Sudden fear in life
Dilip was counting turns carefully. He was so confused. He kept road again and again on google map. He started looking at it again and again. He sensed one thing that he must had took some wrong turn. He looked around. He felt one thing that he had not read map properly. He needed help of some person. He looked at that bag which was near him. It was full of cash. He couldn't stop now. He was so confused. He decided to call his friend. When he heard a scream, he looked ahead there was a woman on road who was screaming with pain again and again. He didn't understand what was happening. He was so confused. He knew that he had to go out of car but he had bag full of cash so he decided to drive ahead. He kept looking behind when he sensed that he took wrong turn. He looked ahead but it was too late. He was going in valley. He went down. He was so shocked. He wanted to stop his car. He started to fall then he heard voice of screams behind. It was clear that some one was screaming. But he was no longer watching it. He was screaming himself. He was falling. Then he started to holding on some thing. He was expecting pains when he suddenly felt tap on his shoulder. It was his wife Trupti. " Once again you fall asleep while watching T.V" Dilip rubbed his eyes. "T.V?" He looked ahead some strange talk show was going on. He was not interested in any one out of it. In fact he didn't know any one out of it. Trupti switched off TV. Trupti " You must not watch such program on T V which give you such worst nightmare." " It is not about Program. I don't even remember it." " Ohh really!! When did you scream like that last time?" Dilip was so confused. Dilip " I never scream like that." " Since you never watch wrong things on TV." Dilip just start laughing. Trupti always wanted to become winner in every argument. Dilip decided to let her be winner. He was planning to romance when suddenly Akunsh came in door. Akunsh asked in scared voice " Daddy why did you scream?" " Nothing sweet heart you Daddy had bad dream." " Daddy are you watching some horror movie on TV?" This was too much. His son was repeating his wife. " Did you taught him this?!!" " No why did I taught him that?" " Teacher told us not to watch those horrors at night so that we will not scream and sleep peacefully." Trupti started laughing. Dilip couldn't stop laughing himself. They all started laughing. Dilip was so happy to have his perfect family. He worked hard to get this family. He remembered those days and nights when he used to work to get this beautiful house. He was use to feel that he would never get it but he got it all. His hard work gave his success in life. He worked on every day to get things but finally he got it all. But he was so confused that why did he getting this nightmare after settling in such good home. He never had such nightmare before. He suddenly felt that it might be premonition. He was so scared of that thought. He didn't want to die now. Specially when his whole family was dependent on him, he began to feel so scared. He just wanted them all to be safe. He suddenly remembered that advertisement of Insurance. He was sure that it would help them. He thought that it might make his feel safe. He suddenly began to discuss it. " Trupti don't you feel that I must make life insurance." Trupti looked upset. Trupti " Why?" Akunsh " Because it will useful if Daddy die. But Daddy I don't want you to die? Please promise me you will not die." Ankush started crying. Dilip started laughing. Dilip " It is not about dying. It is sort of saving. A investment. And I am not going to die. I am perfect." Trupti suddenly began to relax. " You are right I am over reacting. If you want to make then just go ahead and make one insurance. You don't need to feel tense." Dilip smiled. He suddenly felt relaxed. His mind was at peace again. He felt that he just needed on Insurance thats all.
