Weakness in life
Sharavari will started to get ready. She knew that it was her last chance to get married. She tried to so hard to get a husband. But she never managed to find some one who was right. She was so upset. She didn't find any person of her choice. Then suddenly her mobile rang. She knew that meeting of this boy was going to be secret. She didn't want any one to know about it. Pooja was calling her on mobile. Pooja was her friend. She was good looking and beautiful. Sharavari never let Pooja understood it but she hated Pooja for it. She hated every one who admired Pooja. Now on this day she didn't want her to come. She didn't want her to enter in picture. She felt so sure that Pooja would spoil every thing. She didn't want to take her call. She called her Mom. Sharvari " Pooja is calling just tell her I am busy." " But Sharvari she is your friend. It will look wrong." " Mom stop this. You know this is my last chance to get husband and she would spoil it." " Come on. Pooja was always sweet to you." " Sure as sweet as sugar to diabetics patients." " Stop it. You can't blame her for your mistake." Sharvari was angry with her Mom now. Her Mom was blaming her. It was not her mistake that she was not beautiful. Sharvari was so upset by this allegation. She never did any thing wrong. Destiny was always unfair to her. She was always so sweet and so soft. She felt every one used her. Now she was getting harsh. It was helping her a lot. Sharvari" ohh really? You are acting as if she is your daughter. It seem her beauty took hold of your heart too. She is princess to all." She started to making faces which managed to hurt Mom. " Enough is enough. Fine I will talk to her." By then phone stopped ringing Sharvari" Sorry Mom she didn't want to talk with you." Then Sharvari started laughing. Her Mom was so upset that she started to go out. Sharvari " Stop this. What are you doing? You suppose to help me to get ready." Her Mom looked angrily towards her. But her Mom stopped. Her Mom just wanted to get rid of her. Marriage was best chance. Her Mom started helping her with jewelry. She needed to look her best. Sharavari started getting ready. She knew that Prabhat was good looking and had nice job. She just wanted to those things. Sharavari sat before mirror. Soon her Mom forgot other things. Her Mom began to admire her. Her Mom was like that only. She just kept admiring her many time. Sharavari knew that she was not beautiful but she loved her Mom for admiring her. Slowly she looked in mirror. She was looking great but she needed many things to look beautiful which god should have provided. Then she looked at her make-up kit. She decided that this man made make-up at least make her look okay. She needed beauty. She didn't have much of brain. She just wished only if she was gifted at least with one gift. But she had nothing. Still she had to impress Prabhat. She smiled to herself. She had chatted with Prabhat many times. He liked her on chatting. He would not reject her just after seeing her face. She smiled at that thought. She decided that she could do this. She began to raise her confidence and she began to feel it. She started to get ready to face Prabhat. She knew that style which she could use to impress. But then she also remembered many boys who had chatted with her but they rejected her after seeing her face. She decided to stop that thought there. Then she gave perfect smile to mirror and went in hall. She took magazine for time pass. She didn't want to look anxious. But she was anxious from heart. She just decided that she could pretend it. She just started to pretending that she was relaxed.
