Sameer’s peaceful sleep
Sameer was sleeping peacefully on bed when he heard tapping on his bedroom window. He looked towards it. He saw outside. Nothing was there. He began to go to sleep again. He started to feel relaxed on bed. He began to turn cushions properly. He started to feel restless whole time. He didn’t understand why. He always slept like baby on bed. He never felt so restless. He didn’t understand cause. Then he heard noise of car. He sensed that this noise was cause of his troubles. He closed his eyes & started thinking about positive things. He started to think about his past & childhood. It was pleasant at beginning but then it suddenly began to look sad. He sensed that he couldn’t bring it back so he decided to forget it. He began to think about present. But he soon sensed that present was full of uncertainty. He didn’t understand what he wanted to do with his present. He desired different things & he was getting different things. When he began to think in details he sensed that he was not feeling happy about anything. He started to feel that he was not getting enough success in any field. He desired happiness. He kept telling himself that he was happy. But still he kept sensing one sorrow. He didn’t understand why he was getting so restless to night. He knew that he never had insomnia. He always slept peacefully. This was first time. He told himself that this was not big issue. He began to get tense. He told himself that he needed to just count sheep that would surely help him. He needed to feel happy. He wanted to feel relaxed. He began to think about his life again. He started to think that his head was paining too much. He didn’t understand cause. He began to think that he might be sick. It was so hot in room. He wanted to relax himself. He decided to wash his face. He was about to wake up when he sensed that his Mom was turning from one corner to another. He knew that in his house they needed to sleep nearby. They didn’t have enough room. He knew that once he got married then he needed to rent some house. It was essential to him. He wanted to find one house but he didn’t seem to fall in love with any girl. It was so upsetting. He needed to find proper girl who would suit her. He wanted to find some simple girl who would make him happy. He tried to find a girl who managed to make him happy & gave pleasant life. He was so happy about it when he began to search for a girl. He needed to find a suitable girl who would make him happy. He started to sense that it was not easy. Girls demanded different things from him & most importantly to buy or rent a house he needed a girl who had good earning. Girls who had good earning didn’t seem to like his earnings. His family was a big trouble too. His Mom kept irritating every girl. His Mom was too much bossy. She wanted hold of everything. His Dad was no more. His one sister was married & another one was still staying with them. She was sleeping next to Mom. They all three slept on one big bed. It was not comfortable for him. But every day when he went to sleep he felt that he was prince & he was sleeping on king size bed. He kept one small cupboard in corner of bed with table lamp. He felt due to it like rich & comfortable person. He arranged it in such a way that it looked wonderful. He was so careful while choosing it’s design. He kept watching it’s every line & circle carefully & he managed to reach to his dreamworld. He managed to reach in his dream palace where he got everything. Even on that night he turned towards that table lamp when he sensed that he was broken. He sensed that something came from window which managed to break his table lamp. He felt so sad. He wanted to cry. But he didn’t. He sensed that this table lamp was too old. One day it was going to break any way. He decided that he would replace it tomorrow. He began to feel that he just needed to replace that table lamp to get proper one. He started to plan to go in market again. He started to plan to go early to get proper table lamp. It was nice. He began to find different designs of table lamp in his dream. He started to remember how did he went in that market in childhood. He remembered plenty of table lamps there. Each one had different design. He was so excited about them. He closed his eyes & started to see that market full of colours & hopes. He was so happy at thought of visiting his market. But then he suddenly sensed that he wanted to cry. His table lamp was broken. It was not big thing. He decided to wash his face & go to sleep again. He woke up from his bed. His Mom immediately sensed it. She didn’t say anything but she felt as if he was crying. He was big boy in fact he was man now so she couldn’t ask him. She could sense that her son was not happy with life. He knew that he deserved better. But sadly life was not giving it to him. Sameer was trying so hard to get success. His Dad was so encouraging to him. His Mom wanted to change her attitude but she couldn’t. She was like that for years. She couldn’t start to look soft suddenly. She began to tell herself that she needed to try to act nicely. She supposed to help her son. Soon Sameer returned to bed. Sameer closed his eyes. She observed that he was trying to sleep. Soon his breathing became normal. He started to go to sleep peacefully. He began to dream in positive way. He started to feel positive about all. His Mom felt happy but his Mom decided that she would avoid talking too much from that day. She began to feel happy which decided that from tomorrow she would change her attitude. She began to think that she needed to control her talking & her life would be normal. Her son Sameer would find nice girl with good job. Then Sameer could live happily in his flat. She knew that Sameer couldn’t stay with her. She knew that for Sameer she was not good mother. Her attitude managed to damage his childhood. She didn’t want to act like that she acted like that. Now she could do just one thing. She could give freedom to him. She could permit him to live as he wished. She told herself that she would change her attitude & she planned to do it.
