Scare of dirt
Sun was shining so bright. Varun just went inside house when his sister screamed " Just close door that sunlight might harm my skin." Varun made strange face. His sister Trusha was too much. She always kept complaining about some thing. He just never understood what was such big issue out of that small thing. But he did as she said. He didn't want to disobey her. She would create big scene out of small things. He didn't want to waste his time on fighting with her. He had lots of important things to do. He knew one thing clearly that his parents were pampering her too much. But he had many things to do instead of just arguing. So he just closed door. He didn't like that darkness so he just decided that he might just go out to study in Library. It was Library of his college and he was out of college for long time. But still librarian was his good friend. He just let him sit in one corner. After all he did many work for college as volunteer. He arranged many events for cheap rate. After all he was one of their student and college helped him a lot. He never wanted to stay in his home. His home was always worst for him. He still remembered those days when he used to argue with his sister for hours just because he wanted to sit in sofa comfortably and she wanted to vacuum it. She used to do that at least four times a day. Now he didn't count times. But he knew that those times must had increased. But then he saw that she had already managed to put cover on Sofa. She didn't let any one take it out. Their Mom just loved in this cleaning. It was so strange. He never liked cleaning so much. They all called him lazy. But he just hated it. As soon as he entered, he smell those worst smell of floor cleaner. He didn't know how many times his Mom cleaned that floor. It was shining in strange way which remind him of those strange sinister stones from some horror film. He just hated cleaning. He sometimes just wished that he would threw dust on those floor to upset their schedule but he didn't dare. He just didn't want to hear those screams. He just went to his room. He took his books and went in library. He started to enter when watchman stopped him. " Sir you can't enter without ID card." " But I use to come here every day." " I know sir but rules are strict now. Yesterday some computers of college were stolen. Now we are not permitted to take any one inside." " But? Do you feel I am robber?" " No..No.. but rules are same for all. We can't say one person 'yes' and 'no' to another person. Try to understand this is question of my job." Varun was so hurt. Then Varun suddenly remembered about that festival which was he planning for Sunday. " And what about festival?" " They have canceled it. They said student can do things as per their choice but outsiders are not permitted." Varun was so upset. He wanted to do that festival. He just looked at that college building lovingly for last time. Since he knew that from now he was going to be outsider to all. That watchman who was talking to him was going to retire next month so no one was going to know him after that. He felt so sad. He wanted to keep going in there. Now he hardly had any place to go except his house. But then he thought about his job. He could go to job very soon. He was excited about it. He wanted to be just out of that house. He hated even to sit inside it. Every one seemed to obsessed with sickness. But then he thought that every one couldn't be wrong. He was just little bit too careless. He felt so sad from his soul. He wanted to return to that college in it's safe building. His every friend went ahead with plan. He was only one who kept coming back to college. Even his principal didn't objected. But his old principal had retired last year and new one was not that much fond of him. He knew that he had to go. He returned home in that dark room. It was too much. He started those lights. But he didn't like idea of using artificial lights during daytime. He just felt caged in that room. He wanted to go out in open light. But he couldn't sit outside in that heat. He needed some shadow. Then he sensed one thing that he had to open window. He needed to sit in that room with sunlight on each point. He had strange desire of that sunlight in that room. He needed to understand those different looks in room. That room had beautiful sunlight which would give pleasant look. He could see that wonderful beauty in room. He felt so enchanted. He just kept looking at it. Every thing in his room was shining in wonderful way. Then he suddenly heard scream from behind.