Sharvari's Mom Pari was watching Sharvari. Sharvari was getting ready. Pari was looking at her. Sharvari was normal simple looking girl. She didn't have that much impressive feature but most important thing was she hasn't fair complexion. Sharvari didn't have height. But then many girls didn't. But Sharvari always kept it in her heart. She knew that Pooja had fair complexion so Sharvari hated her. Sharvari pointed it out many times in childhood. She felt that it was having effect on her. She started her every loss on her looks. Every one was having their share of troubles in life. But Sharvari was not ready to except it. She would look good if she dressed properly. But she just kept applying powder on her face. She just wanted to look fair. She was not concern about her other things. She just wanted to look fair. Pari just wished sometimes only if Sharvari sensed that looks were not every thing. Pari managed to get every thing in life. She concentrated on her career. Pooja was tall but still she didn't find any suitable boy. Pooja didn't care but Sharavari was obsessed with finding husband. Pari just wanted to find some husband. Finally Parbhat came. Sharavari's father started to call her out. Sharvari stood up. She started to go out. When she entered in hall, her eyes first went to Prabhat. Prabhat was good looking boy. He started to look at her. He didn't smile. She sensed that Prabhat didn't like her. Then Pari suggested Sharvari to inside. Sharvari started to give sweet smile. She wanted to impress him. She began to act strange way. Pari always sensed it that whenever a boy came to meet Sharvari. Sharvari started to act too modern. Sharvari kept complaining that boys rejected her. But Sharvari had rejected many boys. Pari never saw any logic in it. But when Sharvari say no, they had to nod. It was not logical. This time Pari liked Prabhat as son-in-law but Sharvari's behavior was too much. Then Sharvari went inside with Prabhat. Prabhat " You are nice girl." " Thanks." Sharvari started feel shy. " What is your hobby?" " Painting." "Great." Then they both became quiet. Sharvari " Do you like to see my drawings?" Prabhat nodded. Then they went in her room where she kept paintings. Then she kept talking. He just said few words of admiration. She sensed one thing. He was not talking to her. She began to feel he would reject her. Still she kept trying but it was worst day for her. She found it hard not to cry. But she ran into her room as soon as Prabhat went away. She started crying in such way as if someone was died there. Pari came inside when Sharvari was crying. Pari from outside " What happened Sharvari?" " Mom don't you see? Parbhat was so tall. I am so short. He is not going to like me." " Come on. Sharu that is not truth. Many people marry those girls who don't have that much height." " No Mom. You are lying. Height is so important." Pari began to give examples of people who had less height. It was her procedure since Sharvari grown up. Pari just wished from soul that one day she would understand it. It was getting worst today. Pari didn't see any rejection in Prabhat's eyes. But his eyes were not telling any thing. Some people were like that. They didn't show any thing on face. But Sharvari just didn't seem to understand it. Pari " Sharvari every one don't able to show what they feel." " When he reject me." Sharvari started crying. She was so upset. She began to look in mirror. That mirror was short but she was looking so beautiful in it. No one could see her height in it. She just wanted to increase her height. She tried every thing. She knew that due to that height she was looking fat. She needed to look slim. She needed to look perfect just like Pooja. She wanted to look so much great. She knew that she was not that much beautiful. She started crying. Then she sensed that her Mom's voice was becoming loud. She didn't want her father to hear it. Her father always kept taunting her. He always kept telling her that she was so much less than Pooja. She didn't want him to come. She just opened door. She hugged Mom and started crying loudly. But Pari just shut bathroom door first. Pari knew that her husband never understood Sharvari.
Sharvari felt so hopeless for whole day. She could sense her hope was shattered. Still she kept looking at mobile. She just began to hope that Prabhat might call her. She knew that it was possible. Such things never happened in her life. She kept feeling so sad. She just sat in chair. Then Pari entered in room. Pari was so frustrated by this. Sharvari was not accepting truth of her life. Sharvari needed to concentrate on her career. Pari knew that it was just based on luck. Sometimes she sensed one feeling. That Sharvari needed to get over her obstacles. But she was just too busy in sympathizing herself. She needed to learn different thoughts which would show different meanings in life. Pari sat near her. Pari " Sharvari you are not drawing today." " What is use of it? No body is going to purchase it. Those paintings are useless." " But they are so beautiful." " I know Mom but without customers how long can I keep painting? We have gifted paintings to many. Now if I keep painting soon we need to sell them. We can't keep them all in house." Sharvari gave sad smile. " Mom I just wish my hobby was something simple. Like your hobby stitching. You can keep clothes in house and you can even get customers who like to stitch from you. But why don't you try it as career?" " Since it was not easy as it seem. They start complaining when you stitch for them with money. They want new designs. They want this and that. Finally they didn't even agree to pay you as you suggested. They point mistake and make face then pay less." Sharvari smiled. " It seemed you have tried too." " Yes I have tried before marriage but then I took nice job and kept working there." " So? We were happy with that job." " Honestly I was not. I wanted to stitch but I got stuck in totally different computer work. But then it gave money and chance to move ahead so I just went ahead." " So do you feel I can get job like you?" " Do you want to do?" " No." " Then still to your career." " But it is not moving ahead." " But it need some time. I have suggested stitching for same thing but now I regret it. Sharu do that job which you like? No need to run after money. We have enough to feed us and we can always stay in this home." " You are right Mom. What else I need a house and food that's all." Sharvari once again started to look outside. Pari kept telling this again and again every time. Sharvari's painting were appreciated on many places. But they didn't