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Jivan was so excited about his new job in that hotel. A perfect place to start his career as waiter. He couldn't believe that he was doing it. His Dad would have never let him try this. He always wanted to lock him in house. He needed a break. He must learn to move ahead on his own. He started to walk towards that hotel. He didn't want to take his car on first day. Then he saw his friend Rocky coming towards him. Rocky was so tired by fast running that he became breathless. Still he kept talking. " Jivan I don't feel it is right. You are doing too low job compared to your standard." " What standard? I am not even graduated. I can't get better job than this." " Because you are too small to manage to graduate. When you grow up then you will become more qualified and you will get better job." Jivan started laughing. Rocky was confused. Rocky " What happened?" " You are just wasting time. You know me. I will never listen to you." " But it is scary." " What is scary in it?" " You don't know how did they treat you." " I just don't mind." Jivan kept walking and finally they reached to that hotel. There was long line of waiter which was waiting outside. Slowly Rocky and Jivan joined them. Jivan could clearly see that manager of that hotel was not good man. He seemed like some one who must be involved in some illegal business. Jivan felt little bit scared for first time. He started cursing them all. Then he slowly even began to slap some of them. He started coming ahead one by one. But as he started coming towards Jivan. Rocky slowly pushed him behind. That owner " Who is this chocolate hero? Is he come in search of work? " Jivan was so scared. He slapped him in such harsh way. Jivan felt so much pain. He just screamed. Rocky came between them. Rocky " He just came to talk with me. Go.." Jivan nodded and ran away. He didn't stop until he didn't finally reached to his house. It was most scary day for him. He just kept running to house. He didn't stop for any vehicle. When he reached home, his Mom was shocked to see him in this way. Mom " What happened? Are you all right?" " Yes Mom. I was just little bit tired." " But where did you went?" " No where in particular. Just went around to jog." His Mom didn't look convinced. But still she just smiled. His Mom was like that only. She always acted in peaceful way. Mom " Okay go in your room and change your clothes. I am waiting for you on breakfast table." "Sure Mom." He ran in room. But then suddenly his Mom asked " Wait what..What happened to your cheek?" He was so confused. He touched his cheek. It was paining. He knew that he made biggest mistake by not listening to Rocky. But he decided that he could lie to his Mom little bit. " Mom I was playing outside and fall." " Playing? What?" " Basketball." "Basketball. Where? There is no basket ball court available here." " I know Mom. I assume the court but that ball hit on wall and come back." Mom started laughing even servants joined them. But soon some one came running with ice. He started getting pampered again. He hated pampering but today he felt lucky for it. Rocky was in worst situation. He couldn't imagine working there. Suddenly he got an idea. Jivan " Mom why don't we keep Rocky as our servant?" " Who? Your friend? But we don't need one more servant and we can't throw away old one. Can we?" Jivan nodded." Any way Rocky got nice job in hotel with big salary. His mother was telling me. We keep his mother as servant now we can't keep Rocky. His salary demand are more." Jivan nodded. He knew that if he would tell his Mom whole truth, she would give any salary to Rocky and keep it. But he didn't want to take risk so he just nodded. He went back in his room. He decided that he needed few days. Then he could find nice job. He could convince his Dad to take him in company. He liked this idea. But he knew that his Dad would not talk properly on mobile so he decided to wait until night. When he would convince him personally and manage to get what he want. He smiled at this thought. He decided to call Rocky. But Rocky didn't pick up his mobile so he had to disconnect it. But he felt sure that this time he would rescue his friend without putting himself in difficulty. He smiled happily. He was so pleased with his idea that he started dancing happily on music. He was on top of his world for his perfect plan.