Trusha " My god!! Why did you open that window? How many times Mom told you not to do that. When will you grow up?" " What? Are you saying that I can't open a window? Don't you need some sunlight?" " Of course I need and I take it properly on morning at perfect time in balcony. But now at this hour? Don't you understand that this sunlight could harm you in many ways? It can give you many serious diseases. It can even burn your skin. Do you want ugly red patches on your skin? I have even read that sun rays have radiation. Don't you feel scared of cancer? Those pains!! Those troubles!!" " Just shut up. No one get cancer just due to few sun rays in room and these are not even sun rays. This is just day light. Are you mad? Don't you understand difference between those harsh heat and normal light." " I am right. Let me ask Mom." She started calling Mom. Varun was frustrated. He was not in mood to hear lecture from Mom. But he knew that he couldn't avoid if he wanted that light in his room. He just couldn't live in darkness like that. Mom came inside room. Mom " My god. Look at your room!! Varun don't you want to clean it." " Mom you clean it at least four times a day." " But still you keep throwing dirt. Why don't you understand cleaning house is necessary for our life. When you are little kid you use to listen to me, you use to be careful. Even when you went to play outside with your friend, then those friends just spoiled you." " They don't spoiled me. They took me out of your clutches and your obsession with health. You never make any thing tasty in life. You just always want it to be healthy. You never want to enjoy life just want to stay in those cages of health consciousness." "So what is wrong in staying healthy?" " What is wrong in sitting in one house entire life except going out for walks and jogging." "Don't you feel that you are missing some thing?" " No. I don't feel it. I just feel one thing health is wealth and I am protecting it so I want to keep that sunlight out of my house. Close window." " I want it in my room. I will close my door. " " But it is not just your room. It is my room too. We share it during day." "Nonsense. You just keep your things hear otherwise you just hate this room due to it's wrong direction." " Yes. It is too near to gas station. It is not healthy. Okay fine. Keep that window open. But don't let that light enter in house." " Fine. I will stay in room. But I will move ahead my way. I don't want one of you entering in this room." Mom " If you keep your room like that you will get risky. I am your Mom. You can't stop me from entering. I will clean room every day." " My god. I can do it." " No you will not you are too lazy. I will manage to protect myself from this light." " But Mom it can be risky." Trusha started crying. " Mom you will die due to this." Varun was so shocked. Mom was consoling her. This was too much. Varun " No need to do that. I will do my cleaning." Varun was so upset by this issue. He didn't want them to think about this. "I will do it all. Don't worry." His Mom looked unsure but finally she agreed. That was last time when his Mom and sister entered in his room. From his heart he just never felt regret about it. He started staying in that room in his style. He never sensed that he started getting just opposite of them. He started keeping dirt on every corner of room. He just didn't care. His Mom was not entering. His food was served just outside his door. But soon he told his Mom not to send it. He started ordering food from outside only. His Mom hated it all. But she didn't want all that pollution in house so she forced Dad to create another door for him. It was hard to do. But still they managed to create it. They gave him room near wall which can be opened in corridor. At beginning society objected but then Dad slowly convinced them. His family didn't want to go near him. They all were treating him like some infected person. Slowly he began to accept it. He was odd person who just hated cleaning. He kept giving interviews and finally he got job. He was so glad. He bought some sweets but his Mom looked so scared even when he tried to give it in her hand. He was sure that no one was going to eat them. They no longer liked to even talk to him. But he knew that in office he might make some friends who really care for him. He just kept all his hopes on his office only. He started to plan every thing which he needed to get started in his office. It was his only hope inside him in life.
Varun finally managed to get nice job. He was so happy. He went inside office. But he suddenly felt that something was missing from his heart. He was so scared from mind. He went in that office. But he didn't feel same feeling as he felt as if he just didn't want to talk. He sensed strange kind of shyness. He didn't look around. He was so scared of that stares. It was totally wrong. He needed to get friendly with every one. He always used to act like that. But college was different thing. No one was already adjusted in it. He was new and every one was new too. But in case of office they all were settled. He was new. He sensed it as soon as he entered in that office. They all were busy while working and chatting with each other. He felt as he was alien to them. He wanted to become one of them. But he knew that they all were already friends with each other. He was so scared. He went inside while looking at floor. He started understanding one fact that he must create friendship but it was going to be hard. He just decided that he must meet Boss first. He went in cabin. His Boss was not friendly but he was also not scary. His Boss was just interested in work so he explained his work. He went back to his chair and started working. He had to work hard since he didn't got much speed in typing. He had to do it again and again. He had to work hard to get it proper. He had to work on every step. He started doing it all. But he was not getting speed as others had. He just kept doing work. He didn't even had time to even look around. He had to pay full attention to just his work. He needed speed to move fast which he didn't had. He just couldn't able to complete his work. He worked so hard to complete it but he didn't manage to do it. Soon lunch hour was started but he was far behind in his work so he had to sit even during lunch hours on his computer only. He started eating his lunch while doing work on computer. He also sensed one thing that no one was interested in him at all. They all just went away with their friends without waiting for him. But any way he couldn't have claim on them. They were not his friends. He felt so alone there. He just sensed one thing. Office was that place in which he just supposed to work. He didn't going to have any life inside which would give happiness to his soul. He worked hard for whole day. Then he went in home. He sat