provide money. But importantly they didn't provide enough money to please her Dad. Pari just wished from soul only if her husband was less greedy. It was greed what else it was? They had enough money still he kept telling Sharvari to forget painting. But Pari didn't want her to quit it. Pari wanted for her a boy who really cared for her. Sharvari was so scared of those rejection from boys that she was no longer ready to accept them. It was not about Sharvari's looks even greed was part of it. But in Pari's eyes she didn't want Sharvari to compromise like her and regret it for entire life. Then Sharvari's mobile rang again. It was Pooja. Pari " Pooja is calling." Sharvri took mobile but she was not pleased. " Hello Pooja how are you?" " I am calling you since yesterday. I want to ask you do you want to go to movie with me?" Sharvari was not interested. She needed to find excuse. Then she looked at her half complete painting. " Sorry I need to paint." Pari was confused. Few minutes ago Sharvari was not interested in painting. Pari asked as soon as Sharvari disconnected call. " You are going to paint again." Sharvari " It's better than going out with Pooja. They kept taunting me about my height and other things." Sharvari went in her room of painting and she started to paint again. But it was not like old times. In old times Sharvari used to sense to enjoy it. But now she was just painting her frustration. Pari could clearly saw those pains in her painting. Pari wanted to convince her that she was great. But Pari couldn't. It seemed as if Sharvari didn't able to hear any thing about it. Pari just went in garden. It was nice house. They had every thing. But Sharvari was not happy about it. She wanted to get over her height problem which was not possible. Her height was something given by god. Pari felt from soul many times Sharvari hated god for it. Any way Pari needed to go to market so she went out. She screamed and told Sharvari who said yes willingly.
Sharvari started painting. She was so busy in her world. When she heard knock on door, she was not confused or scared. But she didn't want to leave her work. But then she didn't have option. She had to open door. She stood up and went to door. She watched carefully from window before opening door. She was so confused when she saw Prabhat was standing outside. She knew that she had to open door but on other point she was scared to open it. After all she was alone in home. She must not open door like that. She knew that she must trust him. But still she felt strange kind of fear regarding opening. She said it from window. " Mom is not in home." Prabhat came to window. Prabhat " Ohh..so you are alone." She nodded. Prabhat just came near window. Prabhat didn't smile. He asked in serious way. Prabhat " I want to talk with you." " Yes." He was confused now. " I can't talk like that whole society will hear me." " Don't worry. No one can hear you. Just say what you want to say." Sharvari was sure that it must be no. Prabhat looked around then finally asked " Are you involved with any one?" Sharvari gave him angry look. " If I was engaged then why did I agree to meet you? Do you have doubts regarding my character?" " No..No.. it is a formality. We must do. Since some girls are forced to marriage when they are engaged." " That don't apply to me." Prabhat didn't smile. He just looked at her with concentration and went away. She was so confused. She tried to call him but he was already gone away. She felt that this was totally strange. Then she felt one thing. That he must be involved with some one. But he should have told this to his parents before meeting her. It was so odd. She just felt more upset by this. This boy was so strange. He never gave any expression to her. Then she sensed that he was not giving expression because he didn't want to smile. She decided that she must warn Pari about this. She immediately called Pari. She was so upset when Pari didn't take call. She just never understood why didn't Pari ever took call. She went to painting. Then she was frustrated. She changed canvas and started painting. She began to get so involved in it that she began to lose sense of time. She started to become alive in that painting. She was no longer separate object than that painting. She was part of it. She started painting it with soul on every day. She began to paint but she never sensed what she was doing. Pari entered in house with her key. She didn't rang door bell. She didn't want to disturb Sharvari. When she went slowly inside, she was shocked. She saw that Sharvari was painting one horrible drawing. It seemed as if one girl was hanging herself. It was looking so real. For few moment Pari thought that it was really a girl. Sharvari was painter but she never painted such sorrowful painting. She just kept looking at it with shock. Then Pari went near Sharvari. Pari touched Sharvari's shoulder. Pari " Sharu what are you doing?" Sharvari didn't respond. She just kept painting. She didn't turn back. She kept looking in painting. She just didn't want to look behind. Pari kept looking at that painting. It was horrible. She sensed for first time that something was not right in Sharvari. She looked around painting which her daughter created in room. But she never permitted to watch. Her every painting was one thought of suicide and death. She was suggesting something which Pari understood very well. She wanted to kill herself. Pari was so shocked. She never thought that she was going to need psychiatrist but now she sensed that she needed it. Sharvari was not normal. She was looking at Sharvari when phone rang. She saw number. It was Prabhat's Mom. She was so confused. She could see condition of her daughter but she didn't want to deny hopes of her future. She took deep breathe and went in kitchen. She just stop seeing her daughter's face in that painting. It was so horrible. Sharvari was not turn towards her but she could easily imagine it. She began to control herself then She talked. " Hello.." " Actually I called you to tell you that we can decide date of marriage now if Sharvari is ready." " Sharvari?" " She is not ready.." " No..no she is ready but she need some time. I mean she needed to complete her drawing then she will be free." " Ohh you are talking about date of marriage. We also need to wait for our relatives. We will keep it after six months." Pari smiled with relief. " Great." " But Prabhat will come to meet today." " No..no..Sharvri is going to be in home. She went away with paintings." " Okay. Then he will come tomorrow." " Perfect. See you." She disconnected mobile and ran in Sharvari's room.