Next day Dilip got ready. He did every thing on time to go to Insurance office to inquire about policies. But Trupti's best friend turned out to be Insurance agent so they decided that they would do it all next Sunday. Kids would play together. It was perfect thing for Dilip. But then as soon as he went out next day to go to office he felt so tense. He mostly took car to his office since he was owner so he could easily manage a place to park car. But today he felt so scared to drive. He suddenly began to remember that dream. But then he remembered that he was his own boss and in that dream he had one boss. So it was totally false dream. He was so shocked by it that he didn't sense it was false. He smiled at himself and started going to car. He was about to open his car door with key. When he suddenly sensed some car was coming too near him. He just ran for his life and hide behind car. He felt so relaxed. He just knew one thing that this car was about to hit him. When he heard Trupti's voice. Trupti " What are you doing? Why are you hiding behind car? As if some money lender is going to catch you. Have you taken loan?" " Loan?!! Can't you see that car was going to hit me?" Trupti started laughing. " This is too much. It was far away from you. Come sit in your car." " Can you watch carefully and see to it that car must not hit me?" " Are you joking?" " Tell me are you ready to do that?" Trupti was confused. But she nodded. Dilip smiled. He went near car again. He was so tense. His keys felt out of his hand twice. He sensed so tense. Finally he used keys and started his car. He was so tense while driving. He felt as if he was moving in volcano. He was so careful. He was driving so slow that every one was keep using horn from behind. He just let all move ahead of him. He didn't care. He just wanted to be safe. He was driving very carefully on every lane. He was driving so slow that he began to sense that he was losing so much time. Every driver was looking at him with suspicion. Finally one even screamed on him for his slow driving but he didn't dare to increase his speed. He just convinced himself that it was his right. Then his mobile started to ring. He parked at corner and took mobile. His employee " Boss where are you? Clients are waiting for you. I have handled many but few just want to talk to you. I have even called at your home. Madam said you left one hour ago. Where are you?" " I am driving. " " At very slow speed. I will tell you about it later on. Now can you do one thing for me?" " Sure you are Boss?" " Okay take my address and send peon to take my car. I will leave it here and come by taxi." " What happened? Some thing wrong with car? " " Just do as I say don't argue." He screamed. " Relax Boss take it easy. I will send peon and give snacks to clients. Just hurry up." " Okay." Dilip went out of car. He was so glad that he kept spare key of car in office. He was so scared to drive. He just managed to stop Taxi. He started ignoring road as soon as he sat in Taxi. He was too scared. That Taxi driver managed to take him properly to his office. He paid and immediately went in office. Slowly he got busy with his work. He began to feel relaxed. He managed to get more clients on each day. He was so happy. Soon he managed to forgot his fears in thought of success. He was so happy. Peon brought car but he told him to keep that keys back on place. " I will not drive for few days." " If it take you so long by driving to reach never drive I feel running is better than it." Every one in office laughed. But Dilip was so tense. He didn't like their joke so he just changed subject. He was so tense. He sensed some thing was wrong. He knew that he was not acting normal then he remembered his insurance policy. He felt that he would become normal after taking it. He began to plan a trip with his family after this success. He was so happy about it.
Dilip went back in Taxi again. Taxi seemed to suit him more this way he could work on lap top while traveling. When he returned home, he gave this excuse to Trupti for not using car. She seemed to convinced by it. She was first person who believed his lie. He felt sad for fooling her. But he didn't want to give her any tension when it was not needed. He began to tell himself that after signing that contract of Life Insurance he will be relived. But he was always tense. He just didn't understand his tension. He tried to smile and act normal but he could see questioning look in eyes of his family. They all sensed that he was tense about something. But he kept smiling. Finally one day Akunsh asked " What happened Daddy? Are you sick?" " No..I am fine." " Then why are you looking pale?" " Nothing sweetheart I am just fine." Trupti joined the conversation. " No you are not fine. I was planning same thing to ask." He gave weak smile. " No need to worry. We are going to do check up for Life Insurance Policy." " But honey if you are not feeling okay. I insist that we must do check up now." " Daddy Mom is right. Please do it." Trupti " Heart attack will not wait." Dilip began to feel tense now. Dilip " Fine I will go to Doctor." Next day he took one day off. He went to Doctor with Trupti after dropping Akunsh to his grand parent's home. They both were so tense. Doctor began to check him. Doctor " Your blood pressure is little high but nothing risky. But I like to know are you tense about any thing?" " No.. I am tense that one day I will die." Doctor started laughing. Doctor " One day we all are going to die. I want to know your real tension." " I mean I will die young and my family will remain without security." " Ohh so you are scared for family." Dilip nodded. Dilip " Actually not just family. I am tense about every thing. I just don't understand it." Doctor " Fine..fine just relax. I give you some tablet. Try them for two days and then come to me." Dilip nodded. Dilip " And tests?" " What test? You are fine. You are just in stress. You need to feel sure that your family is safe. You need to believe on their own capacity to survive. I mean your wife is educated woman she could feed her son. Don't you feel sure about it?" " Getting job is not so easy?" Trupti " But you have business. If you feel so tense