before computer again. His speed was just not helping him. He was typing so slow. So he started forgetting cleaning of his room. His room was started to get more and more dirty. Since no one was going to come inside he just kept it that way. His small room was his whole world. He started working faster slowly. But no one seemed to care to give him company. He started sitting a lot with his lunch box. He was so lonely in that office. No one was interested in him. Slowly he started to go out. Their was sea near his office. It was wonderful view. There were benches kept to sit. He began to go and sat there every time. He started to enjoy sea. He began to watch tides which were so wonderful on every point. He started staying there for hours. He was no longer interested even in going home. One day he was sitting there when a fellow came with bags. He looked at him in strange way. He was old fellow. Then he slowly smiled. " Hello I am Mr. Mishra. I am watching you every day. Do you come every day to wait for someone?" " No..NO..I just come here to watch sea." " I thought so. Since I never saw any one with you." Varun suddenly began to feel uncomfortable. He wanted to sit alone and Mr. Mishra was irritating him. But Mr. Mishra didn't seem to care about it. He just kept chatting with him. Varun wanted to be felt alone but he sensed one thing that Mr. Mishra was not going to support it. Mr. Mishra kept talking. Finally Varun said bye to him and came home. He was upset by this change. Since from that day Mr. Mishra started sitting with him on every day. He was a retired man. He had two daughters. One was married and second was still searching for husband. His wife was nice lady and great cook. But his wife was also careless about health. So Varun was forced to listen every thing about Mr. Mishra. He just didn't had any option. Mr. Mishra seemed to find him. Actually not Mr. Mishra but his dogs started to finding him. They seemed to fall in love with him. Actually Varun also started slowly get attached to them. He never sensed his involvement until one day suddenly Mr. Mishra stopped coming. He started feeling so much. He felt one thought only if he had took his mobile number. He just started missing them all. He was no longer happy in his one small dirty room.
Varun sensed for first time that something was wrong with him. He wanted to chat with people. But he felt one thing that he couldn't. He tried one day. He went to another table. He started to talk with that colleague. It was clear that colleague was not much happy to see him. In fact he looked upset. " What did you want?" Varun was so hurt. He expected at least some greeting. But that fellow just jumped on matter. It was suggesting that he didn't want to chitchat with Varun. " Actually I was little busy since my work was pending." Varun felt so accord. One thing was clear that this fellow was not interested in talking to Varun. Varun didn't want to force him. Varun " I just want to borrow a pen. I will return it." That fellow smiled. He gave his pen. Then suddenly another fellow screamed from other table " No need to return. It is pen of office only." Suddenly that fellow looked angry. That fellow " Return it since I need it too." " Of course." Varun could hear every one was laughing on him. He knew that he just managed to make wrong attempt. He went back to his chair. He wanted to make friendship but nothing was working. He just felt so sad. He just didn't understand why did he even try. He knew that no one was going to make friendship with him. Still he couldn't reduce his hope. He started working again. From that day he just started locking himself in his room. One day suddenly his Mom appeared on door of his room. She didn't came inside room. Mom " Actually your Auntie send one marriage proposal. Do you want to see that girl? I mean you need to get married now. How long you are going to stay alone in this condition." " Mom I am fine. I need some time to think about it. I can't keep that girl in just this room." " No..No that is not problem. We have booked different house for you. You can settle in it as per your wish. Actually in this way. You can move over there. Then you can live your life as per your wish. Your sister will get this room." Varun understood what his Mom meant. They didn't want his dirty room in their house. "Fine Mom. Do as you wish?" Then it all settled. That girl came to meet him. That girl was nice looking but she was too modern. She just didn't like Varun's style. She was expecting maid and servant from him. Since she was planning to do job. He didn't mind it. But he felt her attitude was strange. She was giving him inferiority on every point. He felt so upset. He sensed one thing clearly. That girl considered him too less than her. He knew that she was saying yes to this proposal since she expected a separate house. She didn't want joint family. But he didn't like her. He felt as if he was nothing before her. He wanted some girl who accept him with his fault as his wife but this girl was too much. He talked with her but he decided that he didn't need girl of this type. He finally said no to her. But after that he started to sense that he needed different type of wife. But soon his spirit was reduced regarding finding wife. He began to think that he was better off alone. He started live in his one room. Then he started working in office daily alone on same computer. He started watching tides. But then one day suddenly Mr. Mishra's dogs came running to him. He felt so happy. But then he got upset when he saw that it was a lady who was taking them. But that lady smiled " Are you Varun?" " Yes." "Dad use to talk about you every day. He just loved you." Varun was glad to understood she was Mr. Mishra's daughter. Varun " Where is Mr. Mishra?" She looked sad. " Dad died due to heart attack suddenly." Varun wanted to cry now. His last hope of happiness seemed vanished. She turned to him " You seemed to be crush." With her kind words he started crying. He just found it hard to control himself. He knew that it was wrong every one was looking at him. But she kept consoling him. Finally she turned to him " Can I suggest you some thing?" " Yes." "Go to this Doctor." She gave him card of psychiatrist. Varun didn't question her. He sensed it long time ago that he needed one. But he was scared to voice that thought. He was so glad to get that number without asking he said in low voice " Thank you." " You are always welcome. I went to this Doctor after my father's death. I just felt so hopeless. It really helped. He might take charges but they are worth it. It is like spending some money on our luxuries." Varun nodded. Any way money was not his concern on that moment. He just wanted to talk about his problem with some one. He called that psychiatrist immediately. A lady gave him appointment. But he wrote it down and didn't go.
