Sandip's sad memories
Sandip was started to do his work. His Boss told him to complete it. Sandip never gave excuse to bosses. Sandip kept creating different ideas to complete his work. His work was always done before deadline. He was most studious employee in company. He always received respect for it. He was always admired by all staff. He felt so restless today. He looked around. He knew that everything was on place. Then he suddenly sensed that there was pink envelope in one of file. He smiled & he felt that it was some personal letter for Boss. He decided to keep in inside drawer of Boss. He didn’t noticed name until end. When he was about to push inside, he saw name in red ink “ Sandip” he didn’t understand. He knew that it was his Boss’s letters so he just decided to put in drawer. He started to get restless. He opened drawer & looked inside it once again. That Pink letter was really odd. He started to observe it carefully. He began to smell sweet perfume. He sensed that this must be famous brand. He liked perfume of different kinds. He knew that this one was lavender. He loved that perfume. It was so pleasant. His Mom was so fond of it. It started sweet memories of his Mom. His Mom & his village! He always missed them. He began to feel that it was possible to not open that letter. It had his name. He went to drawer & took it out. It was not glued. He slowly opened it. He saw it had beautiful flower decorations on one page. It had one word written on it 'Sandip'. He was so confused. He didn’t understand it’s meaning but it didn’t look like official document. He decided to hide it in his backpack. He didn’t want his Boss to locate such letter for him in his office. He had one reputation. He put letter in backpack. He began to look towards other files. They were all normal. He felt relaxed. He began to work. He was so excited. On one point he was scared to get such a letter but on other hand he was happy to have secret admirer. It was easily possible that this admirer might some pretty girl. He began to dream different faces. He had his imagination of his wife. But then he told himself that he needed to concentrate on his work. He started to work hard on his projects. He was so excited. He sensed that due to this happiness his work began to get exciting. He needed to work for hours but today after that letter it was easy for him. He kept working different files. After some time his colleagues began to come one by one. He felt so glad that he managed to hide that letter. He didn’t want to say yes to this secret admirer. He was planning to marry a girl selected by his parents but still this girl seemed like important thing to him. He admired that letter. He never saw but secret admirer. But he didn’t want to. He felt that he just needed to remain in her touch. He began to think that he might needed to write back. He began to think about it. He started to like that idea. He began to think that he might needed to admire that unknown person. During his entire life he never had any secret admirer. He was admired by girls. They looked towards him. They even smiled but no one gave him red rose. He was never special to some girl that way. But when his colleagues started to come, he tried to act in normal way. He began to sense that he was enjoying in his heart. His entire day was just perfect. He went home happily too. He went in his room to change clothes. He kept feeling whole time as if someone watching him. He knew that was impossible. It was his house. He was alone. He changed his clothes & came out. But he was shocked when he saw his cousin was sitting outside with his wife Rita. Rita gave him innocent look. He couldn’t believe that Rita was watching him. Still he knew that he felt as if someone was watching. He convinced himself that it was his cousin. He smiled & said “ When did you come?” Rita “ When you were changing your clothes?” Sandip gave her shocked look but his cousin Pradip started laughing. “ Rita you said it in wrong way. We just came in but your maid told us that you were changing clothes so we waited.” He said nervous look “ Maid? I don’t have any maid. I stay alone in this house why does I need maid?” “ But there was a maid?” Rita nodded too. Rita “She was inside. She dressed designer clothes. I never felt that she was maid. I assumed that you might have girlfriend!” “ No..no I don’t.” He was so scared. Someone came inside his house. His cousin “ You need to change locks. I feel she must be thief ran away since we came.” Sandip wanted to agree with him . He needed to find someone who could do it. He called security & told security what he needed. Then he ordered some snacks too. Sandip smiled towards his cousin Aatish & asked “ Do you need something to drink?” Aatish smiled. “ Actually I noticed that wine in your refrigerator we don’t mind to drink some.” Rita gave him angry look but Aatish laughed. Satish gave him shocked look. Satish “ I don’t have any wine in refrigerator!” Aatish’s face looked embarrassed. RIta looked more angry. Aatish “ I was just joking.” Sandip gave nervous smile & said “ I just have some water. Do you want some?” Sandip opened refrigerator & found bottle of wine. Sandip began to laugh. He took it out & said “ So you bought it. Put it here & cracked joke on me! Very naughty!” Aatish “ No..no l just bought these sweets. It was already in refrigerator.” Sandip looked towards Rita for confirmation. Rita nodded. Then Rita started laughing “ I know this must be secret admirer!” Sandip didn’t want to show his feelings but still he began to show them. He started to feel so nervous. Aatish started laughing. Aatish “ So tell me what happened?” Sandip said with nervous expressions “ Nothing special.” Sandip knew that it was special to him. Slowly after getting encouraged by Aatish he started telling all while drinking wine. Aatish was laughing. But Rita gave serious look. Rita “ Woman I saw seem like rich one & modern too. She had big diamond ring in her finger. It was so nice that I can’t take away my eyes from it.” Sandip got nervous by this. But Aatish patted on his back & said “ She is coming after you. She can judge your wealth so you don’t need to get tense.” He just nodded.
