiatrist smiled & said “ I don’t feel anyone is avoiding you. In fact they seem to like you. I talked with your neighbour today who called me to ask if you come.” She felt so nervous. They were spying on her. She was angry too. Psychiatrist added “ She was not spying. She asked since she felt that you are not hallucinating. She kept telling me that you are perfect. She didn’t understand why did you feel that you imagined. Now I understood why. Since you have problem of personal avoidance disorder. In this you kept imagining that people will hate you when people around you like you in every way.” She felt so nervous. She was not sure about this. She started to talk with Psychiatrist. She began to relax. She wanted to feel relaxed so she decided to trust him. She started to think about every thing in positive way. She began to sense that this Psychiatrist was helping her. She was feeling so nervous but after talking to him step by step she started to feel positive. She began to get hope from mind. She started to discuss with him. Then she came back home. She put headphones entire time on that day. She didn’t hear knocking. But after some days she called on meeting. Another Society member had same complaint. They decided to check CCTV. In fact that member was very upset that they didn’t believe her. She was feeling so relaxed. She told them all to just relax. She said “ We can check CCTV now & due to it I went Psychiatrist & I feeling so happy now so it’s not bad thing at all. We all need to check our brains from time to time.” They all started to laugh. Then they checked CCTV. It turned out that watchman’s guess was right. Those kids were playing games. Those people were called. Society told them about all. Society insisted them to shift from there. That lady began to say “ This mad woman creating story.” She didn’t say anything but Society told them to leave immediately. Secretary said “ Otherwise we will file complaint. Tell Cops you are telling kids to do it. We know you want to reconstruction of society you are connected to builder.” They didn’t say anything. Next day they shifted away. Seema was happy that all went without argument. She began to get upset by it. After it Seema slowly started to going office daily. It suited her perfectly. She was so happy. After some time her Psychiatrist’s treatment stopped. She became relaxed & happy. She was glad that those kids knocked on door since she knew that she needed Psychiatric treatment which she got due to them. She always thanked those naughty kids in heart but she never say it since she knew that it would upset all Society. She was so happy. She couldn’t express it in words. But finally her life was normal again. She was smiling happily every now while listening to music for at least hour. She learnt to value & enjoy her life.
The End
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