From that day every day Varun began to sit there and Mr. Mishra's daughter started to come there. Sometimes she came alone. Sometimes she came with her son or husband. They all seemed nice and friendly. Step by step they gave him courage to go to psychiatrist. On day of appointment he took a day off from office. He just didn't able to relax. He had to go out on office time since he didn't want his Mom to sense some thing was different. He knew that his Mom was already irritated with him regarding rejection of those girls. He just decided that it might be better if he should stay separate before marriage. He told that to his Mom since he wanted to manage every thing in his way. But no one was willing. His determination was so strong that he kept convincing his Mom. When he started talking about his habits, his tendency to keep things dirty and sickness all might suffered due to it. Then his sister was so scared. She started crying and supporting him. Then finally they had to give up. So he managed to get separate house. His Mom was not excited about it. So she was not visiting him. But he decided to use this time to set up his house. He went to different shops. He purchased furniture. He managed to give his nice look to his house. He felt nice while sitting there. Then finally he went to psychiatrist. Every patient was called then they all went out. He was observing their faces. But he sensed one thing that he could able to guess what they felt. He just felt so scared. Then finally receptionist told him to go inside. He went inside. He slowly told psychiatrist every thing. Psychiatrist listened to him with attention and then finally he asked " So when are you going to bring your sister and mother?" " My sister and mother? But I am the one who is having problem." Psychiatrist gave nice laugh which was encouraging that for first time he sensed nothing was wrong in him. Psychiatrist " You are fine. Just normal depression due to stress. Actual problem is in your Mom which is shifted in your sister. You upset because they kept telling you that you are wrong. But you are right. You don't have any problem." " So it will be better that I just avoid them." " No..No..you should try to bring your sister here. Don't you have any idea?" " I don't know but." " Convince her that she need routine check up. Tell her I will scan her brain for tumors. She will come with it immediately. I think even your Mom will give her company." Varun was shocked to here this. Psychiatrist " Actually your Mom is suffering from Mysophobia which she unknowingly shifted from herself to her daughter. It is unnecessary fear of germs. It might happen due to mental stress. It is part of Obsessive compulsive disorder. Actually mothers normally prefer to hide their troubles from kids. Do you sense any trouble?" Varun started thinking. He remembered many times there were loud voices from his parents room. His father just came to meet them few times. For first time he just thought that his mother might not be happy with this adjustment. He never questioned his father since he hardly had any time for them. He sensed some thing was wrong. Varun " I might talk to my sister but then I feel why don't you talk to my Mom?" "Now that is excellent idea. Give me her number." Varun gave it and then he said bye to psychiatrist. After that he didn't phoned psychiatrist but he sensed difference in his Mom. His Mom was no longer so much obsessed with cleaning. She even started entering in his room. One day she even came out to chat with him. He didn't ask her about his father or any thing that could hurt her. But he sensed one thing that his Mom was visiting psychiatrist and it was curing her. Then one day he finally went out with his Mom and sister to beach then all sat before tides. He was relaxed since now no one was scared of germs. They knew that they had Doctor to cure them. Then suddenly dogs came barking. He played with them. His Mom and sister looked scared and disgusted at first then slowly they got adjust. But when that dogs went away, his Mom said most shocked thing. "Varun do you want to pet a dog?" " Yes Mom." His sister " No..No..MOm." "You can keep it. It is your choice." Varun was so happy. His sister hated dog but his Mom loved that dog cute who Varun selected from pet shop. Slowly even his sister started to playing with him. The girl who was scared of mild sun rays began to play with dogs. Varun smiled so happily. He thanked psychiatrist from heart for making every thing right for him.
