Wandering in night
Rita was
calculating her steps slowly while coming down from stairs. She developed this
habit since she began to go in this office. She just joined that office. She
started to walk down from stairs carefully. She was walking carefully on every
step. She didn’t want to fall but she wanted to keep walking at same time. She
was feeling so stressed. She was new in this office. She didn’t know much. Her
Boss wasn’t abusive but not even friendly. Her Boss just ordered her. But
whenever she managed to get work late her Boss gave her a look which
managed to tell her that she was most inferior creature of world. Her typing
wasn’t fast enough. She didn’t have computer or laptop. Her father purchased
one but she was never permitted to use it. Her father kept using it. Her father
was selfish man in her eyes but for world she didn’t earn enough so she was
failure. She was trying hard to become successful but it wasn’t easy. Her
typing was too slow. She needed to practice but who would give her computer to
practice. Then she remembered her friend Leena. Leena was so nice. Leena used
to help her in every day but now Leena was married. She couldn’t go in Leena’s
parent’s house without cause. She couldn’t just say “I want to practice
computer” & started using it the way she used to do with Leena. Leena was
her friend. Rita was so frustrated if she couldn’t able to type fast then it
was impossible to move ahead. She needed to do all in home but her job wasn’t
have earning on this point so she wasn’t going to get good salary until she
didn’t become expert & she didn’t get anything in her house until she
didn’t have earning. She knew that her Boss was keeping her on job since her
salary was nominal. Once one person asked for increase. Her Boss immediately
told that one to resign. Her Boss made it clear that they were not working in
great way sell of product was less so they couldn’t get paid. She knew that
sadly it was true. She couldn’t help in selling products of company. If she
could sell few products she might get money. She tried so hard but no one
showed willingness to purchase those products. She was feeling so stressed. She
wanted to feel positive about all things. Still, she knew that her job was
going to prove just meaningless. She kept counting her steps while thinking
about her issues. Finally, she reached to ground floor. She came out of gate.
She stood on bus stop & waited for bus. She wasn’t planning to waste her
money on Cab or Auto. After all she wasn’t earning much. Finally, she sat in
bus. She began to look out of bus window. She kept thinking about her old days
when she was living nice life. Her father wasn’t staying with them. Her father was
staying in village since he wanted all village property. Her grandparents were
alive. Her father was scared that they would give property to her Aunties so her father kept
staying there. She was so happy by that arrangement. Her grandparents used to
come & visit them sometimes but there wasn’t special bond between them
& her father. In fact, her mother was more attached to them. But now her
father got all property so he didn’t go to village. Her father kept staying in
home. He kept taunting & abusing them all. She tried her best to stay away
from issues.
Rita rang
door bell. Immediately she heard her father’s voice. Her father was telling
someone to open door while sitting before TV. If someone didn’t some in few
moments her father would start abusing in loud voice. Then she sensed someone
opened door. It was her old servant. They had one maid. She was working for
them for long time. Rita smiled sweetly. Maid immediately asked “Will you
discuss my salary?” Rita sensed that once again her father didn’t give money
for salary. She needed to discuss. She went towards her father & said “Dad
you didn’t give her salary?” she pointed towards maid. Her father gave angry
& frustrating look to Rita. He showed with look that he didn’t want to pay
it. She didn’t understand what did her father wanted. She said slowly “Give
it.” Her father finally gave money. Her father “Honestly I wish someone need to
value money.” She didn’t say much. She knew that her father was enjoying his
parties & foreign tours. But he had right to enjoy. She didn’t. She just
wanted some money for maid. Finally, her dad gave it. Maid made strange face
& said “This is so less amount. You need to increase. All are increasing…”
she nodded. She knew that she didn’t have much option. She looked towards her
father. He nodded. He smiled towards maid & said “You are so hard-working
person. You work from hour to hour bring money for your home. What does your
husband do?” “He is worker in factory. But now a days there is no certainty of
salary. They can stop shops close factories…” “So right! You are so
hard-working. I feel you deserve increase in salary.” That maid smiled sweetly.
Clearly it seemed as if she was the one who objected salary increase. She
didn’t say. She just kept nodding. Her Mom was busy in kitchen. She began to
call her mom. She told her mom who nodded too. Then her mom told her to come in
kitchen. So, Rita began to drink tea & snacks. It was relaxing moment for
her. But suddenly her father came in kitchen & began to talk about his
achievements which were meaningless in their eyes. They wanted to tell him to
get lost but they knew that it was useless since he never listened to them. Her
father was so selfish man. He kept abusing for long time while standing in
kitchen. She began to feel so upset & suffocated by all. She began to get
feeling that she couldn’t get any peace of mind. She began to go out when she
sensed that TV was still on. She asked her father “Are you watching it?” Her
father nodded. Her father “Of course.” Then her father went out. She finally
managed to get some privacy. She began to tell her mom about her job. She said
slowly “Without earning I don’t feel it’s useful!” Her Mom didn’t say anything.