Jivan waited for long time. He waited to take with his Dad. Jivan didn't slept. He could sense whole house was awake. He was apple of their eye. From childhood he was special to all every servant of house cared for him. He just knew that they all were going to stay awake. He just wanted from his heart sometimes they just gave him some place. But they all loved him and it was due to his parents. They were always nice to all servant so they returned their affection to him. He never mind that until now. He started to feel that it was important in life to get privacy. He began to create those effect on their mind since he started going in college. That created this effect in life. They didn't ask but keep awake. He decided that it was not right so he straight a way went to Mom. "Mom actually I am waiting for Dad since I want a nice job for Rocky." His Mom looked relaxed. Mom " Ohh don't worry I will tell your Dad. He will get nice job with nice salary." Jivan was so happy. He just hugged his Mom and went in his room. He immediately called Rocky. But Rocky didn't pick mobile. He was upset with Rocky. He managed a good job for Rocky and Rocky was not even picking up his phone. He decided that he would not quit it. He just kept calling Rocky. He soon lost count regarding how much calls he made to Rocky. Then he decided that it was enough. He changed his cloth and went to sleep. He saw as soon as he closed light many lights in house closed. So many people slept peacefully when they realized that he was asleep. It was so shocking. He sensed that his mobile rang in darkness. His whole room seemed to become alive in darkness. His nice and peaceful sleep was shattered. He was so scared by that sound. He never liked sound of phone specially on night. He normally kept it shut. But today he forgot since he was calling Rocky. He looked at mobile. Rocky was calling him on this time. He looked at digital clock which he kept just because he wanted to check time at night. Actually it was gift from his grand pa. He just liked it due to affection towards grand pa and it's accuracy. It was showing 2.46 a.m. He was so shocked. Rocky never acted this way. He was so angry. He just took call and screamed " Rocky where the hell are you? I was calling you again and again to tell you that I got nice job for you in my Dad's factory. You don't need to do that worst job. Why don't you pick phone? And why are you calling at this hour?" For some time he didn't get answer finally some one answered. But person was not Rocky. " Does this mobile belong to Mr. Rocky?" " Yes who is it? Did he forgot his mobile somewhere?" " May I know with who I am speaking?" " I am Rocky's friend. But who are you?" " It is Inspector Mane. Can you come to hills at this time?" " At this time? Actually I am not permitted to go out like this in night. It is too risky. I mean I can't just took any auto and come to hills. That area is not safe. My parents might object.." " Can I talk to your parent?" " Sure. But they are sleeping. Tell me what happened? Did Rocky forgot to pay some loan? I will pay it for him. I will come tomorrow and pay. Just try to understand. If I disturb my Dad now then Rocky might lose his job before getting it." " I don't feel that Rocky is going to need that job now. Please come to hills with your Dad I found one body with his phone." Jivan didn't believe what he heard. He felt that it was all wrong. But he knew that it must be true. Since he was hearing it, he knew that he had to go. He just started screaming on top of his lungs. He started calling his parents. Soon whole house gathered. He kept crying and his Dad took mobile from him. His Dad started getting ready to go but he stopped him. " I will come with you." Mom " But Jivan." "Let me go Mom. I want to see him." Dad " Let him come. After all I hardly remember Rocky." It was truth. None of them knew Rocky that much except Jivan and his Mom. Since Rocky was his childhood friend but he never came to his house. Rocky preferred playing in garden and Jivan like it. Mom " I know him." " Mom please.." " Okay." Mom hugged him tight before sending him away. They all knew it was hard for him. Rocky was not just his friend but like his brother. He went with Dad to confirm his body. But his heart kept wishing that it might be Rocky's Mobile that was stolen by thief who died. But his heart knew that it was not truth. He just determined that it was fact. He must say proper good bye to his friend.
Jivan went in that deep woods with his Dad. He never allowed to go so deep in woods. He always kept out of those things. He was intellectual. He was suppose to find nice job which would have good effect on life. He knew that he would get it. He still remembered that slap. For first time he sensed that he might had made mistake by keeping Rocky there. He was so tense. He suddenly felt that it was possible that this owner might had managed to hurt him too much. " Dad what happened to Rocky?" " He had accident." " How can they be so sure? It could be murder." " What? Stop this nonsense. Don't say that before cops. It might put us all in problem." Jivan nodded. Then they finally reached to their destination. Jivan felt so much fear. He was shivering on every step. He felt strange sensation in stomach. He felt that he was going to vomit. But he knew that he needed to control himself. Jivan " Dad I want some water." " Water? Ohh my god. I totally forgot it." Dad looked at him. Dad " Are you all right?" " I am fine." Finally they began to see police vans. Their lights began to shine. They slowly went near them. They started coming ahead but a cop stopped. Cop " Where are you going?" Dad " Actually we received call on my son's mobile." Then suddenly an officer screamed " Send them here. They have come to identify body." That cop told them to go inside. Jivan was so scared. He kept looking around that forest was really spooky on night. He started to go near that body. He didn't want to fall but suddenly he found himself on ground. Due to rain whole ground was dirty. He could easily sensed so many insects might be waiting there. He must had screamed. Since every one came running. He was injured on few places. But he could see Police was upset by his behavior. They must had expected bravery. Dad " Are you all right?" Jivan " I am fine." " My god you are bleeding." He screamed on Dad " I am fine!!" Every one started looking at him. He gave a forced smile. " Dad I just said I am fine so let's forget it." Police " You need to wash your face. You are too dirty." Jivan was so upset by this. He didn't want to wash himself there. But he had to. Police office pointed out towards jeep. Another officer " That's why I always suggest witness have to be called in hospital or Police station. They fall or vomit just destroy evidence. " Other Police " Stop it. Nothing like that happened. He just slip such things often happened due to rain. He was far away. " " Sure with pampered babies like that." Jivan was so upset by this. He started cleaning face again and again. It was burning but he was doing it again and again. He waited to make himself tough. He started to understand that he had to make himself hard before world. Jivan " Let's go." Jivan went near corpse of Rocky. It was worst. He wanted to scream to or cry. But he didn't. He just turned to Cop and told him " This is my friend Rocky. I feel he might be murdered." " No. He can't be since it was accident." " But." " Don't you hear me. Go away." That officer screamed. Every cop started looking at him with anger. He just ran ahead towards car. He knew that he wanted to tell truth but no one wanted to listen to him. He just had to go away. He could clearly hear his Dad was apologizing for his misbehavior. This was too much. He was right. But he went ahead and sat in car. When Dad returned, he started lecturing. But he didn't understand a word since he didn't care. He just wanted to go home. He just kept looking out of window to locate his home. His Mom was sitting in window. She was shocked to see him in this condition. She kept asking about his injuries but he didn't answer. He just went in room and locked door. He went to shower. He just wanted to clean all dirt. He no longer wanted to talk to any one about Rocky. He just felt one thing that he wanted revenge from his heart from that owner. He decided that he needed to relax in tub. He filled it with warm water and nice scent. When it was filled properly, he sat in it and closed his eyes.