The End
Sun was shining so bright. Varun just went inside house when his sister screamed " Just close door that sunlight might harm my skin." Varun made strange face. His sister Trusha was too much. She always kept complaining about some thing. He just never understood what was such big issue out of that small thing. But he did as she said. He didn't want to disobey her. She would create big scene out of small things. He didn't want to waste his time on fighting with her. He had lots of important things to do. He knew one thing clearly that his parents were pampering her too much. But he had many things to do instead of just arguing. So he just closed door. He didn't like that darkness so he just decided that he might just go out to study in Library. It was Library of his college and he was out of college for long time. But still librarian was his good friend. He just let him sit in one corner. After all he did many work for college as volunteer. He arranged many events for cheap rate. After all he was one of their student and college helped him a lot. He never wanted to stay in his home. His home was always worst for him. He still remembered those days when he used to argue with his sister for hours just because he wanted to sit in sofa comfortably and she wanted to vacuum it. She used to do that at least four times a day. Now he didn't count times. But he knew that those times must had increased. But then he saw that she had already managed to put cover on Sofa. She didn't let any one take it out. Their Mom just loved in this cleaning. It was so strange. He never liked cleaning so much. They all called him lazy. But he just hated it. As soon as he entered, he smell those worst smell of floor cleaner. He didn't know how many times his Mom cleaned that floor. It was shining in strange way which remind him of those strange sinister stones from some horror film. He just hated cleaning. He sometimes just wished that he would threw dust on those floor to upset their schedule but he didn't dare. He just didn't want to hear those screams. He just went to his room. He took his books and went in library. He started to enter when watchman stopped him. " Sir you can't enter without ID card." " But I use to come here every day." " I know sir but rules are strict now. Yesterday some computers of college were stolen. Now we are not permitted to take any one inside." " But? Do you feel I am robber?" " No..No.. but rules are same for all. We can't say one person 'yes' and 'no' to another person. Try to understand this is question of my job." Varun was so hurt. Then Varun suddenly remembered about that festival which was he planning for Sunday. " And what about festival?" " They have canceled it. They said student can do things as per their choice but outsiders are not permitted." Varun was so upset. He wanted to do that festival. He just looked at that college building lovingly for last time. Since he knew that from now he was going to be outsider to all. That watchman who was talking to him was going to retire next month so no one was going to know him after that. He felt so sad. He wanted to keep going in there. Now he hardly had any place to go except his house. But then he thought about his job. He could go to job very soon. He was excited about it. He wanted to be just out of that house. He hated even to sit inside it. Every one seemed to obsessed with sickness. But then he thought that every one couldn't be wrong. He was just little bit too careless. He felt so sad from his soul. He wanted to return to that college in it's safe building. His every friend went ahead with plan. He was only one who kept coming back to college. Even his principal didn't objected. But his old principal had retired last year and new one was not that much fond of him. He knew that he had to go. He returned home in that dark room. It was too much. He started those lights. But he didn't like idea of using artificial lights during daytime. He just felt caged in that room. He wanted to go out in open light. But he couldn't sit outside in that heat. He needed some shadow. Then he sensed one thing that he had to open window. He needed to sit in that room with sunlight on each point. He had strange desire of that sunlight in that room. He needed to understand those different looks in room. That room had beautiful sunlight which would give pleasant look. He could see that wonderful beauty in room. He felt so enchanted. He just kept looking at it. Every thing in his room was shining in wonderful way. Then he suddenly heard scream from behind.