Sharvari was so busy in that painting that she totally forgot everything. She didn't want to hear any thing. She was not in real world. Pari started to tell her every thing. But nothing was going in her head. Now Pari was tense. She needed her daughter to be normal. Pari tried to talk her but nothing was working. She sensed one thing after looking around in room. She needed doctor now. She was scared. Sharvari never did any thing like that it was worst. Pari didn't want to tell this to husband. It was so wrong. Her husband never cooperate with her. She decided that she must call her family Doctor. She knew Doctor would help her. She decided that she had to call Doctor. She called Doctor and told him every thing step by step. Doctor gave her another number. Doctor " I can't help you much in this situation. This is psychiatrist. He is my good friend. He would help." Pari " Thanks." " Call him immediately. Don't wait." " Okay." Pari called that Doctor. That Doctor heard every thing. Finally he said that he would come. After that Pari tried hard to tell Sharvari her trouble was over. Prabhat was ready to marry her. But Sharvari was not ready for hear any thing. She was just painting without stopping. Pari started to even pull her out of that seat. But Sharvari became too heavy. She just couldn't move her. Sharvri kept painting that canvas. Pari started crying. Then door bell rang. A doctor came inside. He was alone. Pari was so confused. She expected nurses or ambulance. Pari " You have to take her with force to hospital." Psychiatrist started laughing. Psychiatrist " She is not that sick. We just need to wait for some time. She was stuck in her thought in that painting. We don't need to disturb her. Let her finish that painting. Until then you can tell me case." Pari nodded. They both sat in room. Pari told him every thing. Psychiatrist " So that boy rejected Sharvari?" " No..no..he said yes. In fact he is interested in marrying her. He wanted to meet her today. But I told his Mom to shift it on tomorrow. But you must do something. I beg before you." " Relax. I will handle it. She will act fine tomorrow. But you must keep her treatment for few days." Pari nodded. Sharvari finished her painting and stopped. Then Psychiatrist started talking with her. Sharvari was confused. But then slowly Doctor started talking with her. He chatted with her for long time. Then he told her to take those medicines. But he told her that she would sleep due to it. Sharvari nodded. She felt little bit relaxed. She began to understand him. He was telling her that her weakness was becoming bigger in her mind than it's original strength. She began to see in mirror again. She was not that much good looking. She began to see mirror. She started to observe herself. She was not that short. But still then in few moment she started to feel sad. She knew that it was not working. But then she sensed that Doctor was going to help her. She was going to be okay. But her first meeting with Prabhat was biggest task in life. Next day she started to become prepared. She began to talk with psychiatrist. With help of psychiatrist she managed to control herself. That meeting went well. After that Prabhat started meeting her. Slowly she developed different strategies to handle her fear. She sensed one thing that she did best thing by going for counseling. She began to paint again. She began to enjoy life. She was turning into normal person again. She was short in height but she was tall in confidence. She never felt brave enough to tell this to Prabhat. But as soon as Psychaitrist suggested that she was okay, she got married. She began to move ahead but one day she managed to developed faith in Prabhat. She told him all. Prabhat " Actually I feel many times that I want to express myself. It stopped since death of Dad. Will this Doctor help this too?" "Sure." From that day their life became perfect and normal. Sharvari understood that there was never weakness in her body. It was weakness of mind.