When Jivan open his eyes, he was confused at first but then he looked around. He was that he was just sitting in that tub. He looked around. He felt so exhausted as if he was running around on every place. Then he went near mirror. He was shocked to saw his face. He kept looking at his face. He was injured in so many places. He never thought he got so much hurt by just one fall. He just didn't sense it. He tried to touch his face. Every part was hurting specially his cheek. He applied medicine. He knew that he had move ahead with life. He started moving ahead. But he felt at same time. One part of his heart went missing as if it stopped on that point. He knew that Rocky died accidentally. Still he could took out that doubt. He went to college. He did every thing but he was no longer interested in life. He didn't want to go to movies. At beginning his friends kept asking him but slowly they all understood that he was not interested. He just kept thinking on every day about moving ahead but he just couldn't. He just couldn't forget face of Rocky. On that last moment when he was scared, his heart kept telling him that Rocky was killed by that hotel owner. That hotel owner wanted to hurt him but Rocky put himself ahead of him and died. He felt so much guilty about it. He felt that he was responsible for it all. He just sensed it from his mind that this owner killed Rocky. He decided that he had enough. He decided that he would talk to that officer. After all he knew every thing he had to do it. One day he went out of house in name of college and just went inside Police station. He could sensed that he was scared. But still he went inside. He looked at that officer. He was that nice one. He went slowly near him. " Officer can I talk to you?" " Sure." "Actually I want to talk about Rocky." " What about him? He died in accident." " No he was murdered. I will tell you every thing." Then he told every thing to him step by step. Officer listened all. " Fine. So that person is cruel and mean. I can accept that he needed to be punished because he is slapping you like this. In fact I will personally go and warn him. But that doesn't make him killer." " He is officer. I am sure he must had some proof in his house. Can't you search it?" Other officer started laughing. Other officer " Why are you tolerating this Mum's Boy? He didn't even sense what he was talking. Just one slap and this kiddo felt that it is big crime. When you grow up and stop taking hold of your Mom's hand." Slowly that officer who was sitting ahead him also started laughing. Jivan was so upset. Jivan suddenly understood it all. Jivan knew that they had took money from owner to hide it all. He was so much angry. He started laughing himself. That managed to surprise them. Then he looked at them with full confidence. " You are right. I am nothing compared to you. Just stupid kid. But just wait when this kid began to tell you meanings of this world. You will learn your lesson." That officer " Why are you scaring us?" " No sir I am just offering you help but if you don't need it then I will offer it to some one else." Officer " Get out or I will put you in jail." Jivan just went out of that Police station in anger. He sensed for first time a strange pain in cheek. It was just not stopping. He started to hold it. But it didn't work. He decided that he would go home and take painkiller. He went home. As soon as he went inside, he started to scream for painkiller. His Mom was shocked. Mom " What happened?" " Mom I need painkiller. My cheek is paining so much." " Don't you feel that it was wise to check it properly? I think we should visit Doctor." Jivan " You are right Mom. But gods sake give me some medicine to stop it now." Then suddenly maid came with medicine. He took it. Mom called Doctor. He just went in room and slept. His cheek was killing him. He just wanted to pull it away from face. It was horrible. He just kept sensing pain until that painkiller didn't manage to put him to sleep. He took heavy painkiller which also little bit sleeping dose. He started feeling sleepy. He went to sleep as soon as he relaxed on his bed. He didn't even sense when Doctor came. Doctor checked him. Doctor " Why did you give him such a heavy pain killer without prescription? He was just fine. Now in this condition I can't even ask him question. That medicine was not for common use. It should be on special occasion." " Sorry Doctor he was screaming.." " Just since he was screaming. You will not give him such thing again. Give him normal painkiller like Crocin." " Okay." " So I have to go now when he woke up call me. I just didn't find any thing wrong in him now. I will talk to him and check. And never give that medicine again." " No Doctor. I will not." Jivan's Mom was scared now. She sat near Jivan. He was sleeping peacefully. She just hoped from heart that his pain would gone when he woke up. She started patting him in same way as she used to do when he was child. She was so shocked. When she saw that he was crying and screaming in sleep, she tried to console him. But nothing worked his nightmare just continued disturbing him. She just kept watching him getting worst with helpless expressions. She sensed one thing that matter was going to take worst turn.