about it then I will join your business." Dilip smiled. He liked this idea. Doctor " Great problem solve. " Dilip started getting upset again. He didn't want his son to stay without mother. Dilip " This is not right. Ankush can't stay without his mother." He was so tense again. Doctor " Now relax. She is not going to keep your son alone some one can stay with him." " No..No.." Trupti also didn't seem convinced. Trupti " Doctor that doesn't sound right. I feel my son need to me and Dilip is just fine. If situation arise I will learn it, why need to tense regarding it?" Doctor " Do as you please. Dilip is fine. Still if he didn't feel okay then he might just do this test to keep peace of his mind." Then Doctor gave a list of tests. Dilip nodded. Then they immediately went to another Doctor. Dilip just didn't like visiting those Doctors one after another. He was getting tense due to it. He didn't want to hurt his health. He felt so scared of catching other infections. Dilip " I think we must get face mask." Trupti was confused. " Why?" " We might get some sickness while walking here." " Come on. You are not visiting Doctor for first time. You never got sick before." " I know but there is always first time for every thing." Trupti was so shocked but before she could say any thing. Their number was called. Dilip needed to understand every procedure in those test. Dilip asked Doctor to do many more tests which he had searched from internet. But Doctor was not convinced. Dilip just began to argue with him. " You can't say no to me. I am paying you." " We will not do test without proper instruction of Doctor." " But I am paying." " We are not here to grab money." Trupti could here anger in Doctor's eyes. She stopped Dilip. Trupti " He is upset due to sickness just do those tests which will be written there.
Finally Dilip came out. Dilip " Why did you stop me from arguing? I wanted full physical test. I don't want to save money." " Stop it. You know very well that it was not about money. They didn't do test on any one like that." " But I am so scared." " Of what? Sickness?" Suddenly Dilip sensed a car is coming. He literally ran behind. Trupti " My god you are scared of every thing. I think you are scared of death." " May be? I don't know that nightmare started it." " Nonsense a nightmare can't start it. There must be something else. Just tell me what happened." " Nothing. Every thing is perfect." " Did any one died in your office at young age?" " No. Nothing like that happened every one is healthy and perfect. " "Then why are you so scared?" " I don't know." " This is so strange." Trupti was so upset. She wanted to use her car but her husband was not ready to drive. She never went in driving school. Trupti " I feel that I must learn driving." " Never think of it. If something happen to me, you are only hope of Ankush." " But why did any thing happen to you? Are you completely mad or you are just trying to irritate me? This is some kind of joke right?!! You can't sudden began to feel scared of every thing in few weeks. Can you? I mean few days ago. We enjoyed your birthday. You were driving your car with us. Then you called your friends and you went on long drive. Did something happen on that time? Tell truth for god's sake. Did you hit some one on road?" " Are you out of your mind? Don't you remember how happy I was when I returned. Do you feel I can be that happy after killing some one?" "Sorry Sorry, I am wrong. I just want to understand your fear." " I don't think you are understanding my fear. You are getting more imaginative this way you will be more mad than me in few weeks." " Then why are you feelings so scared? I mean there have to be a reason." Dilip " I know but I don't see one." They both sat on corner. They didn't want to discuss this before Ankush. Trupti " I don't feel just signing Life Insurance Policy is enough for us. Do you feel?" Dilip was so nervous. He could clearly see frustration was developing even in his office. He took vacation for sickness. He was boss they all wanted him. After visiting his family Doctor he just forgot count of those days on which he was taking vacations. He never looked at date. It seemed like yesterday to him. That he took one day off. He was concerned just about his health. He supposed to do that Life Insurance Policy but he just didn't know if this help. Dilip " When did we suppose to make Policy?" " Tomorrow. I called them to tell them we need time. " Dilip was so confused. He nodded. Trupti "Start going in office from tomorrow or I will go. You can stay home with Ankush." Dilip was confused but he nodded. Trupti " I think you need a doctor." Dilip smiled." I am glad you sense it. So which Doctor you preferred?" " A psychiatrist." " What? You feel I am mad." He started screaming on her. Trupti was so angry. " No I am not mad to suggest this. From tomorrow you can stay in home and I will go to office. We need money to pay bills. Don't we?" Dilip was so confused. He suddenly stopped screaming. He agreed. Then Trupti stopped Taxi. They went home. From that day he started staying home. He wanted every thing to be perfect. He kept cleaning every thing. He kept best care of home. He even learned cooking step by step. He didn't trust cooking of cook. He slowly managed to clean cooking. He thought that it was best but slowly it seemed worst. Ankush started screaming from first day " Daddy what is this? This is tasteless." " But this is healthy." "Where is our cook?" " I don't want her. " " Why?" " She put too much sugar and oil." "And you cook tasteless. I will vomit if I eat this." He started screaming on Ankush about eating. Slowly it turned in worst way. Finally he hit Ankush. Then every thing turned in to hell. Ankush locked himself in room. He kept screaming and crying. Slowly every one started to hear it. He could easily sensed that neighbor heard it. Then watchman came with excuse. Dilip just told him all. Then every one tried to convince him. Some tried that food. Every felt that it was so. They convinced Ankush to come out after apologizes from Dilip and promise that he would never cook. Dilip was so confused. He just kept sitting in his room. He just wanted to every thing to be healthy.
