Vinita's personality
Vinita started to give new thought to her dream. It was one of her precious. She wanted her own shop. It didn’t matter what kind of shop it would be. She just wanted one shop. Now finally she was getting it. She waited for such long time to get one. It was so frustrating. She kept searching for loan. But no one was ready to give chance to her. She kept feeling hopeful. She needed to find some way of loan. She was so excited that her rich friend Tanvi called her. This time she was sure that she would find some way to get solution. She started to feel so stressed. She was not so sure that she would get what she wanted. But it was important to her. She was so scared. She began to apply lipstick. Then she sensed her hand was moving. She wanted to make it steady but it didn’t work. Soon her lipstick began to spread. Her lipstick started to go out of Lips. She began to sense that it was not going in right way. Her entire makeup was totally wrong. She stopped herself. She needed to look in mirror carefully. She was looking odd. She wanted to look decent but she was looking something totally wrong. She was so stressed. She kept watching her face again & again. She didn’t understand why her hands were not moving the way they should. She was not looking as nice as she supposed to. Her entire face was damaged. She did makeup in totally wrong way. She sensed that her hands were shaking. She felt so scared. She saw her grandmother’s hands shaking that way. She felt so stressed. She didn’t understand what was wrong with her thoughts. She was having some physical issues too. She never asked her Mom what was her grandmother’s physical issue. She was small at that time. She just watched her grandmother with curiosity. Now when she saw her hands shaking she began to shiver from her thoughts. She didn’t understand how could she manage all. She needed to feel confident in her mind. But she was feeling weak & nervous. She was feeling so upset. She knew that this was most important day for her. She was so watching her face carefully. She didn’t have any hope. She wanted to feel confidence on face in mirror. She was watching in mirror. She was no longer someone who felt same confidence that she could impress that person who might offer loan. Even Tanvi would want her to look great. She went in washroom & washed face. She wanted to calm down herself. She suddenly began to cry. On that point her son Pratap opened door slowly. He was just five years old. She knew that he didn’t need to see his mother crying. But she was doing it. Pratap hugged her. She could feel touch of his hand which had affection & fear both. She needed to appear brave for him. She looked in his eyes & smiled. It was so pleasant to watch him. He was so innocent & nice. Pratap was only pleasure of her life. She didn’t feel anything else more important than him. She was married but her husband never cared for her. One day he told her that he needed to go abroad for work. Actually she needed to dislike that idea but he was so bossy & abusive that she felt nice. She wanted him out of her life. He went out of picture which was pleasant for her. But now she needed to make some money too. He was sending her money but she didn’t want to remain dependent on him. Whenever she asked for something her husband began to get abusive. He always started screaming on her. In his eyes entire money was just for him. He earned it so it was just for him. He felt so nice when he spent it on his pleasures. But he was not ready to spend anything on her or Pratap. She didn’t understand how could her husband didn’t like their son Pratap. He was little angel. She pulled Pratap close & tried to laugh. Pratap “ Mom what happened? Did you hurt yourself?” Pratap was pointing towards her spread lipstick. She started laughing. “ It was just my lipstick.” Pratap smiled nervously. “ So you are crying because your lipstick was messed up?!” She nodded. “ I need to go for arranging loan. I need to appear confident.” Pratap looked towards her & said “ I will apply lipstick on lips.” She smiled. She nodded. She washed her face. Then she sat before mirror. Pratap took small chair & stood on it. She smiled & sat. Then he stood on that chair. He started to apply lipstick on her lips. He began to do it with such delicate moves that she began to feel as if she was getting touched by feather. She smiled. She was confident that she would manage all. Pratap decided saree for her. She was so happy. She once again felt her confidence & she went out. She knew that Pratap was needed to stay alone for some time. But she had no option. She told him “ Just play in bedroom. Don’t go out.” He nodded & ran in his bedroom. She smiled & went away. She called Tanvi. Soon she reached to hotel. She looked towards table where Tanvi was sitting. It was so beautiful & luxurious. She kept feeling so restless. She didn’t let it appear on her face. She was so nervous but her face appeared totally confident. Tanvi introduced her to other people. She was so scared. She didn’t even able to grasp names but still she kept moving ahead. She felt as if she was not in body still her body was operating. She talked so nicely. She was talking in such a way as if she was totally different person. She was giving full information. She told many ideas of shops. She told them that she would run any shop they wanted. She knew how to make that shop success. All people on table smiled & then they told her to go to other table. She sat on that table while they were discussing. She suddenly felt as if she was returned in her body. She sensed once again her hand was shivering. Glass of water she was holding began to shake. It started to make strange noise. She sensed that people were watching her. She just kept that glass down. She smiled & started to watch out of window. She was so scared that Tanvi & other people who might finance her would call her. She didn’t feel that she could talk with same confidence now. She knew that it was vanished. She just kept trying to control her fear. Then she noticed Tanvi was calling her. She prayed to God & went there. She didn’t speak much but Tanvi gave her file. Tanvi“We have approved your project. Now you can decide your shop.” “ Ice cream shop.” She said loudly. She didn’t sense. She was too loud. But she felt nervous. All people on table laughed. Then one said “ Perfect choice no one able to resist ice cream in this heat.” She sensed that for them it was a joke. But she was planning to try it. She took file & returned to her home.