Next day when Jivan woke up, he started screaming again. He kept telling his cheek was paining. He just couldn't tolerate that pain. He kept touching his cheek and he started screaming. Doctor was called. Doctor checked his cheek again and again. Doctor " I don't find any thing wrong in that cheek." Jivan " But it is paining too much." Doctor " May be we need to take him to hospital and do some treatment there?" Dad " Now at this moment!!" Jivan " Dad it is too much. Take me to Doctor. I will die with this pain." Every servant and every maid was in his room. They all started to look at Dad with anger. His Dad immediately agreed. When he reached hospital, he was screaming. Many Doctors came. They all just kept checking him without results. Finally they gave him painkiller. But it didn't work. He just kept screaming. It was so shocking for all. They finally gave him sleeping pills. One senior Doctor " I never seen such case. He was screaming with pain but he didn't have any physical trouble." Another Doctor " I have seen many such cases in psychiatric ward." Dad " My son is not mad." "Fine then don't accept it. Try every treatment but finally you need just that psychiatrist." That Doctor just went away. Other Doctors were confused. But they gave him different tests. From that day their test began. He just kept screaming and they just kept doing test on him. His parents were spending so much money that they lost it's count. In fact they longer cared even if they get bankrupt they just wanted result. Finally one day senior Doctor came near Dad " Why don't you take him to psychiatric ward once? Let them try to." Dad " My son is not guinea pig. I am not ready to give you him to experiment. I will find another hospital." Doctor nodded. Doctor " Do as you wish we have experimented many times. We are not ready to do any thing further." Jivan's Dad was so shocked and angry with them. He decided to change hospital. Then they kept changing hospitals for few days without much results. It was getting worst step by step. Jivan began to feel more and more frustrated. Every week they were shifting from one hospital to another hospital. They were doing different tests. But nothing was working. Finally his Dad gave up and decided to take him to psychiatrist. That day he was feeling so much pain in cheek when he was shifted to psychiatric ward. It was hard for him. He didn't like to go in mental ward but that pain was making him so sick. He just kept screaming. Then psychiatrist came. He started to talk with him. Psychiatrist chatted for hours. Then suddenly he asked " Did any one slap you?" " Yes that hotel owner. He must had killed Rocky too." Dad screamed " Rocky died in accident." Psychiatrist " Let him talk. Why don't you just take a walk?" Then his parents went out. Jivan was holding his cheek whole time. But he started telling all. He told every thing. Then he felt little bit relaxed. Pain was still there but he didn't need to scream. Psychiatrist " Actually it is not your pain but your guilt. It is cause of this trouble." " I don't understand." " You are feeling guilty about it. You feel that you might had taken Rocky with you. But you just ran away without taking him." " I never thought that way. He was not my responsibility." " Really then why did you went to Police? It was also not your responsibility when they made it clear that it was accident. That owner didn't seem so wealthy that he could bribe whole legal system. That owner was poor. Can you understand what I am trying to tell?" " But I really feel those pains." " Yes you will since your mind want to punish you. You know in your soul that Rocky must had work for both of you. Since you went missing that owner must have forced him to do so, he was so tired that he slipped and died. You want to prove world you are strong person but son you took wrong way. World never accept it since it want to hurt you. But you are strong enough to ignore it then you can win this race. You need to move ahead in your own way with your own faith never listen world since many people in world just like to dig your grave." " I think you are right but still I feel that pain." Psychiatrist smiled. " Son it will not vanish so easily just by this convincing. It will take time but with me you can do it. For first Jivan felt a hope. Then psychiatrist told him to go out and he went out. He saw his parents were discussing his further treatment. But he didn't care he knew one thing. He needed to move ahead. He still felt those pain but he knew that with his mind only they would vanish. Since they were not true pain. He need to fight against them. He felt so scared sometimes then he looked at psychiatrist and started to hope again.