Sameer came back in room with hope of sleep. He fall asleep too. But it was just for few moments. He woke up once again. He looked around in tension. He began to search what was cause of his waking up. He sensed that there was pain in stomach. He used to have these kind of pain in stomach when his Dad was alive. His Dad used to give some medicine. He didn’t know which but it was not important for him too. It was so easy. His Dad just managed to cure all. But now a days his every sickness became permanent one. He needed to cure it but couldn’t. It was so upsetting. He was feeling so tense. He wanted to feel healthy & fine. He wanted to sleep peacefully but he couldn’t. He took deep breath. He began to relax to his mind. He began to think positive & slowly his pain started to reduce. He was feeling so happy about it. He needed to reduce that pain & go to sleep. It was actually happening. He smiled happily. When he woke up, he was sure that it was morning. But he felt shocked when he noticed that it was just 1 am. He was not woke up in morning. He once again started watching time. It was not time for him to wake up. He began to get restless. He needed to sleep. He began to try to go to sleep. He was getting so restless. He finally closed his eyes. He decided to go to sleep. He felt so upset. He was grown up. He must not cry so he kept controlling his tears but he was already crying. He started to search for night lamp but then he sensed that it was already broken. Next morning he woke up feeling upset already. He knew that everything was perfect but still he felt so upset. He tried to sleep. He needed to go to work with smile. He ran in washroom. He took bathe & got ready. When he observed himself in mirror, he saw once again smiling face. He managed to look great & perfect. He always managed it. He had special smile on his face. Every gesture on his face was perfect. It was exactly the way it should be. His face was looking great. He was looking perfect in every angle. He needed to look friendly to people. He went to office. In office he was looking perfect. Every one was so happy with him. No one seemed to notice difference in him. He worked properly. He started to pretend like someone who was happy. He decided to please all but whole time due to it he couldn’t remain himself. He began to feel so restless. He wanted to feel happy but he was not feeling it from inside but still entire day he kept joking about one thing or another. To people he was most happy go jolly fellow. They never noticed him tense. He knew inside that he kept talking since he didn’t want to hear what his mind wanted to say. He was scared of his sadness. During night it entered for first time & he was so scared that it would start capturing his life step by step. He kept smiling throughout day. He kept laughing a lot. All staff was so happy with him. Specially his Boss was on top of the world since he managed to make his laugh even when his Boss was tense about his sickness. He didn’t know what was sickness of his Boss. Boss never wanted to discuss. But he could see serious side effects. He began to doubt that it was something very serious. Finally he reached home. His younger sister Dipti was sitting with his married sister Trupti. He hated when Trupti came. He knew that it was her home too. But he wanted to discuss his issues or marriage proposal of Dipti. Dipti just finished education. Trupti was convincing her to study more instead of getting married. Sameer didn’t like this suggestion. He didn’t want responsibility of Dipti on him. He knew that his Mom couldn’t able to handle anything. Trupti kept telling negative sides of marriage to Dipti. In a way she was convincing her against getting married. Sameer hated it. Dipti was not even nice girl who could manage to stay with Sameer happily. Dipti had her demands which kept increasing. Dipti wanted separate room & cupboard. Sameer knew that it was impossible to give. While Trupti had nice house after her marriage but still she kept complaining. Sameer didn’t want her to do that but he didn’t have much option. He just sat in corner. In this small house he didn’t even had one separate room to sit. They had one small bedroom but he knew soon his sisters followed him there too. They were doing all just to irritate him. He knew that he didn’t have much but they wanted whatever he had for themselves. It was so frustrating. His Mom was keeping quiet. It was confusing since normally his Mom joined them. He was not hungry so he didn’t went in kitchen. He just kept sitting in corner while reading or playing something on mobile. It was little bit frustrating for him. But he could use headphones to avoid hearing their conversation. He always thanked that person who had created them. Headphones made his life bearable. But after sometime Trupti came towards him. Trupti began to talk loudly with him. He kept ignoring her. He was so upset by her appearance. Trupti always kept targeting him. He knew that he didn’t have much option. He took out headphones. Trupti “ I came to tell you that you must insist marriage on Dipti.” He knew that he couldn’t. He wanted to get rid of Dipti but he knew that it was not possible. Dipti was insisting on such rich boy that he couldn’t find one. He tried so hard. Dipti was nice looking girl but they wanted rich family or girl who was something great or famous. But they had nothing out of it. He tried to go inside one flat of rich boy. Since Dipti insisted that rich boy might be interested but even their watchman looked shocked when he didn’t inquiries about boy. Watch man said “ Boy is nice but he is rich. He is dating daughter of industrialists & heroines!” So clearly boy had affairs & still his sister was not match for boy since he was rich. He felt confused. He decided to come back. Dipti became so angry. Dipti wanted rich boy so he went back. But they rejected proposal! So he knew that he couldn’t find match for Dipti so easily. He decided to not waste time in telling his true opinion. He just said “ It’s okay. Dipti can decide her life.” Trupti smiled then she looked tense. Trupti “ What about your marriage? You must not marry before Dipti!” Sameer was so shocked. He just stood up & left room.
