Nisha's horrible past
Ashok wanted to find same routine in life. He wanted to keep that project moving ahead. But suddenly he got new idea & he started working on it. He began to create new idea. He wanted to stop himself still he created it. It was so stressful. He didn’t understand why he was doing it but his heart just decided & he created that idea & managed to send it on email. He was so happy. But then he suddenly began to feel scared. It was possible that this idea would manage to create trouble for him. He couldn’t delete that email which he had already send. But it was such wonderful idea. Sadly he didn’t got enough skill to execute it. He knew that. He couldn’t be smart to represent it. He began to stood up when Nisha screamed “ Will you take care of Punit?” Punit was his son. He was just 5 years old. He disliked babysitting him. But he was father so it was his job. When Ashok went to Punit, Punit was already ready with his football. Punit got small football. It was suitable for his age. Suddenly he began to develop desire of becoming footballplayer. He smiled & said “ Let’s play football.” Punit smiled & they both went out in sun to play football. He was playing so happily. It was just wonderful. He was full of energy & positivity. He was enjoying it when suddenly Nisha screamed “ Play time is over! Come back for study.” Punit’s face became so pale. He knew that Punit was scared of his Mom. But he began to feel that day by day Punit’s fear regarding Mom was increasing. It was so upsetting. He wanted his son to become normal. He turned to Nisha. “ What happened? Did he forgot to complete his homework?” “ No..no.. but he needed to take his studies seriously. His future depends on his education.” He didn’t understand what he was supposed to say. He knew education was important but his son was looking so upset & scared. Ashok slowly said “ I want to discuss few things with you.” “ About what? Do you manage to get that good job?” She asked with smile. She knew very well that he couldn’t get this job. He was trying so hard to get good type of job. He was not getting enough salary in this one. She knew that it was not happening still she said it to taunt him. It was so sad. He controlled his mind. He told himself that it was possible she might be hoping. Then she added “ You gave that application..” she was after him to apply for that job so he submitted one application & it was not helpful at all. He was rejected as he thought. He decided to tell her later. He knew that it would upset her more. But now he didn’t have much option so he said “ Sorry but I can’t get that job.” She looked so sad then suddenly she smiled. She said “ It’s okay. This wasn’t your fault. It was mistake of that company. I know how great you are at work!” She began to admire him in such away that he couldn’t question her love. Then she slowly went towards Punit hugged him & started kissing him. Then she said “ I you upset with Mom…I am sorry baby I don’t want to upset you. I just want to give you best education. You need to work hard from childhood. If you waste this time it will impact your future.” She said it & hugged Punit tight. Suddenly Ashok began to question his judgement on his wife. He began to feel he was feeling prejudice without cause. He began to think that his education was not so good. If his son Punit get better education then Punit would get better chances of good job. Ashok felt so sad. But then Ashok said “ Come on. He need to enjoy his childhood than earning so much money.” Nisha gave him confused look. Nisha was so beautiful. He knew that she could still start her acting career but she gave up it for taking care of Punit. Ashok “ Maybe you need to start acting again?” “ Me?” She started laughing. “ Since when I become actress! I never have that skill.” He started laughing too. He felt that she was cracking joke. But he never thought that she really meant it. He knew that she was great actress. She used to work so perfectly that they used to call her Gem of Television Industry. She got many offers from movies too but she didn’t accepted them. She wanted to remain only on Television. But when Punit born she suddenly began to act like housewife. Due to pregnancy she had not taken any roles. She lost contacts in Industry too. But he knew that still they were totally willing to offer her role. But Nisha just looked oddly. Nisha “ This is so funny. I never worked on TV or movies!” At this point Punit started laughing. Ashok looked at him with shock. Punit went inside & came out with small book. He slowly opened it. It was full of pictures when Nisha was working on TV. Nisha looked towards them & said “ Wow. She look so much like me!” Now Punit started laughing loudly. “ Dad Mom is so funny. This is Mom. Look here Mom. In this one you see with Grandpa & Grandma too.” Nisha began to look towards those photos & she said “ Her