The End
Jivan was so excited about his new job in that hotel. A perfect place to start his career as waiter. He couldn't believe that he was doing it. His Dad would have never let him try this. He always wanted to lock him in house. He needed a break. He must learn to move ahead on his own. He started to walk towards that hotel. He didn't want to take his car on first day. Then he saw his friend Rocky coming towards him. Rocky was so tired by fast running that he became breathless. Still he kept talking. " Jivan I don't feel it is right. You are doing too low job compared to your standard." " What standard? I am not even graduated. I can't get better job than this." " Because you are too small to manage to graduate. When you grow up then you will become more qualified and you will get better job." Jivan started laughing. Rocky was confused. Rocky " What happened?" " You are just wasting time. You know me. I will never listen to you." " But it is scary." " What is scary in it?" " You don't know how did they treat you." " I just don't mind." Jivan kept walking and finally they reached to that hotel. There was long line of waiter which was waiting outside. Slowly Rocky and Jivan joined them. Jivan could clearly see that manager of that hotel was not good man. He seemed like some one who must be involved in some illegal business. Jivan felt little bit scared for first time. He started cursing them all. Then he slowly even began to slap some of them. He started coming ahead one by one. But as he started coming towards Jivan. Rocky slowly pushed him behind. That owner " Who is this chocolate hero? Is he come in search of work? " Jivan was so scared. He slapped him in such harsh way. Jivan felt so much pain. He just screamed. Rocky came between them. Rocky " He just came to talk with me. Go.." Jivan nodded and ran away. He didn't stop until he didn't finally reached to his house. It was most scary day for him. He just kept running to house. He didn't stop for any vehicle. When he reached home, his Mom was shocked to see him in this way. Mom " What happened? Are you all right?" " Yes Mom. I was just little bit tired." " But where did you went?" " No where in particular. Just went around to jog." His Mom didn't look convinced. But still she just smiled. His Mom was like that only. She always acted in peaceful way. Mom " Okay go in your room and change your clothes. I am waiting for you on breakfast table." "Sure Mom." He ran in room. But then suddenly his Mom asked " Wait what..What happened to your cheek?" He was so confused. He touched his cheek. It was paining. He knew that he made biggest mistake by not listening to Rocky. But he decided that he could lie to his Mom little bit. " Mom I was playing outside and fall." " Playing? What?" " Basketball." "Basketball. Where? There is no basket ball court available here." " I know Mom. I assume the court but that ball hit on wall and come back." Mom started laughing even servants joined them. But soon some one came running with ice. He started getting pampered again. He hated pampering but today he felt lucky for it. Rocky was in worst situation. He couldn't imagine working there. Suddenly he got an idea. Jivan " Mom why don't we keep Rocky as our servant?" " Who? Your friend? But we don't need one more servant and we can't throw away old one. Can we?" Jivan nodded." Any way Rocky got nice job in hotel with big salary. His mother was telling me. We keep his mother as servant now we can't keep Rocky. His salary demand are more." Jivan nodded. He knew that if he would tell his Mom whole truth, she would give any salary to Rocky and keep it. But he didn't want to take risk so he just nodded. He went back in his room. He decided that he needed few days. Then he could find nice job. He could convince his Dad to take him in company. He liked this idea. But he knew that his Dad would not talk properly on mobile so he decided to wait until night. When he would convince him personally and manage to get what he want. He smiled at this thought. He decided to call Rocky. But Rocky didn't pick up his mobile so he had to disconnect it. But he felt sure that this time he would rescue his friend without putting himself in difficulty. He smiled happily. He was so pleased with his idea that he started dancing happily on music. He was on top of his world for his perfect plan.