Next day Sandip woke up in morning, he ran in kitchen to cook breakfast. He decided that he ate something outside instead of packing tiffin. He knew that he was eating too much outside. He even sensed that his belly started to come out but he decided to ignore. He needed to do his work that was most important to him. He wanted to feel happy in his thoughts. He knew that he needed some break from work. But he couldn’t effort it. He just needed to complete this project but then he would have next one. He didn’t seem to have much time for his personal life. Sometimes it was problematic but mostly it was promising. He kept feeling so nervous. He needed to feel positive in his thoughts but he was nervous about his unknown lover. She was admirer but he began to consider her lover already. He went in office with hope. But soon he noticed nothing was special on that day. It seemed all was totally normal. He kept working. But in his heart he was hoping for another letter. Then after sometime his Boss came. His Boss looked towards him with confusion. “ Where you kept all letters?” He pointed. His Boss kept searching. Then his Boss slowly asked “ Was there a pink letter?” He nodded. He took it out of backpack. His Boss smiled. His Boss took it. Then his Boss smiled. Slowly his Boss said “ Actually my fiancée gave this to me. My official name is Ronit but my birth name is Sandip. She always called me Sandip.” Then Ronit gave nervous look. Ronit “ That day she went in your house by mistake. She sensed it little bit late. When she met your cousin, she immediately understood it was wrong house.” Sandip gave nervous laugh. He wanted to hide his disappointment but he couldn’t stop from feeling it. He felt so nervous. He suddenly sensed that he drank that wine. He felt embarrassed but he needed to say it “ Actually I drank that wine.” Ronit laughed “ It’s okay.” Then Ronit gave back other key which his fiancée made. He took & nodded. He returned to work. He wanted to work on project. He needed to learn different steps. He wanted to study more. He decided to go on Internet. He might needed to buy few books. He started to think about work. He wanted to forget all. He was getting so involved in work. Soon he got involved. He totally forgot the world. He kept doing work with full attention. He needed to show different concept in his idea. He began to do that step by step. He slowly got fully involved in that world. He didn’t understand what was happening around him. Entire office was watching him. On that day Sandip was working like robot. Few colleagues went near him to observe what he was doing. Normally they didn’t talk with him much. But this time they went ahead with different hope. He kept showing different looks of concept. He observed project. He was watching different dreams which had created different purpose. He was not sensing any one around him. He just sensed that wonderful thought. He kept understanding that theory which managed to create that unique atmosphere. He was totally lost in that world which project had created. Project was different world for him. He was getting tense & even smiling on some occasions. Many colleagues came near just observed & went alway. He was working hard on computer. He didn’t care what other feel. He felt just one hope. He began to create different steps of project. He was paying full attention to each word of that project. He felt that it was his life. He managed to half done it by end. He was so happy. But then he heard big noise. He looked around & he sensed that entire office had left. He was only one remaining & security guard was making noises to get his attention. Security guard wanted him out of office but clearly it was not possible since he was senior. It was wrong to tell senior to go out. Sandip gave nervous look & said “ I am just closing work.” Security guard smiled & said “ Sir you work too much. Look towards others? They don’t work so much still they managed to earn last salary.” He nodded. He knew that Security Guard was telling truth. He were working so hard but his salary was nothing. Sandip just smiled. He knew that he liked to work so he didn’t want to quit job & it was not easy to get new job too. He didn’t understand why he worked so much today. Sandip didn’t say anything. He just saved everything & closed computer. He had his password so all his work was protected. He packed all his stuff & went out. He just went out of his gate when he noticed woman. She was so perfect. She had all qualities which he had hoped & she had that diamond finger ring too. He felt so sad & upset. He knew that she never belonged to him. But he began to look towards her. He was already in love with her. She was so beautiful. Suddenly he sensed that she was giving him angry look. He needed to handle situation so he slowly went towards her. He was feeling so happy in his heart. She might shake hands with him. It would be nice. He went towards her & said “ Actually you kept wine in my house & I drank it so sorry!” He gave odd laugh. She was so confused. She said angrily “ Are you out of your mind? Why should I keep wine in your house? Who are you?” She looked towards him with disgust. He began to feel angry. He started to sense that he might do something wrong. On that point voice of his Boss came from behind. “ He is right. In fact you need to apologise him! It was your mistake honey. You went in his house. This is Sandip. Remember work under me.” Her face got nervous. She was about to say sorry. But it was too late for him. He was no longer interested. Suddenly he took mobile to ear & began to answer as if someone called him. Then he said “ Sorry” to Boss & left. Boss really didn’t care nor his fiancée cared. They went away. He was so upset. He began to think about changing his job. Then he suddenly began to plan to cheat his Boss. He smiled. He knew that his Boss was not so sincere in his work. He could easily manage to throw him out if he planned properly. He knew one thing that he needed revenge. He began to plan. He started to imagine.