Dilip didn't move out of his chair. He looked around. He saw his kitchen. Yes it was his kitchen now. He never went to office. He just remained in home. He saw spotless kitchen. He did every thing to make it look good. He poured every disinfectants on every corner in kitchen. He had to give wonderful look but then he felt that he did it too much on some points. He saw scratches on floor. He started cleaning but he felt that he did too much. He started to look at himself. He was sitting with apron. He sensed that he was far different person than what he was. He didn't understand that why he was doing that job which he never good at. He remembered frustration of Trupti. But then he felt that she might be okay without him. He started crying. He didn't sense how long he kept crying that since when Trupti screamed his name, he came to sense. Trupti switched on lights. He was so shocked when he sensed that it was night. Dilip started crying loudly. " I want to turn back. I am so scared of every thing. I want to join office." Trupti came near him. Trupti " Just relax. You can go to psychiatrist and solve your problem even now." Dilip looked confused. But he nodded. He went in bedroom. He slept on bed. He didn't woke up until sunlight fall on his eyes. He looked around. Trupti came near him. Trupti " Are you alright?" " I am just fine." " You didn't woke up for dinner. I have called Doctor." "For what?" " You are not fine." Then Doctor came. " His blood pressure is high. I just tell you one thing. Go to psychiatrist you need one. Look at your self Dilip. You need one psychiatrist. Any one can tell that to you." Dilip nodded. From that day Dilip started to take bed rest. Even Ankush came to him. Ankush felt that he was responsible but he convinced Ankush that it was his mental problem. One day his employees came. They even looked so sorrowful. " Boss, go to that psychiatrist and come back. Office is not like before without you. Madam is in so stress. She wanted to stay home and take care of Ankush. In fact she was even planned to start some new work on computer when this happened. She is interested in working on computers. You need to give her that space." Dilip nodded. After that he went to psychiatrist as soon as his blood pressure stabilized. He was so scared. He just kept looking at his hand every time. He didn't want to create eye contact with any one. He just kept looking at his hands. He was so nervous. He felt so scared from soul. He was so scared when receptionist called his name. He went inside. That psychiatrist was not scary fellow as he assumed. That psychiatrist was nice friendly fellow. Dilip started to discussing things. He told him every thing. Dilip " I was living normal life and suddenly began to feel scared from mind." " Actually you are suffering from Generalized Anxiety Disorder." " But why?" Trupti " Yes Doctor but why? We have lived nice normal life." " Can you tell me about your childhood?" Dilip started talking. It was nice childhood until his Uncle died suddenly in age of forty. Psychiatrist " What is your age?" Dilip " Forty." Dilip started laughing. " I can't feel scared just because I am forty." Psychiatrist smiled. Dilip " You mean I can?" " Yes you can. Your mind can match any thing. It matched age with death." " But he died due to cancer and I was scared of car." " Mind don't match always things with logic. Try to understand. Your mind just manage to match one concept that is death." " This is totally strange." Psychiatrist nodded. " Mind is great creation of god but also complicated but don't worry. I will cure it. You will soon able to go to office again." Dilip and Trupti both took breathe of relief and started laughing again. One thing was clear Dilip like office and Trupti hated it.