Jivan waited for long time. He waited to take with his Dad. Jivan didn't slept. He could sense whole house was awake. He was apple of their eye. From childhood he was special to all every servant of house cared for him. He just knew that they all were going to stay awake. He just wanted from his heart sometimes they just gave him some place. But they all loved him and it was due to his parents. They were always nice to all servant so they returned their affection to him. He never mind that until now. He started to feel that it was important in life to get privacy. He began to create those effect on their mind since he started going in college. That created this effect in life. They didn't ask but keep awake. He decided that it was not right so he straight a way went to Mom. "Mom actually I am waiting for Dad since I want a nice job for Rocky." His Mom looked relaxed. Mom " Ohh don't worry I will tell your Dad. He will get nice job with nice salary." Jivan was so happy. He just hugged his Mom and went in his room. He immediately called Rocky. But Rocky didn't pick mobile. He was upset with Rocky. He managed a good job for Rocky and Rocky was not even picking up his phone. He decided that he would not quit it. He just kept calling Rocky. He soon lost count regarding how much calls he made to Rocky. Then he decided that it was enough. He changed his cloth and went to sleep. He saw as soon as he closed light many lights in house closed. So many people slept peacefully when they realized that he was asleep. It was so shocking. He sensed that his mobile rang in darkness. His whole room seemed to become alive in darkness. His nice and peaceful sleep was shattered. He was so scared by that sound. He never liked sound of phone specially on night. He normally kept it shut. But today he forgot since he was calling Rocky. He looked at mobile. Rocky was calling him on this time. He looked at digital clock which he kept just because he wanted to check time at night. Actually it was gift from his grand pa. He just liked it due to affection towards grand pa and it's accuracy. It was showing 2.46 a.m. He was so shocked. Rocky never acted this way. He was so angry. He just took call and screamed " Rocky where the hell are you? I was calling you again and again to tell you that I got nice job for you in my Dad's factory. You don't need to do that worst job. Why don't you pick phone? And why are you calling at this hour?" For some time he didn't get answer finally some one answered. But person was not Rocky. " Does this mobile belong to Mr. Rocky?" " Yes who is it? Did he forgot his mobile somewhere?" " May I know with who I am speaking?" " I am Rocky's friend. But who are you?" " It is Inspector Mane. Can you come to hills at this time?" " At this time? Actually I am not permitted to go out like this in night. It is too risky. I mean I can't just took any auto and come to hills. That area is not safe. My parents might object.." " Can I talk to your parent?" " Sure. But they are sleeping. Tell me what happened? Did Rocky forgot to pay some loan? I will pay it for him. I will come tomorrow and pay. Just try to understand. If I disturb my Dad now then Rocky might lose his job before getting it." " I don't feel that Rocky is going to need that job now. Please come to hills with your Dad I found one body with his phone." Jivan didn't believe what he heard. He felt that it was all wrong. But he knew that it must be true. Since he was hearing it, he knew that he had to go. He just started screaming on top of his lungs. He started calling his parents. Soon whole house gathered. He kept crying and his Dad took mobile from him. His Dad started getting ready to go but he stopped him. " I will come with you." Mom " But Jivan." "Let me go Mom. I want to see him." Dad " Let him come. After all I hardly remember Rocky." It was truth. None of them knew Rocky that much except Jivan and his Mom. Since Rocky was his childhood friend but he never came to his house. Rocky preferred playing in garden and Jivan like it. Mom " I know him." " Mom please.." " Okay." Mom hugged him tight before sending him away. They all knew it was hard for him. Rocky was not just his friend but like his brother. He went with Dad to confirm his body. But his heart kept wishing that it might be Rocky's Mobile that was stolen by thief who died. But his heart knew that it was not truth. He just determined that it was fact. He must say proper good bye to his friend.
Jivan went in that deep woods with his Dad. He never allowed to go so deep in woods. He always kept out of those things. He was intellectual. He was suppose to find nice job which would have good effect on life. He knew that he would get it. He still remembered that slap. For first time he sensed that he might had made mistake by keeping Rocky there. He was so tense. He suddenly felt that it was possible that this owner might had managed to hurt him too much. " Dad what happened to Rocky?" " He had accident." " How can they be so sure? It could be murder." " What? Stop this nonsense. Don't say that before cops. It might put us all in problem." Jivan nodded. Then they finally reached to their destination. Jivan felt so much fear. He was shivering on every step. He felt strange sensation in stomach. He felt that he was going to vomit. But he knew that he needed to control himself. Jivan " Dad I want some water." " Water? Ohh my god. I totally forgot it." Dad looked at him. Dad " Are you all right?" " I am fine." Finally they began to see police vans. Their lights began to shine. They slowly went near them. They started coming ahead but a cop stopped. Cop " Where are you going?" Dad " Actually we received call on my son's mobile." Then suddenly an officer screamed " Send them here. They have come to identify body." That cop told them to go inside. Jivan was so scared. He kept looking around that forest was really spooky on night. He started to go near that body. He didn't want to fall but suddenly he found himself on ground. Due to rain whole ground was dirty. He could easily sensed so many insects might be waiting there. He must had screamed. Since every one came running. He was injured on few places. But he could see Police was upset by his behavior. They must had expected bravery. Dad " Are you all right?" Jivan " I am fine." " My god you are bleeding." He screamed on Dad " I am fine!!" Every one started looking at him. He gave a forced smile. " Dad I just said I am fine so let's forget it." Police " You need to wash your face. You are too dirty." Jivan was so upset by this. He didn't want to wash himself there. But he had to. Police office pointed out towards jeep. Another officer " That's why I always suggest witness have to be called in hospital or Police station. They fall or vomit just destroy evidence. " Other Police " Stop it. Nothing like that happened. He just slip such things often happened due to rain. He was far away. " " Sure with pampered babies like that." Jivan was so upset by this. He started cleaning face again and again. It was burning but he was doing it again and again. He waited to make himself tough. He started to understand that he had to make himself hard before world. Jivan " Let's go." Jivan went near corpse of Rocky. It was worst. He wanted to scream to or cry. But he didn't. He just turned to Cop and told him " This is my friend Rocky. I feel he might be murdered." " No. He can't be since it was accident." " But." " Don't you hear me. Go away." That officer screamed. Every cop started looking at him with anger. He just ran ahead towards car. He knew that he wanted to tell truth but no one wanted to listen to him. He just had to go away. He could clearly hear his Dad was apologizing for his misbehavior. This was too much. He was right. But he went ahead and sat in car. When Dad returned, he started lecturing. But he didn't understand a word since he didn't care. He just wanted to go home. He just kept looking out of window to locate his home. His Mom was sitting in window. She was shocked to see him in this condition. She kept asking about his injuries but he didn't answer. He just went in room and locked door. He went to shower. He just wanted to clean all dirt. He no longer wanted to talk to any one about Rocky. He just felt one thing that he wanted revenge from his heart from that owner. He decided that he needed to relax in tub. He filled it with warm water and nice scent. When it was filled properly, he sat in it and closed his eyes.