The End
Sharavari will started to get ready. She knew that it was her last chance to get married. She tried to so hard to get a husband. But she never managed to find some one who was right. She was so upset. She didn't find any person of her choice. Then suddenly her mobile rang. She knew that meeting of this boy was going to be secret. She didn't want any one to know about it. Pooja was calling her on mobile. Pooja was her friend. She was good looking and beautiful. Sharavari never let Pooja understood it but she hated Pooja for it. She hated every one who admired Pooja. Now on this day she didn't want her to come. She didn't want her to enter in picture. She felt so sure that Pooja would spoil every thing. She didn't want to take her call. She called her Mom. Sharvari " Pooja is calling just tell her I am busy." " But Sharvari she is your friend. It will look wrong." " Mom stop this. You know this is my last chance to get husband and she would spoil it." " Come on. Pooja was always sweet to you." " Sure as sweet as sugar to diabetics patients." " Stop it. You can't blame her for your mistake." Sharvari was angry with her Mom now. Her Mom was blaming her. It was not her mistake that she was not beautiful. Sharvari was so upset by this allegation. She never did any thing wrong. Destiny was always unfair to her. She was always so sweet and so soft. She felt every one used her. Now she was getting harsh. It was helping her a lot. Sharvari" ohh really? You are acting as if she is your daughter. It seem her beauty took hold of your heart too. She is princess to all." She started to making faces which managed to hurt Mom. " Enough is enough. Fine I will talk to her." By then phone stopped ringing Sharvari" Sorry Mom she didn't want to talk with you." Then Sharvari started laughing. Her Mom was so upset that she started to go out. Sharvari " Stop this. What are you doing? You suppose to help me to get ready." Her Mom looked angrily towards her. But her Mom stopped. Her Mom just wanted to get rid of her. Marriage was best chance. Her Mom started helping her with jewelry. She needed to look her best. Sharavari started getting ready. She knew that Prabhat was good looking and had nice job. She just wanted to those things. Sharavari sat before mirror. Soon her Mom forgot other things. Her Mom began to admire her. Her Mom was like that only. She just kept admiring her many time. Sharavari knew that she was not beautiful but she loved her Mom for admiring her. Slowly she looked in mirror. She was looking great but she needed many things to look beautiful which god should have provided. Then she looked at her make-up kit. She decided that this man made make-up at least make her look okay. She needed beauty. She didn't have much of brain. She just wished only if she was gifted at least with one gift. But she had nothing. Still she had to impress Prabhat. She smiled to herself. She had chatted with Prabhat many times. He liked her on chatting. He would not reject her just after seeing her face. She smiled at that thought. She decided that she could do this. She began to raise her confidence and she began to feel it. She started to get ready to face Prabhat. She knew that style which she could use to impress. But then she also remembered many boys who had chatted with her but they rejected her after seeing her face. She decided to stop that thought there. Then she gave perfect smile to mirror and went in hall. She took magazine for time pass. She didn't want to look anxious. But she was anxious from heart. She just decided that she could pretend it. She just started to pretending that she was relaxed.