The End
Dilip was counting turns carefully. He was so confused. He kept road again and again on google map. He started looking at it again and again. He sensed one thing that he must had took some wrong turn. He looked around. He felt one thing that he had not read map properly. He needed help of some person. He looked at that bag which was near him. It was full of cash. He couldn't stop now. He was so confused. He decided to call his friend. When he heard a scream, he looked ahead there was a woman on road who was screaming with pain again and again. He didn't understand what was happening. He was so confused. He knew that he had to go out of car but he had bag full of cash so he decided to drive ahead. He kept looking behind when he sensed that he took wrong turn. He looked ahead but it was too late. He was going in valley. He went down. He was so shocked. He wanted to stop his car. He started to fall then he heard voice of screams behind. It was clear that some one was screaming. But he was no longer watching it. He was screaming himself. He was falling. Then he started to holding on some thing. He was expecting pains when he suddenly felt tap on his shoulder. It was his wife Trupti. " Once again you fall asleep while watching T.V" Dilip rubbed his eyes. "T.V?" He looked ahead some strange talk show was going on. He was not interested in any one out of it. In fact he didn't know any one out of it. Trupti switched off TV. Trupti " You must not watch such program on T V which give you such worst nightmare." " It is not about Program. I don't even remember it." " Ohh really!! When did you scream like that last time?" Dilip was so confused. Dilip " I never scream like that." " Since you never watch wrong things on TV." Dilip just start laughing. Trupti always wanted to become winner in every argument. Dilip decided to let her be winner. He was planning to romance when suddenly Akunsh came in door. Akunsh asked in scared voice " Daddy why did you scream?" " Nothing sweet heart you Daddy had bad dream." " Daddy are you watching some horror movie on TV?" This was too much. His son was repeating his wife. " Did you taught him this?!!" " No why did I taught him that?" " Teacher told us not to watch those horrors at night so that we will not scream and sleep peacefully." Trupti started laughing. Dilip couldn't stop laughing himself. They all started laughing. Dilip was so happy to have his perfect family. He worked hard to get this family. He remembered those days and nights when he used to work to get this beautiful house. He was use to feel that he would never get it but he got it all. His hard work gave his success in life. He worked on every day to get things but finally he got it all. But he was so confused that why did he getting this nightmare after settling in such good home. He never had such nightmare before. He suddenly felt that it might be premonition. He was so scared of that thought. He didn't want to die now. Specially when his whole family was dependent on him, he began to feel so scared. He just wanted them all to be safe. He suddenly remembered that advertisement of Insurance. He was sure that it would help them. He thought that it might make his feel safe. He suddenly began to discuss it. " Trupti don't you feel that I must make life insurance." Trupti looked upset. Trupti " Why?" Akunsh " Because it will useful if Daddy die. But Daddy I don't want you to die? Please promise me you will not die." Ankush started crying. Dilip started laughing. Dilip " It is not about dying. It is sort of saving. A investment. And I am not going to die. I am perfect." Trupti suddenly began to relax. " You are right I am over reacting. If you want to make then just go ahead and make one insurance. You don't need to feel tense." Dilip smiled. He suddenly felt relaxed. His mind was at peace again. He felt that he just needed on Insurance thats all.