parents look like my parents too. That’s why she look so much like me!” She smiled & looked towards Ashok with expression that told she solved world’s biggest mystery. She gave that book back to Punit & said “ Don’t waste your time on this nonsense..” then she smiled & said “ Maybe your Dad is right? If you feel this actress is like Mom you can collect.” She smiled & added “ In fact I will purchase her videos for you if you study. What do you feel about it?” Punit kept watching her in strange way. Then he looked towards Ashok. Ashok said “ That’s nice joke Nisha! But you are scaring Punit.” “ Scaring? I thought he liked this actress.” Ashok smiled. He said “ Of course he loved that actress. That actress was you! Wasn’t you?” She suddenly started looking towards those photos. “ Really?..” she was no longer totally denying. She smiled & said “Those old days! I really can’t remember them.Now my life is so much changed..” “ Why don’t you start it again?” She suddenly started looking pale. She gave nervous laugh. Then she turned to Punit & said “ Finish your study then you can play.” Punit nodded. Punit took back his book. Punit went inside. Nisha literally ran inside. She was so nervous. She wanted to avoid him at any cost. He just recommended to start acting again & she ran away in a way she saw Demon. She didn’t want to talk about it. He didn’t want to force her too. But he felt that she was not behaving normal. She needed to start working again. It was not just about financial need but it was about keeping sound mind.
Nisha went inside. She immediately arranged all for Punit & told him that she was cooking in kitchen. She was so tense. She needed to hide it. She went in kitchen & she began to take deep breath. She didn’t understand why did she felt this way about her past. She just didn’t remember much of it. Then she felt as if some heat was touching her. She wanted to forget it. It was one horrible accident. But still smell of those burnt items was hurting her nose. She began to feel as if her room was full of smoke. She knew that her house was not on fire. But suddenly she looked towards her Gas. It was on. She began to get tense. She just closed it & took deep breath. She needed to begin to cook. She just wished only if she had wise enough to quit smoking on time. She suddenly began to feel need of smoking again. It was her worst habit. She didn’t understand why she couldn’t quit it. It was risky for Punit. Then she smiled to herself. She didn’t smoke now. She was not actress now. She was just housewife. She opened refrigerator & took out bottle of cold water. She began to drink it. She wanted to feel relaxed. She was sure that all that happened with her was past. She selected Ashok since she wanted to forget it & it was working perfectly until Punit didn’t brought that photos. Ashok once again came inside. Ashok looked towards her pale face & asked “ What happened?..are you still thinking about acting?” She could read it in his eyes. He wanted her to start acting. She knew that they didn’t have enough money. She looked towards her. She was spending so much & she was earning nothing. She was becoming burden. She slowly said “ I need to reduce spending.” He gave weak smile. He didn’t want to say it but he didn’t have much option. If she couldn’t earn like actress then she couldn’t spend like one. Their entire house was decorated so luxuriously that he felt even his company’s board of director didn’t spend so much. It was her money so he never objected but now he needed to stop her. Punit needed saving. He looked towards house. He still needed to pay it’s instalment. He knew it was perfect investment but it was too costly for his salary. He said slowly “ We don’t have much option. Now we need to save for our son & you know very well that my salary isn’t enough. I don’t even able to get that nice job.” She nodded. She smiled. She got plenty of areas where she could save. She could start purchasing at time of discount. She got car & supermarket was nearby. She would begin it soon. She smiled & began to look at items in kitchen. She told Ashok “ I will go to supermarket today. That will help my budget. Are you working from home?” “ Yes. Just go & relax. You are staying inside home too much.” She gave nervous smile. She went in room & started to get ready. She looked towards herself. Without second thought she started to put on make up. She began to get ready the way she used to do when she went for shootings. She didn’t even sense it. She was so involved in deciding items of her purchase that she got ready without second thought. Then she looked towards herself in mirror with shock. She was looking so different. Punit suddenly came in room & declared “ I will come with you.” “ But you need to study!” “ I will study when I will come back! Mom you can check out my notebooks. I finished a lot.” She slowly went through it. She