Sameer went in room. He noticed table lamp. He forgot to change it. He knew that it was necessary for him. He was so frustrated. Then he suddenly sensed touch on his shoulder. It was his Mom. Mom “ You must ignore Trupti. You have your earnings. You can rent a house &..” he stopped his Mom. “ My earnings are not enough.” His Mom gave confused look. Mom “ I can give you some of my jewellery..” “ Mom I am not in love.” He looked away. He didn’t want to get married at all. He saw his sisters. The way they wanted all he felt scared that his wife also want. He couldn’t fulfil all their demands. He looked around. He soon sensed that life was not easy for anyone. He could stay happily this way too. Only if his sisters didn’t keep demanding things from him. He knew that he needed to earn more but he couldn’t. He didn’t want to get married & increase his troubles & honestly he was not in love with any one. In office he had many girls as colleagues but he knew that they all had different demands. He was so sure that none of them wanted to him. He began to look towards night lamp. He just needed to look for that lamp. He looked towards timing. It was not too late. Sameer “ Mom I am going in market for night lamp.” His Mom looked confused. His Mom “ You have not eaten anything!” He smiled & said “ It’s okay Mom I am not hungry.” He ran out. He searched for photo of that night lamp. It was so artistic. He began to watch it’s curve carefully. That night lamp had wonderful design. He kept watching it. He was so obsessed in observing that he didn’t sense that he was in middle of street until driver didn’t horn loudly. That driver was screaming on him. Entire people from road were giving him angry look. It was clearly his mistake. He began to feel so upset. He sensed that he could had accident. If he had died it was different matter but he didn’t want to land in hospital & hear from Trupti how much money they needed to spend on him. He went to side. He began to search in shops. He kept observing every shop. He started to show night lamp. Shopkeepers showed him different night lamp. But they were modern. They were not like the one he was showing. He wanted same lamp. Finally when he sensed that all shops started to close & it was night. He needed to return home. He came back. He started to feel so upset. His Mom was waiting for him. His Mom started to tell him that he needed to eat dinner. He wanted to argue but he knew that it was useless. He just did what his Mom told. He began to let eat but he couldn’t eat. He forced entire dinner under his throat by force. His Mom watching. Mom asked “ What happened? You don’t like dinner?” He smiled & said “ No..no Mom it is perfect.” His Mom smiled but his Mom sensed that something was wrong. He couldn’t able to sleep that night too. In morning once again he was smiling. He kept moving ahead same ways for days. But soon he sensed that finding that night lamp was impossible. His face started to have impact. Office colleagues started asking about his health. Finally one day he confessed insomnia. He didn’t told about his obsession with that night lamp. Many had this trouble or knew someone who had it. Then all suggested him a psychiatrist. He felt so relaxed when they discussed it like normal thing. In his house he was trying so hard to hide it. He knew that they would start taunting & abusing him. It was not needed. He knew that Psychiatrist was costly but he also knew that he needed one & he didn’t have much option. He slowly took appointment. He sat in line. Whole time he was so scared someone might recognise him. He kept hiding his face. He didn’t want anyone to know. Finally he went inside. Psychiatrist seemed like normal friendly Doctor. Nothing was different & scary about Psychiatrist. He step by step told everything to him. Psychiatrist listened to all. Psychiatrist “ You took good decision by coming here so early. Your problem doesn’t develop too much. It is going to increase. Due to situation in life your depression is increased which lead to lots of troubles in your life. You are getting depressed by them so you start to consider old memories of that table lamp as best support. But you don’t need to worry slowly it all would start to reduce. I will help you to handle it.” Then he started to discuss his troubles with psychiatrist. He began to feel little relaxed. He needed to pay for it but relief was bigger than payment for him. He managed to smile truly that day. He could able to cry before psychiatrist too. Then he returned home. His sisters were sitting. He didn’t feel upset by them now. He sensed that they were acting this way due to their personal troubles. He decided to ignore them. He went inside to eat dinner. He began to enjoy dinner. His Mom made plenty of his favourite dishes. He ate them happily. Trupti kept telling him about one thing or another. He didn’t say much. Finally he said “ You know very well. I am not smart enough to find good job or good match for Dipti why don’t you try it? Or better idea! Let Dipti do it.” Dipti jumped with joy. Soon he sensed that Dipti just wanted freedom to choose her match. Dipti was happy when she got it. Soon Dipti introduced them to person of her choice, Sameer happily welcomed that person. Dipti got married. Dipti was happy with her life. Trupti kept coming but Sameer learnt to ignore her. Sameer still didn’t find someone suitable for him. But he was okay with his life. He didn’t insist on finding her. He decided that let destiny decide what he would do with his life. He went ahead happily with his life. His Mom was insisting on marriage at beginning. Slowly she decided to let him live as he wished. He knew one thing that Psychiatrist taught him to remain happy with life. He was pleased with life now & once again he started sleeping normally. He didn’t have sleepless nights & he stopped his treatment too. His life was back on track & he was happy about it.
The End
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