That night was first one when Sandip didn’t sleep he kept working. He knew that now he didn’t need sleep. Few hours of sleep were enough for him. He just needed to work. He wanted to prove himself worthy. He was so involved in work that he began to lose interest in normal life. Step by step he began to look so great in company every one started to study his every move. He was so great. Soon he got promoted. His Boss got transferred. His Boss didn’t mind. His Boss was already started to admire him so much. He was so great. Soon Sandip totally forgot his anger. His Boss became his nice junior totally trustworthy one. Sandip was no longer interested in his fiancée who was his wife now & mother of his two kids. Her attitude was too much bossy. She kept demanding too much. Sandip was glad that he didn’t marry her. He began to find some nice girl for him. It was hard for him. Since he was no longer sleeping much, he didn’t want a girl who would comment on it. He knew that he began to work too much. He knew that girls would expect something different from him. He dislike vacation or hoteling. He would do it to please wife sometimes but he couldn’t develop enthusiasm in it. He was different now. He was workaholic now. He didn’t want to change it. He began his life that way. But one day suddenly his Mom called. She told his that a girl who was related to her coming in his city. He supposed to make arrangements for her. He agreed. He sent car to pick her up. That girl appeared on his door instead of her accommodation arranged. That girl “ Sorry but my Auntie is not ready to let me stay.” Her eyes were full of tears. He felt sad about her. She asked “ Can you make arrangements?” He agreed. He arranged one flat in Company staff quarters. That girl thanked & went away. He went to sleep that night. He didn’t understand why but on that day he first time dreamt. It was odd dream. He was young again & he was marrying wife of his ex boss now junior. She was looking so beautiful. But then suddenly from all side he began to hear banging. He didn’t understand why. He kept trying to stay in positive mood but he couldn’t. He suddenly woke up in middle of night. He looked around. He still kept hearing that sound. He didn’t understand it but then he slowly understood it was sound of music which used in his Auntie’s marriage. He shivered when he thought about it. He was small enjoying marriage when suddenly fire started to burn all. Everyone was screaming. An unknown woman came towards him & just picked him up. Then she took him out with her. All were trying to reduce fire. He was crying for his parents for long time. Everyone told him to sit in corner. He sat for long time. He was feeling so uneasy. He went in corner & began to search for washroom. He needed to go. He ran towards washroom which was away from fire. He didn’t want to remember after it. He knew that after it he once again got stuck in fire. He saw those dead bodies. On newspaper numbers were limited but to his eyes they seemed so large. He didn’t understand why he kept dreaming like this. He was sleeping less & less for such a long time but he never felt so alone in heart during night. Today something was totally wrong. He began to relive his nightmare. He didn’t wanted to be stuck in that washroom again. He managed to forget all but today he began to feel as if he was burning again. He started to look towards his body. He began to feel there were red marks of burns. He ran in washroom. He stood under shower for long time. He started to cry. Something was wrong with him. He was not burnt still he was feeling pain of burn injuries. It was so horrible & painful. He began to observe his skin carefully. He knew that his eyes were playing tricks on him. He felt so nervous. He decided that he needed some treatment. He knew that he was working hard due to less sleeping but now he needed to sleep too. He needed to enjoy his life too. He went back to sleep. He was so scared that he might dream it again. He was so stressed when he woke up. But when he reached office all was perfect again. He started to work properly. When his work was over, he came out. That girl whom he gave flat was standing outside. She asked “ How much I need to pay as rent?” “ It’s okay.” “ But I can’t..” “ You are relative so I give it to you.” Then suddenly some juniors came out. They made strange voices. Clearly they all wanted him to start dating her. He decided to ignore but that girl gave nervous smile. He sensed yes in it. Once again he went to old times. He felt so sad. He didn’t say anything just ignored. He asked her “ Do you want me to drop you?” She nodded. After that she started to come in his house sometimes for giving homemade food or help him in cleaning house. He was dreaming daily now. He knew that sometimes his screams managed to go out. He kept door locked but sometimes he just needed to go in Balcony. He kept crying even there. One day security person talked with that girl out of concern. She came home. She studied him. She slowly said “ You might not care for me. But I am concerned about you. You might hate me for what I am saying but nightmares are common still Psychiatrist is needed when you get daily.” He didn’t deny. He had enough. He just asked “ Do you know one?” Then they fixed appointment. She was no one still she went with him. When they discussed issues, she sat out. Psychiatrist said “ These are post traumatic symptoms. They came now since you started to love her & you wanted to marry.” He didn’t deny. Slowly psychiatrist started counselling. Psychiatrist even gave some medicines for sleep. He started to sleep peacefully. Finally one day he purchased that big diamond ring which he dreamt & proposed her. She smiled & said “ Yes.” That day was new beginning of his life. His Psychiatristical treatment was stopped. He started life as human. He worked hard but his wife understood it. His kids complained but also appreciated their Dad. He was precious for wife & kids. He had sorrows financial issues but he knew that they could be handled since he had his family.
The End
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