began to check one page at a time. She started to study carefully. She sensed that Punit did all properly. There were not mistakes. She smiled happily. Nisha “ Really great!” Punit was not looking so scared today. He never suggested to go out with her for long time. She decided that she needed to do it. So she immediately started to take out his clothes. Soon she started to get him ready. She didn’t do make up to him but still he was dressed like child actor too. She didn’t understand why she felt that way. But she felt that she prepared him nicely too. Then they both came out. Ashok looked towards them with shock. He felt as if they were too much dressed up. But he didn’t say it. He just accepted it. Ashok said “ Bye.” Then Nisha sat in car. She sat in driving seat peacefully. Then she opened passenger door for Punit. Punit smiled & jumped in car. Punit immediately tied seat belt. She smiled happily. She taught her son every manner properly. Punit was giving sweet smile. Punit was excited about drive. She was scared that taking him might increase her budget. But she told herself that it was okay. She could get things cheaper in supermarket. She drove peacefully in mall. She began to struggle for parking space. After long wait she finally found one. She felt so relieved. She just got out of car. She looked around. She started to come out. On that point she suddenly sensed many people were watching her. None of them was coming near her. She was observing that they were looking towards her in strange way. She just decided to hide her face. She didn’t see much option. Then she saw her mask. She could use it. She could tell staff that she had cold. She felt so happy. She was about to take it out when she sensed that she needed to act brave. She was not any actress now. She could make it clear to people. She took mask put it in purse then she took hold of Punit’s hand. She began to walk with confidence in mall. She began to arrange bags to purchase to store her shopping. It was wonderful day for her. She was doing shopping in mall after so many days. She was so happy by it. She wanted to feel pleasant in her soul. She began to slowly check items. Then she suddenly felt shocked when she located her picture on one washing powder. She didn’t remember permitting it but then she remembered that amount which came in her bank as loyalty. She took it on that point since she needed money. Now she couldn’t complaint so she just took out mask & began to wear it. She was so scared. She soon sensed that she was getting breathless. She didn’t want to faint but world around her started to faint. She couldn’t control it. She soon sensed that she was falling down on floor & Punit was no where near her. He must had gone to check out his toys in other section.
Punit began to walk back. He began to search for Mom. He didn’t find her at beginning. Then he looked towards ground. He saw someone was sleeping on floor. He didn’t understand what was this. He was so shocked. In Mall people didn’t sleep like that. Soon Punit sensed that it was his Mom. He ran towards her. He started screaming & crying. He didn’t understand what he supposed to do. He was brave boy but on that point he became helpless. He couldn’t control his feelings & started crying loudly. Suddenly a lady appeared. That lady began to check his Mom. After sometime his Mom came in senses. Nisha looked around with shock. Nisha looked around. She sensed small group of customers & staff was standing around. One person who seemed like Doctor telling her. “ Just relax. You had one Anxiety attack. Do you have phobia of closed places or of some other sort?” Punit came forward. “ No. Mom take me many times to different places. Hotel which were very small. We eat together. We went to parks too. Mom is not scared of this place.” Punit started to look around. Then he noticed photo of his Mom on Washing Powder. Punit took it in hand. Nisha looked towards it & said “ Just keep it there.” That Doctor came & took out packet. Doctor “ This is your photo?!” “ Yes. She is famous TV celebrity!” “ Yes..yes” all crowd started chatting. Within no time they started telling all gossips they heard about her life. She didn’t mind other but she didn’t want to hear about that accident. She knew that finally they would discuss it. It was scary thought. She needed to feel relaxed. She was alone in that mall with her son. He was her responsibility. She couldn’t permit herself to feel disturbed like that. She told herself that she needed to relax. She was feeling so stressed. She slowly started stood up. She said nervously “ I think my blood pressure must have some issue!” Doctor helped her to stand up & said “ It’s possible. Do you want me to drop you home?” “ No..no I am fine. I just want to do some shopping.” Doctor nodded. Then Doctor added “ Just stay away from that washing powder! If your son is right, it might