When Jivan open his eyes, he was confused at first but then he looked around. He was that he was just sitting in that tub. He looked around. He felt so exhausted as if he was running around on every place. Then he went near mirror. He was shocked to saw his face. He kept looking at his face. He was injured in so many places. He never thought he got so much hurt by just one fall. He just didn't sense it. He tried to touch his face. Every part was hurting specially his cheek. He applied medicine. He knew that he had move ahead with life. He started moving ahead. But he felt at same time. One part of his heart went missing as if it stopped on that point. He knew that Rocky died accidentally. Still he could took out that doubt. He went to college. He did every thing but he was no longer interested in life. He didn't want to go to movies. At beginning his friends kept asking him but slowly they all understood that he was not interested. He just kept thinking on every day about moving ahead but he just couldn't. He just couldn't forget face of Rocky. On that last moment when he was scared, his heart kept telling him that Rocky was killed by that hotel owner. That hotel owner wanted to hurt him but Rocky put himself ahead of him and died. He felt so much guilty about it. He felt that he was responsible for it all. He just sensed it from his mind that this owner killed Rocky. He decided that he had enough. He decided that he would talk to that officer. After all he knew every thing he had to do it. One day he went out of house in name of college and just went inside Police station. He could sensed that he was scared. But still he went inside. He looked at that officer. He was that nice one. He went slowly near him. " Officer can I talk to you?" " Sure." "Actually I want to talk about Rocky." " What about him? He died in accident." " No he was murdered. I will tell you every thing." Then he told every thing to him step by step. Officer listened all. " Fine. So that person is cruel and mean. I can accept that he needed to be punished because he is slapping you like this. In fact I will personally go and warn him. But that doesn't make him killer." " He is officer. I am sure he must had some proof in his house. Can't you search it?" Other officer started laughing. Other officer " Why are you tolerating this Mum's Boy? He didn't even sense what he was talking. Just one slap and this kiddo felt that it is big crime. When you grow up and stop taking hold of your Mom's hand." Slowly that officer who was sitting ahead him also started laughing. Jivan was so upset. Jivan suddenly understood it all. Jivan knew that they had took money from owner to hide it all. He was so much angry. He started laughing himself. That managed to surprise them. Then he looked at them with full confidence. " You are right. I am nothing compared to you. Just stupid kid. But just wait when this kid began to tell you meanings of this world. You will learn your lesson." That officer " Why are you scaring us?" " No sir I am just offering you help but if you don't need it then I will offer it to some one else." Officer " Get out or I will put you in jail." Jivan just went out of that Police station in anger. He sensed for first time a strange pain in cheek. It was just not stopping. He started to hold it. But it didn't work. He decided that he would go home and take painkiller. He went home. As soon as he went inside, he started to scream for painkiller. His Mom was shocked. Mom " What happened?" " Mom I need painkiller. My cheek is paining so much." " Don't you feel that it was wise to check it properly? I think we should visit Doctor." Jivan " You are right Mom. But gods sake give me some medicine to stop it now." Then suddenly maid came with medicine. He took it. Mom called Doctor. He just went in room and slept. His cheek was killing him. He just wanted to pull it away from face. It was horrible. He just kept sensing pain until that painkiller didn't manage to put him to sleep. He took heavy painkiller which also little bit sleeping dose. He started feeling sleepy. He went to sleep as soon as he relaxed on his bed. He didn't even sense when Doctor came. Doctor checked him. Doctor " Why did you give him such a heavy pain killer without prescription? He was just fine. Now in this condition I can't even ask him question. That medicine was not for common use. It should be on special occasion." " Sorry Doctor he was screaming.." " Just since he was screaming. You will not give him such thing again. Give him normal painkiller like Crocin." " Okay." " So I have to go now when he woke up call me. I just didn't find any thing wrong in him now. I will talk to him and check. And never give that medicine again." " No Doctor. I will not." Jivan's Mom was scared now. She sat near Jivan. He was sleeping peacefully. She just hoped from heart that his pain would gone when he woke up. She started patting him in same way as she used to do when he was child. She was so shocked. When she saw that he was crying and screaming in sleep, she tried to console him. But nothing worked his nightmare just continued disturbing him. She just kept watching him getting worst with helpless expressions. She sensed one thing that matter was going to take worst turn.