Trusha " My god!! Why did you open that window? How many times Mom told you not to do that. When will you grow up?" " What? Are you saying that I can't open a window? Don't you need some sunlight?" " Of course I need and I take it properly on morning at perfect time in balcony. But now at this hour? Don't you understand that this sunlight could harm you in many ways? It can give you many serious diseases. It can even burn your skin. Do you want ugly red patches on your skin? I have even read that sun rays have radiation. Don't you feel scared of cancer? Those pains!! Those troubles!!" " Just shut up. No one get cancer just due to few sun rays in room and these are not even sun rays. This is just day light. Are you mad? Don't you understand difference between those harsh heat and normal light." " I am right. Let me ask Mom." She started calling Mom. Varun was frustrated. He was not in mood to hear lecture from Mom. But he knew that he couldn't avoid if he wanted that light in his room. He just couldn't live in darkness like that. Mom came inside room. Mom " My god. Look at your room!! Varun don't you want to clean it." " Mom you clean it at least four times a day." " But still you keep throwing dirt. Why don't you understand cleaning house is necessary for our life. When you are little kid you use to listen to me, you use to be careful. Even when you went to play outside with your friend, then those friends just spoiled you." " They don't spoiled me. They took me out of your clutches and your obsession with health. You never make any thing tasty in life. You just always want it to be healthy. You never want to enjoy life just want to stay in those cages of health consciousness." "So what is wrong in staying healthy?" " What is wrong in sitting in one house entire life except going out for walks and jogging." "Don't you feel that you are missing some thing?" " No. I don't feel it. I just feel one thing health is wealth and I am protecting it so I want to keep that sunlight out of my house. Close window." " I want it in my room. I will close my door. " " But it is not just your room. It is my room too. We share it during day." "Nonsense. You just keep your things hear otherwise you just hate this room due to it's wrong direction." " Yes. It is too near to gas station. It is not healthy. Okay fine. Keep that window open. But don't let that light enter in house." " Fine. I will stay in room. But I will move ahead my way. I don't want one of you entering in this room." Mom " If you keep your room like that you will get risky. I am your Mom. You can't stop me from entering. I will clean room every day." " My god. I can do it." " No you will not you are too lazy. I will manage to protect myself from this light." " But Mom it can be risky." Trusha started crying. " Mom you will die due to this." Varun was so shocked. Mom was consoling her. This was too much. Varun " No need to do that. I will do my cleaning." Varun was so upset by this issue. He didn't want them to think about this. "I will do it all. Don't worry." His Mom looked unsure but finally she agreed. That was last time when his Mom and sister entered in his room. From his heart he just never felt regret about it. He started staying in that room in his style. He never sensed that he started getting just opposite of them. He started keeping dirt on every corner of room. He just didn't care. His Mom was not entering. His food was served just outside his door. But soon he told his Mom not to send it. He started ordering food from outside only. His Mom hated it all. But she didn't want all that pollution in house so she forced Dad to create another door for him. It was hard to do. But still they managed to create it. They gave him room near wall which can be opened in corridor. At beginning society objected but then Dad slowly convinced them. His family didn't want to go near him. They all were treating him like some infected person. Slowly he began to accept it. He was odd person who just hated cleaning. He kept giving interviews and finally he got job. He was so glad. He bought some sweets but his Mom looked so scared even when he tried to give it in her hand. He was sure that no one was going to eat them. They no longer liked to even talk to him. But he knew that in office he might make some friends who really care for him. He just kept all his hopes on his office only. He started to plan every thing which he needed to get started in his office. It was his only hope inside him in life.
Varun finally managed to get nice job. He was so happy. He went inside office. But he suddenly felt that something was missing from his heart. He was so scared from mind. He went in that office. But he didn't feel same feeling as he felt as if he just didn't want to talk. He sensed strange kind of shyness. He didn't look around. He was so scared of that stares. It was totally wrong. He needed to get friendly with every one. He always used to act like that. But college was different thing. No one was already adjusted in it. He was new and every one was new too. But in case of office they all were settled. He was new. He sensed it as soon as he entered in that office. They all were busy while working and chatting with each other. He felt as he was alien to them. He wanted to become one of them. But he knew that they all were already friends with each other. He was so scared. He went inside while looking at floor. He started understanding one fact that he must create friendship but it was going to be hard. He just decided that he must meet Boss first. He went in cabin. His Boss was not friendly but he was also not scary. His Boss was just interested in work so he explained his work. He went back to his chair and started working. He had to work hard since he didn't got much speed in typing. He had to do it again and again. He had to work hard to get it proper. He had to work on every step. He started doing it all. But he was not getting speed as others had. He just kept doing work. He didn't even had time to even look around. He had to pay full attention to just his work. He needed speed to move fast which he didn't had. He just couldn't able to complete his work. He worked so hard to complete it but he didn't manage to do it. Soon lunch hour was started but he was far behind in his work so he had to sit even during lunch hours on his computer only. He started eating his lunch while doing work on computer. He also sensed one thing that no one was interested in him at all. They all just went away with their friends without waiting for him. But any way he couldn't have claim on them. They were not his friends. He felt so alone there. He just sensed one thing. Office was that place in which he just supposed to work. He didn't going to have any life inside which would give happiness to his soul. He worked hard for whole day. Then he went in home. He sat