Clearly her mom was confused. Her Mom knew that finding other job was difficult
most importantly Rita enjoyed this work. Then Mom said “You can keep it until
you don’t get next one.” Rita knew that she wasn’t going to try new job. She
was too scared. She wanted to feel positive but she kept feeling totally
negative about all. It was frustrating. She slowly said “I don’t know. I feel
so inferior.” “Come on! You are trying so hard don’t worry.” Then her father
started to call her mom again. She didn’t have much option so she began to once
again concentrate on work. She was trying hard to complete her work. She knew
that she wasn’t going to get money but she still wanted to do it.
Finally, Rita
slept on her fixed time. She suddenly woke up in her night. She could hear her
father’s voice even in night he kept screaming & talking. Her father was
talking to himself. It was odd. Normally people would consider it madness. But
her father wasn’t called mad. She kept hearing that voice. She suddenly wanted
to go back in her office. She didn’t understand what she was thinking. She thought to go back in office in midnight. She couldn’t do that. She looked towards
herself. She was wearing her night gown. She told herself that it was
impossible to go in office at this hour. But her father kept talking. Her brain
slowly started to pain in strange way. She had enough. She decided that she
wanted to go. She just selected one T-shirt & legging. She wore it &
she escaped from her house without noise. She was so scared when she came on
road. She looked around. Rita didn’t understand how could she cope up with her
life. She was trying so hard. She was working so much. She began to get desire
to go back to her office. She could hear her father’s screams in background.
Her father was screaming on her mom. She couldn’t sleep in that noise. But she
knew that she couldn’t be permitted in office at night. She looked towards her
night dress. It was middle of night. But then her father kept screaming. She
started to get restless. It was problematic for her. She was walking in darkness
of night. She knew that she was walking on road. She was far away from house
but still she felt as if her father was screaming. She felt so relieved when
she saw that she wasn’t wearing night dress. She changed it in T-shirt &
pant. She slowly went towards her office. She saw that it was locked. But she
needed to go inside. She didn’t understand why but she wanted it. She slowly
looked towards security. Slowly she sensed that security guard was sleeping.
She went inside without noise. Then she looked way to enter in office. She saw
one window which was broken. She put her hand & opened it. Then she went
inside through window. She slowly entered inside. She looked towards stairs.
Then she noticed small place under stairs. She slowly went near it. She felt so
happy. She wanted to sleep there. She went in that place & then she slept.
She felt so nice. It was wonderful & perfect place for her. She wanted to
relax & she was relaxing there. She set alarm. Then she went to sleep. She
woke up alarm next morning & came back to her house. She entered in her
house without noise. She was so happy when she sensed no one noticed her
absence. She managed to confuse her mom by creating proper set of cushions
under blanket. She felt so happy. She decided that she needed to do it every
day. She liked that idea.
Rita’s Mom was
watching Rita every day. Her Mom kept feeling as if Rita was acting so strange.
She was going to sleep so early. Her Mom never argued but one day her mom
decided to confirm what’s wrong. Her Mom touched her & she immediately
sensed that it wasn’t Rita. Her Mom was so angry. Her Mom didn’t say anything
since her mom didn’t want her father to know. Her Mom didn’t want any harsh
treatment for Rita through her father. She waited until Rita didn’t came back.
On that day when Rita came from office, she saw her mom was waiting for her.
Her Mom “Where are you going every night?” Rita immediately sensed that her mom
was assuming something very different. Rita decided to tell truth. She told
all. Her Mom kept watching her. Her Mom asked “Are you out of your mind? What
if your boss catches you? Your boss might assume you a thief & gave you to
Police.” Rita didn’t say anything. Rita was so tense. Rita “I just wanted to
relax.” Her Mom kept looking towards Rita & then her mom said “I feel you
need to visit psychiatrist.” Rita didn’t say anything. Then her mom found out name
of psychiatrist with help of her friend. Her mom “Don’t tell Dad about it. I will
handle all.” She nodded. Then Her Mom fixed appointment. Her Mom lied to her father
on that day. Her father didn’t when they decided to went out. But he couldn’t
object. So finally, they went to psychiatrist. Rita wasn’t slept for sometime
since her mom didn’t permit her wandering in night. Rita felt so sad. Then finally
they visited Psychiatrist. Psychiatrist talked with Rita. Finally, he called
her mom. “Her father is major problem here. She is sleeping in that office
since it reminds her of house of her grandparents.” Rita didn’t sense it but
while talking to Psychiatrist that information came out. Rita felt so sad. Her Mom
wanted to cry too. But Psychiatrist told them that he would teach Rita how to
handle all. For sometime Rita was given medicines. After psychiatric treatment
Rita began to feel better. She learnt to ignore her father. She started to
enjoy her work. Most importantly she slowly began to take interest in man who
stayed next door even when her father objected. They started chatting &
they soon decided to get married. Her Mom encouraged it. Rita was so happy. Then
one day psychiatrist stopped her treatment. After sometime she got married
against her father’s wishes. Her husband wasn’t rich but she was enjoying her
life & most importantly she was no longer cared about her father’s anger or
his screaming. That treatment brought her out of that nervousness.
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