Next day Dilip got ready. He did every thing on time to go to Insurance office to inquire about policies. But Trupti's best friend turned out to be Insurance agent so they decided that they would do it all next Sunday. Kids would play together. It was perfect thing for Dilip. But then as soon as he went out next day to go to office he felt so tense. He mostly took car to his office since he was owner so he could easily manage a place to park car. But today he felt so scared to drive. He suddenly began to remember that dream. But then he remembered that he was his own boss and in that dream he had one boss. So it was totally false dream. He was so shocked by it that he didn't sense it was false. He smiled at himself and started going to car. He was about to open his car door with key. When he suddenly sensed some car was coming too near him. He just ran for his life and hide behind car. He felt so relaxed. He just knew one thing that this car was about to hit him. When he heard Trupti's voice. Trupti " What are you doing? Why are you hiding behind car? As if some money lender is going to catch you. Have you taken loan?" " Loan?!! Can't you see that car was going to hit me?" Trupti started laughing. " This is too much. It was far away from you. Come sit in your car." " Can you watch carefully and see to it that car must not hit me?" " Are you joking?" " Tell me are you ready to do that?" Trupti was confused. But she nodded. Dilip smiled. He went near car again. He was so tense. His keys felt out of his hand twice. He sensed so tense. Finally he used keys and started his car. He was so tense while driving. He felt as if he was moving in volcano. He was so careful. He was driving so slow that every one was keep using horn from behind. He just let all move ahead of him. He didn't care. He just wanted to be safe. He was driving very carefully on every lane. He was driving so slow that he began to sense that he was losing so much time. Every driver was looking at him with suspicion. Finally one even screamed on him for his slow driving but he didn't dare to increase his speed. He just convinced himself that it was his right. Then his mobile started to ring. He parked at corner and took mobile. His employee " Boss where are you? Clients are waiting for you. I have handled many but few just want to talk to you. I have even called at your home. Madam said you left one hour ago. Where are you?" " I am driving. " " At very slow speed. I will tell you about it later on. Now can you do one thing for me?" " Sure you are Boss?" " Okay take my address and send peon to take my car. I will leave it here and come by taxi." " What happened? Some thing wrong with car? " " Just do as I say don't argue." He screamed. " Relax Boss take it easy. I will send peon and give snacks to clients. Just hurry up." " Okay." Dilip went out of car. He was so glad that he kept spare key of car in office. He was so scared to drive. He just managed to stop Taxi. He started ignoring road as soon as he sat in Taxi. He was too scared. That Taxi driver managed to take him properly to his office. He paid and immediately went in office. Slowly he got busy with his work. He began to feel relaxed. He managed to get more clients on each day. He was so happy. Soon he managed to forgot his fears in thought of success. He was so happy. Peon brought car but he told him to keep that keys back on place. " I will not drive for few days." " If it take you so long by driving to reach never drive I feel running is better than it." Every one in office laughed. But Dilip was so tense. He didn't like their joke so he just changed subject. He was so tense. He sensed some thing was wrong. He knew that he was not acting normal then he remembered his insurance policy. He felt that he would become normal after taking it. He began to plan a trip with his family after this success. He was so happy about it.
Dilip went back in Taxi again. Taxi seemed to suit him more this way he could work on lap top while traveling. When he returned home, he gave this excuse to Trupti for not using car. She seemed to convinced by it. She was first person who believed his lie. He felt sad for fooling her. But he didn't want to give her any tension when it was not needed. He began to tell himself that after signing that contract of Life Insurance he will be relived. But he was always tense. He just didn't understand his tension. He tried to smile and act normal but he could see questioning look in eyes of his family. They all sensed that he was tense about something. But he kept smiling. Finally one day Akunsh asked " What happened Daddy? Are you sick?" " No..I am fine." " Then why are you looking pale?" " Nothing sweetheart I am just fine." Trupti joined the conversation. " No you are not fine. I was planning same thing to ask." He gave weak smile. " No need to worry. We are going to do check up for Life Insurance Policy." " But honey if you are not feeling okay. I insist that we must do check up now." " Daddy Mom is right. Please do it." Trupti " Heart attack will not wait." Dilip began to feel tense now. Dilip " Fine I will go to Doctor." Next day he took one day off. He went to Doctor with Trupti after dropping Akunsh to his grand parent's home. They both were so tense. Doctor began to check him. Doctor " Your blood pressure is little high but nothing risky. But I like to know are you tense about any thing?" " No.. I am tense that one day I will die." Doctor started laughing. Doctor " One day we all are going to die. I want to know your real tension." " I mean I will die young and my family will remain without security." " Ohh so you are scared for family." Dilip nodded. Dilip " Actually not just family. I am tense about every thing. I just don't understand it." Doctor " Fine..fine just relax. I give you some tablet. Try them for two days and then come to me." Dilip nodded. Dilip " And tests?" " What test? You are fine. You are just in stress. You need to feel sure that your family is safe. You need to believe on their own capacity to survive. I mean your wife is educated woman she could feed her son. Don't you feel sure about it?" " Getting job is not so easy?" Trupti " But you have business. If you feel so tense