Vinita opened door of her house. She looked around. Pratap didn’t came out running towards her. She felt so scared. She started searching for him. Soon she sensed that he was not in home. Then she noticed one paper. It was her husband's handwriting. “ It’s clear to me that you don’t care for our child. How else you keep him alone in house like this? I came here for sometime. I am going back aboard again. I am taking Pratap with me.” She was so scared. Her husband took away Pratap permanently. She didn’t understand what was happening. Her husband never took much interest in Pratap until now. She began to call him. After three four tries he took her call. In background Pratap was crying. Her husband “ This boy is so irritating. I thought he could stay with me. But he kept crying for you. I will bring him back & I don’t want to stay with you any more. I want divorce. I found nice girl in foreign.” Soon her husband declared amount he could give & even offered flat. She was so scared. She just said “ Bring back my son & I will give you divorce as you wish.” Her husband laughed. “ It seem as if you just need son & not interested in husband at all!?.. any way it’s okay. I found new wife. When person get wife like you then that one surely needed other wife. You never love your husband. Wife suppose to admire her husband. Wife supposed to appreciate husband but you don’t.” Then her husband disconnected call. After some time one servant came. That servant gave Pratap to her & also gave Divorce paper. She just signed them without second thought. She just wanted her son. She didn’t wanted her husband. She took breath of relief when she didn’t receive angry call form her husband. She began to breath normal when she hugged her child. Pratap was crying loudly. She suddenly sensed that Pratap was not breathing properly. He couldn’t able to breath. She was so shocked. She tried hard to relax Pratap but nothing was working. Pratap just couldn’t able to breath. She called Doctor while crying. Doctor “ Just relax I am coming.” She was so scared. She kept telling Pratap to take slow breaths. She began to get restless. She wanted to calm her son Pratap. She kept saying songs which use to calm him. She began to call Auntie who was staying next door. She was so nervous. She didn’t understand what she supposed to do. Suddenly on that point she felt so different. Without second thought she told Auntie “ I need that oxygen pump. May be he is having asthma attack. I don’t know but better to get it.” Auntie “ I have one. I am not using it. It’s still packed.” “ Just bring it.” Auntie nodded. Vinita was calming herself. She was feeling so restless. She began to feel as if something else was taking over her & she didn’t mind. She wanted to act in right way. She began to crack jokes. Pratap was so scared. He was literally fighting for each breath. She was so tense but at same time she was not in control of her actions. But she needed help of that bravery which was giving her strength. She wanted to look confident. She needed to show before her child her bravery. It was essential for her. She was so stressed. She didn’t understand why she was feeling so strange. She kept talking with her son but at same time she was not talking with him. Finally Auntie came without second thought. She took that Oxygen pump & started to giving it to her son. Auntie began to object on that time Doctor came. Doctor checked Pratap & said “ It’s okay. You can give it to him. But we must take him to hospital. He needed to get all check up done.” Vinita nodded. Vinita immediately called her husband “ I need to take Pratap in hospital I need money.” “ My God! That boy is wasting my so much money. I feel just keep him in home & he will be fine.” She asked in controlled mind “ What if he die? Are you ready to answer Cops? Clearly you took him away forcibly & many people saw him crying & screaming. They were asking me what happened!” She was not asked by anyone but she decided to lie. It seemed as if she was just moving ahead without second thought. She was not thinking by her own thoughts. She was so confused. She didn’t understand what was going on with her mind. But her husband didn’t sense her stress or nervousness. He just sensed her confidence. He said “I don’t want report in Police. It will impact my job in abroad. I don’t want any issues. I give you money.” “ I will send bills.” She disconnected call. She told Doctor her husband would pay expenses by phone banking. Doctor said “ No problem.” Then Ambulance was called. She kept sending expenses & this time her husband paid them without argument. Finally when it came to reports he called & said “ Just check all & now I will create one insurance policy for that child. I will pay premium but it will..” “ We will discuss it later now let me handle it.” “ Okay. But this is too expensive.” “ I know but that’s why I told you to not take him out but you don’t listen.” “ I know that stress must have lead to this. I tell you one thing. I will manage to get new child by my new wife. I just don’t want this one. I will pay you but never send him to me. My wife will get upset by this type of odd kid.” She wanted to argue but on that point she suddenly became normal. She just said “ Okay.” She felt so nervous. Her husband wanted to keep talking but his future wife started to send messages so he disconnected. She slowly went in her son’s room. She kept watching him. He was kept in ICU for a day. They wanted to make sure that everything was fine. She kept seeing his pale face. She knew that her husband managed to do it. Pratap was so scared of his father. Suddenly Nurse touched her shoulder. Nurse smiled & said “ Don’t worry your son is fine. I feel this happened since he was scared of something.” Vinita started crying. She could not able to answer. Nurse took her to chair. She sat on it. She was no longer strong that someone left her. She didn’t want that one anymore. She wanted to be normal. She didn’t told anything just kept crying. That Nurse came to her with food & water. Nurse told her “ Eat this & take this medicine. You can sleep on this chair. When Patient is in ICU relative can’t sleep in room.” She nodded. She ate all. It was tasteless. She kept feeling as if she would vomit but she didn’t care. Finally she took that medicine & went to sleep. She needed to relax herself.