have instigated something.” Nisha nodded. Nisha began to feel so uneasy. She just wanted to go home. But she knew that she didn’t want to tell Ashok all. She tried her best to become nice wife & best Mom. She was very careful about Punit. Punit wouldn’t get bad habits like her. She looked towards Punit with tense expression. She began to feel so helpless. She never told Ashok that truth. She began to search for her mobile. She called her Mom. After hearing Mom’s voice she started crying like child, her Mom kept telling her to calm down. Finally Punit took mobile & said “ Grandma! Mom just fainted in supermarket. She said she is okay but now she is crying.. I am scared..” Punit was on verge of crying too. But Punit controlled his tears. Nisha suddenly began controlled again & she literally snatched mobile from Punit’s hand. “ Mom I am fine. It’s nothing.” Her Mom said in sweet voice “ I know Punit just overreacted. Kids have that kind of imagination.” Nisha felt so happy. It was great her Mom believed her. Then Nisha started to do shopping again. She ordered Punit “ How many times I need to tell you that you must not use my mobile? In fact you don’t need mobile at this age.” Punit said nothing. Punit just kept shivering. She had strange sort of anger in her eyes. He felt as if she was no longer his Mom. Punit just ran to his toy section. Punit was no longer interested in toys. He just wanted to return home to his father. He decided in mind that he would never go out with his mother again. She was odd sort of woman. He couldn’t feel affection or safety with her. She seemed like odd personality. He decided that today he would tell all to Dad. He kept wasting his time in different sections of Supermarket until Nisha didn’t call him. Nisha looked towards Punit with shock. “ You don’t got any items in your hand don’t you want to purchase something?” Punit turned head negatively. Nisha was so shocked. Nisha “ But why? You want to buy toys don’t you?” Punit shivered. Nisha suddenly sensed that her son was scared of her. She didn’t want it like that. Nisha said slowly “ Mom is screaming too much on you! You are upset?” Punit said nothing. He just kept looking towards his shoes. She said “ Mom is not well..honey..Mom is sorry.” Punit “ Then why you don’t go to Doctor?” “ I will but will you sit peacefully outside when Mom will go inside & do homework?” Punit nodded with smile. Without second thought Nisha called her psychiatrist. She dropped from half treatment. She didn’t want impact of her troubles on her son. She called Psychiatrist & told all. Psychiatrist “ I arrange appointment of today evening. You must come soon.” “ Okay.” She called Ashok. She said “ I am going to visit my friend Punit will be with me is it okay?” “ Great. I needed to go to office immediately. Bye.” He disconnected call & she took breath of relief. She told Punit to purchase toys. This time he brought plenty. She needed to argue but after small fake argument she bought all. She wanted him to cooperate with her. They went to Psychiatrist. Nisha was so upset but Punit was totally relaxed. She waited for number when her number came she told receptionist to pay attention to her son Punit. But Punit smiled & said “ Don’t worry Mom. I will sit just here. You go inside & get well.” She nodded & went inside with new spirit. She opened door. Psychiatrist smiled & told her to sit down. She said “ I started to feel uneasy again.” “ Well! you never feel normal. You just took half treatment.” She sat. She began to talk about accident again. “ I was not supposed to smoke but I never listened. I started smoking again & by mistake cigarette fall & entire set of shooting burnt..” “ Yes.. it was your mistake. That spot boy died there.” She nodded & started crying. Psychiatrist once again started convincing her to let it go. She once again began to accept it. In her heart she knew that she would be fine for sometime but then her guilt returned once again. But she suddenly asked “ Can I start acting again? Will it impact my mental state?” Psychiatrist said “ You need to give it try.” She gave sad smile & said “ I can’t.” Then she listened to Psychiatrist. She came out feeling fresh. She knew that she would keep guilt until her death. But this time she decided to go for shooting. She called her old director. She went there with Punit. She was so scared that she might feel stressed but she didn’t. She was no longer lead actress. She got role of sister or mother. She liked it & happily took it. From next day she began her shooting. She decided to drop Punit in her grandma’s house. She didn’t understand why but her mental issue was triggering just by her old photos & she started to make sure she didn’t see them. She began her life once again with same hope that she might manage to get over that incidence this time.
The End
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