before computer again. His speed was just not helping him. He was typing so slow. So he started forgetting cleaning of his room. His room was started to get more and more dirty. Since no one was going to come inside he just kept it that way. His small room was his whole world. He started working faster slowly. But no one seemed to care to give him company. He started sitting a lot with his lunch box. He was so lonely in that office. No one was interested in him. Slowly he started to go out. Their was sea near his office. It was wonderful view. There were benches kept to sit. He began to go and sat there every time. He started to enjoy sea. He began to watch tides which were so wonderful on every point. He started staying there for hours. He was no longer interested even in going home. One day he was sitting there when a fellow came with bags. He looked at him in strange way. He was old fellow. Then he slowly smiled. " Hello I am Mr. Mishra. I am watching you every day. Do you come every day to wait for someone?" " No..NO..I just come here to watch sea." " I thought so. Since I never saw any one with you." Varun suddenly began to feel uncomfortable. He wanted to sit alone and Mr. Mishra was irritating him. But Mr. Mishra didn't seem to care about it. He just kept chatting with him. Varun wanted to be felt alone but he sensed one thing that Mr. Mishra was not going to support it. Mr. Mishra kept talking. Finally Varun said bye to him and came home. He was upset by this change. Since from that day Mr. Mishra started sitting with him on every day. He was a retired man. He had two daughters. One was married and second was still searching for husband. His wife was nice lady and great cook. But his wife was also careless about health. So Varun was forced to listen every thing about Mr. Mishra. He just didn't had any option. Mr. Mishra seemed to find him. Actually not Mr. Mishra but his dogs started to finding him. They seemed to fall in love with him. Actually Varun also started slowly get attached to them. He never sensed his involvement until one day suddenly Mr. Mishra stopped coming. He started feeling so much. He felt one thought only if he had took his mobile number. He just started missing them all. He was no longer happy in his one small dirty room.
Varun sensed for first time that something was wrong with him. He wanted to chat with people. But he felt one thing that he couldn't. He tried one day. He went to another table. He started to talk with that colleague. It was clear that colleague was not much happy to see him. In fact he looked upset. " What did you want?" Varun was so hurt. He expected at least some greeting. But that fellow just jumped on matter. It was suggesting that he didn't want to chitchat with Varun. " Actually I was little busy since my work was pending." Varun felt so accord. One thing was clear that this fellow was not interested in talking to Varun. Varun didn't want to force him. Varun " I just want to borrow a pen. I will return it." That fellow smiled. He gave his pen. Then suddenly another fellow screamed from other table " No need to return. It is pen of office only." Suddenly that fellow looked angry. That fellow " Return it since I need it too." " Of course." Varun could hear every one was laughing on him. He knew that he just managed to make wrong attempt. He went back to his chair. He wanted to make friendship but nothing was working. He just felt so sad. He just didn't understand why did he even try. He knew that no one was going to make friendship with him. Still he couldn't reduce his hope. He started working again. From that day he just started locking himself in his room. One day suddenly his Mom appeared on door of his room. She didn't came inside room. Mom " Actually your Auntie send one marriage proposal. Do you want to see that girl? I mean you need to get married now. How long you are going to stay alone in this condition." " Mom I am fine. I need some time to think about it. I can't keep that girl in just this room." " No..No that is not problem. We have booked different house for you. You can settle in it as per your wish. Actually in this way. You can move over there. Then you can live your life as per your wish. Your sister will get this room." Varun understood what his Mom meant. They didn't want his dirty room in their house. "Fine Mom. Do as you wish?" Then it all settled. That girl came to meet him. That girl was nice looking but she was too modern. She just didn't like Varun's style. She was expecting maid and servant from him. Since she was planning to do job. He didn't mind it. But he felt her attitude was strange. She was giving him inferiority on every point. He felt so upset. He sensed one thing clearly. That girl considered him too less than her. He knew that she was saying yes to this proposal since she expected a separate house. She didn't want joint family. But he didn't like her. He felt as if he was nothing before her. He wanted some girl who accept him with his fault as his wife but this girl was too much. He talked with her but he decided that he didn't need girl of this type. He finally said no to her. But after that he started to sense that he needed different type of wife. But soon his spirit was reduced regarding finding wife. He began to think that he was better off alone. He started live in his one room. Then he started working in office daily alone on same computer. He started watching tides. But then one day suddenly Mr. Mishra's dogs came running to him. He felt so happy. But then he got upset when he saw that it was a lady who was taking them. But that lady smiled " Are you Varun?" " Yes." "Dad use to talk about you every day. He just loved you." Varun was glad to understood she was Mr. Mishra's daughter. Varun " Where is Mr. Mishra?" She looked sad. " Dad died due to heart attack suddenly." Varun wanted to cry now. His last hope of happiness seemed vanished. She turned to him " You seemed to be crush." With her kind words he started crying. He just found it hard to control himself. He knew that it was wrong every one was looking at him. But she kept consoling him. Finally she turned to him " Can I suggest you some thing?" " Yes." "Go to this Doctor." She gave him card of psychiatrist. Varun didn't question her. He sensed it long time ago that he needed one. But he was scared to voice that thought. He was so glad to get that number without asking he said in low voice " Thank you." " You are always welcome. I went to this Doctor after my father's death. I just felt so hopeless. It really helped. He might take charges but they are worth it. It is like spending some money on our luxuries." Varun nodded. Any way money was not his concern on that moment. He just wanted to talk about his problem with some one. He called that psychiatrist immediately. A lady gave him appointment. But he wrote it down and didn't go.