Next day when she woke up she slowly went near ICU to see her son. Her entire body was paining in odd way. She didn’t remember what she was doing last night. She didn’t understand why her body was hurting so much. Then she looked towards her legs. She sensed that they were bleeding. She slowly called Nurse. Nurse came running. Vinita “ I was sleeping here last night..” “ No. You were gone. Most odd thing is that when you had taken sleeping pills still you went out?” “ I feel I was sleep walking.” She lied. She knew that after some hours she would remember what she was doing. She kept going in like that. It was so upsetting. She needed to feel normal but she was not feeling that way. She was so stressed. Nurse “ You managed to walk even after sleeping pills it was not normal.” “ I don’t understand what are you suggesting?” “ I saw you going out last night. You talked with me. But you appeared too confident. Your personality was changed. It seem as if you have different personality. Do you ever feel someone is controlling your body & you are not in control anymore?” She didn’t say anything for sometime. She felt that way but she didn’t want that personality to go away. That personality was helping her to cope in crisis. She smiled & said “ I am just fine.” That Nurse continued “ I know at this point you feel it’s great to have this power of bravery. This personality will help you at beginning but slowly it will start to take over.” She stopped & asked in nervous voice “ I don’t understand.” “ You will start to do many things without understanding.” “ Like?” “ Anything you can steal. You have affair. You can do any crime. You will not remember. You might not even care for your own child. This is just beginning if you visit psychiatrist now you can stop this.” She didn’t want to go to Psychiatrist. One person in hospital was enough. Her husband was already complaining about expenses. Nurse asked “ What happened?” On that point Tanvi called “ Wow! You are so great last night you even managed to start one bar & restaurant? All were telling you were dancing entire night to entertain guests. They all loved it. But some were thinking you were doing too much. Vinita just be careful don’t do too much. I mean some men were trying to get too close.” She didn’t say anything. She understood that why her legs were paining. She was so scared. She invested her loan in totally different style. She began to cry. She didn’t understand what she supposed to do that Nurse was watching her. Nurse asked “ What happened?” “ I wasted entire money..” then she told entire story of last night. “ Now when I am normal I can’t able to run that bar & restaurant. It is wastage. I need that personality to come out & control me.” She began to order herself to bring out that confident attitude but it was not coming. Finally she began to cry slowly. Nurse “ Just relax. You don’t need that personality. You need psychiatrist to give strength to your normal personality.” “ But it will need money?” “ Then ask it from your husband?” She knew that he wouldn’t give instead he would abuse. She just kept quiet. She didn’t say anything. Nurse said “ Give me number I will talk.” She sensed that she didn’t have much options. Nurse took number & called her husband. Nurse spoken with Authority. Then she gave Vinita mobile. Her husband said “ I want you to remain sound & take care of that child. I will pay whatever might be expenses. I don’t want mad ex wife & son!” Then he just disconnected call. She tried to control her emotions but she couldn’t. Soon she called her husband, she found herself saying with confidence. “ Stop pretending. You are doing this to keep yourself out of jail. Don’t act over smart with me otherwise I will take legal action.” Then he just said “ Sorry.” Then she disconnected call. She was once again not in her control. She turned to Nurse & said “ I need to take care of my business. I must go.“ Nurse “ No you must visit Psychiatrist first.” “ No I will not.” Vinita was about to go away. When Psychiatrist came, Psychiatrist called nicely & soon she found herself going with Psychiatrist. She knew that it was beginning of her treatment. She wanted to talk about her son. But on that time Nurse came & told “ Don’t worry I will take care of your boy.” She wanted to answer & thank that Nurse but she couldn’t she was locked in her body in odd way. She went ahead with Psychiatrist. She wanted to cry but she couldn’t. She felt as if she lost all. She began to try to control herself. Finally in clinic she managed. “ I want to stay with my son Doctor am I risky?” Psychiatrist smiled “ No. Not at all. Your other personality is not so risky. You have started treatment early. So we will manage it soon.” Vinita took breath of relief then she talked with Psychiatrist. She took list of medicine. Then Psychiatrist slowly told her “ Your son Pratap is also have mental issue only.” She was so shocked. “ But he is so small?!” “ Anxiety disorder develop in small age. I suggest you to keep someone in home.” She nodded. When she came back, she was so nervous. She told all to Nurse. That Nurse told her “ I will arrange some trainee Nurse to stay with you. She will do babysitting. But she need to come for emergency call too.” “ It’s okay. But I can’t make payments for babysitting.” “ No need she will not pay rent.” Vinita nodded. Vinita was tense but still she went ahead with smile when her son shifted to normal room. She told about new babysitter positively. Pratap was nervous about staying with new person. But he smiled & nodded. They both decided that they would start their new life with positive thoughts & smiles. So they started talking positively & laughing on jokes they created between them. They wanted to enjoy life gifted by God & no one could stop them.
The End
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