Next day when Jivan woke up, he started screaming again. He kept telling his cheek was paining. He just couldn't tolerate that pain. He kept touching his cheek and he started screaming. Doctor was called. Doctor checked his cheek again and again. Doctor " I don't find any thing wrong in that cheek." Jivan " But it is paining too much." Doctor " May be we need to take him to hospital and do some treatment there?" Dad " Now at this moment!!" Jivan " Dad it is too much. Take me to Doctor. I will die with this pain." Every servant and every maid was in his room. They all started to look at Dad with anger. His Dad immediately agreed. When he reached hospital, he was screaming. Many Doctors came. They all just kept checking him without results. Finally they gave him painkiller. But it didn't work. He just kept screaming. It was so shocking for all. They finally gave him sleeping pills. One senior Doctor " I never seen such case. He was screaming with pain but he didn't have any physical trouble." Another Doctor " I have seen many such cases in psychiatric ward." Dad " My son is not mad." "Fine then don't accept it. Try every treatment but finally you need just that psychiatrist." That Doctor just went away. Other Doctors were confused. But they gave him different tests. From that day their test began. He just kept screaming and they just kept doing test on him. His parents were spending so much money that they lost it's count. In fact they longer cared even if they get bankrupt they just wanted result. Finally one day senior Doctor came near Dad " Why don't you take him to psychiatric ward once? Let them try to." Dad " My son is not guinea pig. I am not ready to give you him to experiment. I will find another hospital." Doctor nodded. Doctor " Do as you wish we have experimented many times. We are not ready to do any thing further." Jivan's Dad was so shocked and angry with them. He decided to change hospital. Then they kept changing hospitals for few days without much results. It was getting worst step by step. Jivan began to feel more and more frustrated. Every week they were shifting from one hospital to another hospital. They were doing different tests. But nothing was working. Finally his Dad gave up and decided to take him to psychiatrist. That day he was feeling so much pain in cheek when he was shifted to psychiatric ward. It was hard for him. He didn't like to go in mental ward but that pain was making him so sick. He just kept screaming. Then psychiatrist came. He started to talk with him. Psychiatrist chatted for hours. Then suddenly he asked " Did any one slap you?" " Yes that hotel owner. He must had killed Rocky too." Dad screamed " Rocky died in accident." Psychiatrist " Let him talk. Why don't you just take a walk?" Then his parents went out. Jivan was holding his cheek whole time. But he started telling all. He told every thing. Then he felt little bit relaxed. Pain was still there but he didn't need to scream. Psychiatrist " Actually it is not your pain but your guilt. It is cause of this trouble." " I don't understand." " You are feeling guilty about it. You feel that you might had taken Rocky with you. But you just ran away without taking him." " I never thought that way. He was not my responsibility." " Really then why did you went to Police? It was also not your responsibility when they made it clear that it was accident. That owner didn't seem so wealthy that he could bribe whole legal system. That owner was poor. Can you understand what I am trying to tell?" " But I really feel those pains." " Yes you will since your mind want to punish you. You know in your soul that Rocky must had work for both of you. Since you went missing that owner must have forced him to do so, he was so tired that he slipped and died. You want to prove world you are strong person but son you took wrong way. World never accept it since it want to hurt you. But you are strong enough to ignore it then you can win this race. You need to move ahead in your own way with your own faith never listen world since many people in world just like to dig your grave." " I think you are right but still I feel that pain." Psychiatrist smiled. " Son it will not vanish so easily just by this convincing. It will take time but with me you can do it. For first Jivan felt a hope. Then psychiatrist told him to go out and he went out. He saw his parents were discussing his further treatment. But he didn't care he knew one thing. He needed to move ahead. He still felt those pain but he knew that with his mind only they would vanish. Since they were not true pain. He need to fight against them. He felt so scared sometimes then he looked at psychiatrist and started to hope again.
The End
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