Sharvari's Mom Pari was watching Sharvari. Sharvari was getting ready. Pari was looking at her. Sharvari was normal simple looking girl. She didn't have that much impressive feature but most important thing was she hasn't fair complexion. Sharvari didn't have height. But then many girls didn't. But Sharvari always kept it in her heart. She knew that Pooja had fair complexion so Sharvari hated her. Sharvari pointed it out many times in childhood. She felt that it was having effect on her. She started her every loss on her looks. Every one was having their share of troubles in life. But Sharvari was not ready to except it. She would look good if she dressed properly. But she just kept applying powder on her face. She just wanted to look fair. She was not concern about her other things. She just wanted to look fair. Pari just wished sometimes only if Sharvari sensed that looks were not every thing. Pari managed to get every thing in life. She concentrated on her career. Pooja was tall but still she didn't find any suitable boy. Pooja didn't care but Sharavari was obsessed with finding husband. Pari just wanted to find some husband. Finally Parbhat came. Sharavari's father started to call her out. Sharvari stood up. She started to go out. When she entered in hall, her eyes first went to Prabhat. Prabhat was good looking boy. He started to look at her. He didn't smile. She sensed that Prabhat didn't like her. Then Pari suggested Sharvari to inside. Sharvari started to give sweet smile. She wanted to impress him. She began to act strange way. Pari always sensed it that whenever a boy came to meet Sharvari. Sharvari started to act too modern. Sharvari kept complaining that boys rejected her. But Sharvari had rejected many boys. Pari never saw any logic in it. But when Sharvari say no, they had to nod. It was not logical. This time Pari liked Prabhat as son-in-law but Sharvari's behavior was too much. Then Sharvari went inside with Prabhat. Prabhat " You are nice girl." " Thanks." Sharvari started feel shy. " What is your hobby?" " Painting." "Great." Then they both became quiet. Sharvari " Do you like to see my drawings?" Prabhat nodded. Then they went in her room where she kept paintings. Then she kept talking. He just said few words of admiration. She sensed one thing. He was not talking to her. She began to feel he would reject her. Still she kept trying but it was worst day for her. She found it hard not to cry. But she ran into her room as soon as Prabhat went away. She started crying in such way as if someone was died there. Pari came inside when Sharvari was crying. Pari from outside " What happened Sharvari?" " Mom don't you see? Parbhat was so tall. I am so short. He is not going to like me." " Come on. Sharu that is not truth. Many people marry those girls who don't have that much height." " No Mom. You are lying. Height is so important." Pari began to give examples of people who had less height. It was her procedure since Sharvari grown up. Pari just wished from soul that one day she would understand it. It was getting worst today. Pari didn't see any rejection in Prabhat's eyes. But his eyes were not telling any thing. Some people were like that. They didn't show any thing on face. But Sharvari just didn't seem to understand it. Pari " Sharvari every one don't able to show what they feel." " When he reject me." Sharvari started crying. She was so upset. She began to look in mirror. That mirror was short but she was looking so beautiful in it. No one could see her height in it. She just wanted to increase her height. She tried every thing. She knew that due to that height she was looking fat. She needed to look slim. She needed to look perfect just like Pooja. She wanted to look so much great. She knew that she was not that much beautiful. She started crying. Then she sensed that her Mom's voice was becoming loud. She didn't want her father to hear it. Her father always kept taunting her. He always kept telling her that she was so much less than Pooja. She didn't want him to come. She just opened door. She hugged Mom and started crying loudly. But Pari just shut bathroom door first. Pari knew that her husband never understood Sharvari.
Sharvari felt so hopeless for whole day. She could sense her hope was shattered. Still she kept looking at mobile. She just began to hope that Prabhat might call her. She knew that it was possible. Such things never happened in her life. She kept feeling so sad. She just sat in chair. Then Pari entered in room. Pari was so frustrated by this. Sharvari was not accepting truth of her life. Sharvari needed to concentrate on her career. Pari knew that it was just based on luck. Sometimes she sensed one feeling. That Sharvari needed to get over her obstacles. But she was just too busy in sympathizing herself. She needed to learn different thoughts which would show different meanings in life. Pari sat near her. Pari " Sharvari you are not drawing today." " What is use of it? No body is going to purchase it. Those paintings are useless." " But they are so beautiful." " I know Mom but without customers how long can I keep painting? We have gifted paintings to many. Now if I keep painting soon we need to sell them. We can't keep them all in house." Sharvari gave sad smile. " Mom I just wish my hobby was something simple. Like your hobby stitching. You can keep clothes in house and you can even get customers who like to stitch from you. But why don't you try it as career?" " Since it was not easy as it seem. They start complaining when you stitch for them with money. They want new designs. They want this and that. Finally they didn't even agree to pay you as you suggested. They point mistake and make face then pay less." Sharvari smiled. " It seemed you have tried too." " Yes I have tried before marriage but then I took nice job and kept working there." " So? We were happy with that job." " Honestly I was not. I wanted to stitch but I got stuck in totally different computer work. But then it gave money and chance to move ahead so I just went ahead." " So do you feel I can get job like you?" " Do you want to do?" " No." " Then still to your career." " But it is not moving ahead." " But it need some time. I have suggested stitching for same thing but now I regret it. Sharu do that job which you like? No need to run after money. We have enough to feed us and we can always stay in this home." " You are right Mom. What else I need a house and food that's all." Sharvari once again started to look outside. Pari kept telling this again and again every time. Sharvari's painting were appreciated on many places. But they didn't