From that day every day Varun began to sit there and Mr. Mishra's daughter started to come there. Sometimes she came alone. Sometimes she came with her son or husband. They all seemed nice and friendly. Step by step they gave him courage to go to psychiatrist. On day of appointment he took a day off from office. He just didn't able to relax. He had to go out on office time since he didn't want his Mom to sense some thing was different. He knew that his Mom was already irritated with him regarding rejection of those girls. He just decided that it might be better if he should stay separate before marriage. He told that to his Mom since he wanted to manage every thing in his way. But no one was willing. His determination was so strong that he kept convincing his Mom. When he started talking about his habits, his tendency to keep things dirty and sickness all might suffered due to it. Then his sister was so scared. She started crying and supporting him. Then finally they had to give up. So he managed to get separate house. His Mom was not excited about it. So she was not visiting him. But he decided to use this time to set up his house. He went to different shops. He purchased furniture. He managed to give his nice look to his house. He felt nice while sitting there. Then finally he went to psychiatrist. Every patient was called then they all went out. He was observing their faces. But he sensed one thing that he could able to guess what they felt. He just felt so scared. Then finally receptionist told him to go inside. He went inside. He slowly told psychiatrist every thing. Psychiatrist listened to him with attention and then finally he asked " So when are you going to bring your sister and mother?" " My sister and mother? But I am the one who is having problem." Psychiatrist gave nice laugh which was encouraging that for first time he sensed nothing was wrong in him. Psychiatrist " You are fine. Just normal depression due to stress. Actual problem is in your Mom which is shifted in your sister. You upset because they kept telling you that you are wrong. But you are right. You don't have any problem." " So it will be better that I just avoid them." " No..No..you should try to bring your sister here. Don't you have any idea?" " I don't know but." " Convince her that she need routine check up. Tell her I will scan her brain for tumors. She will come with it immediately. I think even your Mom will give her company." Varun was shocked to here this. Psychiatrist " Actually your Mom is suffering from Mysophobia which she unknowingly shifted from herself to her daughter. It is unnecessary fear of germs. It might happen due to mental stress. It is part of Obsessive compulsive disorder. Actually mothers normally prefer to hide their troubles from kids. Do you sense any trouble?" Varun started thinking. He remembered many times there were loud voices from his parents room. His father just came to meet them few times. For first time he just thought that his mother might not be happy with this adjustment. He never questioned his father since he hardly had any time for them. He sensed some thing was wrong. Varun " I might talk to my sister but then I feel why don't you talk to my Mom?" "Now that is excellent idea. Give me her number." Varun gave it and then he said bye to psychiatrist. After that he didn't phoned psychiatrist but he sensed difference in his Mom. His Mom was no longer so much obsessed with cleaning. She even started entering in his room. One day she even came out to chat with him. He didn't ask her about his father or any thing that could hurt her. But he sensed one thing that his Mom was visiting psychiatrist and it was curing her. Then one day he finally went out with his Mom and sister to beach then all sat before tides. He was relaxed since now no one was scared of germs. They knew that they had Doctor to cure them. Then suddenly dogs came barking. He played with them. His Mom and sister looked scared and disgusted at first then slowly they got adjust. But when that dogs went away, his Mom said most shocked thing. "Varun do you want to pet a dog?" " Yes Mom." His sister " No..No..MOm." "You can keep it. It is your choice." Varun was so happy. His sister hated dog but his Mom loved that dog cute who Varun selected from pet shop. Slowly even his sister started to playing with him. The girl who was scared of mild sun rays began to play with dogs. Varun smiled so happily. He thanked psychiatrist from heart for making every thing right for him.
The End
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