about it then I will join your business." Dilip smiled. He liked this idea. Doctor " Great problem solve. " Dilip started getting upset again. He didn't want his son to stay without mother. Dilip " This is not right. Ankush can't stay without his mother." He was so tense again. Doctor " Now relax. She is not going to keep your son alone some one can stay with him." " No..No.." Trupti also didn't seem convinced. Trupti " Doctor that doesn't sound right. I feel my son need to me and Dilip is just fine. If situation arise I will learn it, why need to tense regarding it?" Doctor " Do as you please. Dilip is fine. Still if he didn't feel okay then he might just do this test to keep peace of his mind." Then Doctor gave a list of tests. Dilip nodded. Then they immediately went to another Doctor. Dilip just didn't like visiting those Doctors one after another. He was getting tense due to it. He didn't want to hurt his health. He felt so scared of catching other infections. Dilip " I think we must get face mask." Trupti was confused. " Why?" " We might get some sickness while walking here." " Come on. You are not visiting Doctor for first time. You never got sick before." " I know but there is always first time for every thing." Trupti was so shocked but before she could say any thing. Their number was called. Dilip needed to understand every procedure in those test. Dilip asked Doctor to do many more tests which he had searched from internet. But Doctor was not convinced. Dilip just began to argue with him. " You can't say no to me. I am paying you." " We will not do test without proper instruction of Doctor." " But I am paying." " We are not here to grab money." Trupti could here anger in Doctor's eyes. She stopped Dilip. Trupti " He is upset due to sickness just do those tests which will be written there.
Finally Dilip came out. Dilip " Why did you stop me from arguing? I wanted full physical test. I don't want to save money." " Stop it. You know very well that it was not about money. They didn't do test on any one like that." " But I am so scared." " Of what? Sickness?" Suddenly Dilip sensed a car is coming. He literally ran behind. Trupti " My god you are scared of every thing. I think you are scared of death." " May be? I don't know that nightmare started it." " Nonsense a nightmare can't start it. There must be something else. Just tell me what happened." " Nothing. Every thing is perfect." " Did any one died in your office at young age?" " No. Nothing like that happened every one is healthy and perfect. " "Then why are you so scared?" " I don't know." " This is so strange." Trupti was so upset. She wanted to use her car but her husband was not ready to drive. She never went in driving school. Trupti " I feel that I must learn driving." " Never think of it. If something happen to me, you are only hope of Ankush." " But why did any thing happen to you? Are you completely mad or you are just trying to irritate me? This is some kind of joke right?!! You can't sudden began to feel scared of every thing in few weeks. Can you? I mean few days ago. We enjoyed your birthday. You were driving your car with us. Then you called your friends and you went on long drive. Did something happen on that time? Tell truth for god's sake. Did you hit some one on road?" " Are you out of your mind? Don't you remember how happy I was when I returned. Do you feel I can be that happy after killing some one?" "Sorry Sorry, I am wrong. I just want to understand your fear." " I don't think you are understanding my fear. You are getting more imaginative this way you will be more mad than me in few weeks." " Then why are you feelings so scared? I mean there have to be a reason." Dilip " I know but I don't see one." They both sat on corner. They didn't want to discuss this before Ankush. Trupti " I don't feel just signing Life Insurance Policy is enough for us. Do you feel?" Dilip was so nervous. He could clearly see frustration was developing even in his office. He took vacation for sickness. He was boss they all wanted him. After visiting his family Doctor he just forgot count of those days on which he was taking vacations. He never looked at date. It seemed like yesterday to him. That he took one day off. He was concerned just about his health. He supposed to do that Life Insurance Policy but he just didn't know if this help. Dilip " When did we suppose to make Policy?" " Tomorrow. I called them to tell them we need time. " Dilip was so confused. He nodded. Trupti "Start going in office from tomorrow or I will go. You can stay home with Ankush." Dilip was confused but he nodded. Trupti " I think you need a doctor." Dilip smiled." I am glad you sense it. So which Doctor you preferred?" " A psychiatrist." " What? You feel I am mad." He started screaming on her. Trupti was so angry. " No I am not mad to suggest this. From tomorrow you can stay in home and I will go to office. We need money to pay bills. Don't we?" Dilip was so confused. He suddenly stopped screaming. He agreed. Then Trupti stopped Taxi. They went home. From that day he started staying home. He wanted every thing to be perfect. He kept cleaning every thing. He kept best care of home. He even learned cooking step by step. He didn't trust cooking of cook. He slowly managed to clean cooking. He thought that it was best but slowly it seemed worst. Ankush started screaming from first day " Daddy what is this? This is tasteless." " But this is healthy." "Where is our cook?" " I don't want her. " " Why?" " She put too much sugar and oil." "And you cook tasteless. I will vomit if I eat this." He started screaming on Ankush about eating. Slowly it turned in worst way. Finally he hit Ankush. Then every thing turned in to hell. Ankush locked himself in room. He kept screaming and crying. Slowly every one started to hear it. He could easily sensed that neighbor heard it. Then watchman came with excuse. Dilip just told him all. Then every one tried to convince him. Some tried that food. Every felt that it was so. They convinced Ankush to come out after apologizes from Dilip and promise that he would never cook. Dilip was so confused. He just kept sitting in his room. He just wanted to every thing to be healthy.