provide money. But importantly they didn't provide enough money to please her Dad. Pari just wished from soul only if her husband was less greedy. It was greed what else it was? They had enough money still he kept telling Sharvari to forget painting. But Pari didn't want her to quit it. Pari wanted for her a boy who really cared for her. Sharvari was so scared of those rejection from boys that she was no longer ready to accept them. It was not about Sharvari's looks even greed was part of it. But in Pari's eyes she didn't want Sharvari to compromise like her and regret it for entire life. Then Sharvari's mobile rang again. It was Pooja. Pari " Pooja is calling." Sharvri took mobile but she was not pleased. " Hello Pooja how are you?" " I am calling you since yesterday. I want to ask you do you want to go to movie with me?" Sharvari was not interested. She needed to find excuse. Then she looked at her half complete painting. " Sorry I need to paint." Pari was confused. Few minutes ago Sharvari was not interested in painting. Pari asked as soon as Sharvari disconnected call. " You are going to paint again." Sharvari " It's better than going out with Pooja. They kept taunting me about my height and other things." Sharvari went in her room of painting and she started to paint again. But it was not like old times. In old times Sharvari used to sense to enjoy it. But now she was just painting her frustration. Pari could clearly saw those pains in her painting. Pari wanted to convince her that she was great. But Pari couldn't. It seemed as if Sharvari didn't able to hear any thing about it. Pari just went in garden. It was nice house. They had every thing. But Sharvari was not happy about it. She wanted to get over her height problem which was not possible. Her height was something given by god. Pari felt from soul many times Sharvari hated god for it. Any way Pari needed to go to market so she went out. She screamed and told Sharvari who said yes willingly.
Sharvari started painting. She was so busy in her world. When she heard knock on door, she was not confused or scared. But she didn't want to leave her work. But then she didn't have option. She had to open door. She stood up and went to door. She watched carefully from window before opening door. She was so confused when she saw Prabhat was standing outside. She knew that she had to open door but on other point she was scared to open it. After all she was alone in home. She must not open door like that. She knew that she must trust him. But still she felt strange kind of fear regarding opening. She said it from window. " Mom is not in home." Prabhat came to window. Prabhat " Ohh..so you are alone." She nodded. Prabhat just came near window. Prabhat didn't smile. He asked in serious way. Prabhat " I want to talk with you." " Yes." He was confused now. " I can't talk like that whole society will hear me." " Don't worry. No one can hear you. Just say what you want to say." Sharvari was sure that it must be no. Prabhat looked around then finally asked " Are you involved with any one?" Sharvari gave him angry look. " If I was engaged then why did I agree to meet you? Do you have doubts regarding my character?" " No..No.. it is a formality. We must do. Since some girls are forced to marriage when they are engaged." " That don't apply to me." Prabhat didn't smile. He just looked at her with concentration and went away. She was so confused. She tried to call him but he was already gone away. She felt that this was totally strange. Then she felt one thing. That he must be involved with some one. But he should have told this to his parents before meeting her. It was so odd. She just felt more upset by this. This boy was so strange. He never gave any expression to her. Then she sensed that he was not giving expression because he didn't want to smile. She decided that she must warn Pari about this. She immediately called Pari. She was so upset when Pari didn't take call. She just never understood why didn't Pari ever took call. She went to painting. Then she was frustrated. She changed canvas and started painting. She began to get so involved in it that she began to lose sense of time. She started to become alive in that painting. She was no longer separate object than that painting. She was part of it. She started painting it with soul on every day. She began to paint but she never sensed what she was doing. Pari entered in house with her key. She didn't rang door bell. She didn't want to disturb Sharvari. When she went slowly inside, she was shocked. She saw that Sharvari was painting one horrible drawing. It seemed as if one girl was hanging herself. It was looking so real. For few moment Pari thought that it was really a girl. Sharvari was painter but she never painted such sorrowful painting. She just kept looking at it with shock. Then Pari went near Sharvari. Pari touched Sharvari's shoulder. Pari " Sharu what are you doing?" Sharvari didn't respond. She just kept painting. She didn't turn back. She kept looking in painting. She just didn't want to look behind. Pari kept looking at that painting. It was horrible. She sensed for first time that something was not right in Sharvari. She looked around painting which her daughter created in room. But she never permitted to watch. Her every painting was one thought of suicide and death. She was suggesting something which Pari understood very well. She wanted to kill herself. Pari was so shocked. She never thought that she was going to need psychiatrist but now she sensed that she needed it. Sharvari was not normal. She was looking at Sharvari when phone rang. She saw number. It was Prabhat's Mom. She was so confused. She could see condition of her daughter but she didn't want to deny hopes of her future. She took deep breathe and went in kitchen. She just stop seeing her daughter's face in that painting. It was so horrible. Sharvari was not turn towards her but she could easily imagine it. She began to control herself then She talked. " Hello.." " Actually I called you to tell you that we can decide date of marriage now if Sharvari is ready." " Sharvari?" " She is not ready.." " No..no she is ready but she need some time. I mean she needed to complete her drawing then she will be free." " Ohh you are talking about date of marriage. We also need to wait for our relatives. We will keep it after six months." Pari smiled with relief. " Great." " But Prabhat will come to meet today." " No..no..Sharvri is going to be in home. She went away with paintings." " Okay. Then he will come tomorrow." " Perfect. See you." She disconnected mobile and ran in Sharvari's room.
Sharvari was so busy in that painting that she totally forgot everything. She didn't want to hear any thing. She was not in real world. Pari started to tell her every thing. But nothing was going in her head. Now Pari was tense. She needed her daughter to be normal. Pari tried to talk her but nothing was working. She sensed one thing after looking around in room. She needed doctor now. She was scared. Sharvari never did any thing like that it was worst. Pari didn't want to tell this to husband. It was so wrong. Her husband never cooperate with her. She decided that she must call her family Doctor. She knew Doctor would help her. She decided that she had to call Doctor. She called Doctor and told him every thing step by step. Doctor gave her another number. Doctor " I can't help you much in this situation. This is psychiatrist. He is my good friend. He would help." Pari " Thanks." " Call him immediately. Don't wait." " Okay." Pari called that Doctor. That Doctor heard every thing. Finally he said that he would come. After that Pari tried hard to tell Sharvari her trouble was over. Prabhat was ready to marry her. But Sharvari was not ready for hear any thing. She was just painting without stopping. Pari started to even pull her out of that seat. But Sharvari became too heavy. She just couldn't move her. Sharvri kept painting that canvas. Pari started crying. Then door bell rang. A doctor came inside. He was alone. Pari was so confused. She expected nurses or ambulance. Pari " You have to take her with force to hospital." Psychiatrist started laughing. Psychiatrist " She is not that sick. We just need to wait for some time. She was stuck in her thought in that painting. We don't need to disturb her. Let her finish that painting. Until then you can tell me case." Pari nodded. They both sat in room. Pari told him every thing. Psychiatrist " So that boy rejected Sharvari?" " No..no..he said yes. In fact he is interested in marrying her. He wanted to meet her today. But I told his Mom to shift it on tomorrow. But you must do something. I beg before you." " Relax. I will handle it. She will act fine tomorrow. But you must keep her treatment for few days." Pari nodded. Sharvari finished her painting and stopped. Then Psychiatrist started talking with her. Sharvari was confused. But then slowly Doctor started talking with her. He chatted with her for long time. Then he told her to take those medicines. But he told her that she would sleep due to it. Sharvari nodded. She felt little bit relaxed. She began to understand him. He was telling her that her weakness was becoming bigger in her mind than it's original strength. She began to see in mirror again. She was not that much good looking. She began to see mirror. She started to observe herself. She was not that short. But still then in few moment she started to feel sad. She knew that it was not working. But then she sensed that Doctor was going to help her. She was going to be okay. But her first meeting with Prabhat was biggest task in life. Next day she started to become prepared. She began to talk with psychiatrist. With help of psychiatrist she managed to control herself. That meeting went well. After that Prabhat started meeting her. Slowly she developed different strategies to handle her fear. She sensed one thing that she did best thing by going for counseling. She began to paint again. She began to enjoy life. She was turning into normal person again. She was short in height but she was tall in confidence. She never felt brave enough to tell this to Prabhat. But as soon as Psychaitrist suggested that she was okay, she got married. She began to move ahead but one day she managed to developed faith in Prabhat. She told him all. Prabhat " Actually I feel many times that I want to express myself. It stopped since death of Dad. Will this Doctor help this too?" "Sure." From that day their life became perfect and normal. Sharvari understood that there was never weakness in her body. It was weakness of mind.
The End
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