Dilip didn't move out of his chair. He looked around. He saw his kitchen. Yes it was his kitchen now. He never went to office. He just remained in home. He saw spotless kitchen. He did every thing to make it look good. He poured every disinfectants on every corner in kitchen. He had to give wonderful look but then he felt that he did it too much on some points. He saw scratches on floor. He started cleaning but he felt that he did too much. He started to look at himself. He was sitting with apron. He sensed that he was far different person than what he was. He didn't understand that why he was doing that job which he never good at. He remembered frustration of Trupti. But then he felt that she might be okay without him. He started crying. He didn't sense how long he kept crying that since when Trupti screamed his name, he came to sense. Trupti switched on lights. He was so shocked when he sensed that it was night. Dilip started crying loudly. " I want to turn back. I am so scared of every thing. I want to join office." Trupti came near him. Trupti " Just relax. You can go to psychiatrist and solve your problem even now." Dilip looked confused. But he nodded. He went in bedroom. He slept on bed. He didn't woke up until sunlight fall on his eyes. He looked around. Trupti came near him. Trupti " Are you alright?" " I am just fine." " You didn't woke up for dinner. I have called Doctor." "For what?" " You are not fine." Then Doctor came. " His blood pressure is high. I just tell you one thing. Go to psychiatrist you need one. Look at your self Dilip. You need one psychiatrist. Any one can tell that to you." Dilip nodded. From that day Dilip started to take bed rest. Even Ankush came to him. Ankush felt that he was responsible but he convinced Ankush that it was his mental problem. One day his employees came. They even looked so sorrowful. " Boss, go to that psychiatrist and come back. Office is not like before without you. Madam is in so stress. She wanted to stay home and take care of Ankush. In fact she was even planned to start some new work on computer when this happened. She is interested in working on computers. You need to give her that space." Dilip nodded. After that he went to psychiatrist as soon as his blood pressure stabilized. He was so scared. He just kept looking at his hand every time. He didn't want to create eye contact with any one. He just kept looking at his hands. He was so nervous. He felt so scared from soul. He was so scared when receptionist called his name. He went inside. That psychiatrist was not scary fellow as he assumed. That psychiatrist was nice friendly fellow. Dilip started to discussing things. He told him every thing. Dilip " I was living normal life and suddenly began to feel scared from mind." " Actually you are suffering from Generalized Anxiety Disorder." " But why?" Trupti " Yes Doctor but why? We have lived nice normal life." " Can you tell me about your childhood?" Dilip started talking. It was nice childhood until his Uncle died suddenly in age of forty. Psychiatrist " What is your age?" Dilip " Forty." Dilip started laughing. " I can't feel scared just because I am forty." Psychiatrist smiled. Dilip " You mean I can?" " Yes you can. Your mind can match any thing. It matched age with death." " But he died due to cancer and I was scared of car." " Mind don't match always things with logic. Try to understand. Your mind just manage to match one concept that is death." " This is totally strange." Psychiatrist nodded. " Mind is great creation of god but also complicated but don't worry. I will cure it. You will soon able to go to office again." Dilip and Trupti both took breathe of relief and started laughing again. One thing was clear Dilip like office and Trupti hated it.
The End
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